#me??? contributing art to the fandom??? more likely than you'd think !

[crayolacoloredart]

sips tea innocently. hi there super paper roblox fandom. how's it going???

[loppiopio]

i've been sitting on this post for a few days now and it's literally just, me making assumptions about kudos i've noticed on fics lately (particularly aci since i've been checking that fic every week for book club these past few months) and this'll make me seem more insane than i already come off but by this point. how much lower can i go?

just going from top to down as of today.

[ShibaLee] i know you from your art on here!! tumblr user shibaleeart i'm happy to see more people in potentially enjoying the stories this fandom has to offer :>

[reiscm] shizuchansmilk?? what are youuu doing here? i didn't know you read shizaya fic tbh and i was surprised to see you here suddenly, relatively recently too. does that mean you just started the fic then?? after at least a year of being in the fandom right? maybe this wasn't from your first time reading it (same) but at the very least it shows you visited it not too long ago… i may be delusional in thinking i could be a contributing factor there because, why now? it's not like i'm the only aci advocate out there but i've probably been the most vocal about it around this time soo… well whatever it is, hope you had fun with it! i'm so curious what drrr comedian shizuchansmilk thinks about hit fanfiction a cheap imitation 👁️

i'm also recognising some of the other names around here like [anonymooose] and [durarasaiki] even though i haven't the faintest idea who they might be. i've just been seeing them lately across different shizaya fics which probably means these are the people doing their shizaya fic dive around this time. i have nothing more to add there i just, think it's cool noticing the same names across fics like yeah, we all feasting on the shizaya tag rn.

[ya_boi_twink] it took me a second to recall where i'd recognised your name from and then it hit me. i knoooow you! tumblr user yaboitwink in my notifs… i appreciate you, and i'm glad you liked the things i made for it c:

[bun_o_ween] oh i know you're here because of mr crapo. i hope you guys had fun with it! i wanna take the chance to also admit that like. the moment i found out you were that sebastian writer i experienced the wildest sense of deja vu. because. i had seen your name on ao3 before. but when i checked your fics there was no way i'd read a fic from you?? so then i realised i must have recognised you... through other kudos on other fics??? dude. i must sound crazy, i have no way of proving this because i actually don't remember what fics these were i just vaguely remember it was either bsd or tgcf? that i was looking at fics for, trying to find something to sate my hunger at the time. and i just remember, noticing your name across like a few of these fics in a row and thinking "heh someone else has been going down the same rabbit hole" AND NOW I SEE YOU AND CRAPO OF SHIZAYA FANDOM HITTING IT OFF it was surreal. like. my awareness of you had zero to do with black butler, i could not have predicted that you would have been the random ao3 user i'd seen apparently enjoying some of the same fics i was not too long ago. wow.

there are like two separate flamingo related names around here [niceflamingo] and [flamingoo] which doesn't mean anything but for some reason they are standing out enough for me to want to mention them. i feel like i've seen ao3 user flamingoo in the kudos of some other fic before but idk.

[Luzki] omg hey!! twitter artist vi_138_ woah hiii funny seeing you here :0 especially like. not so long ago? since i'd imagined you would've been aware of the fandom for a while since you seem more invested in the alts than shizuo and izaya in particular? well it was cool seeing that you'd read this one, i hope ya had fun!

[frogsarefriends] right under that is artist hallucxnating >:O i know they've read the fic already but it was cool to actually recognise their kudo down here, especially since it's like. not recognisable just from the name alone, but you've shared links to this ao3 as your writing so now i know it's you. my impression is that you came into the fandom through slavhew since, i'd connected the dots at some point that you two were friends which. made a lot of sense since i noticed you both started being active around here at the same time lol. but hey!! welcome to the club :D

[7FlyingPancakes7] this is one of the ones i'd noticed earlier on during book club, i distinctly remember checking a chapter while walking home one night (because i do that i guess) then BAM what the hell?? i just see tumblr user mari-lair's ao3 appear down there, totally out of nowhere for me. for context this was a writer from the tpn fandom i recognise from like 4 years ago? idk it's been a while, i didn't talk to them much but they were active in the fandom at the time so i'm familiar with their name. i haven't been keeping up with them but last i'd seen they seemed to be into tbhk with no indication as far as i was aware that they'd shown any interest in shizaya. nothing wrong with that it was just unexpected, so i was just like woah!! how did you get here? i am so curious how they may have come across this fic, was it some rec from a friend? how familiar are they with shizaya? how invested were they in the story and characters? enough to go down more of shizaya's greatest hits? anyways, that was just a fun little small world moment for me.

[psych0tastic] hey isn't this…. axietoh? like, the artist who used to draw shizaya like 5 years ago? what are they doing here so high up the list? 🤔 i have no clue lol i still follow them because i really like their art style but i hadn't noticed their interest in shizaya resurfacing... i suppose they just haven't been too active on these socials in general. anyways their name stood out to me and i was like, wait….. well it's a shocker seeing their name so high up here, were they reading this fic for the first time there or were they revisiting it and happened to have not kudo'd it until then? well anyways, it's nice to see they've revisted the fic within the last two years at least :0 that's cool to me.

[MiyukiWynter] dude i was feeling crazy just now trying to figure out where i'd recognised this name from because i'd swwooooorn i'd seen it from somewhere like as someone on twitter?? i think i was mixing them up in my mind with unrelated (as far as i'm aware) twitter user miiyankhr but turns out they're someone who's fics i've seen in the tags before. i haven't read them myself but apparently they just posted a new one two days ago so that's crazy.

[Dodomka] heyyy it's dodo from twitter, hellooo 👋 they've been the biggest supporter for my deep in the sauce fic tweets and for that i appreciate them very much :3 didn't expect to see them here tbh i wasn't aware of when they'd first read the fic but as i was expanding the list a few times to write up this post i noticed their name here and just thought that was neat. shout-out to them!

[mochi010] there's a user named mochi that has shown up in my twitter notifs somewhat regularly and they have nothing on their account so i have zero clue what they might be like outside from that they've been liking my shizuo and izaya retweets. their handle isn't even mochi so i have very little reason to believe this could be them but idk, maybe? no conclusion has been made here. well i already spent time writing and cleaning up the paragraph, guess i'm leaving it in.

shout-out to [ouiouipussay] and [ramenflavorpacketsnorter420] just for having some names that stand out lol. i don't recognise you from anywhere but, i guess now i will if i ever come across those names again.

[Stupidusernamepolicy] i struggled to find you amidst all these names for the writing of this post 💀 had to ctrl+f that shit. but i remember seeing your name here while i was going through the list some days before and being like "oh hey!! it's slavhew :)" but okay there's actually a tangent i've been wanting to go on from here.

outside of aci i've actually been noticing you and hallucxnating double duo'ing under some fics together, like after the story era which i'd reread after hallu reminded me of its existence in a reply, and also sacramental which i had reread because of your reply, lol. i find this quite funny, just like. this visual representation of you two reading and recommending fics with each other. then you talk about it on twitter and more people like me are visiting this fic too. chain reaction of sharing stories :)

ALSO [anonymooose] and [durarasaiki] spotted down here in some of these kudos too!! that's craazy. wow. i tell you guys i'm recognising these names i'm not just crazy 😭

[NotElectricT] this took me a second to dig up again since it's quite buried down that list at this point but the plan i'd had in mind for this post was to end on this one since i saw them kudo it right in front of me (through the vc stream) and i didn't think this post would get as long as it did but... well i already wrote it 😬 but yeah, this is my good friend note! check out this art they made for, still one of their favourite chapters, sharks fly. it's sandwiched in between some squid game au they made for a gift exchange for me..... it's a long story i don't wanna talk about it (embarrassing......)

but what i do wanna talk about!! is how note (referred to as "patient zero" regarding aci book club by the only other patient lol) just decided to read this fic completely of their own volition?? i didn't tell them to do that and for sure didn't expect them of all people to try reading it, ever (they're not really a fic reader) but they just did that, two years ago. and that was like, insane to me at the time because it's seriously so out of their depth guys they don't do enemies to lovers.... they still don't lol. but i was insane about this fic back then with no one to really be insane about it to so i just yelled about it to these friends out of context and i guess???? that was convincing enough to get this one to start the longest fic they'd ever read 💀

i had much fun having someone experience the fic i'd been insane over..... like i'm smiling about it rn thinking about the time i did a live reading of the chainsaw man (as i like to call him) chapter which was so fun i kinda forgot i had a hamilton musical i was supposed to watch that evening... that was awkward. and other chats we exchanged regarding the fic (they were reading chapters whenever they felt like it which i enjoyed because i like pacing these things out) but for some reason (i think things just happened around the time that disrupted the momentum) they never made it past chapter 26 😔 which was tragic to me but oh well....

well i'm am even more insane about this fic now because of this convoluted chain of events that gradually built and cascaded me towards whatever the fuck i'm doing now!! god. i've never made so much, anything, like ever. until now. because both note and rosa (who has not kudo'd this fic as far as i'm aware lol) made the decision beyond my expectations to commit to, a book club. which i organised. and i've been having a lot of fun! so much fun, there's all this wild "marketing" stuff i've been churning out in record fucking time by my standards. i've never felt so creatively fulfilled dude, never finished a thing in my life until these past few months. so that's awesome, and it's in large part because of note having committed to this fic again. so that's some of the story behind that one kudo haha.

and now we're at chapter 49, we're supposed to be talking about it tomorrow, which is today by now since it's 1 am but uhhhhhhh writing is so hard. i was supposed to just be cleaning up this draft i'd written like 5 days ago? i am now very hungry. there's actually more i'd drafted up from here just from more names i recognised as i kept expanding the kudo list that day buuuut i'm fuckeeeen cutting this off right here. i need to stop. the end.

[prettyboykatsuki]

ohhHh hi it is specialgradefckr from the other day! asking on anon because my main blog is in a completely unrelated fandom that i've totally lost the love for lmao.

honestly it was such a mood seeing your reaction bc YES. it was weird!! it was DIFFERENT! it was Some Kinda Mood going on in that fic!!!

sometimes you just. get a neat little idea. a little corner with all these nooks and crannies to mess around in. you light up and you just GO. and what comes out of it seems kinda weird, definitely not what you'd normally write but GUESS WHAT!!

this world has a place for funny little fics! weird stuff!! what is the POINT of being a writer if you are not making your dolls take off their clothes and smash after a suicide attempt and discussions of sexual slavery???

i actually came across your work wayyyy back when i first got into jjk. i read "How To Be A Dog" and i still don't know what to say about it.

the best way to describe my feelings towards that fic is that it's like i got there late to the party. there's some meat left on the bones i haven't eaten. i don't think i've gotten everything out of it.

for example, i had to re-read some sections over again to fully parse what was going on with the reader's curse (i think it was a snake and i am saying that from memory, scout's honor). and the fic spends a lot of time in gojo's POV, which I very much enjoyed!

but most fanfics, especially reader-inserts, stick to the reader POV and are written to be much more immediately digestible than other forms of fiction. you know the characters, you know the setting, let's get to the MEAT of it.

but your fic was like, the type where you really need to Pay Attention to each and every line, because each line does contribute something distinct to the characters or tone. it was so DENSE and i was NOT prepared to run into that while cheerfully looking for noncon gojo/reader porn skjfhglhdsg.

it's rare to find a fic that goes that hard. like if you want your fic to be That Deep you gotta commit to it, you know? and you don't have to do that for a fic to be good or enjoyable, you just do it For The Art, because you see what the fic could be and you want it to be that way. kudos to you.

it was an amazing work of fiction. maybe one day i will have the attention span to read the whole thing and actually feel like i'm understanding everything and the fic will stop haunting me whenever i think about it

anyways apologies for rambling in your inbox, i do hope you don't think i'm too weird lmao i just really like writing and fics. thank you for sharing yours <3

SDFKJSDJKFSDKJ i agree!!

i think like. i love the genre of absurd stuff so much in my media consumption but ive always had a hard time finding space for it in fanfiction. so writing that gojo dark comedy fic was an attempt to make some room for it and try my hand out and it ended up being a person favorite piece despite how insane it is

so i was really happy hearing other people enjoyed it and were rececptive to it bc really whats the point if you can't go and write something completely insane just for shits and giggles you know. sometimes u get a neat little idea and u just gotta go ham on it i agree

ALSO AAAAA !! A HTBAD READER IN THE WILD.... htbad is like. genuinely my magnum opus at least to me. its one of those things where i dont think im ever going to fully recover from it so when people tell me they've read it i automatically feel super emotional.

it is . super high praise to hear that you feel like you get something from it every time you read the fic. im not much of a planner but i really did pour my soul into each and every line of that thing so it means the world that it comes through!!

CHEERFULLY LOOKING FOR GOJO NONCON JHHDSJFKSD WELL YES ... i understand though i think that fic tends to jumpscare ppl in a similar way all the time since its extremely heavy tonally. it was definitely a fic i wrote For The Art if nothing else and definitely a fic i incidentally poured a lot into it. it genuinely always means the world to me to hear good things about it and im so so so elated to hear you talk so highly about it.

THANK YOU FOR READING. AND FOR LEAVING ME SUCH A KIND MESSAGE. i was basically dead on my feet last night trying to do anything but i was extremely happy seeinf this before bed. i hope today is kind to u

[justfangirlstuffs]

FNAF DCA QUESTIONNAIRE I decided to fill out for funsies. Link to the original is here.

1. How did you get here?

That is a great question. Honestly I feel like I stumbled ass first into this fandom and now I'm just kind of here to stay for a while.

2. Why these characters in particular? What was the hook for you?

I think the hook for me personally was the fact that the DCA is, in essence, a caretaker, which oddly enough called out to the inner child in me.

3. How long have you been here?

In this fandom specifically? Only a few months at this point.

4. Have you actually played FNAF sb?

Yes and it was a frustrating ordeal. I got lost multiple times because the map was absolutely useless and at times I got confused as to what my next objective was. But I did manage to eventually get to 6am.

5. If you make content what is your favorite piece you've contributed?

My favorite so far that I've contributed personally is my AO3 fic, The Daycare Attendant's Little Assistant, where you the reader are a kid who befriends the DCA. It takes place before the events of Security Breach and just has a lot of wholesome fun as well as some hurt/comfort.

6. What's your favorite sort of art or fic? What genre/flavor/style?

I love me some wholesome content. Give me all of the hurt/comfort and warm fuzzies.

7. What's your favorite au?

There is this one Cowboy Au that looks like a lot of fun. I believe it's by @castercassette .

8. Do you have any OCs, or have OCs that you are fond of?

This may be a little biased but I'm rather attached to my y/n from TDALA. They are just so grumpy and salty about life (for reasons) and they do not start off on the right foot with Sun and Moon at first.

9. What do you think of the dca's Canon appearance? Scary? Cute? Something else?

I know I'm probably in the minority on this but I absolutely love Sun and Moon's canonical appearance. It's the perfect blend of creepy and whimsical, a combination I enjoy playing with when writing them.

10. What keeps you in this fandom despite the small amount of Canon content the DCA had?

A combination of things. One of which being the there are a lot of fun and awesome people I've met through this fandom in just the short time that I've been here, but there's also a lot of fun and creative stuff to he had here. And there are no shortages of lore and theories revolving around these two.

11. Be honest: if you had to pick only one, sun or moon?

I cannot put into words how much I hate being asked this. But fine, gun to my head I would probably pick Sun because he's the one least likely to kill me.

12. Thoughts on eclipse?

Again, I feel like I'm in the minority on this when I say that I really don't have strong feelings towards Eclipse. Cool concept, the art surrounding him is pretty neat, but that's about it.

13. Thoughts on pre-glitch sun?

So many. And the fun part is I get to explore them in my fic. Before the glitch, Sun is a lot more put together. He still has his overly zealous tendencies but a lot less of the anxiety and clingyness we see in game.

14. Thoughts on pre-glitch Moon?

Another fun concept that gets explored in my story. Moon has always been a bit of a gremlin, but he plays into it for fun. He's fully aware that kids find him slightly more unsettling than Sun but he tries not to let it bother him and instead uses that to his advantage.

15. Do you interpret sun and moon as two sides of the same person, or truly two separate beings in one body? Does it matter?

Oh I absolutely believe that Sun and Moon are two different personalities in one body and good luck trying to convince me otherwise. I don't know, I just think it's more fun that way.

16. What's something in the fandom you like to see more of?

I always love seeing new theories, not just about the DCA but security breach as a whole. The FNAF franchise is fun but dang do they just love to leave things vague and leave it to the fans to pick apart everything.

17. What's something in the fandom you'd like to see less of?

NSFW content. This is merely a personal preference and no judgment to those who do enjoy it.

18. Anything you're looking forward to?

The DLC as well as the upcoming series of books featuring The Pizza Plex.

19. Do you think you'd actually get along with the DCA if you met them irl?

Oh, absolutely. I would probably have to take Sun in small doses because I'm just eternally tired, although who knows maybe he could just spot me a few Sundrop candies and I'd be fine. And if Moon is willing to help me sleep (like just night time sleep and not the eternal kind) then we'll be best friends forever.

20. Free space! Talk about whatever is on your mind!

I'm really glad I joined this fandom. I've been having a lot of fun so far and it's gotten me back into writing and drawing two things that I both agonize over and find a lot of joy and comfort in. I hope to make more friends and fun times while I'm here.

Tagging: @lovelymoonmagic @thewordofm @yes---but---no @theohnocorral @jess-themess05 @jaythejokerfan @sharpmarble76 @certified-handler @feralmoonlight @sleepyjuniper and anyone else who wants to fill this out! I'm curious to know what y'all will answer.

[bastetwastaken]

Thanks for replying back to my message~ I do prefer private massages a bit more to start though I'm not opposed to sharing with people and collaborating things ⭐

Just to give perspective, I'm okay face to face in person with people but online I get a bit (sometimes a lotta bit) nervous, partly cause the delay time between messages can give my head time to tear apart words and color things in shades of worries.

The other issue, I have exactly 0 Puzzleshipping friends and I've not been an active part of a group for a fandom by myself ether which adds pressure, especially with those who's work I admire and really wish I could connect with. Sometimes I feel like I'm outside of group dynamics and get really self conscious but I don't want to cause someone to feel like they -have- to do something.

I used to just hang around a close friend and follow them though whatever they were into but that was years ago and I also went through some life changes. Now I'd like to be part of a community that aligns with my interests and not just stuck in my corner hoping for "some day". I came back to my very first ship here and have been delighted to see how it's evolved~ ❤️💜✨ but I also have still been in that corner, despite trying to comment. It might just me me tho, I've always been by myself in fandoms : /

It's a different kind of feeling to be inside of and participate rather than be impersonally idling and spectating as I have before. You can get sad and disheartened when you repeatedly try and feel like you can't reach ppl and yet see how easily others seem to do it. It can feel like there's something wrong with you even though you know ppl are different and things take time, but that want grows hungry when care catches and latches and can eat you instead.

I just wanted someone to understand the page that I'm on, to know why I might be awkward or missing somethings and need a gentle hand til I grow in those flight feathers, NEEDS EXP PLZ HELP LVL UP 🐦 I want to contribute worthwhile things to whether it's conversing or finally popping out art so I'll keep working attit and I appreciate you being here 🤍🌿

I hope I can give encouragement to you too~ we all need a little kindness and connection, you can come to me too if you need things🌿 You mentioned experiencing a bout of loneliness, I wouldn't mind listening, I like knowing what's going on and we have our rain and shine 🤍🤍 I'm gonna quietly hit up your inbox unless you want to communicate another way = )

I know people use discord, I've seen it but I've never been invited to use it soooo, idk entirely what to do there, you'd have to baby me on that (and I won't always be this long =P)

But thanks again for taking time with me 🌌

We can talk privately friend, that's not an issue ^.^ Feel free to slide into my dms any time!

I understand how you feel, online can be harder than irl because you don't have visual confirmation that the person is free to talk right that second, tone can be lost through just text and timezones, man, timezones. I'm in the UK, so I'm currently on GMT and at the time of responding it's 10:35am. I get you, I have friends in America who are five hours behind me, friends in Europe an hour ahead and a friend in Australia who's just plain living in the future. So finding time to talk can be hard, but we make it work ^^

I think the most important thing is to just keep those time differences in mind, and once you get to know someone better you'll likely realise patterns in when they're around, when they respond faster and when they might be sleeping. It's all a learning experience ^^

I can introduce you to a puzzleshipping server on discord full of lovely people if you like. It's a big server, I won't lie sometimes I get overwhelmed by how big it is, but you can sit quietly in there and just see what people are saying or you can be more active, there's no obligation either way. I know that sometimes we all just need someone to take us to those places where likeminded people are, and just hold our hand a little. We'll sort it in dms <3

My friend, I understand exactly how you feel and you're very much not alone. You're doing something amazing talking about how you feel because that shit is hard. So fucking hard, but look at you, doing it anyway. I've tried to interact with other people, sometimes those interactions just don't go the way I'd like. I've been ignored, talked over and made to feel like I don't belong and believe me when I say that we're not the only ones. It's easy to let those interactions prevent you from trying again, but you're trying again right now and I hope that this time it'll be different for you.

In regards to your other ask- Loneliness can be felt whether you're surrounded by people or not. You could have 100 friends and still feel lonely. You could get 1000's of likes on a post and still feel lonely. Loneliness is not exclusive to any particular set of circumstances, so you're not being ungrateful, you're being honest in how you feel and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that.

I'll wait for your message <3 <3

[onyxbird]

This isn't the post I'd been planning to make about my tagging system, but given the Silence on the Set article that went around recently, I want to note a few things for filtering purposes.

Main point 1: Tagging source works is probably the most consistent part of my tagging system. Going forward, I intend to be particularly conscientious about this for Electric Entertainment shows, so people can avoid those as desired. The relevant work tags for the EE shows I have posted about are: #leverage, #leverage aus, #leverage redemption, #the librarians, and #almost paradise.

I sometimes tag specific characters by name or character relationships, but that is less consistent and generally in addition to the relevant work tag, so the work tags would be more reliable for filtering. I also try to tag actors/celebrities by name for content outside the context of a direct role (e.g., interviews, news about them, etc.).

Main point 2: I will probably resume posting some amount Leverage content going forward. At the moment, that article is still very much on my mind with respect to Leverage content, so I'm not at all sure how much I'm likely to engage with other than intending to reblog a few fanart posts I've seen. However, I wanted to mention that some of that content is probably coming back so people have a chance to filter as needed.

Some additional thoughts on point 2 below the cut.

The allegations in that article are deeply disturbing and disappointing, and they're all the more of a gut punch due to the contrast between the real-life mistreatment of crew and what I took away from Leverage in general and the character of Eliot Spencer in particular. I've certainly rethought my support of the company, e.g., I'm no longer interested in finishing Almost Paradise as I had previously intended, and my habit of going to the EE streaming site to watch an episode on a whim or check some episode detail rather than pull out my DVDs is definitely going to stop.

At the same time, there is a lot of good about Leverage that I haven't found in other shows and a huge number of other people that contributed to making it what it was. One of the things I've struggled to reconcile since reading that article was how people responsible for that behavior/work environment created that show and that character. I think part of the answer is that a lot of people contributed to making the show great, while sexual harassment only has to be condoned/dismissed by relatively few people in authority to fester unchecked (ironically, the same problem embodied by a lot of the series' villains), and that another part of the answer is fandom interpretations improving on what was there. (Plus a bit of "good art isn't always created by good people," I'm sure, but the part that baffles me is how much it seems directly contrary to things I loved about the show and character.)

The fandom, and the amazing art and stories and interpretations that it has generated, is what I hope to keep engaging with. I wish everyone the best in figuring out what you're comfortable with on this.

If you have specific content you'd like to see tagged rather than blacklisting the whole show tag, you're welcome to ask, although I can't make any guarantees (I don't think my consistency with subjective tagging is very good).

[p-receh]

Its understandable people to get upset but sometimes the reasons for them to get upset is the wildest thing imaginable

Sonic fandom:

Like there is a good chunk of people that absolutely hate the idw sonic comics, they read it. But they hate it.

But the complaints sometimes are just ridiculous or plain unserious at this point

"This is such a bad character, they're so annoying" and thats the point.

"This character is so mean for no reason what a bitch" and its a regular character flaw plus you're only upset cause its you favs they're being mean too

"Ugh its so different than the games and the characters are all different" its called a different medium.

"Sonic in prime is so annoying the show is awful" ITS A DIFFERENT TAKE ON THE CHARACTER, HAVE YOU SEEN THE OLD SONIC SHOWS

(No but seriously sonic x was a wild ride and Boom was just a nice slice of life hilarious mess)

Bbb fandom:

"They made yaya dumb!" That isn't dumb thats unhinged did you all suddenly forget the original series.. also smart characters can make dumb decisions excuse me.

"X character have so little screentime" get in line with the rest of us, i love Z character and they appear once in a blue moon. Also heres a magical thing you can do, its called ✨️creation✨️ make fan content the way how you'd like the character to be, the power is yours!

"The animated version is nothing like the comics" say that sentence again :), "animated" "comics" DIFFERENT MEDIUMS PEOPLE, also highly recommend stop comparing things, you'll get an aneurysm

Am i upset they made Gopal a bigger idiot? Yea, its a problem. Am i annoyed with the changes? Yea sure but i've long accepted that it would be highly different since the first time galaxy s1 comics roled around (they had Fang's backstory while the show didn't)

I may be upset but i'm not gonna complain in the smallest of things, those things i can fix myself, i'll write what i want. I'll fantasies it. I'll even draw it myself even if it looks terrible

And its not even just sonic or bbb fandom, all fandoms are like this. The more years have passed the more I'm not taking complaints seriously. I'm enjoying this media whether you hate it or not.

Sorry for the sudden rant to you, you're the only bbb and sonic blog i know. Feel free to ignore and hope you have a great day :D

I dare you want to see my answer when you write that essay. Don't think you want me to ignore it when I know you want to read it, anon. hehe😏

I treat Sonic and Boboiboy a bit different nowadays. In the past I might get over excessive, but I know I said this before, my view of Sonic fandom change recently and I blame internet because of that.

It felt exaggerated but that fandom genuinely damaged my heart and soul for sonic. I'd rather be a silent enthusiast rather than engaging or contributing to the community. It sucks cuz I want to share my love with people, sharing art, thoughts and discussion....

But I cannot differentiate which one is satire, constructive criticism or straight up hate.

Everyone wants to be the voice of reason and It's... Exhausting to watch. I have my pen friend who emotionally broken after he went online debate in the fandom. He even gave up to the fandom and the franchise itself. At first I thought his response was dramatic(no joke), but then I witness the same thing and almost caused me a mental health problem.

Karma I guess🙃

Therefor, for the sake of my sanity, I don't want to engage too much in every fandom.

That's also includes Boboiboy. Different fandom treatment, same war.

I already talked this much on this site more about the fandom anyway. Here in case you haven't seen it

[newtclan]

🌊 Welcome Home.

- This is a blog dedicated to the in-progress story “The Haunting of Newtclan” (inspired by the Warrior Cats series by Erin Hunter).

- Created by @surfledblues and originally inspired by the incredible Clan allegiances generator of @wcsprites— eventually I built on the random concepts and loved the result so much it evolved into its own entirely new thing!! :}

-Currently it is mostly respectful rb's of cat art I admire and take inspiration from for the project-- please please let me know if you'd ever like me to take any rb's of your art down though!! I know some artists don't appreciate their work being used that way & want to be respectful of that. Just shoot me a dm here or on my main <3

- My current plan is to upload comic pages here irregularly, as they’re written. I currently have about 2 chapters (3000~ words) completed in my first rough draft — the end goal is a full fancomic.

- The premise revolves around cunning descendant Slitherstream, whose coming of age leads to her discovery of a hideous family secret. Though her ancestor Newt is long dead, a potent legacy lives on in the words of the Clan, the secrets kept, and — dangerously — in Slitherstream’s ego. As one warrior begins to carelessly wield frightening power, the Clan must grapple with the threats in their midst… the greatest being their collective haunting by a dark, unchangeable past.

- Heavy emphasis on religious themes, intergenerational trauma, and semi-dark comedy.

- Trigger warning that Newtclan’s story explores generational + religious trauma, cultlike structures, psychological abuse, coercion, and a whole lot of murder. Please skip if you’re not comfortable with those and stay safe!

- Important Links:

Read From The Beginning

Allegiances

Info Hub

🦎 (More key info under the cut!) 🦎

- I’m also planning to post more on the characters, universe, and lore to help readers dive in ;) I’m interested in exploring relationships and letting you get to know cats within the Clan— feel free to send in asks and you might get an in-character reply or two… 👀

- While inspired by the Warrior Cats series and containing the Clan structure, this isn’t set in canon. I’ve been inspired by some fandom-created ideas for ranks which Newtclan includes (for example, Starseer and Nurse are both Clan positions.) Newtclan is the only group of their kind, the founder stealing using the structure of her former Clan — though otherworldly events (think Starclan) still take place.

- I’m also aware of the anti-Indigenous themes of the original Warriors series and will avoid that to the best of my ability in Newtclan’s story!! (I highly encourage being critical of the source material.) While Newtclan includes a connection between nature & spirituality, the similar harmful Indigenous trope is not something I want to contribute to. It’s important to treat such subject matter with sensitivity and I intend to. That’s not something I want to bring from canon to here. That said, please feel free to send in an ask if anything comes off as insensitive or harmful, and I’ll be willing to listen and address that!

- Current character designs are made up of both my own creation (though I’m not exactly at the skill level I'd like yet) and Picrews (always w/ credit!) You’re more than welcome to draw them if you want, just please tag this blog and let me know!! I’d be forever obsessed with you :D

- Please bear with the mod as this is my first ever undertaking of a project of this scale and I may take time to develop it :)

- That’s all, thank you for reading. May the tides guide you <3

[missluthorwillseeyounow]

ART FOR AID

So, I think by now, we've all heard about the news in Afghanistan in one way or another. If you don't know, a simple google search will tell you how bad it is. It's a conflict that I have no direct knowledge of, everything I know is from what I've researched in articles and I am no expert, but the whole situation over there is dire, and it's enough to make anyone furious and frustrated.

I have no contacts over there, and no physical way to help (a friend of mine who was stationed there before says that there's really no way to help unless you're on the ground yourself). I've decided to offer what limited skills I've got.

So, I'm including links to articles that have lists of organizations people can donate to to provide relief aid in Afghanistan. You can also donate to any from this post. I've also included links for organizations that provide aid for Palestine (which is still in need following the May 2021 conflicts, the website specifically mentions what people in Palestine need) and Haiti (which recently suffered a 7.2 magnitude earthquake and a major tropical storm and have reported almost 2k people dead and 10k people injured).

If like me, you'd like to help in whatever way you can, please send me screenshots by DM or inbox of donation receipts for any amount you contribute to any of these organizations, and I will take any drawing, fic, AU or gifset requests. All of the artwork will be digital copies only. I'll be taking requests from 10 people, and I'll be doing requests for the next 3 weeks. I will eventually post anything I make on tumblr, but people who make donations get first dibs.

Can be a pairing or a solo portrait

Open to Supergirl, Clexa, BBC Merlin, any fandom that I have a vague familiarity with (though you'll have to give me context for it).

The drawings will be line arts of up to 2 panels, may be NSFW, depending on the content.

Any fics will be one-shots or ficlets no more than 3k (up to M rating).

For people who want to donate to multiple organizations, I will make either a gifset, photo edit/AU, a watercolor, or a painting. However, these will take longer to make.

Here's a link to my AO3 if you wanna know what my fics are like

Here's some examples of my art:

Line art:

Painting:

Watercolor:

Gif:

Photo edits:

I've never done commisions before, but this is really the only way I know to help, so yeah, let me know!

[sailor-spaghetti]

I should make one of these probably. This is NOT a DNI - anyone can follow, but this is a summary for you to decide for yourself if you'd like it here.

Hi, my name is Sailor, I'm 25, and I'm an undergrad student who is double majoring in Social Thought and Political Economy (STPEC) and Women's, Gender, and Sexuality Studies (WGSS) with a minor in African-American Studies and a certificate in Civic Engagement and Public Service. I am a radical leftist and a Marxist who has recently been flirting with anarchocommunism. I hope to go to grad school one day to continue studying and learning, because I want to be a teacher someday (and I really want to help bring the pop university to the US).

I am transmasculine and use they/them pronouns primarily, but will also accept he/him if you're struggling with they/them for any reason. I gay and autistic, but I am also white and do carry that privilege. With this in mind, please ask before tagging me to contribute to a conversation. Not every political discussion is within my wheelhouse, and while leftist and liberatory politics fall firmly into special interest territory for me, I have no desire to speak above people who have more stakes in an issue than I do.

I am a crochet/fiber artist and I'm definitely going to be putting some of my art here. I also intend to open a BigCartel shop (fuck Etsy) for small items I've crocheted, but it's not live yet. I will update this post when it is.

This blog is kind of a mixture of everything. My art, politics, a place where I'll be putting some recommended reading/viewing/book/media reviews (at the time of writing this, I am currently reading Warped: Gay Normativity and Queer Anticapitalism by Peter Drucker and so far I highly recommend it), some miscellaneous fandom stuff, a lot of shitposting, just things I think are pretty or fun (there will be a lot of faerycore and liminalcore here), etc. I don't plan on reblogging porn or anything, but there's definitely some 18+ and 21+ humor here, so if you're a minor it might be best if you just look through my art tag instead of following me. I'm tagging all of my fiber art with #spaghettistitchery, so there's even a convenient tag to work with.

I will gladly engage in good-faith conversations about politics, history, etc., but the key word there is "good-faith". Things I do not consider to be good faith include:

Bootlicking

Playing devil's advocate

Hypotheticals

Tone policing

Peace policing

Liberal and neoliberal ideology in general

Moving the goalposts

Slice-of-the-pie discourse

Anything that discourages solidarity with people who are more oppressed or people living under different conditions from my/your own. Solidarity is a necessary tool of resistance.

Respectability politics

Purity politics - being a comrade does not require knowing exactly the right thing to say, it requires class consciousness and a willingness to learn from those whose experiences you do not share

Etc. This list may be expanded as time goes on.

Unless a post is immediately relevant (current news, mutual aid request, active/ongoing conversation, etc.), I only reblog to the queue so that hopefully this place can be active even if I'm too busy to post. I am a very busy person between school and real-life activism/organizing, and so I might not always get back to you right away if you message or tag me.

If any of my academic writing ever gets published, you also have my permission to DM me to ask for a free copy. If you need help accessing a book or a paper, feel free to DM me and I will use my student privileges to see if I can access a PDF to send you. I hate the inaccessibility of knowledge under capitalism and want to do everything in my power to combat it, and I encourage any other students or teachers on this site to do the same.

Some free resources that are available:

The Marxist Internet Archive - you can access a lot of Marxist texts here, for free, in multiple language.

Libcom.org - Another site where you can access leftist writings, this one focusing more specifically on anarchocommunist texts.

Kanopy - You can watch documentaries for free here with your library card. I definitely recommend using this site and I especially recommend watching Concerning Violence: Nine Scenes from the Anti-Imperialist Self-Defense.

Open Library - If you can't access an in-person library for whatever reason, you can also borrow PDFs for free from here.

Anarcho-Communist Playlist - I didn't make this but I shit you not there's so much here that every time I put it on shuffle I feel like I'm learning a history lesson.

[thedemonsurfer]

5, 9, 15, 16, 17, free space 0v0

why did you send so many a

5. if you make content, what's your favorite piece you've contributed?

I haven't contributed much content yet, so probably my favorite piece so far is my fic Permission Slip? I've never ended up writing so much for a fic before, and I'm trying not to think about it so I don't intimidate myself out of finishing it. Just one scene at a time and all.

There's a lot of things I wanna make, though!

9. what do you think of the dca's canon appearance? Scary? Cute? Something else?

he's baby

15. do you interpret sun and moon as two sides of the same person, or truly two separate beings in one body? does it matter?

I'm pretty sure in canon they're meant to be the same person with a Jekyll and Hyde thing going on. After all, there's no hesitation about what's going on, what Gregory did, etc. when they swap. It also makes more sense from like an in-world perspective, cos why waste two AI by having them be in one body?

However. Instructions unclear, there's two of them now. >u<

I also don't really go with 'truly two separate beings' in one body, though that has its own charms and is a good source of conflict, especially if they're otherwise unrelated AI now forced to deal with each other (I'm currently obsessed with a fic with that premise).

For Permission Slip I've ended up favoring the perspective of like... conjoined twins, if that makes sense. One person who's two people, and who see themselves as such. I like the ideas where the Daycare Attendant was initially one AI that was split either deliberately or over the course of its learning.

16. what's something in the fandom you'd like to see more of?

Fanfiction? more fanfiction for Butters?

kdnfgkjd okay more specifically than that-- I mostly end up reading DA x Y/N fics, and I really want to see more of the Reader character taking care of the robots, rather than the other way around. I know a lot of fics where the Reader has some kind of breakdown or physical injury and the Attendant helps; lemme turn those tables, please!

Also fics where Moon is dangerous but not exactly hostile. I've got a few of those bookmarked and they're always a delight. That disconnect of "okay yeah he broke your arm but I think he was just playing" is -chef's kiss-. I don't know why! It's just a lot of fun!

17. what's something in the fandom you'd like to see less of?

art theft and reposting. like.. come on, guys.

20. free space! talk about whatever's on your mind!

I'm gonna talk more about Sun n' Moon's being bonded thing!

Just expanding on what I said in 16 about them being a person who is two people who is one person.

Cos like! I'm soft on the idea of "you are my other half". There's different desires and goals and motivations that can be pointed at to go 'okay here is where you are separate people', but at the same time there's a degree of mutual loyalty that ends up being pretty much just self preservation. And it's that bond there that really gets to me, and why I can't bring myself to come up with concepts that would pit Sun and Moon against one another.

And hhh for Sun especially I like to go at things from the angle that Sun will cover for Moon. Not really out of fear of consequences for himself, but just like! "I will take care of this". Y'know?

My Sun is extremely unreliable when it comes to dealing with Moon. To him it's like.. things are 'fine'. I've described it to a friend as if the radiator in your car is messed up, so you keep a bottle of water in the car to top it up because it overheats (this was literally the van I learned to drive in, actually). This isn't a long term solution, this isn't addressing any of the underlying problems, and you're probably making things worse in the long run- but it's working, for now. It's 'fine'. Things are handled.

So Sun is certain that Moon can't/won't hurt a child. The generators keep the Daycare lit so Moon can't get out. Even if he does get out, there's only ever staff members or other animatronics around. The latter can be rebuilt, and the former-- well, they signed liability wavers when they were hired. It's fine. It's handled.

Which also means if there's a situation where Sun has to choose between helping Moon or someone Moon has attacked... well, his concern will be for Moon first. Get him calmed down and less freaked out.

Part of my headcanon for my own version is that since the Daycare Attendant's AI isn't fully split, 'Moon' can't be removed without damaging 'Sun' to the point the Attendant would no longer function. Think of it like if you removed an arm and a leg, and somehow that also make your kidneys and immune system stop working. They're sharing core functions; its really only the 'personality' of the AI that split.

FazEnt can't take Moon away, so Sun's main goal is to remain valuable enough to the company that management doesn't decide to replace them. Which Sun is... kind of arrogant about that, actually. He knows they were too expensive to scrap on a whim, and he knows that Moon can't just be removed. So he's a bit less 'one misstep and we're screwed'.

Basically it boils down to Sun would hide a body and or make a body if he thought it was critical to protecting himself and Moon.

[jimmygibbsjrrr]

I have a lot of thoughts about the Slaters

namely, I've been wonderin why the Fairfield Survivors got thrown off the boat in Death Toll

in this panel of The Sacrifice comic, Francis confirms the fates of three of the rescue vehicles:

Image ID:

A panel from The Sacrifice: Part 1. Francis is sat in the rescue vehicle from Blood Harvest, speaking to Louis. His dialogue is as follows:

"Louis, I hate to be the one to break this to ya, but we been heading to the safe zone four times now. Helicopter: crashed. Plane: crashed. Boat: kicked us out and left us to die."

/end ID

the chopper from No Mercy was confirmed crashed in Crash Course, and as for the plane from Dead Air, it was pretty easy to guess (and would have been confirmed in the cut campaign Dam It).

but the part about the boat? that's the Slaters' boat from Death Toll. this is the first time we learn this information.

so...why? what happened?

(more under the cut, ended up writing wayyyy more than I expected over these past few days and don't wanna clog people's dashes lol)

so. let's take a quick dive into the last chapter of Death Toll, to see what we can discern about the Slaters from their dialogue.

the rescue vehicle in Death Toll is a civilian boat, Saint Lidia II, owned by John and Amanda Slater, a married couple. Amanda is never heard in-game, but John's reactions to her can be heard over the radio.

the Slaters are explicitly looking for "anyone out there with firearms". John later adds that "once you get on this boat? Your job is keeping our asses alive". it appears that their motivation for saving the Survivors is selfish from the get-go.

this is undoubtedly true in Amanda's case, however, some of John's lines betray a more selfless attitude. he will berate Amanda for not "think[ing] about the little guy". he will ask, "So what, then? We leave 'em to die? I can't do that, Amanda." whilst Amanda is thinking purely of their own survival, John still feels compassionate towards his fellow survivors. despite this, he says that "I don't want our first act of kindness to be our last", acknowledging the conflict between his compassion and his self-preservation.

so. these are the Survivor's saviours in Death Toll. a conflicted married couple looking for bodyguards, offering to take the Survivors upriver to a military safe zone in exchange for protection.

as for why they get thrown off the boat...well, the easiest explanation would be Amanda.

but, stay with me here, because I think it's a little more complicated than that.

this boat? fulla tension. there's the obvious tension between the Slaters, who we've established seem to fight and disagree regularly. then there's the inevitable tension between them and the Survivors. I reckon Louis, with his generally positive and friendly attitude, wouldn't have much of a problem with them, might even attempt some friendly conversation or something. however, he's about the only one.

the comic fully establishes Bill as caring about nobody except the Fairfield Survivors - the most obvious evidence of this being the words he lives and dies by, "we look after our own". he isn't particularly interested in other people, unless they can help the group out. and he'd likely recognise the unstable and conditional nature of their rescue. while I'm sure he'd try and keep the peace, in any reasonable disagreement or fight Bill's likely to take his friends' side, and if anyone's getting thrown off the boat Bill is going with them. this goes for the whole group, to be honest; I don't think they'd want to split up at this point.

Francis hates boats, hates water, and can't swim, so (and I'm getting a little speculate-y here) would probably be in an even sourer mood than usual on the journey. being as abrasive as he is, plus this additional stress, it's fully possible he could piss off the Slaters enough to get himself (or all of them) thrown off the boat.

as for Zoey? well, I don't imagine a married couple who constantly argues is gonna sit well with her, considering her backstory. similarly to Francis, the situation they're in would make her far more stressed, making it more likely for her to lash out.

Amanda didn't want to save the Survivors in the first place, so while I think that John wouldn't throw them off the boat without reason, I reckon she could persuade him to throw them off if they 'caused trouble' - and they would get into an argument with her far easier than they would with John.

in short: yeah, I can see them getting thrown off the boat by the Slaters after some huge fight or disagreement. I think that's a reasonable interpretation of canon, and definitely an interesting concept.

...however, I do wonder if this tension would really be enough to destabilise their mutual need, after everything they went through to come together.

which is why I'm going to bring up The Last Stand!

I gotta quickly address something before this segment: yeah, I'm totally aware this campaign isn't canon. this evidence works with the fact that it exists in an 'alternate timeline'. also, I am missing a few citations for this section - if anyone can provide them I'd really appreciate it, but just a disclaimer that I currently can't prove some of the things the wiki claims members of the Last Stand Community Update Team have said. here and here are the wiki pages where I got this information. in short - the above explanation is simpler and more canon compliant, the conclusion I draw at the end of this post is backed by shakier evidence but I believe is more interesting, and you can make of all that what you will.

allegedly, members of the Last Stand Community Update Team confirmed a strongly-suspected fan theory about The Last Stand: that it branches off from Death Toll in some way, in a non-canon alternative timeline. as well as this, they allegedly confirmed that in this alternative timeline, the Survivors still end up in Newburg for Dead Air. even without the confirmation, this remains a solid fan theory, due to the constant references to Riverside and re-use of many of Death Toll's assets.

who rescues the Survivors in The Last Stand? John Slater. no Amanda - just John. despite her lack of voice actress, if she was still present John would give some indication of this at some point. it can be speculated that whatever happened to her contributed to the lack of rescue at the boathouse that forced the Survivors to take an alternative route. either way, he ends up at the lighthouse when the Survivors call for rescue, alone, and picks them up.

and then later...throws them off the boat. into Newburg.

what reason would John have to do that? without Amanda, surely he wouldn't have that push, as he wanted to rescue the Survivors for multiple reasons in the first place. without his constant arguments with Amanda, Zoey wouldn't be nearly as stressed. and between the three of them I'm sure the other Fairfield Survivors would stop Francis from pissing John off enough to get them thrown off the boat. in short, less Amanda = less tension, and no reason for the Survivors getting chucked off the boat.

...right?

I'd like to remind you that a symptom of the Infection is paranoia.

what if, in both The Last Stand and Death Toll, John and Amanda are infected by the Survivors on the way to the military safe zone? after all, the virus is confirmed to occasionally be airborne, and I doubt two civilians have completely effective, sustained protection against that. likely the only reason they hadn't already been Infected is because they got out on the water early on in the pandemic, and hadn't come into contact with anyone else since. it's unlikely that one of them is immune, and even more unlikely that they're both immune (especially considering those with XX chromosomes may be genetically less likely to be carriers). wouldn't Francis have mentioned it if their rescuers turned or were obviously Infected? yes, but it's possible that the airborne strain works slower as well, meaning that the Survivors are thrown off of the boat after the symptoms kick in but before the Slaters fully turn. even Church Guy had at least an hour from being Infected to turning, and he was bitten. Newburg isn't too far from where the Survivors are rescued in Death Toll anyway (the burning city in the background of the finale is Newburg), so the Survivors clearly didn't last long on the boat anyway. as a result, the Survivors wouldn't realise it was the Infection intensifying the Slaters' paranoia - they'd just think the Slaters were being dicks. Francis also explicitly mentions that they were "left to die", implying negativity or even hostility from the Slaters as the Survivors were being thrown off.

so yeah. that's why I think they got thrown off of the boat in Death Toll - a combination of the intense tension between the two parties, and the Slaters falling victim to Infection-induced paranoia. but an explanation minus the Infection is equally as plausible. it all depends on what you find most interesting, I suppose, and both feel like they fit pretty well into the world.

lord this is a long chunk o text. I know most fandoms prefer art and fanfic over this sorta thing, so please let me know in replies or something if you're interested in more stuff like this. also if any of this makes sense because I like to ramble.

oh and if you'd like to use any of my interpretations in fanworks like art or fic, I'd love to see it :)

[ashitomarisu]

Okay, I need to vent for a while.

Here is some context: It's been well over six months since leaving Twitter for personal reasons. Therefore, my fanart has migrated over to here and Pixiv (Instagram LL fandom has a fucking stigma with older LL fans like me, which pisses me off and maybe the reason why I went on hiatus).

I've been noticing something during these Love Live niconama/livestreams that is infuriating me. There will be certain streams where they show off fanart. You'd think the LL staff would post fanart from places like Pixiv or Instagram. However, no.

It always has to be Twitter.

Why the hell do they not showcase fanart from Pixiv?! Not sure if it's the majority of LL! fan artists and their R-18 smut but this is becoming a massive hinderance to those who just want to show support and contribute.

Before you retort in the comments saying to go back and join Twitter, let me explain something:

I've had no fun with Twitter (mainly because the bots were always being legit assholes and finding ways to suspend me permanently).

The general environment of that site has gotten worse (it was toxic to the point it made me sick to my stomach to even look at everyone else gloat and GOD I JUST CAN'T NOW).

Twitter is not the ONLY platform out there. I don't understand why it's so NECESSARY to have one. Not everyone can utilize it to his/her/their own means. I've tried twice (TWICE) to use this platform but no avail. When you have followers who have 10x more followers than you do, the pressure builds to try to find ways to increase your analytics.

Maybe...actually, now that I think about it, maybe that's why I fucking hate Twitter. They had manipulated my focus to meet their levels when I'm too far better than that. My goals are set so damn unrealistically high...(i.e.: my idea of making massive Love Live related art pieces of the seiyuus out of spray paint and canvas/plywood or even creating crossover fanart).

[This next sentence proves I have no common sense whatsoever].

"I'm supposedly in a different plane of weird that even the weirdest of people can't handle me. Fine. So be it. I'll just be an eagle who wanted to travel through space but the other eagles think that particular bird of prey would never survive...except that eagle proved them wrong by becoming a constellation in the sky. "

...Okay. I'll stop rambling now. I needed to kill a load off my chest.

[lizziestudieshistory]

Zoomester Studyblr Challenge - Days 18-20

Day 18

Honestly, @terrypratchettappreciation because Discworld brings me so much joy!

Day 19

Being online is weird because it's isolating at the same time as being a community? I'm naturally a shy person so that doesn't help... The studyblr community is lovely though and I'm glad I've got more involved this year!

However, I'm often frustrated on tumblr in particular because of the complete lack of critical thinking and nuanced discussions. It's something that drives me nuts and is a big reason why I don't like getting involved very much outside my little bubble of mutuals and friends. The internet as a whole can be overwhelming (nothing is as bad as Twitter...) and I'm generally much happier staying in my lane talking about religious history and books.

Saying this, I do wish I was more active in the Tolkien fandom, I used to be there a lot as a teenager but university meant I didn't have the time for creating much fan art of contributing to discussions. I miss it...

Day 20

I have come to the conclusion I'm rubbish at this sort of question... Sorry but here you go:

Friends and family - it's soppy but true!

Genuinely well written work - this can be anywhere, but especially academic work. A good argument and readable, but exciting, prose is a novelty and it makes me want to try harder to write well myself

Aragorn's speech at the Black Gates/the Fellowship theme - sounds silly but these work more than you'd think as a pick me up when you're feeling apathetic and want to give up... Very useful and you get to feel cool at the same time

[misterpeterjoshua]

To confirm, I have not necessarily been kidnapped and I'm not necessarily being held hostage. But it's been months since I had access to a bed or shower and my online access to the public, my fans, and emergency funding has been stolen. It's really scary, and really difficult, and really traumatizing, and I hope the authorities catch whoever is responsible and fix the problems as soon as possible

Peter Joshua is my stage name that I use for all public publication, mention, performance, sale, and display since 2016. I am retired from public performance, but I had a fairly successful career in performance art (acting/singing) before the identity theft

While I am trying to take some time off, you can probably find a brief run of my debut play with music, "Ten Thousand Bucks", in a space off Broadway next summer. I'm really proud of it and excited about it, though some things obviously need to be cleared up first. I have an audition listing on Backstage if you'd like to submit for an audition. It has almost been fully cast, and I hope to have a casting director take over next spring. It's kind of a Sci-Fi comic tragedy, or something

Also, my life's opus, my debut abstract contemporary sculpture, "Peter Joshua s Yamaha YPT 210 Keyboard For Sale on eBoy" (2018) is coming to global public auction late this year or early next. I may be hosting the auction on my own, though I hope to receive an offer from Sotheby's or Christie's, who I have been in constant contact with about the sale for over 3 years. I'm very very proud of the piece and I hope it finds a nice home. on affiliation, risk valuation, the indelible value of rejection, shame projection, modern marketing techniques, relativity of taste and morality, the nature of value, satire, representation, mega meta modernism, transparency, our mandate to refrain, and the cost of access

Assuming I survive, you can also likely expect to see an album from me in the next year or two, as well as something along the lines of a fashion line

I gave my life to art and the public. I was viciously punished for it and it hasn't ended yet. I still trust art. Hell, I am art. I do not trust the public or any members of it. From the top to the bottom, I have been exploited, hurt, and abused beyond belief

That's not the fault of my fans, I don't think. Though I don't have the clearest grasp on the scope of my fandom, due to the communications malfeasance. I hope they show themselves soon. I'm really hurting and I need help and I have lived in public for a half decade and I need public witness and even aid

I have made blogs elsewhere. They are instantly hacked and hidden. I suspect a rogue internal entity, though I really have no idea who is responsible. It's a mess. I have called it terrorism, and I stand by it. The internet is supposed to be open access. That's the only good thing about it. My rights are being violated, not in a petty inactive microaggression way, and a very applied active terrifying harmful way

To think that a half decade of my life was stolen, and that I lived through unspeakable terror and trauma, perhaps at the hands of some underpaid deranged tech occultist with unhinged access to an internal mute button. It's pretty infuriating. Though I suspect higher powers are involved, at their own disgrace. I know lots of people don't like me. It's my favorite thing about myself. Between atheism, homosexuality, socialism, and other areas of interest, enthusiasm, and study, I'm bound to pick up some scum haters. That's one of the most exhilarating parts of life. I have no problem or even discomfort with people loathing my existence. It's the human rights abuses, felonies, state crimes and I believe war crimes and applied domestic terrorism that I have a problem with

Anyways, if anyone can see this, I hope you find it to be a mildly charming far more than cry for help. I have attached the links to my public social media channels below. I don't know if they're visible. You may please follow and share my work. I started writing poetry as a way to vent grief, fear, and confusion, and to make a few bucks for food. I am happy with the poems I created in the last 2 years, and you can probably find them in a published collection in the next year or two

If anyone on earth would like to contribute to my survival, I am desperately seeking emergency funds. I need to pay my rent, bills, legal fees, and I need to get off my feet for a bit and heal from some deep physical, mental, psychological, and emotional grief and trauma

Here are my tip links, though I believe PayPal and venmo may be stealing from me. If you send me money, and don't receive a thank you, please notify me somehow as well as the police. If anyone knows anything about the coding bugs, hacks, visibility restrictions, and theft on my public and private communications and financial channels, please report any information you have to the NYPD and FBI. The crimes remain an extremely urgent emergency security concern for myself and many others, and aggressive murder attempt, a hate crime, and an act of domestic terrorism. Yes, it's heavy. And it's really really scary and it's been going on for a really long time, while I have begged everyone I could find or contact to please assist

I have no idea what's going on. It must end

PayPal.me/mrpeterjoshua

Venmo: mrpeterjoshua (5571)

You may send any amounts you'd like, anything would make my day. You may also request a signed print of one of my poems, which I will likely gladly create and send. Make me an offer. The poem prints are not to be resold for profit and I retain all copyrights. Public display or sale for charity would be fine

Members of the public, press, or anyone else may reach me for anything at any time. I believe some of my incoming and outgoing emails are being intercepted by an unknown entity, which is obviously illegal and unacceptable. Between my facebook, twitter, instagram, and the three email addresses here, you should be able to reach me, though I can't always reply to everyone

Instagram/Twitter: mrpeterjoshua

Facebook.com/misterpeterjoshua

misterpeterjoshua@gmail.com

mrpeterjoshua@yahoo.com

savepeterjoshua@outlook.com

I'm sorry to burden Tumblr and it's users with this update. I've been really hurting for a really long time at the hands of some of the world's worst people, and I could really use some help

I hope you all have the most marvelous end of summer and that you're autumn is filled with warmth, bountiful harvests, safety, and peace

~peter joshua