#my own entity lmao

[bugsteef]

the end of the world / the path home

[smokbeast]

I have some scribbles here and there but I haven’t had time to fully clean em.. but sombra concepts I been cooking with @skelekins and his oc imi taming sombra’s beaft moments,,

[takethebodymarc]

[cardworksartblog]

Their friendship is actually so special to me,.,,, fucked up bug and her Little Guy friend who may or may not be a fucking parasite. They make me go insane

[kalloway]

tumblr’s feeling pretty dead for me (in terms of engagement) anymore so i don’t feel so shy about sharing this dumb Bloodborne art i did back in november im never gonna actually finish lmao

it’s for a fic i haven’t finished (or even posted) yet... there is a trend here 🙈

anyway Micolash is the slug man, change my mind

[orb-the-watchman]

I had a weird ass Bugsnax dream about there being another huge content update. But like it wasn't dlc it was just labeled as a new big update- but anyway all the characters were like trying to go to space for some reason?? They built like a giant Wambus mech to go to space and Wambus and Filbo piloted it.

There were also new unrelated side quests and one of them was like about Triffany having an affair with Lizbert?? Oh yeah Lizbert was just back in the dream update too completely unexplained, she just really wanted to go to space and be a homewrecker ig lol

[spiralstain]

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[monty-glasses-roxy]

I’m so powerful for making Roxy trans in a way that no one else is doing. I give her so much gender I’m not even entirely sure where she falls on the trans scale if not slipping off the scale directly into ‘genderqueer’ territory.

[jelliclekay]

The vast difference in my hcs for og grizabella vs revival griz

[desperatepleasures]

meme of the guy in the corner at the party but it's me watching pple outside the fandom read my juliadal kink fic like "They Don't Know She's Going To Die"

[trashlie]

I hope you've gotten some much needed rest and relief. Migraines are the worst. Sorry to pile on more to your inbox. Take care of yourself first!

On the topic of falls. I'd like to point out how in both cases Kousuke and Alyssa were trying to defend Shinae from people who ultimately do not care about them. Yet, despite knowing their toxic behavior it was not enough for them to actually fight back. And how both Nol and Alyssa being cornered by them caused the incident through no real fault of their own. But is there a significant difference for the brothers and not Alyssa falling in after Shinae?

I also want to add. Given the religious imagery surrounding Nol. His plunges into the pool along with the reclamation of his given name could be seen as a symbolic baptism. A form cleansing and transformation. Except that the ritual requires a triple immersion. Nol did promise to retrieve YeongGi one day. So, could it mean he will be submerged in water thrice to fully be reborn as his whole self?

Hi nonny, thank you! Man, I have gotten SO much rest. My gp prescribed me a daily prevention medication to try out on my meds but it was not kidding when it said it makes you drowsy - I lost a whole day yesterday to a sleepy fugue state lol it's... ;~; rough LMAO the quest to fighting off my migraines continues! But thank you for asking! They are a serious plague and I feel like they just get worse and worse each year, so hopefully I can find something that helps out!

Now, as for your ask? I never really thought about these details, but they're SO good so thank you for pointing them out! It's really easy to forget that Kousuke is defending Shinae (and to some degree, himself) against Yui. This isn't the kind of theorizing I ever excel at but I'm going to give it some thought.

At the very base level, I guess there's the idea of involvement - Nol and Kousuke falling with Shinae because they are very much a victim of Yui as Shinae is, where Alyssa doesn't fall because she is more on the "outside" - a lot of the bullying that goes on is because of two separate things: a. they think Shinae is a bully and Alyssa is only targeted because of her affiliation with Shinae; as long as she acts like she has nothing to do with Shinae, she is free from their bullying b. the other bullying seems to be about her sexuality and the girls involved in Shinae's fall didn't seem? to be involved in that part of the bullying (??? maybe? lol). But looking at it even deeper, many of us readers have been anticipating a separate "fall" (from grace) for Alyssa, so it might be that her fall is severely "stunted"? I guess one of the biggest differences here is that while Alyssa was defending Shinae, she also kept flipflopping and insisting she wasn't, whereas Kousuke and Nol were openly defending Shinae, no questions about that. Kousuke was trying to help her, Alyssa wanted to help but was restricted from acting by her own fears and confliction.

I will add a thought that it could just be that quimchee wanted only Shinae to walk away physically hurt by that altercation to demonstrate that though she was the only one harmed, the trauma extended well beyond her (a friend suggested that it's likely the teachers were not fired but instead quit due to their own traumas; we know Shinae's family and friends were badly shaken up) and that even though Alyssa looks like she walked away fine - she winds up becoming a trainee and debuting in an idol group, she appears balanced and happy, she has a boyfriend - she, too, was affected and probably carries layers of scars. I think something worth thinking about is the way those girls' minds worked. Because they believed Shinae to be a bully, they told themselves Shinae deserved what happened. Just moments before the fall, they were accusing Alyssa of still being friends with Shinae - had Alyssa failed to prove they weren't, had she helped Shinae more than she did, had she fallen trying to save Shinae, would they have said the same about her? Their wishy-washiness is even worse than Alyssa's!

Another thought I'm having, while we're on this topic, is that another difference between the boys falling vs Alyssa is that Kousuke is the most "free" of any burden here. He reflexively acted and tried to save Shinae - his falling was not his own doing, but Nol's, and I'm waffling on this point because technically, yes, Nol is the reason they fell - Yui reached out to touch him full-well knowing how he'd react and he did exactly that, dropping everyone and falling himself. On the flipside, Alyssa also inadvertently pushed Shinae and as a result, I don't think there was enough time for her to process what had happened and reach out to help Shinae. So while it's very similar to Noll, it's still different in the execution, I suppose?

And if we want to REALLY read into things, we can get really faux-deep lol. In the case of Shinae + Alyssa vs the bullies, unfortunately, Shinae probably would have been bullied regardless of whether she was friends with Alyssa. From the get go, kids were weird about her and treated her badly, and the kid who was friends with the asshole from her old school could still have spread lies about her. On the other hand, Shinae never would have wound up at the formal if not for her involvement with Nol and Kousuke. We still don't know how much Yui knew of Shinae's involvement with Nol at the time, but you can still draw a line all the way back to Nol: had Shinae never gotten Nol to the hospital and saved Nol and Kousuke's hides, Kousuke never would have extended a favor to Shinae, and without the favor, Yui would not have been manipulating Shinae and trapping her in both an employment contract and blackmailing her into attending the formal. It all still cycles back to Nol. As a result, everyone who falls is involved in Shinae being there at all - including Yui's wig! And I guess in a way, as a result, we've seen that Shinae is very much so still tethered to Kousuke and Nol (and Yui) wheras she and Alyssa are so distant and are no longer entwined.

I especially like your second question because this something I'd NEVER have thought of! I've largely thought of his pool jump as a rebirth - which I guess in some way a baptism is? I am not a very religious person, so forgive my ignorance here! It's not the first time we've seen some kind of religious symbology in ILY so I wouldn't be surprised if you're right on the mark! Because baptisms specifically involve water, I don't think there would be a way to take a metaphorical plunge for him, so a third act sounds very likely! It doesn't have to be exactly the perilous scenarios we've seen, either, I think, as long as the thought and intention is there, maybe? This is really interesting to think about because I like to hope that Nol in the present will feel some kind of.... well maybe not hope exactly, but I hope in learning Shinae's story, he'll borrow some of her strength and try to find that in himself, too?

to fully be reborn as his whole self?

This is the part that's making me think the most about this - because he has to be ready to be his whole self, to embrace all parts of himself, it has to come when he's made the decision to be his whole self. So yes, I think you are absolutely on to something! Though he's embracing Nolan as his identity, we know that's still a part of who he is. Nolan and Yeonggi are very much a part of him, and perhaps a third submersion would when Nol is finally able to embrace all parts of himself? Oh this was good thinking, I'd love to hear what you're thinking, too!

[atlasllm]

I'm in a weird gray area when it comes to Backrooms lore because I do like the idea of it becoming an SCP styled phenomenon but preferably where the rooms itselves are the main mysterious entities and not that the Backrooms themselves need mysterious entities

I want Backrooms lore that acknowledges the different feeling between an empty version of your grandma's house versus an abandoned mall, or that one post talking about how an endless parking lot would be a perfect addition to the "endless ikea/endless hallways" type of liminal spaces

[ineedarealitycheck]

Looking back and trying to recall my old fanfictions is like trying to be a historian piecing together ancient history with scraps of information that survived to the present day. Much of the information I needed to write or understand my fanfics (such as lore or even the overall plotline) were not written down. It was assumed knowledge to me back then. But now, I no longer retain the assumed knowledge my teenage self had. All that survived are tiny pieces of a larger story and I have to work backwards to remember something that is, at most, from ten years ago. It's a fascinating experience. But it also instills in me an existential dread for the fanfics and original stories I currently obsess over. One day, I won't remember them either - unless I record as much of it as I can in some shape or form.

[assaultvvyvern]

listen i ship lots of criminal ships. id die for kiraboss. hannigram is my fucking jam. then how the FUCK i do not like thiefshipping as much as the rest of the fandom. dont get me wrong its a very good ship and i rlly like it but im not crazy for it for some reason???? im like Known as the shipper of criminals and villains whats going on

[yippee-oc-bracket]

sorry about the walls of text in my submissions, i just cant explain my characters in any shorter terms

That's completely fine with me! I like reading about any oc stuff even if it's real long

[immortalarizona]

ok so i've been following your art for a bit now (which, by the way, it is amazing, i especially love your pen/pencil and ink) and i've noticed you always post who/what you used for a drawing reference with it and i'm wondering . . . do you have/could you post a list of places to go for good art references? maybe i'm looking in the wrong places but they are hard to find.

heyo!! sorry for taking so long to get to this ask, it's midterm season </3 here's a list (in no particular order) of my favorite drawing reference creators:

live people models:

@adorkastock

@jookpubstock

@null-entity

@nyxnaiastock

@blumineck (I Eagerly Await the drop of his archery reference packs)

drawn or 3D models:

@kingcholerarefs

@grey-fuckers-unlimited

@posemuse

all these creators are present on tumblr (duh lmao bc I linked to their blogs), but they also have links to their own deviantart accs / patreon pages / ko-fi pages / indie sites / etc. on their accs, and I would definitely recommend checking those out as well!!