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enderspawn · 2 years

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what’s everyone’s autistic Least Favorite Stimuli. personally if i have to touch or hear someone’s fingers brush up against a projector screen ill implode on the spot into blood and viscera

#even like imagining it makes me full body cringe BDNSNDN #I remember talking abt this w my sister when we were taking that one autism test together #and she wanted clarification for one of the questions and I was like ‘oh it’s like X’#and. well I sure learned my experiences are Not Universal!#og post #personal

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opens-up-4-nobody · 6 months

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#so my mom's wake thing was today and that was a lot. not in an emotional sense but in a im standing here talking for 3hrs #to ppl i dont kno or barely kno. ya kno? but it was good bc so many ppl showed up to talk abt her #so many people. my mom made a huge impact on the school system. so many ppl relied on her. she encouraged at least 2 ppl to get their #master. for one person to specilize in helping the dyslexic after her experience advocating for 3 dyslexic daughters. she wrote and was #awarded a 10000 dollar grant for special needs and intervention curriculum. which will affect so many lives.#everyone loved her. she's gonna get a track meet named after her and a scholarship created in her honor.#she was an amazing person and she affected a lot of lives and im glad she was my mom. and she raised at least one jem in my littlest #sister who is so sweet and is a great teacher. god but there was some weird stuff too. were pretty sure her old boss was in love with her.#and there were some weird comments abt her being a strong woman or this woman doing so much and its like hm y do i detect a note of sexism #y not say she was an amazing person? y the surprise? weird comments about how pretty i looked. which yes i looked great lol. my funeral fit #was cute. we did bright colors bc it was a celebration not a dower event. and im sure it was ment well but it was a lil weird. and then #everyone was telling my grandma what a great job she did raising my mom and like god fuck off she didn't do jack. my mom was great despite #her terrible mother. ugh. but altogether it was good that everyone was able to express their love for her. it was def a day that was for #them mostly. i mean partly for us but mostly for them. none of us even cried. ay but we have 2 more parties in her honor #bc everyone loved her so much we have to do one in her hometown too. plus a personal friends get together. ugh. im so tired #i wish i wasnt the most awkward. eye contact avoidant person in the room but like ya kno. what can ya do?#unrelated

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carltonlassie · 2 months

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So I'm on a Greyhound (already a bad start) and I had to give my witness statement to COPS in the middle of the journey and I was a bit shaken about the whole thing but now I feel more normal and I'm more occupied with directing my energy towards not peeing my pants, so there's a good thing

#when i got on the bus the driver gave a warning towards a guy sitting in front of me for behaving inappropriately towards a lady #but some guys in the back defended the dude so the driver walked away....#and another girl got on and sat next to him (bad sign)#and it was already sussy when he introduced himself & got her name but things went south so fast #when he put his laptop on her lap and started watching a movie. she begrudgingly agreed bc what is she gonna do? make a scene?#but then he started leaning on her shoulder!!!!! and after a while he had his arms around her and shit #and she tried to give the laptop back to him and pulled out a book to push him off but then.#he just. leaned on her shoulder and pretended to sleep n shit and she was getting real uncomfortable #about an hour in we're at a rest stop and i see her talking to the driver so i think whew at least shes telling him about it #but she just walks away with all of her luggage? so i talk to the driver to ask if shes ok and he has no idea what im talking abt #and im like whoa yeah the dude u were talking to before was behaving inappropriately to her #and hes like oh man and he drives up to her to pick her back up while he goes to get the bus maintained #and like ... 30 minutes later he comes back but hes not letting anyone in and he calls me over to tell me that shes p shaken up about it #and he called the COPS and her sister is coming to pick her up #so now i gotta give a witness statement when the cops come but at this point everyone on the bus knows im the snitch and now #im worried abt the guys who defended him before bc theyre still gonna be on the bus and behind me!!#but i talk to the cops. give my statement. she cant press any charges or anything but they will remove the dude from the bus which is great #bc the dude has been yelling at other women for being a snitch and a cop presumably for the previous incident??#but then i get on the bus and all eyes are on me and the dudes behind me start hollering at me and im like shit #but then theyre like you did a good thing. he was being creepy. leaning on her and lying down on her #and im like bro. and yall defended him??? 😭 also nobody did nothing?????#and im like aight can i go home now tnx #but thankfully there's this old guy who sat separate from his wife next to me and i felt a bit more secure w/ a human shield #anyways the whole thing just left me kinda shaky but that could have been the low blood sugar?#log

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salemontrial · 9 months

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My mum wont let me talk about lmk for too long

#if i talk abt it for longer than 5 minutes she goes like “OKAY.....🙄”#shoutout to my sister tho she lets me rant about shadowpeach for 2 hours because she rants about tlou for 2 hours as well #we have a house guest rn and mum actually asked me to explain lmk to him #cos they were talking abt monkey magic #and i went into a full autism rant about it and the different wukong adaptations #also house guest sucks #lmk #lego monkie kid #monkie kid

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first-blight · 5 months

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. . . i'm too aro for this

#i saw someone talk about “obvious” romantic tension between phoenix/maya and athena/simon #and that the average cishet normie consumer would assume they were implied romantic #and i sat there for a full minute trying to process that #because literally all i got from these pairings was big sibling energy #and i realize everyone reads that differently but.#the level of being annoying and being annoyed between maya and phoenix....#and the whole “i gotta be a big sister” and the whole. maya is mia's little sister so by extention kind of also #taken under phoenix's wing after mia's death #the way they constantly joke about maya being childish bc she likes steel samurai (she isn't. edgeworth also likes it #he's just too stuck up to admit it. also liking “childish” things doesnt make u childish but i digress)#but anyway the joke abt maya being childish vs phoenix being grown up #furthering the perception of the difference between them and maya as a sort of younger sibling figure #and then athena and simon....#simon literally having been her babysitter somewhat. having played with her when she was younger #and when the Mom Murder Incident happened he cared for her and got her out of there #and took on the blame “for her” .....#all of that screams older brother to me the way he carried her away from the scene. she was just a child #IDK IS IT REALLY SUPPOSED TO BE OBVIOUSLY ROMANTICALLY IMPLIED?????????#WHAT......#i KNOW there are people who ship phoenix and maya or athena and simon and that's fine #but to me they were OBVIOUSLY sibling coded instead of OBVIOUSLY romance coded #😭😭😭#help meeeee #cas.txt #i cant tell if the post i saw was an outlier and tinted by Fandom Perception #or if that's like. a big general consensus and i just don't see it bc i curate my online experience #bc it could go either way. i can see it being an outlier that found its way onto my dash #but i could also see it as a bigger agreed upon thing that just never crossed my dash bc i only interact with sibling content 😭#either way it baffled me

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scarletanpan · 8 months

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Megan got nicki more in a tizzy than I done ever seen, just two words sent her straight off the deep end. I feel like I'm an alternate dimension seeing nicki minaj tweak so hard she out here rubbing shoulders w ben shapiro. And now under her tweet she got rabid ass ppl defending him to the point where they're straight condemning immigrants and saying he isn't a white supremacist. As if she hasn't talked about having come here illegally as a child and wanting to protect those people. As if she isn't a black woman herself who conservatives would easily point their vitriol at for the same shit Megan writes. It's crazy, this shit is just sad

#text #me and my sister were ranting abt in the car like. she really too grown to be doing all this over one line in a song #and then i learned more details abt her brother and husband like. shes disgusting and protecting disgusting people #talking abt a 12 yr being fast and sleeping w men like. as if a baby has any consent in that situation with a Grown Ass Man #and now she out here straight mumbling and muttering all over her diss track like a crazy person bring up ppls deceased family #its never okay. acknowledging u got a serial rapist for a husband is not the same thing as bringing up someones mom who passed. just awful #im ride or die for megan rn i dont care. this shit is unacceptable and i am so damn disappointed #nicki minaj #megan thee stallion

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 2 months

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danny talking about how resentful she became when nobody who she self-sacrificed for cared when she died and then leaving kirsch with laura and carmilla bc "if he stays with me i might lose control again and kill him" kinda confirms my thoughts abt both newly-turnedness and anger making vampires more vampiry

but also makes me think that in more usual circumstances, when the dean turned vampires like carmilla and mattie, that shes really nice at the start to temper any of that unruly anger

#we dont have a lot of info on her usual mo i guess but im thinking a lot abt how it mustve gone with carmilla #i dont know if she was a special case or if this is usually generally how it goes #i suppose you dont necessarily need a lot of new ones do you. if youve got one vampire seductress in working condition #mattie had her role on the board #danny was just for end of the world purposes i think. opportunistic turning. to replace will perhaps #but im thinking abt how at first the dean and carmilla were kinda close. and i have no illusions abt what that meant for the dean like #im sure it was just to control carmilla. play into what she needed to ensure centuries of loyalty. and that kinda worked until elle #and looking at mattie i expect most of them will eventually start rebelling so i wouldnt be surprised if she did smth similar with mattieto #just 1000 years earlier. and at our point in the story mattie is doing strained coexistence with her right?#carmilla is well in mattie's view rocking the boat once again for a cute girl #thats so funny oh my god. iconic. take the first lesbian predator archetype character and make it so that she keeps #rebelling against the evil BECAUSE shes so gay #like literally thats her entire motivation 'of course i was just doing it for you' oh my godddd hfkjhgjhghj ICONIC #i love her so much i love her soooo much #what was i talking about. oh yeah so i think the dean in usual circumstances is very nice at first and spoils her new vampires #to foster allegiance #god carmilla must just have been so happy to have someone care about her and be nice to her i think #every thought i have abt 18 yo carmilla is so sad #but i can imagine those early years/decades of her and the dean travelling around. mattie there too maybe not all the time #but enough time. mattie there too specifically also to make carmilla feel wanted and make friendship so she wouldnt rebel #to guide her through her young vampire years probably! damn yeah i bet that was mattie who taught her all the tricks #mother isnt a vampire and i dont see her really caring. i think mattie probably taught carmilla the do's and don'ts of vampiredom #and they had fun! they had fun with it. they had cruel fun being vampires together. i think carmilla was just happy to belong #maybe mattie was happy to have a friend too idk if she had many. not many vampire friends anyway. she seems to have fun being a sister #anyway. just thinking aloud #carmillaposting

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bunnihearted · 5 months

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#ugh im so anxious and like i think i have more pains bc of it #i overslept bc ever since i got a new phone my alarm is so quiet i never wake up?? this is the third time this happens for this class #but i cant miss more bc if i have more than three weeks absence they'll fail me :< so i hurried and walked to school #i wish i had a bus pass T-T since they introduced civilian clothed controllants i havent dared taking the bus at all i dont wanna get a fine #so yes anyway. on top of that im pretty sure my sister stole my keys. bc they were in my jacket pocket yesterday and today they werent there #and she left somewhere earlier this morning. so now im anxious abt not knowing where they are + will i get inside?? my mom wakes up late af #ummm what else???? idk im just so stressed. i got to class and have been here for 40min now and the teacher left for lunch #i'll leave now bc i cant focus enough to sit here more. my tooth aches too :((#i just wanna cry tbh #the entire way here i was like i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die #i feel so awful.. and stupd and worthless. why am i incapable of getting a job? or even studying at university? im so bad at everything #im like an anxious wreck who can barely function. everything hurts both physically and emotionally #i dont even wanna walk home im just sitting in my empty classroom bc i dont wanna kove #move*#what's wrong with me? how did i turn into this? i miss school. like i miss being able to actually do my work and talk to the teachers etc #im only a shell of what i used to be. and im scared i'll never be anything other than this :((((#well i gotta move ig bc the sooner i do the sooner i can get home and lie in my bed & cry over how useless i am :3

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curiosity-killed · 10 months

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It is! Possible! That I may be being too hard on myself! Again!!!

#me for most of this fall: I’m not doing enough well enough I’m falling short in everything I am Miserable #the universe lately: you’re such a natural turner / you are so creative / you are doing so much /#you are curious and humble and kind / you have beautiful lines / your writing is lovely #our company did this values in action award and my sister and I were talking abt it last week and how only 5 employees WERENT nominated #and i was like Clearlt I Was Not Nominated #and then today actually read the nominations and I got?? really sweet ones????#and just had a convo with a colleague abt how I’ve been worried abt underperforming/not doing well enough #and she looked at me like I had literally sprouted a tortoise out of my head and was like #‘’i. think you might have. Very High Standards for yourself. (?????????)’’#the new director I’ve been working with is so casual abt praise saying how I have beautiful lines and such a strong turn #and just need to relax and breathe #there have been a couple ppl recently reading thru like my entire AO3 and leaving the nicest comments???#my students are chaotic but at rehearsal they all want to come sit with me and ask me questions and I just #idk I know I have a tendency toward isolation and self-deprecation #but also like. when ur in it (the depressions (?)) it feels so absolute #and i know I have to go thru to get to a place where I can receive the good (emotionally)#and I know I’m a little extra sensitivo bc I‘ve been missing my brother #and specifically how he always always was the person who listened when I needed support #but yeah i. maybe rlly needed this #‘’over and over announcing your place in the family of things’’#<- current feels #personal #Bc it’s less about positive feedback and more abt feeling like belonging

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arolesbianism · 3 months

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I've been thinking abt my critter dupes some more and it was all fun and games until I remembered that I made Mi-ma a beeta and hm. Whoops. Uh oh. (<- Considered the implications for more than 2 seconds)

#rat rambles #oni posting #it's not Too bad. shes fine. but hoo boy. the images my mind showed me were not fun.#it's ok she just needs to keep being the farmer cook that she is and gather stuff for her fellow dupes and itll all be fine #Id provide further context but then itd become too clear what Im talking abt so how abt I dont #its ok shes ok nothing bad happens to her shes just a bit quirky thats all #and even if things did go a lil wonky it wouldnt be irreversible just a bit of an issue for a bit #shes just a silly billy who's genetic makeup is a series of contradictions and anomalies #I also have it as a thing where most of the colony see her as like a baby sister since she was the first duplicant printed after quinn left #so the dupes who were already there were like oh shit there's a new one and quinn isn't here to help them adjust we have to do a good job #in their place and make sure she feels the security they helped us feel while we built this colony together #and meanwhile mi-ma was just sitting there having the joints of an 80 year old woman and the energy of a young and spry bee #some of the younger dupes in that colony actually dont like her much because they see her as kind of spoiled #liam and leira especially constantly give her gifts and let her do things she rly shouldn't do #they eventually get better abt it when it actually starts to threaten her physical well-being but it sort of starts to swing in the other #direction after a while with leira especially being rly obsessive with making sure shes not doing anything that could cause health issues #ada has some light beef with mi-ma but she starts to turn around on her a bit once she learns abt some of the stuff shes gone through #after a lil while they get to be bug buddies who are experiencing joy and whimsy together watching paint dry or smth idk

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glitchven · 1 month

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Its really late but i just keep thinking about how Deena never interacts with her siblings in the entirety of both the nexomon games

Like-WE WERE ROBBED!!!!!!

SO YOUR TELLING ME-everytime the MC encounters one of the Champions with Deena around they DIDNT NOTICE HER??????

NOT EVEN A PASSING GLANCE OR GREETING??????

BLASHEMY

No heres MY personal crackpot headcannon

So during the War between Humans and Nexomon when Deena began to sympathise with humanity Omnicron began to notice and got angry (ObViOuSlY) and actually kicked her out of the group and disowned her, and then made everyone else reject her as well-OR EVEN BETTER tricked them to think she left of her own volition

And because most of the champions are just being revived in N1 thats why they act like they dont know her