#obsessed w this mandy

[hdmiports]

:3

[ihatebnha]

i love opposites attract but theres sth abt you & bakugo both being absolute menaces tht just clicks for me idk and mb it’s cause i also just had a thing for mean girls growing up i love it & imma defend it till the day i DIE 😕😁🤞🏾

ugh esp if they have kids who are sweethearts and all their friends are afraid of their parents 😭

Until. the. day. I. Die. skjdljfakj I feel the same!!! Not that I don't think Bakugo couldn't or wouldn't mesh with someone his opposite, BUT........ thinking about him w/ someone w/ a 'tude as nasty as his? IT'S HIGHLY SUPREME!!!

Can you imagine (yes) the gossip sessions you could have? The support he'd give you when someone was mean to you or made you upset??? How hot he'd think you were when you were angry, even if that meant you were m a d at him.........? It really works almost too well.

And having good kids, too... *tears out hair* God, I'm just thinking about you guys having the sweetest little child who maybe gets accused of something bad at school. Everyone knows they'd never, NEVER hurt anyone... but still, you have to go in to meet with the teacher anyway.

There you are, two of the most badass parents ever, with your little baby crying at your feet. Everyone is scared for their LIVES, and whoever accused them of something is probably never setting foot on campus again w/ how bad you guys tear into them (not even being unreasonable either, you just aren't taking shit that you know isn't true). And then going out for ice cream after... CRYING.

Other parents aside, you're definitely the couple that all the kids love, too... cuz being scary aside, you're actually sweet on the inside and also super cool. You have kids that aren't even yours helping wash dishes after dinner LMFAOOO but they love it <333

Literally I'm sick over this. I want it.

(And who was your favorite mean girl? I was obsessed w/ Vanessa from Phineas and Ferb and Mandy from Bill and Mandy hzzzzk!!!)

[howlinchickhowl]

Couple of days late because I keep falling asleep while writing, but here is my little contribution for day 9 of @gallavichthings a.u.gust fiesta.

Got me stuck on your face and your body nine - college

There’s an alarm clock blaring, it’s been blaring for what feels like hours, and it’s not his. He doesn’t even have an alarm clock. This day and age who even owns a real fucking clock anymore? Doesn’t everyone just use their phone?

The noise stops, and Mickey cracks an eye open. Through his minimal aperture he can see a a light green colored towel, a pair of legs dusted with light ginger hair. Ian.

“Sorry about the alarm, I woke up early and jumped in the shower, forgot it was even set.”

He sounds so awake already, alive with energy at whatever ghastly hour of the morning someone like Ian chooses to rise in the morning. It’s as much as Mickey can do to roll over onto his back, and even that feels like too much of an effort. He slings one arm over his face to block out the obnoxious sunlight streaming through Ian’s cheap dorm-room curtains, and sucks in a deep yawn of a breath.

“It’s all good man,” He says, on the tail end of the yawn, “didn’t mean to fall asleep. Shoulda woken me.”

“I didn’t mind you staying.” The weight on the bed shifts like Ian has just sat down, and when Mickey drags his arm from his eyes to look he’s right there, chest bare, soft hairs on his pecs glistening with large droplets of water because the guy apparently doesn’t know how towels work and clambers every day from the shower dripping like an umbrella after a rainstorm.

He watches a single rivulet wind its way down towards a nipple, take a detour around a particularly thick hair and drop into the valley that marks the centre of Ian’s well defined chest.

He drags his gaze away and meets Ian’s eyes, warm and open, and it sinks in to Mickey what Ian had said. That he didn’t mind Mickey staying over. It’s crazy to Mickey how easily shit like that just rolls off Ian’s tongue, like he just says exactly what he’s thinking or feeling, in the moment when he’s thinking or feeling it. Mickey wonders what that must be like. To be just completely at ease all the damn time. It couldn’t be him.

“Well, didn’t mean to, so.”

Case in point. The words that roll off Mickey’s tongue are always awkward and stilted, and only ever half of what he really wants to be saying, and almost always succeeds in making whomever he is talking to smaller and less happy and less bright than they were before he spoke.

Something in Ian shuts down, his openness, that light inside him that Mickey is so obsessed with, can’t get enough of, dims, just a little, and just like every time he opens his mouth, Mickey regrets his words.

“What you got your alarm set for anyway?” He asks, dropping his hand onto Ian’s bent knee where he’s sat sideways on the bed. “You don’t got class today.”

One thing that’s great about Ian is that Mickey kind of thinks he gets it. Mickey’s words can hurt him but if he can get a hand on him, quickly, he recovers. Like he understands what it means when Mickey uses his touch to try and soothe the lashes his tongue doles out.

Like now, green eyes glance down at where Mickey’s hand is resting on a towel clad knee, and a little smile forms on his lips

“You know my schedule Mickey?”

Smug bastard. And he does, is the problem. They’ve been fucking basically since class began in September, since Mickey had wandered into a frat house kitchen at a party Mandy had dragged him to and shared a shot with the giant red-head hiding from the party by ‘manning the bar’. He was the least likely frat dude you could imagine, sweet and kind of shy, not interested in keg stands or embarrassing pledges. They’d ended up back in Ian’s room that night and Mickey’s been freefalling ever since. He’s into him so deep it’s embarrassing.

Yeah, he knows his fucking schedule. Knows when his classes are and his preferred times to go to the gym, knows he treats himself to lunch outside the cafeteria once a week, on Wednesdays, on a rotating schedule of alternative campus eateries. Knows he calls his big sister on Fridays, facetimes his big brother most mornings on his way to class. Knows what day and time he goes to his book club that’s not a book club, but that he won’t actually tell Mickey what it is. He knows, and he feels like a fucking pussy for knowing, and he knows that if he replies right now he’ll say something even more hurtful than he already has because his stupid fucking brain thinks it will make it less embarrassing to be obsessed with Ian if there’s no way Ian could ever possibly know.

“Got a frat thing early, philanthropy requirement, that’s why the alarm.”

There’s a blush spreading across Ian’s cheeks, the same that always does whenever he talks about fraternity stuff, he’s the only frat guy Mickey ever met who doesn’t like to let on he’s in a frat. Mickey’d asked him once, why he’d joined if he found it so embarrassing to be a Greek. He’d said that when he’d come to college he’d been lonely, had missed the noise and the company of being at home with all his siblings, the frat had seemed like a way to have that again, on campus.

“Gotta go be a good boy, huh?” Ian quirks a suggestive eyebrow at that and the shadow of a shiver rushes up Mickey’s spine. It is way too easy to get him going where Ian’s concerned. “Guess I’ll let you get to it then, I’m gonna head out.”

He rolls himself to the other side of the bed and pushes himself up to standing, starting to find where his clothes had ended up. He finds them in a neat pile on the chair by the window, shirt and pants and boxers folded, fucking boy scout.

“You don’t have to go.” Ian tells him while he’s pulling up his pants, rooting in his underwear drawer for some clean boxers and dropping his towel to pull them on.

“I got a paper due.”

“Well, are you busy later? I’m supposed to go to this open mic thing at Java John’s…”

Mickey winces at the thought of an ‘open mic thing’ and Ian trails off, finishes buttoning his shirt, smart clothes for philanthropy hours. Mickey tries not to let his gaze linger too long, but the fact is, Ian looks good all dressed up.

“But I could skip it? If you wanted to…” He trails off again, shrugging at Mickey like he doesn’t really know what he’s suggesting.

He’s suggesting spending time together, really, that’s what he’s always suggesting. All the time he’s inviting Mickey along to some event or telling him about some party, just trying to spend time with him, and every time he does Mickey blows him off, turns it into some innuendo, or manufactures the scenario so that instead of hanging out like normal people, like Ian so clearly wants to do, they end up just fucking.

It’s not like Mickey doesn’t want to hang out with Ian, properly. Without fucking. He does. He would. But the thing is, they’re good at fucking. They’ve got great chemistry and he knows he can make Ian feel good, that he can hold his interest for that, that he won’t disappoint the guy.

But without that, if they’re just spending time together and talking and not distracted by the overwhelming pleasure of an impending orgasm, Ian might figure out that in the long run, Mickey’s not smart or interesting or worth spending time with at all. And he can’t have that.

He finishes shoving his feet inside his boots and looks up, finding Ian still looking over at him, hopefully. And he wants to say yes. He wants to say sure, and sounds fun. Wants to meet Ian at the stupid fucking Java John’s and listen to some emo loser singing acoustic covers of eighties pop hits and drink an overpriced cup of coffee and just, sit next to the guy, smile at him, make him laugh. Feel the warmth of his body radiate against Mickey’s own. He wants it so badly he can hardly breathe from the wanting.

And what if he did it? What if he said yes? What if, actually, Ian didn’t find him boring or stupid or only good for fucking? What if, actually, they had a great fucking time and great sex? Looking into Ian’s imploring eyes, for the first time he believes it might be possible.

He takes a deep breath, takes a massive fucking leap, and says.

“They got beer at the Java John’s?”

The smile on Ian’s face makes his heart almost beat out of his chest, and he hopes, hopes he’s made the right choice.

[gallavich-headcanon]

Anon!!! Hi my love, I tend to write what I know so I present: special Ed teacher mickey

Mickey was diagnosed with cancer when he was a baby, so his mom got him and Mandy away from terry (they went back and forth a few times, but ultimately avoided some of Terry's horrors) and now Mickey is a special Ed teacher. In this au Rita's boss says she can't give Ian his job back in season 6 or 7, but her sister in law works for an early intervention program, she can get Ian a job as an assistant teacher.

Ian gets assigned to mickey

Mickey is gruff but oh so gentle with the kids. He never flinches at meltdowns and is incredibly patient. He and Ian fall in love slowly and I'm kinda obsessed w this idea rn

Cameron my darling! Always fun to see you in my inbox!

Special Ed teacher mickey

Mickey was diagnosed with cancer when he was a baby -> holyshit starting with a bang I see.

Mickey is gruff but oh so gentle with the kids. -> YES. yes he is. he's the best with them. He never flinches at meltdowns and is incredibly patient. He and Ian fall in love slowly and I'm kinda obsessed w this idea rn -> WELL I'M OBSESSED WITH YOU RIGHT NOW and with this awesome idea.

get Ian a job as an assistant teacher. -> I think Ian would love that job. It's not the same as being an EMT but he get to help shape tiny humans. Also they get hurt all the time so he gets to use some of his medical training (it's mostly band aids but still)

I need a whole slowburn fic of this pleaseee

[musicalresolution]

Round 2 C Match 1

Propaganda under the cut

The Confrontation

there’s really great duality in the overlapping parts and you learn a bit more about Javert and the ending is just OUGH LOVE IT

Who doesn't love a fight in musical form? It just makes the emotions that much more intense.

The overlapping parts are so good and the song is addicting to listen to. I love how Javert is so stubborn in his part while Valjean’s seems to be looser in a way. And also the Javert low note at the beginning changed me as a person. And…. there is soooo much tension.

firstly, the makeup of the song. it’s lyrics are amazing and work so well with both parts layered over each other. layering two different strands of dialogue over each other can be extremely difficult to work into a beautiful song. the song “achilles come down,” for example, overcomes this challenge with simply changing the filters on one part. “for the first time in forever (reprise)” from frozen simply has one small part layered. but “the confrontation” manages to have the entire song (other than the tiny intro) be two separate simultaneous parts and it still flows well and sounds AMAZING. it’s so much fun to sing as a duet and a fun challenge to try to sing both parts at once as best you can.

secondly, what it means. it shows how despite everything, jean valjean wants to reason with javert instead of fighting, and that javert seems almost afraid to forgive or help him. it also lets us see a more vulnerable part of javert, giving our villain heart and character. javert has suffered so much and found so much hope in being inflexible and never changing that hes terrified of change, or in the fact that someone bad can be really a complex person. he says the lines “men like you can never change, men like me can never change” and “i was born inside a jail, i was born with scum like you, i am from the gutter too”. just a few lines show us so much on why he behaves the way he does and it’s heartbreaking. it also shows how valjean KNOWS his strength and power, and he threatens javert with it. but when he’s beaten him, the choreography of the musical shows valjean simply leaving javert there instead of hurting him.

the vocal parallels between Javert going down on “you’ll wear a different chain” and Valjean going up on “my race has not yet run” literally I’m so obsessed w this song I can’t

Lily's Eyes

Lily's Eyes is a beautiful and haunting duet sung between two brothers about their love for the late Lily Craven, but they aren't singing it to each other which is what makes it so brilliant.

It's a song of both triumph and unrequited love and the layering of the two voice parts (Mandy Patinkin's soaring tenor with Robert Westenberg's resonant baritone) is stunning. It's here we learn about the antagonist's motivation, it's here that Mary Lennox's presence really starts to affect the rest of the household. It's a sort of reprieve from the chaotic storms enveloping the plot at this point in the story, and it is packed with *so much emotion*.

"Imagine me, a lover..." "I longed for the day, she'd turn and see me standing there..." "...Would God have let her stay!!"

[inkushel29]

my opps (in order)

my art skills

dead ends on flash archiving

Pen Frens

Zeebarf

my 5:20 alarm clock every weekday morning

school

myself

femboys & traps (sorry some of y'all are weird)

twinks (except Orderly)

people who spam my messages with videos (except one mutual because I'm chill w/ them)

anatomy

getting started on a drawing

bara (male muscle proportions exceeded to inhuman and horrifying standards)

the NSFW art community

Canihavepromo aka Lottie (I hope she gets deplatformed fr)

any problematic interest artist/animator I really don't like

Stamper

people who perceive lesbians in THAT way (screw y'all)

BL Yaoi Manhwas

fujoshis

proshippers (or comshippers i have no fucking idea)

finding 0 fanart of shit I like (Ballads of Reemus & etc.)

Alphazekko getting cancelled for no reason

my right ear ringing for no reason

MHA fandom

my antisocial ass

my broken bed

scenecore aesthetic and its music

instagram reel comment sections

my autistic ass for making my weirdass posts

Sia

Zeebarf for being in the NFT community

NFTs & AI

down bad mfs in comment sections

tumblr p0rn bots

my goofy ass being scared of showers

Calobi Productions

TikTok

Alex Emery's Wizard Hunt part 3 not being made

Queers of War for disappointing and traumatizing me

procrastination

the anime community in general

animating

myself trying to animate on flash cs6 but failing

Spazkid for drawing underage sonic characters and not finishing Nightmare Cops

my chronically online ass

Ipad kids

skibidi toilet (I still meme it)

my forgetful ass

finding out a person I like is an absolute piece of shit

myself again

vent people (sorry)

cutecore aesthetic

Roblox (i still play it tho)

sketchers united/pop jam kids

shitty clickbait youtube thumbnails

youtube kids

rule 34 content on youtube

content farm videos on youtube

Youtube (i still watch it)

myself again for making this list too goddamn long when it didn't need to be

uhhhhhh

the Pokemon community

people using the Pixar Mom term in the wrong way (a lot)

Discord

having to sleep early because my parents tell me to

people who harass others for no reason

Miguel O'Hara stans

myself for forgetting to start/finish shit (not school related)

my fatass self

BookTok/White woman who are obsessed with dark romance books

bad Webtoons

those AI disney mockup posters

MCYT fandom

Countryhumans fandom

TikTok art community

Twitter art community

almost any art community that's shit

l0lic0ns & sh0tac0ns (PLEASE FUCK OFF.)

this list for being too long

Nitrile & his weirdass tr@p obsession (he collaborated with Shadman and drew Mandy from Billy & Mandy as a femboy in a very suggestive way. And sometimes drew femboys that looked like children. So yeah fuck him.)

Shadman (OBVIOUSLY)

Zone for ruining The Modifyers and any cartoon in general (they got away with sexualizing minors so idk how y'all looked past that)

Jaystation

my goofy ass for staying up too late

humanizations of non-human characters being skinny white cis young anime boys

my goofy ass for being unoriginal

my goofy ass for still writing on this dang list

Gross people on Spacehey who ruin everything

FNF fandom (kind of)

FNF creepypasta mods (Sonic.exe)

Twitter/X in general

my little brother when he has a tantrum

night terrors

Astrology girls

people who use their autism/disability for a defense mechanism/excuse for when they get called out for something bad they've done

Stamper again (how tf can you be racist and fetishize WOC at the same time nevertheless you're still racist fuck you)

A Small Favor not getting it's chapter 3/final chapter and the story getting reimagined instead of finished

family vlog channels

people who hurt animals for clout

captioning my youtube videos by myself

editing my videos bc its hard

people doing stupid shit for clout in general

MojoMontebon's character Trixie (I don't like her she scares me)

finding out an artist I like is an absolute piece of shit

people who hate selfship/ oc x canon artists (leave em alone theyre just doing what makes them happy)

Your Boyfriend Game

YBG Fandom

the creator of Your Boyfriend Game

redesign vids where the final redesign is actually shit

false allegations

Apphumans community

Deviantart

Fetish artists

ok I think that's it thanks for reading I added WAY too much on this list.

[m0tel6mxzzy]

prom pact (2023): a movie review 9/10

prom pact is a strange (in a good way) movie bc the way some of the pop songs are literally so “dated” in terms of being 3+ years old (bad guy, believer) but also somehow so properly getting teenagers accurate with that outdatedness??? ex: bad guy playing in a disney movie abt two teenagers changing each other from their previous goals and bringing out the better in each other and then feeling “deviant” for getting out of their comfort zones w each other.

like when you’re young and in the socially hierarchal hell that is high school one of the most “bad” things you can do is be the popular/unpopular kid hanging outside of your group, until you actually leave and go into the adult world and start to perceive that clique behavior as childish.

ALSO i’m obsessed w graham and how he’s really not what mandy thinks she is. mandy realizing she knows less than she thinks she does and that graham knows more than he thinks he does. also the actor playing him was so well chosen bc he gives off sterling knight in starstruck vibes mandy/graham give off SUCH chance and sonny vibes. 9/10 cute disney movie of u wanna sit and chill w something warm and fuzzy but new.

also i like the characterization of ben. he’s a character that’s very sweet and well-intentioned but also a great model for teenage boys who are insecure in their looks and popularity and feel like looks matter more so they feel attempts in trying to improve their personality and focus on how they treat others are futile. very good to see in a world kind of trying to convince them thru incel culture that “being a man” is about feeling forced to feel like your worth is defined by wealth and looks and not how you treat others, which matters just as much and can’t be bought.

[boypussydilf]

for the letters ask meme M O and U. for fun. mou <- said like a cat with a silly voice

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGHHHH CATBOY BLAAAAST *a ray of bright light disintegrates me into ash* *when it clears i have turned into a little cat*

m - name a character you’d like to have for a friend

So many…………. so many…….. i w GASP. I WANT TO HANG OUT WITH FINN MERTENS AND KOYUKI AZUMAYA AT THE SAME TIME. They would put me into life threatening dangerous situations but it would be okay because they can protect me from anything. they are trying to teach me self defense and it is NOT working i have poor reaction time and no muscles. we are also going clothes shopping and getting food. it would be great. genuinely i need to go think about what would happen if finn and koyuki got to hang out now they have. similar experiences. what if you were raised to Go Out And Fight ever since you were a little kid and also you were in some way fundamentally estranged from the common human experience. but also you were just so funny and silly and charming. anyway they’re my friends :)

o - pick a song at random. what character/ship does it remind you of

Alright playlist of nearly one thousand songs let’s see what shuffle brings me. Hmm. Shuffle brought me remains of the day from corpse bride which. Is. Much too specific. What that song reminds me of is corpse bride. Let’s try something else. OH. PORTUGAL - WALK THE MOON WHICH ISNT 100% LYRICALLY APPLICABLE BUT IT ALWAYS MAKES ME THINK OF A REALLY GOOD GRAVITY FALLS AMV I SAW SET TO IT… gives me psychic images of mabel & dipper. Ok let’s get one more song just for fun. oh i got fucking land of the dead by voltaire. isnt that the billy & mandy theme song. or whatever that show is called. anyway i only know that song exists because of my friend Darwin from Tumblr Ask Blog The Reckoning so. you guys heard of the reckoning? it’s good.

u - 3 favorite characters from 3 different fandoms and why they’re your favorites

i wonder if i can come up with all characters who r my favorites for anything other than Kin Reasons. because most of the time, it is Kin Reasons.

sgt frog: dororo. because ever since i was young i have been easily bewitched by sad pathetic loser men.

psychonauts: loboto- ok so like i didnt get the loboto hype at first when i watched the first psychonauts game i was like yeah hes… fine… i guess? hes barely fucking in that though? why do people care? and then iwatched rhombus of ruin and i. i am not immune to the Guy With A Sad Backstory effect. maybe iwould not call him my favorite psychonauts character if i had seen psychonauts more recently and had actually. Seen The Other Characters recently,. but in the period of time ive gone without directly looking at psychonauts at all my emotional response to caligosto loboto has grown exponentially, i am bewitched by his freak tendencies. God damnit i already said bewitched already. Oh well. You know what? Fine,. Let’s make it a running theme. Let’s go for a third

adventure time: BETTY. YOU GUYS KNOW WHY THE FUCK THE GUY WHO PUT SIMON AT THE TOP OF HIS LIST OF NAMES THE SECOND THE F&C TRAILER DROPPED LOVES BETTY GROF. But I would be obsessed with her either way, because ever since I was young i have been easily bewitched by chaotic unhinged in-need-of-professional-help women.

takes a bow. Thank you for coming everybody

[asrisgratitudejournal]

Beyonce

Waaaaaa ini lagi berusaha memulai minggu lagi, karena kemarin Senin bank holiday entah kenapa ada spring bank holiday, jadi di bulan Mei ini sudah ada 3x hari Senin libur btw….

Sabtu w ke mana ya… Oh ga kemana-mana seharian cuma kelas 16 pagi terus masak spaghetti kayanya lalu malemnya jam 8 nonton the little mermaid ke westgate. Ku harus cek sih sisa free movie tinggal berapa atau udah abis ya. Udah habis ternyata sodara-sodara. It’s ok I could just pay with member price for the upcoming Spiderman and Barbie *shrug*.

Si the little mermaid menurut gw bagus-bagus aja tapi apparently for some people it’s THAT BAD??? Tapi then again seperti yang ku-tweet opini-ku sangat biased karena ku growing up udah nonton the animation for more than 10x and I’M OBSESSED with Prince Eric anyway. Jadi makanya pas lihat live-actionnya sangat excited dan senang.

Terus hari Minggu dari pagi sudah amat sangat busy (yah a very common Sunday for Asri lah ya). Pagi kelas, terus beres kelas lagi ngabisin spaghetti sisa masak dinner malemnya dapet chat dari Diny minta ditemenin belanja groceries. Baiklah. Langsung mandi dan cabs ketemuan di Sbux Headington. Ku jam 1-nya janjian ngambil tiker dari Eliana di Exeter. Terus hari Kamis apa ya, diajak Abid untuk makan di Bu Yani di Abingdon jam 1. Jadi dijalani-lah itu semua. Sampai akhirnya baru pulang dari rumah Bu Yani jam 19 apa ya… Sebelum ke rumah, mampir rumah Diny dulu buat nganter nasi dan martabak dan lupis. Terus pulang. Ngapain ya sampe malam, lupa, kayanya tapi nonton youtube reactor2 to skz gitu.

Senin karena libur siangnya masak ayam masih ada menu HelloFresh satu. Malemnya harus ke London nonton Beyonce di Tottenham Hotspur stadium. Gate open jam 17 ceunah. Jadi ku menargetkan jam 17 udah sampai lokasi. Berangkat dari Oxford ngebis jam 15 ternyata jam 16.30pm sudah sampai London??? Which was not bad at all??? Sampe stadium GA NGANTRI AT ALL. Prosesnya sangat amat swift. Gate masuk securitynya ada banyak jadi gaperlu ngantri buat cek tas. Betul-betul jam 18pm ku sudah duduk manis di seat dengan satu botol cola zero seharga £3.75. Terus kan baru mulai jam 19.40pm-an ya si konsernya teh, jadi mayan gabut selama 1,5 jam. Masalahnya ku juga harus menghemat batere hp yang akan dipake buat nge-record dan penting untuk pulang karena tiket bis di situ juga semua. Terus ngeliat orang-orang makan chips jadi ikutan laper akhirnya memutuskan buat jajan chicken burger dan chips seharga £12.50 (WHICH is murah banget??? untuk harga di venue konser).

Jam 19.38(?)-an konsernya mulai. Detailnya liat di insta w aja ya @oktavioni ada di highlight lols. Atau kusaranin nonton sendiri sih soalnya WAH PRODUCTIONNYA 5 STARS OUT OF 5 STARS. Kemarin ku dapet kelas paling murah itu £145 tapi udah lumayan banget. Agak sayang kurang ke kanan dikit karena ga kelihatan stage tengah karena masuk ke dalem gitu dia modelan stagenya, tapi TETAP BAGUS dan senang.

Pulangnya rada PR karena w kurang smart bukannya ke terminal bis ujung di Victoria, w malah decide untuk catch the bus dari stop paling luar London yang bikin pas bisnya lewat udah full dia ga terima penumpang lagi. Tebakan w sih ya orang-orang ini dari konser Beyonce juga kayanya. Tapi Alhamdulillah tetap sudah sampai rumah jam 2am. Which is better daripada ngonser di ICE BSD/ PRJ Kemayoran kalau rumah u di Pasar Minggu btw. Ku pernah kayanya pulang dari WeTheFest sampai rumah setengah 3 pagi atau jam 3 gitu ya. Gara-gara ngantri parkir mobil dan susah banget cari taksi. Sungguh tidak recommended nonton konser di Jakarta tu, kecuali di GBK.

BEYONCE! Sangat bagus HUHU productionnya top class. Mang beda sih ye kalau udah debut 20 tahun. Pertama-tama, ni orang nyanyi SENDIRIAN selama 2.5 jam. Bukan ber-7 atau ber-8 tipikal K-Pop group…. Literally SENDIRIAN. Terus STYLIST-nya sih dah stres bagus banget semua baju dan aksesorisnya dan dancersnya. Lighting juga. Semua gimmick fireworks, pyro2an apalah, semua, sangat well-thought.

Terus ya tentu saja ku yang sudah terinspirasi as a little girl mendengarkan Lose My Breath-nya Beyonce/Destiny’s Child dari album kompilasi Big tahun 2004 dan Hot tahun 2005 (itu berarti ku umur 11-12 tahun aka SD – lupa dulu beli kaset paket duit sendiri atau dibeliin mama papa, tapi ku dulu punya walkman sony terus dengerin kaset ini di walkman ini), sangat senang bisa denger Beyonce live. Kayanya bisa bahasa inggris kebantu sama lagu-lagu doi juga. Dari sini juga ku menemukan cara paling mudah buat belajar bahasa baru buat diriku sendiri: RAP/rap-singing (sekarang contohnya di bahasa korea pun via stray kids). Ku bisa bahasa inggris sekarang salah satunya ya berkat ngapalin lagu-lagunya Beyonce (walaupun sangat 18+ tapi tahu apa saya dulu ya kan), maka dari itu kemarin bisa ngeliat doi nyanyi live senang banget.

Setelah 2000-an itu kayanya kembali stanning doi lagi pas di era album Beyonce tahun 2013. Itu pas lagi tingkat 2 habis osjur keluarnya Desember. Banyak dengerinnya tapi habis putus Februari 2014 LOL – bisa growing strong cepet move-on kebantu lagu-lagu doi juga sepertinya, that happiness doesn’t come from a man, you define your own happiness. Di intro song Pretty Hurts ada bagian “What is your aspiration in life? // Oh, well my aspiration in life would be // To be happy” Satu album ini bagus banget btw, truly no skip album. Kemarin yang muncul di konser dari album ini cuma 5 seconds partition kayanya…… mayan sad.

Terus next era LEMONADE 2016 WAH legendary sih ini. Keluar April 2016. Ini posisi lagi di Paris pas keluar. Di album ini nggak semuanya hitting tapi Sorry sama Formation betul-betul bisa on repeat dengerin seharian… Masih inget banget dengerin Lemonade ini sebelum ku tiba-tiba memasuki era EDM The Chainsmokers yang LP Collage. Sebelum ke Balikpapan.

Di sela-sela dengerin albumnya religiously tentu saja ada masa-masa ku awed over her stage production di both Superbowl 2013 dan 2016….. Queen indeed. Kayanya dari nontonin beliau juga ku mulai menyadari ku punya interest di stage/show dan music production… not only appreciating the performers tapi juga orang-orang di backstage. Yang Alhamdulillahnya interest ini sempat ter-manifestasi di KPA ITB… ya walaupun ga ngedesain stage décor atau ngatur lighting dsb, tapi at least jadi punya experience di technicality macem soundcheck tu ngapain, tau mixer buat apa juga, ngatur mixer gimana, kondensor taroh mana, masuk stage dari mana, MEGANG RUNDOWN dan bikin rundown, make-up dan styling, logistic mindahin angklung dan contrabass segitu banyak, duh pokoknya what an experience sih. Thank you lagi KPA ITB, I love you.

Terus yaudah setelah 2016 kan doi menghilang ya, muncul lagi di album Renaissance ini 2022 kemarin. Jujur sangat skip dan ga ngikutin lagi karena…. sibuk kpop-an…. Tapi ya begitu tahu doi mau konser di London siapa yang tidak excited kan ya. Ku berhasil mendengarkan dan belajar Renaissance in 2 weeks(?). Emang dia ganti style aja ngga ke RnB lagi tapi lebih ke disco(?)—celebration of her being black and supporting LGBTQ+ lah ya.

Iya, tapi senang banget sih. Dari nonton kemarin banyak banget refleksi dirinya. Harus banyak-banyak makasih ke Beyonce sih. Doi pahalanya banyak bener. Mungkin agak jauh nariknya, tapi ku bisa di sini di Oxford pun ya ada pengaruh doinya. Value Girlboss dan percaya bahwa we as woman were born to be queen and can do basically ANYTHING ya kebantu ketanemnya indirectly dari lagu-lagu dia juga. W kayanya kurang role model kaya gini versi Indo apa gimana ya, kita punya diva kaya Titi DJ dan Krisdayanti sih…. Tapi ya mereka kan nyanyinya lagu-lagu cinta ya, jadi di bayangan w ya jadi wanita tugasnya loving aja gitu… Kayanya emang modelan w yang impostor gini harus banyak-banyak dengerin lagu-lagu yang meninggikan self-esteem kaya Beyonce, Lizzo, dan Stray Kids deh. Baguslah. W udah di path yang benar sepertinya.

Ngebahas concert production dan my interest in show business, sebetulnya pengin banget kalau bisa re-birth (renaissance!) tetep jadi pinter, tapi bukan di batuan, melainkan di artistic production dengan artistic mind/hand. Ya sebetulnya dari sekarang pun belum telat sih… Rosulullah aja dapet wahyu/revelation baru di umur 40 tahun… jadi sebetulnya ku mau jadi apapun di lifetime ini masih bisa banget dan belum telat. Cuma ya… di bahasa Indonesia ada yang namanya “sayang”…. As in “yah sayang banget padahal… udah xxx lho masa yyy” replace xxx dengan “skolah tinggi-tinggi sampe s3 di oxford” dan yyy “belajar lagi ngerjain sesuatu baru dari 0”. Btw ku punya pertanyaan deh, konsep “sayang” di Bahasa Indonesia ini padanan bahasa inggrisnya apa ya…. Kayanya gaada gaksih…. Atau “wasteful”…?

Kalau boleh jujur, ku BENCI banget sama istilah “sayang” ini… bikin orang jadi ga mau take risk. Bikin seolah-olah apa yang udah kita lakukan itu jadi ga bermakna kalau ga dilanjutin, padahal ga gitu??? Pasti tetap ada value yang didapet??? Ku paham sih, konsep “sayang” ini datangnya dari kesulitan, mungkin karena kita grow up as people yang ga kaya-kaya banget aka miskin, jadi ya ada konsep “sayang” atau “eman” (bahasa jawa) ini. Bahasa lainnya mubazir kah? Sama gaksih mubazir sama sayang tu…? Jadi ya karena hidup orang dulu susah, kalau udah work hard to get something atau setengah jalan, jadi di-sayang-sayang. Tapi jujur ku udah banyak banget denger kisah orang-orang pengen nyoba abc tapi ya ga dijalani karena sayang udah terlanjur ngerjain d. NGACA NON, ngambil Geologi ITB apa bukan karena udah terlanjur belajar geologi dari kelas 10 SMA, tapi case aku mah beda karena ku emang suka juga geologi (pembelaan aka excuse).

Tapi iya, kayanya kalau ada opportunity sekarang tetap bantu-bantu aja acara PPI atau volunteering kl bs jadi stage manager supaya interestnya tetap tersalurkan. Nothing serious for now. Tapi nanti kalau ada kesempatan tentu saja sangat ingin menjadi art director…. Mari kita finger-crossed hoping the time will come.

OH IYA! Ku juga mau ngebacot juga tentang gimana konser Beyonce kemarin membuka lapangan pekerjaan bisa lebih dari 500 orang kali ya, termasuk steward, security, penjual burger, OB, dsb. Jadi ga kebayang pas covid kemarin orang susah banget hidupnya karena gaada kerjaan. Ku agak upset kemarin salah satu orang yang kufollow ngetweet “GA PAHAM kenapa orang mau bayar banyak uang buat nonton orang ngejalanin hobinya yaitu nyanyi” I’m ??? Yaudah tapi ga kulakukan action apapun sih, lebih kasian aja ni orang kayanya gapernah nonton konser kali ye. Atau get involved in some kinda show production. Dia gatau berapa orang yang harus digaji, itu duit larinya ke mana, gabisa appreciate art juga (lah jadi ngegas si Noni). Anyway, yaudah gitu aja, ku punya saran kepada teman-teman di sini, datanglah nonton konser yang banyak, pameran seni, nonton film ke bioskop, subscribe streaming music, beli subs disney+ atau netflix. We need that money rolling. We need that money getting distributed.

Dah gitu aja panjang ngebacotnya betulan 3 halaman HVS A4 ini draft lol.

Selamat LIBURAN gaksih di INDO??? Pokoknya selamat menjalani hari all!

Office di EarthSci Dept Oxford 31/05/2023 15:17pm OMO hari ini ulang tahun Mita!!! HBD MITA!!!!

[silvermillenniumqueenneptune]

Personal vent [please do not reblog, although I would love some advice in the comments].

About five years ago, I met a neurodivergent man I’ll call Nick (portion of his real name that he uses as a nickname/online persona when he doesn’t want to use his real name) through a mutual friend of ours. He’s a very sweet man, early 30’s, bisexual and allegedly on his second civil union (he’s supposedly been married twice, both times to same sex partners). He also suffers from a condition called Reactive Attachment Disorder. Nick has told me a variety of colorful stories throughout my friendship with him.

Nick claims to work for a major technology company [not naming the company for privacy reasons] and once was able to get me a deal on a laptop from said company at a heavy discount. Ever since getting me the laptop, Nick frequently claims that he has obtained access to my laptop through the Get Help app on Windows. I’ve given him permission to do this once when I needed a quick tech support consult and didn’t have time to sit through a chat with Dell or Windows.

Recently, Nick has claimed to have “given” me several upgrades to my laptop, but now, I’m suspicious because a. I can see no proof that he’s accessing my computer when he claims to be, and b. I’ve found that most of what he’s asking is seemingly random, single keystrokes (usually the x or ; ) and I can see no evidence that he’s changed anything on my laptop.

I know that some of these keystrokes open certain things, such as device manager, but he claims he’s making all these changes to my computer. He also claims to be “an engineer who works on Windows updates for Dell” and often tells me not to install new Windows updates right away because he’s “still finalizing them” [but why would it be available to me from Windows if it was still being finalized? Also, why can’t I see any evidence of the updates being made?] Unfortunately, however, Nick is not my only issue.

I have another friend tied to Nick, Mandy, [portion of real name] who is always role playing with me to entertain Nick as he “works”. I would be fine with this, if it weren’t for the fact that Mandy has a seizure disorder, and her seizures often cause her to lose significant parts of her memory, which means that we end up, role-playing the same things over and over and over again. Mandy claims that she wants to post the role-plays as a story on the archive of our own website, but she refuses to write any of the scenes down, and she goes so quickly through them, often out of order because she wants to see how a particular scene will play out. This makes it impossible for me to write them down either. Even when I get to a point where we could write them down, she keeps flip-flopping on parts of the story and insisting we play them out again to change it.

Mandy has a host of mental and physical conditions, one of them being maladaptive daydreaming. So, we can be in the middle of a conversation about something totally unrelated to the role-play, and she will say “why can I see…” , And begin role-playing without even asking me. I’ve told her repeatedly that this is something that bothers me, and that she needs to ask me before role-playing, but it never seems to stick.  She claims she does this to entertain Nick, who struggles to read in English because it’s not his first language. If we’re not role-playing a fanfiction, she will lapse into wanting to role-play the story of a novel that she is allegedly, been working on since long before she met me. She made me a character in the novel, despite knowing that I hate the novel concept. She’s flip-flopped from claiming that she wants to publish the novel, despite believing that it will “get her killed because people are not ready for the diversity put into it” and wanting to burn it because her obsession with it upsets me.  I try to change the subject when she does this, but it briefly gets her back on track before she slips into it again. She claims that this is because she has a condition called maladaptive daydreaming.

Recently, we have been creating an In the Heights fanfiction together. In an attempt to get over her dislike of Latin men, due to mistreatment by her Latin father, Mandy paired herself with the main character , and changed his heritage to Afro-Latin to make him “more interesting”. This would be fine, if Mandy [who was raised by a white mother and barely has any connection to her Latin roots] was willing to do any kind of research. She claims she has, but a lot of what she’s coming up with does not make sense. I am fairly familiar with Latin culture, as I have a college degree in Spanish. I’ve actually called her out on several inaccuracies. I noticed this is a habit she makes with her fan fictions, which is irritating, because most of her favorites are related to historical fiction [The Tudors, etc]!

As if that wasn’t enough of a problem, Mandy gets so into her characters that she has been posting on Reddit, pretending to be one of her characters from one of our role-plays. People became so incensed by her posts that they believed the story was real, and Mandy gleefully claims her Reddit account was banned from the r/aita forum.

It has now reached a point where neither Mandy nor Nick will allow me to hang up on our Skype calls without protest. I can barely even go to the bathroom without leaving them on a call, which is difficult for me as I have a disability that makes simple, everyday tasks take much longer. (a disability that Mandy also shares, so she should understand).  I’ve tried speaking to both Mandy and Nick about this, and it always gets better for a little while, but then gets worse again. I really don’t want to walk away from the friendship but I would love advice.

Is there any way that I can get through to them? I tried avoiding them, but it always seems that Nick manages to find some way to contact me or make Mandy do it for him.

[sadiegauthierrp]

Meet Sadie

✦ ANNE HATHAWAY, CIS FEMALE, SHE/HER ✦ SADIE GAUTHIER the FOURTY year old has been in Hidehill for TEN YEARS. Whispers on the streets are that the OWNER OF BLOOMING TRAILS who lives in HARTLEY AVENUE  are said to be AMBITIOUS and OBSESSIVE but I guess we’ll find out for ourselves. { MANDY, 36, PST, SHE/HER }

full name: sadie louise gauthier gender and pronouns: cisfemale she/her age and dob: 40, November 12 1982 residence: hartley avenue time living in hidehill: 10 years occupation: owner of blooming trails faceclaim: Anne Hathaway positive attributes: ambitious, independent, protective negative attributes: obsessive, perfectionist, recovering alcoholic

BACKGROUND

The most consistant praise throughout Sadie's childhood was that she was such a well tempered, happy child. It seemed as if anger were an emotion she simply couldn't hold onto for more than a few fleeting moments. She slept through the night the day her parent's brought her home from the hospital, seemed to skip the terrible twos and threes stages that everyone warned about. Even the hormonal preteen and teen stages had been shockingly easy, growing pains and first heartbreaks lead to soft tears and her pouring her heart out to a safe place. But she was never angry. Tired yes, anxious, sad, lonely, annoyed...but never that anger that roiled in your belly, that made your body temperature rise. Her truest true love was botany, she was only five when her mother began letting her take control of the garden, her green thumb having made itself known. She could save a plant moments away from demise, could coax buds out of the most stubborn soil.

In college she met Levi, who seemed to be as unable to hold onto anger as she was. He was the epitome of a golden retreiver boyfriend, in school to become a veterinarian. The kindest, most genuine soul she'd ever known. They'd only been twenty-three when they got engaged, but Sadie had been so sure down to her bones that he was her forever person. Forever shattered three days before Thanksgiving, when the phone rang and ruined every future she'd ever hoped for. An attempted mugging, once of so many in New York City...but this one had ended with a knife slicing through arteries...with Levi's blood staining the sidewalk well before an ambulance could get there.

Sadie finally knew anger. An anger that ate pits into her spirit, that felt like it was rearranging her very bones. She'd always been a one glass of wine with dinner woman, but now she was wine...tequila...vodka slipped into her orange juice at work. Functioning sober hurt too badly and so she just stopped doing it. It took two years for the people around her to start realizing she was in trouble, to start fighting for her in a way she was not willing to fight for herself. At the time she hated them for it, wanted them to let her drink herself into oblivion. But when her mother was diagnosed with breast cancer, she finally went to rehab. It was a deal she made with god. Don't let her mother die and Sadie would be the best damn recovered alcoholic, the picture perfect of a person coming back from the edge. And damned if her mother didn't make it to remission a year later.

A relapse hit Sadie shortly after, and it took another year for her to admit she needed to go back to rehab. At 30 she realized that maintaining sobriety in New York was not a realistic option for her. She couldn't keep healing when she felt like she was living in the empty imprint of the life she was supposed to have with Levi. It didn't make sense...why Nashville of all places called her. Or maybe it did make sense...that the little town of hidehill, chugging along trying to shake off the darkness of it's past history would feel like the right place for her to reclaim a new future for herself. Blooming Trails became her pride and joy as she set up shop in the town, which was truly beginning to put itself on the map again when she was first settling in.

If she'd known that darkness and death was going to turn out to be inescapable maybe she would have just let the liquor have her. But these days she clings to the obsessive need to be the perfect recovered alcoholic no matter how badly the world around her is burning down.

[vhvrs]

if zims coming back we need to talk the important details

[xthrowmeintrafficx]

A few of my fav childhood tv shows w edgy or goth looking characters bc it seems its all i used to watch

Blaise le blasé (Fred’s Head for the englishers)

One of my favourites EVER. It was a hilarious relatable show (for teen me bc child me didn’t always understand wtf was going on). Definitely recommend (if you speak french watch it in french its wayyy better).

Mona the Vampire

Every now and then i have a sudden nostalgia crisis and i watch an episode of Mona or Ruby Gloom (coming up). I keep forgetting this show exists until i need it LMAO but its really good and i remember reading the books too.

Ruby Gloom

My favourite cartoon show EVER since like forever. I cant remember much of my childhood but i remember watching Ruby Gloom regularly mostly alone, sometimes with my older sister. Misery is my favourite i love her so much, shes such a mess and i relate with her on a spiritual level.

Edgar & Ellen

Okay, this show i didn’t remember until i saw a picture of it while looking up other shows and OMG IT WAS AMAZING HOW COULD I HAVE FORGOTTEN ABOUT IT

The Grim Adventures of Billy & Mandy

Billy and Mandy, a classic, what else is there to say other than *chefs kiss*

Scooby Doo and the Ghoul School

My favourite Scooby Doo movie, i watched it a million times. I use to do the “i’m her!!!!” thing with my sisters and i was the tall skinny legend ghost chick and i STILL want to be her

Code Lyoko

Okay if you were a french or french canadian kid you FOR SURE know about this show. I started rewatching it recently and that shit is EPIC?!?! I truly never appreciated it enough but i can tell you the theme song was, is and always will be a BOP. Im not sure if it counts as an edgy looking show in general but my favourite character was Odd so i guess that counts for something (it also explains my neko love)

Emily the Strange (book series)

I genuinely didnt know that so many people liked these books until like a week ago. When i was reading these books i didnt know anybody that even knew of them so i was my own fandom LMAO. I was OBSESSED with these books, i wanted to live like Emily (sleep the day, adventures at night) and i learned how to draw her and her cats

Ghostgirl (book series)

I read those when i was in my first year of secondary school and i l o v e d it. But ever since then i have an actual fear of choking on small stuff (the main character died chocking on a gummy bear) and its probably the reason why i cant swallow pills, now that i think about it. Theyre amazing books but its probably for like 12-14 years olds so dont expect a horror book

Honourable mention: The Hex Girls

I just could not n o t talk about the hex girls, even if they dont have their “own” show theyre still SO UUGHHH. Ive seen every movie/show where they made an appearance (no matter how small) and i know all of their songs and i just love them so much like omg please someone let me be an eco goth wicca vampire-wannabe rock band member with them!!!

Okay that’s all folks! I recommend watching/reading some of these if you’re interested because theyre really amazing and shaped me into the human i am today! (Not saying im a good human but i sure am interesting! XD)

Love yall, stay safe and enjoy!🖤

[angeltrapz]

i was just wondering do u have any saw fic recommendations?? (besides ur own, which are all great btw)

sjhfaskj thank u fr the comment on my fics <33 as for recommendations!! I do have quite a few I like!

the street cats (making love) series by doztoevsky literally knocked me out the first time I read thru it. It's SO well-written and they have both Hoffman + Strahm's characters down amazingly!! This series is actually what got me to like... understand where ppl are coming from when talking abt hoffstrahm tbh!! (related is also their series bad company which is also phenomenal... obsessed w how well they write Adam!!) - Ships included in this series: Hoffstrahm and Chainshipping! (though the latter only rlly appears in lost in the supermarket)

Strip the Paint by fiddlestick is actually one of the first fics tht came to mind when I saw this ask! Everyone is SO well-written and the dynamic btwn Amanda and Adam and Lawrence? I am Obsessed. It's literally been living rent-free in my head since I read it for the first time and I cannot recommend it enough!! I ADORE the way the three of them interact with each other (ESP Mandy and Adam) and with others SO much. (related is Friend of My Friend, which explores the dynamic btwn Lawrence and Mandy within the universe of Strip the Paint!!) - Ships included in this fic: Chainshipping, eventually!

all the little pieces that make up a life series by allegedly_writing! Not only is it an amazing exploration of what life after the bathroom trap is like for Adam and Lawrence, it's also phenomenal t4t rep that I don't see nearly enough of!!! It's also a lot of domesticity, which I am Also weak for. This series means so much to me and the care + tact with which it's written is beautiful and definitely deserves the love it gets <3 They've also got some good character pieces, esp the steady sting of realization (Daniel Matthews), the shadow of my life was hanging over me (Jill), + and death rode on a pale horse (Amanda)! - Ships included in the first series mentioned: Chainshipping!

There are A Lot of my bestie's fics that I could include here, but one that really struck me was Stop Bath (fakebodies)! It's so so sweet and I go back to reread it pretty often tbh. I'm very weak for fics where Adam like... realizes he's loved, yk? bc he deserves that. And this fic delivers!! + I am incredibly fond of the idea that Lawrence takes pictures of Adam occasionally as well + Adam getting emotional over that bc he's so used to being the one Behind the camera, and the fact that someone wants to immortalize him as he is in some manner,, pure fluff and well worth the read <3 - Ships included in this fic: Chainshipping!

rematch by unstuckintime is genuinely one of the most unique and interesting SAW fics I've read omg. I honestly quite like time loop-centric stories, and this one is absolutely incredible!! I know I've said this a lot so far but the way they write Adam is so so on point and very Him if that makes sense - both in his actions, his voice, and his introspection over the course of the fic. It's a very interesting concept that was executed brilliantly!! - Ships included in this fic: Chainshipping (not centric but definitely implied at the least)!

i could not stop for death by flwergardens is absolutely AMAZING like the prose in this fic... breathtaking. I honestly had never even thought abt the concept of vampire Adam (or vampires being introduced into the SAW universe in general) until I read this and the way that it's written is absolutely incredible!!! The way sensations and scenery and general atmosphere is described is genuinely SO appealing and really reiterates the vividness of what's occurring! (there IS some mention of gore, but it's not too graphic; it's tagged properly but proceed w caution.) - Ships included in this fic: Chainshipping, at least implied!

I don't see enough Lynnmanda but I Can recommend into my arms by lynndenlon! As ppl can probably tell from the content of my writing, I'm very fond of like... hurt/comfort fics, esp in regards to nightmares, but also the exploration of trauma that we otherwise don't see reflected Super often in the franchise itself (which might be bc I Also have PTSD, but. u know.), and this fic handles it very well,, they Do deserve to be soft sometimes. I also think it's a very skilled use of first person POV (Lynn's POV)!! (I care them so much omg,, I'm also like. not typically fond of first person but it Works here!) - Ships included in this fic: Lynnmanda!

For similar reasons as that Lynnmanda fic, there are no winners (there are only survivors) by mewhiphand is an absolutely Amazing exploration into Amanda's life directly after her game & how she's coping with it. It's very tactfully written and it's one of those fics you can just Feel with the way things are being described, if that makes sense! It's a very well-written Amanda-centric fic and handles her emotions so well!! - Ships included in this fic: N/A!

okay I also have to include the sleeping with the television on series by jayjesus bc. It is fucking HILARIOUS. THIS is the Hoffstrahm dynamic (very, VERY dysfunctional, as I see it being btwn those two) I adore reading, and not only is the dynamic fun to read about, their usage of prose is also awesome too. Hoffman and Strahm are SO bitchy to each other in this series jkdsfaks I love it!! - Ships included in this fic: Hoffstrahm!

I'm sure there are. many more but these ones are some of my faves!!!! ty for asking <333

[klayde]

hi. you/your blog/sims/stories/edits/etc are all amazing. ig i couldve just said everything abt your asthetic is amazing, lol. but enough kissing butt. so look. I'm wondering h o w did you START being so good at it all? Ik thats a vague question but umm idunno how else to word it, lol. Like, your sht was great even at the old blog(what i mean is that it's just older & i'm *assuming* when you 1st started rendering, not that you necessarily were bad at it all at that time.) So like. (1/2)

hey anon! basically how i understand you is “how do you do this simblr thing from your experience?” and get ready for an even wordier answer under the cut bec words :>

ngl i think this isn’t for me bec i no longer render and recolor cc, and i dont consider myself to have an actual story jshdkds BUT it’s here and i love to talk!

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How did you start?

I joined simblr during the sims 3 era around 2012, the obsession started there. But I didn’t really create stuff until I had a decent laptop for sims 4. I’m just really the type to admire others work and think of things I like from them and if I can do them too! I learned photoshop because of simblr btw, I sometimes think that's silly but it’s actually pretty awesome, thanks simblr!

Where did you learn the basics?

Youtube! From both simmers and people focused on photo editing like PiXimperfect. There’s smubuh, softpine and literalite with tutorials here on tumblr. I don’t remember all I’ve learned from but if you’ve ever posted a tutorial here on simblr, I most likely read it. 

How did you find inspiration, and from who?

From everything I encounter, literally. I see something nice and the first thing I think of is “How do i use that as inspiration for sims?”. There’s also Pinterest!

I will namedrop those I remember at the top of my poor memory: intramoon (from when she was still nicotinc) and kyimu/quirkykyimu are the oldest I can think of.

Nowadays, my general inspirations are isa warmsol and gabs astystole. Just everything they do :> Editing: literalite, klodas, symphea, plunni  Stories: stinkrascal, softpine, itsmariejanel, rollingsim, moonsonnet, marigolde, robertpancakes, mellindi, thedevilliers Builds: sunlitbay, pixelddump Sims: meksims, sunlitbay, lotusplum, wooldawn, lamatisse, bibidsims, servegrilledcheese, softerhaze, bunmou, moneycheats, glazelilys, castawavy, freakishnature, tittytrait, talentedtrait, mandy-sims, browntrait Gameplay/Legacy: servegrilledcheese, peonyfalls, faerology, rebouks (this reminds me i need to follow more gameplay blogs!) Renders: kingfakey, hanraja, falkii, berrysweetboutique, arcanewonder

The story thing?

I’m a daydreamer. Ideas bounce around my head all day. I can’t organize them well enough to write a story though. So I only post bits and pieces of info about my sims plus some ocs stuff like with savanna and ingrid. It’s also why I enjoy submitting sims for BCs since I get to make a short background about my sims!

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That was a lot of rambling from me :> the “interesting being” part was so funny bec it sounds like something i’d say about someone else plsss. I hope you’re doing well anon this was v fun!!