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Because it's May the Fourth I may as well mention that I am frequently thinking about the fact that Owen Carvour deserves to have a lightsaber.
#definitely was spooky#one of these days. one of these days i will make a star wars au.#it would work okay#owen's definitely got some anakin in him the parallels are there#he's got a bit of maul too#tbh he and curt both have pieces from both sides of anakin and obi wan#i just end up thinking occasionally abt an au where they're both jedi#and owen's maybe kinda more the model jedi who's seen as better at keeping to the tenets while curt is kinda less so#and if the council are at all worried about either of them then it's curt they're worried about#but something happens and owen cares far too much about curt and something goes wrong#and whatever that sequence of events it it is owen who ends up tangled up with the dark side#maybe while curt to compensate veers hard into being a by-the-book jedi as much as he can#idk i haven't thought it out properly#and it's the kind of thing i would probably change to make more of a point of emphasising the value of caring abt people#(era wise i'm thinking this is the equivalent of pre-order 66 so unfortunately luke's brand of being a jedi isn't here yet)#but idk i like the vibes. give the man his laser sword and his overcomplicated fight choreography okay. let my man get spinny and twirl!
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i think people on twitter have a fighting fetish because otherwise what explains this nonsense
it's genuinely unbelievable at this point i swear they're inventing new things to argue about
#and the discourse about getting multiple m&gs is so tired#cause the answer is there just is no correct answer and you will argue anout it until you drop dead if you're looking for one#personally i stuck to one m&g for my own sanity lmao i value not getting yelled at over meeting dnp mutiple times#it IS selfish to get a whole bunch of them but that's not... evil? like being selfish is a morally neutral thing imo lol#cause you got those tickets fair and square and to say you don't ''deserve'' to meet them several times is dumb as fuck#it does mean less tickets for others who haven't gotten to meet them at all though and you also can't really be mad people are upset by it#because obviously they are going to be#but again you have every right to go to idk 30 m&gs if so be#am i making sense#like. no side is more in the right than the other here#the stupid part is arguing about it for days on end#cause once you're done arguing nothing will have changed#answered
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if you're wondering how my day is going: i've already had two emotional meltdowns because i am once again home alone with the dogs while working full time and with no help and also my mum complained about the dinner i rushed to make to adhere to her schedule (she said it was too spicy??????????? it had garlic and a couple of cracks of black pepper in it??????????)
#harper.txt#i haven't been in the office in over 2 weeks now and i feel VERY isolated#constantly alone and not in a fun way#more in a 'i don't feel valued as a person and i'm clearly just free labour to them' kinda way#like fuck me actually doing my job right. y'know. the one i'm paid to do. why would i do that when i can instead change everything to adher#to their schedules which they always tell me last minute. like okay cool he's off to denmark for a few days and she's off to lincoln -#and once again i'm expected to rearrange my schedule at the drop of a fucking hat and it's never to MY benefit#maybe next time she can cook her own fucking meal
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Coding woes (Patreon)
#Doodles#Original#Ukadevlog#Bug testing sure is something lol#These are both problems I've figured out now luckily! And I did them on my own! :D Extra pleased with myself :3#My slightly cocky attitude of ''Well that was frustrating - luckily I'll never run into another problem again'' amuses me lol#'Cause in the moment everything's flying! The code comes together lovely and it's all great! And then I come up to the next thing#Something I haven't done before - something that there's no Direct how-to of how to do a thing#Like setting player-and-character pronouns! I didn't know how to do that! But I figured it out!! :0 What a rush haha#It really did take me an evening of knocking my head against the wall in attempts - I waaaayyy overcomplicated it to start haha#I was like - trying to set up a system that would call on specific pronoun sets individually based on player input#Ridiculous - so much easier to just slap some values into an envelope and have those tied to a specific shell lol#But that took all night! I got sleepy while working on it and even my drowsy brain was like Wait...what am I supposed to check against? Haha#Such a weird experience subconsciously as well :0 'Cause I had normal dreams that night#Maybe some slight code-adjacent dreams of A Screen With Text On It but that could be anything :P#Most of it was just normal dream melodrama - but in the few times I woke up to readjust or roll over or pull my blanket#It was juuuuust enough for my ''conscious'' brain to kick in and think about what to compare against - what structure would work#And so by the time I woke up proper I had to frantically write down a bunch of code in a spare word document so I wouldn't go stir crazy lol#Breakfast must wait! Dailies must wait! I Have to write this down!!#And when I implemented it - it worked exactly as I hoped it would and is much much Muuuuuch simpler to call upon haha#Wow! That was a weird fluke that definitely won't happen again! Haha#I don't actually believe that I just have no way of guessing which aspect will trip me up - This Should Be Easy! And then it isn't lol#Definitely didn't predict the second - Especially because other than a small roadbump of not knowing how to Shell-Switch (ty again Cherry ♥)#Everything up to then was going well and everything after that was going fine! Until The One Thing happened pffbtl#I wanted to assign a value to check if a specific piece of code was being called upon - basically a fork between two outcomes#That went fine! The value Was changing! But only the first fork was being called???#No lol I just didn't put the second = ugh pft - and what's more frustrating is that I'd been using == up to that point!! I'd been warned!!!!#I - for some reason - was convinced that using && would make the value check Only need to check If x = 1... That's not how it works......#It's an If statement! If x = 1 then why do I have to check IF x == 1! Just check!!! Hwagh rules and whatnot lol#Like I said it's all fixed now but sheesh! What a silly mistake! I knew better!! And now I double know better haha
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I think the BG3 community is sleeping on Deep Gnomes, tbh.
Especially Deep Gnomes with medium armor mastery???
The wisdom save advantage is awesome. [Especially on a Durge, but there are still so many Wisdom saves regardless of if you're a Tav or a Durge] Early ones, like the harpies. Late ones I don't wanna spoil on main. But like. Wisdom saves, specifically saves, it is absolutely rock and roll to have that at an advantage.
Now, you could go Rogue, or Gloomstalker, or some other such sneaky class to utilize the Stealth Advantage, but let me present an alternative as well.
Most medium and heavy armors make sneaking virtually a no-go for most characters. Even if they have good stealth or dex, disadvantage sucks the feasibility right out. But listen, Advantage cancels out Disadvantage. A Deep Gnome in heavy armor is just as sneaky as a similarly stated elf or a human is in light armor.
And if they're in Medium Armor and take the Medium Mastery Feat? That gives them their advantage back.
Imagine you're out there, being a villain, committing nefarious evils... and suddenly, out of nowhere, a very angry Paladin in full on golden Adamantine armor is just. Directly behind you. No warning.
You're getting smited. There's no time to dodge, you are simply going to be smote. That's just how it is.
Wisdom Save Advantage + Stealth Advantage + Superior Darkvision ???
You're unstoppable, basically. Nobody can hide from you, you can hide from everybody, and the baddies have one heck of a time trying to get into your head.
[And the short camera angles are fun. And they have cool ears.]
#thank you for coming to my ted talk#fandom#bg3#baulders gate 3#Tav#Durge#Deep Gnome#I am a Deep Gnome Paladin truther; and there's not a soul who can stop me#I mean; tbh I have fun trying out all sorts of different builds; both for how they handle in battle; and for what they change in dialog#and I also really enjoy Bard#Came into this thinking I'd like drow the most; but actually; this game opened my mind to the wonders of gnomes#It's still fun to do drow or duegar; tho.#I really love how many choices Larian gave us. Very rock and roll of them.#gives a ton of replay value#but yeah; if you haven't tried out a melee gnome before; I highly recommend you give it a try sometime#Melee gnomes are a ton of fun! ^.^#(Gnome Durge; Gnome Durge; Gnome Du-!)#Whaaat. Who said that last tag there? Hm?#Melee Gnomes are fun; Tav or otherwise
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I'm willing to at least hear out most of the "xyz plot point is heavily tied to abc cultural context" brands of posts but the "wwx isn't meant to be read as morally gray" and "the western fandom made up Sizhui being wangxian's son" brands of post make me feel like my cultural ignorance is being used to gaslight me
#mdzs#vent post#the filial piety stuff in relation to jgy is incredibly interesting and has influenced my opinion on him#being told about the whole mo dao vs gui dao thing was very helpful since that is completely lost in the english translation#whether or not wwx's self sacrificing tendencies are supposed to be a good thing is a conversation i find interesting#even though i haven't come to my own conclusion on it yet#but wwx not being morally gray??? bro was a major player in a war- no ones coming out of that spotless#i also just straight up don't trust y'all about what mxtx said on him being morally ideal#y'all take her words out of context or just straight up lie about what she said so often that#I can't take anything y'all “repeat” from her at face value. i need links to the sources before I'll believe anything#on Sizhui being wangxian's son:#thats so embedded in the text the only way I'd believe it wasn't the intended reading is if 7 seas straight up rewrote section of the books#because its more than just a few throw away lines and wwx calling him his little one#its sizhui being formally adopted into the lans (proven by the cloud pattern headband)#its the extra where they take him on a nighthunt/investigation without any of the other disciples#its the paying extra attention to his hw while doing the grading#its in the miscellaneous anecdotes Sizhui remembers from wwx even after he lost his memories from early childhood#its the baby stories and sizhui chewing on wwx's flute#its Sizhui's unconditional faith in the two of them#its in Sizhui's choosing the same instrument as lwj#that is their kid!!! not through modern western adoption but thats still their kid!!!#sizhui developing a close relationship with his uncle doesn't change that#Wen Ning is the cool untaking the lan babies on field trips. wangxian are the ones actually raising him#also mxtx has been pretty open about being influenced by things other than chinese classics#so using “well traditional Chinese story telling uses this convention” will never be automatically be the correct™️ take on her work#not to say her stories are completely devoid of traditional structures its just she mixes in other styles too
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some of you guys need to go outside and make friends that aren't on tumblr and be niceys to them. it's very important to discuss ideology in real life and not online because people that haven't gone down the rabbit holes you have will notice when your arguments aren't sound and then you have to figure out which things you actually believe and which things you heard on tiktok and felt like you had to repeat in order to be a real leftist
#some of you guys are talking about things that do not exist in the real world#or you're talking as someone with no real life experience of these things and you need to talk to someone that actually has that#there's this thing i noticed where a lot of you just repeat buzzwords at each other without actually making a good argument#people that haven't heard the buzzwords before will ask you what you mean by that and then you have to realise#that you don't know what you're talking about#i'm speaking from experience as someone who used to be pretty isolated and has noticed the way my worldview changed a LOT#when i made friends outside my bubble#mori talks#also it's important to discuss these things with people whose respect you actually value because then you realise#when you're being totally insane#in a way that you do not with some rando online
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would that knowing the thoughts were irrational would Make Them Go Away!!!!
#medic's log#because i value some degree of privacy tumblr will not receive the full context#but i had a friend cancel plans i was really looking forward to#for reasons that are extremely very fair and honestly it's for the best that she Did#since i think going through with them would have put undue stress on her mental health. if not also Mine#but goddamn if it's not making me feel like absolute garbage#there's only so many ways (one. maybe two) that she can say 'i promise it's not personal' before i become the problem. el em ay oh.#and like. i Know this is me. i know this is the horrific confluence of too little sleep#and forgot to take my meds for two days#and the flavor of mental illness that makes any kind of rejection a Stab To The Heart#and the inability to handle plans changing#but also. that does not stop The Catastrophizing#the ability to reschedule these particular plans is. potentially nonexistent and i'm in my feelings about it#i know this literally isn't the case but by god does it feel like i'm being passed up as a second choice for someone more preferable#both friends involved in this have told me Multiple Times they value me in their lives and yet the little voice goes#'ohohoho you fool they are just saying that to be Polite'#never mind that both of them are so well known (in general and by me specifically) for laying down very specific boundaries without shame#so if they didn't want me around they'd fucking tell me#but also i super do not know how to broach with both of them 'hi this is a thing i'd like to do at some point' without sounding#so fucking Needy.#idk. shit sucks.#shit could suck infinitely worse but that doesn't stop the rock in my house Being There Loudly#i think i need to sleep and then SING LOUDSTYLE in the car for a bit#and then text both of them and reestablish a line of communication outside of The Plans#to make my brain go 'hey fuckwad i promise these two people actually like you'#at this point i'm basically normal but i'm trying to parse all the feelings so they don't hit a boiling point. Later.#it's whatever. i'm drinking a ginger beer and scrolling. shit could be worser#godspeed tumblr thank you for listening to my woes.#also probably a good sign that i haven't made one of these types of posts on this blog in. awhile#less good sign that i'm making one now but. you know lmao
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[just venting a bit into the void you understand you understand 😌] Lately I've been feeling very caught between "I have a lot of thoughts on Sparrow and Normal and all that with the ending and teen talk and feel like I need to get them out and voice them for my own piece of mind and resolution" and "I am lacking the strength and energy to actually sit down and write it all out and kind of really just want to fully move on to other things (AUs, fics, anything else)" but my brain can't seem to commit to either and that's quite frustrating cause it's just left me very restless. *Sigh*. Idk! Just needed to complain about that a bit ig, it's silly but this is what has been ailing me as of late.
#Then there's also a part of me that's like “does anyone even care at this point? haven't I already talked about them too much?”#but I have seen many a take that irk me...#and perhaps at the center of it all nagging at me is that persistent conflation of love and pride#Less about that in Normal's mind so much as in Will's and the fandom's 🤔#Also that reoccurring issue of the fandom going ''Normal thinks this therefore it is The Truth'' though I believe I've discussed this befor#And... Hooks Will could have grabbed onto but didn't... Quite a few of those...#And the double standard/negativity bias in fandom of ignoring that Sparrow says both that he loves and likes Normal while doodlerized#But not treating those with the same legitimacy we do the pride thing. And ignoring Sparrow's demonstrations of love and change...#And what the love wolf scene actually implies about Sparrow (as I see it) with his own explanation of the pride thing in mind#But also!!! Also on Norm's epilogue and how despite everything taken at face value (i.e. no teen talk influence) I don't actually hate it#and I think it's plenty salvageable#And gah also that like *regardless* of how things turn out with Normal and his dad-#Well I haven't listened to much of the teen talk just the directly Sparrow-relevant clips#so I don't know quite how cynical Will is or isn't about Normal's future#But like. UGH. What I'm trying to say is even if things didn't find resolution vis-a-vis his dad#(which tbh I could go either way on- it's the meta misinterpretations of Sparrow that Bother me not so much Normal's)#(Well that's complicated. Again it comes back to the love vs. pride thing gosh this is so vague of me lol)#With all the positive influences in his life (and just the fact that life is long? and therapy is a thing?) I just don't see Normal-#being Miserable for the rest of his life. Like. I mean I won't elaborate here really but damn it no he can absolutely turn out alright stil#blugh#BUT YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN THAT'S A LOT OF STUFF AND THAT'S ONLY VAGUE RAMBLINGS ABOUT *SOME* OF IT#Like I'm proud of a lot of my essay posts (which I'm hoping to eventually compile in a masterpost eventually actually) but they take a whil#And if my heart wants to do other things... Ah idk...#ANYWAYS a vent to vent a vent to vent
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I'm going to try to get back on here more soon (I say, while my work calendar lets out a loud, mocking laugh and says "you wish"), but given r.iot's new lore announcements, I'm here to say that if they change Camille's lore? no they didn't. as the word of god on my version of Camille, I'm keeping the old lore and will be living in denial ✨
#that's valid about all my muses tbh but Camille is the one I'm genuinely worried about#they already tried to mellow her out when she is?? meant to be scary?? she's meant to be the more honest & capitalistic side of Piltover#& i could get behind the changes because i like the idea of her being torn about what she gave up to become who she is#but the main point is that *she still made the arguably evil choice*#& I haven't really explored that in rp but her brother played himself because she'd have made that choice even if he hadn't manipulated her#because she values her family's financial well-being & the insitutions of Piltover above herself and her desires#anyways#my first post back and it's venting about l.ol#i feel like a true l.ol player now :')#runes & recalls — out of character
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Growing up low church will do things to you. I was eating an unheated plain flour tortilla because it's late and I was hungry and suddenly I got overwhelmed with sense memory telling me I was doing something sacred.
#a sock speaks#I haven't taken communion for several years because of scruples and my changing values#and I know people will say that little cups of grape juice and bits of tortilla is not reverent enough#but wow it was an intense feeling#the awareness of what a gift it is. what a love for Christ to feed us with his own body.#how good it is to be fed. how incomplete it is to be alone.#christianity tag
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@cunt-removal @wheredidalltheusersgo @r4bidcherry @fin-the-fissssssh @predict485 @gweathney-propaganda @perpetualexistence @maybeophe @rene-01
+ many others ^^
Bro, We Are Homies . Its Ok To Infodump To Me . Im Ur Friend . I Love You . And Your OCs. … Bro, We Are Drawing Eachother Fanart Now . . No Dont Stop Randomly Messaging Me Bro .. Bro …
#SHOUTOUT TO MY FRIENDS!!! SHOUTOUT TO THEM THEY ARE SO COOL!!#trust me when I say im JUST as afraid of you guys as you are of me#and ik how it feels but trust me I value you guys' time and I love the times I get to talk with you#I like gaming with you! I like talking about aus with you! I like making jokes with you! I like discussing things with you!#ik I haven't been been the most active these past few months but rest assured my opinions haven't changed at all you guys are awesome#just wanted to send a reminder since ik a few of you guys haven't felt as noticed or loved recently and to lyk that hey! we're cool!#non-td stuff
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i forgot i am no longer surface level clockable as someone not normal about creepypasta / slenderverse. i need everyone to be reminded i am fucking insane about creepypasta / slenderverse
#its more like an old friend to me than anything like a spintrest or hyperfocus#i always have a creepypasta hyperfocus during the year but i revisit it like how you visit your best friend from childhood#you both have changed a lot but your cores are still there#so even if some of your values have changed what both made you two haven't#so jts like#augh#i love it deeply still and have a lot of big feelings about it too#it saved me a lot of my childhood and early teen years#and also introduced me to horror in a way that interested me#it means so so so much to me
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Privated my Twitter and uninstalled the app from my phone. It's too early to tell how Bluesky will unfold but anything's better than a website that's 50% AI bots and 50% Hitler Jrs.
#txt#'not deactivating so i can sit on the handle/wait for a change in management/follow artists who haven't left yet'#'but i don't see a lot of value in posting there anymore. will prolly still lurk and like my oomfs inane posts tho'#'will my numbers suffer? probably but it's not like i was ever famous to begin with lol'
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Part of what Cory Booker is doing with this filibuster is reading things into the record. Sometimes when people do a filibuster, they just say shit. I think one time Ted Cruz read "Green Eggs and Ham" into the record. Another dude sang the Mets theme song or whatever the shit.
If you actually have substantial things to say, you don't have to do that. I mean, not for nothing, but what we're watching here is a man doing the job he was elected to do. Our public officials work for us, the people. It's nice to see some of them take that obligation seriously.
Booker is standing there with a binder that he's not even halfway through reading. *Over 42k people are watching it just on YouTube. I haven't watched the news yet today, but I've got the live feed of this open on my computer.
I hope he has a catheter and/or a diaper on. He said he'd continue as long as he's physically able. Probably he's been on a liquid diet for a day or so. I would plan ahead for this.
If Republicans are going to refuse to do the work, if they're going to refuse to take up serious business and would like instead to fuck shit up... Well, we've got a choice to make, don't we? I don't know what the long-term solution looks like. But we can and should talk about it. We can and should take steps to make sure the public record reflects reality to the extent possible.
Really, if we want to come back from this, we have to talk about it. And we know that the official records during this time especially will be, shall we say, less than reliable. So there is value in speaking the truth into the public record.
I'm not in love with the Democratic party as an institution. But this can also be energizing and inspiring for people. He's setting an example, and hopefully his example will shame others into growing a backbone. Hopefully.
I really don't have any hope for Schumer. But Booker, along with folks like Bernie Sanders, Elizabeth Warren, AOC, and Jasmine Crockett, are doing what they can do, and I respect it.
This is definitely a coordinated thing, though. Finally, Dems are showing that they have some strategic ability. Booker is the main speaker, but other Dems are asking questions, while allowing him to retain the floor. In this way, it's clear that they're working together, and several people in the room have jobs to do in support of Booker's efforts. They're expanding on his points and doing a call-and-response thing, which is an effective tactic in more ways than one, and it allows him to rest his voice for a few moments at a time.
So I'm not becoming a cheerleader for anybody yet. But what he's doing is important, even if it doesn't change anything directly.
Miss me with bipartisanship talk though. I really can't see that as a viable option at this point. Unless something radical changes, I wouldn't trust that at all. So anytime somebody like Schumer talks about Republicans coming to the table, I can't be bothered to listen. They have repeatedly shown us that they have no intention of doing that and that they further do not care about right and wrong at all. Or if they do, they think their actions are right, and I'm not sure which is worse, but in both cases, I would not call them trustworthy. Their priority is being in lockstep with Trump and the prescribed agenda of the party, not the American people.
At least Booker is trying to do something. Shit.
* When I started typing this, the number of viewers was just over 42k. Now it's over 45k and climbing.
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truth be told... i have got no irl experience, so i did this based on what i think my future (dream) s/o should be like, and how i imagine myself to be in my selfships with my s/o. 😊✨
take this dating personality quiz and rb with your results bc im nosy and always curious !!!!!
(this is mine)
open tags as always <3
#yes cuteness is a weakness of mine#but not the obvious cuteness; it must be subtle and deeply-placed#yes i prefer shared values#'birds of a feather flock together' >>>> 'opposites attract' imho#yes i'm not too fond of chatterboxes#i should be the yapper; they should be the listener /half-joking#yes i do have high standards#something i'm not going to change about myself no matter what#yes i'd break up over differences between us both#but only if they're major; i'll adjust if they're minor differences#though to be honest i would never date them in the former case#yes i'm robot-like and too logical sometimes#my family and friends LOATHE me for it sometimes hehe#yes i'm slow to start relationships#so slow in fact that i have never been in one till date /genuine#(also because i haven't felt anything ever—like—not even a crush)#and yes—i love long-term dating#[games]
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