#my thoughts are bouncing around lol

[inktheblot]

the best people in life are free 🌈✨

Been a while since I finished an AMV so I just messed around with one for fun 💖

[motherish]

Made myself a lavender latte and spent the entire day dusting and cleaning my room. 🧹☕️🧸

[squatch-and-stretch]

You’ve heard of AUs where Fiddleford went through the portal, and you’ve heard of AUs where Stanley goes through the portal, now get ready for both!

[good-beans]

Yandere Milgram. What do you think? 🎤

Mmmmm… a prison full of society’s most unloved and forgotten people whose fates depends entirely on the love and support of others is the perfect recipe for some yandere disasters… I confess I haven’t seen much specific yandere media/tropes, but have some loose headcanons under the cut >:3 The wording skewed outside of milgram since the prisoners have more control there, but these could definitely happen within the prison just as easily.

Haruka: Spends all his time with the person he likes, doing anything for them and doing anything to impress them. Though these start off as positive shows of his love, they take a turn when he finds that their reaction to him becomes even stronger when he’s showing off his strength and control…

Yuno: Showers her object of affection in attention and gifts, knowing exactly what it is that makes them happy. When this warmth is returned genuinely, she gets intoxicated by it. She’s been seen to risk her own safety to really feel something, to get a thrill, so when she thinks she’s found someone who understands and feels the same as her, she doesn’t mind risking their safety as well.

Fuuta: He’s glad to find someone with the same interests as him, and the two spend hours doing their hobbies together. Those hours become days, and at some point he’s nonchalantly suggesting the person he likes go everywhere with him. He talks about the scumbags of society and how dangerous the world is, and before they know it, he’s convinced them to stay back at his place, where it’s safe, forever. He can be their hero, and watch over them always. 

Muu: She’s thrilled when she has someone she loves, spoiling them with everything she has. Sometimes jealousy/doubt creeps in, and she worries their love isn’t true (after all, she’s met way too many people who were fake to her and hurt her,) so she decides to have them prove it. At some point the tests she’s asking of them change from something they choose to do, to something she’s forcing them to endure.  

Shidou: So one option is that after what happened to his family, his situation would turn out similar to Fuuta’s: a well-meaning fear of what happened last time would result into a full possessive panic of keeping them at home where he can watch over them. I’m also thinking that if something did happen to them, his desperation/confidence in his own abilities would kick in early. He wouldn’t trust any other doctor with their care, and insist he can do the proper procedures himself, happy to have their life in his hands. 

Mahiru: Very similar to Muu, Mahiru’s feelings are pure when she starts spoiling her partner. She’s heard too many stories of cheating and falling out of love, and all the best romances involve major and risky tests of love – why not plan a few of her own in order to write the perfect love story?

Kazui: After a lifetime of denying himself of what he wants, someone reciprocating his feelings could completely break a damn of emotions in him. He throws himself into the relationship, loving and being loved, until that cat-like hunger gets the best of him. He starts taking and taking, keeping them home and in his arms because he can’t imagine ever going back to a life without this.

Amane: (I’m pretty sure yandere is a romantic thing, but if it can also be platonic:) Amane loves having someone her age that understands and accepts her wholly. Even if the other doesn’t share the same beliefs, they don’t judge Amane for them like the others do. She shows her love by saving their soul – she starts convincing them not to treat injuries, sometimes physically preventing them from doing so. If this person tries to tell adults, they always side with the diligent, pious, school-focused half of the pair, further convincing Amane that she knows what’s best for the person she cares about.

Mikoto: Finding someone that finally turns his attention away from job allows Mikoto to pour all that extra attention into them. The same obsession he’d usually have for his work now focuses on one person who makes him feel just as fulfilled and important. They’ve become the center of his world, and he wants to return the favor by becoming the center of theirs, whatever means necessary. He makes sure they spend all their time together, and even starts keeping tabs on them no matter where they are in the city. 

John: It’s like a miracle to find someone that makes him feel safe and relaxed. John revels in the feeling of having them around. Just hearing their voice, just seeing their face makes him incredibly calm. John’s always had a bit of a “exceedingly direct” approach to problem solving, so he decides it would be best to just keep them with him all the time, where he can see their face and hear their voice, no matter what it takes. 

Kotoko: Surprisingly, I think her situation would be similar to Haruka’s. She’s not used to getting attention/recognition for her vigilante work, so having someone shower her in that feels amazing. She ramps up her shows of strength, both with the criminals she’s tracking down and when training with/hanging out with the person she likes. Even when she takes things too far, there’s a little thrill they respect her and her strength

Es: (Same thing, keeping it platonic:) Es isn’t used to strong feelings of affection for another, they mention never giving much thought to it before – so when it hits them, it hits them hard. They become obsessed with knowing everything there is to know about the other, loving absolutely every piece of new information they discover. Prisoner or not, they’re thrilled to keep running Milgram’s machine on this person in order to know every last detail about them.

[robingivesmemagic]

its a bit silly to imagine since i would never be able to make anything like it happen but if my dc au were to have 'episodes' i think the ones revolving around jason todd arcs would be titled things related to theatre or certain plays. kind of inspired by the one thing where he wouldve joined theatre club if it wasnt for robin duties, its kind of like he still gets a part

[prouvaireafterdark]

I really hope we get to see Daniel eat his “rent boy” comment this season. I want him to feel soooooooooo bad for that

[doueverwonder]

anyway I love the idea that the Thirteen view themselves as More Important then the rest of the states; not even on purpose I don't think. They reasoned long ago "we fought the Revolution, we were first, we have some Special State Status" and it just became an unconscious belief.

It affects just about everything they do, like they'll make executive decisions and only consult each other and the rest of the states just kinda have to deal with it. On stupid stuff like what they're order for lunch, no one really cares; but they'll do it on big things too.

They will also tell each other things, and sometimes even flat out say "don't tell the other states" when it is absolutely something everyone should have known right away. It's a bigger problem with some states than others, California, Texas, Florida, Illinois, are more offended by it and I mean... for good reason. It'll come out long after it should have, and its like "well we all knew and that's what matters" and not to be mean to any state but on a rational level those four are like "??? it was more important for Delaware to know than us????". It's clearly not a 'need-to-know basis' its just them thinking they're more important then the rest of the states.

[king-candybug-backup]

Hey @king-candybug-backup after re reading Kill switch I thought of making my own AU around wreck it Ralph called A Fresh Start am in the middle of making the prologue of it I could put down the first two paragraphs

It’s been around 6 years since the events of Wreck It Ralph and Mr Litwak had founded a backup code file for the racing character Turbo when he tried to access it he couldn’t gotten a warning that some of Turbo’s code had been altered to Litwak it seemed like a glitch but he would never know what really happened to Turbo’s code.

In a bit of a field Turbo wakes up and the first thing he notices that he wasn’t incinerated by cola mountain’s lava. He was glad thinking he could get revenge on that halitosis hobo and that glitch of a brat but he noticed a few thing he wasn’t very short anymore he quickly calculated that he had grown to five feet tall and seven inches he didn’t had any of his bug like appendages from when he turned cybug. He looked around and he was in the middle of a large and kinda creative race track stadium.

Yes am making Turbo taller cause I thought I would be a bit better then him being around three feet tall so I kinda want your thoughts of it

HELL YEAH TO MORE REVIVED TURBOS JHGHGFDGCFGVHJB

HE IS NOT DEAD IN OUR HEARTS LMAO

Sounds like a good start to me!! I'm sorry, I'm not good at like, verbalizing detailed thoughts lmfao DGFHGFCJGVKH, but I see no issues with the concept!

[theplatypusblue]

I don’t really know what I’m talking about but I think with Lloyd it all comes back to control, or like, the lack thereof in his life.

Cuz there’s the obvious bit with the whole destiny thing, where he doesn’t have control over the direction his life is going. Him wanting to relax with his family or spend time with his dad doesn’t matter; that’s not his decision to make. It’s all up to fate in the end. Then there’s the other thing with Morro’s possession, in which he loses basic control over his own body. I don’t even think I need to explain this one too deeply, it’s easily the most traumatic thing that’s happened to him (Splinter in the Blind Man’s Eyes says that pretty explicitly, even if it’s only like half canon)

And I think it all comes out in how he tries to deal with his visions in dr season 2. Cuz he can’t control when they come, and he tries so hard to make them go away but he can’t. Even beyond the distressing nature of the visions themselves, the whole situation must have been awful, just because he couldn’t really do anything about it.

(Also just a brief side note abt a thought I had that’s like, tangentially related to all this: there’s that nightmare he mentions in dr season 1, when Dorama’s freaky puppet thing comes to life. It’s a funny throwaway line but also. If you would allow me to get psychoanalytical for a sec. Maybe he’s having dreams abt puppets cuz like, subconsciously or whatever he feels like he’s been manipulated or “puppeteered” throughout his life.)

[toxintouch]

so I found your post about what if the cult that raised Unnamed MC was one of Vere's old cults and I just had a few thoughts. a Deicide Vere flavored thoughts.

(also I apologize in advance because this was a lot longer than I planned on it being lmao)

what if MC was meant to eventually be sacrificed? like, in an attempt to bring Vere back or something along those lines. and the MC knew they were going to be sacrificed; it probably played a decent factor in why they ran.

so how would MC react to finding out that Vere was the very deity that they grew up worshipping, had grown up knowing that they would eventually be sacrificed to him in a vain attempt to bring him back?

maybe the Devout Follower part of them hadn't been snuffed out by the time they met Vere. maybe all the old habits they tried to leave behind started to come back after being face-to-face with their god. maybe, in a scenario where something, or someone, would have to be sacrificed in order to remove the collar, they would decide to be almost exactly what the cult raised them to be: a sacrifice, but to free him instead of bringing him back?

or, alternatively, the Devout Follower part of them had been completely snuffed out by the time they met Vere. how would they react to finding out that, after all that running, they somehow managed to end up within arms reach of the very thing they had been running from? what if they choose to run again because of it, just up and leaving Eridia, leaving Vere still chained to the Senobium?

and of course: how would Vere react? MC being an ex-follower of his is one thing, but them being an ex-follower and an eventual sacrifice? someone who once fervently worshipped him and was, at least at some point in their life, fully willing to lay down their life for him with no guarantee it would even lead to anything?

(or how would he react to the "MC just fucking leaves" scenario specifically? sure, Normal/Canon Vere would be going through it, especially if him and MC were close, but Deicide Vere? yeah I think that would be his breaking point)

I don't mind the length at all!! I'm the last person who would ever complain, many ppl will attest to my long DMs, etc. In fact, thank you for taking the time to write out your ask and tysm taking an interest in my beloved Deicide Flavored Vere! ˗ˋˏ ♡ ˎˊ˗ Sorry it took all day to respond, I wanted to be able to set aside proper time to read your message and consider! :3 You're picking up what I was thinking abt for sure with your sacrifice train of thought! Though I'll admit I was thinking more of MC being a less literal sacrifice - chosen as the conduit or the one who is supposed to find Vere and bring him back to his people now that he has disappeared.

Oh, but the literal sacrifice angle is juicy. And less convoluted/more clear than how I was trying to make the pieces fit, when I made that post? I let myself get stuck on the thought that I wanted MC to feel...fashioned for Vere, but I was thinking, perhaps, too logically & not cult-y enough, lol.

✦ Perhaps MC thought - when they were a child? - that they would be alive to meet Vere when he came back, but once they became older they realized that: no, they were to be a sacrifice to bring him back. They had to be ready to die for him. And they are only acting as Oracle in stead of their deity until they become strong enough to divine his return, which they (via the cult's teachings) believe will require them to sacrifice themself to him, to die...

But once they realize that their curse is a curse and not a god-given ability that's been granted to them... What else isn't true?

✦ Or perhaps they realize that to be a sacrifice is to die for their god at the same time they realize the truth about their hands, like you suggested, and they knew that they had to flee for the sake of their life and for the sake of finding freedom. They finally saw the gilded cage they had been kept in.

I definitely want to further explore the branching thoughts & paths of Sacrifice!Unnamed grappling with their Devotion vs Apostasy, but I don't want to keep you waiting too long for an answer so I will just resolve to make relevant posts as I consider more/write more! Until then:

✦ I think, even if they want to say that they have left all of their devotion to their god behind...old habits die hard. Things slip through the cracks. No matter how tightly you think you've closed the door, a sliver of a shadow can still find its way into the room where you thought you were safe and alone.

✦ In this MC's mind, they have always been Vere's.

✦ And Vere... [incoming POV shift to match the original Deicide fic]

His own autonomy is important to him, yes, but he's a hypocrite at heart. He's a glutton. He craves power. And he craves you.

He didn't put the collar on his own neck.

But you did.

You belong to him; you were made for him.

You devoted yourself to him, chained yourself willingly and he's not about to allow you to take all the oaths and prayers and the sweet, secret whispers you've given to him back.

(Oh, but he’d have been a kind god to you. Eventually. In that other time, that fictional reality where life is fair. You can earn his kindness, but never his mercy. It isn't in him to be merciful.)

You can't take your devotion back. He has a taste for it now. The only way he's letting it die is if he devours it whole.

And how had he not recognized the taste of himself already on you? How had he failed to notice, so distracted by your enticing promise, that he'd already laid claim? He's been woven into your life from the very start. He didn't even have to go to your town to demand you. You came to him.

(He'll reward them, still, the dregs of his followers – a quick death when he kills them for leaving their hand prints all over what they knew was his, for the suffering they inflicted on you that was his to mete out – suffering that was his to bless you will, as punishment or otherwise.)

And the depth of your devotion? That presses into him, something tender and cutting, unfamiliar or at least long forgotten. He'll reward you once he's satisfied with your repentance. Once you've renewed your faith in all the ways he sees fit.

(How shall be react to your willingness to die for him? It's been so long since he's had something to lose...)

✦ Deicide!Vere is such a mess of feelings. I think he would have a lot of trouble deciding what to do about Sacrifice!MC being willing (currently or previously) to die for him.

✦ The complexity of the matter is that: Were it anyone else, he wouldn't hesitate. He'd be pleased to throw them into harm's way if it meant being free. But Deicide!Vere has been lonely, searching for something - someone - like him for so long. I think he sees the potential of Sacrifice!MC as the one person outside of himself that he could really treasure. (AKA love) They're the "thing" he wanted most, before he lost his freedom. Being confronted with a situation where he may have to sacrifice one of his greatest desires for the other? Even he's not sure what he would do, if the situation arose as such. So he pushes that thought and that feeling away. My vision of Vere is that, though he is somewhat scheming, he is also impulsive and driven by hedonism. For regular Vere, I'm sure he pushes it away until it has to be an impulse decision. For Deicide Vere? This is the shittiest, no-win scenario. Low luck stat really comin' thru.

✦ Re: MC just fucking leaves scenario: I think you're right that something about that breaks him. The rejection. The idea that they've found him unworthy, not the other way around. But most of all: the abandonment. That they would leave him to suffer, presumably forever.

He's their god, yet it's them who's sentenced him to hell.

✦ Another thought I often consider: MC succeeds in removing his collar and even manages to survive doing it. But they don't chose to stay with him. He's been mistrusting of them, too cold and harsh and unwilling to see them as an equal (or at least: unwilling to admit that he does). And so, they lay the collar at his feet and leave. One last supplication, the final prayer from their lips being: "Goodbye, Vere." And the door is firmly shut, this time. He's free but he's back where he started. Searching. Alone. (He knows they're out there somewhere, but they've surpassed him in order to free him. If he hides in the shadow, they hide - they live in the places that match their golden veins, and he can't find them there.)

✦ He thought he could find them anywhere. But he's lost their scent....

I know my reply was a little bit messy, but hopefully I've answered in a way that was fun to read! and maybe even scratched some of the Deicide!Vere itch for anyone who, like me, is constantly infected. Ty again for joining me in my little brainrot corner!

p.s. lmk if i didn't answer/can answer anything more specific that u were hoping for an answer to, it's been kinda a week for my brain!

[piesa2]

4 CALLS TO OLD AND NEW PHARMACY MADE WITHIN 20 MINUTES BUT. SHOULD BE GOOD NOW 👍 and everyone i spoke to was very lovely and nice so im only minorly embarassed for calling so much

[badkarma1998]

tell me more about your ocs! i only really know them from your art but i wanna know more!! who are they? what are their hobbies?

Gladly! Idk if you had any specific ones in mind or just all of them, so I'll do a quick rundown of my main/most developed ocs :3

(Gonna do a read more to spare everyone's dashs lol)

Stella:

probably my oldest and most developed oc

She's my take on a modern vampire, she's roughly 23-25 but she died at age 17. She had leukemia and her older brother took her to a coven of vampires to try and save her life. She woke up in an alleyway with no memory covered in blood and had to go from there. Now she works as a barista in Seattle to cover for the fact that she's undead and commiting identity fraud to get by

She's brash and broody, and likes to pretend to be a loner asshole, but really she's lonely and has a soft heart under her hard facade

Elliot:

my second most developed, deeply intertwined with Stella, can't have nice things.

He was a runnaway at 16 that Stella literally found in an alley, brought home, and gave him a couch to sleep on. I keep going back and forth on what I want to do with his story and his character, but the staple points are that he can see/talk to ghosts, and he blames himself for his Dad and sister's death, which is why he ran away from home. (Very big Nico Diangelo/Danny Phantom influences here lol)

He's a bit shy and goofy, but gets along with others easily and is well liked. He's an obsessive movie buff and self destructive people pleaser. After Stella took him in he managed to break through her tough outter shell and they became very close with a found sibling type bond

Which brings me to

Zack:

Elliot's childhood best friend and love intrest

He and Elliot have been super close since they were like 5. Classic boy next door best friend totally in love with the protagonist trope. When Elliot ran away, he didn't tell Zack, and Zack's reaction was to naturally hunt him down halfway across the country (something something hacked phone records and internet stalking). The scary new roommate (Stella) was a shock and he's pretty sure she's not human after she threatened him in a back alley the first time he met her, but that all works out eventually.

He's a tech nerd, loves puzzles/mysteries, and is a fan of obsurdist fan theories for different media. (And i do not evidently have any good reference pics for him...)

Forest and Sky:

They are twins, and they do magic. Their moms are both practiced in different magic arts and own a corner store than doubles as an underground shop for all sorts of creature clientele.

Sky is outgoing and energetic, always looking for trouble. She made a deal with a demon when she was a child to win a game, and now she has a cursed eye that can see into the future. She's very good at healing magic and various types of fortune telling, but she's very cryptic about any info she gets about the future, as it's not always set in stone and people's reactions tend to lead to unwelcome outcomes.

Forest is quite literally the quieter more reserved half. He's selectively mute, having neen born with a condition that rendered him deaf at a young age. Where Sky is jumping head first into mischief, he is usually being dragged along behind her. He is naturally gifted with blessings/curses and playing the drums. He develops a large unrequited crush on Elliot shortly after meeting him.

I have more ocs in the same universe/story, but those 5 are by far the most developed and thought out

Then I have some ocs from games

Liz:

my Lone Wanderer from various playthroughs and years of thoughts about Fallout 3. I've been on a kick lately developing her canon and character, I love drawing/writing her with beloved fallout 3 NPC and companion Butch Deloria

She's surprisingly well mannered for a person living in the apocalypse, she has major daddy issues, she's a literal folk hero, and while she's a great shot and can hold herself in a fight, she prefers to avoid violence whenever possible.

And finally

Bean:

my Final Fantasy XIV Warrior of Light

I named her Bean as a joke when my wife convinced me to play, and then I went and got deeply attached to her, and now I unironically have so many thoughts and feelings about a cat girl named Bean. She was raised on a pirate ship after being found by the crew in a bag of beans. She wasn't allowed to leave by her overprotective captain/adoptive father, and wanting to see the world she ran away to go be the protagonist of a final fantasy game.

She's deeply loyal and cares about her loved ones to a fault. She loves food, travel, and is a jack of mamy trades (my justification for being an omnicrafter lol)

And the last one I'll info dump about for now, cuz this got very long very fast. So uh... if you made it to the end I love you for indulging me 😅

[viksalos]

it's rly funny that a bunch of my weird friends all have specific reasons why they relate to paul atreides like "i'm nonbinary and he's described as having both a male and female consciousness" "i'm autistic and his visions sound like extreme systemizing/pattern recognition coupled with lateral thinking all turned up to 11" "one time i also got really high with my mom and got scared"

[thisdorkyblogthing]

I'm really at a point where I just wanna chuck a brick at the mere suggestion of realism in writing stories. Like, I really need to unsubscribe from some reading and writing subreddits or something bc I'm getting irrationally annoyed whenever I see ppl wanting smut to be written like a dry-ass(heh) sex ed pamphlet.

[falst]

What’s your charlotte character like?

Mine is an insane blue teifling vessel whos possessed by a god who wants to kill a random aroace girl who doesn’t even know her all cuz she thinks the aroace girl is love with the girl she likes (she isn’t, she is aroace but Charlotte doesn’t know what that means lmao)

!!! your Charlotte sounds so cool !!!

Mines a girl out of a rich family who was basically kicked out bc one of her moms came from lower standing + she started doing some forbidden magic and turned herself spider-y (mostly just changing her eye color and growing more eyes) who’s trying to travel down to a magic school in the southern part of the continent so she can get her magic under control and be as re-accepted into her family. Shes also a trans lesbian and plays the violin

[artpharos]

sometimes i think about the 20+ fics i orphaned a couple of years ago

it sounds silly now but. whenever i asked my ex-best friend what she liked about me, she always said that she loved my fics and art. so when we had that huge falling out, and me being deep in depression (mostly due to that friendship, but that's another story), i wasn't able to think of myself as someone who had needs and wants of my own that needed to be addressed. i guess i kinda fell into a 'if i can't make other people happy, what use am i' kinda thing and i thought that even if she hated me and never wanted to see me again, maybe she could still draw comfort from the fics i wrote for the ship we shared if i removed myself from the equation. obviously looking back now... LOL... i doubt she really could given everything but i guess i hoped she'd still find some part of me she could still love, y'know? not that she'd ever tell me

tbh tho... i don't really regret orphaning those fics. i mean, in the end, life went on (literally!) and i've written better fics, ones that are more true to me and my ideas. and i still can find those fics on my own and god, now that i'm in a better place, i can acknowledge that i still love what i wrote, and i hope people who come across those fics still find joy in them (even if it's not my ex-best friend). some of them even contain so much of the feelings i was going through, i can't help but feel like they're still very much a part of my history that i don't want to forget.

there is one fic of mine that has been kind of a carry-on from those days. The Fluffy Fairy Eggcident was first started back when I was so full of doubt of my own abilities and my own voice... and I guess since I'm writing the final chapter for it now, you could see how that changed over time, how i put more of ME into it rather than trying to write what I thought an audience would like. i think, solely for me, this fic has been so important to me because of that.

i also sometimes think about that one fic that had my ex-best friend listed as the co-author (though she didn't write a word of it, but did come up with the inspiration of it). since i orphaned everything, it has her listed as the author for it and idk if she hasn't realized that or maybe she just wants to keep that as something for her. sometimes i think, the person i am now-- i'd rather she orphaned that fic too, but i also want to honour the person i was then, who loved her and would have wanted her to have something good to hold on to from our friendship. regardless, it's not my decision anymore and i guess i hope that as long as someone out there finds joy in that fic, that's all that matters.

i guess the reason why i'm writing this is that it does feel like if i don't acknowledge what i did and why i did it, it does feel like i'm kinda ignoring the person i was before? and i don't wanna do that. i don't wanna forget the me that was in pain so loudly and yet not at all. and i guess i wish i could reach back into the past and hug myself and tell the person i was two years ago that it all gets better and what we wrote was all meaningful and worth it.