#ok gonma stop thinking now

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Specially coz they make it seem like the options wasn't chosen by them literally planted by them so wtf are we the public even choosing ? So silly

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Well it's ok music screwed it so it kind of had to heal it also... idk why i was crazy enough to think wrestling would solve this. Anyways turning th entire roster a bit of me works as much for understandment of my identity as robalia and madonna did... the ddumbsters still have to be displaying fascist overtones within their politics... it be like communism of an identity facepalm instead of being themselves and finding one person to be the romany noooo they had to share a dna between themselves because that makes sense and it ain't just confunsing people and taking into account native americans are being used to replace us that really really helped ... gotta be from the rocks mind or cm punk wtv they are all the same... fascists never know they are fascist anyways they believe they have the right mindset right? So explain it to me how in the hell are you gonna prove we are all on the same level if you need to turn eveyboy into me? Crickets

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Stupid hippies

This people arae just those sort of hippies i thought it was over long time ago... pseudo narure shit and then it's just self centerism... they go to one natural resource and thing it is the shit! Babes brasil has more natural resources than away and you bet those corals you are putting don contribute shit compared to amazonia... so how stupid are you? It be pure hippie shit but make patriotical and not in a good way.. it's like "we havee nature tooOOOOooOooo pls care more about it or i'll make youuUuuU" bunch of children!

Anyways the wrestling is even worst coz it legit would take them one minute to do a charlie chaplin montage and add the detail of it being romany.. since he was the 1 ever stunt worker and wwe is all about that they would only win!!! But no... didn't even need to make a romany star... but the thang is they have INFERIORITY COMPLEX! They ve destroyed their own natives and once again whos to blame? The gypsies and the attention they get of course... so they have to make stars that are clearly associated with natives and expect me to work with that againts fascism... of course i still think it's purpose in fact. Disgraceful un important people not for who they are but because of how they behave and disney is ashamed of your behaviour obviously because have you seen him not distinguish pocahontas from esmeralda you wackos?

Do you want me to do a movie about jewish pocahontas killing arabic babies? Coz it's on my plans... revenged will come

Want disrespect? Lez go jewish trash

And what i'm gonma do is now reality so think bout it coz most of you legit be native killing palestinians, people from suddan and congo it ain't like that LIE that gypsies aree jewish andd behaving like us

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Hmm so lez see what native american serious catastrophe or massacre/genocide can i change the reality of or invert roles... hmmm...

Know the difference... joker wasn't technically killer but a robber ;)

Original G's most be like fuck.. wtf did they do to the meaning of eveyryhing around wrestling? You put those payos and jews thinking they can think and understand other peoples struggles and then it's this... complete disrespect! Just wait and see what i will do to your indigenous nexxt.. actually let me just grab negative history about them coz i bet there is... like the way they used to kill people just for being white... lez do a movie or a story bout that perspective

Oh what you the storyline ??? The thing is jews are you fam and i need to deal with them because of it even tho that is completely disrespectful... but you made peace with them for us WHILE THEY STILL BE KILLING US soooo whitties are my family also, they are includedd into romany culture so now i'm going to give native characteristics to an indo european and make them the victims that they also was because some of them only immigratedd there right? That didn't stopped natives from killing them so lez make a story about that with white people dressed as natives getting killed by natives dressed as white people... y'all GONNA LOVE IT

They'll only understand it when it starts hurting

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Oh your jews can"/ even be heel? Ok babes... my white people can't as well coz they be my fam you know so wait for the amount of media i'm going to create with native americans as the baddies and indo europeans as gwed people... wut??? You gotta see inddivirduality babes! And we are fam!!

So my movie will be like this jews kill muslims than natives get like wowwwww we primates and smell blood so they go there and also kill them and indo europeans be like "no wtf??" And save us

oops i'm actually not lying this legit happened i can't even do dis hold on let me think..

So indo erupeans are like in europe and then native americans come to destroy this continent after awhile jews got disgusted by the unhuman ways they was killimg white people so they came and helped us be free from nasty native americans.... yups this is better... more innacurtae than ever before, more offenssive than it could ever be... luvs it.

Oh then i'm going to use my native american identity to include white people irl.... so they can all dress like them in fact i will be doing a clothing line wity yoour iutfits and say it is romany

Like wuuuuut my G? That shit is romany not native american "what the fuck are you talking about 💀???"

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See i even have similar outfitsthat can prove it

Then i'll start a music industry of native american music but say it is chinese... it will get really big then i'll include white people as our version of your jewish family and say they invented it of course... everything native american was invented by europeans, while the wrestling your nazi friends destroyed in europe rises also i'll also put muslims dressed as jews and saying eveything jewish is actually muslim so the kippahs and those already stolen outfits will get re stolen again and the arabic people will all be jew just in theory because their bible or wtv the name is will be the quran anyways of course... then we will have indians replace native americans and aftter all all their culture is hindu... like the ideas babes? I think it's secsy and we are all the same right? So...

Don be sad!! At least my movies and media is going to be watchable not like the cinematic trash you pull out nowadays

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Imagine being online for one year to try to get rid of fascists and they only pocket shit like even the judgement day was my idea

HOLD ON!! they've just denied sasha big money that they are giving to punk and roman? 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 no shade to roman every shade to punk but sasha is bigger money... se how they put this facada they are super feminist and than still create this sort of differences just coz of racism and mysogenisisticssss ... PUNK IS BRINGING MORE MONEY TI THEE COMPANY? really? Ahahah

When you also be a monke, and a white monke be like

Thanks for proving wwe wouldn't exist without gypsies... without me

You've created an enemy forever... now for each post one of your bland "superstars" specially the jews will get a comment

Back to having to read this. The world and celebs are reading this... you see what this makes? Now i'm getying called crazy again and making shit up right "heros" monke face seth rollins is fucked!!!!

Insane people joking around serious stuff being racist af!! And then using my ideas for monke faced jews andd anoretic women... while i be literally with no money for months just living out of what my mother can help me with. Insane!!!

Actually this just gave me an idea... what about if i go be a wrestler someone else and usee this robery as storylines? Pretty embarrasing

[grand-line-shenanigans]

My thoughts about Luffy and Emotions

(because I am having Sad Hyperfixation Hours in this house tonight, and I am going to make it everyone else's problem)

So like. So like. Something that I've noticed, since I've caught up with One Piece but especially since Luffy's backstory was reveled post-maroneford, is how little Luffy actually deals with his emotions.

I mean. His entire life pretty much revolves around two things: becoming the Pirate King, and protecting the people he loves. He's shown many, many times that he would sacrifice nearly anything to do those things. And it might not be entirely intentional on Oda's part? But it's really fucking frightening. This sort of applies to becoming the Pirate King as well, but for me, it's way more apparent in his determination to protect his crew and family.

So starting with his backstory since that's when I really noticed it for the first time (not counting my suspicion of a Tragic Backstory™ hinted at in Enie's Lobby). Clearly he's got some real trauma. Like, a lot of trauma. It tends to be downplayed I think, or like, made to seem less Awful compared to a lot of the other characters in One Piece? But when I really started to think about it, it was actually heartbreaking.

Luffy's List of Trauma (non-extensive):

Kicked Around Like A Basketball by Bandits

His idol getting fucking amputated by a sea monster right in front of him (in an incident that Luffy was partially guilty for)

"Yo random mountain bandits, take my grandson, I'm too busy to take care of him" - Shitty Gramps

Ace trying to fucking murder Luffy several hundred times in the first 3 months of their acquaintance

Bandits are Bad Parents

Ace trying to fucking murder Luffy (but this time with Sabo)

Kicked Around Like A Basketball By Bandits (but this time with knives)

Grey Terminal. Just- Grey Terminal

"You're gonna be a MARINE and if you WON'T be a Marine, then I'll KICK YOUR ASS UNTIL YOU DO BECOME A MARINE!" - Shitty Gramps

Fire at Grey Terminal

Sabo gets kidnapped

Sabo fucking dies

Probably way more that I can't remember off the top of my head

So he's got ALL THIS TRAUMA, and on top of that is this: he's lonely. He hates being lonely. He can't stand to be lonely, he would rather die than be lonely, he will imprint on anyone in his vicinity even if they're trying to murder him, and once he gets attached to someone, he will protect them until his last breath.

So what it all boils down to is a terrifying lack of self-preservation. A lack of any value, really, in himself. He just doesn't care about his own safety. Literally he does not give a shit. He'd fight god and everyone else in the universe to save one of his friends, and if he dies in the process then, well, his friend's alive and that's all that matters, right?

Anyways. How this all connects to emotions and shit is this. Really, apart from his dream to become the Pirate King, his whole personality, his whole identity revolves around his people. His crew and his brothers. And sure, he seems like he's got it all together, most of the time- he's a bouncy cheerful idiot with way too much energy- but looking deeper into his personality, after reading all 1024 chapters of One Piece, it just seems...almost fake, to me, sometimes.

Of course, not all the time- at his core he really is cheerful, energetic, you know, all the things he acts like. But he's also traumatized. And he never shows it, like, ever, except for in a few specific situations where he has literally lost everyone he cares about, right in front of his eyes, and been helpless to stop it. By which I mean, Marineford and Sabaody.

Except really? He does show it more often than that. Really, anytime someone's trying to take his friends from him. He just shows it in a different way. He gets angry, really fucking angry. It's like a switch is flipped, and suddenly he's this almost completely different person. And it is terrifying. Especially more so when I think about it now? Because really, the whole thing adds up to what seems like this: he ignores his problems. He ignores his trauma. It simply does not exist, he does not remember or think about it, it is completely wiped from his memory. Until something triggers it; until he is forced to face the risk of losing someone he loves, again, and not being strong enough to stop it, again, and something in him just. Snaps.

Of course he acts like this with other things too, like when Mouji wrecked Chouchou's pet food shop and when Don Krieg tried to take over the Baratie and really the list goes on; but it's always felt different when it was one of Luffy's friends directly being harmed. And if you think about the other incidents, too; Luffy is also heavily influenced by dreams, and by personal treasures. And really, it all loops back to his trauma as well; Luffy knows how it feels to lose someone or something you dearly love. He knows exactly how painful the feeling of helplessness is when you aren't strong enough to protect it. And something in that, in watching other people try and fail to protect what they love, I can see how it would hurt him too. How it would dredge up his own trauma, which he purposely and/or subconsciously ignores, and how he would want to stop other people from going through the same thing when he had the power to step in.

Anyways it's, like, midnight right now and I wrote this in a half-asleep daze, so I probably forgot things or got a bunch wrong. I really like talking so this was more a brain dump than a thought-out discussion point. But I LOVE TO TALK so I would be so so so happy to talk with someone other than the void, if you think you're annoying then you're wrong, human interaction makes me happy all the time. Ok I'm going to bed now goodnight

[celestialallstars]

Episode #13: “baaa louder.” - Zach

So after that tribal I feem good and bad. On one end, I think it was the best case for me to use it for vote reveal and it showed Bryce/Zach up, Rhys is out and yeah. On the other, I regret voting Rhys out now because it will give Michael and Chloe an excuse to force rocks in F8 unless some serious minigames are done. SO I am going to ask Michael/Chloe to F3 maybe? Not sure yet but I think now if I ever do reach the end, I am gonma probably use this vote as a reason to win since I feel if I didnt make the decision to say anything, I would have possibly left. AND everyone got exposed? Miss me on that revote

girl im going home

so tribal happened and like. period. it was really sad + like i love rhys and seeing him go was upsetting, but like.. it's the game. no hard feelings! but i'm so frustrated with so many people. it's less of the game but more of how they acted, and thats why bryce and i snapped and leaked literally every little thing we know. like my issues were like... chris' main point was vilifying bryce & i for targeting him, but like, that happened AFTER loris slept. and??? they had a plan since i lost immunity to split on bryce/rhys. like yeah be mad at me for the shadiness of the mitch vote per se (albeit it not being super shady imo), but like... call that out initially. don't act like im in the wrong for the vote TONIGHT when the alliance was always so cliquey. then chloe got... idk. arrogant? like i snapped at her (wrongly so) but my annoyance with her is not deep, its just that she is like 'oh yalls voted me' but its like... ok. we thought you leaked. and even if you didnt (which she didnt), they legittttt WERE VOTING BRYCE ANYWAY LIKE . IT DOESNT MATTER. STOP VICTIMIZING YOURSELF. YOU WERE SHADY YOURSELF. but i cant be too mad because they didnt know about the 8 person alliance (supposedly) and i suppose with the info they DID have, they made a good decision. though still dumb i hate it but its my fault too who cares im perfect. jared is just so slimey. and stephen like??? saying 'i said to u dont fk me and you immediately snitch to bryce' BUT YOU HAD A PLAN TO BLINDSIDE ME AND MY ALLIES LIKEEEE STOP JUST SAY YOURE SNAKEY. LIKE IM OPENLY SNAKEY. ILL SAY IT. BUT DONT VILIFY ME???? HELLO?? like its the pot calling the kettle black.

i'm overdramatic just because im IN the mood to go off. or, was. i snapped (wrongly so) tonight. i want anyone who reads this to know its not personal and i love all of u dearly but . im frustrated and i want a good edgic rating LOL

loris frustrates me because he legit is a goat. he can deny that all he wants but there is a literal 0% chance i vote him at this rate to win. i dont know why. he just.. isnt playing for himself. whats NEW. jk... love u. IM JUST frustrated.

on good news, i got a super idol. period. aint telling anyone. like i love bryce but i dont want him to expect me to use it on him because . it wont be good for my game. im playing for myself and myself only. like... period. tho i hope him and i can manage to survive a bit but i dont think thats likely.

im not reviewing this i just am writing whats in my feelings so its more authentic LOL

anyway this game was super fun. despite being stressful and straining, the call was super enjoyable and this org has been one of my favs, and this night has made it sm better. so period. no regrets, just faggotry.

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i'm a flop.

Everything seems so messy tonight. Rhys has approached me about me, him, Michael, Bryce nd Zach workin together but like... they seemed so actively against me sooooo idk what's going on there it feels like a trap. They suggested doing Chris which does kinda sound real but that could be part of the trap idk im very nervous. I just kinda said I would go along with the plan but I don't really intend to do that. I don't think Chris is the move for me this round, Rhys doesn't speak to me which is why I'm also nervous the alliance came from nowhere. To my knowledge the votes are gonna be split 3-3-3 in case of an idol, which I hope gets flushed. Idols make me nervy. Hell I didn't even know Jared had an idol that fucking snake, but it's fine cause he played it on me.

(((((aj note --- this confessional above is obviously from last round but its 2am and i want to go to sleep so idk))))))))

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Last night was an absolute mess and I feel I missed a lot of what went on so I need to watch the post tribal live stream to see if I can try to make more sense of what went down. So far I gathered Jared is a snake, we been knew and Bryce is a leaker. However the leaking shit got pinned on me YET AGAIN. WHY THE FUCK DO THESE BITCH ASS HOES KEEP PINNING SHIT ON ME. FUCK U BRYCE

I just, everything's a mess. All the alliances i doubt are going to work, Jared isnt long for this game, me or Stephen may follow him out, and the rest will likely see some combo of Loris/Michael/Chloe in the end. I dont know, suddenly feeling hopeless about all of this and like, pretty unhappy at the moment. I knew it would be hard but like I literally am struggle to have clear thoughts and with this and outside life factors I'm just feeling lost at the moment.

hi i'm less mad so ignore my above confessional LOL. thank u for tuning in.

except u loris. baaa louder.

Whew hunny last night exposed a lot of fake ass bitches but we really been knew they’re fake. I’m feeling confident about the next few rounds because I think people see myself and Chloe as numbers and people they need to bring on board to make plans work. Part of my strategy this game is to sit back and let the bigger players come in and try and make the big moves everyone wants to feel like they’re making a difference and everyone wants to build their resume by making big moves and as long as I can maintain my threat level I think I’ll be safe and I can have a bit of Influence in the game as people scramble for my vote.

WELL! That was an interesting tribal!

Shortly before tribal, it came out that a secret group of 5 was made to blindside Chris. (Zach/Bryce/Rhys/Michael/Chloe)

I obviously didn't want that to happen, and neither did Chris or Jared. Bryce leaked it to Jared, and Jared told me and Chris. I made the INDEPENDENT decision to confront Zach about this, because I'm not asking for permission to make moves sorry. The only issue is that Zach immediately went to Bryce, even though I asked him not to fuck me. Bryce went to Jared and Chris, and they went back to me. WELP! That just hurts my strategic relationship with Zach even more than the vote already would have.

Chloe and Michael were doing what they could to keep the votes off Chloe, luckily, my move with Zach ensured that they failed! WOO!

I don't want to make the same mistake as Matt though. I may have a decent majority now, but I don't want to burn my bridges with Zach and Bryce. I stayed out of the drama last night (mostly) and I'm gonna keep talking game with them. I might not be able to fully repair things totally but I'm confident I can do better than the other 5.

I'm gonna go over my relationships with the remaining castaways since there's finally a small enough number for me to feel like doing that:

Chris: My closest ally, we tell each other basically everything. I'm worried about going to Final Tribal with him though. He's played well in every facet of the game and literally won "Who do you want to see win" in Touchy Subjects. If I don't get a chance to take him out at the end, I think I can mount a strong argument against him. but I'd only feel comfortable making that move if I was already immune and definitely going to Final Tribal.

Jared: My second(?) closest ally, though I now know he has kept a TONNNN of secrets from me and on top of that he's a threat to win. Luckily, with all the info coming out from last round, I don't think I'll need to worry about Jared being at Final Tribal.

Loris: With Rhys gone, Loris has officially taken the title of "person I kinda wanna maybe side with but he's talked about voting me out so we're not cool". I kinda wanna weaken Bryce and Zach (or maybe vote them both out) before taking a shot against him, I just hope he doesn't realize I know he's after me until it's too late.

Michael: I really don't know where I stand with Michael LMAO! He voted with us last round but never informed us about the plan to get Chris out. He said he was "going to" but I don't believe that for a second. In fact, I think if Chris hadn't revealed what Bryce had leaked there's a chance he may have gone through with it.

Chloe: I kinda love Chloe. I wish I never accidentally turned the majority alliance against her. She's fun to hang around with AND someone I think I could beat in the end. It's like a win-win. Except I don't think she wants me anywhere near the end.

Zach: Out of the 3 people out of the loop at the last vote my relationship with Zach was the strongest. That having been said, neither of us were really sharing much information with each other after Mitch left and I feel like there's really not much further we can go together. Him and Bryce are both good options to be targeted at this vote.

Bryce: While I've personally known it for quite some time, for Bryce to outright say he didn't want to me in an alliance with me is kind of the most red a red flag can be. If I have it my way, Bryce will be the next person voted out. Granted, I'm saying all of this before immunity results and real strategic talks can begin, so my mind might change, but it's not likely.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VPS6OykNvh0 its so sad im going home tldr: im gone chris can say 1000 words but if they all mean nothing whats the point. jared ruined  my trust in people forever. chloe is a goat hypocrite who aggravates me. stephen is alright not good not bad. rhys is my king and im so sad hes gone i legit love that man. zach is fake. michael is annoying. loris is being a goat but who cares. omg me taking 0 blame for anything bad that happened to me? more likely than u think!!

hi! so. I think I can win this game. my intentions for a while have been to get out someone I don’t see working with personally, rhys, and then attempt a flip on jared/stephen. i also very much have wanted to turn on Chris because I believe me and him are playing similarly in that we have positioned ourself well into the middle, and going to the end with someone who’s basically played the same game but more well-polished is not a good idea! i wanted to get myself this immunity so that I could talk to people about flipping without risk of being ratted and then voted out, which was almost what happened to chloe last round. im also starting to become aware of how me never attending tribal is making me fall under the radar in a way?? everyone is fighting each other and arguably making situations worse for themselves by giving an answer straight away, for example, bryce declaring his f2 with Jared in the call. though people can still slander me while I’m not there, what they say cannot be dwelled on for too long because I’m not there, putting me in a more favourable position than some of the other people here? I think? that someone said that I was playing the middle last tribal council and well.. they’re right so oops.

my ideal path to the end would be stephen and jared leaving the next rounds, and then Chris, although the order does not concern me right now. then I would be at final 5 with Bryce zach chloe and michael and then whoever isn’t immune out of bryce and zach can be voted out. perry. and then I’m gonna have to pray to god I win final immunity OR Michael or Chloe do but like that doesn’t feel likely to me. AND THEN I WIN!!!

ALSO. im in the final 7. I just need to survive one more round and then I’m guaranteed final 5... because no way in hell im playing that legacy on someone  else.. I am not letting THAT happen again.

Me nd Michael been talking, nd we’ve wanted to make a move for a bit now but crazy shit keeps happening. We needed to take down Rhys and break up the Rhys/Bryce/Zach trio so Bryce nd Zach are more useable. Now we planning on flipping on Jared/Chris/Stephen. My current target would be Jared because as much as I trust him and adore him I think he’s definitely running this bitch. Then Loris decides he also wants to flip nd he tells Michael that he wanted to exclude me but JOKES ON U LORIS I WAS ALREADY PLANNING ON FLIPPING U DUMB FUCK. Which was kinda obvious he was planning on excluding me cause Zach and Michael both messaged me about it and I knew Loris was involved in the flipping but he hadn’t messaged me about it sooooo. Don’t test me Loris I’ll make u be voted next.

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#FuckLoris

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GRIT YOUR TEETH, PULL YOUR HAIR, PAINT THE WALLS BLACK AND SCREAM FUCK THIS CAST CAUSE ITS MY GAME AND IM GONNA TAKE IT BACK 

So tonight the plan me chloe and loris are sailing to the majority alliance that voted together last time is that the votes will be spilt. And they will be but we won’t be joining we will be switching to Jared and eliminating the biggest threat in the game at this point. From there I’m thinking of flipping to take out zach or Bryce and continuing on the game switching to control the power in the game.

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Part of the beauty of this move to blindside Jared is that a lot of the blame for the flip is shared amongst both Chloe and Loris paired with Bryce and Zach being bigger threats means that my name will most likely still be out of peoples mouth I just have some major damage control to do to stop Stephen/Chris teaming up with Zach/Bryce and creating a 4-3.

A lot has happened.

Bryce and I's F2 imploded because of me, and even though we reconciled today I don't think I can truly work with him again. Best I can do is try to secure his jury vote.

I have deals with Stephen Chris Michael and Chloe, Loris will hopefully fall by the wayside next round.

The plan this time was to get Michael onside in PMs and gauge his interest for voting out Zach, reinforcing the "this is our shield strategy." He did the work from there. Yeet!

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Jared is voted out 5-2-1. He becomes the fifth member of our jury.

Watch Jared’s exit interview take place below:

[driftwood-degenerate-blog]

I got off the bus in california in the rain peaking on acid that I got kicked down from a serbian mui Thai fighter at the oakland bust terminal before going up the 101 to Humboldt

No job. No housing. Like maybe 50 bucks in my pocket...

It took me like 4 hours to befriend a 50 year old gay millionaire who owns a jewlery store in eureka and he gave me stupid money to do his landscaping and put me on with a few old ladies who buy his jewlery so i was like like 600 cash every 3 or 4 days to mow and edge and shit.

I was in the state for 3 days before I got hired at ccp as a rubber wrapper.

Got drunk and cussed out the jewler for being such a peice of bourgois scum that he was gay and still used the N word and made fun of poor people and promised to invite him outside the next time he disrespected me or the people I chose to help me maintain the properties... Lost all my landscaping work

Boss at ccp comes to me same week and asks if I can weld. I said two days in trade school and a handful of times on a farm in arkansas and he said close enough.

I started tack welding crab pots. Stick on stainless for component and mig on rebar for frames.

I started reading alot of welding and took it seriously. I started fully welding pots when my tacked stack got high enough.

The lead welder quit and I got promoted. I know all I did was make 50 crab traps a day for fishermen and thats not that cool but I was still lead welder in a metal shop and my pots are stamped with a 30 year warrenty so there will be fishermen using my crab pots after I'm dead probably lol.

I got really drunk one Friday after cashing my check. I was long boarding with everything i own in my backpack and my tent and sleeping bag tied to the bag... Drunk skateboarding with an 80 pound pack....on a bridge....tweaker lady on bicycle passing yells so i turn around to answer and didnt see the 3 inch wide crack in the concrete which swallows my skateboard....i bit concrete.. I pushed myself to my knees and blood was pouring out of my mouth, and my forhead. My hand was swollen like a balloon. I was convinced i lost my teeth as i held my mouth open and watched it dump and the tweaker lady sat me down on the side rail and called 911.

I completely woke up when I saw the lights and stood up. I wasnt bleeding and I jumped to my feet and was like "I dont have insurance and i didnt call you i need to leave" so they gave me a concussion check and let me sign refusal of service papers.

The next morning I'm walking and some guy working on a van yells "nice board wanna sell or trade for it?" And I died laughing and ran over like "yes i want to fucking sell it i almost died last night" and i got closer and he saw my face and was like "yoooooooo" and a girl hopped out of the van like "ARE YOU THE 26 YEAR OLD ON THE SOMOA BRIDGE?!?"

"....yes...."

"THEY PRONOUNCED YOU DEAD ON THE POLICE SCANNER MY AUNTIE CRIED FOR LIKE AN HOUR BECAUSE MY COUSINS YOUR AGE AND SKATES AND THAT COULD HA E BEEN HIM"

So they gave me a freezerbag full of trim for my skateboard and said they were gonma tell people a ghost gave it to them.

Get to work Monday and walk past my boss and dont mention it. First break im like 4 lots in instead of 15-20, boss calls me into the office and makes me take off my hoodie gloves. Grabs my hand and squeezes it then tells me I'm done. I can go back next year with a good hand if I want.

I cashed my check and went to arcata and got sucked into the rabbit hole. You cant spend a day in that towns square with the street kids without someone handing you acid and its just wrong to decline and its wrong to take it and save it for later. When someone hands you a dose you take the dose...i dont think i spent more than 3 hours not tripping in 2 weeks while sleeping in hollow redwood stumps and eating free sandwhiches cool people drive around and hand out to homeless there. I was a space cadet.

I found a road dog. Another homeless jobless street bum that was down to leave the glitch in the matrix that is arcata California and find work. We hussled for a few days and caught tickets to willow creek.

Flew a sign in willow creek for a few hours and start walking. Tweaker pulls off and tells us to hop in the bed and we did and he started driving before we realized we didnt even tell dude where we were headed. Im terrorfied as im in the bed of a truck passing cars in a 60 through a mountain town that has 1 single cop... Dude probably drove for 35 minutes before pulling into a rest stop and we all hop out and he finally asks where were headed and we were like "we dont fucking know dude" and hes like "well im sleeping here tonight and going to Oregon in the am if you wanna join." Locks himself in the truck and we sleep in the grass next to it.

Wake up and take a bird bath in the rest stop batheroom and come out to my buddy saying he found craigslist work for rent on some farm in oregon so we tap on tweakers window and ask for a ride his way. He took us all the way to the gas station of the town we needed and even stopped at a diner and spent 30 bucks feeding us and gave us a pack of american spirits when he left us.

Sit at the gas station for about an hour and ok boy shows up. We talk for maybe 30 minutes before he goes inside for about another 30 then comes outside and just says "you seem good enough I'll try ya."

Get to the farm and he gives us the tour and he shows us the green house and my head exploded. "Why the fuck would you make a craigslist add for a weed farm?!"

"Because im legal and I fucking can."

"Fair enough"

Ive been here for a while now, buddy that got me here left the first week. And I cant stop laughing at how perfectly everything always goes in my life