#namsan park

[chard0nneret]

I've been blossoming alone over you - Mitski, Pink in the Night

(photographs taken by me in Namsan Park, Seoul)

[happymeishappylife]

Trips I Took This Year - Seoul, South Korea (Part 4)

These are pictures from some of my more miscellaneous exploration. I spent my days checking out things in the morning and early afternoon and then met up with friend for dinner during my first week. When she wasn't working, we often just walked around checking out different neighborhoods or just hanging in a café to work on our stories. It was a nice way to see the city but experience day to day life, plus getting to see the cities in different ways was really fun.

Pictures starting from the Top Left to the Bottom Right: Namsan Park, Namsan Botanical Park (Pics 2-3), Seoul Tower (Pics 3-6), Olympic Park (7-8), Lotte Mall Plaza, and Yeouido Hangang Park by the Han River where we had a picnic and ate fried chicken.

[voxyldy]

09.18.2023

[INFO]

Seoul x V of BTS | Selfie with V

Seoul x V of BTS

🔗 https://youtu.be/WvcZscQu7tU?si=gVSuaFBA78-5Ewfk

Source: Tae Guide / VisitSeoul TV

[go-venture-beyond]

Above Seoul, Namsan Tower

[nhdiary]

[kstarvibes]

BTS 10th Anniversary Celebration: A Colorful and Vibrant Tribute in Seoul

Seoul, the bustling capital city of South Korea, is preparing to host a grand celebration dedicated to the internationally acclaimed K-pop group, BTS. In a remarkable tribute to BTS, the city plans to adorn its iconic landmarks with illuminating purple hues. This splendid spectacle, orchestrated by the Seoul Metropolitan Government in collaboration with Hive, is part of the festivities marking…

[makhonkit]

Korea Chronicles : Namsan Tower, Itaewon, Yongsan Park, Korean National Museum (Part 3)

This was part 3 of my trip, towards the end of my trip to Seoul. I managed to get a hold of my friend, Jumper SeJong, that I met in Salt Lake City, USA in 2017. Back in 2017, Jumper SeJong and his son were in US to see the solar eclipse. He's also a Pro Skydiver. This round I get to meet his family all the way in Yongsan, Seoul in Korea. 

My day started with my trip to Namsan Seoul Tower ( @namsanseoultower ) It was amazing. The ticket I bought included macarons and a drink of choice, I chose Ice Chocolate. Very worth it!! View was amazing. I thought I had to walk all the way up because the cable car was under maintenance. But luckily it opened as I was walking up the hill. 

 After Namsan Seoul Tower, I took a bus to Itaewon. The place where a very bad tragedy happened in 2022 during Halloween. It's a very happening place but the area where the tragedy happened is quiet. 

From there I walked to Yongsan Family Park. It's really beautiful. I love how they have a small farm in almost every park. To teach people the importance of growing food. After that I walked to the National Museum of Korea. It's really nice in there. Quiet, peaceful, a lot to learn, and most importantly, free high speed Wi-Fi!!! Data can sometimes we limited when we are traveling. Internet is precious! 

 Then I walked to Yongsan Station to meet my friend Jumper SeJong and his family. We had 3 dinners together. Super good times!!!  First was Sundae Sausages, with SoMeg (Soju and Beer mixed!!), then we had dobokki, gimbap and lots of young people food with beer, lastly we had very nice American beef with two different types of makgeolli. It was Divine!!! Really appreciate my friend for the dinners and warm hospitality.

[i0134]

𖥻 THINGS — enhypen ◌ ִ ۫ ּ

syn ; things enha reminds me of !

heeseung !

dangly earrings, pendent chains, skinny ripped jeans, rock guitar, clubbing, late studio night, concerts, rainy empty street, love songs, specs, ice cream, deers, rainforest, going over the speed limit, long drive, polaroids, balcony, tattoos, collage campus, basketball, getting into fist fights, breaking rules, warm breeze, kisses, sharing earphones, untied shoelaces, sleeveless tops, cross jewelries, chase atlantic songs

jay !

red wine, ball dance, guitar, empty kitchen, champagne bubbles, tuxedo suits, runaway, black cat, fashion magazines, gold jewelries, camping, eucalyptus, biking, biker jackets, street racing, late night walks, city lights, porsche, cologne, the weeknd songs, loose tie, fancy restaurant, chanel bags, iced americano, home, long hugs, words of affirmation, eye contact, autumn, posh music, v necks, opera, musical recital, marriage, ancient churches

jake !

pancakes, golden retrievers, empty parks, cardigans, picnic, wolf pups, landscapes, abstract art, lip piercings, makeout sessions, mornings, cream, sheets, swimming, sand castles, tree houses, venus, varsity player, rings, clashing waves, sun shinning through curtains, backyard, champagne, sparkly eyes, netflix and chill, forehead kisses, caramel fudge, winter, jb songs, garden, lilies, lipstick stains

sunghoon !

sculptures, greek mythology, snow, ice skating, pointe shoes, swan lake, ice rinks, rhinestones, vampires, sharp canines, royalty, huskies, novels, cruise, 90s songs, ear muffs, moon phase, poetry, dandelions, maple leaves, vanilla shake, pearls, penguins, blush, lucid dreams, confessions, lullaby, archangels, romance movies, boyfriend coats, monsoon, hair blowing because of the wind, moles, tears, old love, unrequited love, ribbons, weddings

sunoo !

sun, tulip field, solar system, marshmallows, tteobokki, street food, shopping, karaoke, smiles, cute stationeries, stickers, secret diary, cheek kisses, mufflers, red foxes, bratz doll, playdate, selfies, carnations, easter, boba tea, bestfriends to lovers, cherry blossoms, lip gloss, skincare, disney shows, late night face timing, gossiping, watching kdramas, sanrio stuffs, blowing bubbles, photo booths, texts, horizon

jungwon !

kittens, valleys, teenage dream, gold fish, aquariums, subways, cds, headphones, empty bus rides, babybreaths, holding hands, first love, taylor swift songs, messy hair, vacation, countryside, group study, constellations, piggyback ride, dimples, converse, empty classroom, sheep cubs, indoor plants, mini cactus, namsan tower, han river, late fall, vintage hand written letters , young love, romcom, kitties

ni-ki !

graffiti, sunsets, baggy pants, late night dance jam, empty beach, bicycling, sea shore, ear piercings, watermelon, summer, slow dancing, grass field, bungeoppangs, duck chicks, disneyland, ps5, arcade, puma cubs, eskimo kisses, bracelets, youth, climbing fences, skipping school, skateboarding, mangas, school festivals, footsies, cute band aids, oversized attires, j-rock, night sky, laughters, slice of life, teenage, playfulness, photo booths, anime, shoujo manga

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[starlostseungmin]

LIE TO ME, LMH.

✰ pairing: idol!minho x gn!reader

✰ genre: angst

✰ warnings: profanity, cheating, allusions to sex but not executed, just pain, grammatical errors and typos ahead. not proofread.

✰ word count: 1.5k

✰ song used: lie to me by 5 Seconds of Summer ー the afterglow series collab. ♡

✰ notes: thank you so much @comet-falls for making this collab possible! it was a challenging fic for me to write but i enjoyed it so much. please, to all who are reading the series, make sure to leave feedbacks and reblog the works of our wonderful authors because they deserve it for their hard work! don't forget it.

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There’s nothing wrong about breaking up. 

But to Minho, you were just so hard to forget. Maybe it was his fault that he blames himself whenever he thinks about you. Why did it happen? Where did he go wrong?  Where did you go wrong? For the past three years, you have been so happy. Who would have thought that your relationship would end with one repetitive mistake? 

“How many times did you do it?”

They say that the strongest relationship doesn’t depend on how long it is, but it depends on a person’s loyalty and faithfulness. You had seen a lot of it. He cheated because she wasn’t enough, she cheated because he’s stupid, he cheated because she’s not attractive, she cheated because he is just treating her like everyone else, there are a lot of reasons. You don’t know if they’re telling the truth and you have no idea how many times they did it behind your back. The relationship you build with him doesn’t go any different. 

“Did you love me?” 

There are questions unanswered. Lies. Happiness. Satisfaction. The love and domesticity. But a relationship is not complete without suffering and pain. Tears. Drunken messages and calls. 2 am fights and other bullshits. And just like everyone else, you and Minho had the same. It’s just that, one just had to take the ties between. You can cut it in half or he can just rip it apart. 

There’s nothing wrong about breaking up. 

You just did it late. 

“How long has it been?” 

The wind blows as it dances with the branches of the trees around the park. It is cold and your clothes aren’t enough to warm you up. But what feels more freezing is the relationship that turned into stone after years of being genuine. Minho sat beside you on the bench, watching the scenery together with the Namsan Tower standing a few miles away with the city lights glowing on a dark horizon. None of you decided to talk after every question. One had been keeping the answer. 

“I saw you.” A pause. “You were happy with them, and I thought I was making a name in your life,” There was a pain in that smile. One that could hide all the aftermath of what they did and as for youーnothing ever changed. “I went to New York to see you, even had to stay with you for a few days because I know you wouldn’t be home for at least a few months,” 

“You didn’t have to do that,” One said. 

“I did,” A pause again. “I did because I love you and I want to see you. How long have you been hiding this from me?” 

There were tears visible as it streams down to your cheeks. You loved him dearly, but you couldn’t stay like this forever and suffer. You admit your relationship with him had been crucial for the past few months, his life was busier than ever as you work in your family’s business. It wasn’t an issue before, the lack of time was not to blame一maybe it was or you were never really meant for each other. 

Or it was caused by a third party. 

It’s funny how the night changes when it started with Minho who was so head over heels as much as you. But when you woke up from a dream, everything fell differently. 

“I’m sorry,” He said. 

“Did you ever love me?” You asked, trying not to sound petty. 

“I did,” Minho said. “I loved you so much!” 

“Then how can you cheat on me?!” 

There was no answer again but pure silence. Nobody dared to talk, but you are sure it’s over for the both of you. He seemed happy with his new one but you feel the opposite. There are words that you wanted to yell at him, scream at him and tell him how fucked up this situation was. But there was none. It’s over, and if you were smart, you’ll forget about this and move on. Words come out makes it easy but how could you do it in just one snap?

And now, you couldn’t get something from him. 

Even those nights when you were lying naked on his bed as he kissed your body filled with warmth. The I love yous between heavy breaths and kisses. The way he made you feel his love and how your brain settled to think of him, and just him. Or those days when he would take you out on dates and escort you to your favorite places, cook for you, attend to his cats with you, and take care of you when you get sick. Minho was perfect, he was perfect, everything was perfect. 

He welcomed you into his arms as you cried harder. It hurts so much. You wondered why, how, and when. But all he said was, “Sorry,” 

Bullshit. 

“I bet he still thinks about you,” You heard Seungmin say beside you. 

“No,” You smiled bitterly. “He doesn’t,” But you weren’t sure. 

It is the night of the event that you were personally invited by the boys. It was a party to celebrate their success in completing their world tour and the awards they received from their recent album. And that closure with Minho that happened a few nights before has led to no changes at all. Seungmin patted your back as he gave you a small smile. He is your protector tonight and asked for a separate table from the 8 of them. Jisung also joined in. 

The staff already served the food but you don’t seem to have an appetite to devour it. Seungmin noticed how tired and exhausted you were from the breakup, and he knew he couldn’t do anything but keep you company. He understood how big of a jerk his hyung is, and still furious about why he had the guts to cheat on you. As if something changed overnight. 

“How long did you know?” You asked him. 

“4 months,” Seungmin answered as you gave him a nod. 

“Y/n, we did everything to stop him,” Jisung butted in but you just shake your head. 

“Thanks Jisung but, it doesn’t matter now,” You smiled at him. 

You looked at Minho from afar as he shared conversations with the CEO and his new partner. He looks happy, more than he ever was when he was still with you. And there, you wished you never started that relationship. You wished you never met him that night at the animal shelter. The pain he left still bothers you until 3 am. You couldn’t sleep at all, overthinking and everyone close to you knows you’re not happy. 

Seungmin held your hand when he sees tears running down your cheeks. It is such a pity to be this sad at an event when the public knows he is dating that person but your relationship was private. There are thoughts you wanted to tell him but just like what happened at the park that night, all he said was sorry. Seungmin pulled you into his arms and let you cry as Minho stole a glance at your table. You knew you are going to spend the next few months taking care of yourself and cleaning up the mess he made out of you. He licked his lower lip and contemplated to carry on another conversation with you again. 

“That damn asshole,” Jisung said clenching his jaw when Minho asked to talk to you. 

“Let them,” Seungmin said. 

And there you found yourself with him at the parking lot, standing face to face. 

“I have questions,” You started. “And I don’t know if I’ll ever get some answers from you. Sometimes I just don’t want to ask them.” You added, laughing bitterly in between. “Are you happy?” 

Minho bit his lip and took a deep breath before opening up, “I am,” He said as you gave him a nod. 

“After what you did, you are happy?” You asked again but before he could even speak up, a bunch of words followed from you. “You know what? I think you’re just a pure asshole who doesn’t care about me even if you showed affection. I still can’t believe you could turn your back away and the next morning you are already seeing someone else while you are still with me.” 

“But I loved you!” He argued. 

“Exactly!” You cried again. “But how about now? No, right? I’ve been dying to know but at the same time, it’s pretty stupid of me to think that you still love me because I still love you. But I’m not asking you to take me back. Just tell me you still love me, for the last time, please? Lie to me,” Your sobs were uncontrollable now and Minho just stood there, watching the mess he made out of you. 

“I love you,” He said, but sure there was hesitation before he spoke. 

“Thanks,” You smiled bitterly. “I hope you live happily,” You added turning away. 

And that was it. 

He lied. 

It is over. 

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[scorpioracha]

Dating Hyunjin

He’s here! Sorry it took me so long to get to him but I hope you all enjoy! Also tagging @bluesoobinnie and @angellixie because they asked for Hyunjin next. Please reblog/leave comments or cute little tags because it means a lot and helps me keep writing :)

Hyunjin 현진

-Romantic. Dating Hyunjin is the embodiment of old school romance. The first date,the second date, the wining and dining. Shy hand holding and kisses goodnight in front of your place with quiet whispers of how he would like to see you again. Hyunjin is cautious in love, he’s not the type to open up as quickly as our other members, he’s much more reserved. He needs to take things slow, to feel them out before diving into the unknown.

-In the beginning he came off as very serious which won you over. Always punctual to your dates,held the door open for you to his car,paid the bill on any outings, etc. A good way to describe him would be bashful. Shy smiles, hiding his laugh behind his hands and never really doing the talking unless he was prompted.

-But as he came more and more out of his shell, you began to see a new side of him. Sit down dinners were exchanged for trips to amusement parks. Laughing until his eyes went starry instead of polite chuckles.

-He was the gentleman you had met on your first few dates, but he was also the bright eyed twenty something year old who had made you play chase with him on the beach in Busan.

-He had a duality that was both endearing and mind boggling at first. It felt like you were getting two people for the price of one. But he was honestly a lot more complex then he let on. He was loud but quiet, brash but soft, inquisitive but naive. He was a paradox that you found yourself wanting to get lost in.

-He confessed his feelings for you after a date gone wrong leaving you two drenched in the middle of Namsan garden. The weather had said clear skies but he should have known better than to trust it during monsoon season. While he was internally freaking out over how he could make this up to you, you had gently shifted his chin to see how beautiful the flowers looked. He clasped his hand over your and leaned in until your foreheads met. In that moment all he could see was you.

“Y/n, will you be my girlfriend?”

You simply laughed and brought your other hand up to rest on his cheek.

“I thought you would never ask”

-The date following that was spent in his apartment with runny noses and lovesick hearts.

-I love you’s were hard for Hyunjin. He wasn’t outwardly affectionate to begin with but he knew the weight behind those three words and wouldn’t use them until he was absolutely sure.

-even before he was ready to say those words, he showed his adoration for you in different ways.

-Hyunjin is one of our quality time boys but he’s the first gift giver of the series. There’s nothing he loves more than buying you the things you’ve had your eye on for a while. He’s a fan of luxurious items himself so the longer you guys have been dating the more than subconsciously extends to you. A 50$ hair mask? Sure why not. High end skincare products? Of course, nothing is too expensive for his baby.

-Hyunjin is one of the Jagiya and Yeobo types of guys. He’s a fan of the classics and nothing hits more than this man in a moment of overwhelming adoration stroking your cheek and saying “Hi Jagi” with his eyes all cute and crescent shaped.

-Likes to read to you while you’re all cozied up on the couch together. Definitely an ambiance guy, likes the lights dim with candles going kinda vibe.

-Loves loves loves couple outfits! Matching sweatshirts and blue jeans, coordinating colors—nah he eats that shit up. It’s the little things like this that make him happy, especially when he’s away on tour. Something about seeing you wear something he carefully picked out for you makes him feel so appreciated and a little feral. Hyunjin‘s a fashionista so at least you’re in good hands.

NSFW

-once you’ve broken the dam of his carefully constructed façade, you obliterated it. He’s not the best at telling you how he feels but goddamn will he show you. Even the simplest of things like bringing him a lunch to the studio can have you pinned against the nearest wall with a hand creeping down your pants.

-Something about domesticity really gets him. The thought of you taking care of him, being there when he gets home makes him a little feral.

-If he’s spontaneous in one thing it is sex. Be prepared to be jumped(with your consent of course) at any god given time once this man gets fully comfortable around you. You get two hints—darkened eyes and staring—before you are being pinned to the nearest surface. He honestly loves kinda fast and gets a thrill at the way your pulse quickens when he catches you by surprise.

-Loves. To. Give. HEAD.

-there I said it. If there’s anything Hyunjin enjoys more than being inside of you is being buried between your legs. He’ll kneel in front of you for hours teasing you and edging closer and closer to orgasm until he snatches it away from you.

-And don’t think he doesn’t notice the way you look at his hands. He goes out of his way to be a tease, trailing his fingers up and down your sides, slowly pumping them inside of you while the other hand is gripping your jaw telling you to “keep your eyes on me Jagi…that’s my girl”

-Hyunjin does not skimp on the praises, he lays it on thick in a way that would seem insincere if it was coming from anyone else.

“That’s it pretty girl”

To

“I know you have one more for me…good girl, that’s my good pretty girl”

-the type to hold your hand and leave kisses all over your chest when you cum because it’s just too much🥺

-giggles softly and coos as squeeze around him, rubbing one of his hands over your tummy

-always ends up cuddled in the crook of your neck whispering the softest praises while you stroke his back until he falls asleep

“Did so well for me Jagi…made me feel so good..”

[silver-hwaberry]

ELEVEN: a day of firsts

Warnings: mentions of mental health condition, scars (very brief), handjob, fingering, brief dry humping, under-the-clothes touching, suggestive language, swearing

Word count: 8.6K

Taglist: @kiwibaekie @fudgeflyssworld @kodzukein @elk-1998 @khjcoo

My alarm goes off in its usual noisy fashion, causing my body to sit upright and reach for my phone. I hit snooze, then flop backwards. Sans hands immediately grab for me and pull my body into him, tucking my head into his neck with his hands.

“Sorry to wake you.” I mumble.

“It is ok.” he replies, his voice deep from sleep, his hands stroking my hair. “Do you really need to get up now?”

“30 minutes, then I really need to get up. My uncle is picking me up at 7am so I have 40 minutes.”

“Is 10 minutes enough time for you to get ready?” he asks.

“More than enough. All I need to do is wash my face, brush my teeth, get changed and put a hat on.” I reply. “I am walking up to Namsan Tower, hardly going down a runway. There is no one to impress.” I laugh. “Except you, that is.”

“Oh, you’ve already made an impression. A very very good one too.” A deep chuckle vibrates from his chest.

We stay cuddled and dozing until I need to get up. I slide out of bed without waking him and get myself ready in the bathroom. I jump slightly when I go back into my room to find San sitting upright, a hand rubbing the top of his head as he looks at me with one eye open.

“Stay here. Go back to sleep.” I say, as San tries to get out of my bed.

“Are you sure you don’t mind me staying in your bed while you are gone?” He asks.

“Of course not. I will be back in about 2 hours. If you are still sleeping, then I will cuddle you.” I reply, crawling up the bed to kiss him.

“Just cuddles?” He grins as I sit on top of him.

“Well, maybe a bit more than that.” I smirk as I lean down to kiss him again.

“You are turning me on, sunshine.” He warns.

I give a small roll of my hips, resulting in a small groan from San. “I can feel.”

“You are playing a dangerous game.” He says, flipping us over suddenly. “I might just have to keep you from leaving.”

I laugh at the change of position before his lips collide with mine. I can feel his neediness through his kisses and I feel bad for getting him worked up just as I am about to leave. His hands move down my body, settling between my legs. I can’t help but whimper as he rubs me through my leggings.

“You sound so pretty.” He mumbles against my lips.

My body is screaming at me to stay in bed with him, making it harder for me to pull away from his plump lips. Luckily I don’t have to make that decision as my phone ringing separates us. He moves his hand from between my legs to my hand, holding it gently.

“That will be my Uncle Jihoon waiting in the car.” I say as San rests his forehead against mine. “Unless you want him coming in here to drag me out of bed, I need to go.”

“I would fight him.” He smirks.

“He is 186cm and a former boxer.” I respond.

“Fuck, ok then. You can go.” He laughs.

My Uncle Jihoon is similar to my dad. Tall, pure muscle, very intimidating looking, but inside was just a giant teddy bear.

“I will let you go on one condition.” He says, pecking at my lips.

“And what is that?” I ask, tilting my head as I look up at him.

“That you promise to send me a photo of the view when you get to the top.” He smiles.

A giggle escapes me. “of course I will.” Reluctantly we separate so I can answer the call.

“Are you awake?” Jihoon asks

“Of course I am!” I laugh

“Just checking, you are Miss Sleepy Head after all.” He laughs back.

“I know I am, but I am ready to leave right now. All I need to do is put my sneakers on. Are you outside?” I ask, moving to the edge of the bed.

“Yes, I am parked just across the road from the building, next to the park entrance.”

We exchange goodbyes, and I stand up from the bed. I feel San wrap his arms around me from behind and kiss my neck as I put a bucket hat on.

“Go back to sleep and I’ll be back before you know it.” I say, turning in his arms.

“Look after yourself. Don’t walk too fast.” He says, fixing the ends of my hair with his fingers.

“I know I am very uncoordinated and clumsy, but I am sure I will be fine.” I giggle. I lean up on the balls of my feet to kiss him.

“Enjoy yourself.” He chuckles as our lips part, and he taps the top of my head.

I give him one more kiss before leaving the room. Yeosang is already in the lounge.

“Morning Luna.” He says with a mouthful of cereal.

“Good morning Sangie!” I smile as he stands up.

“I’ve made you and your uncle some coffee and food for your walk. I’ll go get it.” He says, running into the kitchen as I go to the doorway to put on my sneakers. He comes back with a large flask and 2 thermal food containers in a bag.

“Awww, thank you! You didn’t have to make us anything.” I smile as he hands it over.

“I didn’t mind. You need something for when you both get to the top, anyway.” He replies.

I lean upwards and kiss his cheek. Not missing a beat, Yeosang leans down and kisses my lips. It is a soft kiss but also passionate. His hands cup my cheeks and his body gently pushes me against the wall, trapping me in. I somehow put the bag down safely and wrap my arms around his waist. The sounds of someone coming down the stairs causes Yeosang to pull his lips away, but he places his forehead against mine as whoever was on the stairs reaches the bottom. His hands are still on my cheeks as he places another kiss against my lips. I can feel the emotion from him being poured into this one.

With the position of the doorway and the bottom of the stairs, there was no way whoever came down the stairs couldn’t see us kissing. It is a big step for Yeosang to do this and I appreciate what it has taken for him to be this open with me. I smile into the kiss, feeling completely at ease.

“See you when you come home.” he says softly

He fixes my now tilted hat and hands the bag of coffee and food back to me before opening the door for me. As I go to walk out, he pulls me back for another kiss. “Sorry, just had to give you another one.” He chuckles when he finally pulls away from me. His cheeks are a little flushed.

“I don’t mind.” I smile. “I’ll take as many kisses as you want to give me.” I give him a small peck on the lips before leaving. If I didn’t leave now, I would end up staying! Walking towards the lift, I feel really light and happy. Like a schoolgirl around her crush.

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

No matter how many times I visit Namsan Tower, I will never get used to the stunning view from it. It was a place I could always find peace and calmness, too. My favourite time to come here is as the sun is going down. It was always full of people, but it was calming.

“How have you been doing?” Jihoon asks as he opens the food containers and I pour out the coffee.

“I’ve been really good. I feel happy. I have a job that I worked hard for and it gives me a chance to travel too. And you know how much I love travelling!” I answer.

“What are your upcoming travelling arrangements?” He asks.

“We are going to LA for KCon in a couple of weeks, Saudi Arabia, Japan, then all the tour dates coming up too! It is really exciting.” I smile. “I’ll be here when mom, dad and the twins visit too.”

“It is honestly the most perfect job for you.” he laughs. “And maybe something more too!” He adds with a slight tease in his voice

“Huh?” I say confused as he smirks at me

“A certain person?” His eyebrows wiggling

“oh my god, I am going to kill mom!! I told her not to tell anyone!” I growl.

“I have told no one, and I won’t, so you can trust me. She only told me, so that he knows there is someone here who will hunt him down if he dares break your heart. So don’t be angry with her.” Jihoon replies.

“I know I can trust you, and I know why she told you. It is just, he is an idol and although he doesn’t have a dating ban, it is still something that cannot come out.” I say.

I struggled to word this as my brain wanted to say ‘them’ because I am in a relationship with all of them, not just Seonghwa.

“I understand that completely. I haven’t even told your Auntie Soomin and I won’t until you say it is ok.” He says taking a bite of food, “How is it going with him?”

“Good. Really good actually. The... he treats me well.” I stopped myself from saying ‘they’, but it was close! “He takes care of me. He makes me strawberry toast every morning and has even tried to make British tea too!” I giggle as I remember Seonghwas first attempt. It was truly awful, and he knew I was trying to be nice when I said it was OK. However, he was improving and I fully appreciate that he is trying. It means a lot.

“Does he know about your condition?” He asks.

“Not yet.” I reply, shaking my head and holding onto the warm cup of coffee tightly as if it were like a security blanket.

“Are you going to tell him?”

This was a delicate subject for me.

“Of course, but I am not ready to at the moment. It is scary.” I answer, looking over at the view of Seoul beneath us. “Saying the words out loud to someone new, who hasn’t been there, is terrifying.”

“I know it is, my dear, but we are here for you. Like always.” He replies, pulling me in for a hug. “And although I don’t know him personally, from what I have seen of him on TV and in interviews, he seems like he is someone who has a good mature head on his shoulders, who wouldn’t judge you or hold it against you either. Only you know when is the right time to tell him, but don’t let your fears take over and control you.”

I know Jihoon is right and I should at the very least tell one of them, but with the promotions, now is not the right time.

“So what is it like going from living alone to living with 8 men?” He asks.

“Noisy!!” I laugh as he joins in.

“I bet it is!”

“I like it, though. They are all really nice. I have my own bedroom in a quieter part of the house, my own bathroom too.” I say. “They take care of me, but I also get to take care of them, too. It is nice being around people again.”

“Well, just remind them you have an uncle nearby who will not hesitate to come and sort any of them out if they upset my precious niece.”

“I think they already know it.” I laugh.

When we have finished our food and coffee, we make our way back down the trail. We pick up coffee for the guys on the drive back and Jihoon helps me to the building lift with it.

“It was nice spending time with you this morning.” He says as he hands over the second bag with coffees in it.

“We will do it again soon.” I smile before getting into the lift.

To open the apartment door, I have to put one bag down and put the code in. As I walk in, the apartment is quiet. I slide my sneakers off, go into the kitchen and see Hongjoong.

“Hey, you’re back!” Hongjoong says as I put the coffees on the island counter

“I am and I come bearing coffee!” I reply.

“Oooh, I was just about to make myself some. Thank you.” He smiles as I hand him one.

“Where are the others?” I ask.

“Yeosang and Jongho should be back from the gym soon. Yunho and Mingi are playing some computer game in their rooms. Seonghwa is probably still in the shower. Wooyoung and San I haven’t seen yet. They are probably still asleep in their rooms.” He answers

I feel small heat cover my cheeks as Hongjoong mentions San being in his bedroom when I had left him in my bedroom.

“Are you heading into the office now?” I ask as he put his laptop into his bag.

“Yeah.” He nods before looking at me. “Luna, I am sorry I am so busy.”

“It is fine.” I smile.

“If you aren’t busy later on, you are more than welcome to come to my studio around lunchtime. I will take a proper break and we could order some food.” He says.

“Absolutely! I am meeting Mingi at his studio later to take him out for dinner.” A bubble of excitement bursts in my stomach at Hongjoong asking to spend time with me. “Lunch with you sounds perfect, too.” A shy smile spreads over his face and he looks at the floor briefly before looking back at me.

“Cool, is 2pm good?” He asks.

“Perfect.” I smile.

“I will get Myeonjin to pick you up at half 1 then.” He smiles back at me as I nod. “Well, I better go. I’ll see you later on. Thank you again for the coffee.”

As Hongjoong leaves, Yeosang and Jongho come in. They are both looking sweaty from their gym session and, frankly, rather sexy.

“Thank you for the coffee.” Jongho smiles as I hand him his favourite Iced Americano.

“Not a problem. How was the gym?” I ask him.

“Exhausting. Yeosang does not go easy!” He laughs.

“If you want results, you need to do the work.” Yeosangs monotone voice comes from inside fridge as he pulls out food. Jongho silently mimics Yeosang making me stifle a laugh. His eyes connect with me and his gummy smile appears.

“Sorry to leave you, but I need to get into the shower before San wakes up and hogs it.”

“No, on you go. I am sure I’ll see you later.” I say

As he walks past me to leave, I feel his hand against my lower back, causing a shiver up my spine. He has never touched me, not even a handshake! So this was new… very new, but a step in a positive direction between us. In a group situation, we were fine, but when left alone, he was still quiet and reserved around me.

“I think San is still asleep in your room.” Yeosang says

“Oh.” I say, feeling my cheeks blush once more. “I didn’t think anyone knew he was in there.” I can feel him move closer to me but also keeping his distance too.

“Don’t worry. I think it is only me. I heard you both laughing before you left your room earlier. That is the only reason I know anyway.” he says. “How was your walk?”

“It was good. Weather was nice. Thank you for the food and coffee. We definitely needed them after the walk up the trail. My Uncle Jihoon was very grateful for it and he sends you his thanks.”

“It was nothing.” Yeosang replies shyly.

“So, as usual, we are alone in the kitchen…” I wink playfully

“Yeah. This is becoming a bit of a habit, I guess.” He chuckles, finally coming up to me.

He quickly pulls me into him, and his lips collide with mine. After the initial shock of his sudden movements wears off, I kiss him back, my body melting into his.

“Sorry.” He says quietly

“No. No saying sorry.” I say, cupping his cheek.

“I just don’t know when to kiss you or if you want me to.” He replies.

“Ok, so I am open to kisses anytime. But only when YOU want to. So if you want to kiss me, just do it. We go at your pace. I already know you don’t like it in front of the others, and I want you to be comfortable with me.” I say, moving my hands around his shoulders.

“I already am comfortable with you. It is crazy. I usually take a while to warm up with people. But with you, I don’t know. You made me feel comfortable from the start.” He smiles. “I am not the most social person. I find it difficult to speak to people I don’t know. While my confidence has grown a lot over the years, I am still quieter. You are so open, talkative, and confident. You have this calming aura about you that puts others at ease, especially me.”

“I am not as confident as I appear to be, you know. I have my own moments of doubt, where I am quieter, want to be alone.” I say, looking up at him. “I am glad that I put you at ease, though.”

“Well, you certainly do, and I am really happy you are with us.” His smile is so beautiful right now. “I should go for a shower, too. I am really sweaty from the workout.”

“I’ll see you later.” I say, kissing him once more.

San is still asleep when I go into my room. The bed covers are half on the bed, half on the floor. I can see he is still wearing only his boxers. I walk as quietly as I can into my bathroom and close the sliding door gently. I pull the pink cosmetic bag from the back of the counter and unzip it. Inside, I take the bottle of medication that is hidden at the bottom underneath the makeup I don’t wear anymore, drop 2 tablets from it into my hand and close it. I open the bottle of water I had brought in with me and down the 2 pills before replacing everything back to where it was, ensuring the medication bottle is hidden at the bottom again.

My eyes fall on my reflection in the mirror in front of me. My uncle’s words from earlier echo in my head. However, it scares the life out of me. Actually saying the words out loud to someone other than my family or friends, but he is right. I should tell one of them at the very least. I just feel it is yet another ‘thing’ wrong with me. It is bad enough with my allergies and then this as well. More problems for them to deal with.

As I debate whether to tell Hongjoong later on, I take another drink of water and head back into the bedroom. Right now, all I want to do is cuddle into San. I can deal with it all later.

I take my hoodie off and leggings, leaving me just in a long-sleeved t-shirt and my underwear before placing my glasses on the bedside table and getting into bed beside San. I pull the covers over us and cuddle into his body. His eyes begin to open and he smiles lazily at me.

“You are back.” He croaks, his voice deep from sleep.

“I am.” I smile. “I told you I wouldn’t be long.” I kiss his puffy cheeks as his eyes close again.

My hand moves to rub his stomach under the covers. The warmth of his skin is comforting.

“Let’s go back to sleep for a bit.” I say, his arms pulling me closer, his lips blindly kissing my face. I assume he was aiming for my forehead, but they land on my eyebrow instead. I lean my head up to kiss his lips before settling my head into his neck.

After an hours sleep, we finally get out of bed.

“Is this ok?” San asks, his eyes are staring deep into mine.

I bite my lower lip, my hands grip onto his broad shoulders for stability. A high pitched squeaking noise I have never made before escapes my mouth as my head drops onto his shoulder.

“Am I hurting you?” He asks, slowing his movements down.

“God.. no.” I gasp. “Please don’t stop.”

My hips move, desperate for the feeling I was having to continue. I sigh in relief when San moves his fingers inside me again. The curl of his finger tips hitting my spot perfectly.

“Feeling good?” I can actually hear the smirk in his voice, and all I can do to respond is nod.

The tip of his hard on is rubbing against my lower stomach, his hips moving in the tiny space between our bodies and I realise he is needing the same friction as I do. With one of my hands still holding onto his shoulders, I move the other down to stroke him.

“Fuck…” he whines loudly.

Suddenly, San pushes me further against the shower wall. “Lift your leg up, wrap it around my waist.”

“Huh?” I ask. I pull my head from his neck to look at him, my eyes widening.

“Don’t worry, I’ve got a hold of you.” He says as the hand that was on my breast moves around the back of my waist and holds onto me tightly. “Keep a hold of my shoulders, too.”

I admit I am wary of this, as my legs are already weak from his fingers. Going onto one leg while in the shower, when I can already feel I am on the cusp of an orgasm, worries me. However, I trust him. “Just please don’t drop me.”

“I’ll keep you safe, I promise.” He smiles, kissing my lips.

I cautiously lift my leg and do what he says. His fingers are hitting much deeper now as this position has opened me up further to him. This causes my own movements to speed up and I stroke him faster. The kiss goes from gentle to needy in the blink of an eye. The warm water from the shower head is running down our bodies as we kiss one another frantically.

The knot that had been building up in my lower abdomen unravels, causing the arm around his shoulders to hold on to him tighter as a powerful orgasm hits me. Seconds later, San comes on my stomach as muffled whining moans come from us both.

The pair of us are trembling as our lips part, but San keeps his promise and stops me from collapsing. We are both gasping for air. I slowly lower my leg and place it back on the shower floor as I put my fingers to my mouth so I could taste the cum that landed on them.

“You have no idea how hot it is to see you doing that.” He chuckles.

“Do what?” I ask, wrapping my arm around his shoulders again.

“Swallowing my cum.” He smirks. “It is a massive turn on.”

I cannot help but feel slightly shy at that. I have never been one for enjoying the taste of it, but after last night I want to taste him every single time now.

“Well, you taste so good.” I counter. “It would be a shame to let it go to waste.”

“Fuck Luna, you will make me hard again saying stuff like that.” He laughs before kissing me. “Now let’s get cleaned up.”

When we finally leave my room, it is nearly 12pm. There is no one downstairs. We go into the kitchen and San begins to make food.

“What do you want to eat?” He asks

“Just a slice of toast. I am having lunch with Hongjoong at 2pm.” I answer.

“You need more than just toast, sunshine.” He wraps his arms around me.

“Ok, 2 slices, but don’t tell anyone. I am being greedy by eating so much these days.” I giggle as his nose nuzzles into mine.

“You are not greedy. I enjoy seeing you eat well.” He replies. “Even my cum.” He adds with a smirk

“San…” I gasp at the shock of what he said, but his lips capturing mine shuts me up.

He has me pinned between his body and the island counter. His hands move from my waist to my ass then the back of my thighs. I gasp again, this time in surprise as he pulls my legs out from under me and places me on the counter. His lips never once leaving mine during all this. The kiss becomes more passionate as he pulls my legs around his body and yanks my hips to the edge of the counter. The way he is manhandling me so easily is turning me on.

“Don’t mind me.” We hear from the entrance of the kitchen.

We both look towards the voice to see Wooyoung leaning against the door frame with a massive grin on his face.

“I would say to get a room but you both just left it!” He says

“Woo!” San warns as I lower my legs from his waist but move my hands down to his to keep a hold of him.

“It is too easy!” Wooyoung laughs as he comes into the kitchen and opens the fridge

“You ok?” San whispers to me

“Yeah, Woo is just being his usual teasing self.” I giggle, leaning forward to kiss him lightly. San smiles, then kisses me back.

He lifts me off the island counter and puts me on one of the bar stools. I watch on as San and Wooyoung have playful banter while making food. San passes over 2 slices of toast with strawberry jam to me. “No need to cry, here is your strawberry fix.” he says

“Fuck you!” I laugh, playfully pushing him away as he laughs, too.

I can tell this will be a point of teasing from San now. Wooyoung looks over at us, and I can see his face looks a bit confused. I can tell he wants to ask why we were laughing at that.

“You want to hang out this afternoon?” San asks him pulling his gaze from me

“Yeah, that sounds good.” Wooyoung smiles. “It’s been a while.”

The 2 men join me at the island counter with their own food and the three of us enjoy eating and chatting before we all tidy up together.

As San and Wooyoung run upstairs, I go into the lounge to see Yunho has appeared in there. He smiles at me and pats the space beside him on the sofa.

“I like your outfit, you look cute!” he smiles

Since I am taking Mingi out for a casual pre-birthday dinner, I put more effort into picking my outfit for today. Nothing fancy since it is a casual dinner. I am wearing loose dark jeans, a long-sleeved white shirt with a knitted dark grey cropped sweater vest over the top of it. I have left my hair down, clipping my long bangs back with a sparkly clasp. San had picked the clasp and placed it in my hair for me. As for makeup, I went for a basic look. My usual pinkish eyeshadow, eyeliner and tinted lip balm. Thankfully, my blemished skin wasn’t too bad this morning, so I could get away with a light layer of foundation.

“Is it ok for taking Mingi out for his pre birthday dinner?” I ask him.

“Absolutely! He will love it. It is very cute and very you!” He immediately cuddles into me when I sit down beside him, essentially pushing me over so we are lying on the sofa.

“I hope so.” I place my arms around his shoulders as his head rests on my chest, my fingers playing with his hair.

“I like that. Your fingers in my hair.” He mumbles happily.

“I am just jealous. Your hair is so soft.” I giggle lightly as he chuckles. “Seriously, I need to know what shampoo and conditioner you use.”

“That is top secret.” He says, his hands moving under my shirt.

“I’ll need to sneak a peek next time you are in the shower.” I reply as his head moves from my chest to my neck.

“And exactly why would you be in the bathroom while I am in the shower?” He smirks at me, his lips kissing my neck as his hand palms my breast.

“Maybe I would be in the shower with you.” I respond, trying to keep my voice steady as my body reacts to his touch and kisses.

“What would we be doing in there?” his fingers pull the cup of my bra down, caressing my bare breast

“Showering, duh!” I say, then gasp lightly as the feeling of his fingers playing with my nipple

“I’d rather be doing something other than showering with you.” He says, moving his body on top of mine, my legs making room for him between them.

“Like what?” I ask. I can feel his hips move slightly, rubbing against me.

“Why don’t we go to the shower right now and find out?” his teeth delicately nip at my neck.

“I want to, Yunho.” I whimper as I feel the outline of his length grind against my core. “But I am meeting Hongjoong in like half an hour.”

“Sorry. I didn’t know you had plans.” Yunho begins to pull back, but I wrap my arms around his shoulders to stop him.

“Stay.” I say, lifting my head off the cushion to kiss him. “I like this.”

He smiles down at me before dipping his head down, his lips moving against mine softly, his body sinking back on top of me again. His hand moves under my shirt again. As our kisses deepen, my legs move higher around his waist. His hips move again and a small groan comes from him. We carry on like this for a few minutes as I begin to move my hips against him.

“Fuck.” He mumbles pulling away from my lips

“Sorry.” I say.

“It is ok.” He replies, his face flushed. “It was just.. starting to feel good and I don’t want it to.”

“Ooh, Yunho I am sorry. I didn’t mean to.” I try to move from underneath him, but I am trapped.

“No Luna. What I mean is that I want to, but I want to be with you properly. Not just a quick dry hump on the sofa with Wooyoung singing karaoke in the background from the 3rd floor.” He says with a small chuckle.

He is right; it is hardly the most romantic setting in the world. As if on cue, Wooyoungs singing suddenly gets louder through the karaoke machine, making us both laugh.

“Plus, you are going away soon. I want to have you all to myself when the time comes.” He kisses me softly.

“Sounds good to me.” I smile at him. “You know, it was you that started all this, though!” I giggle.

“Erm, you were the one who mentioned me in the shower so you started it!” He laughs

“Ah, but you put your hand up my top before that. Therefore, you started it.” I say.

“No, that was after you mentioned seeing me in the shower.” He replies.

“No, it was before. I said about your hair being soft and what haircare you use, you said it was top secret, then put your hand up my top.” I can’t help but laugh at his face as he recalls the conversation, then realise I was right.

“Oh god, so I did!!” His eyes widen. “I am so sorry.”

“I wasn’t complaining. Trust me, if I didn’t want it, you would have known about it. A swift knee to the balls usually works.” I giggle, cupping his flushed cheeks and pulling his head down so I could kiss him.

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“Sorry, I know I am early.” I say as Hongjoong opens his studio door for me and takes the bags of food from my hands. “There was like no traffic on the way here and then the food was ready super fast at the restaurant.”

“I don’t mind.” he smiles. “You are welcome here any time.”

Hongjoong places the bags of food on his desk. There is already a second chair at it so I sit down on it as he opens the bags.

“I hope you like the food. It is from a vegetarian place nearby. I know you don’t like vegetables, but honestly, you can barely taste them.” I say, helping him open the containers and set them up.

“Wait, is this tteokbokki?” He asks, opening one of them.

“Yes, vegetarian tteokbokki is one of my favourites! Apparently tastes like the real thing too. According to my friend Nayeon, anyway. She is like you, does not like vegetables. I bought her this, leaving out the fact it was vegetarian until she had finished it.” I laugh at the memory of her surprised face when I finally told her it was vegetarian. “She didn’t believe me until I showed her the receipt for it. She absolutely loves it now.”

“I am willing to give the food you’ve brought a try.” He smiles at me.

We start to eat the food while talking about random things, how the comeback was going, the upcoming kcons and tour plans.

“Hongjoong, there is something I should tell you.” I say, my chopsticks playing with the noodles in front of me.

Immediately, his eyes look at me. His own chopsticks drop into the bowl of noodles in his hand and he places it on the desk. He wipes his mouth with a napkin and moves his chair closer to me.

“Is everything ok?” He asks and I hear the nerves in his voice. His usual calm voice is just slightly higher in pitch.

“Do you remember when I told you I struggled a bit a while ago?” I ask him.

“Yes, you said your uncle helped you. You had therapy and found exercising helped too.” he answers.

“It wasn’t as simple as all that. It wasn’t just a bout of feeling down.” I say. “It was bad.” I try to swallow the lump that has formed in my throat. “Really bad.”

“It is ok.” he says, taking my hands into his. “You can tell me anything.”

His face is soft and I know I can tell him anything and he won’t judge me for it. However, it isn’t a time that I like to talk about. Despite overcoming it, it was still not nice to think back on that dark period of my life.

My head is spinning as I try to put it into words. Words that won’t scare him, or scare me either. “I don’t know how much you want to know about what happened.”

“Whatever you want to tell me. Nothing more and nothing less. Whatever is comfortable for you.” He answers.

“Before I do, I need you to know that I am ok right now.” His face stays the same, but his eyes have changed a little. I can see the worry in them. He nods softly and I feel his hands squeeze mine. “At the moment, I don’t want the others to know. I will tell them, I promise you that, but I am not ready yet. Only you for now.”

“That is ok. You can trust me.”

“I have bipolar disorder. I was diagnosed at the beginning of last year.” I sigh, my eyes focused on our hands and I hold on to him tighter.

“Ok.” he says softly as he links our fingers together.

“I am not crazy, I swear. I know the stereotypes of bipolar and what people think of it, but I am not. Crazy, I mean.” I say quickly.

“Hey, don’t worry about that. I know you aren’t!” He smiles at me. “Is there anything that I can do, or we can do to help you? Or that we should know about?” His thumb rubs comforting little circles into the space between my thumb and index finger. “I don’t know a lot about bipolar but I will learn as much as I can so that you don’t have to worry about anything.”

“Honestly, there is nothing you need to do. I am fine. I have a good handle on things at the moment.” I reply. “I take my medication every day, see my therapist once a month and focus on my wellbeing by exercising and doing mindfulness too. I have a bit of anxiety as well, but overall I am doing ok.”

“Are there any signs I should watch out for? Like when you are becoming unwell.” He asks.

“Well, since I was diagnosed I haven’t had a relapse, so I don’t really know what the signs could be.” I answer.

“What were the signs that lead you to being diagnosed?” He asks.

It is a simple enough question. And a reasonable one too. Naturally, he would want to know how I got diagnosed as the symptoms for a relapse would be similar, but I wasn’t expecting it.

“Unless you don’t want to tell me right now.” He quickly adds, and I realise I must have reacted to it.

“Erm.. that’s a bit, erm… I don’t really know how.. how to tell you.” I stumble.

“Hey, look at me.” His fingers tilt my chin to look at him. “If you aren’t ready to tell me, you dont have to.”

His big brown eyes bore into mine and I know instantly I can trust him. Also, I already do because if I didn’t, I would not have been able to tell him any of this.

“I can show you instead.” My eyes move back to our hands. My free hand moves to the wrist of the hand he is still holding. I pull at my sleeve and rotate our linked hands to show him the scars on my wrist. The scars that I hide from everyone by wearing long sleeves or lots of bracelets.

“Oh Luna.” He gasps lightly. It is barely audible. The only reason I heard it clearly was because of his completely quiet soundproof studio.

“This was what lead me to being diagnosed.” And I feel like a giant weight has been lifted from my chest. A weight I didn’t realise had been there all this time until this moment. “I am not ashamed to have bipolar but I am ashamed of what I did to myself, which is why I hide it with sleeves.” My eyes look back at him.

“You have nothing to be ashamed of. Nothing!” He says firmly, looking back at me. “Do you hear me?” His free hand cups my cheek and his forehead rests on mine.

“I hear you.” I nod.

“If you ever feel that way, please come to me.” His eyes almost pleading with me. “Promise me!”

“I promise you.” I say. “Joong, I am ok. Right here, right now, I am fine. I am happy with my life. Finally, with a job I have always dreamed of and…” I stop myself, wondering if I should finish sentence but as his eyes look deep into mine, I carry on. “And with you all.”

“We are happy with you as well.” He whispers.

Without thinking, I tilt my head so our lips connect. After a moment of hesitation, he kisses me back. The hand on my cheek moves to the back of my head, his fingers threading through my hair as the kiss deepens. My stomach flips as his tongue swirls around mine. His fingers in my hair tighten. I awkwardly try to get closer to him, which is difficult on our chairs. My hands grasp onto his upper arms to hold on to him better.

Suddenly he pulls away, breathless. “I am sorry.” He says, covering his mouth as he moves his chair back from me.

“Sorry? Why?” I ask confused

“You are in a vulnerable state and I took advantage of you.” He replies.

“No, you didn’t. I kissed you.” I move forward to hold his hand, but he moves further back from me. “Look, you didn’t take advantage of me. I am a grown woman and I know what I am doing. But more importantly, what I want. However, I crossed a line by kissing you, so I apologise.”

Hongjoong is known for his dislike of physical contact. I know this yet still kissed him and I feel guilty now. My eyes move to the floor and push my own seat back before standing up.

“If anyone took advantage here, it was me.” I say, going to the sofa at the other end of the room and picking up my bag. It is best I leave.

“Luna, please don’t leave.” He says, standing in front of me, his hands holding my arms gently. “Look at us both, apologising for the same thing.” He shakes his head.

“You know what they say - great minds think alike.” I laugh softly, trying to lighten the tense mood in the small room. I feel relief when he laughs too. “I am genuinely sorry if I crossed a line with you. I sometimes forget not everyone likes physical affection like I do. I know you don’t like it especially.”

“No, with you it’s different. I don’t mind at all. It is just.. around the others.. it feels weird.” He says.

I nod and think for a second about how to word my next sentence. “I understand. Private moments only then?” I suggest, my arms slowly moving up his arms as I gauge his reaction.

“Definitely.” He replies, smiling at me.

“Like right now?” I ask softly

His smile becomes wider as he nods, and I allow my arms to wrap around his shoulders as I raise my feet to meet his lips halfway. His arms move around my waist, pulling my body closer to his. This kiss feels a lot more certain and controlled.

“Lets finish eating now.” he smiles as our lips part.

We spend the rest of the afternoon finishing our food. Hongjoong lets me hear some of the songs he is working on and then I sit back and get to watch him at work. I begin to notice things about him I hadn’t seen before. Like his cute little pouty lips when he focuses, the way his eyebrows lower and little laughs when he is enjoying something.

“Do you want to listen to the new Japanese song? I think I have nearly finished it.” he says, pulling his headphones off.

“Hell yeah!” I giggle, pulling my seat closer to the desk.

Without warning, Hongjoong pulls me off my seat and onto his lap, moving me sideways. His arms are on the front and back of my body to control the mouse and keyboard on the desk.

“It will sound really rough as I only have the guide vocals on it so far. I’ve still to get Mingis lyrics for his part as well.” He says.

He presses play, then moves his arms around my waist as the music begins to the play through his speakers. I can feel his breathing has changed and his fingers are fiddling nervously with the fabric of my shirt.

“I know it doesn’t sound good but it will be better when I have the others vocals on it.” he says quickly once it finishes

“Joong, it sounds amazing already!!” I reply.

“Really?” he asks, his eyes lighting up

“Absolutely.” I answer. “You are so talented. Like insanely talented.” I laugh.

He laughs too and then leans forward to kiss me. One of his hands moves to the side of my neck and holds it gently.

“It is nearly 6pm.” he whispers

“Ah shit, I didn’t realise it was so late!” I reply, suddenly jumping up. “Sorry!”

“Don’t be sorry. Just have a nice evening with Mingi.” he says, picking up my bag. “Thank you for coming to the studio, though.”

“I enjoy watching you work. It is rather inspiring, I have to admit.” I smile as he places it over my shoulders. “And thank you for being understanding about the bipolar and the other thing.”

“You don’t need to thank me. I am just glad you trust me enough to tell me about it. I know I am busy, but I will always make time for you.” His hand cups my cheek. “Just say the word and I will be there.”

“Thanks Joong.” I smile, placing my hand over his.

“Now on you go, enjoy the rest of your night.”

As I leave Hongjoongs studio and make my way to Mingis I see 2 of the female staff members coming towards me. I smile at them and move to the side to let them pass, but I hear one of them say something under her breath, then laugh, causing me to turn around and look at them. They were looking back at me and covering their mouths. I turn back and keep walking, but I hear the other one clearly say my name as the other bursts into laughter. I feel really uncomfortable so I put my head down and keep walking, just wanting to get to Mingis studio on the other side of the floor.

“Hi princess!” Mingi smiles as I enter his studio.

“Mingi!” I smile back as he stands up, quickly making his way over to me and hugs me tightly. He lets out a long groan, lifts me up, and pulls my legs around his waist.

“God, I really needed this hug.” He sighs.

I could feel there was something wrong. His entire aura in this moment differs completely from his usual happy self.

“Are you ok, Mingi?” I ask him softly, holding onto him tighter in the hopes he feels secure in my embrace.

“Yeah, just this song I am working on. It isn’t coming together on the computer, how I want it to, or even sounds as good as it does in my head.” He replies.

I can feel how tense his entire body is, and immediately I want to help him. I don’t want him to feel this stressed. “Is there anything I can do? To help relax you?”

“You just being here and letting me hold you is already helping.” I feel him place a kiss on my cheek. He moves us to sit on the small sofa, with me sitting on his lap, my legs on either side of his. He looks up at me as his hands caress my hips. He looks exhausted and through his glasses, I can see his eyes are darker than usual.

“Oh, baby.” I whisper, one hand stroking his face and the other wraps around his shoulder. I have this overwhelming urge to take care of him. “You look tired.”

“I am.” He sighs softly.

“Do you want to go home and pick up some food on the way?” I ask, moving some of his hair behind his ear.

“I want to spend time with you.” He whines lightly.

“We can, back at home. Just you and me. Either in my room or yours, so no one bothers us.” My hand moves back to his cheek. “Just the two of us.”

“Please.” He nods and closes his eyes as if he feels relief.

I place my head on his shoulder and cuddle into him as he relaxes more.

“You look really pretty.” he says quietly. “Sorry you got dressed up for nothing.”

“It wasn’t for nothing.” I reply, my fingers playing with the ends of his hair. “We are together right now and when we get home, too.”

“Thank you for understanding Luna.”

I ignore the bulge forming underneath me. It is understandable; he has been incredibly tense, most likely most of the day, is now finally beginning to relax and I am sitting directly on top of him. I don’t want to embarrass him or make him feel awkward, either.

I also try to ignore the thoughts entering my head at feeling him against me. What his lips would feel like against mine, how tiny I would feel underneath him, how I would willingly give myself to him right now if he asked. But also the conflicting thoughts at the back of my mind. How this morning Yeosang kissed me for the first time, how San made me feel in the shower as his fingers explored me, Yunho feeling me up in the lounge and, of course, my first kiss with Hongjoong too. These thoughts I was pushing away were not bad. It was just because of how strange it was from what I was used to in the past. 2 first kisses, being fingered by one man then felt up by another, all in the one day too!

When I feel him move a little in an uncomfortable manner, I stand up, but not before kissing his cheek softly. I see him pulling at his jeans to readjust them in an attempt to hide the very obvious tent in them.

“Sorry.” He says quietly as he stands up too. “I was trying not to, you know, but I couldn’t control it.”

“Hey Mingi, it is ok. Don’t worry about it. It’s a normal bodily function.” I say, holding his hand. “You can’t really control it all the time. There is nothing wrong with that.”

“I don’t want you to think I am thinking of one thing just because you were hugging me.” he says, and he looks rather ashamed.

“I wouldn’t exactly feel offended if you were.” I move my head lower so I can look up at him as his gaze has now shifted to the floor. I pull myself closer to him. “But I know you weren’t.”

“Well, maybe I was thinking of that a little.” a small smile begins to form on his face.

I move to put my arms around his waist. “And there is nothing wrong with that, either.” I cannot help the little smirk on my lips. The thought of him thinking of me in that way had definitely given me a little boost of confidence. “Lets go home, get you fed and we can just chill out for the rest of the night.” My smirk softens to a gentle smile.

“Sounds good princess.” he smiles back at me.

Mingi calls Myeonjin to pick us up, and soon we are in his bedroom, eating the food we picked up and watching funny videos on YouTube. When he asks me if I can stay the night with him, I answer before he even finishes the question, causing us both to laugh. There was nowhere else I would rather be tonight than with him. Just as I am about to doze off, Mingi suddenly makes the deepest snoring noise from behind me, his mouth directly beside my ear giving me a genuine fright. There was no buildup to it, no increase in volume, like most snorers do. I find myself giggling as I remember Yunho telling me how loud Mingi was.

I settle back into him, my back pressed against his warm chest. Snorers did not bother me at all. Having lived near a military base when I was younger meant I could fall asleep almost anywhere, no matter the noise levels and I could sleep through anything too, which is why my alarm is always on full volume. As Mingi continues to snore, I fall asleep easily in his arms.

[elderflowergin]

3 K-drama moments (January edition)

1. Kim Hae-sook expressing her rage at a young Japanese officer in full satoori and banmal in Gyeongseong Creature. Until this point she has been a capable right hand to Park Seo-joon, restrained, deadly efficient and completely unshakeable. But long-simmering fears and frustrations are boiling over everywhere in Gyeongseong and elsewhere, resulting in this atypical, shocking conversation with a junior officer who sympathises with them but cannot bridge the colonial gap. Language is so significant in this genre, and it’s so visceral when Kim Hae-sook openly vents to this man in her own language, in her own dialect.

Gyeongseong Creature is a pretty dark take on human experimentation, the last gasp of colonial horrors in a dying empire and the endurance of community. Park Seo-joon (and Han So-hee to a lesser extent) have to be the heroes; nonetheless the story understands that liberation is won not by strong-jawed men who talk pretty, but by community, by ordinary people doing extraordinary things together.

Kdrama has a wealth of supporting actors and it's no different here, with Jo Han-cheol, Kang Mal-geum, the aforementioned Kim Hae-sook, Claudia Kim and lovely, lovely Kim Yoon-woo in an affecting subplot (you might have seen him as Ryang Eum in My Dearest). Hate that Netflix made this one a cliffhanger, but they got me. Now, please give us a grown up romance with Jo Han-cheol in it. Our man's earned it.

2. Jung Jin-young’s vividly joyous sex life with his partner played by Yang Mal-bok in LTNS. The astonishing tenderness of their meeting, their love story and the joy he has brought to her arid, parched life are all so well-done that I had a lump in my throat throughout the episode.

This show took atypical love and affair stories, the sort we tend to mock or criticise - the plain girl sleeping with the married colleague, the fiftysomethings rediscovering their zest for life in each other’s bodies, the married lipstick lesbian who keeps coming back into her ex’s life - and offered so much kindness and love in the writing and the framing of those stories. @drivingsideways remarked that it was so different from anything Kdrama has given us, and that is completely correct.

Esom and Ahn Jae-hong were beyond excellent as a troubled couple that maybe shouldn't have married all those years ago - people who were maybe always a little too different, and then papered over their differences with the routines of matrimony. I suspect this was all too real to appeal to the general audience and I don't think this is going to be nomination-heavy. But it deserves to be.

3. Hwa-rok running from the handsome Officer Jeong in the brilliantly written The Matchmakers. The youngest sister in the famously unmarried trio of Namsan, Hwa-rok is a very relatable babe who really wants to get married! Get a husband! Have SEX! - and manifests this through her popular erotica series. The bond between Hwa-rok and the shy, upright officer whose first introduction to her is all the erotica she writes is one of the most adorable plots on this incredibly cute show.

I have several feelings about The Matchmakers, namely that it is the rare romance I respect despite the minimal chemistry between the leads. The writing was top-notch and the lead acting didn't quite live up to it - this is not a criticism of Cho Yi-hyun or Rowoon, but rather a testament to the sheer wealth of talent in Kdrama and how accustomed we've become to actors elevating material. Rowoon surprisingly grew on me in this, with his physicality and his looks somehow making Gyeongwoonjae indelible despite his iPhone-knowing face. I might do a separate post on this yet, but it was absolutely worth the watch, and all of you were right, especially @haraxvati who bravely advocated for Rowoon's talents.

[jasfhercallejo]

N Seoul Tower at Mount Namsan offers striking views of Seoul and its surroundings. The 237-metre-tall tower was built in 1969 to broadcast local and international TV and radio channels within the capital city, but is now regarded as one of Seoul’s must-visit attractions. 

N Seoul Tower is both a tourism and a cultural landmark. It’s a fantastic spot not only to take in views of the city but to learn a little bit about Seoul and South Korea while you are there. There are also a variety of dining options to suit any travel budget and you’ll find plenty to do around the tower if you’d like to continue sightseeing when you are finished.

The main draw of N Seoul Tower is its observatory. You can observe the city below from the height of the clouds by making your way up to the tower’s observation deck.

Aside from a visit to the observation deck, one of the top activities for couples at N Seoul Tower is to hang a padlock from the fence around the plaza. Couples inscribe their names, initials, or even a short message onto the locks before attaching them to the fence as a symbol of their eternal love. The activity is commonly known as “love padlocks” and is popular among both locals and tourists. If you didn’t happen to bring your own padlock, then you can purchase one from the souvenir shop.

There are three shuttle buses that can take you up to N Seoul Tower  in cash or with a transportation card. They can each be reached by two different subway stations and arrive every 15 to 20 minutes. If you have no issues walking or climbing, I recommend heading to the tower on foot and skipping the cable car as you climb up through the beautiful Namsan park.

On top of being a landmark that you can visit, N Seoul Tower is beautiful to look at from afar, especially at night. Using the latest in LED technology, the tower is always lit up in various arrays of colors and patterns. The protected area around N Seoul Tower is also intended to display the harmony that can exist between nature and 21st-century, state-of-the-art construction. 

N Seoul Tower rises approximately 1,574 feet above sea level. It is the highest point in Seoul, offering 360-degree views of the entire city. 

[nhdiary]

[rubylace]

sunoo — 24/7

wc! 2,750

It was a chilly night when you found yourself asleep in Sunoo's car. You had been out with friends, but in your delirious state, you had lost track of time. "I- don't. want. to. go home," fearing your mom's wrath.

Sunoo looked at you questioningly. "You have to go home, your mom must be worried."

"Where is your house?",

There wasn't a single response, you were already asleep. Sigh. "I should know where you live."

Sunoo, being the caring person he is, decided to take you to his apartment.

In the morning, you wake up groggily, your head pounding slightly from the night before. You blink, looking around and realizing you're not in your own room.

"Good morning, sleepyhead," Sunoo's voice is the first thing you hear as you wake up on his bedroom. You rub your eyes, looking around his cozy apartment.

Surprise at your whereabouts, groping yourself are you wearing clothes or not. "Hey, I'm not that evil." He said.

With a grimace. "Where am I?" You ask, your voice still heavy with sleep. "You fell asleep in my car last night, remember?".

Sunoo chuckles, handing you a cup of hot cocoa. "I didn't know where you lived, and you were too out of it to tell me."

"Oh right," you say, taking a sip of the cocoa. "Thanks for letting me crash here." "Of course," Sunoo replies, his eyes warm. "You're welcome here anytime."

After a quick shower and change of clothes, you find Sunoo in the dining room the smell of pancakes and Pizza fills the air making your stomach growl. "I ordered this, ready to eat?". Sunoo asks.

"Definitely," you reply, taking a seat at the table.

The rest of the day is spent exploring the city. You visit a local museum, have lunch at a cute café, and walk around a beautiful park. It feels like a date, and the thought makes your heart flutter.

As the day turns into evening, Sunoo directed his car not towards his apartment. "NO."

"What? I'll take you somewhere interesting, I promise."

"You didn't tell me to go home, did you?". His laugh "It's like an elementary school kid who ran away because the mom scolding her kid."

"Yes indeed."

"You are the most honest person I have ever met."

He invites you to Namsan Tower happily here, after arriving at it. "Wanna try?" – "H-huh?". Love lock?".

Seeing your daydream he broke it. "That's okay, there's no need either." Your direct. "Lets do it I'll write your name and mine."

The two of you took a lot of photos together and you photographed him secretly while he was heading in the other direction.

He approaches you, "What did you just do, hm?".

"U-um nothing just just looking around."

"Looking around at me?".

Gulp.

"I have too." Shows his cellphone by taking a photo of you running around in the park.

"That's fair, isn't it?". Trying to hide your flustered. "Because you have made me happy, I'll find you a restaurant that is no less good."

"You happy with me?". Your voice doesn't seem to want to come out and you nod repeatedly. Sunoo just giggled and stroked the top of your hair.

Feeling hungry and having dinner at the destination. You two decided to sit in the middle at the back.

"Today was fun," you say, leaning on the long sofa in the restaurant. "It was," Sunoo agrees, his eyes meeting yours. "We should do this again sometime."

"I'd like that," you reply, your heart beating faster.

And so, your sweet day with Sunoo ends, leaving you with memories you'll cherish forever.

[nattaphum]

Apo, Tong and Jeff at Namsan Park at Dongdaemun

Tong: Still smiling

Apo: No…where are we P’Tong?

Tong: we’re going to Namsan Park

Apo: Namsan Park

Tong: at Dongdaemun

Apo: We’re at Namsan Park at Dongdaemun to see the night view

Tong: Actually we don’t need to walk but we…

Jeff: We came with snacks and drinks

Apo: Right

Tong: lt’s starting to get cold

Jeff: Not starting to, already cold now… wow

Tong: Beautiful

Apo: Sunset sunset

Tong: How is it? The real sunset?

Apo: Hajima x5 (it means don’t do it in korean) … hey

Tong: Phuket!

Apo: What? What are you saying?

Jeff: Phan-nga is very beautiful!

Apo: What, what, what were you shouting just now?

Jeff: Ah

Apo: Oh oh..does it need the clucking sounds?

Tong: What, it needs clucking sounds too?

Apo: Ahhhhh.. haha

Tong: Do you want Strepsil (sore throat medicine)?

Everyone: AHAHAH

Apo: They need to tie in place their products now

Tong & Jeff: Whooooo

Apo: Whooooo! (*hits Tong*)

Everyone: Whooooo!