#one of our roommates is bf's little brother

[cherriesncinnamon]

secret / ethan landry x reader

synopsis: ghostface quickly finds you alone, smashing through your apartment to get close to you. under his knife, betrayal from the person you trusted the most was the last thing you expected.

warning/tags: mildly graphic, stabbing, blood, scream 6 spoilers, your bf is a killer.

word count: 500.

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you can hear ghostface’s shallow breaths as he drags the knife across your chest, drawing tiny droplets of crimson. your throat closes up, unable to let any words of pleading out, sealing your fate. the one time your roommates, tara and sam, leave to go to the store is the time ghostface decides to make a star appearance. typical.

after picking up a pair of fabric scissors when he was distracted, you slowly retract them from behind your back, seeing your sudden chance while he fixates on dragging out your torture, wanting to intensify your panic before slaughtering you. firmly gripping the handle, you sink it into his abdomen, putting all of your strength and anger into the pressure of the blade. ghostface tilts his head at you, quickly backing away. you keep hold of your weapon, dread washing over you as he places his gloved hand over the wound, blood running down his fingers.

“you fucking bitch.” he grunts, the whine in his tone familiarising you. you furrow your brow, denial overtaking you for a few seconds, but you know that voice all too well, too well to ever mistake it. you stifle your gasp, stomach dropping to the floor in realisation. there was a reason why your boyfriend always disappeared when you, or your friends, were being targeted by a psychotic killer. you always turned a blind eye. your sweet, innocent boyfriend would never. now, it’s looking like that level of trust will cost you your life. abandoning your safety, you run up to him, clutching the chin of the white mask, and ripping it from his face.

ethan has a huge grin painted on his expression, eyes casted over with enjoyment and darkness. he laughs at your cries, bewildered as to how you hadn’t figured it out sooner. he’d expected so much more or you, you are his partner after all, he chose you. the air thick with silence and deception, ethan takes his knife and plunges it into you at your most vulnerable moment, twisting it far into your stomach to evoke louder screams. your knees refuse to hold your body a second longer, and before you know it, you’re on the floor, writhing in pain, and completely at ethan’s disposal. he towers over you, groaning deeply, composing himself surprisingly well for being drenched in his own blood. 

slumped against your once white wall, he squats down to you height, brown curls stuck to his hot face, chest heaving. you look at him with nothing but fury in your eyes, weakly applying pressure to your worsening wound to postpone your premature death. ethan stares with dark doe eyes, feeling accomplished. you weren’t his original target, yet once he saw your friendliness with his brother’s murderer, he knew you had to go, too. after getting close to you, unfortunately, his adolescent crush overpowered his ulterior motives. he was obsessed with you, and hated you all at the same time.

“it hurts doesn’t it? hm, baby?” ethan taunts, delicately moving your hair out of your face, the blood from his fingers marking your cheek. you have no words to spill, overwhelmed by betrayal, and not willing to gift him an ounce of your energy. he takes off his glove to stroke the tears away from your under eyes, watching in validation as you groan in agony. he places a single kiss on your plump lips, suddenly expressing reconsideration. he’s going to let you live.

“this’ll be our little secret, okay?”

[safiadecastilla]

QUICK STATS ;

Name: Safia de Castilla Estrada

Nicknames: Saf, Safi

Age: 34

Gender & pronouns: Female & she/her

Sexuality: Bisexual

Time in Wilmington: From the age of eight

Occupation: Dance instructor at Feel The Beat and stripper at Bare Necessities

Neighbourhood: Midtown

Relationship status: Single

Face claim: Ana de Armas

Please read below for her introduction !!

QUICK INTRO ;

TW: Injury, car accident, death, gambling addiction, imprisonment

Safia was born in Cuba, to young parents. Her dad rode a motorcycle, her mom was the cute girl next door. They decided to move their family to Wilmington when Safia was eight because they believed there would be better opportunities for themselves and their kids.

Safia really struggled with the move, as she didn't know much English at the time and felt incredibly protective over her younger brother who knew even less. She grew a little angry and bitter towards her parents, and towards the world. So as she grew into a teenager, Safia became rebellious. She would skip class, smoke under the bleachers etc etc. High school wasn't her best time in terms of academics, she was a smart girl but she just never applied herself much to her classes.

She decided not to go to college at 18 as she had no idea what she wanted to study, so stayed in Wilmington for a 'year' to figure out what she wanted to do. This was when she fell in love with dance, and with a man. Buuuuut it wasn't the kind of first love experience she had expected. The relationship was slow and tentative, but Safia was like a bull in a china shop. She wanted it to be explosive and all encompassing.

Her boyfriend wasn't attentive in the way she wanted, so her eyes unintentionally drifted to his brother... Everything she wished she felt for her boyfriend, she found herself feeling for his brother. She tried to ignore her feelings, but she couldn't ignore the way he made her feel. He felt the same way for her, but Safia wasn't a cheater. So instead, she agreed she would break up with her boyfriend, and tell him the truth.

Only she received a phone call that he was in hospital with irreparable injuries from a severe car accident, and he later passed away. Safia was consumed with guilt, and immediately distanced herself from his family, and his brother.

She tried to heal, but this process took time and it was tumultuous at best. Just when she had started to feel better, her own brother came to her in a wild panic. He had a gambling addiction, and to fuel it he borrowed money from loan sharks who were now knocking on his door. He didn't have the money to repay them, so Safia met with them.

They agreed that her brother would serve a short sentence in prison, and she would repay them a certain amount each month. At this time she was only a dance instructor, so found herself a job as a stripper so she could afford to pay back the loan sharks.

WANTED CONNECTIONS/IDEAS.

Friends and besties: Safi can be pretty loyal, all things considered. She is a great friend to have, will support and encourage you through anything. These can be friends from high school, or recent years, whenever really! Whatever works best between our characters.

Roommate: Safi probably doesn't earn a huge amount of money, esp after giving money to her brother's loan sharks so she likely lives with someone. She lives in Midtown!

Friends with benefits / almost dating: This can be male and/or female! After her bf passed away, Saf probably avoided relationships like the plague. She is pretty hedonistic so she wouldn't have shied away from sexual relationships. There could have been one or two that started to feel relationshippy and she dipped out!

Dated but didn't end well: Maybe after some time Safi felt like she could be in a relationship again, but it didn't end well because maybe of your character or it ended mutually or she was scared of messing things up?

Frequent customers: Maybe some characters enjoy indulging themselves in a dance or two from Safi, and they have this playful flirtationship between each other.

High school sweetheart: One of my all time faaaave types of connections. Now Safi was rebellious during high school, so they could've been similar OR entirely different.

People who may be friends with her younger brother: I'd say he's around 30, and he has a gambling addiction. He's pretty messy too, like Safi. But currently he's serving a short sentence in prison.

[other-eye]

I’m gonna vent about my family bc I’m just tired.

So I’m the oldest child and grandchild and that means I get a lot of responsibility. I’m very thankful for my family and I love them so much. I just don’t like being the therapist/babysitter.

My younger brother is a college senior and was dealing with an asshat roommate that was locking his bathroom, shitting in the toilet and not flushing, and spitting in the sink and not washing it away. I did my own little justice by finding his insta and Twitter and reporting them as spam (just me being petty). My mom called the housing department. My brother didn’t tell them the details apparently, he just said that he was having problems with his roommate. She wasn’t going to tell my brother and I’m like “not my circus, not my monkeys”.

Brother gets moved and when he went to pick up his key, the housing dept said “oh yeah! You’re the one whose mom called!”

Que my brother calling me, absolutely LIVID. He’s venting to me, saying all the stuff to me that he wanted to say to our mom but ofc won’t. Apparently he also called our mom and got onto her (he says a lot nicer than he is to me) and she ended up crying. They are both partially at fault imo. My brother should’ve told the housing department the extant of his problems with this dude, and my mom should’ve minded her business; but they didn’t and now I’m caught up in this shit storm.

All I can think while he’s going on is, “Damn, when I get home now I’m gonna have mom venting to me”. And thinking about how from 11-16 I had a full plan to fake my death and move across the country (I’m 24 and I still live at home). I’m thinking about moving in with my BF, or at least make a transition to spending more time there.

My mom makes jokes about me being the family therapist, and this last convo with my brother he said “I know I can say these things to you and you won’t get mad”.

My mom and brother need therapy and to talk to each other, not have me be the middle man

[idgafnowwhat]

To You Dear! The Person With Whom Is Always On My Mind And Now Only In My Heart!

You chose to leave us and walk away so you can have your freedom! And for me I haven't been able to understand that in the last 4 or 5 years here without you. And honestly I won't ever find that peace of mind in getting it in the next 20 million years to come. I'm free everyday all day because of my children. And will remain free because of them for the rest of my life as long as they are a live and well. You see it's very confusing to me because I recently met a very good looking lady who is currently dating my stbx roommate and your childhood bf little brother Phil. And I don't get to see her much at all but when I do all I can think about is how terrible it must be to be her. She gets up everyday and puts a smile on her face the best that she can muster up and starts her day like we all do. And most days she ends her day like everyone else usually the only difference is hers ends helping me and Phil's sorry asses with food or keeping our lights on. And she does all of this everyday with one of her boys no longer here on earth living and breathing because he was murdered by the police I believe is what the story is. So she's not free and able to live carefree life knowing her child is warm and safe somewhere asleep in his bed not will she ever be able to free her mind of that horrible situation daily. And to me that has to be the most miserable traumatizing disgusting thing to do everyday if the rest of her life! That's the most scariest thing for a person that has kids to face and she does it daily because she has no other choice. She will never be free from it. So you see you might claim to have found your new man of a lifetime and living it up in LA just thriving and vibing doing the most! And it's all because your free finally! But your really not and will never be again because you chose to turn your back on the child that needed you the most in this world. That's why your so addicted to the drugs and that life style because you can't face what you chose without having something to distract your thoughts from the TRUTH! If you believe that your still free your more of a spece cadet than anyone really knows. So I will continue on living day in and day out taking care of our daughter 24/7 by myself because that's what you wanted me to do and I will be free more than you will ever be because I know I did my best to make sure my kids are all still living and breathing daily. And to me I can rest at night and be free from what must be going on between your ears! And that people is finding a bright side in my situation and seeing the good in it! Special thanks goes out to Margie Clement! I know we are not close at all and rarely do we speak but your the biggest inspiration in my life and your story and life is what keeps me going and free!

[returntosaturn271995]

Saturday, August 5th: Toddler Steps

Progress gets both easier and harder as you step up the levels. For one thing, nothing is more intense and lacking purpose than telling a depressed person to go on a five-minute walk. I still vividly remember my heartbeat jumping with unexpected joy when I just took a walk listening to music during covid. It took me forever to realize my daily coffee walk was something I had loved: in high school, and college, an excuse to duck out of my stupid first jobs.

Then it was walking to the beach and back. That lasted a year and was usually my favorite part of the day. Now it's running there and walking back. There's that old saying: If you can't fly then run. If you can't run then walk. If you can't walk then crawl. But whatever you do keep moving forward. (No word on the clinically depressed people who legit sit down in the shower. Yes, I used to do that. Like, a lot.)

And here's the thing, crawling is way harder than walking. You go slower and it fucks up your knees. It's just easier to pick up your stride. It feels better to power walk even if you look like an absolute asshole doing it if you aren't a woman holding weights in her mid-50s.

But the walk-to-run transition? Difficult. Weird. Not impossible. Not comfortable. I think about stopping more than I should, but I ignored the little voice in my head until I hit the 12-minute mark. That was today's goal.

It's day 1/22 of my running challenge and I joined Nike Run Club for a goal of 25 K of running this month. My pace is 9.16. Slow? Yes. But did it actually happen and I didn't just tell myself I would run? Also yes. It's real. Although according to "pacepassion.com": "A 9 min mile is very good for a physically fit woman."

So there you go. The scholars have spoken.

Nike Run Club is a little intense, but even if I'm too scared for the 35-minute long run. I'm confident enough to go 14 minutes tomorrow. Which isn't impressive. But it's several hundred steps, I could have ignored it and didn't. I caught my own reflection in the bathroom mirror this morning while I was putting on sunscreen and brushing my teeth, I'm changing.

Oh and according to the government, we have evidence of aliens? But unless they are going to help pay my rent I truly don't it have in me to process it. Global warming? A new job? Feeding myself? Working out? Hinge dates?

How much is a modern woman really supposed to take in? Like I really have time for extra-terrestrials. I have enough to deal with as a terrestrial. Honestly, that's how I know our planet is fucked, because the aliens didn't even bother to invade us. They sent like one ship down here, looked around, and was like, "Nah fam, not worth it".

New roommate Mckenna left an empty bottle of wine in the recycling. I like her. She calls Lumos, "Lu" with affection, but then again he hasn't peed on her bed yet. All in good time.

Also had a fun hour Facetime date with Dasha. Ugh, I miss her. I'll have to go back to Seattle again at some point. We picked out Christmas presents early for her new BF's family: Wine for the Dad, CBD chocolate for the mom, and a half-baked harvest cookbook for the brother. For his sister, whose Instagram presence screams CAT, I suggested a pet portrait.

Once I start making more money next week, I'll have to start buying presents. I love a little gift-giving here and there.

[crtalley]

hate living with people. i want to live alone in the heart of a busy city where no one knows who the fuck i am and also i don't have to pay rent thanks

[ahundredtimesover]

December 2020 Reads

Wow ok I was on a break for 2 weeks so enjoy all 56 of these wonderful fics! Again, note the angst, fluff, and smut descriptions and don’t forget to give love to all these writers (reblog, comment!!) and of course, our lil bun jk 🐰

1. Tinder 2.0 by @tayegi (s) - e2l, workmates au (read if you want something funny, awkward pretend masturbation, and good smut)

2. Looks red, tastes blue by @kookoosbunnynose (a, f, s) - f2l, cop au, bad boy jk (read if you want a small town vibe, heavy - involves character death - a sense of healing, and something painfully beautiful)

3. Late fee by @1kook (a, f, s) - f2l, college au, soft fuckboy jk (read if you want to laugh, dream about flirty and soft fuckboy jk, a dash of angst, and a really cute dining hall scene)

4. Sweets&ink by @extravaguk (a, f, s) - s2l, tattoo artist jk (read if you want the sweetest jk and something written so painfully beautiful and lovely sex. I have anxiety and this story was really healing for me)

5. The Boyfriend Shirt by @triptaech (f, s) - f2l, college au, friends with benefits (read if you want adorable and hot college jk and something light and cute and fun)

6. Talk to me in Korean by @softyoongiionly (s) - boyfriend au (read if you want cute but sexy smut and adorable English-learning jk)

7. Calculated pt1, pt2, pt3 by @whatifyoulivelikethat (s) college au (read if you’re still drooling over long-haired/undercut/all-black/Dicon jk and are into cocky jk and some gloriously delicious smut)

8. Melomaniac + Make it right by @jungkxook (a, f, s) - f2l, band au, exes au (read if you want the right amount of angst, fluff, and smut rolled into each story)

9. Snow and ice pt1 + pt2 by @hayjeon (a, f, s) - e2l, friends with benefits, sports au (read if you want something soft and emotional plus a bit of angst, or a Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo type of fic, just in Olympic setting minus the brother drama + smut)

10. Banana milk by @kimnjss (f, s) s2l? (read if you want peach-haired jk driving with one hand on a sports car + really good smut and a fun ending)

11. After hours by @zibermuda (s) - ceo au, boss au (read if you want sexual tension and glorious smut)

12. Overtime by @cupofteaguk (s) - ceo au, boss au (read if you want petty and guilty but hot and smitten boss jk and office smut)

13. Azaleas by @randombtsprincessa (f, s) - f2l, lawyer au, workmates au (read if you want cheeky and cocky but actually smitten jk and some good smut)

14. Not quite lovers by @junqkook (s) - ceo au, boss au, sorta friends with benefits (read if you want glorious and hot and delicious smut and good characters and a dash of angst thrown in there)

15. Matching hearts by @arcticguk (f) - exes au (read if you want a soft exes au with a sprinkle of angst)

16. Transparent by @kingsuckjin (s) - boyfriend au (read if you want a really quick self indulgent read of cheeky little shit jk in a bun and undercut)

17. Rocket to the moon by @roseok (f, s) - f2l, roommates au, workmates au, adulting (read if you want a feel-good, fun, and domestic fic with great smut and lovable, entertaining, silly, and fun characters and their families)

18. Canceled pt1 (ongoing) by @zibermuda (s) - college au, nerd jk (read if you want to laugh at bratty and sexy characters and also enjoy glorious smut)

19. Won’t you be my neighbor by @btsarmy9593 (f) - s2l, neighbors au (read if you want a feel-good, relationship-focused fic with flirty but shy jk and fun sexual tension)

20. Sprout by @v-hope (f) - husband au, parents au, dad jk (read if you want a quick but heartwarming and soft and adorable read ft. BV4 jk as dad)

21. Feed me, fight me by @yeojaa (a, f, s) - boyfriend au (read if you want angst, fluff, and a bit of smut all weaved together beautifully in a short well-written fic)

22. Chapstick by @softyoongiionly (f, s) - idol au, boyfriend au (read if you want something soft and light)

23. Ace by @hijoonie (a, f, s) - s2l, college au, jock jk, fuckboy jk, artist jk (read if you want a romcom-type fic, a fuckboy-jock-artist jk, and some fun and really hot smut)

24. Endgame by @minyoongijjangjjangmanboongboong (a, f) - s2l, college au, fake dating au, jock jk, sort of fuckboy jk (read if you want something angsty but soft with well-thought out backstories and just something good)

25. You’ve got mail by @minyoongijjangjjangmanboongboong (a, f) - college au, exes au (read if you want something angsty but ends on a good note)

26. Stranded by @gguksgalaxy (a, f, s) - e2l, college au, fuckboy jk (read if you want some gloriously delicious smut and college boyfriend-look and sweet and mature jk)

27. Fall for you pt1, pt2, pt3 by @kimvtae (a, f, s) - f2l, college au, friends with benefits, jock jk, fuckboy jk (read if you want glorious smut, a really fun ensemble, lovable characters, and perfect angst finished off with perfect fluff)

28. Popular-ish series by @hansolmates (a, f, s) - f2l, college au, friends with benefits, jock jk, workmates au (read if you want a light and fun drabble series with the right amount of angst, fluff, and smut and really enjoyable characters)

29. Bad influence by @noteguk (s) - bad boy jk (read if you want glorious car sex and if you want to be turned on)

30. Hush by @aureumjeon (s) - college au, boyfriend au (read if you want horny and needy college boyfriend jk and if you want to be turned on)

31. Drunken proof pt1 + pt2 by @v-hope (f) - college au, boyfriend au, ex-fuckboy jk (read if you want something so sweet, cute, and soft ft. mature individuals and whiny and in love jk)

32. Fast and definitely furious by @parkmuse (s) - boyfriend au (read if you want a quick read of adorable and fun car smut ft. horny but funny couple)

33. The next by @kpopfanfictrash (f) - parents au, dad jk (read if you want a quick scenario of adorable dad jk)

34. Epiphany pt1, pt2, pt3 by @nightbts (a, f) - e2l, college au (read if you want classic e2l storyline and want annoying but actually cute and sweet jk)

35. Don’t ever let me go by @thedefinitionofbts (a, f, s) - bf2l, friends with benefits (read if you want your classic bfwb with minimal angst and soft smut)

36. Blush by @jhsbrat (a, s) - bf2l, fake dating au (read if you want a fun jinkook+YN dynamic, classic bf fake dating storyline with good angst, and a nice ending)

37. F is for drabble series by @1kook (s) - college au (read if you want fun fucking around drabble series with cocky and hot jk)

38. Try hard pt1 + pt2 by @hobibliophile (f, s) - f2l, college au, jock jk (read if you want soft and sweet jock jk)

39. In the moment pt1+ pt2 by @letholojimin (a, s) - f2l, college au, frat boy jk (read if you want really good sexual tension and smut and just sexy frat boy jk)

40. Hate me by @themfchase (s) - e2l, college au, fuckboy jk (read if you want well-written smut and extremely hot cocky fuckboy jk)

41. Hard to get pt1 + pt2 (ongoing) by @namfine (a, s) - college au, fuckboy jk (read if you want well-written angst and just something painfully beautiful)

42. Sound by @kooksea (s) - college au, fuckboy jk (read if you want ridiculously good smut and fun premise and if you want to get turned on)

43. Lose somebody by @kooala (a, f) - exes au, camping au (read if you want well-written angst between exes and cocky but sweetheart jk)

44. Love alive by @jamaisjoons (a, f, s) - exes au (read if you want really good storytelling and beautifully written angst and longing and good smut)

45. Bad habits by @sugarjaee (a, s) - fuckboy jk (read if you want sexual tension and some good smut)

46. Savage love + Still want that by @whatifyoulivelikethat (a, f, s) - jk going for yg’s ex (read if you want well written angst and smut and are still drooling over ponytail jk in gray sweats)

47. Just the girl + spin-off 1, 2, 3 on ao3 by obiwrites (a, f) - e2f2l, childhood friends, adulting au (read if you want a beautifully well-written novel/romcom type of fic with loooong pining, lovable characters, witty dialogues, and the cutest and most satisfying ending)

48. Five dates by @kpopfanfictrash (f, s) - arranged marriage au (read if you want a good twist to the arranged marriage trope, lovable characters, and great storytelling)

49. Golden hour by @tteokggukk (s) - boyfriend jk (read if you want something really sexy)

50. Untitled by @junghelioseok (f, s) - boyfriend jk (read if you want a quick read of soft lazy sexy and something so beautifully soft and heartwarming)

51. I’ll be home by @wwilloww (a, f, s) - f2l, fantasy au (read if you want a well-written and vivid story about magic/fantasy and a little town, lovable characters, and a sense of adventure)

52. It takes two by @junghelioseok (f, s) - f2l, roommates au, fake dating au, soft jk (read if you want all your favorite tropes in one well-written fic ft. really hot and soft and sweet jk)

53. Krampus for Christmas by @ddaenysus (f, s) - parents au, boyfriend jk, dad jk (read if you want a quick read about lovable and idiotic and adorable dad jk)

54. In the frosty air by @gukyi (a, f) - roommates au (read if you want short fic with the right mix of softness and angst)

55. Desiderium by @jeonggukingdom (f, s) - husband jk (read if you want lovey dovey fluffy shower sex and something beautifully (poetically) well-written)

56. Hearts on fire on ao3 by obiwrites (f) - s2l, first responder jk (read if you want something so funny and sweet and light and adorable and if you just want to have a good day ft. soft and shy jk)

(monthly reads masterpost)

[i-like-potatoes]

ty for your reply! its me my liberation notes anon! since my ask i was planning to come and talk about it more but i got soaked into the story every day that i didnt break out of it but the ep i just watched was too heavy not to get away from. their mom died :'( and so suddenly? i was not expecting it and it scared me to death... like one minute shes checking if her daughters bf is someone she should marry and the next, shes gone? god.. the scene when theyre at the funeral just breaks me. but one thing i really relate to is the sibling dynamic. my siblings and are i not that close. we're like roommates like they are.. and i always get a little jealous of families and siblings that were close cus im wondering what thats like. but when they had that moment together on the beach :'( god a lot has happened i dont even know what else to talk about. like i relate to each of their stories in different ways. i understand the exhausted mom, i get the sister wanting to find love, i get the one that has someone and lost him, i have the older brother that wants to take a break... also gu calling mijeong after idk how long ahhh 🥺 i hate how he left and how much she could've used him there but he has his own life and i really wonder how they all up and left to seoul. but this has been one of the most engaging dramas and nothing /that/ grand has happened. its just life, and its still very much so interesting. also the little comedy moments in the show is hilarious. i have 2 more eps left 😭

hi anon! i'm happy that you got back to me!! i wrote my previous reply assuming that you already finished the series, i'm sorry for that. did i spoil anything? 😅

this one’s pretty long so i kept the rest of my answer under the cut.

i understand what you mean. my liberation notes might not be for everyone, but once you connect to the characters and their stories, your heart opens up a little space for them to sit in.

about their mom :(( i did not see that coming either. it was so sudden that the only thing i could think of was that i'm glad that hyesuk had a bit of some good moments with the kids: asking mijeong if she's still in contact with mr. gu, sneaking in to see what kind of person gijeong dates, and that truck race with her husband and changhee.

i totally get you about the sibling dynamic. i have siblings too, although they're much younger than i am. we bicker a lot, we criticize each other's decisions, we get annoyed by each other's existence. but there are times where we just talk about deep things (life, plans, politics, etc.), talk about our worries and perhaps dreams, agree on the things we hate, and disagree with the things we love. sometimes, we just sit in comfortable silence, and that's it. that kind of thing. i remember you talking about the situation you're in from that ask where you found me in the replies. i hope that you're hanging in there, and i hope that you have someone, or maybe find someone, to speak your mind to.

the scene in the beach is so beautiful and emotional. i have no words for it (too).

like i relate to each of their stories in different ways.

yup, it's too realistic. you just resonate with them. that's why i can't hate gu for leaving like that because i see where he's coming from. i'm just really happy how mijeong and gu were all smiles the first time they met after a long time instead of dragging the heartache. i loved how they enjoyed their sunday saturday too.

but this has been one of the most engaging dramas and nothing that grand has happened. its just life, and its still very much so interesting.

right?! it's amazing how park hae young (writer) managed to write these characters and bring a drama into life. a piece you can really call a slice of life.

also, please tell me your thoughts when you're done watching. i wanna hear them!

btw, anon, are you the type of person who watches the intro of the shows they watch? i'm not sure if you noticed, but there's a bit of change in the opening from ep 13 (i think?) onwards. anyway, i really am emotional for the shows i watch, and i remember being so overwhelmed by the music that i ended up crying when i heard the change in the intro. weird.

[brandy-eyes]

new girl au rants cuz im weak n stupid

okay! so yk that apartment schmidt moved into across the hall? thats jules, kat, maddy and cassies apartment now! and the loft is taken over by our lovelies—lexi, rue, fez & ash.

i want lexi to be a struggling actor, going to college for fine arts, she’ll have this part time job working as a teachers assistant, i think. might change that. i want her to move into the apartment the same way jess did, except she’s gonna have rue with her instead of being alone and just going through a breakup. maybe i’ll have her go through a breakup? just for drama!

rue works from home, a writer, maybe? im not sure for her yet. in this universe they don’t know fez or ash or anyone else really, just grew up with each other, moved to LA together (probably bc suze & leslie felt a lot more comfortable with forever anxious and paranoid always on the verge of a breakdown lexi & former drug addict rue to be together, and also cuz theyr besties!) for college and never ended up moving back. cassie also followed for a ‘fresh start’ and met jules & kat & maddy n all of them. mutual friend & resident party animal BB comes by once n a while to deposit booze & trash the place with a banger before disappearing for another few weeks or days and then does it again, like a boss bitch.

fez & ash will run their business outta the loft, except for the fact that fez is gone a lot at night for parties and shit, usually leaving the teenage angst ash alone with lexi and rue (mostly lexi, bc rue likes to tag along with fez—and lexi trusts her now, enough not to follow.) and like. lexi makes them watch fixer upper and shit and ash is forever pissed he misses the walking dead reruns bc she wanted to watch houses get ransacked and slapped with a pretty stick.

grandma marie takes the spare bedroom in the back. they have a list of contacts in the fridge fez says to ‘give a call, hit em’ up’ if they’re ever in a bind or some kind of trouble. fez never, ever brings back work to the loft bc ‘its not fair to them, they jus’ need a place to stay—‘ and the brothers are slowy weaning off the drug dealing scene, anyway. hence the need for roommates. i want fez to work at a bar, like nick, obvi.

At some point i want to follow the fake dating trope—yk, they get invited to a wedding and lexi needs a date cuz she doesn’t want to look stupid and rue is going with jules so she enlists new bestie & sort of crush fez to take her in his fancy lil caddy and snazzy suit like the darling he is! maybe i’ll make the wedding cassies? she’s sort of cece in this situation, anyway. i think it’llbe funny if like at some point suze has to crash at the loft for the wedding and she makes everything hella awkward and ash is hovering in the background watching lexi argue with her ma like 😶‍🌫️

i also think it woukd be fun to have them play true american? but like instead of the boys teaching them its lexi and rue inviting all the girls over and teaching fez & ash the game they made up when they were teens. i think they’ll be in their mid twenties, 24-26–ish, so ash’ll literally be twenty one but for the sake of the teenage angst get up he’s sixteen going on seventeen! leave me alone! Ash does go to highschool, only bc i think its funny that lexi gets to be his teacher’s assistant and she like reports back to fez the drama ash has going around at school.

i’ll have faye come stay with them around the time lexi tries to get in the dating scene and rue is like!!! bitcch!!!fez!!! for some drama and stuff, but they end up being besties dw abt it. lexi does get a little heartbroken doe cuz she rly likes fez but doesn’t wanna intrude? also fez forgets to tell them that faye has a mf bf, so rue stomps in his room LIVID and is liek YOU LED HE RON MFFCKER—and hes like. wtf r u talking abt….

also i want lexi to get to put on a play about her teenage years sometime during this period too, except this time fez gets to come & custers a dead bitch. i think i am going to follow some canon episodes of ng just bc they have such good ones that would fit the euphoria context—(jules & rue run off to mexico and rue gets arrested for stealing a wrist band off a kid and running from the security staff, jules drives home and has to wrangle all rue’s roomates into helping get her out, etc,) & i jus love them sm. so

thank u for coming to my tedtalk, it was bullshit, ik. idek if i’ll write this? would anyone read? anyways bye!

[enjennie]

la lune: the masterlist

[a] - angst  ⭑ [f] - fluff  ⭑ [c] - crack  ⭑ [s] - smut/suggestive

updated: 07/03/21

⍟ NCT DREAM 

M a r k

[ a ]  Hug Me  — idol!au wherein mark sings you to sleep one last time, the lyrics of th song being the words he wants to be telling you, but can’t.

[ f ]  The dreamies as types of dates  — 7dream taking you on a date

[ c ] Rooftop Fight Predictions  — my predictions for the fight of the century

Oxford Comma series — nct dream college!au, 7dream as elite, rich kids. jaemin plays as the main lead. (ON HOLD)

[ f ] The dreamies first time meeting your parent(s) 

Bottom’s Up series  — dreamies boys night where they talk about their past love experiences/current relationships.

[ f ] 7Dream Cafe  — Visiting the 7Dream Cafe drabble

[ c ] + [ f ] The Tenth Commandment  —  possessive bf mark vs dance partner jaemin.

R e n j u n

[ a ] +  [ f ]  Presents and the Past  — in an attempt to hand you over a gift for christmas that he’d bought before you broke up, you and renjun find yourselves under a mistletoe.

[ f ] The dreamies as types of dates  — 7dream taking you on a date

[ c ] Rooftop Fight Predictions  — my predictions for the fight of the century

Oxford Comma series — nct dream college!au, 7dream as elite, rich kids. jaemin plays as the main lead. (ON HOLD)

[ f ] The dreamies first time meeting your parent(s)

[ f ] - Birthday Special

Bottom’s Up series  — dreamies boys night where they talk about their past love experiences/current relationships.

[ f ] 7Dream Cafe  — Visiting the 7Dream Cafe drabble

J e n o

[ f ] The dreamies as types of dates  — 7dream taking you on a date

[ c ] Rooftop Fight Predictions  — my predictions for the fight of the century

Oxford Comma series — nct dream college!au, 7dream as elite, rich kids. jeno plays as the 2nd lead. (ON HOLD)

[ f ] Tongue tied — asking Jeno if he's good at french kissing

[ f ] The dreamies first time meeting your parent(s)

[ s ] Stay  — losing your virginity to Jeno in a house party.

Bottom’s Up series  — dreamies boys night where they talk about their past love experiences/current relationships.

[ s ] Uhm...

[ f ] 7Dream Cafe  — Visiting the 7Dream Cafe drabble

[ f ] My First and... Last?  —  wherein jeno asks you to be his first kiss.

[ f ] Right Here   — Part 2 for MFAL ^ 

[ a ] Moving Forward  — Spending the new year missing the boy you loved the most.

[ f ] + [ a ] Checkmate  —  Unrivalled, to be the best and to win. Jeno is a team player and it’s all he has ever known, but when one fateful night leads him to you, he realizes that one must never play games especially when hearts are at stake.

H a e c h a n

[ f ] The dreamies as types of dates  — 7dream taking you on a date

[ c ] Rooftop Fight Predictions  — my predictions for the fight of the century

Oxford Comma series  — nct dream college!au, 7dream as elite, rich kids. haechan plays as the 2nd lead.

[ f ] The dreamies first time meeting your parent(s)

[ s ] Yours  — being possessive over Haechan to remind your roommate who he belongs to.

Bottom’s Up series  — dreamies boys night where they talk about their past love experiences/current relationships.

[ f ] 7Dream Cafe  — Visiting the 7Dream Cafe drabble

[ f ] [ s ]  Alone Together — roommates!AU, birthday special

J a e m i n

[ f ] Sweeter Than Sugar  —  jaemin goes through hell and back to bake a cake for you on your 3rd anniversary.

[ f ]  The dreamies as types of dates  — 7dream taking you on a date

[ c ] Rooftop Fight Predictions  — my predictions for the fight of the century

Oxford Comma series  — nct dream college!au, 7dream as elite, rich kids. jaemin plays as the main lead.

[ f ] The dreamies first time meeting your parent(s)

[ s ] - Our Little Secret  — secretly dating jaemin and going through lengths to hide it from your brother and his best friend, jeno.

Bottom’s Up series  — dreamies boys night where they talk about their past love experiences/current relationships.

[ f ] 7Dream Cafe  — Visiting the 7Dream Cafe drabble

[ f ] Untitled drabble  — wherein you catch the bouquet at a wedding

C h e n l e

[ c ] Rooftop Fight Predictions  — my predictions for the fight of the century

[ f ]  The dreamies as types of dates  — 7dream taking you on a date

[ a ] + [ f ] - Keys to a Memory  — chenle plays the piano for you everyday in hopes that it will retrieve your lost memories after a car accident.

[ f ] The dreamies first time meeting your parent(s)

Bottom’s Up series  — dreamies boys night where they talk about their past love experiences/current relationships.

[ f ] 7Dream Cafe  — Visiting the 7Dream Cafe drabble

[ f ] In The Limelight  — tutoring the CEO’s son chenle and the process of falling for him that came along with it.

J i s u n g

[ c ] Rooftop Fight Predictions  — my predictions for the fight of the century

[ f ] 5:52pm  — making out with jisung and getting walked in on by the other dreamies

[ f ]  The dreamies as types of dates  — 7dream taking you on a date

[ f ] The dreamies first time meeting your parent(s)

[ f ] 11:04pm  — jisung being shy over saying I love you on the phone

Bottom’s Up series  — dreamies boys night where they talk about their past love experiences/current relationships.

[ f ] 7Dream Cafe  — Visiting the 7Dream Cafe drabble

⍟ NCT 127 [coming soon]

T a e i l

J o h n n y

Y u t a

T a e y o n g

D o y o u n g

J a e h y u n

[ a ] Take Care (feat. Juyeon of TBZ)  — bad choices and broken hearts

J u n g w o o 

⍟ WAYV [coming soon]

K u n

T e n

W i n w i n

X i a o j u n 

H e n d e r y 

Y a n g Y a n g

⍟ NCT U [coming soon]

S u n g c h a n

S h o t a r o

 ⍟ SERIES

Oxford Comma   — nct dream college!au, 7dream as elite, rich kids. 

[pesiko]

XIUMIN FIC RECS

SERIES

2am - idol, secret fwb with you best friend’s brother M {13}

Kiss Me Before You Go - you know him from somewhere {3}

High Key Jealous - he’s a bit jealous of your coworker {2}

ONESHOTS (F)

My Best Friend’s Brother - summer, crushes M [7.1k]

Man Crush Monday - the kind guy you can’t forget [6k]

A Little Down the Road - wouldn’t hurt to give it a try [2.7k]

Late Night Coffee - vampire, broken mug, 5am [2.4k]

Would You Be My Love? - CBX detectives, cheek kisses [2k]

Reliance - broken leg problems and falling out of bed [1.6k]

You’re Not Only Cute But a Killer Too - video games [1.5k]

Exception - Luhan’s math tutor, jealous Minseok [1.3k]

Key Thieves - ft meddling roommates BBH & KJD [1.3k]

Dark Roast - late night coffeeshop, marshmallow [1.2k]

The Problem with Cats - stolen underwear and socks [1.2k]

This Ice Skating Thing - maybe it wasn’t so bad [1.2k]

Bon Bon - sweet shop, “do you want my jacket?”, latte [1.1k]

Not Anymore - crying, a comforting Minseok [1.1k]

Candies and Other Sweets - ring pops and playgrounds [1k]

Mate - he wanted you to meet everyone [1k]

ONESHOTS (A)

Wraith - ghost roommate, flickering lights, ft OSH ✿ [4.5k]

Blood Lust - vampire, “he should have kept you” ✿ [1.6k]

A Little Help - poltergeist, floating objects [1.6k]

DRABBLES (F)

Hottie Next Door - neighbors, thank you spider [.8k]

Phone - “I’m starting to recognize your voice” [.8k]

Business and Pleasure - mafia AU, bar [.8k]

She’s a Baby - he likes you in silence [.8k]

When You’re Sick - fainting, heat exhaustion, concert [.7k]

I Know This Looks Bad But I Swear It’s Not - allergy [.7k]

Smarty Pants - “don’t call our child the devil, Minseok” [.6k]

Wait - missing KMS hrs, “what made my baby cry?” [.6k]

Below Freezing - a blanket bc you’re shivering in class [.4k]

You Owe Me a Kiss - popcorn and a movie [.4k]

30 - pregnancy, “you don’t have to treat me like glass” [.3k]

Honey I Lost the Kid - hide and seek, lillies, a surprise [.3k]

Laundry - making the bed together [.1k]

I’m a Professional

DRABBLES (A)

Wonderland - “I love you, but you aren’t real”, angst [.5k]

I’ll Protect You - classmates disappear, yandere KMS [.5k]

Sooner - “will you wait for me”, slight angst [.2k]

BLURBS

Minseok Knows What’s Bothering You

TIMESTAMPS

12:15am - soju

3:59pm - he enlists

6:17pm - suggestive

9:42pm - he didn’t go to the party

TEXTS

Wrong Number - project partner, ft OSH as matchmaker

Study Buddies - “what is angry pressure”, giving notes

Drunk Messages w Bf Minseok - “eww no”

Super Daddy - Minseok vs diaper brands

Itsy Bitsy Tipsy Talk - you drunk text him

BULLETPOINTS

Xiumin as Your Boyfriend

How Exo Would Touch You: Xiumin

Dating Exo Member Series: Kim Minseok

Boyfriend!Xiumin

Xiumin as a Boyfriend - some M

Bff Exo Series: Kim Minseok

Dating Kim Minseok

[main masterlist] [exo masterlist] updated 5-27-21

[dear-diary-where-is-my-soul]

Hey Diary,

It has been... almost a whole year? Idk. I’m here anyhow. I somehow got it into my head that when high school was over, I would somehow become magically no longer mentally ill. That didn’t happen, obviously. So here I am. I did a bit of digging and I think I have ADHD (Which I like to call dopamine deficiency) and also ASD (Which I like to call a pain in my ass). I’m just kidding, they’re both a pain in my ass. But at least I know what it’s called. I can kind of manage it now because I spent hours looking for management plans that work for both ADHD and Autism, and seeing what worked for me. I know for a fact that I have Anxiety (Of the social variant - possibly tied to autism) and depression (That I’ve had since age 12 - about 6 years). I thought I was over my anorexia but it keeps pestering in the back of my mind. I’m eating now, but it still isn’t 3 meals a day. It’s not ‘healthy’ meals but it’s better than nothing. I still think that sometimes I’m not worth the food. My boyfriend (The same boyfriend) is a really good cook. His food is so good. But neither of us can eat it.   I moved out for a short while, about 4 months. I moved in with my boyfriend, who moved in about 9 or so months before me, with his ‘dad’ (Non-bio, no longer dating [Boyfriends] mother). During those 4 months, I spent more than 1000′s dollars in savings not to mention my Centrelink payments, which only started during the second month [half of what my boyfriend was getting], to trying to keep me and my boyfriend alive. Which would’ve been way easier if I didn’t need to spend over 500 dollars in taxi fees because his dad didn’t know when to stop drinking. So, a little bit of extra kicked in the fucking balls, Before I moved in, I was told that I wouldn’t need to worry about rent until my Centrelink payments were sorted. But, when we move out, my boyfriend sold his bike and 650 of that money was given to his dad because he was keeping track of how long I didn’t pay rent for and said I owned it to him. Even Though my boyfriend offered 2/3 of my rent (Plus his own) every payday. We were both told that it was fine and that we didn’t have to worry about it.  He always complained about me being anti-social. Which was really fucking clear to begin with. I never said that I would be interacting with him more than what was comfortable. This was his main excuse for drinking. But, until I moved in he completely ignored my boyfriends attempts to be social with him.  He wasn’t my type of person. Conservative, mid 40′s, cis-het, white man with ASD and previous alcohol and drug use problems. AKA ‘There’s nothing wrong with the world you’re just to sensitive, men are men and women are women nothing will change that, except don’t move my living room around because that’s too much for me to handle’.  He used to scream at my boyfriend that he isn’t a real guy, but got upset when my boyfriend then put distance between them to not get any more hurt and depressed. I hated it. I can’t handle any loud noises or anything like that. It sends me up the wall with anxiety and I’m very easily over stimulated. Unfortunately, our roommate did not get over stimulated easily and really like heavy metal, which he would play unbearably loud until 2-3 AM on the weekends. He also nearly broke our bedroom door several times. He would scream insults at us through the door and while outside our window (which had a little undercover deck-type-thing, where he drank himself stupid).  Me and my boyfriend took a two week holiday up back to our home town, because my boyfriend was having stress-induced Seizures. He was having full-on whole-body fits every 2-3 days that lasted about 5 minutes (These have stopped since we moved out). Anyway, we got back home, being dropped off by my bf’s mum,( who has since very much mellowed out [about my boyfriend being trans] by having another kid, this kid is nearly 18 months old, has some kind of IBS [Unconfirmed as of yet, but he is in a lot of pain]). We put away the few bits of shopping we got, as we were band from touching our roommates food over a month before because he was asked not to eat ours (Not true, but he did use a full packet of our cheese [7 or 8 bucks per packet] in one meal that neither me or my boyfriend liked or could eat, which we were talking about to my boyfriends mother who mentioned it). He also said that we accused him of stealing and shit like that (We didn’t). But anyway, We make dinner because it was around 5;30 or so and we didn’t eat lunch. We put of a movie in the background and my boyfriend goes out for a cigarette on the deck-thing and when he comes back in he tells my that our roommate has been drinking but will stop soon because we’re home.  8:30 comes around, me and my bf are heading to bed with the same movie on in the background and that’s when the screaming starts. 20 whole minutes of our roommate screaming “FAGGOTS” to try to get our attention. During this time, we call my bf’s mum, who is still in town because she had a doctors appointment the next day, staying at my bf’s nans house. We then get up, grab our still-packed from our two week trip (day)bags, and wall ten minutes away to the shopping centre near-by and call a taxi.  During that night, our (ex)roommate texted my bfs mum basically saying that we are ‘kicked out’ and that he hates all of us. This isn’t the first time this has happened but it is definitely the last. We went back, the next day while he was at work, grabbed our other bags and a few of the essential items we wanted for the next week or so. Our landlord (ex-roommates mother) said that everything was fine to stay there until we could get it picked up within the next two months or so. She offered to pack it all up for us as well, which we accepted because neither of us wanted to go back to that house again.  We haven’t been there, or seen him since. My bf’s mother’s bf went with my brother to pick up all of the rest of our stuff a week after we left. We set back up in my home town, now both of us have been ripped away from our new doctors, our counsellors and my new therapist less than a week before my first appointment (which I now do via telehealth [phone/video calls]). This was about a month ago. me and my bf now have set up and pay for our internet ourselves and I got a disney+ subscription because I'm obsessed with feeling the safety I felt during childhood.  Anyway, I live with my boyfriend and his mum and her boyfriend and their 1 year old. Both of my parents live in this town but we’ve been in lock down and I haven’t been able to see them. I feel like I’m drowning because I don’t go outside. I used to walk with my boyfriend, but because he has several chronic health issues we can’t risk him going outside and he can not exercise as much as either of us would like due to chronic pains (And a busted knee which he has scans for in a fortnight or so). I’m in an online course, which was fully government subsidized due to the amount of people who need training or retraining after Covid-19. I really like it, and it is making me think more harshly about wanting to start a business. However, I don’t think I can do the assessments. Almost all of them seem to require me being social on the online group chats, and it fuels my social anxiety so much I didn’t do anything to my course for a whole month. And this whole thing was a way to help me get rid of those feelings, but I still don’t know what to do. How do I word it to the teachers? I haven’t talked to any of them before and it might seem like I just don’t want to put in the work in the social aspects of my assessments because I don’t have a diagnoses.  This sucks. I can barely sit my ass down and read through the work as it is. Then I start thinking about how I'm 1 quarter of the way through this course and haven’t brought myself to do a single assessment. Then I freak out over how much I’ve done (or haven’t done) and don’t end up doing the work. 

[gg-astrology]

Can you tell us 10 things about you? and about ur friends irl? How u met them/ how long u know them/ what u like to do with them? This is gonna sound nosy but how's ur love life hdjsks LISTEN YOU'RE LIKE MY DREAM BEST FRIEND AND I WANT TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU AND ACT LIKE WE'RE TOTES HOMIES OKAY IM A VIRGO SUN PISCES MOON smh a girl is cURIOUS AND (platonically) IN LOVE WITH YOU 😖❤❤❤❤

Hey there!! 💕💓❤️ Oh wow!!!! 💕💓❤️💕💓❤️ Don’t worry this is fine!! I’m actually -- like, really happy and giddily flustered you’d want to get to know me!? 💕💓❤️ I’m really flattered and really grateful/touched aaaaaaa only virgo/pisces deserve rights, my current wife is also a virgo/pisces this is obviously some kind of synastry destiny (jk *wink wonk?*)!! 💕💓❤️thank you for caring about me!!! 💕💓❤️💕💓❤️💕💓❤️💕💓❤️

Yeah sure!! 💕💓❤️I can tell you more things about me!! 💕💓❤️

Disclaimer? I think it’s good for the audience to know where I’m coming from and who I am? I just think transparency/knowing who you’re talking to is important because knowing who I am, can also help you and me see where my flaws are and where I may be coming from! 💕💓❤️ Or what I provide, but where I might miss my mark somewhere, y know? 💕💓❤️ Not to say you have to judge me, I just don’t see the point in not just being who I am and saying yeah I can see where I took the L there. It’s just-- better? for future endeavors as well? So here we are? 

More about me? In sections?

10 things about me? 

I’ll start with this since it’s the shortest!

This may come off as totally random but I do better in colder climate than hotter ones -- even though I currently live in a tropical island 

I used to live in the US!

I actually have a designated place where I go to sit, open up my laptop and answer asks from tumblr. I sit outside my little patio and stare out at my garden, and then answer qs from here!

This means I’m always subjected to the Wild Life coming at me unexpectedly sometimes, but my cat also visits me at my table! So it balances out! 

My favourite drink is milk but I like plant-based ones, or rice milk? Or the lactose free ones! They’re delicious! 

Cherries are my favourite snacks but I usually get them once every 3 months -- so the result is I don’t tend to snack often. This is by design of me trying to Not Snack + using my pickiness to weaponize against myself and my eating habits.

To unwind I watch cat/animal videos on youtube before I go to sleep - it’s not very effective because I have to keep my eyes open to see, plus I always end up making cooing noises at the screen -- so I’m not sure when if it’s actually making me sleepy or not. But it’s working so far so I’m continuing to do it.

I have very specific knowledge of certain things in very acute details + link/resources of further studies on the topic, but otherwise I have 0.5 braincells most of the time, just a lot of Forbidden Knowledge.

I have a folder of cursed memes and that’s all you need to know about my sense of humour I think? 

Love life?

I am currently single! 💕💓❤️ Gf application is always open! 💕💓❤️ However, I’d like everyone of you to know I’m a 95 liner and I will not accept applications from those born after 98′ 💕💓❤️

Although I’m bi + had ex-bf before... I am (as of right now) on the fence about men personally in my personal life (disclaimer) because I’ve got a week of quarantine, thus I haven’t been doing the do and can think clearly for once. I am contemplating. Men. And the necessity in life. Y know? 

Although my love life is free!! I am not excused from the occasional panic of having a crush (annually). I’m lucky enough to go through it just once every year, but every time it happens I am an absolutely clown + always in turmoil. It’s what happens when you’re a sag venus who can’t control your p***y brain. Luckily, my crush just have to insult me or make me explain things from my past and then I’d be too traumatize to crush on them again. It’s quite effective, and works out best for all of us! 💕💓❤️

I’ll refrain from talking about my ex because I know I have a habit of recounting the good and being mushy. Even if we ended it on rocky terms. So! I’ll save everyone from that. 💕💓❤️    

Friends (expanded, clarifications?) 

The ones I mention on the blog are usually 

taurus/taurus, 

cancer/cancer, 

leo/libra, 

leo/cap (x2), 

virgo/sag, 

libra/aries (x2), 

scorpio/sag, 

scorpio/cap, 

sag/taurus, 

pisces/scorpio, 

pisces/aqua,  

Oof that’s alot.. This might be better to outline in a timeline format... so leo/libra, scorpio/sag, libra/aries and partially virgo/sag are whom I grew up for the majority of my childhood-teenage life! 💕💓❤️ 

They obviously made a very big impact on me! 💕💓❤️ They’re with me through thick/thin, leo/libra (sag rising) is the extrovert of the bunch. He’s one of my best friends, close guy friend, most of the time I too find him a little exasperating because he’s.. well its his problem so nevermind, but he’s also very endearing! 💕💓❤️ If it wasn’t for him-- well, there’s also another leo I thought was very endearing in a little brother kind of way. So leos to me have a very positive influence in my life, they’re very cute especially when they ask for your attention. I think they are like puppies/kitties when they are needy, and their blatant way of just being themselves always makes me feel refreshed + I  admire them for it. In the end, I’m totally heart-eyes endeared for Leos! 💕💓❤️

Scorpio/sag is also my best friend! 💕💓❤️ She’s a taurus rising, and she’s so sweet, kind, chatty and very open/friendly to people! 💕💓❤️ Her, my cousin (who’s also a scorpio but a scorpio/pisces), and quite a few of my other best friends who are scorpios - actually made me realize they’re not like what they’re usually describe as. Maybe that’s just me? But I think they’re very sweet and comforting to be around, not to mention they’re quite supportive and willing to listen when you’re having a tough time with something!! 💕💓❤️The pillar of support and one of the few rare people I don’t mind interacting with (actually crave interacting with them) because of just how chill they are, I wish more people recognize that in a scorpio! 💕💓❤️

Libra/Aries is one of my longest childhood friend, probably from birth! 💕💓❤️ He’s a supportive big brother type figure. But he can be very silly and he doesn’t hold himself so seriously most of the time! 💕💓❤️ Whilst he’s very understanding and quite nosy with others, he tries to be subtle/sleek but he isn’t! I think he’s very endearing when he wants to be, and he deserves someone who loves him lots as well 💕💓❤️ We reunited for the first time in 6 years the other day? And I think we both ended up crying a little and holding hands because we miss each other alot! 💕💓❤️ It was very nice, I think he’s much more emotional (just suppressed) than what people realize! 💕💓❤️ He’s very caring though - like willing to talk you through your problems and make sure you’re taken care of, back on your feet, but also willing to smile scarily at people who’ve hurt you and actually take them to court/yell at them for you. I think its very sweet! 💕💓❤️

Virgo/Sag is someone I hung out with for a short period of time, but kept in contact with periodically throughout my life because we ended up going through similar majors/path in life! 💕💓❤️ She’s someone who’s very caring, wants to take care of you, when she’s endeared by you she makes sure to dote on you often! 💕💓❤️ Actually, she’s born a day after Namjoon I think? But that’s not the point, the thing is - she’s my virgo/sag and when she’s not by my virgo/sag she’s super cool and I can see that many of our friend respects her/think she’s very mature + she’s the Shit! 💕💓❤️ I really admire her too and I think she’s super cool, but more than that, I love how caring and tender she is. She’s the best 💕💓❤️

These are the people I grew up with, and then I went to college and met/lived with Scorpio/Cap + Pisces/Scorpio+Aqua. 

Scorpio/Cap and I actually hit it off since the first day? We were in orientation, and we’re both talkative I guess! But in similar ways. He appreciates my bluntness/sense of humour and I like that he’s sarcastic and the only one engaging enough to be around/paying attention to what’s happening. We went to a house party together and then had 1 class together the semester. After that, me and him decided we’d live together off campus (along with our other friend who fell through, I think he’s a Leo?) - whilst we lived together we share majors in the same division, on holidays or at night after class, we’d grab dinner together + walk there, or we’d eat at home and binge watch a marathon he’d pick together. 💕💓❤️ It’s really fun! 💕💓❤️ 

Both of us like cooking, so he’d make dishes/drinks and I’d do that and we’d coerced each other to hang out in the living space together. Basically, we’re there to force each other to socialize/hang out with people and also encourage each other. It’s very fun! But we also had moments where we’d buy each other dinner/go to art galleries/exhibit together. There’s more serious too of course, like talking about our problems or worrying about stuff. But I think I found someone who looks out for me/I can look out for him, be confidants for each other and not be embarrassed with each other. Besides this, he also found my p0rn collection and suddenly mentioned it when we’re on campus so now I can never unfriend him because he has blackmail material on me. I’m forced to be his friends forever now. 

Pisces/Cap and Pisces/Aqua are my roommates after Scorpio/Cap - actually, Pisces/cap invited me to live with them when I was finding a place, it was very fortunate! 💕💓❤️ We’re all close friends because we live in the same hall during first year, plus me and Pisces/cap (and a Gemini friend) would get drunk + go to parties together so!! This is very convenient! 💕💓❤️

Actually.. Pisces/cap, me and Gemini friend.. I went with Gemini friend to buy his apartment with him (along with his friends, I’m good friends with them too) and Pisces/cap went with him to buy furnitures lmao! 💕💓❤️ And then me and Pisces/cap moved in together, although I didn’t room with them. I roomed with Pisces/Aqua whom till this date is my favourite roommate I’ve ever lived with! 💕💓❤️

It’s a little messy with Pisces/Cap but not in a? bad way? at all? Like we’re close friends who still talk often, but they did confess once over the holidays, and I turned them down (that was when I was about to move in) - we did make out along with pisces/aqua but like.. that’s... I guess that’s normal for college y know? We did a couple projects together for their class, like a comic about me and gemini friend, poems, photography, I drew them something. And I think they did have something with Gemini friend as well but! Gemini friend moved away on the last year so it never went anywhere there. 

But these are all good memories we had together and it’s not like-- bad at all, I don’t ever think badly at them for it because it was honest to them/for them, it was their emotions and tenderness from the heart? I can’t ever look down on anyone for that or judge them for being true to themselves, I actually think they’re very brave to be able to heal themselves and process things especially involving emotions like that. I also think these are all precious and honest memories, being friends with them definitely helped me grow my EQ by so much. Without them, I’d be very close-minded today! 💕💓❤️ 

Pisces/aqua is my roommate for a long time, and I love them to bits too! 💕💓❤️ They have two cats, both I love so so much and would sacrifice getting up for very often! 💕💓❤️ More than that, Pisces/aqua is so smart and able to pick things up immediately! It’s honestly very admirable, how they pierce things together. Whether it’s tarot or astrology, they’re the one who got me into this actually? 💕💓❤️ It was their interest before it became mine through proxy or maybe osmosis lmao, but they’re quite judgey and sometimes have a ? idk, superiority complex/elitist attitude towards stuff sometimes? So I never really talked about it much with them because it can get really frustrating sometimes 💕💓❤️ I do love them lots though, I can be ignorant of a lot of things and really slow on the uptake, but they’re very nice and kind and patient with me - honestly they’re as patient as a saint sometimes with me. And I’m really really thankful to them for it! 💕💓❤️ They’re getting married this year to a Scorpio! 💕💓❤️

Taurus/taurus and Cancer/cancer are my college best friends. Actually we hang out outside of class too! 💕💓❤️ I celebrated cancer/cancer’s birthday with them and their friends/roommates and it’s really fun. Heres why it’s -- like, momentous. It’s because my college classmates are more like colleagues or co-workers, so we don’t usually have that kind of camaraderie outside of first year. Plus, we’re all kind of working or busy with our private life outside of class - so it’s hard to reconvene that with who you know in classrooms. 

They like their private life separated from the college one, which is what I prefer as well. I really adore them though, since we have a major that usually makes us get little to no sleep and have to stay at school at night-till morning most nights (for programs on the computer or printing facilities, rip) -- they’re the one who would either stay up with me, working together at the same table and we can ask each other for fresh eyes on our work. Or they’d motivate me to go home and not be stupid to stay at school. Or they’d drive me home so they know I get back safely/on time. It’s just -- I adore them so much they’re very very good! 💕💓❤️

Taurus/Taurus is also a college best friend whom I befriended later on in the years, they’re really sweet! 💕💓❤️ We have more of a friendship where we spend time outside together, walking in the city trying out a new cake store or just going back to their place to play games or talk about what else we have going on in our lives. They’re really busy!! Since they’re involved in church activities, they travel to another town an hour away every sunday - their dedication to their work, school and church (AND spending time with their fiance’s family + fiance) is amazing! 💕💓❤️ They also got me my first job at the firm they’re working in, in our last years - I made sure they’re not too tired and get their work done on time so they don’t rush their finished project. Or give better advice if the teacher is making them fume. I really like them lots too, we had alot of fun together AND they’re a foodie! 💕💓❤️

There’s another Libra/Aries whom I knew from college, while I was still living with Scorpio/Cap - I was in another town/not the same town as the Pisces back then. But Libra/Aries was close and she’d come by often! We’d travel the city together, lay on the lawn, go to parks together or exhibit. They’re very proactive and we spend a lot of time talking about work and projects, personal interests, when we watch movies together - we’d spend time sitting in cafes after watching them to talk for hours/until closing about the movie ( ‘we have alot to unpack’) -- they’re a lot of fun to talk to because they’re just as intense about stuff! 💕💓❤️ And their interest is genuine, give good hugs, a little too loud for our cats but she means well! 💕💓❤️ 

This is brief recount of everyone, mostly focusing on activities we did together but knowing them as people obviously made a big impression on me! 💕💓❤️ 

Leo/Caps are people I met since I finished college/working now, they’re my two admins on the blog actually! 💕💓❤️So internet friends, but I really click with and they’re soothing + fun to be around when I’m home/anywhere! 💕💓❤️ 

Sag/Taurus is also another internet friend, I’ve known her for a year now? But man, every conversation is an adventure and she’s so fun to be around! 💕💓❤️ Also very sweet and an extremely kind person, in a fire sign kind of way. Which means a lot of gawking from me and very loud laughs. But yes! 💕💓❤️ Very good people! 💕💓❤️

I do have friends from work... but well we’re not close enough for me to actually consider them good friends/talk about them personally? They’re nice! But I have yet to form a more positive opinion about them - it’s positive and negative, so I’ll see who survives and come through as a person I’d like to hang out with outside of work. 💕💓❤️

To Virgo/Pisces anon: 

Here’s my best friend application do I make the cut please reply 💕💓❤️

[kingtulipfr]

Got tagged by @fang-fr (I'm honored ;; )!

Rules: answer 17 questions, and tag 17 people

Nickname: Tulip!

Zodiac sign: Capricorn!

Height: my bf and I are the same height and if you ask him we're 5'7" but if u ask me we're 5'6"

Hogwarts House: Slytherin >:3

Last thing I Googled: uhhh unfortunately it was how to open the gas tank on my new car jcxhgjgxkfy

Songs stuck in my head: Gold by Trixie Mattel and Love Ain't by Eli Young Band currently gjxykfdtjhrs

Number of followers: 290!

Sleep: am Old Man,,, bed time is usually 9pm and regardless of when I fall asleep I cant ever sleep past like 8am lol

Lucky number: 52!!

Dream job: well it used to be veterinarian and now its ¯\_(ツ)_/¯! I guess ideally I'd like to draw or do graphic design but my current mailman job isnt bad

Wearing: comf pink scooby doo shirt,,, comf shorts

Favorite songs: oh no,,, okay so like general top bands w fave song or two from each: Zac Brown Band (bittersweet, remedy, highway 20 ride, beautiful drug), Passion Pit (live to tell the tale, I've got your number, I'll be alright, cry like a ghost), decemberists (I'll be your girl, culling of the fold, o valencia), lonestar (mr mom, front porch lookin in), trixie mattel (little sister, I'll wear your ring, red side of the moon), Siamés (summer nights, brothers, no lullaby)

Favourite instrument: cello <3

Aesthetic: hhhh orang,,,, but for real ones: neons but like in a respectable "you really are wearing that huh" kinda way, animal patterns, warm/autumn colors

Favourite author: its?? Hard. I dont really have a favorite anymore but currently I'm re-obsessed w Hunger Games so Susan Collins is p high rn, some other notable authors when I still read would be Erin Hunter and Chris d'Lacey.

Favourite animal noise: Guinea pig squeal!

Random: uhhh well I just wanna give some little things abt me since I havent said much here! I'm trans and gay/ace and I've been w my bf for 6 years and am now over 2 years on testosterone! We moved from FL to VA (drove myself w our roommate and 3 cats and 1 gecko, 2 of those cats screamed The Whole Time)

Idk if I can tag 17 ppl/dunno who's been tagged already but!!

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[kaisooficrec]

College AU Request

This is part two of this post. 

Last college au request was over a year ago and since this is a very popular au the list is insanely long! There are some fics older than the last req but that weren’t recommended yet so I included those too ^^ enjoy and don’t forget to leave kudos & comments to the authors ♡♡♡

La Taille Parfaite - (ongoing) soulmates au, kyungsoo dreams of his soulmate’s dick and can’t wait to meet him

Criminally Romantic - kyungsoo is an author and jongin is a huge fan

Yes, the Brisket is Braised - (ongoing) Kyungsoo works part-time in a restaurant in which he meets the campus’ most popular jock jongin and is an asshole to him

Our Season - (ongoing) wolf & abo, they’re in the same frat house and are attracted to each other, but there are other guys who want a piece of kyungsoo’s ass (read: junmyeon is a little piece of shit)

The Deflowering of Do Kyungsoo - (ongoing) kyungsoo is very insecure about himself but jongin loves him and wants to show him just how much 

Sucker + Supermassive Black Hole - last two parts of a series where the boys are in college, established relationship, they deal with the struggles of life and how to keep their love going

Flawless - (ongoing) kyungsoo likes to crossdress which make people judgmental about him. he thought jongin was like all those people who make fun of him but jongin genuinely likes him

this gap can’t keep us apart - (ongoing) kyungsoo is in college and takes the bus every morning where he meets businessman!jongin and they start talking and getting close. turns out jongin is sehun’s older brother who is kyungsoo’s friend and they meet at their house when jongin discovered his girlfriend cheated on him again

Prank Gone Wrong - kai is a known prankster, so his bf ksoo decides to prank him instead one day. it backfires in a way he didn’t expect

Coffee - jongin found out taemin cheated on him which led him to the cafe where kyungsoo works~

Wild Flowers Worth Knowing - (ongoing) ot12 vampire au, kyungsoo’s life has changed for good after discovering vamp!jongin’s secret

i just need the time and place to come through - after ksoo’s been dumped jongin wants to teach how to fuck around, until he realizes he doesn’t want anyone else to have kyungsoo but him

run batted in - sports au, they’re from different colleges and during a competition they meet and voilà it’s instant love

Draw Me Like One of Your French Girls - (ongoing) kyungsoo is in a studio art class and jongin is his nude model

lately all i want is you on top of me - *cries hearts* they both think they’re straight until jongin accidentally sends a pic of his ass to kyungsoo and it marks the beginning of their gayness

Campaigning For Your Heart - elections au, enemies to lovers, they both support different people and get into heated arguments, which is all just bottled up sexual tension really

there are no wrong mistakes - /heart attack/ kyungsoo is a homebody who’s quiet and thinks he is boring. his roommate’s best friend thinks otherwise. 

Pay Me Some Mind - (how was this not recced before? lol) fwb to lovers, kyungsoo doesnt know jongin’s had a crush on him for a while but that doesn’t stop him from catching feelings

Hurricanes - *my absolute fav* bad boy!jongin meets not-so-innocent!soo and they fuck, but kyungsoo thinks its a mistake and jongin is intrigued (liiiight angst)

You times infinite - they become study buddies and then kyungsoo is turned into a vampire and doesn’t know how to stay close to jongin without hurting him

A Certain Romance - sports au, they’re from different schools but during a competition, a certain captain catches ksoo’s attention and maybe he’s interested in football after all

Signal Lost (& Found) - /looooove this/ soulmates & coffee shop au, jongin gets tattoos of what his soulmate draws since he was a child and then one day it disappears, and he’s confused about what happened to his soulmate

Just Say You Want Me (That’s All It Takes) - god yes. established relationship and library fucking with top!soo and slut shaming. need i say more?

A Different Morning - (YEEEES) childhood bffs!kaisoo and vlogger!jongin, MUTUAL PINING but they’re both oblivious!!! 

Break a Leg - drama club au i liiiive for this! they had a one night stand and ksoo is kind of a bitter asshole who doesn’t want anything to do with super popular jongin after it

vertigo; crash - abo, omega!soo is accidentally put in the alpha dorms and jongin thinks he hates him

Clandestine Romance - arranged marriage but they love each other, ksoo is in his last year of college and his husband turns up to become his new dance teacher

Pumped Up Kinks - (ongoing) kyungsoo goes to a gay strip club for his 21st birthday and gets more than he bargained for

We Can Go Home - broken kaisoo, jongin has to ask his ex for help in maths, and then... KISS & MAKE UP

Mirrors - (ongoing) ksoo is a famous youtuber whose fans start a online fanwar with kim jongin’s fans. he decides to be mature about it and text jongin himself to apologize

So You Have a Crush (Here's How You Grapple with It) - sports au, jongin is a taekwondo player and has a crush on the judo captain ksoo, and tries to get him to teach him chokehold techniques. (smutttt)

Hair - (ongoing) kyungsoo found out he has stage 2 spinal cancer, so he decides that he wants to take some risks before he has to die, like have sex with a guy. and this is how he meets jongin

If Only I Knew - soulmates au, jongin wants to wait to find his soulmate to be in a relationship but when he meets kyungsoo he changes his mind (warning: character death)

Some Kind of Start - ksoo likes jongin and the latter knows but chooses to ignore it since he doesn’t like him back. sehun asks ksoo to fake date so he can make junmyeon jealous, but jongin is also a victim of jealousy

hold onto me tight and never let go - het!kaisoo with fem!soo, she has trouble letting go of her barriers and jongin really wants to get to know her more

P.S. You're Cute - (ongoing) jongin liked his senior’s profile on tinder and they matched

Cloud9 - transition from hs to college, jongin expressed his crush for ksoo although nothing happened, they meet again five years later in college

Perfection - vocal major!ksoo meets dance major!nini and decides he likes him and will take care of him

A Slice of Summer Love - jongin has a crush on the pizza delivery guy and orders too much pizza (very cute uwu)

I’m sorry I broke your hand, date me so I can make it up to you (kinda) - jongin tripped during a party and groped ksoo’s ass by accident, and ksoo’s reaction was to break his arm, but he took care of him as a form of apology

Aspartame (Just As Sweet) - jongin’s friend creates him an account on a sugar daddy website as a joke but he was curious and kept it and met kyungsoo

Kim Jongin's Must Kiss List - after an accident during a bake sale in high school, ksoo doesn’t stand jongin. in college nini puts up a “would kiss” list with ksoo’s name on it among others, and an angry ksoo retaliates by putting up a “would never kiss” list with only nini’s name on it, which is the start of everything

Love In Control - bdsm!au in which kyungsoo wanted a partner that would understand his needs and how to dominate him, and that person is kim jongin (warning: obviously bdsm and everything that comes with it. please read the tags carefully!)

No buts, just beauty - wolf au, kyungsoo is bullied and being told he’s ugly, jongin is making sure he feels beautiful

[Ain't] My Fault - top!soo greatness :-) they meet while jongin’s still with sehun but they break up soon after bc sehun cheated on him, and ksoo’s here to pick up the broken pieces

Treasure Trove - dragon au, ksoo is sick n jongin went to his room to give him candy and then they netflix and chill (literally)

Waiting for You to Make a Move - i’m fucking in love with this fic omg ;___; JONGIN IS A DRUM PLAYER and they were crushing on each other during the bus ride in the morning and then ksoo goes to chanyeol’s band’s gig and THERE HE IS JONGIN THAT SEXY MOTHERFUCKER. yes read it please (smut)

This is a start of something new.. - police officer!soo goes to check a college party that wasn’t reported and is stuck with a flirty jongin

Cafe Eau Laid - /sweats profusely/ wolf au and coffee shop au, jongin has a crush on a cute costumer that comes otfen but thinks the friend that comes along is his boyfriend when he’s really just an idiot. (public sex n size kink, you know its good)

My Universe - set in college au but it’s also mama au, jongin is having weird dreams that seem like memories of another life, and dreams of a certain guy that he seems close with.

Sweep You Off Your Feet (Or Mop Around) - kyungsoo works as a janitor at nini’s college to help support his family. they get to know each other and kyungsoo doesn’t tell him he’s not a student but after an incident, he’s fired from the job and has to forget about jongin as well

This is the college au tag for older requests ♡

- Admin Macaroon

[diamondeyes-deluxe]

So to provide some more context, me and my bf went to our old roommates new house warming party. She's hypersexual, we've had a 3way with her before, and most of the people there were one night stands of hers as well. Ugh, her and our friend and some random guy she brought went upstairs to fuck and we were like "yall good?" And they were like "yeah we all think you're both hot, wanna join?" And we were like "uh I gotta take my brother home first because he's 16 and I did NOT know it was gonna be this kind of party" so we took him home and came back and they were just... waiting for us lol...

So stuff gets wild n everyone's making out with everyone n tops are coming off. I think i kissed? 4 ppl tonight? N I turn n my friend and this guy are just full on rawing it on the recliner next to us and I'm like 😶 so me n my bf and another friend go upstairs and go at it n that guy from downstairs comes up like "hey I want you" n im like "oh that sucks" but he was kinda cute i wish I slept with him. But he had DID and was saying he was like a pirate from the 1400s and speaking German so I felt... a little weird about it, but I made out with him. Uhhh sex sex sex, a collar got involved, a couple organs, then he tried fingering me but was going ham and scratched me n I started bleeding 😰 but it wasn't too bad really.

Stuff settled down n i go downstairs to see my friend getting railed and im like "oh nice" and then me and her roommate made pizza.