#my 3am nonsense

[driftingvoid-155]

Jeremy, stumbling upon scooped Michael: “Why are you carrying around an ax?”

Michael, working off the idea that if you can’t hide something, distract it with something else: “So people don’t notice the fact that I’m literally decomposing. Interestingly enough, they’re always too busy looking at the ax.”

Jeremy, skeptical: “That actually works?”

Michael, shrugging: “I’ve yet to be asked about being purple. However, I have been asked about the ax.”

[ai-higurashi]

"Not yet"

[adhdandcomics]

if you don’t like poetry or think it doesn’t make sense you should look at a poet’s notes app titled ‘ideas’. you haven’t begun to see the horrors of poetry

[slightlypoisonedtea]

So like ages ago, pinterest/tiktok/whatever was full of people's favorite relationship dynamics, right? like sunshine x grump, tiny angry x tall calm. But I was thinking: My favorite relationship dynamics are my otps. Like it doesn't have to BE those people, but it has to be those people-coded. So my favorite relationship dynamics are percy x annabeth, ladybug x chat noir, and keefe sencen x sophie foster. bc there literally aren't enough adjectives to describe them. Sure I could say serious x goofy or wing it x extensive planning, but then what abt when the goofy one is sincere, and the serious one is sobbing on the floor or something? And maybe the goofy-ness is just a coping mechanism. And maybe the planning and seriousness is too. And what if they're both just traumatized children who have way too many responsibilities. btw if u see weird nonsense like this and wonder why, just know that most of my posts are written at 3 am then scheduled to random innocent times when normal people are awake in an attempt to seem normal. So my brain is in 3am random nonsense mode rn, and I've been up for this long on literally the 3 hours of sleep I got LAST night. I think my nonsense is reasonable. Also this sleep deprivation was completely self induced I'm just fun like that

[ghosttalksalot]

wade getting injured. injured injured, the kind that needs more the ten minutes. every part of his body hurts more than it's hurt for a while, and he can hardly think. he finds his way to peter's apartment, and stumbles in through the window only he knows how to open.

"peter..." is all he can get out before he collapses onto the foot of the bed. when he wakes up; he feels incredibly guilty. the first words he thinks of are apologies for.... everything he has to apologize for.

but, as he begins to put the pieces together. he finds himself in peter's arms. the parts of himself that were the bloodiest are so carefully wrapped in soft bandages, as though he needed them. he's in soft clothes, even though they aren't quite big enough for him, they're comfortable. the sheets feel clean, and so does his own body. the sunlight peeking through the cheap blinds shows him peter's face, worried, but asleep.

even though wade was unconscious, peter took care of him. even though wade was gross, peter cleaned him. even though wade would heal with no assistance, peter tended to his wounds. even though he could have deposited the injured, unconscious mess that was wade on the couch, and slept comfortably, he chose to hold wade close to himself. as though he was something precious. something deserving of such care.

wade tried to think of all the things he would need to reimburse peter for. but the comfort he felt, how safe he felt, how loved he felt- slowly overtook his mind, and he found himself drifting off again. as he fell back asleep, this time to rest rather than to heal, he decided maybe he should learn peter's ring size

[disorganised-bagel]

hello :) just remembered i haven't put this one here yet, so i'm back to be annoying with my bad edits :)

tiktok link, in case you wanted it

(song is 'good ol' hollywood' by madilyn mei)

[crybabydraws]

"EVEN I COULDA CRUSHED ME ALL LOONY TUNES STYLE BETTER THAN YOU!! AT LEAST I WOULDA HIT ME!!"

I liked the idea of her being less mad at the acme ass attempt on her life and more on the fact that someone sent an incompetent hitman or goon or smth to do it and thought that they'd be enough to take her down lmao. ("Toony" explanation in the tags for anyone who is interested lol)

Tenna belongs to @tvlandofficial and the original anvil post was made by @gasterofficial lol

[athena-xox]

Okay wait lowkey narration hc is that the unmaking lava has been slowly affecting the narrators which is why the narrators aren’t aware that kitty can talk to them in kittys curious tale, why they say it’s spring in true hearts day and why Brooke acts as if she’s never interacted with kitty and Maddie before.

So the unmaking lava is lowly making them forget

Again I don’t have the books to verify this but I’m pretty sure the lava it’s self just makes everything it’s basic definition but maybe the metaphorical smoke is what makes them forget

[makahitaki]

my weighted blanket committed suicide...

[crescentfool]

recently, i’ve been thinking about what a 100% social link/confidant run is like from the perspective of the persona protagonists, rather than the player. i’ve always been a sucker for thinking about the type of narrative created by a person’s gameplay choices (it can be so fun and deep) so!! i wrote this analysis / musing.

some notes before we start: this was written with the lens of persona 3 being the most recent game i played- but the concepts are applicable to the p4/p5 protagonists as well! no spoilers for any of the games are mentioned; this is moreso a general discussion of ludonarrative dissonance with the game mechanics and narrative and how it makes for fun angst (ft. personal interpretation).

(more under the cut!)

the framework: game mechanics

in all of the games, the social link system’s existence coincides with the social stats mechanic. certain social links require a specific set of stats in order to initiate it, or surpass a certain rank. each game has around 20 of these- each of which represent the major arcana (+ some bonuses, e.g. aeon / jester / faith / councilor).

for any players going for a 100% social link run, this basically requires each social stat to be maxed out. anyone who’s followed a guide for a 100% run would know that the beginning of the game tends to be very “strict” with how time can be used, most of which involves getting the stats raised  as soon as possible.

outside of characterization and worldbuilding, completing social links are incentivized for a variety of gameplay reasons. so how could this completionist play style affect the protagonists?

prioritizing social stats over everything else: a general view

regardless of which protagonist you want to put under a petri dish, with a 100% run, you’re essentially asking the protagonist to form amicable bonds with 20 or so people, give or take. granted, not everyone becomes adjoined to the hip to the protagonist.

personally, i feel that forming 20 different bonds over the course of a year would be rather strenuous. during these 100% runs, the protagonists may feel that they’re spreading themselves thin trying to dedicate their resources to multiple different people as well as raising their “social stats.” i find the implications that this has on said bonds is so, utterly fascinating.

while this isn’t reflected in the game and would be better represented within a fic, i find it difficult to believe that this type of behavior doesn’t have any ramifications on the quality of the protagonist’s closer relationships (or their self-image, for that matter).

just… imagine calling one of your close friends but then they consistently give responses along the lines of “lmao sorry i’m busy doing other things,” and they rarely make the time of day for you. how would you feel? gameplay-wise, this deterioration of the relationship is best represented in persona 3 with social links reversing if you haven’t spent time with them in awhile.

part of my fascination with this concept is influenced by my own experiences. trying to maintain so many relationships can be difficult to keep up with and it quickly gets overwhelming (see dunbar’s number for more information). jumping between so many people also makes it difficult to focus on a few relationships meaningfully- meaning that relationships may be limited to being simple pleasantries. even then, ‘successfully’ keeping every relationship satisfying comes at the cost of being unable to pursue your own development and interests.

overall, i think that trying to do so many things ends up lowering the quality of the relationship(s) involved, especially when you also consider the fatigue from going to school as well as fighting shadows.

playing the therapist friend / listening role: a general view

another aspect of the 100% run that i think about is how the protagonists rarely open up to other people. a good chunk of SLs follow a storyline of the protagonist acting as a therapist friend/helping the other person through one central issue. some SLs are an exception to this and have a more casual “we’re just hanging out vibe.”

basically, SLs tend to be weighted toward the other character’s growth, moreso than the protagonist’s (which is handled by the main story). that said, the idea of mostly playing a listening role across most of your relationships and not having many that you feel comfortable to speak freely about your own stuff… feels really unbalanced and unhealthy?

i do think that part of the lack of “input” can be attributed to the silent-protagonist approach taken in the games (which is a whole ‘nother topic). but!! i find that each protagonist’s options, while limited, are fun to think about! some of the traits and interpretations i’ve seen for the differing protags, to name a few, include:

being afraid to open up / get attached and keeping people at arm’s distance as a result

needing to be around other people, even if it’s just listening them, to distract from their own struggles / pretend nothing’s wrong with them

enjoying helping others, being a good and careful listener who can provide an appropriate and helpful response

the willingness to prioritize others over themselves; a lack of self-preservation

compulsive people pleasing

at its worst, the lack of “protagonist talking” or equal reciprocation in response could be misinterpreted by the other person as disinterest (like they’re talking to a wall). alternatively- the lack of “personal tidbits” could be taken as, “you don’t trust me enough to be able to open up, huh.” and i just think that seeing this in a fic would be the biggest shitshow ever (and i would read that).

concluding thoughts:

overall, i feel that the protagonists taking a predominantly listening approach to several relationships at once can lead to compassion fatigue and general burnout. the protagonists are rarely at the receiving end of being listened to and/or having their issues worked through… and that’s kind of sad?

while the 100% social link run can provide great power to any persona fusions (and other cool battle abilities + hijinks)... i ultimately think that there’d be a lot of mental strain that would make achieving this much more difficult when you take a narrative-emphasized approach.

i do realize that it is possible to see the general vibe of this post as “100% social link is bad,” but like… there’s something i find really appealing about the messiness of attempting to manage so many relations at once- only to fall short in several of them and attempting to salvage the last bits of their sanity. when you think about the complications of the 100% SL run from the shoes of the protagonist… yeah!! that’s the good shit!

anyways! if anyone knows of any fics with this kinda vibe for the p3/4/5 protags… feel free to drop it in my askbox… i like them all VERY much :3c… and if this raised any food for thought- i’d be equally honored! let the protags go through shit i wanna see their emotions and coping mechanisms damn it! 👏

[comeoutalive]

Me: sitting in the bathroom 'cause I don't wanna shower- it's boring & has too many steps, which means it's too much work

Also me: is literally itching all over because I'm in desperate need of the sensory input from the water & my exfoliating gloves.

[kushanna]

i hate this type of red truth cause it's not specified whether the red sentence by itself is a truth for the murder we're talking about atm or for the game board as a whole. genji and nanjo were not killers? if you're telling me they can't be killers at all in the first game board then that's a huge bummer for me

also hate this one cause yeah?? does she guarantee that the unidentified corpses are actually corpses though?? i do understand that yes, since she did say "there were no body double tricks", but GOD that's such a ridiculous play with words. get out of here

[whimsicalcotton]

..

various eepy headcanons:

there's like. a five minute window where you can get Rachel up in the morning and she Won't take your head off but otherwise she's one of those ppl who needs caffeine + nicotine + 10 minutes to lament her existence Immediately or she'll be grumpy as sin the whole day. says she 'doesn't believe in the concept of breakfast,' and pretty much only has some if Chloe is around to pester her about it

Chloe is The Most restless sleeper. she's snoozing at 40 different angles. she's halfway to the floor. she's curled up at the end of the bed like a cat. all in the span of like half an hour. Rachel doesn't mind but only bc she sleeps like a fucking log and basically has no idea

Max will be out for all of five minutes and wake up in a rush like "damn i slept in why didn't you guys get me up" and amberprice are just staring at her like "babygirl there is something so very very wrong with you"

Rachel sleeptalks. like, entire nonsensical conversations and complete gibberish delivered with the utmost confidence type of deal. Max thinks it's cute but doesn't bring it up. Chloe also thinks it's cute and brings it up at every available opportunity

the only place Max will take a (mostly) uninterrupted nap is in the backseat of the truck while amberprice are up front singing along to whatever's on the radio. they're both aware of this and constantly coming up with excuses to go for a drive

whenever Max is having a particularly bad night due to the Paranoid Insomnia™️, Chloe will try and stay up with her. sometimes they have midnight movie marathons, sometimes they just talk for a while. Chloe never quite manages to make it through the whole night but Max appreciates it regardless

bonus: Rachel listening to pricefield comparing weird dreams over breakfast

[tanjir0se]

Anyone who has ever commented on any of my fics just know I am kissing you on the lips. Yes right now.

[l-wandering-etranger]

Me viewing content pretaining to Hannibal for the nth time: "Ah yes the Chickpea Ripper"

My brain: No its the Chesapeake Ripper

Me: "The Cheesecake Ripper"

Brain *sigh*- The Chesapeake Ripper C-H-E-S-A-P-E-A-K-E Ripper

Me: "Oh i get it the Chestnut Ripper"

Brain: NO THE CHESAPEAKE RIPPER

Me: "...The Chick-fil-a Ripper? "

[wynnyfryd]

the 1am insomniac urge to start painting the walls