#not saying growth doesnt happen ofc.

[theposhperyton]

All evidence suggests yes

[laprimera]

ABOUT THE MUN - ooo I got tagged ooOooo

what made you pick up the current muse(s) you have?

fixation as soon as the second trailer with her reveal came? Like the little snippets that was known about the game already weaved a pretty intricate (and disproven lol) plot and personality.

Even after everything got debunked I still kept my original lore + now I live and love the idea her ideal, picturesque self is actually a front for how clutzy and forgetful she really is as a super busy champion who's passionate about her region.

is there anything you don’t like to write?

bad/sad unnecessary endings or forks in the road?? I know it's silly in context like "well stories arent all happy-" BUT THIS IS POKEMON AR PEE AND I PARTIALLY CONTROL THE NARATIVE AND I WANT MY PROTAGS TO GO THROUGH IT BUT COME OUT AT THE END GETTING EVERYTHING THEY WANT. IS IT SO BAD I DONT WANT TO PARTICIPATE IN BITTER SADNESS EVEN IN A FANTASY MADE-UP SCENARIO? REALITY IS HELL AS IS I DONT WANNA BE SAD ALL DAY OVER INTERNET BARBIES, I HAVE BILLS AND TAXES TO DO.

so I make sure to plot with long term plot partners so we all get that character growth and exciting story with something good they can all take away in the end. No, the character doesnt have to die to prove a macab point. No the loving couple doesnt have to break up for some story twist. And thats what AU's are for if we're looking to explore something else so it's easy to separate from 👍

is there anything you really enjoy writing?

plot novellas 👀 I see a partner reply instantly to a plot thread and I jive for days on end until the next reply for real-- each one is a really juicy cliffhanger and a lot of them still haunt the back of my mind.

how do you come up with headcanons? 

most come with interactions or thoughts stemming from the game or story itself. Eventually they branch out and more ideas happen and a lot comes from looking at dash and bringing up some really interesting points!

do you write in silence or do you play music? 

Ambiance and music helps esp when silence is actually really distracting (thoughts wandering and what not-adhd be like that). The mood even influences the reply.

do you plan your replies or wing them?

planned for plot driven replies but ic bouts and simple replies are winged!

do you enjoy shipping? 

YES YES YES YES, though recently I have to be a little more careful about saying Im completely open to shipping on whim. At some points the plot involves the other person too much and it gets hard to move a story along esp with the nature of the rpc and the lifespan of interest in the muse/rpc (which is natural ofc!).

You're okay to show and express interest in shipping so we can take a direction with our muses interaction wise but I say it's not for certain until they develop some more long term. Who knows, maybe it was just a crush or a fling sort of thought :' 0

what’s your alias/name? 

Leche leche leche leche leche milk

age?

30

birthday? 

may!

favorite color?

red and greens

favorite song? 

Sugar, You by the Oh Honey has taken a lot of real-estate in my head lately--

last movie you watched?

I,,,havent watched a movie in a really long time Ill be honest OTL,, I dont have the attention span to sit down for more then twenty minutes if that.

last show you watched?

Aggretsuko final season! That,,,was awhile ago. See above oop--

last song you listened to?

Dont know the last song that played on my car radio 🤔

favorite food? 

spaghetti and meatballs and cereal < 3

favorite season?

spring 🌼

do you have a tumblr best friend?

ooh I dont want to make anyone feel left behind. My moots have a special place regardless of hobby or not <3

tagging: uh...

[sukunasweetheart]

childhood friends au with sukuna lmao

little kiddie sukuna is very independent already, he doesnt like mingling with other kids that much and when he does, he ends up fighting them. i think maybe he just usually wanders around by himself or stays inside and reads, idk. 

yuuji tells you that sukuna doesnt like playing with other kids that much but ofc that isnt enough for you to give up. you befriended yuuji first but youd been curious about his twin the whole time lmao.

at first you stood around his window throwing little pebbles and sticks to get his attention but he always opened up to tell you to get lost before shutting it again HAHA happens so often that when you dont show up, he gets a little worried. claims youre annoying but is disappointed when he doesnt hear the clack clack on his window.

one day yuuji just invites you over to his house and the two of you play so rowdily running around while sukunas trying to focus on his picture books being like 🙉

lil babykuna uses difficult words already at that age, so whenever you talk to him you’re like “refuse? what does that mean?” and he is also the type of kid who’d just leave in the middle of a game of hide and seek LMFAO gets disastrous bc if hes the seeker, all the kids r hiding for ages before they realise hes left 😬 or if hes one of the hiders, theyll search for ages HAHAAH what a menace, hes already bored on the count to five

"sukuna, you cant just suddenly leave during hide and seek."

you start following him around when he starts to wander outside and he repeatedly tells you to go away but you dont listen, and eventually you start taking charge which he doesnt like >:( “stop walking ahead of me, loser”

anyway the two of you stumble into a nice hiding spot in the woods, that you found. imagine him telling u like "u better not tell anybody else about this place" and then youre like 😐 whyre you making the rules when i found it smh smh

and then you get lost on the way back. youre like "o-okay sukuna, lets hold hands so i dont lose you" and hes like 💢 ha? later on, youre like "dont be scared sukuna, im sure we can get home" and hes like "whos the one thats scared 🙄"

this is a bit random but i definitely want to add how yuuji often says “thats why you dont have any friends, sukuna” in here

whenever he accidentally upsets you he cant think of anything else to do other than pick a random flower from the ground and hand it to you while awkwardly kicking at the dirt bc hes not used to admitting wrong

and surprisingly, it works bc youre simple minded and you accept the flower

after its snowed a lot, you come outside and draw sukunas face on the ground with a stick. it basically looks like >:( he looks at it and is like “who’s that.”

going into highschool, sukuna gets a massive growth spurt and he’s already over 185cm omg

maybe you’re upset again over something and crying behind the school building when he comes around (looking for you). You're both squatting, on the back there's a brick wall, and you (optional) crying and he's holding up a single flower, looking like 😠 but with 💧 all tsundere awkward, telling you to stop crying already

you look at the damn flower and start cry-laughing telling him that he hasnt changed at all! he gets mad when you laugh at him, but he says “neither have you” bc damn, the flower worked once again

sukuna wiping your tears away with his sleeve 🥺

thank you for reading my gibberish

Masterlist

[nightcolorz]

idk where the theory that angel dust will die came from but it annoys the shit of out me bcus like 😭 in what way does that make even a crumb of narrative sense? Isn't the whole message of the show that even if u have done terrible things and made life ruining self destructive choices there is always potential for not only redemption but for growth and the chance of a good life? And angel is very heavily focused on as the central character pushing this thesis? If he died it would be devastating in a wholely self contradictory, unsatisfying, and show ruining way. Also he is viziepop's favorite? 😭 But regardless of all of the reasons why it would be a terrible writing choice, I simply dont think it would happen bcus it's been stated already that the three vs r the central villains of s2, and unless it's some sort of bitter revenge plotline (which doesnt seem in spirit of the show or messaging) a season with the vs as villains NEEDS angel 😭 u have alastor's sort of campy and fun rivalry with vox ofc but angel is the empathetic hook that gives the audience a reason to not only see the vs as antagonistic, but genuinely threatening and stake heavy. Viziepop has spoken currently and in the past about plotlines angel will go on for future seasons. So yeah 😭 angel is not going to die I'm very confident in saying, and if he does I can't imagine a way that it would be well done or a good narrative choice. He says that he is going to die in poison, but I don't think it would be the best move even remotely if the show decided to explicitly frame the lyrics of poison as ultimately correct rather then a victims self hating exercise into despair 😭 that would be a horribly pessimistic route for this show with a very transparent optimistic borderline children's show spirited message to go down🙏

[sorry-mom-ive-sinned]

since we are hikakao posters brothers in arms i was curious to ask, a lot of scenarios for hikakao have kaoru fall in love first which makes sense, but what if it was hikaru? how do you think hikaru would act/do knowing he was in love with kaoru and would kaoru figure it out?

i like to entertaining the thought occasionally that even if kaoru were in love with hikaru also, he may try to turn his brother down because he knows it isn't a good thing for them to be together. it'd (probably) cause a lot of issues down the line and kaoru would probably feel like it would stunt hikaru's growth as a person, making him dependant on kaoru again...and to kaoru, that is a fate fuckin worse than death so he'd rather make himself (and by extension hikaru) miserable for this notion of "the greater good". but i ALSO like the idea of kaoru giving in and being "selfish" and accepting his brother's confession and furthering their relationship, but being guilt ridden and beating himself up for it later.

the fact i started this off asking about hikaru and it still became about kaoru....lmao

Okay so I definitely have a lot of throughts lol. Firstly, I like to think of Hikaru as not as oblivious as he may seem, especially not when it come to Kaoru. He doesnt understand/doesnt know how to deal with his own emotions, but he is like at least aware of them or that they exist. So if he fell in love first, I definitely think he'd hide it, and tbh hide it better than Kaoru would. Because I imagine Kaoru all in his head about it like "I can't bring my brother down with me I must try to hide this and preserve what we have I can't let these feelings show" all dramatic like which Hikaru would eventually figure out, while I imagine Hikaru is more "Huh. I'm in love with Kaoru, my brother. Probably shouldnt share this." then like. Just doesn't. I definitely don't see him having as much of an internal struggle about it and is able to act much more normally then Kaoru would.

Which is in part because I like to think that in Hikaru's mind, if they were like Together not much would change, so he thinks whats the point in causing unnecessary strife for Kaoru when he's fairly content with how things are. I think the main issue would be maybe more sexual feelings? But still I dont think he would have too much of an issue hiding those, since he's used to being physically close with Kaoru and is able to separate out his sexual feelings when its at inappropriate times. Wait actually I think the main issue would be genuinely deep signs of physical affection. I like to think Hikaru has a soft spot for hands, like he would want to just hold and fiddle with Kaoru's and stuff, and whenever Kaoru initiates hand holding in a genuine way he combusts a little lmao. And when Kaoru gets hurt ofc. Because he reacts in a way where he can barely contain himself with all his rampaging emotions, so I think in those moments is when it's the closest to being revealed, but Hikaru is too much of a mess to form coherent thoughts and words so it doesn't.

I don't think Kaoru would figure it out tbh, not only because I think Hikaru is fairly decent at hiding it (I say decent cause I think the host club would come to figure him out) but also because I like to think of Kaoru as a bit dense when it comes to things about himself too. Like even if he got an inkling, he'd be like "no theres no way why would you even think that about him" with a hidden "he wouldnt love me in that way i'm probably projecting".

And I completely agree with you about Kaoru either rejecting Hikaru if he confessed, or accepting "selfishly". They'd have a lot to work through whenever a confession happens. But tbh I like to think that any confession that happens is because of Kaoru's feelings. Either Kaoru himself tells him because hes bad at lying or its a heat of the moment type thing, or Hikaru picks up on it and confronts him about it. So as long as Kaoru is oblivious to his own feelings, nothing progresses on that front basically.

So lets say Hikaru has been pining since they joined the host club right (I chose this time because I like to think the more time they spend around others the more Hikaru comes to appreciate, crave, and love Kaoru's presence as someone he chooses to love, not just his identical twin thats his only companion) and Kaoru doesnt start realizing and having a crisis until their second year of highschool. I think on Hikaru's end he would notice Kaoru's feelings shortly after Kaoru himself does due to Kaoru not hiding things well (from Hikaru), then be conflicted if its right for Kaoru but trusts in the end that Kaoru will be honest if he talks about it with him (which he is wrong about, but he will be able to tell anyways because cmon they can read eachother like a book when their thinking clearly), and decides to give Kaoru some time to figure things out and come to terms with his feelings before he says anything.

Kaoru on the other hand realizes his feelings, then just "oh shit oh shit oh shit" and spirals. Thinking that Hikaru would never want this, he deserves better, as you said thinking it would make him dependent on him again and ruin all his growth. Ect. Not realizing that Hikaru realizes he loves him in this way Because of his growth and the more he grows rhe more he loves. But, Kaoru keep spiraling and then lowkey tries to push Hikaru away a bit. In a "it whats best for him" kinda way.

Then it all culminates with Hikaru confronting him like wtf why are you pushing me away. And they argue and Kaoru in the heat of the moment admits to his feelings, causing Hikaru to just. Lose it. Like hes yelling and laughing and pacing and rambling like "I cant believe it. You really think this? What is wrong with you, how could you ever think its best for me to be without you? You really haven't noticed? Its been years now of me being in love with you. And when I realized you felt the same way, because I picked up on it months ago by the way, I was so, so happy. I love you and you make me a better person. But if all I do is make you feel like this. Make you feel worse. Then maybe it wouldn't work out anyways." Like. Straight to the gut. Not really understanding that Kaoru is like mentally ill in ways Hikaru can't understand.

Then ofc Kaoru is like "You don't make me feel worse. You make me feel like I'm precious and like nothing else in the world matters more. And that fucking terrifys me. Because you deserve better than me holding you down. I want you to grow and be able to be happy without me. I feel like I tricked you into feeling like this. Its better that you become independent and find someone else thats better for you."

Then the response "Why do you think I would ever even want to be happy without you? Im not shackled by my feelings for you. You're not forcing or tricking me to do anything. You can't even trust me enough to know that I know my own emotions? I love you. I enjoy loving you. I choose to love you. I am my own person, and I have the autonomy to choose you. You can't decide for me whats best for me. Theres nothing you can do about how god damn much I care, and always have."

Then that leaving Kaoru in fucking shambles because that shatters literally everything his brain has been telling him for not just since he realized his feelings, but since he first discovered what guilt felt like.

I think things overall would probably go a bit smoother if Hikaru fell first tbh. Like it would one big confrontation putting everything out in the open, then slowly dealing with their issues to be better as partners from then on. Vs when Kaoru falls first I think of it as much more miscommunication takes place, because Kaoru is spiraling And Hikaru is confused, leading to more issues worked out over a long period of time, since Hikaru is too busy figuring out his own shit to correctly read Kaoru right away.

Anyways that became so long omg, I have so many thoughts on them rattling in my brain all the damn time. Tysm for the ask I love love love barfing up my thoughts about them. And especially this because i'm getting more and more interested in exploring Hikaru's side of it all, which I feel is a bit less.

[technicallyelegantkitten]

sigh

imma say smth whiny again so plz ignore, im emo lately

my biggest pet peeve in any fandom is hypocrisy but my second biggest one is extremism

idk, ive been reading a lot of "deruth isnt as bad as other dads so he did NOTHING wrong" type defenses lately and... no?

i freely admit that deruth isnt the worst father in existence but he's not perfect either?? he has messed up, he has (accidentally) caused serious harm to his child through poor parenting skills and tbh he's just a bit dumb and shortsighted

ofc i dont care for the reverse either, "deruth is not the perfect dad therefore he's the worst most evil scum imaginable" but i tend to prefer this version even though its more ooc and i deeply dislike ooc content

theres just smth abt saying “he’s not actively trying to kill his child like other fathers so he’s the perfect dad” that srsly skeeves me out. I think its bc its the excuse thats made for a lot of real life abusers (i wouldnt say that deruth is necessarily an abusive person but he has done things that are irresponsibly harmful towards his children) and seeing that excuse just makes my skin crawl

“You shouldnt be upset, your dad didnt beat you unconscious so he’s not abusive” or “he doesnt hit you so everything else he does is justified” and so on and so forth. Its just a personal preference of mine, but despite my dislike for ooc content, if im forced to choose between ooc and abuse apologetics, im going to choose ooc

But thats the main problem. I dont see why there needs to be any extremism in any direction. Deruth doesnt need to be written as an irredeemable monster for him to be a deeply flawed parent but he also isnt a fucking saint who needs to be protected at all cost. Idk, when i see these conversations it just feels like it murders nuance

I mostly lurk cuz i dont have a lot of confidence in socializing with ppl but sometimes i’ll just be lurking and i’ll see smth like “i HATE how ppl bash deruth, he’s an AMAZING father” and then a bunch of ppl replying to that with agreement that lacks any nuance. Again, to be fair, there are plenty of ppl who make the opposite argument to an uncomfortable extreme, but at least there arent any abuse apologetics in deruth bashing

All of that said, i am not saying that i think that ppl who engage in those extreme debates abt deruth are bad people or they support child abuse or anything else insanely over the top like that. Frankly, ppl can enjoy fandom however it makes them happy. If it makes them happy to defend deruth to their dying breath, you do you dude, have fun. Im just stating that i am personally a person who is deeply uncomfortable with reading abuse apologetics

But moreso than opinions like “deruth did nothing wrong! He’s the perfect dad! He never did any irresponsible parenting cuz there weren’t any bruises!” i am even more deeply uncomfortable with blaming og cale for deruth’s poor parenting. Now if you’ve read any of my fics, you might notice that while i rlly like og cale, i think that his behavior is shitty. He had noble goals but much like his father, he was too short-sighted and stupid to actually help his family properly and the things he did would have made being his parent an absolute nightmare

One of my favorite fics that i wrote has an entire plot centered around cale needing to realize how harmful and toxic his behavior was and start himself on the long and painful path towards growth and improvement. I think that cale has potential to be a better person than he is but no matter what, even if he was faking every second of it, the shit he did was fucked up and he hurt a lot of people through his thoughtless foolishness

So if i think that cale is such a flaw character, why would i dislike it when people blame deruth’s poor parenting skills on the difficulty of raising a child as explosive and irrational as cale?

Very simple reason. Cale isn’t the parent. And the majority of cale’s misbehavior happened before the age of 18. The concept that a literal child with clear trauma is supposed to be the one who’s mature enough to make things better and shouldnt have been a difficult teenager just makes me feel gross

This is when the abuse apologetics start dipping the toes into victim blaming. If my understanding of the canon lcf timeline is correct (it might not be, lcf timeline is a bit hard to understand sometimes), cale lost his mother at 8 and started acting like trash to protect his step brother around the age of 10. A child. He was a child. Not even a teenager. A very small and stubborn child.

Ron stated in the sidestory that cale was quite similar to ohn when he was a child. Specifically while referencing how ohn will try hard to seem mature even when she’s scared or worried about the people she loves. The sort of child that tries to hide their pain so that other ppl can be taken care of instead. Ron is an unreliable narrator so its dubious how accurate this is but for me, it makes sense with cale’s character

I feel like people see 18 year old cale acting like trash and they think he was 18 yrs old for the last ten years. Nah dude, he was 8. Hell even at 15 when he started drinking, 15 is a really young age. Instead of blindly endorsing cale’s misbehavior by giving him money and supporting him irresponsibly, deruth needed to be a real parent to the boy. but instead he chose to do what he always does (even in lcf) throw money at the problem in hopes of making it go away

I have a lot more thoughts on deruth and cale and criticisms of both their personalities (and just how much cale really does take after his father) but that would derail further from my point. My point is that blaming a traumatized child for being a difficult child to parent is just… not it. Ive helped raise enough problem children to know EXACTLY how hard it is to raise a child like cale but just bc he’s hard to raise, it doesnt mean you just throw money at him and ignore the real problems

(also never get me started on how much it upsets me that no one, not a single person in cale’s life, realized that he had been possessed. It’s not like roksu did a flawless job impersonating cale. He didnt. His attempts to act like trash were cute in comparison to cale’s quite convincing act, but no one noticed and im the most upset at deruth abt this bc out of *everyone* i feel very strongly that his father should have noticed)

Anyway, this is a lengthy and foolishly thought out way of saying it makes me deeply uncomfortable to read blind defense of deruth’s character. Im not saying he’s an abuser, he isn’t in my opinion, but he is a *deeply* flawed parent who has done abusive things to his child, even if those things were unintentional. That said, if deruth apologetics are what make you happy, enjoy yourself. Im just not personally comfortable with the way those defenses often mirror abuse apologetics and victim blaming in real life situations.

(again, to be clear, i do NOT think that ppl who defend deruth are victim blaming abuse sympathizers. I think that they have an opinion of a fictional character that i disagree with and my reasons for disagreeing make it uncomfortable for me to read their opinions. That said, im also not saying that there isnt something morally wrong abt making deruth the most abusive scumbag on the planet bc i think that also tears away the nuance of how subtle and insidious abusive neglect can truly be. BUT ultimately i would prefer to read a removal of subtlety rather than arguments that appear uncomfortably similar to abuse apologetics)

[bonesandthebees]

that ties into the fact that we have no idea whatll happen to wilbur afterwards

I would love to believe that he wont be forced into any roles (maybe even get to figure out his relationship with clara, communicate it out with her in a way or something tho that is very hopeful and foolish) and get to live as a person if he wishes to (which im confident to say he does)

he has phil on his side (and surely also tommy, niki techno, some other deathlings too) and I would even dare to believe eret wouldnt force him into a strict role like that, plus he did agree to the plan but im not sure if that really accounts for any insurance

but does any of that really matter if he still keeps getting visions

at this point it doesnt feel like enough for wilbur to get to be a person while still getting and relaying vision, bc there is deep rooted trauma

I think he either ignores the visions or fixes his relationship with clara ig (idk how that could even happens but it would definitely be very interesting ngl)

not sure if that makes sense but in general im just praying for some closure and freedom for him, my boy deserves at least that

wilbur has made some insane progress lately and it can be seen, especially in the last chapter and I go over that in my comments but just trusting more in general, less afraid to break pythia rules, ... im so proud of him

what I do want to point out is how, despite the deathlings being his friends/family now, the good ones basically, and even kristin being more there than clara ever really was, wilbur still doesnt like kristin and doesnt want to be a deathling

like hes with them and hes one of them in a way, but hes not a deathling, he isnt switching to kristin just bc he hates clara

and I absolutely love that, bc while switching to being a deathling would make sense, his journey here is about discovering himself, without the influence of anyone else, especially not goddesses (I think if he werent chosen as the pythia he wouldve been an atheist, talking to q about it was very intriguing to him)

on completely different note I noticed that the kind of visions wilbur receives (or maybe how he perceives them) is relevant to how he feels about something rn, like the vision about escaping vs the new vision being confused bc hes confused

not sure if thats what's actually happening but it feels like it

and ofc I cant forget, THAT SANDDUO SCENE? WITH THE NAME REVEAL? BONES YOUR SANDDUO ARE EVERYTHING TO ME

so unbelievably proud of wilbur for how far hes come and prying this all goes well and he gets to live the life he deserves

and a mandatory "the pythia"/"wilbur" narration changes bc I dont think ill ever be normal about that, it just always gives every moment even more meaning, its genius

2/2

hm... while it would be great for wilbur not to be forced into any more roles he IS still clara's chosen. he is still going to receive visions of the future whether he wants them or not. and that means something even if he doesn't want it to.

guess you'll have to wait and see how that turns out :)

yeah the thing is I think a lot of readers expected wilbur to switch to kristin since she's the 'opposite' of clara in a sense, but that's not the route i wanted to go down. wilbur's trauma is so deeply ingrained, any kind of religious institution leaves a bad taste in his mouth now. the past ten years of his life have been dictated by the rules of the divine, but he doesn't want that anymore. he wants to step away from the divine entirely, and get the experience he's been denied for so long: just being a person.

aaa thank you I loved writing that sandduo scene so much. he's made SO much progress it's been so fun to write his slow character growth throughout this entire fic, and finally reap the rewards.

[mrkis]

WHEN I TELL YOU I THREW MY PHONE AWAY SCREAMING AT THIS 😭😭😭 I knew it was a moment of realization to him. I just knew it.

The whole chapter pulled on my heartstrings and I felt for him, the ptsd from his past relationship, the being cautious of letting anyone in - I get that. 🥺 Honesly, I can see the growth in his relationship with mc, and I love it. Also, the fact that he wants to speak to her and clear shit up, but thats just easier said than done, especially when both of them have trouble speaking out their minds and hearts. Especially, considering how complicated their relationship is because they feel like they are crossing boundaries when they aren't.

Eunbin... that selfish, egotistical, manipulative bitch .... 🙃 I swear to god she is the most unreasonable person ever. I had a friend like her. Constantly making herself the victim of her own decisions, and feeling like its all justified because she felt like it was alright. Honestly, how the hell did she think its okay to leave and that they are fine after having a fight then some stupid make up sex without discussing it with him further??? Jesus thats so selfish and self-rightous behavior 😤😤🫥 He blocked her ass and she still thinks they are fine??? What in the actual fuck?? How is that even an option?? I hate Eunbin with every part of me even more with each next scene ... 🙃🙃 And I bet my ass she would feel like everything is okay after this talk they had and she hugged him ..🤦‍♀️ the audacity tho, he clearly doesnt even want to be around her and she goes ahead and hugs him??? BITCH NO. Step away and get your nasty hands off of him. 🙂 I guess him letting her hug him makes her think she can win him over and they are "fine" now ...jesus... I want to blame Jaemin, for letting her think that, but a part of me realizes he is also very affected and its all happening too fast for his liking. I just hope he is okay after mc leaves him in chapter 5 cause this must be some bad ass trauma. And I hope they finally get to talk it out properly eventually in be it pt3 or chapter 7. But they NEED to talk, like asap.

And to end this on a happy note - JENO BEST BOY ❤️ I swear to god he is everything, the support and understanding - immaculate 🥹🙏❤️ Now if he can get mc and Jaemin to be truthful to each other and clink their heads together so they can finally act normal and SPEAK, I would just kiss him all over. ❤️

THANK YOU CAS, FOR ANOTHER GREAT CHAPTER 😭❤️ I would totally say I cant wait for the next part but ofc take all the time you need but just know I will cry when it drops. 😭❤️ I love twlg so much. Its literally my comfort story which is weird cause it makes my emotions go into overdrive with all the stuff happening but it is. 🥺❤️

the line is one of my favourite lines :> i'm kinda proud of that one! i'm happy that it gave you that type of reaction.. i love it. jaemin is very cautious! i'm happy you mentioned that! he only lets certain people into his personal space, even though he's got a group of friends surrounding him. it was always jeno that was the only one that could come close to him and burst that personal bubble, letting jaemin show his truth feelings and emotions... but that appreciation scene just shows how far him and mc have come and how open (ish lol) he is with her :(

they still need to learn how to have a proper conversation... but i'm lowkey loving how they avoid it because angst <3 annoyance <3 confusion <3

eunbin is...... a tricky character for sure. but she's so fun to write and i'm enjoying including her in more scenes (very excited for pt.3 because there's so much eunbin) she is, however, definitely the type that is able to get what she wants all the time because she has that sweet face and sweet personality that everyone adores. she can come across as very selfish and oblivious which, yet again, i love LMAO. her bringing the angst is just everything. angst is what i like best.

but ah..... i can't wait for you to see how jaemin reacts when he realises mc had left him. it's almost like deja vu.... but yeah! jeno is literally the best. he's so comforting and understanding, he's literally the bestest friend. i want him.

thank you for enjoying twlg and thank you for all the compliments :( i'm very very very grateful

[soloorganaas]

Hello my love 🌎 and 📚 PLEASE 🙏🏾🙏🏾

omg yes yes

🌍 What is your dream AU?

i have so many but i got this ask twice so here is the first:

so a looooooong long ass MWPP era through first war fic. the first part of which digs deep into why and how sirius and remus got together wrt the healing they give each other but how unstable their relationship can be bc of their own many faults, unhealed traumas, the unrecognised power dif etc. i'd love to see them slowly start to work that out as well as they hit sixth and seventh year. all the while not ignoring how central james is to sirius, and also to the way his relationship with remus develops

and THEN i want to see how all this growth and development drives their decisions to join the order. what their options were, did they have doubts, what did they know about the war, where did they think it was going. then once they're in it how did this put pressure on their relationships, how did it bring out the best and worst in them

BUT. omg but. i want to see at least one (1) fucking adult intervene or even just be PART of this bc its an insane, huge, life-altering thing happening but somehow none of their parents are involved in any way. they're 18!! and that doesnt ofc mean they listen to even some of what their parents say, but i want to see that dynamic in place. the potters and james were so close. remus and his parents were close. sirius's entire family were on the other side of the war. none of them were acting in this alone

and then from this, i want to see someone older who cares about them give them even one ounce of perspective. and this goes x10000 for sirius and remus. bc the thing that hurts me the most is that they never got a chance to fully unlearn and heal from all the childhood bullshit that stopped them from ever having a stable relationship which then led to the whole betrayal tragedy in the first place. i want them to have older parents or family or guardians or anyone have some kind of insights into whats happening to them, even if only occasionally, even if they dont want to listen. but i want to see something interrupt the cycle of doom - of the idea that the could never possibly work out bc their relationship was imperfect, bc they had too much baggage, bc there was a war. i want them to be actually able to GENUINELY wrestle with those difficulties not just an inevitable miscommunication and falling apart. and maybe it still doesnt work out at all - maybe not then but later, maybe not ever - but i want to see a first war era where they are not just three kids left ENTIRELY by themselves bc theres so many reasons it doesnt need to be that way. it could actually be so much deeper if it was told just a little differently

wow that was long

📚 What’s the longest fic you’ve read in one sitting?

it was blue skies which is a star wars WW2 AU where RAF pilot poe and HRH navigator luke are paired up (with the ages adjusted obvs so its like a 10 year age gap). its set in the midst of war and its so real and gritty and all the other characters are amazing. and it is so so steeped in british-isms it literally transported me home. i sat up all night reading it drinking cups of tea. one of my fave fics of all time

[thingsicouldneversay]

The pursuit of happiness.

Things have changed so much since the last i've been here. I feel different. I am different. Thats great... right? Well it should be.... but i just feel more jaded. More... unhappy. Reality is a dick and i've been running away from it for too long. But when i was running, its not that i didnt know what reality was.... i just chose not to focus or see it.... ofc it led to harm in other ways... but was i happier? i guess not. The pursuit of happiness is such a pain.... I cant decide which form of me was able to enjoy happiness more. I guess in the past i was happy, but felt that things were always missing.. Things were simple.... but somehow never enough. Now i feel it full force, full conviction that it is the happiness im looking for.... I was able to experience new feelings, a form of enlightenment even on how reality should be and could be like. what is really worth it, and what is not.. what directly makes ME happy and not me just being happy because i made someone happy. Some people call that boundaries. I dont regret this shift in mindset. i dont regret the growth... But how is it i'm now experiencing life with the most beautiful, perfect pair of lenses and still feel this is one of the most depressing times of my life. This depression is different tho. (yes i can use the word now, even tho i was never really able to, it always made me feel uncomfortable) It isnt spiralling and crying on the floor. It isnt cutting and shaming myself. It isnt as volatile as it used to be. Maybe i've learn that nothing changes even if it gets so aggressive... No, this time its more.... mild. Its.. just there. like a haunting. an uneasiness. It doesnt hurt you, but its paralyzing. i just feel like, im in a coma that i cant wake up from. I feel more like a zombie. Maybe its coz i dont feel so alone anymore. Or is it because im prioritising someone else who i would give up anything for. Is it because i need to be more stable for the one who is going through a depressive episode as well.. and perhaps at a more intense level. I dont want him to feel like me, suicidal thoughts are scary. sometimes it becomes a habit to let those thoughts in, at every. minor. inconvenience. I'm strong enough to fight it, but its definitely not something i want for the one i love. I must protect him. Just as he protects me. These episodes make me feel like im just a shell. waiting to be filled with happiness. And it makes me feel so angry because i never believed in just waiting for happiness to drop onto your lap. if you want it , go make it happen for yourself. thats life.. right? But it seems the happiness i chose, the happiness i want and need, isnt under my control and it kills me. Because all i can do is wait... and wait... Will it come? nothing in life is guarenteed. will this window of happiness expire? But i made the decision, life really isnt worth living, truly living without the kind of happiness i have seen and felt. its new, its a ball of glowing energy , i would say its ethereal. I cant go back after this. or maybe i can.... maybe i have to... but i cant think about that now, i need to rid myself of these.... confused, mixed, polarising feelings. i need to function. i need to be normal.

[wolfcrunch]

Wrote a massive ask about something, change the subject like two times, and now im starting over cuz NOW I know what I wanna talk about.

I've figured out a few reasons why so many people don't like deku. Of course there is the usual, he doesn't fit really any of the cookie cutters that make most shonen characters (however, characters like Todoroki and Bakugo do, and despite their flaws, everyone fucking drools over them constantly).

My next point: deku doesn't talk about his trauma. His entire life is fucked up, but hes pretended forever that its fine and normal, which has influenced us viewers horribly so that we don't see how messed up he is. We forget what has happened to him and all we see is this pathetic scared teenager who cries at everything because that's basically how he acted in the first like 4 episodes. Bakugo himself has even said deku doesn't really look at or think about himself at all (also demonstrated in like literally everything he says and does) and so we have seen hardly any of his pain. The doctor scene and the scene where his mom apologizes and cries is JUST the beginning. The events of the first episode were a sample of his everyday life (minus meeting all might or running into a villain ofc). We forget the entire fucking decade between these moments. A DECADE OF EPISODE ONE. Think about that.

Now I'll compare him to Bakugo and Todoroki, two beloved characters who get much less backlash, if any. Bakugo has talked about how he knows he's messed up, we have seen him change, and I guess he's more relatable somehow. Todoroki has talked openly about his trauma, we have seen chunks of it, we have seen the absolute worst of it (his mom and the boiling water probably) and we have seen him grow as a person (his entire character arc and also how he treats his dad after the tournament arc). We know him, we've seen him struggle and we see him moving past his animosity towards endeavor. He has asked for help and advice from him too.

Do I see anyone calling Todo an abuse apologist? No. Do I see people forgiving endeavor as easily has they did Bakugo? Absolutely not, which is not a bad thing, but the amount of people I've seen basically idolizing bakugo despite his past mistakes is almost astonishing to me. Of course many people can and should forgive baku, but no one loves deku like they do todoroki. Todo isn't in 2nd or 1st just cuz he doesnt get anywhere near as much screentime as deku and baku, and also prolly cuz he is not as relatable as bakugo, just like deku. Deku gets so so much shit and for what? You didn't like how he acted in the beginning of season one?

In conclusion, I am mad about how much hate deku gets, I wrote too much about bakugo and endeavor parallels when they shouldn't really be compared but its not my fault cuz all might himself has also pointed out similarities, and you probably know exactly who is writing this even tho I decided to go incognito and I cant remember why. Sorry I wrote you an essay<3

this has been in my inbox for a fair while and im sorry for the delayed response but you hit the nail on the head!

i feel like people go into a shonen, not expecting to be hit with a main character who despite being emotional, still hides a lot of stuff about him and his past. from both the cast, his friends and teachers, and us as the readers/audience. deku is a rather real-feeling character, who has gone through trauma and hasn’t had the chance to speak out. he’s instead decided to bury it within, trying to push it to stay in the past as he feels his current life is now better and free of all those troubles.

he bottles a lot of things up. it leaves an ever-lasting effect on him, even after he receives one for all and gets into ua. and for viewers who understand, they come to greatly love and appreciate his character and the growth he goes through, while noting how he has yet to face his past. people who don’t understand however, do just see how you worded it. a pathetic scared teenager who cries at the drop of a hat. him crying is such a noticeable trait within the first season, especially as a lot of his development past that has been a lot more subtle in comparison to todoroki and bakugou.

deku dives in and is reckless, and his flaws bubble at the surface a lot whenever he’s in focus (not that flaws are bad - good characters will have flaws), and people will often tend to heavily criticize him if he acts too differently from the deku they’re used to. crybaby deku. despite the fact those very same people want a more confident character. they want more fights. they want a character like bakugou or todoroki. yet whenever deku doesn’t act like the deku they know, it serves as another ‘reason’ to hate him, because they claim his character isn’t consistent, or that because he is reckless, he deserves consequence.

a lot of people who hate on him fail to see just how interesting of a character deku is however, for the role he’s taken and especially with the current setup horikoshi has given him to finally confront past deku, and to hopefully stop being so reckless. he’s yet to have a big character shift that turns readers heads.

but its coming, and i wholeheartedly believe in horikoshi to deliver.

[anime-pro-shitposter]

Wonder Egg Priority Final EP 12 Discussion/confusion:

SPOILERS AHEAD PLEASE SCROLL FAST!!!!

okey what? happened??? what!!!! what?????? im so confused and well clearly there is a sequel of some sort.. but tbh and this is my Own Opinion.. as much i love this anime, i think they kinda reached too high. this episode felt like they suddenly were like oh Lets set the feeling of “the first part of the journey has now finished” so they can get more seasons and stretch out the journey.. which is what i Want but it felt so rushed and confusing tbh..

i’ll be colorcoding the things that bother me and my questions.

Lets dissect:

before the egg:

first my girlies meet again and its such a heavy and intense meeting.. beside the very gorgeous art i loved their choice of long shots when they are discussing, as it felt like their own private convo that we are listening to, and ofc the gloominess of these shots. then it jumps to momoe and ai close shot and it feels SO HEAVY.. anDD RIKA ISNT IN THE SHOT.. i think their positions represent their communication techniques.. and my girls really suck at communication.

momoe refusing to explain herself is weird to me.. but i think it was a lot on her. AI reaction was understanding tho but my god i wish they went after momoe and rika.. they need each other SO MUCH to face frill.. which begs the question.. WHYY didnt ai tell them about frill??? wtff???? what was the point of the last ep? and of ai knowing whats up if She Didnt Say Shit??! bruh.. idk

ai and the egg:

now we reached the part that i think really pushed it waaay too much.. ai cracks the egg and surprise surprise.. its her.. from a parallel universe......... long silence..... honestly that felt soooo sooo rushed and weird and out of plaaace.. and the fact that acca and ura acca immediately explained oh its “parallel universes” like excuse me? u were shocked neiru got her friend but oh Yes parallel universes are so normal.. doesnt that literally change SO MUCH?? that means Any past Egg could be a parallel universe one.. maybe their friends went there when they disappeared? does that also mean then frill exists in every timeline? thats very eh confusing..

i did tho love the growth ai went through.. i think they added a parallel universe ai to demonstrate to Us the viewers a real time comparison.. and to also tap into kioto’s death and give us a closure to it without ruining the fact that once people are revived they immediately disappear.. i believe giving us a truth with that restriction wouldv’e been impossible..

im also proud of ai.. a lot.. she also said maybe she doesn’t wanna know and she ended up partially putting it together on her own.. she also was so sure and confident of who she became and of her happiness, and her judgement on the sensei.. she didn’t let her otherself’s fears manipulate her opinion or change it.. and it all just shines through her with her yellow jacket just ♥︎♥︎

and this gorgeous shot so so lovely💛💙

the third mess that is bigger than the first mess:

and then they go into the water and i cannot foer the life in me Tell u what what Hell Happened.. what??? all i got was: oh they defeated those doubts good for them.. ai got her conclusion good for her.. then she’s like “idk how to go to other universes YET but i’M gOinG to FiNd oUt and gO HelP yOu!! “like buddy thats waay too obvious that the creators want another adventure.. idk hope they can somehow make that a nice concept and elaborate cuz i reallllly love this anime.

The End: TW

the creepy butterfly comes and ai acts smart.. and gets her otherself who supposedly already died dead? idk the rules are a mush now.. tho the shiny things thing.. i feel like it can be a reference.. also a lot of mirrors in this ep.. and we get the real villains of this story.. acca and ura acca.. frill is at the end their creation plus i Do Believe they could’ve killed the scary butterflies but they DIDNT cuzzz they want to bring the girl back... thus sacrificing the lives of so many.. and considering that our girls arent the first, it means that they saw the creepy butterflies do that over and over again.. then saw girls kill themselves from the trauma which is beyond fucked up.. and what they did to rika im Sueing..

anyways i want the sequel now and i really enjoyed this anime dispite how Super Confusing it might get.. lowkey believe the writers themselves dont know whats happening

and now it’s over.. I cant wait to see what Wonder Egg Priority has to offer and i wish the creators a very good kiss on the forehead.. thank you for reading and Please tell me what u thinkkk... ♥︎♥︎

[innocentbeing]

personally i think rciel is capable of greater evil AND kindness than ociel

like i think theyre pretty much the same but rciel is more on an extreme scale.. like, ociel loves something but rciel LOVES it you know what i mean??? and ociel hates stuff but rciel hates stuff. you get me??like, he feels stuff deeper and he gets more attached despite having better composure.

while ociel def cares abt ppl, its easy for him to let them go and/or move on ahead without them (’cos of a wall he built due to trauma ofc but he was kinda always like that given his low self esteem and feeling like a burden) and he obviously feels guilt when he does bad things like killing good people (like the circus crew who were victims of their circumstances) or sacrificing innocent lives (like the prostitute he used in order to catch madam red). 

but for rciel, i don’t think he’s someone that can just... detach himself from ppl he cares abt like oc. i dont mean it in like a, “oh we’re always gonna be together forever” kind of way— i DO think he was able to accept that he & oc we’re gonna go their separate ways as adults and i think he accepted that no matter the distance and no matter what they’re always be brothers. it’s the emotional attachment he can’t get rid of. like, he can’t just “oh wow i loved you and you hurt me?? you fucked me over?? i hate you now. i don’t care what happens to you anymore.”

LIKE I MEAN... he’s capable of, you know, fighting back and hurting them as we see he’s currently doing with ociel (though i genuinely think he could do so much worse and is going soft on him*) but regardless he clearly still loves and cares about him.. shown to be proud of his growth and his achievements when any normal person in his situation would feel bitter and resentment. its an excellent contrast to oc who is mad with rage and ready and willing to take him down loool

*(not saying i think he’s underestimating him or anything. he’s just not really giving it his all in this battle, i think. not yet, at least lol.)

and like... ociel is able to form new bonds like with soma, sieglinde, the servants etc.. he’s capable of like.. starting again with other people. “wah wah they’re just pawns.” no they’re not. he obviously cares about them but there’s a lot of things holding him back from fully embracing it.

but like.. i don’t think rciel is.. or rather, i dont think he would even be interested in that. like, if rciel was the one to survive instead, i think his attachment to his family would forbid him from ever moving on. instead of being like ociel, where he’s terrified of finding happiness again, i think he would genuinely just straight up not care about anyone else because no one will ever replace his family. im not saying ociel’s “replacing” them ofc, but that’s probably how rciel would see it.

i think, in a way, its like what ociel tries to be, that “i dont care about anyone. i’ll use anyone as my pawns” is what rciel would be if he lived instead.

and like, it’s so telling how rciel says “father / auntie ann / lizzie” while ociel uses “my predecessor / madam red / elizabeth” etc... ociel distances himself while rciel fully embraces it.

i always envisioned that rciel would not like diedrich calling him son all the time if he and ociel switch places lol. ociel doesnt mind at all but i like to imagine rciel twitching ever so slightly and saying “I’m not your son” ; v;

and like,  i dont think rciel would be cool with grell strutting around in madam red’s jacket after killing her sdhusijd. i mean ociel is really just like, “oh yeah.. whatever what’s done is done” but im really hoping at some point in the manga, if rciel meets grell again, he’ll put two and two together and be like ... “Is that my fuckign aunt’s coat???” SUHDIS I THINK IT’D BE SOO FUNNY and would LOVE the contrast between him & ociel’s kinda defeatist attitude abt it LMAO

[suckishima]

Kindaichi for the character ask, please.

Ooo this is probably gonna be kind of tough to answer a few of these since we don't see a lot of him haha. Plus a few of the major things that influence my opinion on him are spoiler related so I'll try to be vague about those lol

First impression: 😬i think in the beginning i just thought he was super mean to kageyama and i wasn't too into him bc of that. pretty sure i thought he was being overdramatic about kageyama's attitude and i didn't like how he handled the entire situation by basically ostracizing him.

Impression now: well in regards to the kageyama middle school situation, i definitely have come to see more of kindaichi's side. it was tough for both of them, they were just kids and i think they both handled it a little poorly, but also in ways that were to be expected. kageyama was going through some stuff and ofc not talking about it and ended up being way too hard on his team and trying to control things he couldn't control and i can see why kindaichi would not only get angry about it, but also get down on himself from his teammate treating him that way. especially bc it's implied that the two of them and kunimi had been on pretty good terms until kageyama starts to spiral in his third year of middle school. anyway, onto my actual current impression of kindaichi, i think he's interesting. he seems kind, fairly introspective, and like a hard worker. he does a lot of his growth off screen, but i honestly really like how we still see evidence of it throughout the series

Favorite moment: i really like that bit in s4 when he asks hinata how kageyama is doing. you can tell it's a struggle for him to even ask about him, because asking is essentially admitting that 1 he still thinks about what happened and 2 that he does feel some remorse over it. but he asks anyway, bc in the end he does care about kageyama and wants to try and mend their relationship in some way or form, even if for now that's just by figuring out if kageyama is okay.

Idea for a story: i'll be honest, i can't think of anything more than what canon and furudate's extras haven't given us. the extra that came out post-series that features him is one of my favorite pieces of content we've gotten and i love it so much, i would just want more versions of that somehow lol

Unpopular opinion: i guess just that i think he's a good person lol. i mean i've only ever seen a few people say otherwise so maybe it's not that unpopular lmao, but i don't think shunning kageyama in middle school was done out of malice, but was instead done out of hurt. and i think he regrets it for a very very long time and does what he can to try and mend it

Favorite relationship: i've talked enough about kageyama here lmao so let's talk about kunimi! we don't get to see a lot of their actual dynamic tbh, but i appreciate that there does seem to be a genuine bond and understanding between the two of them, but i also like how it doesnt affect how either of them approach volleyball. kunimi is gonna laze about and kindaichi is gonna keep trying. they both seem to know what they want and don't judge each other for having different attitudes about it

Favorite headcanon: i like to think he becomes captain in his third year. i genuinely think he'd be really well rounded as a player and as a pillar of support by then

[gryphsdeadbones]

I really love the idea of freemind just being a genuinely shitty dude, who is just one of those people who fell down the bigot rabbit hole like it usually happens and not it being some sad backstory like u said, and him just. Learning to be a better person in your (and others who are freemind fans ofc) au. I personally know people who were real shitty people but turned things around

EXACTLY like...people can change! and if they fucked things up for others, no one is obligated to forgive them

freemind is just. a character we can play around with. its important to know he’s rancid as fuck 

but also we can improve him. we got the science and technology (art and writing jdfkdgnkd)

ive heard exploring his character helps folks a lot and im glad i can provide. 

its not that Deep but it Can be That Deep, especially considering that like. Real goddamn people share some aspects of him thats hard to talk about like his schizophrenia and substance abuse. I struggle with that shit and so do others. People dont want to talk about delusions and the ‘uglier’ symptoms of mental illness and neurodivergency. cuz its hard to talk about without some fucking idiot taking things out of context and labeling content creators bad over non-issues.

i went on a slight tangent but like. yeah. brain stuff doesnt make you a bad person is what im trying to say. focusing on the present and actively trying to become better without expecting to be rewarded is true growth.

[plusultrcs]

Okay so now that i’m done crying about shadow and bone to my friends i want to make a controversial statement. Don’t bite my head off for my opinion bc 1. idc i said what i said and 2. it aint that serious these are fictional characters moving on though. I don’t think the show is bad AT ALL i really enjoyed it and seeing the inclusion of leigh and her books was so fucking cute but i will say i think combining both series into one did a huge disservice to the character development of most, if not ever, character. and i’ll explain why so (obviously) sab spoilers ahead. this also obnoxiously long so if you dont read it thats fine <3 lmao

I know going into it everyone, including leigh pretty much, was saying not to expect it to be like the books. That it was going stray away and be more like a fanfiction than the original works. Which was true, but only for the six of crows characters. The show leaned heavily and relied heavily on the plot of shadow and bone. Which, of course, makes sense but because of the inclusion of a heavy heavy re-worked six of crows plot that didnt fit the plot of shadow and bone at all it left them feeling incredibly displaced. Like on shadow and bones part every single major and sometimes even the minor plot points were followed to the number, but on the six of crows front the only thing closely followed was the nina and matthias backstory. I wont talk about every single character because i anticipate this to already be long, but the ones i noticed the most were done a disservice.

For instance Alina. Despite shadow and bone being followed so closely you dont really get to see the natural progression of alina’s character the way i was hoping we would. And that’s definitely because of the time restraints. They had to find a way to somehow balance the screen time for both separate plots so that they could hold the audiences attention for both. Like when nina and matthias plot wasnt on the screen for i think 2 episodes i almost forgot about them and what they were up to so i understand why they timing had to be so split, especially when you only have 8 hours to cover the characters of 2 over 300 page long books yknow? But that means important moments alina had to herself in the books were completely cut, and so a lot of that growth we got went with it. The the biggest thing i was disappointed to see go was the defeat she felt when she was first captured and collared by the darkling. She was feeling absolutely helpless, mal was in their hold, she had no power to do anything but sit there and let him use her. All the training she did felt pointless to her and she really was at the point of giving up. She went quiet, wouldnt speak,was basically a zombie until that moment in the fold when she saw innocent people suffering when she knew she could stop. And she found a way to break free. There were other moments like this in the book, like moments at the little palace where shelt herself getting further and further from mal and feeling like an outside on her own all over again. They tried to show it in the show but without the time to develop her life on her own at the little palace it definitely fell short.

Speaking of mal: THANK YOU WRITERS FOR FIXING HIS WHINY ASS. And while he was annoyingly whiny in the books, he is not a boring character. Not to me at least, honestly he never was. While i do appreciate them not making him so whiny, I would have appreciated seeing that same dissonance realizing alina was grisha brought about in the books. Its just like alina said, grisha were people they scoffed at and talked about in a joking way. Their lives felt miles and miles away from their own, and then to learn that she had been one the entire time. I know i know, it has nothing to do with, and alina didnt know either. BUT THAT IS STILL HIS BEST FRIEND. And obviously girl he’s in love with even if he wasnt aware of it at the time. it made him question everything he thought about grisha, and more importantly brought both of their biggest fears to light: being torn apart. In the book he doesnt deal with this well at ALL and while leigh bardugo does a great job throughout the series showing him growing to me he never got where he should have been, and the show did place him there but i think they do so prematurely. I definitely wanted him to be as understanding as he was, to take notice of how much healthier and stronger she looks since she’s not withholding her power anymore, but i did still want the tension of him wondering what it means for them, how their lives would change, because just based on laws alone she is a grisha and would typically never be someone he would have the chance to befriend but neither of them would be okay with that.

AND ON THE TOPIC OF MALINA. THEY ARE NOT A BORING SHIP. I think the only person other who would work for alina is nikolai (dont fight me on this im right), and that is who i wanted her to end up with. However, I understand why Mal was the choice. Alina has always been someone who just wanted to belong, to fit in somewhere, AND THAT IS OKAY. IT’S NOT A CRIME TO WANT TO BE ORDINARY. I know shes the main character, and has the prophecy of being the ~chosen one~ but that doesnt mean she suddenly has to alter change and rearrange herself entirely. she never wanted to be a saint, and even by the end of the series she still doesnt. Choosing to let the world believed she died so she could live a quiet life. tHAT’S ALL SHE’S EVER WANTED. And Mal is the perfect person to give her that. People who claim she gave up her life for mal, to me, didn’t understand her character. She bounced around from needing mal by her side, and when she couldnt have him there she still sought acceptance in the only other person willing to give it to her, i.e. the darkling. and then when she couldnt have it from him she’s forced to find it in herself and while she learns she doesnt need him or mal she doesnt need anyone, she still chooses mal bc she wants to be with him. she doesnt feel obligated and even later on in the books makes plenty stands on her own without him but she loves him and they honestly make perfect sense. a softer ship doesnt make it a boring one js.

NOW THE SIX OF CROWS GANG. I hate to say it, i do but they felt reduced to a form comedic relief. they had their serious moments ofc but for the most part whenever they popped up on the screen i knew a joke or gag was soon to follow. i will say kit as jesper? best decision that could have possibly been made he fucking did what he had to DO. Kaz’s development for me felt really really rushed and forced. Like he was saying things to inej he wouldnt have said so quickly and especially not while he wasnt under stress??? it honestly felt like fan service??? which im not mad at because again i dont think the show was bad at all the actors brought really great life to the crows, but it just makes me sad to see all that development and build up go out the window.  i think if they were that set on combining the crows story with the shadow and bone story it would have been so much nicer to get a sort of prequel on the crows. like they should have given them the same treatment they gave nina and matthias. so that we could see their backstories as explained in the book happening in real time like how they all came to ketterdam. i know theres no point in wishing that now since whats done is done and again I DONT THINK ITS BAD. Im just sad about all the character development and strong subtle points lost because leigh bardugo always does such a great job in dropping subtle hints and always bringing them back in the end, and that was sadly lost. STILL A GOOD SHOW STILL LOVE THE BABIES. STILL PRAYING FOR A SEASON TWO.

EDIT: IT ALSO MADE ME SAD TO SEE THEM LOSE SO MANY TIMES??? ESPECIALLY AFTER SOC WHERE THEY ALWAYS MANAGED TO WIN?? Like ofc it made perfect sense for them to be unable to capture the damn sun summoner !!! but kaz and all of the crows are meant to be the best of the best when it comes to criminals top tier and they were bested by a ball of light and a jog???? and them going home basically empty handed was kinda :// like i got it but also where did alina get that necklace lmao so yeah once again still great still love it questions had to be asked