#misery and pain. you know how it is

[just-spacetrash]

the 'what if you played it a little risky' post literally Changed my life but i cant fujkign find it in my blog because its. a tiktok screenshot

[badnew2005]

i’ve said it before and better but literally. clip show “now you’re infecting my memory with your memory, and i can’t even remember my own life correctly” . that’s what happens with roller rink. we Know of course that’s not what happened. it’s Them telling the story, there’s some element of they truly believe this happened, that’s how They remember it, but on some level they’re each aware this is all their fantasies. it’s like. remember when i was cool and nice and successful and you all liked me and yeah i do remember that of course i remember that. it’s warmer and softer. they’re almost fifty and still Stuck. it would hurt too much. they were always destined to end up like this. but remember when we weren’t. it was some cruel twist of fate that made us like that do you remember. i remember! life was Good. we both know it wasn’t. and we both know it isn’t now. but that’s what memories do, you can twist them into something more comfortable. something that fits with your current narrative. “you can’t do this. every time you misremember something you like run the risk of altering reality …. i’m saying like how you remember something sort of like, becomes reality …. no it doesn’t change reality. reality is reality i’m just saying it becomes your reality” so let’s make this our reality. let’s play pretend.

[reikunrei]

sorry to be a sicko freak, but if they do something like have the rest (or some) of our main crew have their own vecna visions, I kind of really really want some aspect of will’s and/or mike’s to be like. either warped memories or just false visions where they’re especially homophobic and nasty to each other. I want one of them to have a vision that starts off maybe kind of sort of like a confession, and then turns into the other being totally disgusted. I want that horrible dread and fear of being rejected for who you love to be front and center. because oh how good would it be for them to have to face that fear and internalized shame and fight against it, assuring each other that the hatred is all a lie

[anaalnathrakhs]

i keep fucking remembering when i was talking with my mom that family reunions were very difficult for me and it would be a huge relief when i move out and far away to not have to be present anymore (like ofc i was mincing my words, but i said verbatim it would be way more comfortable for me to not be there anymore) and she was like :) oh dear you'll always gonna be invited :) you're always going to have your place :) FUCKING ASSHOLE

[bidokja]

so like. was anyone. was anyone gonna warn me that. the "baekyeon and haero" chapters in mystic prince would just. rip my heart directly out of my chest. and then shred it into pieces right in front of me. was anyone gonna warn me. was anyone gonna-

[termagax]

like i think to fish theyre just both people who shouldve died a long time ago and now they arent allowed to. because they need each other. and they both crave that and resent it.

[themochimadeoftaro]

you guys don't understand how fucking normal i am over my own goddamned au, it's incredible how much self control i have and i'm definitely not suffering from wanting to talk about them so much but don't know how to put my (visual) thoughts in words/drawings [shameless lie]

[9th-nueves]

@indigo-constellation DUDE a haruspex route utopian ending fic sounds SICK AS HELL. Please do share if you end up posting it! That one is a truly unexplored concept in the fandom but god if it isnt one of the most interesting

[pepprs]

not to be a pain-crazed wild animal. i KNOW i do this every time. but p*riods are so fucking crazy. like my cr*mps are so bad my body is trying to strangle itself but im awake and i need to be at work in 2 hrs and get thru an entire 9 hr workday as if im not in excruciating pain and im gonna bring my heating pad and my p*in r*lief cr*am if you catch my drift (💀) and i’ll need to use them DURING a busy day in which i will not see any other ppl who get periods in person and using them is gonna be a whole awkward thing. like omg. this is not fucking normal lol

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

if anyone needs me i will be rewatching trigun 98 and tristamp over and over until my brain explodes

[ratsalad]

actually. i don't care anymore im just going to take pictures of my tv screen and post them on here

[bibiana112]

Are you watching breaking bad or are you just Blorbo-ing about it?

Finished binge-watching it yesterday!

[bumbleblurr]

saw art of bulkhead but he was drawn skinny. 29 dead 107 injured

[apathyfairy]

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[murkoffhater]

the parallels between billy+wernicke and the monster+frankenstein will always break my heart. wernicke created a monster he feels no love for. it's alive and it's the perfect weapon and a poor fool and it loves me for i am god. it's all for science though and the wonders of horror and what happens when you weaponize it. but the monster will never understand how cruel it is, because it doesn't know, it'll never know, not until it breaks and kills the hand that fed it, the hand it was keeping alive out of unreciprocated love

[anaalnathrakhs]

hjgjhggjgjgh forgot i can't even go to the psych ward if there was magically room for my non urgent case. my mom's birthday is this weekend, and my aunt and grandma stay at our house for the following week. i need to be there for the birthday, and then i have to seem normal and present at normal hours. AND THEN IT'S THE HOLIDAYS.