#mun vents

[phoenix-of-jade]

Not me having a slight existential crisis as a RP partner because I am losing followers, which makes me feel like a bad RP partner overall. ;-; I know that at the end of the day it's my fault for not being active enough and not replying to the threads I owe. Lately I find it harder and harder to keep up with the really long threads I have and I find it much easier doing casual threads, since I feel like I've reached a point where I'm burning myself out with both trying to keep up with all my ships in equal measures, school work and my over all stress (given that I am in my last year of University and that comes together with additional stress since I do want to get a good grade on my diploma).

Again, I know it's my fault for being a shitty RP partner overall, but seeing the followers count drop along with losing ships with people that are active makes me really sad, especially since I fight so hard to try keeping the blog alive and to have a healthy variety of RP partners and to treat everyone as equally as possible. ;-;

[ambulance-mom]

guys

am i doing okay on tumblr?

[the-expatriate]

((That moment when you're all hyped for sharing a new AU but then you get THE FEAR that it's going to be utterly crap.

I get that every time. Idk why.))

[silvers-smuttery]

DnD books are stupid expensive...

(‡ಠ╭╮ಠ)

[pudgy-planets]

I swear to god.

People are fucking wild with what they’ll believe without any sort of research-

Blindly following whatever happens in the political landscape without thinking outside of the box and constantly demonizing one side to look less shitty.

Like both major parties suck. They’re both awful. I just dunk on conservatives because they’re such blatant idiots it’s both saddening and amusing.

And it’s unfortunate because I have to care to some extent because their actions reflect my own rights and well-being, as well as that of every person in the country.

By default people hate me because of skin tone, but that is doubly worse when you consider the fact I’m trans too. That’s even more hatred piled onto it.

I am not claiming to be smarter than anyone, I’m as dumb as a jar of Peter Piper Picked a Patch of fucking Pepperoni Pizzas, but when a state’s curriculum pushes the idea that “slavery was important and taught slaves essential skills” and the fucking governor denies his involvement and chooses not to do anything about it, the same man who denied AP African American studies an ELECTIVE COURSE IN HIGH SCHOOL That you yourself can choose whether or not to take.

There’s an issue.

[dragxnsfire]

|| stg you can’t browse this hellsite without seeing nsfw bots clogging the tags 

[systemadministratorclu]

Fast food doesn't work on a damn rigid-ass schedule, Mom. Some days, I do have to stay a little later.

But of course, you're going to find something wrong with any job I get unless I go get a masters degree and get a job that requires that. And you probably won't even be happy with that.

Why the fuck can't you just accept that I'm happy with what I'm doing right now? Why is everything I want/like/enjoy bad unless YOU want/like/enjoy it too?

Looking forward to my RPs is the only thing that gets me through times like this, so thank you to my partners @alanbradleyofficial @pureofheartaudio @drchandras-sanctuary-for-ais @evecolourshock @computerwarrior @toranoya @angelus-x-tenebrae @starblaster @better-name-for-rp-blog and everyone else. You guys are the best.

[madscientistdonotdisturb]

//So…. Crap. I’ve got good news and bad news for everyone.

Good news first! I am working on updates and replies more as I can!

Now the bad news…. Work has been hitting me to the bone, and my mental health has been rough with life and such that have been happening lately. I might take a semi hiatus or hiatus in the near future, or I’ll change my blogs to be low or medium activity or something like that.

Point being, things may change for now, but for now, replies will be whenever I can and feel alright, no specific time table. Feel free to DM me about updates or to gently remind me if a thread hasn’t been replied to in a while. It might’ve gotten buried or be in drafts. Again, thank you for everyone’s patience. I am gonna try to stay somewhat active when I’m not working four days a week and I’ll update accordingly! So thanks everyone!

[queenofthecarrousel]

Vent Time

Okay. As some of you know I have high-functioning autism but what you don't know is that I also have type 2 diabetes and I weigh like 332 lbs right now. I want to lose weight but right now I'm on the third week of recovering from knee surgery. I was planning on doing bariatric surgery but now I don't want to do it. I hate surgery even more after I had my knee surgery because it hurt and I'm stuck in bed.

My mom still wants me to get the surgery and I keep telling her I don't want it. She said it was my body and my choice but now she's pushing it on me. She also thinks I need to be taken care of and that I can never live on my own, that I'll always need to be cared for. I don't think she realizes that her words hurt me. I hate this. I didn't ask to be born this way. I didn't ask for any of this.

[hellsfavoritedessert]

I have been smacked in the face with a sad issue so I’m gonna just distract myself.))

[skeksisloving]

One of the ways I know my family doesn't care about me is when I posted about my engagement on fb, none of them interacted with it. In fact, they called my mom to ask about it instead of me. Me. The one who just got engaged.

And this isn't the first time they went to my mom to talk about something involving me instead of talking to me. I am a grown adult, and yet they would rather go to my mom than talk to me.

[mannequinentity]

Don't you just love it when tumblr glitches out on you and your response is deleted?

Fun

[ambulance-mom]

there banning the xl bully dog in the uk well what about the fucking innocent xl,s huh?! onces that have done nothing wrong they will be ripped from their familes for just existing

[the-expatriate]

((Today I said goodbye to two very special people in my life. The first being a friend I used to work with and the second of course being the lady who I used to look after.

Sorry if I'm feeling flat with everything, it's been one of those days.))

[silvers-smuttery]

Is it just me, or has 2024 in particular just been inexplicably and unusually hard on just about everyone?

From writer's block, to depression, to insomnia. I've been noticing so many things that just suck for so many people, in a multitude of ways.

Am I going crazy?

[pudgy-planets]

It’s always fucking something.

Legitimately. She will always find something, anything and everything to critique me for.

Yeah. The same person who physically assaulted me, and the grandfather who psychologically manipulated me into believing what she did was justified.

"It’s your decision to make on whether or not you talk to them."

Didn’t you just hit and choke me like 2 and a half years ago for not calling my grandfather?

And I’m supposed to be fine with this and accept it because "I’m the child."

Single-handedly the most infuriating individual. Go to hell. Fuck you. You are the worst mother someone can have. And it’s a wonder you only had one child and could never have a relationship. You have bad taste in men, continuously find people akin to your own father, and wonder "Why am I surrounded by shitty people?"

Shitty people attract shitty people.

There’s no god or Jesus here. You’re an awful person.