#my spotify just played an ad before Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy.

[inky-toons]

Gotta say the best pictures you can take is a nice one and a random really bad really shitty one below, as a person who's VERY camera shy if you do get photos it's just like that, a nice one I took 14 minutes to get pacing back and forth for good lighting and one where I bite the camera/assault you on the other side

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playlists || tom!peter parker x bestfriend!reader

peter finds the playlists you for him.

“i have arrived!” i said entering my best friend, peter parker’s room. “took you long enough, you said you were on your way fifteen minutes ago.”

“yeah?” i said sitting down next to him on his bed. “you live next door.” he said as if it was obvious. i shrugged, “a girl needs her time getting ready. on my way clearly means getting ready and leaving.”

“yeah, sure. whyd you bring your laptop and not ipad?” he asked, “i wanted to watch youtube or listen to spotify at some point and thought it was easier to bring it now instead of going back and grabbing it.” he nodded.

i got more comfortable on his bed and put my feet on his lap, he started reading again and mindlessly drawing shapes on my ankles and i smiled.

of course, i have a crush on my best friend peter parker and i love how affectionate he is. it just sucks knowing it’s only platonic to him.

“can you play some music? seems to silent in here.” i handed him my laptop, “i gotta go to the bathroom, play whatever.” he nodded and i stood up leaving his room and going to the bathroom next door.

i washed my hands after finishing and making a pit stop in the kitchen to grab me and peter root beer. i walked back and he was scrolling through something on my computer.

“i got us root beer, what you looking at?” i asked sitting down and looking at the playlist i made for him. “you made me a playlist?”

my eyes went wide, “you weren’t supposed to see it, fuck.” i feel so embarrassed and creepy. “why not? i love this, can you explain why you added some songs to the playlist? please?” he looked at me with complete love.

“you’re gonna think i’m weird, peter.” i sighed and put my face in my hands but he grabbed them, “no, please. i want to hear why.” i grabbed my computer and scrolled.

“before i start, im in love with you and most of these songs kind of base off my feelings with you. like you belong with me, when you were with liz and i had to watch the way she treated you and i knew that i could’ve treated you better. paper rings also makes me think of you, the song is basically taylor singing about how much she loves this person and it makes me think of you. dandelions, that one’s self explanatory. good old-fashion lover boy, makes me smile and i always picture you while singing it. i have a lot of songs that we’ve just listened to and i just love those memories.” i smiled awkwardly at my confession that i never planned to expose to anyone, let alone peter parker himself.

“i love you. god, im so in love with you. can we listen to the playlist now?” i nodded and pressed shuffled, ironically paper rings came on first.

“can i kiss you?” i nodded and he put his hands on my cheeks and kissed me passionately. “i’m so happy right now, ive never been so happy. you’re the girl of my dreams, y/n.” i smiled, “i love you peter parker.”

we cuddled, talked and listens to the playlist for hours. i’m glad i made that playlist now.

[emotions-ew]

A Collection of Queer Country Artists and Songs for anyone who doesn’t feel like there’s country music they can relate to...

There is this idea that country music is like just Republican men singing about beer, and trucks and also Jesus,  and that is kind of fair because loads of it is but there are some cool as hell queer/lgbtq+ country artists. Finding those and finding that representation in a genre of music I was literally raised on kind of changed my life in a tiny way and I wanted to share that.

(This is by no means a comprehensive list and also I’m basing the “Country” part of this sometimes on my subjective opinion/limited music knowledge so yuh please don’t hate me if I get some wrong)

Also link below for a Spotify playlist of my favourite gay/gayish country music, some mentioned in this post some not, (with a title that isn’t obviously gay for anyone who can’t openly listen to gay stuff on their public accounts for whatever reason) so feel free to skip the massive essay and just jump straight to that. And pretty please repost if I missed anyone/ any songs you love.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7KB6PmUxnpkU7lih8Bysvw

Artists To Follow:

Chely Wright

- Right off the bat, Chely Wright is a legend and I’m in love with her. So, in the 90′s Chely Wright was kind of a huge deal. She started her career as a singer/songwriter and released her first album in ‘94, which was critically acclaimed although never reached the commercial success of her later works. By ‘97 she was really hitting her stride, dropping her breakout hit “Shut up and Drive” (a personal favourite of mine) followed two years later by the biggest hit of her career “Single White Female”. Throughout all that Chely Wright was, to the world, a good old fashioned, heterosexual southern gal. Privately it was a bit of a different story. She had public relationships with male country artists, all while pursuing a secret decade long relationship with a woman. 

I hadn’t ever really heard a Chely Wright song until a few years ago so I never knew about her music or career pre-coming out but I do know that even though by the time she came out in 2010 she was by no means at the height of her fame Chely Wright is kind of one of the biggest names in country music to be out and proud (in my opinion) and I love her like an insane amount. I literally play her music in my car when I have passengers just so I can be like “fun fact this singer is actually gay-” and then subject them to a lengthy explanation of her entire career. She came out with an album and a memoir and the album is my favourite of her work because it’s so fucking raw and because I relate to most of it immensely. Anyways Chely Wright went fucking through it in her journey to being her authentic self and now she’s out and proud and married to a woman and they have a family together and I’m a fucking sucker for a happy ending and y’all should add her to every playlist you have. And on top of that her music is genuinely good. Coming out undoubtedly damaged her career but I think that

Brandi Carlile 

- As far as I can tell Brandi Carlile has been out her whole career. I feel like this list is just going to be me saying “I’m in love with her” about a bunch of women old enough to be my mother but in my defence, I am honestly in love with her. She’s been making music since she was like, seventeen, and has had a bunch of massive hits, as a singer, songwriter, and producer. If you want to cry kind of happy tears listen to her performance of “Bring my Flowers Now” with Tanya Tucker. She’s won Grammy’s and CMT awards and she’s done it all as an out Queer woman. She’s also a founding member of The Highwomen, an all-female country music group who released their first album in 2019, comprised of Carlile, Marren Morris, Natalie Hemby and Amanda Shires. I really love this band because they’re four artists who are immensely successfully in their own right collabing, much like the Highwaymen, and their music is phenomenal while also being a fuck you to mainstream country music and their inability to properly represent women in country music spaces. 

She’s been married to a woman (smoking hot and also brilliant) since 2012 and they have two kids together and if you want to cry (again) then you have to listen to her song “Mother” about her eldest daughter. A queer country artist absolutely worth adding to all your playlists. 

Brooke Eden

- As I understand it Eden came out publicly in January of this year. She’s engaged to Hilary Hoover, who she’s been dating since 2015 apparently. I can’t even imagine the pressure that must be on a person and how stressful it would be to keep a relationship secret from the whole world for years and personally I think they’re a cute as hell couple and I wish them literally all the happiness in the world. 

Brooke Eden has a few older songs that I think are really good, my favourite being “Act Like You Don’t”, and while her new stuff isn’t my usual country vibe I am a sucker for literally anything gay and it is legally my gay duty to stream any song that she releases to support my fellow queer. It’s quite different to anything Wright or Carlile sing but I actually kind of love that because it shows that country music of all different shapes and sizes and styles can be sung by queer artists. 

Amythyst Kiah

- Okay so I am a very new listener to Amythyst Kiah, but her music is literally so beautiful it would be a straight up sin to not include her on this list. Her music is country-blues-roots esq (more roots than country, I think?) and her voice is so unique. She grew up in Chattanooga and has been playing music since childhood. She recently made her Opry debut which is fucking awesome. She also belongs to a band called Our Native Daughters, described as “A supergroup of Black women in traditional music”. Their debut album “Songs of Our Native Daughters” did numbers and I haven’t listened to the whole thing but my favourite so far are “Black Myself” and “I Knew I Could Fly” so y’all add that to your playlists along with “Wild Turkey” by Amythyst Kiah because holy hell her voice on that will blow your mind.

Steve Grand

-        The first man to make this list, he should frankly be honoured. Grand has been an out and proud gay man making country music since like 2013, and I have so much respect for an artist who chose to simply never be in, choosing instead to simply write gay ass songs about being in love with men and letting the chips fall where they man. His music is always going to have a special place in my heart and, he’s cute so if you’re into men and music by men give him a google. add him to your playlists, his All-American Boy album is literally just a dozen songs that are perfect to yell-sing along to.

Katie Pruitt

-        Not hugely knowledgeable on Katie Pruitt but her music makes me feel crazy intense emotions and is absolutely gay

 Honorable Mention Artists I haven’t Really Listened to But Who I Know to be gay thanks to google and might be your thing so totally check them out:

Brandy Clark

Ty Herndon

Shelly Fairchild

Lavendar Country

Trixie Mattel

Cameron Hawthorn

Drop any other names of artists or songs you know of 

 Specific Songs That Make Me Fucking Cry or (in good and bad ways (but always in a gay way)) or basically are just gay as hell:

If She Ever Leaves Me; The Highwomen

- So, this album came out about a week before my first (and only) girlfriend broke up with me. The general gist of the song is a woman singing about how her loved isn’t ever going to leave her but if she does it sure as hell won’t be for a creepy man in a bar. A little ironic that I felt I related to it so intensely, considering she did in fact leave me. There’s this one lyric that goes “I’ve loved her in secret/I’ve lover here out loud/the sky hasn’t always been blue” and my girlfriend and I were crazy deep in the closet so I drew her a cute little picture of a grey cloud and on the back I wrote that lyric and I gave it to her and to me it was kind of a promise that one day I’d get a chance to love her out loud and even though I never actually did this song is forever going to make me cry because of the little bit of hope that lyric gave me and the way it’s inclusion on this overwhelmingly mainstream country album made me feel like acceptance was just that little bit closer. 

 All American Boy; Steve Grand

- Definitely one of the first gay country songs I ever heard, and Steve Grand didn’t once sacrifice a scrap of country for the gay. It’s beautiful, it’s a little sad, it’s hopeful. It’s forever going to hold a special place in my heart and the music videos is kind of one of my favourites ever. I found this song before I found myself and the way it made my heart warm should have been a stronger sign than I took it to be. 

Like Me; Chely Wright

- When you love someone you kind of make it your mission to know them in a way that no one else can. This song by Chely Wright is sort of an ode to that, and how even once you lost someone, you’re still going to know every little thing about them. On top of that it sort of speaks to the idea that all these things Wright learned about this woman, she learned in secret and she knew her and loved her in secret and now that they’re gone from each other she’s left with all of this knowledge and all of these questions and no one to answer them. I love the way it’s so slow and the melody and her voice, the way it’s low and a little raspy, make this one of my favourite Chely Wright songs.

The Mother; Brandi Carlile

-        Sorry but a song about being a mother by a queer woman is going to make me cry every time and actually I’m not that sorry. It’s quite a simple song, if any song written by Brandi Carlile can ever be described as ‘simple’, it’s an ode to her daughter. My favourite line is “you are not an accident/where no one thought it through” because it speaks to the fact that in order for queer women to have a kid together they have to want it so damn bad and also I just like the way her voice sounds on that line. This song is also the perfect thing to listen to if you ever for a second feel like being gay/queer is going to stand in the way of you having a family because it absolutely doesn’t have to and if that’s something you want, you can have it. Don’t let people try and convince you otherwise.

Loving Her; Katie Pruitt

-        Unapologetic gay love. Opening a song with “If loving hers a sin, I don’t wanna go to heaven” is a fucking baller move and she went there. The lyrics are beautiful, and her voice is phenomenal. It could be a sad song, about confronting religious repression and grappling with what that means for your love, but instead its triumphant. Katie Pruitt doesn’t give a fuck if you have a problem because she’s going to write songs for her lover.

Jesus From Texas; Semler

-        Not actually totally sure this is a country song, but it has the words ‘Jesus’ and ‘Texas’ in the title so I feel safe including it in this list. Honestly, I don’t really know why I relate so hard to this song. Like, I wasn’t really raised with religion, so I don’t know what it is about this funky little tune that makes me want to sob but there’s something about this tune that makes me want to do whatever the opposite of get up and dance is, but like, in a good way.

Lovin’ Again; Steve Grand

-        Breakup song that ends kind of positively? So good to sing along to at high, high volumes. The idea that losing someone doesn’t have to mean losing yourself and just because you can’t love them doesn’t mean you’re not ever going to love again. But also kind of about how it’s hard to get over someone, I don’t know it’s just good.

Cryin’ These Cocksucking Tears; Lavender Country

-        Jesus christ if this isn’t the coolest shit I’ve ever heard in my life. Sorry but a gay country group formed in 1972 who dropped possibly the first gay themed country album, and this was the title of one of the songs. God I am in love.

 Songs that (to me) are a little fruity or that I just relate to in a gay way:

Picket Fences; Chely Wright

-          Chely Wright is gay but this song came out long before she did and when she wrote it, it wasn’t supposed to be gay which is why it’s in this section and not the previous. The reason it’s included at all is because frankly ma’am, Mrs Wright, it’s a little fruity. And I feel a little bad for joking because honestly to me, the way I hear this song and knowing the context (that Wright was deeply closeted at the time she wrote and released it), it’s kind of just sad. The general gist of the song is Wright asking what’s so great about a traditional lifestyle anyways. It could be read as a woman genuinely questioning why we push that expectation that she’ll have two kids and a husband and a picket fence lifestyle, or even could be read as a woman who’s trying to deflect how much she does in fact want that, you have to listen and form your own opinion. But to me, it feels like a woman who’s desperately trying to justify why she doesn’t want that life not because she can’t have it, but she knows it will never be right for her. I don’t know it’s hard to explain I just feel like this song is a little bit gay even though I’m sure she didn’t intend that.

Sinning with You; Sam Hunt

-          Sorry but this song is gay. Sorry but you can’t write the lines “I never felt like I was sinning with you/Always felt like I could talk to God in the morning” and “if it’s so wrong why did it feel so right” and “But I never felt shame, never felt sorry/Never felt guilty touching your body” and not to mention the opening line of “raised in the first pew/praises for yeshua/case of a small town repression”, and expect to not sit in my car sobbing as I realised that while I never felt like what we did was a sin she absolutely did, and wishing I could have told her that I was sorry for making her carry the weight of both our souls but also that it wasn’t a sin and nothing in the world could feel that good and be that bad and it isn’t right that she had to be so ashamed of something that was just so good. Sam Hunt actually said after he wrote the song that while it was reflection on his own relationship with faith he genuinely hopes that people in the lgbtq community can like find comfort or whatever in his words and like go off king, we stan an ally.

  How do I Get There; Deana Carter

-          This ones easy, it’s about falling in love with your best friend and suddenly realising you want more than just friendship with them. Sorry Deana, that’s gay. In my Deana Carter of like Year 10 I played this song on repeat and screamed along to the lyrics as though singing it hard enough would make her like me back.

[brookylnboy]

Pirates Part Two

A/N: You might have seen this first part before (AND I’M INCREDIBLY SORRRYYYY). The last part is different though! Also, does anyone know if you can listen to radio stations on a phone (if not, sorry for the inaccuracy!)

“Evans!”

“Come on, Y/N!”

“Where are you taking me,” you asked as he pulled you along.

“We’re going out.”

“I need to go back to my trailer.”

“I thought you wanted to go out.” Normally you would feel bad when Evans did this to you. You didn’t say that you wanted to go out, nor have you ever for that matter. However, Evans always managed to pull this trick where he makes you feel guilty for not wanting to go. Hence, why you went out all the time with Evans. So much that, people were convinced that you were dating.

Which you definitely were not.

“Not tonight Evans.” He pouted and you patted his back.

“Rain check?”

“Sure,” you told him. You turned and started walking towards your trailer.

“Go have fun with Tom.”

“What?” You whipped around to look at him. He had his shit eating grin.

“I know that you ditch me for him. Knew for a little while. Just be safe okay. I don’t want anymore nieces or nephews okay.”

Your face went wide. “We don’t-”

“Just look in the drawer okay.”

“You did not!”

“I did. You have fun.” He winked before disappearing before you did anything. Evans might be much stronger than you but man could you be scary. Once inside your trailer, you searched through your drawers until you found the envelope labeled responsible. Rolling your eyes, you dropped it back and closed the drawer thankful that it wasn’t a half used box.

You waited for Tom on the couch picking up the book you were currently reading and that resided permanently on the counter next to the couch. However, it didn’t take long for you to fall asleep especially once you slide down to a half sitting half laying down position.

You started to wake up when you felt a blanket wrap around you, the sudden weight on top of you alerting you to Tom’s presence.

“What time is it?”

“Past midnight.”

“You kept me waiting,” you teased him.

“I’m sorry darling. I had to film another quick scene before I was released for the night. Why don’t you go back to sleep?”

“No, I can stay up.”

“You need some sleep darling. I’ll talk to you tomorrow.” You wanted to argue more but you were having trouble keeping your eyes open. 

You could tell he was about to leave even before he said, “Goodnight.” And reached out to him as he talked. 

“Stay,” you asked. He smiled. 

“Of course.” 

You moved over for him picking up the blanket as you did so that once he lay down beside you, you can wrap your arms and the blanket around him. You moved to rest your head on his shoulder as he adjusted the pillow his right arm wrapped securely around you. 

“Good night,” you told him as you felt yourself slipping back to sleep. 

“Good night darling.”

When you woke up the next morning, you smiled realizing that Tom was still there. You carefully moved your head to see him still asleep and then tried to carefully slip out of his grip (since you needed to pee) to no avail. He immediately tightened his hold on you and pulled you closer to him as you tried to keep silent. 

“You aren’t allowed to leave darling,” Tom whispered. 

“I kind of need to pee.” 

“It can wait,” he chuckled as you rest your head back onto his chest. If you really needed to, you could escape but it wasn’t a dire emergency yet. So for now, you enjoyed his presence. 

“Do you want to talk now,” you asked him. 

“We can,” Tom replied and before you could respond there was a loud banging on the door. 

“Y/N? Are you alive in there? Someone told me that you never left last night so I hope you’re in there since you aren’t picking up your phone and neither is Tom.” It was Evans of course and you sighed as you got up to answer the door. “Oh thank God. You’re needed in costume and makeup.”

“I thought I wasn’t filming till later?” 

“Since they had Tom stay late last night, all scenes were shifted to earlier today. Did you not get the message last night?” 

“I haven’t looked at my phone.” 

“Well, you’re needed in makeup, which I still don’t know why I had to get you.” You shrugged. “If you see Tom, tell him he’s needed later and to check his phone.” He winked before leaving. 

You walked into the trailer. “So Chris said to check your phone-”

“And you’re needed in makeup,” Tom finished. “The door was left slightly open.” He offered you a smile. 

“We’ll talk later,” you asked. 

“Of course, darling.” You grabbed your phone and checked messages as you walked to the makeup trailer. There were more messages than you would expect and ignored all except the ones dealing with filming. 

Once in the makeup trailer, you sat down in one of the seats smiling at Emilie and offering her a good morning. 

“Last scene for the week,” she commented as she started applying something. You sucked at makeup and never really followed what all happened to your face during your time there, although you should start learning. 

“It will be nice to have a few days off after the crazy hours this week,” you told her with a slight chuckle. 

“I bet it will. You going to get dragged out by Evans?” 

“Probably.” She chuckled. 

“What should we listen to today?” Every time Emilie was in charge of your makeup, you would listen to a different radio station, podcast, playlist, etc. 

“Surprise me,” you told her. She pulled up her phone and clicked onto one of the radio stations that played new popular songs. “Going for the popular radio station?” 

“It will be a weird break from the 80′s and 90′s.” You never listen to the stations that overplayed all the popular radio stations. Although, some of the songs were really good, you just enjoyed older music and weren’t into rap or “party” songs. 

Once your makeup was completed, she moved onto hair (after you go to the bathroom). Tom came in sitting near you as Jenn started on his makeup. “I see the station has changed.” 

“It has. I don’t know how I feel about it.” 

“It just seems weird,” Jenn commented. “It’s not a day on set until at least one Queen song plays.”

“We could still play a Queen song,” Emilie added chuckling. 

You could hear some commentary in the background on the radio and eventually, the conversation died down at it was the sound filling the space. “Now, here’s Taylor Swift’s new song.” 

The music started playing and you heard Tom ask Jenn a question.

“Which Queen song should we play today,” you asked taking Emilie’s phone and switching over to Spotify and pulled up Queen. 

“We haven’t listened to Bicycle Race in a long time,” Jenn said. You added it to the queue as the radio still played in the background. 

“Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy is always good,” Emilie added. 

You looked over to see Tom sitting there uncomfortable and rather pale. He seemed deep in thought. “Tom?” 

He looked to you and took a moment to respond. “Bohemian Rhapsody.” You added in the three songs and even added on “Killer Queen” to the playlist letting it play as you looked back over at Tom worried. 

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