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[non-un-topo]

// health complaints / new years thoughts

GERD has made the holidays very challenging this year. I'm trying to take it seriously now, since I'm tired of being in constant pain and discomfort, and now that I know my enamel and my esophagus have sustained some damage. I'm twenty-fucking-six. Also haven't taken any painkillers (OTC) since I was diagnosed, because those are what caused this. So I'm just always in pain in multiple places in my body. That and the exhaustion and weakness.

We're having meatballs with rigatoni tonight, and I am so psyched about it but I can't touch them unless I want my insides to burn all night. I'm already really pushing it by planning to drink tonight.

I'm just excited to graduate so I can finally, finally prioritize my health and start getting strong. Can't do university and health at the same time. Can't do university and anything at the same time, really.

I've been stewing in a deep depression that's bouncing between anger and apathy for a while... I don't know how long. Can't remember. A day of feeling depressed feels like six months. Dysphoria is my prime suspect, since it's decided to become much worse than I ever imagined for myself. I'm just tired and my brain is empty and I feel like I don't care about anything. Wish I could turn these feelings into another stupidly long fic, but I hate everything I create lately.

Wish I had something optimistic to say, but I'm hoping the new year will run its course calmly, and that each of us will stick around on this rock. I'll either be on T by this time next year, or I'll have chickened out again.

Better news? I'm going to a disco tonight.

[arcane-gold]

death • rebirth

[comrademango]

Ibrahim @aburakhiaibrahim currently lives with his parents in their destroyed house in Gaza. His parents are elderly and have chronic illnesses. Their GFM was created over a year ago (2 March 2024) and is just over a third of the way to the $30k CAD goal. It supports not only Ibrahim and his parents but a total of 28 members.

They already have difficulties accessing basic needs and the renewed war only makes their ordeals much worse. Please continue supporting the Aburakhia family.

GFM here

ETA: The family also has a Paypal.

Verification: gaza-evacuation-funds

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[quiltwhere]

twilight farkle

[maddzroks]

GIRL, LET ME TF OUT.

Cover for my hellyena playlist :)

[resldue]

im calling it now one day princess lingli will look at maomao like "thats my weird aunt" even tho maomaos porbably jinshis wife at that point. no sorry lemme rephrase that

even tho jinshi is maomaos husband at that point

[rinnstars]

soulmates!

matching puzzle pieces: mimicking you unconsciously away from home

itoshi rin x reader: fluff, drabble, pro!player rin (after nel arc), long distance relationship, yearning/longing, not proofread + likes and reblogs are appreciated!

one thing rin has learnt whilst overseas is that you and him might really be connected by souls, by ribs, and by heart perhaps too.

strict routines he’s stuck to since he was just fourteen — wake up, open the windows, take deep breaths, stretching, yoga, mediation shifted in its own ways to accommodate you back when he had first gotten together with you: to waking up and looking at you with the light outside from the windows shining perfectly at your face that makes him gulp a little, staring hard and long whilst tracing your face as gently as possible, indulging in the sugary-sweet moment before returning back to his routine like a robot. its what he’s used to, what he’s comfortable enough, what he knows. and recently, he’s been mimicking you, he thinks: closing his eyes immediately at the bright light in his room the same way you bury your face in his face when you first wake up away from the “bright” lights in his room, drinking a cup of coffee that he swore he wouldn’t drink despite making it for you every morning like clockwork albeit with much less sugar than you would have added, and opening his phone the first thing he does right after it all the same way you open your phone and flash him essentially in his bedroom with your bright phone screen that illuminates the now matching photo of you and him beaming at the camera the day he left.

maybe its rin’s way of feeling your presence in his life now that its back to before he met you — just him and football, wearing a different but similarly stuffy and claustrophobic football jersey that marks his name at the back of it. bitter coffee that still smells like the kitchen that brings him back memories of you and him attempting to fix the coffee machine whilst laughing together, your smile imprinted in his mind, phone screen that still makes him unconsciously grin even though its been months since he’s left japan of that selfie with yours and his cheeks squished against each other, beaming at the camera as though it would be the last time right before he enters the gate to somewhere else that he wonders if you too look at it a little longer before you enter your phone, or hand sanitizer that smells exactly like the one you used to use, and gave to him whenever you two were out together that reminds him of home, reminds him of you.

and he’s sure his teammates dont miss the subtle changes to him. how his diet has changed strangely — desserts that fill his meal and sweets that he munches on in the dorm room that he used to buy from the convenience store for you to eat together in class and then in his room that tastes a little less sweet now that its not from your mouth to his, hotter food that you’ve made him grown used to in contrast to his old days eating leftovers and microwaveable meals from the fridge that still burns his tongue a little, sticking out his tongue as though he’s on field at the temperature even now the same way you do too, picking at his vegetable unconsciously the same way you do before pushing it onto his plate whilst smiling, each pickled vegetable even now resembling you in his mind as he pushes it around his plate. how he’s behaving all strangely too in contrast to the rin who they met just a few weeks ago at neo egoist league — how he’s more accustomed to laughing in the same tone you do, having to cup his mouth at the realisation, looking away awkwardly before being tackled by shidou (that broke out into half a fight), how he fiddles even more with his things than before as though they were your hands that he finds comfort in interlocking and fiddling with whilst lying right beside yours, how he looks a little longer at his phone screen that almost made shidou grab his phone (to his luck, he managed to dodge the attack and not get into a fight whilst in it: messaging you that as though expecting a praise). or even just the way he talks now — the tone and accent melting and merging into yours and his own mid sentence, your catchphrases popping out of his mouth unconsciously like bubblegum that draws strange looks (they dont understand it, he thinks), references to yours and by extension his favourite games and shows that flies by everyone else’s head that he misses your laugh that should ring along with his lame jokes.

and rin’s even more sure that the media doesnt miss how he’s changed from just that few weeks. how his closet doesn’t quite fit him right — sanrio and chikawa sweaters that are both a little too tight to have belonged to him and a little uncharacteristic for him to sport on his day out, silver necklaces that they just cant see the heart of, chalking it up to a new impulsive purchase despite him never wearing any in his winning match, silly keychains on the bag he brings out that catches the camera flash just right into the newspapers. how his last interview went even: seeming more nervous whilst attempting to make eye contact with the camera (knowing youre watching him live), stuttering a little too much whilst answering a question about romantic relationship, how his glued up paper ring catches the whole internet. how his internet presence (without PR) reflects something the internet wants to dig a little more — from his instagram stories about another game win whether that be on valorant or league of legends with a duo with a censored tag (of yours), screenshots of movies and shows he’s watching with the side of facetime featuring your face censored with colour brushes from the tools section, outfit pictures that are first vetted by you and then posted with a uncharacteristically cute water bottle you bought for him as a joke that he still uses to this very day.

its now that he can’t be fully with you that rin wonders if he’s taken advantage of all these years you’ve been there for him, each memory haunts him through his own unconscious movements, speech and thoughts: as though you’ve fully melted yourself on him, your soul and his intertwined and ribs replacing each others: becoming one another. missing, longing is not a strong enough word for it all — heartache when he lies in his bed all alone yearning for your warmth hands that lingers on his body, cuddling him at night that makes him dream of days long after his career in a small apartment all decorated by whatever you want living a life with just you and him, that tightening of his heart whenever he sees you in his everyday life: those red roses that he used to buy from the school shop, any song form the playlist you and him collated that he plays everyday, every second he can, things you’ve bought for him that he’s brought along this practically eons long trip to france, the dryness in his mouth when he looks at your face through facetime: noting every single changes from the way your fringe has gotten longer, to the small leftover seaweed bites form the corner of your mouth, wondering how you were just so perfect in his eyes. its not human he feels: this hunger and craving he feels deep in his ribs, in his guts, in his very bone and blood, every second he counts, every day he strikes off from his calendar, every football match he wins just for a chance for you and him to reunite.

and this time, he’s sure of one thing, no matter what his PR agency thinks, no matter what fans thinks, no matter what the world thinks: rin wants to kiss you, melting his lips against yours as he holds up the winning world cup trophy, in front of the whole field, in front of the whole audience, in front of the whole world — because if there’s anything he knows now is that you and him are one matching puzzle piece, you and him are one soul merged together dictated by the universe, you and him are meant to be: and he’ll love you for the rest of eternity.

[choccy-milky]

✨ pokémon AU! 🔴✨ clora is mainly fairy & psychic (bc shes sweet but also smart) whereas seb trends towards fire/dark (even tho i only ended up giving him 1 dark pokemon...shhh) i originally gave him a houndour, bc dark + guard dog was such a perfect combo for him, but arcanine ALSO suits him and is way cuter so i had to go with that 🥹 and i had to fit in a raven and a snake pokemon somewhere bc...cmon🥰 BAHAHA

TYSM to the anon who inspired this!! it was so much fun

[candiewrapper]

i want raw salmon with soy sauce

[thebesttransmf]

hello it is me again,,,,,, u should draw muriel eating those goldfish cheese crackers,,,,,,,,, but only if u wanna draw it

also have a good day/night ^_^

GAIQQH this req brought me back to my childhood. Im not american but my dad is, so he used to bring me those specific goldfish crackers, but one time he stopped bringing them forever. I thought they were gone from market or smth. Are they still around??? I NEED TO KNOW NOWWWW

ANYWAYS I HOPE HE LOOKS ALRIGHT its my first time drawing him so he looks wonky but Its a school doodle qgquwh, TYSM 4 UR KINDNESS ANON!! ^o^

[cynicallyneutral]

sakura: pick, a kiss from me or from her?

naruto, whispering: …a kiss from sasuke

sakura: 🫢

ino: 🤣

sasuke: ❔

[hrtzbeat]

wah. his little hair clips

[comrademango]

Please help Hazem in his recovery

Hazem @albardawillhazem95 lost his entire family during the genocidal war, including his wife and children. He is currently alone, with only few of his neighbors able to survive.

A GFM was created last year but the campaign organizer did not give him the 14k raised from there and so Hazem had to start all over. The new campaign has already been verified by Hussein (el-shab-hussein) and is moving very slowly.

This is Hazem in his tiny dwelling, with what little he has left of his family, as his house was also destroyed during the settler state's bombardment of his area. Please support Hazem. Isolation is already very difficult to deal with in so-called normal circumstances and Hazem has to do this while facing ordeals most of us cannot even imagine, especially with the renewed war.

GFM here

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[thatdeadaquarius]

the pspspsps effectively got me. Im in. You’ve got me hooked. Now I present the new idea I just got for the language barrier au. You know how the genshin names have different meanings in different language like how Ei apparently means egg in german? Imagine speaking in another language/you native language and one of the words sounds really similar to one of the character’s names or just straight up is their name, so they ask why you call them but you’re not calling that character but are actually saying smth else like egg.

I think i talked abt this sometime ago in 2023 masterpost, so i felt more inclined to share some shitty art of how i imagine these moments go instead lmao

(it should be very assumed atp that i am so so SO sorry i took forever to reply!! /gen)

sorry its just my art 😅

Safe Travels Anon,

💀♒

I feel bad tagging ppl for smth kinda small?? and its just my art not even a writing blurb - srry guys just thought smth better than nothing, more to come!

♡the beloveds♡

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@kiyomi-uchiha777

[naggingatlas]

watched my friend kass play pressure on stream today n doodled sebastian n then she colored him :) super nostalgic shit. add this one to my collection of butch women on t btw

[sugar-petals]

am i the only one whose dream k-pop collab is an all-dancer one? like i want ten taemin hyunjin jimin kai ni-ki hoshi yunho and j-hope popping and locking and jopping until the stage detonates and if there’s any budget left just let mark lee rap while j-hope hits a triple slut drop