#note to self: make a doc or smth

[reincarnight]

— mobile about + verses.

— basic information.

full name: soma cruz (来須 蒼真 kurusu sōma) title(s): reincarnation of count dracula

age: 18-20 (canon), 21+ (post-canon) birthday: 21 august 2017

gender: male (he/him) species: human

nationality: japanese occupation: high school student (aria of sorrow), university student

sexuality: hm (pending) marital status: single

current location: japan

close friends and allies: mina hakuba, yoko belnades, hammer, genya arikado and julius belmont.

— physical appearance.

height: 172 cm hair color: naturally white eye color: grey, appear almost silver

usual attire: a fur-lined, white trench coat with blue accents. black turtleneck. blue jeans and knee-high white boots. he isn't seen without mina's talisman post-dawn of sorrow.

— personality.

on the first impression, soma comes off as a serious individual. more often than not, he's blunt and doesn't beat around the bush. prior to aria of sorrow, he used to be less open and more difficult to approach.

he is friendly, loyal and deeply caring towards those closest to him; he's especially protective of his childhood friend, mina. he will be pissed if you hurt any of them.

while his friends and loved ones are his anchor, losing them might mean soma coming dangerously close to, if not completely, losing himself.

he's stubborn and set on doing what he believes is right. telling soma not to do something has a chance of him doing it anyway. in a similar way, he's adamant about not becoming the dark lord (or anything like his past self).

admittedly, he can be incredibly reckless and impulsive at times.

he has a strong sense of duty — and according to hammer, no sense of romance... which would be correct.

he's also shown to be a little naive (ie. taking graham jones at face value) and awkward at times. and maybe he's a little bit of a dork, but that side tends to show around friends.

he gets flustered when he's being teased about mina.

— abilities.

power of dominance. soma can gain dominance over the souls of monsters and demons he kills. basically, he can use their abilities as his own. it laid dormant until the solar eclipse of 2035.

yep, this power comes from him being dracula's reincarnation (soma's soul = dracula's soul/magical powers).

the souls he possesses can be divided into bullet souls, guardian souls, enchanted souls and ability souls, with the first two consuming his MP on use. he can only equip one bullet, guardian and enchanted soul at a time.

arms mastery. soma can wield a variety of weapons, such as swords, spears and maces. he has even wielded legendary weapons like balmung and claimh solais.

magic seals. used to counter demons that regenerate their lives through the portals of darkness. yoko belnades taught soma how to use them.

— miscellaneous notes.

following the original version of aria of sorrow, my version of soma was never an exchange student.

he has extended family living in europe; some of his family lineage can be even traced to romania.

he generally feels weird about wearing all black after aria of sorrow.

while rather uncommon, soma may experience flashes of (usually negative) emotions that aren't his own. or even more rarely, a fragment of his past self's memory resurfaces.

he has developed a habit of carrying a pocket knife on his person... just in case.

it's heavily implied that soma loses the souls he gained during dawn of sorrow. while i am cool with writing him that way in any post-canon verses, i also personally like the idea of him keeping them. therefore, that will be decided on a thread-by-thread basis.

— verses.

canon. self-explanatory, covers both games or anything that happens in-between the two.

post-canon. also a catch-all verse for any interactions in the modern world. soma is a student working on his degree; or maybe he has already graduated from university. but all things considered, he's living a pretty normal life... unless something decides to drag him back in.

pre-canon. everything leading up to the solar eclipse of 2035.

unawakened. follows the alternate ending of aria of sorrow, where soma is none the wiser to his identity as dracula's reincarnation. escaping the castle leaves him with a strange feeling... but hey, at least he now knows what to do if he ever finds himself there again.

bad ending. soma succumbs to the darkness within him and becomes the dark lord. this verse can take place during/after the bad ending of aria of sorrow or dawn of sorrow; i default to the latter as it's more of soma's choice in that instance.

time travel. for crossover interactions with other characters in the series; can work with non-castlevania characters as well. so, what do you do when you encounter a guy from the 21st century?

crossover. the default verse for any interactions that don't fit into other verses. soma is still from the 21st century japan & possesses the power of dominance. he's just confused about how he ended up here.

and anything else i can think of. i'm always down for aus/crossovers/whatever, so feel free to ask!

[thesnailkiwi]

3, 4, 11, 16, 18, 20, 23, 24, 26, 46, 56, 73, and 74 for the fic writer ask game? (you don't have to answer all of them these are just the ones i find interesting)

alright alright yes yes

dont worry i love asks

3)Describe the creative process of writing a chapter/fic.

It depends on the story and what is happening. Usually, i type out a short summary of the whole story, decide where the best places to split it are, and write it in parts. Other times i just wing it and hope it sounds good.

4) Where do you find inspiration for new ideas?

Everywhere. Other fics, poems, songs, phrases, scenes. Even items. I especially love the ones from my dreams. Inspiration is everywhere- you just have to look into the simplest things in a different way than you see them.

11)Link your three favorite fics right now.

Time to expose myself! Also, this is the hardest decision I'll ever make.

I also want to mention a few others if you dont mind

Featherweight- DoctorSiren

Poisoned Rats in a Pot of Grain- TheYesterdayShow

Maybe the World Isn't so Wide- MsDizzyDahlia

16) How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Share one of them?

Oh. oh no. let me get my google docs and notes app out.

22

This one is actually one that I got from a dream.

Cc!Grian goes on a camping trip and hikes up a mountain alone because he can't sleep. He finds a piano that turns out to be magic and he plinks it. It turns him more and more into his character each day. The next day he goes to find it and it's gone. He runs away to try and hide it but his friends file a missing report. They find him a week later alone in a cave. During that time, he get visited by watchers and is shocked bc he made them up but they're real. They try to kill him because him turning is a "glitch" but he gets away.

After they find him, grian refuses to tell them anything. He has to stay home and go to therapy bc man's traumatized. He stays with Timmy.

One night during dinner, his character takes over. Timmy panicks and calls Scott and mumbo over. Grian puffs out his wings and Jimmy realizes what's happening. They're able to calm him down and cc!grian takes back over. 

They have to figure out how to save him before it's too late and he turns fully into his character. 

Mumbo is doing research and finds smth about it. They have to find a real eye of ender.

They return to the spot where the piano used to be and dig to find the eye. They do, and they save him. But not without a fight first because c!grian is very argumentative.

18)Do you title your fics before, during, or after the writing process? How do you come up with titles?

After. There are exceptions, but almost always after. I think of key words and phrases from (or that describe) the story. Or I just make random stuff up that sounds cool.

20) Have you noticed any patterns in your fics? Words/expressions that appear a lot, themes, common settings, etc?

Yes. Lots of melodrama, passing out, self-worth problems, and flower husbands.

Joking aside, definitely. I love it when characters pass out on their enemy and get carried. Idk why, its just funny and sets up for a lot of humiliation. I also love not-actually-unrequited-feelings. I'm not sure about what specific words/phrases, but i know that they are definitely there. Themes usually include things like live life to the fullest, appreciate what you have until its too late, and that things are never as they seem.

23) Best writing advice for other writers?

My best writing advice is be you and write what you want to write.

Admittedly, I havent updated my biggest fic i have in over 3 months. It just wasn't fun to write anymore and my motivation went *fart noise*. Yes, okay, I've gotten comments, but I'm also happy and want to write a different ship at the moment. It also helps with the feeling of being obligated to have deadlines and one-up yourself every chapter. Sure, those things are great, but you should enjoy writing and what you produce, not find it annoying and tiring.

There are other things, like grammar, POV, and formatting, but we won't go into those.

24) Worst writing advice anyone ever gave you?

OOO YOU'RE ABOUT TO HEAR SOME ABSOLUTE BS

Alright, so, when I first started writing, I watched some youtube vids on stuff like good writing, plot, and stuff like that.

The lady in the video. Ugh. alright, so she ofc was hating on fanfiction, and said "It's always wiser to make your own stories and characters" or something like that. Bish, have you seen the ao3, fanfiction.net, and wattpad community??? She then went on to go and say the opposite of what i said above. That you should always listen to your readers and shiz and that you, the author, should always make them happy even if it hurts.

She also was like "don't use tags like 'yes,' bob growled' because its improper and growling is an act, not a tone of voice." No, it is actually correct writing.

She also was deprecating young authors telling them that they suck.

26) Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride?

Uhhh, what's your definition of wild?

A fallen angel spreads its wings, wishing to fly away- storywise can be counted as crack personally. it makes no damn sense anymore.

My superhero AU- this is going to get crazy. you have no idea. the sheer emotions and attachment i have to this one. I will make you cry.

46) How would you describe your style? (Character/emotion/action-driven, etc)

My style is both character driven and emotion driven. I have this weird thing where if I'm writing, I can like, BE the character or smth. I get to know what they would do, think, and feel, and then mix it with some of my own before it gets out of hand. It happens when reading, too.

There is a downside, such as what happens to them physically i can feel, but it makes it easier to drive the story. I give it bulletpoints of what i want to happen, and it will get it there eventually.

(I have a fun story that came with this one time, but I'll tell it at a later date)

56) What’s something about your writing that you pride yourself on?

Yes yes yes. I pride myself on the sheer amount of ideas I get daily. I get like 2 ideas daily. Yeah, it sucks that I cant write them all, but at least i have a variety. If you ever want a story idea, I have SO MANY

73) What do you think makes your writing stand out from other works?

Honestly, I don't know. I feel like that is for you guys to decide.

As a reader, it's easier to pick out things and decide what is different and what is the same. When writing, I criticize myself so much, like "thats basic" or "thats repetitive". Yet people still read it, so I must be doing something right.

74) You’ve posted a fic anonymously. How would someone be able to guess that you’d written it?

My writing style, themes, ships, and overdramatic feelings.

My style is kind of a mix of rambling and story telling. Also the question from earlier about key words, phrases, and stuff like that describes it all. I love amplifying feelings, and of course, making my characters go through hell and then dragging them back out.

[hometownrockstar]

when i was gonna start taking adhd meds i was like im gonna be so good at writing after and now its like kinda true but also nothing changed, basically i would think of something and go yea i wouldnt mind writing that then i wouldnt but NOW i have a higher percent chance of writing it a few hours before i go to bed, which is how i always write things i also dont continue things a lot i do "one-shots" that are probably less than 2k words maybe, and all self-indulgent not literary masterpieces but thats ok. maybe someday i'll try to string together my "one-shot" "writing sessions" to write something longer idk.

btw writing tips: write somewhere comfortable (i write on a dark notes app on my phone while lying in bed maybe with a playlist on) FUCK google docs you dont NEED it (unless u like to edit on there or smth btw Format > Paragraph Styles > Borders And Shading > Background Color to make the page Not glaringly white youre welcome)

[kyra-song]

Kyra I am sorry for the spam today

(And the pain of drenis)

However. The teacher was like: yeah it don’t have to rhyme Ig. Make it relate to Covid

And so I just put words on the classic YouTube apology notes app and pasted it into the google doc but it’s just a long as fuck word vomit like I do in discord, just spaced like a poem. And it’s really longish. Longer than poems I’ve seen. It doesn’t even rhyme but it repeats things.

And there’s smth about how Covid killed a bunch of peoples mental health and there’s shit about low self esteem and like. The mirror lies. It cracks and it shatters and the paint we use to paint ourselves as monsters peels and behind it is another mirror, where the glass isn’t as warped and the sweetness isn’t syrupy, the mirror is coated in honey and salt and honey heals, the paint is green, green for a new beginning.

Kyra the man is going to refer me to the councilors office and half of it doesn’t make sense.

woah dude that’s actually really good and intense symbolism id read that poem shortly before recommending you to therapy

[semblanche]

hi kween, i’m new to writeblr and like a sucky ass person, could you maybe recommend some writeblrs for me to follow? exuding my same unpredictable and slightly unhinged personality? (1/2)

and also how do taglists work? HOW DOES THE COMMUNITY OF WRITEBLR WORK? this is brand new information. I’m sorry if this causes any stress so feel free to ignore! (2/2)

hey! welcome to writeblr, that's a pretty strong opening lmao

i'll try to split this ask into parts -

1. WRITEBLRS TO FOLLOW

i mean, everyone is v talented in their own way, and beyond "unpredictable and unhinged" i'm hardly certain what you're looking for, but if you're asking for people that i personally vibe with -

@at-lxs - rarely posts her own writing, but remains one of my most treasured mutuals - the day i get her to put content on her blog, it's over for y'all. she's so fucking funny and sharp, and either way, her tags are also always worth a visit bc her eye for detail & analysis on writing will leave you shaking

@holotones - woohoo fucked up, deliciously good writing time!! if you like unhealthy relationships, body horror, and cowboys, i legit can't recommend haeji's blog enough. they write in basically every genre known to man, which is also a huge plus - if for some reason you don't love everything they post, you are guaranteed to find at least one thing you do

@llesbianwrites - HER WRITING KNOCKS ME OFF MY FEET EVERY TIME I SEE IT AND THAT'S THAT ON THAT. i still get breathless thinking about hungry ghosts, and i want peter's intro inscribed on my gravestone. read it or/and perish

@carumens - one of the first writeblrs i followed when i joined - she's so open and welcoming, it almost helps distract from how much my heart aches whenever i think of sunflowers at night :')

@aelenko - abby's blog features one of the only non-fantasy wips on this list, since it's not smth i typically care for - which should alone be testament to how crazy talented abby is to make me care about hers. she's also got new fantasy & dark academia wips that make my heart go TWICE as wild because,,, ohhhh my godddddd

@emdrabbles - worldbuilding. worldbuilding everywhere. also six of crows content, which frankly i don't think the world can ever have enough of. also also guaranteed to be the coolest person you'll ever meet, but also a certified bully of taller people (everyone) so look out for that 😔

@viviuyn - her writing has so much going on, how can you NOT be captivated? i don't even like vampires technically & i still can't stop thinking about that excerpt she posted about the man who loves his vampire gf a little too much :'>

@acrimoneous - two words: CODENAME HAMLET. bonus words: wip of the century. also leaves literally the nicest comments, i get a little emotional whenever i see them

@zuiderhaaks - i didn't think it was possible to go feral go stupid over every single thing a person posts, but eva somehow proves me wrong each time. if you like themes of divinity, with a nice heaping of Oh God Oh Fuck Am I Crying Right Now, can't recommend high enough tbh

2. TAG LISTS

a tag list is a list of people who've asked to be tagged whenever you upload content related to your wip! so like, let's say you have my wip, requiem. someone asking me to join the tag list means that, when i post writing on requiem, i'll tag them in it - whether in the form of a self rb (my preferred method), under a 'read more', in the comments, etc. it helps to keep track of the people who have asked on a notes doc, i've found, or else it just gets messy - esp if you have multiple wips, but not people interested in following each and every one

3. HOW DOES WRITEBLR WORK

kind of like how you'd think, i reckon! you post your writing in whatever form you please and roll from there.

some general tips i can give you on it though include -

make an intro post detailing who you are, what genres you like, what you're hoping to post/follow, your interests, etc. this'll help you find other people in the community

use tags like "writeblr", "writers on tumblr", "original writing" and "wip introduction" (for when you first post your projects)

don't stress over number of notes, they'll come come to you. but also lower your expectations like a Lot in regard to them if that's smth you care about. 20 notes is considered 👌👌

and legit don't stress or put yourself down. we are all just sitting here man

[thegempage]

“hey opal,” no one asked, “what is on your spreadsheet of fic numbers?”

well, because i’m excited about it, i'll tell you! and maybe make a video on it, now that i’m thinking about it, actually

anyway (i’m putting this under a cut bcus it’s gonna get long lmao)

for this particular project, i decided to run it a little differently than my spreadsheet for my taz fics, since that was a general fandom categorization thing and this is for a specific fic, also that one wasn’t even color coordinated, which looking at it now it Should Be but that’s smth for another time

so!! my current project, beyond the divide, as you know if you read my last post is divided into several documents for clarity and ease of browsing. i use the same general categories on my spreadsheet

the published/next to be published doc(s) (there’s only one for now but as i was saying in my prevous post, i have a feeling i’ll be needing another one soon) has a table, the “official but not next in line” chapters is the next table, then the unofficial chapters, and then the spin-offs, lore doc, and non-main character doc on the final table. my interactive story doc didn’t exist at the time of initial set up and considering it’s like, an entire different thing i probably won’t add it 

there’s also a key, which has each possible PoV character (the chapters are in second person) and their chat abbreviation for another use, notes for asterisks i add to the table itself, and the “finished chapter” and “finished words” sections -- which is important and kind of the biggest difference between this and my taz spreadsheet, bcus on this one i’m only tracking things like word count and how long i worked on a given chp after the chapters are done to help minimize anxiety over taking too long to write smth or not writing enough words. as opposed to my taz spreadsheet where i track progress every time i work on a document

but that’s off topic jkflds

each table has 8 columns, seven named and one general use. the named columns are:

chapter number, word count, date start, date end, days taken, pestercount, and pestered (yes, this is a homestuck fic, i’m, hiding that down here bcus i can’t think of a good substitution)

chapter number is pretty self explanatory, and also most of the columns are labeled “N/A” bcus only one doc has published and therefore numbered chapters; the not-next-in-line has TBD in its entire column.

word count is just that! the word count of each chapter. this isn’t recorded until the chapter is done, whether that means “i wrapped up the scene and decided it was done” or “i put this up for public consumption”

- fun fact! the longest chapter currently is 4297 words long and is about one of the main couples confessing, lmao (the second longest chapter is 4237 words and is the same couple meeting) (the couple is rosemary. yes i might be projecting onto rose a lil bit)

date start and end are just that -- the days a chapter was started and ended, because i think that’s fun to look at and also if i want to go dig up the music i was listening to at the time i can narrow my history down to those dates. days taken is just the space between those

- the shortest time i’ve taken on a chapter is 0 days! i believe i wrote those (there’s two) in one sitting each. the longest is currently 45 days, though the current chapter is approaching that number quickly and some chapters are untouched since june or august, lol

pestercount is the number of text conversations in a given chapter, which are counted based on the number of “X began pestering Y” lines, and pestered lists who was involved in those conversations

- the current highest is 5, all in chapter one, and most chapters end up with 0 at the moment

the final column has three blocks on the first table -- total words, ao3 words, and average words per chapter -- two on the next two-- total words and average words per chapter -- and one on the final table -- total words

total words and average words per chapter are... what they say on the tin! calculated at the end of each chapter completion to keep in the line of not pushing myself to artificially extend chapters because i see how long they are in comparison to other chapters. ao3 lists a different word count than my google doc math by around five words, so i keep it as a record just bcus i think it’s fun

each row is color-coded to the narrator so i can keep track at a glance of who’s recently had a “turn” and what characters might need more expansion and narration time and to reference back if i need to remember something about a particular voice

and that’s all i can think of for now! if you’ll excuse me, it’s 4:14 am and i kind of want to go to bed but i also want to color-code my taz spreadsheet, and i’m off to do one of those. hope you enjoyed this little breakdown of my spreadsheet!

[deathvsthemaiden]

Tagged by @kashilascorner to answer these writing questions! I’m not really a writer myself but her answers were v interesting+I know some other writers whose answers to these questions I wouldn’t mind seeing 👀 (I’m going stir crazy courtesy of quarantine+am nosy 🤗) warning/disclaimer/run while you still can alert: bc these qs are aimed at writers and I’m not one these answers aren’t going to “make sense” or “fit” per say, apologies in advance ✌🏽 I draw for fun though so my answers reflect that :P

1. When did you start writing?

I remember in elementary and middle school...I used to draw all sorts of random people in intricate outfits, and would get super into it, and through middle school to early high school especially I was a serial doodler who got in trouble alllll the time (I hold some petty, bitter grudges against a handful of teachers still.) (My eyes may have been on paper instead of on you but I was listening jerkwad! 😑) and like...fantasy was the 1st genre I fell in love with so I would try to come up with stories and whatnot for them but I was (am) so easily distracted and hapless that it went nowhere but I didn’t super mind. I just wanted to draw pretty outfits and the numerous (numerous) other images in my head and....still do. Writing stories requires a little more consistency and commitment than I’m willing to give 🤭😳 To sum up: I am flighty and can’t write for fun so I’ve never honest and to god began 🤷🏽‍♀️

2. Is there any special method that helps you getting to write?

(This is abt academic writing bc aside from texts it’s what I do most) I’m a mostly stationary lump of flesh and time is my catapult. I wait till deadlines are too close for comfort, pump myself full of caffeine, listen to music non stop and suffer suffer suffer.

Or on increasingly less rare (thank god) occasions when I am almost on top of things, I listen to music and pace around my room, typing in the google docs app on my phone while I type out garbled stream-of-consciousness notes-to-self, while considering the prompt, so future me has /something/ to work with. With the pacing it takes longer to write than when I’m at a desk but like. It’s less painful and I barely notice.

3. Do you listen to certain types of music to set the mood?

I have low tolerance for any slow/sad/soulful/hypnotic/crying songs so anything upbeat works and also I NEED lyrics most of the time, I have an almost as low tolerance for instrumentals. Like they’re fine but I also find myself sitting there waiting for something to “happen” (I’m sorry shcjfnfn) I listen to music while doing most things and, like pacing, I think it elongates tasks but also makes them less painful so!

4. Drawing, moodboards, character makers, music lists or none of those options?

All of those are fun, usually music and other people’s art is what inspires me to draw most though.

5. Would you prefer a big Hollywoodesque adaptation, a smaller project coming from the heart or no adaptation at all?

I usually have medium to major gripes with the most popular/big adaptations of books I feel strongly about so the 2nd option ✌🏽

6. Do you have any taboos or topics you try to actively avoid?

I’ll answer this as a reader. I have my limits to how much suffering I can read child characters in particular go through like I’ve dropped a book or two before for disturbing me too much in that regard. They weren’t bad!! I just personally didn’t wanna weather through that so I didn’t. I dropped Arundathi Roy’s The God of Small Things because of this, even though I loveddd the prose! :( I might try out her other book (books?) one day though. Stories dealing with such dark topics are important when done right etc. I just can’t stomach them 8/10 times

7. Are you in favor or against spoilers?

If the opportunity to experience whatever is being spoiled myself is unlikely/a long time coming/difficult to attain (because it has to be translated, localized, I need to wait a while to get my hands on a copy etc) I’m probably really really eager for spoilers and will search them out/ask people. If it’s something that consistently thrills me I /definitely/ do not want spoilers though!

Trying to get spoilers from me for things I love and have recommended is usually difficult, like I’ll do it you just have to show me you reallllly are sure you want this splendiddddd story ruineD for you! D:< (I joke. Spoilers don’t ruin good stories, not completely anyway)

8. Have you ever written something to appease or spite somebody else?

To appease? That’s my whole academic “”career”” lollll *shot* not to spite no! Sounds painstaking....like you need to make eff*rt 🥴 or smth.... 😬 mad and sincere respect to anyone out there with the drive to do that though! I’m just not that kind of gal......... I’m more than open to like. Proposing alternative versions of stuff that’s dissatisfied me when talking to friends (like x SUCKED it would’ve been so much better if y and z and t and v! Don’t u agree?) and I’ve drawn a few fan arts before where I like, edit character designs that infuriate me for being tasteless.

9. Being given the options “Candy Valley of the Lollipop” or “Cliff of Despair and Looming”, which one would you say approximates better to your WIP’s general aesthetic?

Hmm. Probs candy valley, Most of my ideas for drawing are like sunny in terms of mood, if that makes any sense. I love my fiction (as in the stuff I consume, not make) on the darker side though as long as it’s not like, pointless and obnoxious about it.

10. A media you weren’t expecting to inspire you, but does.

Hmm. Realistic fiction is nice but I can’t subsist on it, I need fantasy and magical realism and whatnot to stay sane, but sometimes I read a realistic fiction book and I have such crystal clear images of the scenes in my head and it impacts me so strongly that I really, really (really) am inspired to draw them (The Overstory by Richard Powers and The Little Friend by Donna Tartt come to mind)

Tagging: @howaboutswords @pinkafropuffs @adorakeys and anyone who sees this and would like to answer these questions totally should!! Tag me! 🏷

[yournewapartment]

Hello! I've recently enrolled into a part time bachelors degree programme (don't wanna leave my full time job) and our classes are held mostly through video conference. I'm taking 12 courses this year and I've been mulling over the best way to organise my notes. Should I bind the printouts and use separate notebooks or use a binder for all printouts and self notes or have separate notebooks for each courses or use notebook for everything? (pt. 1)

Thing is I’m quite nervous about this programme I’m enrolled in. It’s nothing like the diploma I did and to be frank, not really smth I’m interested in. But it’s related to my job and I know that I can do a good job at it! Just worried if I can’t cope so I’m looking into this matter to lessen the worry. Also, the students are basically scattered across the country and we’ve group assignments too. Any tips on working with strangers? Love this blog, thanks 💗💗💗 (pt. 2)

I recommend that you organize notes in the way that is easiest for you to utilize. If that means that every class has it’s own binder, go for it. If it’s easier for you to have one binder with a bunch of different sections, that works too! 

In terms of working with strangers who live far away on projects:

Start a group chat for all members of the group

Make sure that everybody knows what they’re responsible for

Make sure that everyone has access to everyone else’s materials/project parts (through Google Docs, for example)

Make sure that everyone knows exactly when they’re supposed to submit their part of the project

If someone is not doing their part, let the instructor know ASAP

[bungoustraypups]

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#5

Fic thing: "I’ve done this song and dance before."

fic title: hopes & dreams & baby things

"I've done this song and dance before, many, many times. I know a look like that when I see one."

Chuuya purposefully turns his face away from Kouyou's eyes as she speaks her next words with purpose: "How long has it been since the two of you started seeing each other again?"

There's really no getting out of this one, is there? Well, at least she only knows half the story so far (he supposes that her reaction would be far less calm if she knew any more than that.)

send me an ask with the first sentence of a fanfic and i’ll write the next five **BONUS FOR ME:** if you send in the title of one i’ve already posted, i’ll write the next five sentences. let’s see if we can build a fic, shall we?

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19 notes • Posted 2021-09-11 12:22:14 GMT

#4

hey fellas

if i were to make a BSD fanfic-writer centric server, right. and it’d be a server where all confirmed members could have their own channel (if they wanted) to talk about their fics and share their work/excerpts/etc. and there’d be specific ping roles for specific content like ships/characters/genres, as well as specific user’s (within the server) content. and it was mainly focused on encouraging each other to create and giving feedback.

would anyone here be interested in joining it? or maybe even signal boosting it when/if it goes up? cause i’d love to make one! also it’d be for all fic writers, whether you do reader-insert/self-insert, ocs, canons, whatever!

22 notes • Posted 2021-10-07 05:56:58 GMT

#3

i am majorly inclined to believe that whenever a terf tries talking about how they’ve totally been harassed by just so many trans women/transfems/tras/etc, they are absolutely lying, or at the least, lying by omission, or deliberately misleading people by convincing them that something that was never present in the interaction totally was because um uh they said so, especially when they claim these interactions happened online and yet mysteriously offer absolutely NO viable proof of any kind of said interactions.

and this has nothing to do with like, not believing victims of abuse and such. i myself am a victim of horrific abuse, after all, a good bit of it being sexual in nature, and most of that abuse happening when i was a child (both before and after i came out as trans, btw, my csa had nothing to do with my trans identity bc the feelings i had prior to coming out AND EVEN prior to the csa have remained the same at their core, AKA “im really not a girl at all honestly”). i am even a victim of abuse at the hands of other trans people, only i have the critical thinking skills to realize they didn’t abuse me because they were trans, they abused me because at their core, they were cruel and abusive people with shit personalities, and that’s why they abused me, and also i have this cool thing called a brain which i use frequently enough to not decide to hate an entire diverse group of human beings because some of them hurt me (and i’ve been abused by both transmasc/trans men and transfem/trans women, actually more trans men/transmascs than trans women/transfems, but yknow, that really doesn’t matter, i’m just pointing out why the terf talking points are not gonna work on me lmao). notably, however, most of the major abusers in my life excluding my stepdad have actually been cis women/cis girls, and i see way more similarities between my abusers and terfs than i ever have between trans people of any alignment and my abusers.

the reason why i largely cannot take terfs at their word when they claim they’ve faced harassment by tras/trans women/transfems/trans folk, is simply because: the core of their group and their movement is complete and violent hatred against amab trans folk, and then hatred and violence towards afab trans folk usually in the form of attempted conversion therapy which is by definition literally always non-consensual in some way shape or form and also by definition includes abuse because you can’t do conversion therapy without abusing someone somehow. how the fuck do you expect me to believe someone who ALREADY hates us, who intentionally reads everything we do in bad faith, when they try to tell me that this harassment totally happened?

look at me in my eyes, do you think i am that gullible? do you think i am so naive as to do that? me? a fat disabled neurodivergent mentally ill black gay non-binary trans man living in the south, who has been subject to the testimonies and attacks from various hate groups for various reasons and knows how they operate? do you think i do not learn from my lived experiences what these people do? would you believe a known, loud and proud n/zi if they told you they were totally beat up by just, so many 100% real-not-fake-strawmen jewish people behind the local dennys for no reason at all? would you do that? i hope to whatever god, goddess, or deities you worship that you would not. because i HOPE you can see why that might not be a good idea. it is for the same reason i do this with terfs.

i came to this conclusion after many interactions with terfs against my will, as well as being subject to their posts about supposed “violence” they encountered which, when i did some investigating (when i was able to, or when i was mentally well enough to do so because simply seeing their bios is enough to exhaust me and make me almost physically ill), turned out to be complete and utter bullshit, and what was usually going on was either:

they were claiming that a post someone, trans or otherwise, made about hating/wishing violence on terfs specifically bc terfs are disgusting, was ACTUALLY based on the fact that they were a woman somehow and not because they were a terf, which is the REAL problem, but bc terfs love to pretend to be victims, they insidiously twist words bc they KNOW ppl who are reading stuff online usually don’t go and do deeper research and just accept it at face value, and then are like “omg i can’t believe this violent TRA hates women it’s because i’m a poor widdle uterus-vagina-having woman and totally not because i believe trans women/transfems should all be violently murdered and trans men/transmascs are just poor lost lesbians/gnc women who need literal conversion therapy to convince them they are women! it’s only because im a FEMALE”

they took a post or statement which was not aimed at anyone in particular and are now telling people (whether it be reporters writing these stupid shitty news articles, or via their own platforms like “educational” youtube videos n such) that it was totally directed towards them in particular when in reality it was not

they took a post which was sarcastic and/or meant to be a joke, sometimes even clearly stated to be a joke in its source, and deliberately and in bad faith told others that it was serious, interpreted it as such KNOWING it to be false, and then used it as an example as to why those “horrible violent tras” totally hate real women or whatever, and the rest of the bozos reading it went “omg so true!” because they don’t possess enough critical thinking skills to read something inane and realize “this is probably a joke or something”

they fell for a troll, like, the trolliest of most obvious trolls, because they hate trans people SO MUCH they’re willing to take ANYTHING they can use as a weapon against us and use it, and that and that alone should honestly prove to you why they are untrustworthy

like sorry not sorry. terfs are literally unable to see interactions with trans people as anything other than “violence” against them because that’s how fucking much they hate us. so why in the name of bast would you expect me to believe them at face value just ‘cause some trans people do bad shit? like i already know some trans people are garbage. but 99.9% of the time, that is simply because they suck AS PEOPLE and has zip doodle squat to do with their identity.

i am not a fool. terfs see trans people the same way white supremacists see black and brown folk like myself, the same way eugenicists see disabled/mentally ill/neurodivergent/fat people like myself, the same way n/zis see anyone who isn’t Well You Know like myself, the same way every hate group ever sees anyone who isn’t like them like myself. they’re all wearing the same brand of glasses, it’s just some of ‘em have different tints on the lense, and some people are even wearing more than one at the same time lmao. y’all are transparent as fuck and are terrified of more people seeing right through you just like i do.

keep crying about how TRAs totally definitely harassed and/or abused you cause youre a woman and not cause youre a nasty terf. sure. and when you’re done with that, i have some lovely beachfront property in idaho i’d like to sell you :)

23 notes • Posted 2021-11-07 08:25:47 GMT

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30 notes • Posted 2021-08-20 21:43:12 GMT

#1

hi pls rb this!

so. this isnt an announcement i ever wanted to make and not something i wanted ppl to know but its gotten to the point where not saying it is only going to end up worse than saying it so! here we go. note, this has nothing to do with anyone aside from myself. its 100% my problem and my decision and nobody here or anywhere else is at fault.

to make an extremely long story short, i literally cannot physically survive in my current home anymore. period. and right now, there is nothing i can do to even *start* working to improve that. i need time away from the home to heal and like, *actually* work on fixing myself, getting help, etc. but the problem with that is i have no money. as well as no reliable source of income. so. one of two things is happening.

im giving myself a deadline. two weeks from today (nov 22), i either manage to get enough money to at least temporarily live somewhere else via donations, OR, i go put myself into inpatient somewhere. the bottom line is i cant keep living where i am, physically. its not an abuse situation dw, it's just. the actual physical conditions are unliveable for me. and i dont have anywhere else to go anymore.

if you can, you can donate to me. if you can't, don't worry about it, but please do at least consider spreading my social media posts im making about it (i'll link them under this when theyre up). i dont really know how to put into words how very serious this is but trust me when i say that it is. nobody *has* to do anything for me, ofc, nobody's obligated. but as my friends, family, n people i care about in general, i think you deserve to know that my limit has officially been reached.

outside of the financial situation im begging everyone to just be kind to me for now, extra kind even. i might be focused mostly on myself/my own creations and maybe a few other people's rn and its not a personal thing. im just trying to find everything and anything that makes me happy so i dont completely drown in the sinking ship that is my mental state. im not saying you *have* to engage with any of my content, but i do kindly ask that if you have the time/energy and see me posting about stuff that engaging with it makes me feel really good and helps me if only for a moment, yknow?

thats all. my cashapp is $kingoffankids and thats really the only way i can accept donations, i cant use paypal :') but. yeah. im sorry if ive disappointed any of you or let any of you down, but i gotta take care of myself, and sometimes that unfortunately means i'm an inconvenience for others. please just be patient and kind with me, and overall compassionate. thanks

if u cant donate im literally begging you to reblog lol. my goal is to try to get idk 1k USD before the 2 weeks are up. even if i get like a few hundred tho ill be happy at least i can get a hotel, i just have to find somewhere pet friendly so i can bring my cats

241 notes • Posted 2021-11-08 20:30:06 GMT

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Getting Organized

Introduction

Hello, my boos~ Today I bring a post I wrote in twenty minutes and off the top of my head. You are so welcome for this mess. Have fun reading my exhausted tips on organization. (I am so so sorry for any typos—)

Notebooks

I know as writers, we all gather notebooks like hoarders. However, it is time to put them to use.

Use a different notebook for every wip; however, color code it. When I use notebooks, I keep three per WIP. White is basics: a welcome, type of genre/age range, and a tracker of word counts and chapters I have done. Grey is for plotting purposes: building character, in-depth backgrounds, plot lines, etc. And Black is for editing and notes: taking notes, changing scenes, writing random lines I want to add—this notebook is really just a random one.

I generally find this easier in my mind, so I know where to write things down when I need to.

However, if you don't wish to do this as I do and only want one notebook, next slide :)

One Notebook

Welcome to the dark—but not dark—side. Thankfully, you can get notebooks with 200 pages, so one notebook is enough. However, 80 pages is the average amount. So let's organize that notebook :)

I always use highlighters, colored pens, and regular black pens when I write. Everything is color-coded; in fact, the inside cover has an index for what each color means. I always use red for editing—I blame school for this, I use blue when I need to just make a quick note or smth, Purple is for ideas, and Gold/Yellow is for a topic change.

I always make sure every topic is separate, so I keep a blank page between the topics and I use little tabs! These saved my life. I didn’t use the content page once, and these literally just sent me straight to the topic I needed! This helps me find everything easier. Especially when it's one notebook, and I tend to smoosh all my ideas together.

Schedule

I mentioned this in my "Self-Care" post, but scheduling is an angel sent from the gods. I get so much more done when I plan out my day the night before. Even if I am exhausted, I still plan it out.

Using the Notes app, I jot down what is going on the next day, list out times, and start to schedule everything out :)

It really isn’t hard. Especially since you can do it about anywhere.

Writing Area

I really hope that your writing area is clean—unlike mine—because when I tell you that it messes with your brain, yeesh. Cleaning up where ever you write the most is the best tip I can give you. Having a clean area de-stresses the mind and allows for you to just write without a single worry.

I can’t tell you how to clean, as I don’t know how messy your area is, but just clean it. I beg of you.

Document Placement

I know almost everyone here writes online, so you probably use Google Docs, and if not, these should still work based on what you use.

In my Docs section for google, I have thousands of files. Each is made with a purpose, and each is carefully placed in a folder. In my “Writing” folder, it contains a folder for “Sixty Seconds.” In this folder, I have my drafts in the “Drafts” folder, character sheets and random scenes I want to add in “Plotting,” word count sheet tracker in “Tracking,” and etc.

Basically, it comes down to making sure you can find everything easily. Years ago, I had thousands of docs everywhere, and it was a mess to find a WIP I was working on. This method is just so much better.

Outline

If you have Google Docs, use the outline function. It's so easy to do, you don’t even know. All you do is make your chapter name into a subheading, and then it automatically gets to be a part of your outline. Because of this, no need to scroll forever; you just tap and go. It's the best function next to the word count one—I ain’t got no time to count every word I wrote.

Also, Microsoft might have this, but I don’t ever use it except for school, so I am unsure *dance emoji*

WIP Ideas

I would recommend a notebook or folder for this. That way, it's easy to use and just jot down. Also, it is easy to access and overall the best way to keep WIP ideas. I used a notebook hidden under a hardcover cover sheet, so anyways, lol. In the notebook, I have a like content sheet, and each number is paged so i can easily get to an idea if I want or even just write it down. Just use two different colors when you do this: one for the idea and one for notes. It is easier to understand that way.

[trojanjean]

questions for ao3 writers

tagged by @meimagino, thank you dsgsfa !! <3 <3 

Tagging: @kumikirin and @rayraywrites ! i don’t actually know a lot of ao3 writers SO PLEASE DO THIS AND TAG ME? <3 i’ve LOVED reading other people doing this tag and it’s so exciting to know more abt your stuff so please please if u use ao3 and wanna do this, please let me know! <3

1. How did you come up with your username and what does it mean?

my username is seaworn. i didn’t want my ao3 username to be the same as my tumblr url because my tumblr url is pretty much always associated with a certain fandom and i didn’t want that because i had a feeling that i’m going to write something for different fandoms. seaworn is a word i came across in one of nightwish’s lyrics, “sea-worn driftwood”. i just thought that was nice, and everything sea-related is really close to my heart. 

2. Which fanfic of yours has the most feedback? (bookmarks/subscriptions/hits/kudos)

fingers crossed my obsession with you is tameable has most hits, kudos and bookmarks, but my heart’s a stereo (it beats for you so listen close) has most subscriptions (because it’s an ongoing series).

3. What is your AO3 profile icon, and why did you choose it?

it’s a picture of some random boy who i think looks a lot like my favourite trainwreck boy harry and i wanted it lmao 

4. Do you have any regular/favourite commenters?

 i get really warm and giddy if someone i know comments something on my fics because it means the world to me that my friends read my shit asdgdfs. but i also get warm and giddy and excited when i get any kinds of comments!! <3 i appreciate every single comment i get and i sometimes cry when i get an email notification about a comment someone left me asfsg <3 i notice a few “regulars” that always comment of my stories when i publish something new and i LOVE them and it means the world to me that someone has subscribed to me/checks out my page to see whether i’ve published smth new. but i ALSO love people who just leave kudos bc seeing that someone has actually read my stuff? amazing. i love every single one of you so much. i go through my comments and my kudos/hits whenever i’m feeling down/insecure and they give me so much confidence and make me feel better about everything

5. Is there a fanfic that you keep going back to read again and again?

oh yeah, i have plenty!! i mean, i have over 500 bookmarks and i go through them a lot to read many of my old favourites. i’m going to list a few i could remember without actually browsing through my bookmarks! :) they’re mostly drarry because i’m super into that again. also i really wanna scream about all of these but i’m just gonna link them and let them speak for themselves sdgdfsg 

Twingenuity by Caeseria. Viktuuri, explicit, 160k. summary: “Victor arrives in Hasetsu, completely unaware that Yuuri has an identical, overly affectionate, twin brother. The resulting temptation might actually kill him before he gets Yuuri to the GPF like he promised.”

Coffee, Cakes And Doorknob Snakes by Omi_Ohmy. drarry, explicit, 40k. summary: “Harry's house is trying to kill him, and only one person can help him: pity it's Draco Malfoy”

Eternally Consistent by kitsunealyc. drarry, explicit, 40k. summary: “Draco Malfoy and Harry Potter assumed they would never be anything but civil enemies, until Potter lands on Malfoy's doorstep, bleeding, covered in curses, and acting very strangely indeed.”

Reparations by Saras_Girl. drarry, explicit, 87k. summary: “Harry is about to discover that the steepest learning curve comes after Healer training, and that second chances can be found in unexpected places.”

Winter Song by proantagonist. viktuuri, explicit, 149k. summary: “The set of Yuuri’s mouth softened into a private smile as Victor squeezed his knee beneath the table. His hands were bare, free from the gloves he so often wore when they were together on the rink, and the heat of his palm burned straight through the denim of Yuuri’s jeans. He slipped his own hand beneath the table and found Victor’s. Hidden from sight, their fingers began to flirt and play. A secret conversation all their own that needed no words.

Yuuri was aware that at some point—a moment in time he couldn’t quite place—Victor had become his boyfriend.

There wasn’t a single instant when it happened. It was a slow awareness, as if Victor had silently been asking the question for months now, and Yuuri had been giving him the answer a little more with each passing day.”

i’d love to link everything i like but aSFASD!! just believe me when i say that with 500 bookmarks and having lots of writer friends in tumblr, i read a LOT of the same fics over and over and over again. the ones i mentioned just now are all longer stories i fell in love with because it took me days and maybe even weeks to read them and it’s like i’d found a whole new universe?? you can def ask me for fic recs because all i do is read fics but i found it really hard to just pick a few so i decided to pick just a few longer ones for this question!! but ask me for my favourite coffee shop aus? do it. favourit otayuri fics? ya please. fav modern au captive prince fics? you really should. 

6. How many stories are you subscribed to? How many do you have bookmarked?

i can’t see the number of my subscriptions anywhere? but i get maybe 3-10 email notifications every day about an updated work so i guess it’s a lot. i have a little over 500 bookmarks! :)) 

7. Which AU do you find yourself writing the most?

hmm, i maybe haven’t written enough to have, like, a special au i enjoy writing? but i DO think about coffee shop au’s and writing them a lot so i guess it’s that asfdsf. i just really really love coffee shops?? 

8. How many people are subscribed and bookmarked to you in total? (you can view this on the stats page)

274 subscriptions and 704 bookmarks holy sHIT hey i love every single one of you?? 

9. Is there something you’d like to write about but are afraid of people judging you for it? (Feeling brave? If so, share it!)

i have a bunch of really, really sad and depressing headcanons i would love to write but i’m probably never gonna? like, lots of things about eating disorders and cutting and someone getting injured or cheated on, someone losing an important person or having to give up on their dreams, etc. lots of sad characters trying to be brave on their own and slowly fading away :’’)) i don’t want to write then because i haven’t come up with any good endings for those and i DON’T want to write stuff with no happy ending, so. i just really think i need to get out all kinds of crap rn and writing them would make me feel better but i think i’m too involved to actually write something worth reading? i fear that if i wrote smth i’ve headcanoned, it would end up being super immature and illogical. idk. my point it that i’m afraid to write really self-indulgent, depressing angst sadgsghdf 

10. Is there anything you would like to be better at? Writing certain scenes or genres, replying to comments, updating better, etc.

i would love to be a little more consistent in writing. my concentration is bad and often i can’t get into the flow when i’m working on something. usually i add something to a wip every few days, then one day i write 1000 words and then continue editing sentences here and there, jumping from scene to scene, deleting smth and then adding 57 words. like...i often feel like i can’t get into the scene i’m writing and it feels like i’m watching it on the outside instead of being the writer? whenever i can focus properly i get solid, consistent, meaningful writing done, but honestly 80% of me doing anything is messing around and i have to do A LOT of damage control before everything is finished? 

this is related to what i just described but i’d also love to be able to write chronologically because i feel it makes the story and the journey more real when i’m actually working through what my characters are feeling/experiencing throughout the story? instead of writing an exciting plot thing A and an exciting plot thing number B and then later writing the boring parts inbetween. 

i have a lot of problems with plots in general - i feel it’s easier for me to write 2 k about, like, yuuri making tea in the morning, than writing 2k about someone walking to the store and buying milk. i’m better at describing moments and feelings than concrete plot points or someone dojng something? idk. 

11. Do you write rarepairs or popular ships more often?

popular ships. i mean, i might read rarepairs but i usually have one or two otp��s from each fandom i write about. i’d love to write about chrisabek one day though sgdfg. 

12. How many stories have you posted on AO3 to this day (finished and unfinished)?

18 ???? what how when has this happened?? .  13 of those are yoi and the rest either drarry or johnlock. 

13. How many stories do you have saved in/with your writing program?

18 published works and about....25-30 unfinished things? some over 10k words, some less than 500. also but i wrote A LOT of original shit when i was like 16-18 so if i count those in the number would be about 100 probably

14. Do you write down story ideas, or just keep them in your head?

i write them down potential ideas, but i have a lot of headcanons i don’t write down because i don’t think i have the ability to write them. but most of my ideas go to google docs/notes. 

15. Have you ever co-authored a story?

yeah, i actually have one wip going on with someone :) it’s unfinished but maybe we’ll finish it one day? it’s drarry and super sweet. 

16. How did you discover AO3?

i really can’t remember? i wish i could? but it probably in 2012 when i got into the sherlock fandom. 

17. Do you consider yourself to be a popular or famous author in your fandom(s) on AO3?

i don’t think so omg, but i’m really glad people read my stuff! but i’m definitely more known in the yoi fandom than the others i’m in bc my drarry/johnlock fics get like 5 comments, max, whereas i can get 20 comments to my yuri on ice stuff! :) it’s really nice that people read my stuff fhdh 

18. Do you have a nickname or fandom name for your readers?

omfg no but everyone who reads my stuff is an actual Angel  

19. Was there an author who inspired or encouraged you to write?

yeah, a lot! a lot of original fiction authors & a lot of fanfiction authors! whenever i read a good text i’m like “wow, this is awesome, i wish i could write this well” and that always gives me a huge boost. the support of my friends is really encouraging and inspiring, too. 

20. What writing advice would you give to a beginning author?

the “i will be a stronger writer after i finish this piece” is REALLY good advice, because...not everything you write will be the best you’ve done and you maybe feel like your writing has some flaws or something. but you know what? even if it’s not perfect, you’re a lot more experienced writer when you’ve done it. i do the “it’s gonna be shit anyway so i’m not gonna write it” thing quite often but then i have to remind myself that every single word i write gets me closer to being better, so i plunder through. and when i get finished with something, i usually think “well, this is not my strongest work but i’m glad i did it” and!!!! that’s really it!! i took part in otayuri reverse bang this spring and god i wanted to give up so so many times and i wrote lots of plots for it because i didn’t like ANYTHING i did. but i got through it, and while i think that the two stories i did for it are the worst i’ve written, it’s still 18 000 words more than i would have written if i hadn’t participated :) be your own biggest supporter & give yourself time to practise & be super proud and happy about what you’ve achieved so far!! <3 you wrote 10 words today? THAT’S 10 WORDS MORE THAN IT WAS BEFORE. you had a huge writer’s block so instead of writing you just wrote down some plot point you wanna write later? YOU PLANNED SOMETHING. you couldn’t even plan, you just opened your computer and gave up? YOU TRIED AND RESPECTED YOUR LIMITS TODAY AND THAT’S AMAZING. 

21. Do you plot out your stories, or do you just figure it out as you go?

i usually plan big plot points but figure everything else out as i go? planning in actually one of my weaknesses and instead of making a plan and sticking to it, i just wait for inspiration and get as much done as i can before it goes away, lol. 

22. Have you ever gotten a bad comment on a story? If so, what did you do?

not really :) everyone has been really sweet to me. 

23. Is there a certain type of scene that you have a hard time writing? (action, smut, etc..)

action scenes are pretty hard? i think i’m better at writing dialogue and feelings than action or something dramatic happening. i’m working on it and i would love to get more edge to my writing! 

24. What story(s) are you working on now?

i’m finishing the last part of my heart’s a radio (it beats for you so listen close). the chapter is what i intended to write in the first place (yuri and otabek seeing each other at world’s and getting it on in a hotel room) but then i just....needed to have 14 000 words of stuff before it, apparently. 

i’m also working on a drarry fic that has been in my drafts for a long time. it’s about 8k and i think it’s going to be 10-13k, and that’s fine. it’s all about margaritas and blowjobs and being hungover, basically. it’s really fun to write lol.

and then i have this captive prince smut one shot that’s also like half-done. it’s really fluffy and sappy but still just smut. 

aaaaalso i’m trying to finish the next chapter for my viktuuri dog sitter au fic now my heart stumbles on things i don’t know ! i’ve been procrastinating because i don’t really have a plot for it planned yet. 

25. Do you plan your next project(s) before you finish your current ongoing story(s)?

i have too many ideas in my head constantly and that makes it reaally hard to focus on finishing something before jumping onto something else. that’s why i have tons of wips and no finished works, lmao. 

26. Do you have a daily writing goal set for yourself?

not really. sometimes i try to push myself by setting goals, but in the end it really stresses me out because i’m usually away from home at least 9 hours every day and my work is really physical and tiring so asfsgas i really don’t have the strength to write every day. now my goal is to finish three fics before the year ends. they’re all oneshots that are maybe 80% done, so i should be able to do it. 

27. Do you think you’ve improved as a writer since you first started?

i hope so but i really don’t know?? 

28. What is your favorite story that you’ve written?

hmm. it’se been really fun writing i am to see to it that i do not lose you series because i’ve gotten a LOT of positive feedback along the way! and i’m not done with the series - i have a chrisviktuuri smut oneshot planned in this universe, happening at the same time when yuri’s figuring out how to date™. it was the first part of the series that made me think that maybe people actually enjoy my stuff & that encouraged me to write more!

I also really liked writing a oneshot i hust posted yesterday - listen how, under the breastbone, the rhythm changes . i wrote my first yuri on ice fic about a year ago and i just really wanted to return to that moment and write smth sweet about viktor and yuuri. the story has no plot or anything, but it felt REALLY good to write bc i sort of want and need a lot of soft things right now! 

also i’m having SO MUCH FUN with the drarry fic i haven’t posted yet, omg. 

29. What is your least favorite story that you’ve written?

hmm. probably cautiously peering, absorbing, translating hey eve stop with the pretentious fic names  because it was basically my first multichapter fic and i feel like it fell apart a little? i had to write it in less than a month bc it was part of otayuri reversebang. i felt like the idea was good and that it didn’t reach its full potential? i have very mixed feelings about this fic. i haven’t been able to read it even once after i published it bc i’m so afraid of what i’ll find lmao 

30. Where do you see yourself (as a writer) in 5 years?

hopefully my english is a lot better then, at least! i hope that i’ve started writing original fiction, really :) 

31. What is the easiest thing about writing?

coming up with ideas!!! i don’t even use most of the ideas hat get in my head and i get lots of new ideas especially when i’m at work, out doing shopping, basically doing anything active??  but writing everything down, especially ideas you know will get 20-30k long once you start...damn. 

32. What is the hardest thing about writing?

managing long stories? i haven’t written very many longer (like, over 10k?) stories and dgsgsg it’s just hard to make the plot interesting with lots of interesting cliffhangers, sad parts, etc? it’s hard to balance everything. 

and yeah writing just in general is hard because it’s at least 80% writer’s block but having ideas flood your head and making it hard to focus on real life sfsg

33. Why do you write?

to express myself, i think? i still haven’t learn how to process my more uglier emotions through writing (it would be really helpful if i could) but i’m definitely writing about the kind of things i miss and would like to have for myself - someone being really happy, having lots of quiet mornings, being loved, maybe being a trainwreck but having something to cope through it, having a special connection with someone. idk. all kinds of things.

writing is fun and actually writing down the fics you’d want to read is super duper cool. i don’t get very much done in my life otherwise, so writing gives me the feeling of accomplishment i’m not getting anywhere else. 

i’m not very good at expressing myself so writing definitely helps with that, too. 

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1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk? more cereal2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day? not @ all3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books? tissues, napkins, sticky notes, random cuts of notebook paper4: how do you take your coffee/tea? two-four sugars w creamer or 1/2 n 1/2 (tea)5: are you self-conscious of your smile? not after i got braces6: do you keep plants? no7: do you name your plants? 8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings? idk the only art i do is in photography, and i try to do dark/spooky shit.. it doesnt have a meaning9: do you like singing/humming to yourself? yes10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach? side 11: what's an inner joke you have with your friends? i dont rly have a friends group, less drama that way12: what's your favorite planet? smth has always intrigued me abt mars13: what's something that made you smile today? lars (:14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like? idc it's somewhere to live.. we can fix it up if we have the money. if so, i would prob have a bunch of shit everywhere lmao15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is! it says language programming ??16: what's your favorite pasta dish? some plain old penne/rigatoni w red gravy, but it has to be GOOD red gravy .. none of that ragu/preggo shit17: what color do you really want to dye your hair? black and it already is dyed that color, but i do want to experiment a bit and get few pieces red18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up. JESUS.. these are endless... once i RLY had to pee, and i was @ school. it was after school hrs. my friend and i were waiting for the game to start. all the doors were locked up @ the school. i think they took out the portapotty from outside, so i said to my friend, "let's go to the lower field" (we have an upper and lower field idk what other schools have lmao) despite it saying there are cameras down there (which IK for sure bc i've seen the computer w the school cameras, and there are ones surveilling the fields), i peed. in 8th grade during lunch, this girl pissed me the fuck off. i can't remember what she did, but i picked up her sandwich and threw it to the ground.another time in 8th grade during gym, my friends and i were fooling around during a fitness walk (walk thru the trail surrounded by woods oooo). i was yelling "IN DA GREENZ" bc i was a rly weird kid, and now we bring it up whenever we see bushes. OKAY lasT memORYYY in 8th grade, i was on the soccer team. i sucked @ it... the ball was coming to me, and i tried to kick it. instead of kicking it, my foot went on top of the ball resulting in my fall19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it? i used to keep a journal. last winter was the most recent journal i'd had, and my guidance counselor purchased it for me. i was going thru a rly hard time, and it was an outlet from that. after the winter ended, i never felt the need to write in it again.. it hasnt gotten that bad20: what's your favorite eye color? lars' eye color21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that's been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces. 22: are you a morning person? depends... if my sleeping schedule is just like that, I LOVE WAKING UP IN THE MORNING. if i don't usually, then no fuck it lmao23: what's your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations? literally nothing, but i do that when i have obligations... i get to it @ some point24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets? lars25: what's the weirdest place you've ever broken into? i've broken into my friend's house and my own. breaking into my friend's house wasn't rly that weird. i was out of it bc i had hardly gotten sleep the previous night. i also had permission lmao it wasn't as if i just went in. my friend had forgotten her key. breaking into my own house was actually bizarre ...26: what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit? i usually wear my docs, but i switch out. before getting my docs, i wore my all black vans W LITERALLY EVERYTHING. the only time i wouldnt was when i wore a light outfit, which wasnt often bc 98% of the time i wear all black27: what's your favorite bubblegum flavor? i don't chew gum. it has aspartame, which is literally poison28: sunrise or sunset? i haven't seen a sunset since i was a child, and i want to definitely see it again29: what's something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? monty is my lover30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared? yes31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks. socks are good. if you wear them in the cold months around the house, you are less susceptible to sickness. they also work well when you wear them w most shoes bc they prevent sweat. lars take notes (; i love wearing weird socks. i love socks. i usually never match socks bc no one will see them?? if i wear a black sock, i try to match w another black sock tho. i do sleep w socks in the cold months. otherwise, my feet would freeze. sometimes i wear multiple socks in the summer to keep my feet warm. i do wear white socks sometimes32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends. i wasn't w my friends, but i found a drunken man in my rm after 3am on st. patricks day two yrs ago33: what's your fave pastry? cannoli34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it? i kept this one stuffed animal who was a girl. she had blonde braids, and i used to kiss her on the lips when no one was looking. i knew it was weird bc she wasn't real. i also used to pretend i was fucking her... it was a weird childhood. idk where she is now35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often? I LOVE PENS!!!! okay im going to sound like a weirdo.. i only love certain kinds. i hate cheap ass pens. my fav pens are the ones that u click on the bottom to get the tip bc the clicking helps me concentrate. it's also fun to just click it. i haven't used a clicky one in awhile bc i bought myself pentels. i love pentels as well bc they come in nice colors, and i rly like the cap for it. i like pens that come from certain companies bc it looks like i've been somewhere.. maybe i have? i've gotten free pens from places and some of them i just found w that lettering lmao 36: which band's sound would fit your mood right now? nine inch nails (:37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean? dont care as long as ik where everything is. my parents call it messy, but i call it my peace38: tell us about your pet peeves! i hate when ppl put things back where they don't belong. idk i dont keep track of this shit39: what color do you wear the most? black40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you? none41: what's the last book you remember really, really loving? 1984 by george orwell42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it! starbucks LMAO43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with? no one44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything? the last time i was w lars45: do you trust your instincts a lot? yes46: tell us the worst pun you can think of. idk47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe? high fructose corn syrup48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today? idr what it was then, but now it's getting raped.. ive had this fear since i was 14 i think49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought? i dont usually buy that shit50: what's an odd thing you collect? wristbands.. i like to say i've been places51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them? lars , peach // the front bottoms52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far? the yr just started, bUT I LOVE IAN'S (IDUBZZZZ) VIDEO OF "I HAVE CRIPPLING DEPRESSION"53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them? i want to see rocky horror picture show. i've seen heathers, beetlejuice, and pulp fiction. i love heathers and beetlejuice. i didn't understand pulp fiction entirely, but that could be bc i was spammed by a gc while watching it54: who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face? idk55: what's the most dramatic thing you've ever done to prove a point? idk56: what are some things you find endearing in people? smile57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics? i never realized that this song sounds like five mini songs put together... i did reenact them in my head58: who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why? nonexistent lol59: what's your favorite myth? black eyed children60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves? anything from edgar allan poe61: what's the stupidest gift you've ever given? the stupidest one you've ever received? idk i hate getting gifts i'd rather give them, but i don't usually give them bc i never have money when it's time62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind? ORANGE!63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be? no64: what color is the sky where you are right now? grey65: is there anyone you haven't seen in a long time who you'd love to hang out with? lars66: what would your ideal flower crown look like? idk67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel? i have SAD soooo68: what's winter like where you live? FUCKING HORRIBLE, but it's worse in other places69: what are your favorite board games? ive been missing guess who? lately70: have you ever used a ouija board? no, but my math teacher says u have to make it from a certain wood and put a spell on it for it to work... too much work 😩71: what's your favorite kind of tea? lipton lemon!!!!!72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it? i try to note everything down, but sometimes i can remember things w/o writing them down73: what are some of your worst habits? staying in bed for too long74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns. bye75: tell us about your pets! i have a dog, and she's old af lmao i never rly liked her idk i hate dogs76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't? homework and probably calling up my new job to see when i have to go in.. cant be arsed.. 77: pink or yellow lemonade? pink78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub? FANCLUB!!! (:79: what's one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?lars gave me cute cat headphones80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why? white.. i didn't choose it81: describe one of your friend's eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of. i can't rn82: are/were you good in school? i made it into university, so i guess so83: what's some of your favorite album art? the devin n god are raging inside of me // brand new .. cant think of many in particular84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones? one in remembrance of my friend who died and a full sleeve85: do you read comics? what are your faves? no86: do you like concept albums? which ones? YES YES YESSSS MANSON 'S CONCEPTS R SO GOOD (: 87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives? idk88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy? i just rly like frida kahlo89: are you close to your parents? no90: talk about your one of you favorite cities. i want to visit/live in philly so badly ):91: where do you plan on traveling this year? texas92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch? i only put a little fresh mozz on it if there is quite a bit93: what's the hairstyle you wear the most? i just wear my hair the same everyday94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday? lars95: what are your plans for this weekend? none96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot? omfg i had 20 or so awaiting updates last summer that i had to finally do bc it was fucking up my computer97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house? what98: when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it? i dont hike99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them. NOBODY'S PERFECT BY HANNAH MONTANA100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why? 5 yrs into the future.. why would i want to relive the last 5 yrs of life ?? idk im just fine living w my past mistakes.. they've shaped me

[neonwizardheehee]

okay so i have to write/say this out somewhere..

at the end of a very positive session in therapy (i just talked about how great my parents are) my therapist said to me “and it seems like you’ve lost some pounds” when infact quite the opposite is happening. I just feel so damn self-conscious that i put on baggy clothes (after all I’ve learned how to hide my flaws over the years LMAO). So i waved her off politely but now.... some days after this incidenr i feel fucking bad.

Is my therapist lying to me to make me feel better bc she damn well knows that my body image is a huge deal for me and part of the reason I’m even going to her (on a side note: she’s always asking about the issue of smth i’ve got under control now, it’s frustrating). 

Also she wrote a note to my doc saying i have problems with my disease which i have not ANY MORE) and now my doc wants to talk to me - I’m scared shitless tbh.

It’s normal to feel sad, hate yourself and struggle with diseases so WTH AM I DOING HERE?! i just dont wanna - i mean she’s a really nice person and she did say some helpful things to me.... but idk.. i’m not mental or anything. I just have my phases WHICH is perfectly normal and okay, I believe for god’s sake...

im furious and angry and idk if i should talk to anyone about it bc my friends all wanted me to go to therapy :( idk waht to do. if you have ideas and feel comfortable sharing I’m interested. 

and scared of talking to my doc tmr >< can i just disappear for that? ://