#of starlight and madness

[vintagerivendel]

OF STARLIGHT AND MADNESS

Adar X oc (Silril )

Sindarin translation Silril: to shine white

warnings for this chapter: brief mentions of loss of life/ fallen people

sindarin translations in this chapter:

Melda: Beloved/ dear

Meleth-nin: My beloved

Word count: 1,500.

Chapter two has 4,000. This just is a start to get the ball rolling. Some backstory things that need to be laid out. because there is no where near enough Adar fics. My normal chapters will be much longer than this. ❤️

Feedback much appreciated so I know you guys want more 💕😅

synopsis: What happens when Adar is separated from the one he loved most in the world. When he thought she had been lost in battle many years ago. Long before he became the man he is today. How will he come to cope with the fact that she doesn’t entirely remember him? That she has all these memories of a man she once and still loves. Yet can not for the life of her put a name to him. He needs her just as much as she needs him. They’ve both changed since last they saw each other and yet? Is their love still as strong?

without further a due please enjoy the first chapter below the cut.

Adar, a man changed from the elf he once was, into something so much more. A change he wasn't entirely understanding of when it had initially happened. Elf t Uruk, there was one person who loved him no matter what he was. The man himself wasn't always cast into darkness.

 One might say. A part of his heart died the day a city fell, a city his own wife had been in when it went down. That day he was led to believe that his Meleda * had fallen. A body he had never found and yet for some reason he wished he had. His light, the one he never had the chance to show his children to. Their children, Adar wanted them to be their children and it pained him every day to know that it would never happen. The pair themselves always wanted children, tried forr them many times and yet? They always seemed to wind up with nothing. In the end for them it didnt matter. As long as he had her he had been happy.

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The downfall of a city meant the loss of many lives, lost many to the faded memories of what that place used to be. Silril had been lost to time itself for a while, having sustained injuries that would kill a normal human and yet have no effect on a full blooded elven warrior or commoner. However she was neither. 

Having been born as one of the very first half elven half human the answers for her fate would for the most part be a mystery. A mystery to everyone, including herself. Though Silril was not lost entirely, some of her memories were. The injuries she sustained took time for her to heal. Injuries that left her memory in near shambles, leaving her to try and put the pieces back together as best she could.

 These memories haunted her day in and day out as there were many she couldn't always understand. As much as she desperately strived to, there were some that Silril could never finalize. Then there were others that were so vividly clear she could make out completely. A face of the one she loved most in all of middle earth., yet no name seemed to come along with it. No matter how hard she tried to dig for it. A face she so desperately wanted to get back to, no matter where he was or what that meant.

 Silril soon became a nomad. Doomed to roam the land alone in search of something she wasn't entirely guaranteed to find again. For all she  knew this face, the face that haunted her dreams could already be long gone. However the memories of him, of the two of them kept her going.Visiting lands, places and people she never even dreamed of doing her entire life up until now. Not quite knowing what to search for and still she went. It wasn't normal for an elf let alone a half elf to travel alone. Normally it was at the very least in pairs and yet? For Silril she traveled alone. Alone was the only thing she could do, seeing as how not many believed that what she was in search of was still alive, still standing. 

The doubt that others tried to cloud her mind with did at times leave her wondering, questioning, if he would even still want her after apparently all this time. However, time passed differently for elves and half elves. Something most humans wouldn’t even begin to understand. What seemed like years on end for a human, passed by much quicker for an elf as they were bound to middle earth far longer than most humans could ever dream of. Still because of their doubt it left her wondering, curious to know that after all this time, after the years of travel that had changed her. He still missed her as much as she missed him.

 It was life time after life time until now, unbeknownst to her, her luck would soon change. Everything she searched for and had been searching for was within arms reach and she just had to keep going. Moving in the direction she was already on now. Perhaps things happened for a reason. Perhaps some force kept them apart until now, until the moment they both absolutely needed one another. Until the both of them could no longer stand it.

 In her travels Silril soon found herself at the mercy of many orcs. Orc that for some reason, insisted upon her capture rather than her death even after she had tried to fight them off. A scratch here and there, but nothing detrimental to her health. The most harm that came to her was a small cut across her cheek. Killing one or two of them as she initially thought that, that was what they were trying to do with her.

Instead the only thing she could make out while they talked amongst themselves, was the fact that they kept insisting. No, demanding that she be taken to their Lord- father as they called him. Silril herself wasn't exactly paying all that much attention to any of them. Merily she was trying or rather attempting and failing to get out of the bonds they had put her in, in order to move her. That didnt stop her from squirming and arguing with them to let her go.

 It wasn't until after one had decided to shove her roughly to the ground that she stopped bothering. If they set her down in one place then she most definitely had no chance of fighting back and escaping alive. The best course of action was for her to wait this out, see what this all was all leading up to. Out of the corner of her eye she saw one scamper off and out of whatever makeshift tent they had stuck her in. Presumably to retrieve their master after informing him of whatever little story they could come up with considering it was them who had come across her path. Not the other way around, she had been brought here against her will.

 It wasn't long before a tall figure entered the makeshift tent that held what appeared to be a small throne they had set up. A throne room maybe? All of this was based on assumptions considering she didnt get a good look at the camp itself. The tent itself had no bedrolls so she didnt believe anyone would be sleeping there overnight.

 The figure of a man had entered quietly, assessing the situation at hand before him as he made his way towards the only seat in the room. Merily to get a better look at the person or rather woman his children had brought into their camp for him to make the final decision. Someone who he assumed had no clue of the lands she had just crossed into. Especially given the fact that she had crossed into them alone. A rather unusual thing to do if he was completely honest. 

Adar’s eyes widened in shock the second her face had come into view. A face he had not seen in quite some time, had now fallen before him once more. The face of a women he had thought was taken from him so cruelly long ago. Half elves could live long lives, could live just as long as any other elf. But Silril, he had always worried about her, to him she was as fragile as the fallen snow. She was his and he had vowed to always protect her. Now he felt as though he had failed her after all these years apart. It had him wondering what would have happened to her had he just looked for her a little while longer than he had the first time. 

“ Leave us. “ Adar was quick to dismiss every one of them. Not something he normally did but in this instance he had to. Having  to speak to her alone first was the only logical thing he could come up with in the moment. What he was going to say to her first  however, was a complete mystery to him. Especially now as she just sat there staring at him. As if Silril was having a hard time pinpointing who he was to her memories.

Adar had to say something, anything as he couldn’t just stand there staring her down for all of eternity. As much as he wanted to stand there and commit her to his memories all over again he knew he had to speak up. Let her know she was safe, secure under his protection now that he had her back within his grasp again. 

“ Meleth-nin… “

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[doingartiguess]

Queer crime is the best crime ✨ you all loved the last Nimona piece so much I decided to expand on it and include all our fav queer criminals.

New print I designed for this week’s conventions! All the prints are 11x17, signed, and on a museum quality paper because I don’t believe in that cheap shit.

You can get it this weekend at Flame Con (if you’re around) or on sale this week here at the shop link:

[just-a-wandering-poet]

Stupid thought I just had (has probably been done before):

Rusty: Call me Rusty if you Dare!

Greaseball: …isn’t that your name???

[heartorbit]

revstar emu save me

[upathos]

[thetoonstation]

Alone…

During a battle with the autobots and the decepticons for the matrix, starlight get caught in between it and ends up getting lost from the autobots with the matrix’s of leadership. Now she’s alone and uses the matrix to comfort herself as she wonders on the surface of cybertron.

[march-gay-shipping-madness]

ROUND 1:

[condense-fanpage]

CHAT I NEED TO KNOW IF NICHOLE IS JUST REFERING TO SLICK WIDE SMILE OR IF THE CAST CHANGE MEANS A NEW SONG (it definitely won’t) also i was honoured by when she said slick would be Australia 🇦🇺 🇦🇺🇦🇺

[tulliok]

Why is Starlight the witch of Wine? :0

For the AU we wanted our magic users to have unique skills and titles, and for Starlight I decided on wine for a few reasons.

One reason is that I adapted the Cutie Map episode as a gangster story where Starlight (Stella in our AU) is a crime lord that operates a speakeasy under the guise of a hospitable innkeeper. The AU takes place in the Prohibition Era, so it felt appropriate to associate Stella's character with alcohol/wine after coming up with the story concept.

The other is I wanted Stella's magic to be influenced by negative and intense emotions (much like her show counterpart), and I figured the wine theme adds a visual and specificity. In addition to her magic being powered by emotion, she also has the unique ability to hex food and drinks. We might elaborate more on this when Bix and I have something more solid to put out regarding the AU's magic system.

I want to keep her alcoholism and problematic qualities even after her redemption arc, it makes her really fun to write in my head.

[catenary-chad]

wacky alternate direction for Joule- make her a heated boxcar to complement Volta being a refrigerated one. They’re not as common irl but there was a famous Lionel toy based on them, and the irl basis was just as bright!

They carried potatoes, using onboard stoves to keep them from freezing in New England. Potato hauler sounds hilarious but hear me out: potato batteries are a thing. It even pairs with how citrus products are among the most famous refrigerated car products and also can be used as improvised batteries!

Not entirely sure how much they were electric-hauled irl, but they weren’t far from the northeastern electrified lines so they likely were to some degree.

(as a tragicomic bonus, these cars were lost in a yard somewhere by Penn Central and bankrupted a ton of people when most of the Maine potato crop was ruined, which fits with the popular fanon that Joule has ADHD. Losing things has a notable history with them…)

I’m partial to making the Components based on fast freight, especially if it has ties to the electric lines of the northeast US. It’s a job up there with “subway” that’s almost exclusively the domain of electric trains since the power needed to move heavier trains quickly is very hard to achieve if you’re hauling your own fuel/engine around (see how the CC 40100s were 5-6k horsepower vs “2700” and that’s low vs newer electric engines)

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STORY ANNOUNCEMENT

Of starlight and madness

An Adar fan fic!!!

What happens when Adar is separated from the one he loved most in the world. When he thought she had been lost in battle many years ago. Long before he became the man he is today. How will he come to cope with the fact that she doesn’t entirely remember him? That she has all these memories of a man she once and still loves. Yet can not for the life of her put a name to him. He needs her just as much as she needs him. They’ve both changed since last they saw each other and yet? Is their love still as strong?

First post will be this week

[mango-dot-yum]

I might be done chat💔 I just saw a photo of a train and immediately started talking about Starlight Express

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

Starlight /mine

Ah original yellow dress, harbinger of pain on the b stage! Her happy dancey guitar was always a cover for her ripping out our hearts out on the piano lmao.

I'd completely forgotten about this one until I pressed play and I was like OH YES THE TEN KIDS MASHUP!

As always, Girl and Her Guitar Doing A Bit At A Coffee House is my favourite 🫶

I love how she weaves the two stories together! The moment, I can see it now. The careless man's careful daughter meets the man who wants dream impossible things and he ends up being the best thing that's ever been hers!

It's so cool how the two songs blend together tell one fleshed out story! In Mine, she tells the narrator's story of meeting this person and why she's so hesitant to dream big even as they're building their life together, and in Starlight, the subject's unrelenting optimism and belief in her and them is in fact the reason the reason she falls in love!

The transition between Mine and "He said, 'Look at you, worrying so much about things you can't change / You'll spend your whole life singing the blues if you keep thinking that way'" is BRILLIANT because she's just spent the first part of the mashup telling us why she's a flight risk with a fear of falling, and then in comes her beloved telling her, "hey, you don't need to worry so much."

ALSO, I just noticed the link between "Do you remember, we were sitting there by the water? You put your arm around me for the first time," and "He was trying to skip rocks on the ocean saying to me, 'Don't you see the starlight?'" Even though they're two completely different songs from different albums and different inspirations, they end up being perfect together!

And I think the sweetest (and most telling 👀) transition is:

Braced myself for the goodbye 'Cause that's all I've ever known Then you took me by surprise You said, "I'll never leave you alone" ... Ooh, ooh he's talking crazy Ooh, ooh dancing with me Ooh, ooh we could get married Have ten kids and teach 'em how to dream

Because again: it's the same story in both songs, but together they paint such a touching picture! Both songs are about finding your person and building your life together despite obstacles, and about the anxious girl with baggage and the hopelessly romantic dreamer boy who makes her believe anything is possible and makes it happen.

And the sweetest part? Ending it with: Yes, I can see it now. 🥰

[meshumo]

its been....... five? six? years since i was super duper crazy into funny train musical. i knew it would come back eventually.....

have some doodles

[jibunbosh]

(watching mad max fury road for the first time) woah... the director must have been a huge revue starlight gekijouban fan. awesome

[rabnerd28]

The girlboss feminism of post 2018 StEx really makes it obvious that whoever is working on this show is always 5-10 years behind on actual feminist talking point