#not abhi but i will.

[mera-mann-kehne-laga]

To my adorablest idiot,

//पर ये सब सोचना

दिल को यूँ खोलना

सब कुछ कह कर ही

सब को बताना ज़रूरी है क्या?//

I've always wanted to tell you so so so many things but...........i just.....couldn't. Maybe Because idk how to entangle this tangled mess of thoughts in my head and say them out loud as words that make any sense. Because i feel like it won't ever make sense to you. It has never to anyone before.

//अक्सर तुमसे मिलकर मुझको

घर सा लगता है।

फिर क्यों दिल ही दिल में 

कोई डर सा लगता है।//

Or maybe bcz I'm an insecure coward. And I'm afraid of being perceived. By my own home.  I thought I should let it all out thoda toh bcz it was getting too much to hold in. I know you'll call me stupid. You'll tell me to stop thinking itna. But trust me i want to stop too. I so desperately want to. But i just.......can't.

i sometimes wish you could read my thoughts. So that you'd know how much i love you and how much you and everything you do and say mean to me and how I'm always resisting the urge to kiss you lol. But then i think no. He won't be able to withstand all the darkness in there. He'd get lost. It'd be too much for him. It'll consume him and he'll never be the same. Keep it to yourself please. 

But on the other hand i still so desperately want you to reach to those dark cracks of my mind and heart. And plant the seeds of your love and reassurance. And water them with your firmness. And make them bloom into the most beautiful flowers, being the absolute sunshine you are, sunshine. 

I know. It's all tedious work. But news flash. Loving someone like me is never easy. You ask me if i'm alright atleast 20 times a day, don't you? Or when I'm staring at you and you say What? And what is my answer everytime? Nothing. 

I want to say everything. But everything sounds like a lot doesn't it? And then how'd i explain it to you if you ask kya everything?

Girls like me are not easy to love. We feel everything so very deeply that it consumes us whole at times. We need constant reminding that you love us. Because even the tiniest slightest change in your behaviour would make us think we did something wrong.

i often feel excluded from everything but it's mostly my fault because i distance myself because i think i'm annoying. Then i feel lonely. And soon enough the whole world comes crashing down. And this wave of sadness makes it feel like all friends are annoying, everything is loud, and I'm contemplating why I even exist. This restlessness took so much away from me, sometimes I wish it would have taken my life as well.

I'm jealous of those who can function like a normal human being. They don't have anxiety holding them back from everything, they don't struggle to get out of bed or have to put on an act that everything is fine when its not. They don't struggle to hold friendships and relationships... they don't feel sad for no fucking reason everyday. Those that can manage pdhai and work towards their dreams, the ones who have self esteem and see the beauty in themselves. Those that know what its like to feel safe and secure, not insecure and fearful of it all.

I wonder how do you tell people? How do you tell them that you're exhausted even though you slept for 8 hours? How do you tell them that you need a break from talking and smiling and simply being near them? How do you tell them that you too are human and can make mistakes and can be a failure sometimes? Bc when the heck will this burn out leave me

i'm trying not to make it sound like a plea or an apology, but it should be one right?

//तू होगा ज़रा पागल 

तूने मुझको है चुना।//

Aaj when i said that thing about jumping off that flyover on my way back home or when i told you I'll be going away after 11th ends, tujhe kuch sunai nahi diya hoga but my heart shattered into a thousand little pieces. To see how disheartened and concerned and tensed you were. I then went to the washroom and broke down thoda because the feeling of being an unlovable burden worsened all of a sudden. I was also kinda overwhelmed by how much you cared and the guilt of concerning you itna. Because never in my wildest dreams did I imagine ki someone'd ever love me aise. But then i came back and saw your stupid pyaara face and everything felt good again. I'm sorry. For concerning you like that.

Aur sun. Though I may seem at times somewhat distant from you, through the gray mist of my own thoughts and storms, I am never far. my thoughts always circle around you ok? I love you hehe

Yours,

Nishu.

[leejoonho]

iconic entrance ™ 

Park Hyungsik as Ahn Min Hyuk

1.03 STRONG GIRL NAM SOON (2023) dir. kim jung shik

[houseofbreadpakoda]

Sach batau toh, darr lagta hain bhai. Bohot hi zyada darr lagta hain.

[tum-naam-sochlo-merese-ni-hora]

Idk,,a room appreciation post?

[desi-yearning]

Girl studies properly for one day and falls sick the next

[stxrrynxghts]

Ever since he was a child, Abhimanyu has seen the way his uncle looks at his wives. And he has never understood that look. Ever.

Krishna looks at his wives as if they are his entire world. As if they are the light in his eyes, the blood flowing in his veins, the air he was breathing.

As if their existence kept him alive.

Once, he does ask Mama Krishna about it. Abhimanyu remembers Krishna staring down at him, a smile spreading across his features, as he ruffles his hair.

"Why, Abhi, you will understand when you get older." Is the cheeky answer he gets in return.

Now, Abhimanyu has turned nineteen, almost a man, yet he doesn't understand. He doesn't understand how someone can treat their wife as if she is their goddess, the source of their being. Honestly, it is beyond his comprehension.

And the women are no less either. They treat their husbands with affection and love that is beyond Abhimanyu's comprehension. He hasn't understood any of this ever, and he doesn't think he will.

He meets Uttara, and finally, Krishna Mama's words uttered a decade ago finally start making sense.

[ramayantika]

Okay now what's the deal with hating on kathak for its connection with mughal history.

You don't even know a thing about dance but you got to hate it mindlessly

[chappellrroan]

if being wise hurts this much i don't want to be wise anymore (op is going through wisdom tooth growing pain yet again)

[lost-my-sanity1]

🥹🤏okay babies

EDIT. okay so this time it's kinda serious. 4 was being serious with that. I hope no one questions him or makes fun of it I'LL BURN THEM DOWN WHOEVER DOES

[autailome]

om shanti om is just like such a love letter to bollywood obviously but also just a love letter to all movies i feel like you come out of that movie just being like I Love Cinema

[bewakulfi]

online friendships ars so bittersweet

[pyaari-naari]

My playlists know absolutely no chill.

One moment I'm listening to Tum Ho👩🏽‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏽🎀 and suddenly it's pyaar me dil pe maar de goli le le meri jaaaaaan 💃🏻🕺🏻

Like what do you want me to feel yaar?

[hauxicrook]

when u actually achieve the IDGAF era 🤌

[desi-yearning]

Learning how to write with my non-dominant hand

Day-1 : 27-05-2024

(I'm doing this just to feel like I'm accountable for giving updates which might help in me not giving up too soon😭😭😭)

Hi! 👋

I started with horizontal and vertical lines today. They turned out to be very not straight (quite like me) but I mostly focused on getting the grip right. (pun accidental, I'm learning to write with my left and trying to mirror my right)

The main issue was that, I'm habituated to holding my pen wrong with my dominant (right) hand too.

This is how it looks for now and I need to work on the grip😭

My fingers do hurt a bit but I'm hoping that I'd get used to it because I really need to build the strength of my fingers to play the guitar properly. My hand starts shivering even with a bit of stress so I'm hoping that it gets fixed by doing this.

Might have to do tomorrow's part earlier than this because I have my guitar class tomorrow and my fingers will Hurt a lot after that. Let's see how it goes.

Bye!💛

[stxrrynxghts]

Adults and Kids who they vibe with

Balarama & Pradyumna

oh it is just eldest kid things yk

#suffering

bathroom singers

jamming to "tum to thehare pardesi" together

biscuit ALWAYS breaks in their chai

gullible and naive

sighs a lot

can get a bit too angry

"be a teacher they said. It will be fun, they said."

they are honestly the sweetest ppl alive

so trusting and loving for all

over protective

*pinches nose bridge* wHY mE

Krishna & Abhimanyu

charming and cute and popular and oh-

*puppy eyes* who, me?

chaotic good.

purrrrrrfect.

duo one has 100 problems, and these 2 cause 99 of them.

curly hair and dimples and starry eyes

scary when angry

drinks respect women juice thrice a day

past time: irritating others

tALL

ends up stealing food unintentionally, in some cases

Arjun & Uttara

adorable

awkward dorks

"n-no, I was NOT looking at you, I swear!!"

gets over-emotional

oblivious

they just mean well, honestly

soulmates with duo two

dancing and living in their imaginary world

too forgiving

softies *continues to pet rabbit gently*

they deserve better, fr.

[artcinemas]

if bjp wins the general election i might actually start doing tax evasion for reals this time