#or misha trained jackles well

[magnificent-winged-beast]

[queermania]

ok i wanna preface this by saying i’m not trying to bait at all! this is a genuine, looking for clarification on a complicated situation, question. and please forgive me if i’ve worded some things poorly/weirdly, articulation is hard lol.

anyway! having been in the spn fandom for a few years now, i’ve obviously heard that “jackles is homophobic.” personally i don’t believe he is, well actually yes, or at least he was, because (as you said in a recent post, very well said btw) being uncomfortable with being perceived as gay is still homophobia. but i’ve never believed he actually hates gay people or is a full-on f-slur-using homophobe like i’ve seen people claim.

but like i said, i’ve only been in the fandom since like 2018/19, so the only thing i’ve ever seen referenced for why people say he’s homophobic is from that one con when, upon a person just mentioning destiel at the beginning of their question, he said smth along the lines of “let’s not ruin it for everybody.” obviously, that’s not a good response! that was mean.

other than that, everything else i’ve seen about jackles’s relationship to anything queer is like, his past roles and him going to drag shows and happily signing destiel art. but again, that’s what i’ve observed in only the past few years.

so what i’m wondering is, besides that one con situation (which i’ll repeat, i know was bad), what else has jackles done/said that is, or even just could be interpreted as, homophobic?

thanks for bearing with me, and if you do decide to answer, thanks again!

so that's the main one (and i want to say for the record that i know there are people who think he was scolding the audience for booing or that he was in an impossible situation or there were extenuating circumstances or whatever but i think that's being a little willfully obtuse. he was being an asshole when he said what he said and he should have handled that situation better because he was a trained professional doing a job and the girl who asked the question was a paying customer and nobody deserves to be belittled for their sexuality. full stop.).

there's another one about him writing "?no" on an essay a fan brought for him to sign about dean's bisexuality. this one is highly in dispute because the only person who really knows what happened is the person who brought the essay and i've seen an account from someone who claims to be that person saying that the whole thing was a silly back-and-forth between them and jensen that was all in good fun and that the internet then misinterpreted and ran with. i don't know if that's true. but i do know this is one of the things people most often cite as evidence that he's homophobic.

the rest of the examples are really just casual homophobia type stuff (that jared and misha are also guilty of doing like making blow job jokes and jokes about how it's emasculating to be a bottom or whatever) and/or people assuming things in the most bad faith way possible (like misha saying that they had to get jensen's permission to do the confession) and/or people attributing things to him that are not actually his fault (like destiel questions being banned at cons for so long). and to be perfectly honest a lot of it is just him not saying what they want him to say about dean being queer or about destiel, which, you know, isn't actually homophobia. it is him being a bit of a wet blanket about it, but like.............. that's not really the same thing.

so yeah. mostly just a lot of casual homophobia.

[incarnateirony]

So, there's been something I've wondered about for a couple years now, and even more so since stalking your blog pretty heavily for the last few weeks and reading lots of old posts.

Something obviously shifted in Jensen's view of Destiel a few years back, it was a wildly noticable change. You said during 15x18 filming, which I am totally clear on, and also something earlier having to do with TAW (and maybe Mark P?)? I don't know much about that, not sure I want to.

But the point is, now that Jensen gets it, do you think he regrets any of his previous brushing off/gruffness/annoyance at the DeanCas stuff?

I just--some of his earlier behavior (2017 and earlier) was frustrating and I'm never quite sure what to believe. Jackles long con? Was he Heston'ed?

Of course he's always been entitled to his own opinion, but now that his opinion has changed, do you think he understands why some fans got upset?

(Sorry to go anonymous with this, I'm genuinely just curious if you'd heard anything or have an opinion on it. But nearly every time I publicly interact with your blog, bitches be trippin in my inbox. Idk how you deal with it.)

it's a bit of a mix. first, he had a terrible introduction to ships in this fandom. He was a young actor, everywhere he went, there was wincest. Wincels reframe it now, but on their own boards back in the day, they knew he didn't like it. The so proud "My favorite is wincest" they trained the new kids to cut off his expression and "because it's. SO weird." and on their forums they ratted and begged each other to never mention it to Jensen again back then. Because not just that. Wincest was used for pranks. They superglued it to phones to torment cast members. They basically rickrolled each other with wincest porn. It was literally an eternal mockery of them that made the old season "that's just sick" honestly seem gentle. But they've. Buried this.

So you gotta understand the first MINIMUM 3 years that's all jensen knew. Then Misha came in and kept getting extended and kinda got ball and cup plot shuffled with Anna at some point, so like. Anything that popped up back then. Sure, Sgriccia was like, wow, that's gay. But. Again. What's the mood about ships on set right now.

It took several years for them to realize there was even like. An actual ship. Because realistically like. they don't... see wincest as a ship. They saw it as a gross joke, like dropping flaming doggie doo on someone's door. So there's that.

Then add in like. The Chad Kennedy shit. The s10 press packet drop. The S11 mass salty author exodus, etc.

So we look at 2017--for the record, Doesn't Exist was before he got the 12.19 script. Just fyi. Or. You know. [gestures at all the following seasons]

all that man knew before then was WB was like hell no. He hadn't yet been handed Bobo's first step on the highway to gay mega hell

But yes, the shift mostly came arounnnnnnnd. Well. Hm.

He was lightly jolly about it but mostly in a comedic way that still didn't sit well with many. Some time around Wayward, A Little Birdie sent some names to some people with some power to put it on some lists watched by some security company that condensed the reports and gave nice readouts to the ackles on who seemed like a threat to their family.

And they saw a lot of bitching about Destiel.

You ever hear of spite shipping? Yeah. They done that to themselves. From like. IDK. jan or feb 2018 give or take, climbing upwards, there was a lot more banter, a lot more jokes that didn't have negative possible reads, a lot of chuckles. And then he'd go backstage, check his phone, and enjoy the assholes that hate his wife and friend shitting their pants that he DARED to support Destiel. Lather Rinse. Repeat.

It was 15.18 that actually torpedoed him.

hope that cleared it up.

[orionsangel86]

Thinking today about what I would say to my post SPN finale self if I could go back in time and speak to her.

Girl dry your tears and forget this stupid show. It will never truly end so no point wasting any more energy on it.

You'll love the J2 divorce. Real fun times. Full on break down twitter tantrum from the pissbaby because Jackles decided to create a SPN prequel no one asked for and forgot to tell his "BFF".

Jackles mind is insane. The finale must have broke him as much as it broke you. Dude goes and writes and creates a whole song from Dean's POV in which he reciprocates and confesses to Cas. Destiel goes canon for the 194747291027 time.

Later, after a year of desperate begging, Jarpiss manages to get Jackles to direct on his stupid cop show, and Jackles, being the perfect mix of insane and passive aggressive, fills his episode with easter eggs specifically related to Misha, Castiel, and Destiel. Jury's still out on whether the overgrown man baby noticed.

Not to worry though girl, by this point in time you'll be too wrapped up in celebrating an actual explicitly queer gorgeous lead love story romcom about gay pirates to pay too much attention to the train wreck that is everything SPN. Turns out, there are actual filmmakers out there who choose to treat you with respect.

So dry those tears and ease up on the rage, since the bitterness in your heart will keep simmering for years to come and you might as well enjoy the drama rather than let it actually affect you in any way that matters.

[ugh-againwiththenames]

more cursed thoughts...

Hey, so I totally love that we’re all losing our collective minds about the Jensen “solo gold panel on Saturday” Ackles recently…but…has anyone stopped to consider how much of a train-wreck that’s going to be?!

(Below the cut for my long winded thoughts on this...)

The man hasn’t done a solo panel in a while – not in front of a live audience, and he’s not good at them to start with (again, this is nothing against my boy, it’s simply a fact), at least not when he’s sober (and in most cases, even when he’s not!).  He doesn’t like being thrown to the wolves on his own, and you’re fucking lying if you don’t consider yourself a wolf…He gets bitchy when he's asked stupid questions, or questions he can’t or isn’t allowed to answer, and he doesn't handle it well - and he’s going to shut down so fast the moment someone gets through with a Post-Confession question – he’s still not going to choose a side, if you think the boy will alienate a whole side of the fandom to choose a side, you’re wrong.  From a PR standpoint alone, that would be suicide.   I know that we like to live in our little bubble over here (and I will gladly sit in it and manifest along with you) but, regardless of how you cut this, a solo panel is going to be torturous for him.  Everyone is over here, ‘we’re gonna get answers out of Jackles’, my dudes, my friends, my people….no, you’re not, and then you’re going to be even MORE MAD – please please do me a favour and do not HOPE for Jackles to take a stand... It’s not cowardly, and it’s not meant as a slight to either side of the fandom – it’s simply in his best interest to NOT Draw the utter Vitriolic Hatred he would receive by definitively throwing down on either side (even though I’m pretty certain we all know what side that would be).  I understand we want a definitive answer, I really really do, but I cannot bear the idea of him being utterly bastardized if he doesn’t say “yes, it’s reciprocated, Dean loves Cas, you weren’t fucking crazy” verbatim...

More bits and pieces I feel crazy about: 

- Him not speaking about Destiel at cons is NOT his fault, it is Creation’s, please lay your blame in the right place, he’s simply following the rules; and you can be sore about that, but you can’t deny it. The fact that Misha has been talking about it recently is great, but they have not been Creation cons, so let’s all hold our thoughts on that until then...

- If you think that Jensen is unaware of Misha’s chaos, you are nuts, he knows, he approves, and he’s happy to let Misha carry it out.  He’s still liking social media posts, he’s clearly not mad at Misha, which to me, specifically, speaks to the fact that he knows about these posts prior to them being made. Misha would never antagonize Jensen - never intentionally place him in a situation he wouldn’t be comfortable with...please remember that...

- Jackles SM silence speaks louder than words - guys, we know this; it always has - he is CALCULATED - he is NOT ACTIVE on SM!! (AND) He specifically stays away from the thirst traps (the fact that he liked Misha’s bloody shirt post was a shocking anomaly not the norm), and let’s be fair - Misha also does not partake in liking the JA traps (however few and far between they are...3am bathroom selfies for example?).  I would bet my -(ok i have nothing of value, but if i did, I would bet it)- that this is also something that they agreed on together...because it’s actually SO LOUD.

- I said that it would be PR suicide for him to choose a side, and I understand that people are like “so what? he needs to decide where he stands here, and his PR should not take precedence over this” - why?...Because I guarantee you’re about to sound very childish.  He is an actor, in his mid-40′s, trying to accelerate his career after spending 15 years dedicating his life to one show (!) - his SM following (which nearly doubles the following of JPad or Misha, if we look at IG), and his public image are INSANELY important to him. Especially now...Drama is NOT what he needs right now - launching a new production company, acting in a new role, planning a new SPN related show...PR suicide would be disastrous. Chaos? absolutely, Drama? no.  

- We are NOT J2 fans...but guys, HE is part of that side (whether or not he WANTS to be, doesn’t change the fact), regardless of how you break it down.  He is the only member of the group that is SOLIDLY in both sides of the fandom (which, let’s be honest, probably plays a major role in his higher SM following), and he will be utterly CRUCIFIED by one side of the fandom REGARDLESS of where he comes down. It will be bloody, and it will be awful.  Misha has the freedom to say and do what he wants without risking ANY of his fans...and we love him for it, and so does J...*shrug* please do the math here...

Look, I get that no one wants to hear that, and I would LOVE NOTHING MORE than for him to walk out on stage, say – “Yes, it’s reciprocated, now that that’s out of the way, let’s get this fucking show on the road, who’s up?” I want it so badly I can taste it, and I do think that he has hinted at that particular stance a number of times, but I’m soooooo gun-shy about hoping for that possibility to become reality, I cannot in any universe believe that it will happen.  He’s naturally sooooo careful, so pointedly silent on the topic (outside of a few slips over the years), I’m certain that expecting anything less than that would be the definition of insanity for the fandom at this stage.  I will drop dead right here if he ends it spectacularly – I will GLADLY be proven wrong (please, please prove me wrong - get Mish on stage and lay one on him - DO IT), I just don’t want to see Jackles hate if he doesn’t…and that’s the piece I’m scared of, because I can already see the train heading for the brick wall on this...

[hopefullystillatheatrestudent]

this might be a weird thought but the way jensen performs masculinity (and i KNOW it’s a performance cause like, have you SEEN the mockumentary?) is just.... so inherently queer to me lmao

ok. okokokokokok. you asked for this. i have a LOT of thoughts on this. it’s gonna be under a cut because i’m gonna be annoying and psychoanalyse a celebrity i’ve never met(and hope i never do) but trust and believe when i tell you i know what i’m talking about so

you want my opinion? here goes. there is absolutely no way jensen ackles is straight. i hear you, ‘how do you know that he’s bi? that’s invasive and creepy’ but may i counter that point by saying how do you know he’s straight???? why is the default for everyone heterosexual? that’s a toxic mentality to have; ‘oh you don’t know for sure so just treat him like he’s 100% straight just in case’ like....what? heteronormativity drives me wild i’m sorry

and also, um, just to, um, prove my point that this man is decidedly not straight™(i really don’t want to do this but like it has to be said) we KNOW he’s not straight because his d*ck has spoken for itself around misha, like, four times. I HATE SAYING IT!!!!!!! but, um, straight men don’t get aroused by men. ...do i really need to explain myself further???? that’s what i thought(and don’t give me the ‘it could have been for unrelated reasons’ or ‘that wasn’t a boner!’ crap because um good lord yes it was and misha caused every single one so no it wasn’t a coincidence i’m gonna move on before i collapse into myself like a dying star)

anyway, on to the topic at hand which is jensen and his performative masculinity. and it’s a juicy one.

after the unconscious amount of hours i’ve put into watching and subconsciously judging jackles, i have come to the conclusion that like, 90% of how he presents himself and talks and even moves is an act. it’s a facade. it’s a shield. he is not that person. it actually seems exhausting, because he tries to compose himself in this macho, manly, confident and effortlessly cool way, but he’s not that person he desperately wishes he was and wants to be perceived as. he’s on guard every second, even the slightest tilt of his head is like, pre-meditated in some way? if i’m going FULL body language analyst mode, i’ve noticed he has a certain posture he always shifts himself into, and it’s very ‘pursed lips, stoic faced, gruff voiced, square-shoulder, broad and manly’ but, not to be rude jensen, it kind of reads as a little kid imitating the adults he thinks are cool? oof i am going IN huh(it’s out of love though i promise)

he is trying to be this person at every second:

because that’s who he wishes he was, because that’s how he gets validation from the people around him that he looks up to; straight white guys. but to me, who he presents himself to be at conventions is just as much of a performance as this whole eye of the tiger bit is.

oh i should mention i know his body language isn’t naturally like that because how he naturally carries himself is actually pretty flamboyant? like he seriously must be toning himself down HARD

examples:

there’s no tension in his body here as opposed to the eye of the tiger gif. i’d describe it as...generally loose and free? he’s at ease when he moves like that and you can see it.

oh and dude!!! DUDE!!!! how could i not mention the fucking SPECTACLE that is his voice??? jensen. i watched season one. i know where your voice naturally sits. THAT IS NOT WHAT YOU SOUND LIKE. and there have been so many accounts of fans visiting jensen in his trailer and being surprised that his real voice is two octaves higher. again, his performance of masculinity is all encompassing. he can’t even talk normally because, in his mind, that’s a chink in his armour.

and, like you said, anon, this whole smokes-and-mirrors gong show of ‘i am the cool texan man’ is inherently queer. who are you trying to impress??? guys??? that’s pretty gay dude.(btw: gay[honorary])

i feel like i’ve already read this man for filth but i have to keep going bc i have so much to say

ok next thing i’m gonna talk about is how jensen says one thing but everything else about him tells us the exact opposite. another HUGE element of performative masculinity, ONE THAT DEAN WINCHESTER IS A MASTER OF. have i mentioned how dean and jensen are like mirrors of each other when it comes to their sexuality and queer identity??? because it is fascinating how everything i say about jensen also directly applies to dean.

allow me to introduce the grumpy face™. as in, the face he glues on when he’s enjoying doing something but doesn’t want to let anyone know it. and it’s ALWAYS when he’s doing something that could be seen as unmanly in any way. (and when i say manly i mean the ‘ideal’ version of manhood that doesn’t really exist but that jensen seems to be striving for[and dean too])

prime example is this video he did with daneel. the grumpy face™ doesn’t budge the whole time as he’s like,,,,playing an instrument and acting like he doesn’t want to bc i guess that’s too girly??? but i also find this video fascinating because the joke IN it is kind of that they’re both poking fun at him for being so insecure about playing a freaking flute. because, i mean, he gets into it, but he wants you to think he is not.

also this picture.

what is this. i hate them. jensen is smushing himself into misha’s forehead but noooo his face is telling us ‘i hate this’ because CLEARLY he does. also misha’s so happy ew gross

he does that face in photo ops with misha ALL THE TIME but how many times has he also literally asked the con goers if he can also have those photos on his phone too? because of course he actually loves touching misha and is actually a sentimental fool but he tries so hard to hide it and fails so spectacularly.

oh and this. and of COURSE this. actually let’s talk about the hitch kiss for a hot minute because it’s a perfect example of exactly what i’m talking about

(he is so transparent guys. he tries so hard but he’s so obvious.)

1. misha was never supposed to be onstage with him. so it’s a boldface LIE and OBVIOUS PLOY TO GET MISHA TO KISS HIM when he says ‘they’d like us to make out now’. but of course the way he says it is ‘oh my god can you believe what these crazy panel people are making us do haha but i mean what they say goes amirite’. same energy as ‘oh my god did you just dare us to kiss rn???’ ‘....no i didn’t’ ‘oh my god i can’t believe you’d ask that haha but i can’t say no to a dare lol’ it’s the SAME THING

2. the fact that he was in the worst mood before misha came onstage and FAKE KISSING HIM made him feel...SO?? much better? like not just a little better a lot better like, again, that says a lot, because if they weren’t dating he would not be in a better mood if misha kissed his cheek unprompted. bc that cheek kiss wasn’t a joke it was a genuine sign of affection and AHHHH

3. after the kiss happens. you know, the one that jensen actively leans into and is smiling like an idiot the whole time through and is quite clearly having the time of his life during....he says ‘well, that was uncomfortable’. .......my guy. um. i don’t know how to tell you that i do in fact have eyes and you are NOT pulling the fast one you think you are

like i’m so sorry jensen but i have you pegged. it’s literally no use.

god there’s so many instances of him doing this with misha specifically. the whole ‘ew gross lol’ but then everything about him tells us the exact opposite. like this(i hate this. how dare he say ‘he has though, hasn’t he?’ LIKE THAT?????)

so yeah my point with that is he really wants us to think he is one thing when he is the antithesis of what he’s trying to be. he really likes those things that he talks down about, and everything he’s loudly projecting is all to hide how he really feels. he went to a gay bar with daneel, for crying out loud. he wants to play a role in drag. he’s queer and he likes it. pov: you’re jensen ackles train of thought: ‘ok so i really like this thing that people might make fun of me for or call me gay for liking so if i just say ‘lol as if’ and make a grossed-out face they will be FOOLED. i am a genius. hey misha wanna blow on my ear lol i meAN GROSS EW’

i have two more things i want to talk about when it comes to this topic so PLEASE bear with me anon this is why you took so long to answer clearly lmao

ok so we’re now going to go over my favorite hot take of all time. which is ‘how do we know dean’s performing masculinity? because sam isn’t.’ only replace dean with jensen and sam with jared and oh my god do we ever have a case

jared is as STRAIGHT as they come. he is secure in that knowledge. and that’s why he is perfectly comfortable treating misha like this:

and not try to scream ‘i am not enjoying doing this!!!!!!’ at us. because he doesn’t care what we think of his sexuality like jensen does(because he has nothing to hide whereas jensen DOES)

something i found the other day that no one has brought up but i SCREAMED upon finding it is this one clip THAT I CAN’T FIND OH GOD but i promise i’m not making it up. i can’t believe i can��t find it guys it is gold. i need need NEED to talk about it. and if anyone knows what i’m referencing and can apply links in any way i will love you forever but here’s what happens off the top of my head:

ok so i’m a bit too braindead to explain it perfectly but um basically it’s a j2 panel and someone brings up magic mike and i think jared says ‘yeah i didn’t watch it’ and then jensen says ‘all the way through’. stupid joke. whatever. the joke is that jared is gay for watching magic mike.

and then i literally kid you not. jared gets this like ‘jesus christ ok dude? lol’ look on his face and then goes ‘projecting much, mr. ackles?’ and jensen gets a guilty look on his face and walks away. and jared did not say it as a joke. he was being dead pan and earnest. and jensen knew it too, he knew he was projecting. i wish i could show you guys the clip i promise if i ever find it i’ll link it but IS THAT NOT SO DAMNING FOR JENSEN????? like come ON. also proves my point that when you compare how they feel about watching magic mike. jared doesn’t care bc watching it just doesn’t interest him, but he also thinks that just watching it in itself doesn’t make you gay. jensen however.......has a different mindset, clearly.

‘projecting much, mr. ackles?’ is actually a great title for my next and FINAL section(we’re almost there folks) which is how jensen projects his insecurites about his own sexuality and relationship with misha onto misha.

i hope by now we’ve all seen this video of jensen impersonating cas. it is a blatant microaggression on his part. and like obviously homophobic. it’s like in his mind if he makes fun of them for being gay it makes them both less gay somehow??? it’s self-deprecation in a way??? let’s just tell it like it is: that impression was just jensen’s overt internalized homophobia rearing it’s ugly head. he does it a LOT too when it comes to misha.

i mean:

and that whole mess where he’s making fun of misha for being a bottom in their panel in 2016? ‘so you’re saying, like with football terms, there’s a handler and there’s a receiver heheheehe’ jensen you’re not exempt from being gay just because you know football terms lmao

oh and his OTHER impression of misha where he mocks him for...bicycling...because it’s not a manly enough sport??? jensen NO ONE else has ever thought this hard in their lives about what constitutes as masculine enough to be a sport before. that’s all you bud. we don’t find those jokes nearly as funny as you do. you are reaching, sir

the good news is that misha thinks it’s hilarious and knows it’s projecting on jensen’s part and will tease him endlessly for it. many stories come to mind, like that one photo op story where they’re literally dressed in rainbow banners and pride stickers but when misha goes to hold his hand jensen said something like ‘no way’ and then misha stepped back, put his hands on his hips and went ‘that’s the part that’s too gay for you???’ and jensen LOST it

or when that whole underwear thing happened(messy messY MESSY BTW) and then a fan asked a question about what dean and cas would do in rome and misha just said ‘when in rome’ and jensen makes a face like ‘are you serious’ and then misha says ‘you can’t look at me like that anymore, because of what you did!!!!!!’

OH and that whole story about when misha suggested they put jensen in the closet for that cat video....yeah um

and then when jensen was asked to do bisexual finger guns for a photo op and the con goer said ‘he looks bisexual here’ and misha literally said ‘oh he definitely looks bisexual here. i would say he’s actually closer to the gay side of the spectrum’ so..um...make with that as you will

OH MY GOD i’m finally done. wow. WOW. that was a lot. i hope i’ve blown your minds. ty anon i really wanted to talk about this and i hope you’re happy with the outcome!!!!!!

[onlyonekenobi]

Hi there 🐝💕 Firstly, thank you so much for your amazing blog.

Secondly, I was a fan of SPN many years ago and fell out of it for a while, only having gotten sucked back in after 15×18 (surprise). Back when I was into it before, there was a lot of discussion about Jensen being potentially homophobic, and now I'm noticing that there's been some..... less than awesome stuff said by Misha, too, in terms of the queerbaiting on the show and having only acted Castiel as in love with Dean this past season.

Obviously the content of the show itself proves this wrong, but it still troubles me, and I couldn't find much about it online other than a few posts by people and one con transcript. Do you have any feedback on this, and would you mind sharing it?

(Thank you so much, and no worries if you don't wanna answer, just keep being awesome!)

Hi!

I’ll do my best here, and I’ll try to track down some sources. also, idk if you sent this question to anyone else as well, but if you did, i’m interested to see what they say. if not, i am flattered to be your Trusted Source.

so, first: jensen re homophobia

I could be wrong, but I don’t remember him ever making any kind of “homophobic” comments OUTSIDE OF things regarding destiel that were construed that way by some fans (if i’m wrong, please let me know). I do remember him shutting down destiel comments, etc, and the infamous “?? no” which has since been debunked by the OP as having been taken out of context. (i can’t find the debunking post on my blog but if anyone has it please link!) with the shutting down destiel comments, he was definitely brash at times! but, I do think it’s also important to note that he and misha were explicitly told not to talk about it. and we know that jensen is (or at least especially used to be) a pretty shy guy, and I think destiel questions/comments being shoved in his face in a public setting- when addressing it could get him in trouble with his job- made him nervous and upset.

however, he took a noticeable shift re: destiel in recent years. for one, we know that he gave his blessing for the canon textual confession (again, I can’t find an og post in my absolute mess of late stage supernatural tags, but if anyone has the receipts, please drop them). I could add more of my own personal spec about how jensen shifted his acting choices in light of this information, but I’ll just move on. we know that he was excited about the confession scene. here’s a second post about that.

and re: general homophobia, here’s a post of jackles with pride flags, as well as a 2019 post from his aunt, who is gay. also, this is largely a shitpost, but I saw it in my jackles tag while looking for the above, and it feels relevant, so i’m including it. a little levity before we move on.

now, misha.

I am aware of misha saying two upsetting things in regards to “the confession wasn’t bury your gays, why are you so angry” Again, if there’s more that i’m forgetting, please let me know. The first was in this panel talk (start at 35:50) from November 22. Here is a relevant post about that moment (I also watched the whole panel live and agree with this post.) The second is this video on twitter, and the following thread, from Nov. 25. However, after several fans replied to him explaining why we were so upset, he issued this apology on Nov. 26. I wanted to give you the original link there, but I’m also including a screenshot with a thoughtful and important addition here. And here is a tweet about Misha finding out about The Castiel Project.

i’ve never heard anything about misha only acting cas as in love for the last season exclusively, so I don’t have any posts to expressly debunk it, but I do firmly believe that to be untrue, just based on things misha has let slip over the years

and for both of them, it’s worth noting that whenever they were asked direct questions about the show, they could only do their best to talk around things like queerbaiting, etc, because they obviously couldn’t actively speak out against the show or the network (like this). for example, we know that misha got a couple phone calls from producers on occasions where he toed the line a little too closely, and he commented how you unfortunately have to listen to the people who have the power to kill off your character (immediately following previous clip)

in conclusion

neither of them are homophobic. to the best of my knowledge, neither of them have ever made an outright homophobic comment. and in cases regarding destiel (again, to the best of my knowledge) they have both either changed course or apologized since making any unsavory comments.

there are also WAY more posts on all this that I didn’t include here. if you search the jensen or misha tags on my blog, or probably the blog of just about anyone i follow, you could look into it more

all that said, it’s also important to note that i am Just Some Guy. i did my best to compile this information in a relevant and meaningful way, but i have oversaturated-sponge-adhd-brain that has been actively following this fandom for a decade, and i’m sure some things got lost in there. so to anyone reading this, if i forgot anything critical, please don’t yell at me, i am but a simple internet jester, just like you.

and while we’re here, I’ll say that- while I do think it’s important to keep a critical eye trained everywhere- if we were going to criticize any spn cast members for unsavory comments, these two are certainly not where i would start

tl;dr, ultimately myself and jensen and misha are all Just Some Guy, and none of us know them, but as far as I can figure, they are both genuinely kind and thoughtful people who care about and respect the lgbt community, including their respective characters’ involvement in it and the real world consequences that has

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Everlasting

Summary: People always said that Hollywood was a whole other world. Soon, (Y/N) was about to find out just how different Hollywood could be. Characters: Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki, Misha Collins, Reader Pairing: Jensen x Reader Warnings: AU/Fluff/Angst Word Count: 5564 Prompts: “Loving me is a death sentence.” / “We found each other. That’s all that matters.” A/N #1: This is for @supernatural-jackles​ SPN Bi- Weekly Writing Challenge. Don’t judge me… I’ve been rewatching/rereading Twilight. *ducks from flying objects* A/N #2: Jensen Photo Edit Credited To: @justjensenanddean​

I stopped in front of the Stage One door, looking up at the massive building in front of me. The last month had led up to this very day. I was hired on by Warner Brothers to be the Personal Assistant to Jared Padalecki while he filmed in Vancouver. Even though being a PA was a horrible job, working on the set of my favorite TV show was a dream. I had spent my days leading up to my moving to Vancouver training my inner fangirl to be a normal human being.

“Remember they eat, breath, poop just like any other human.” I whispered to myself on the plane ride from my hometown.

“Girl, please! They are sculpted from marble by the hand of God himself. Just don’t embarrass us in front of them. Make a good impression!” She commanded as if I had any control over that.

Now, standing in front of the main sound stage, my stomach coiled into an anxious knot. Trembling I took a step forward through the door and found myself looking into the Men of Letters Bunker. My inner fangirl squealed with delight urging my body to walk through the set.

“Can I help you?” A tall, dark haired man stood with a camera rig around his waist.

I cleared my throat of the large lump forming within it, “Yeah, my name is (Y/N) and it’s my first day as a PA. The studio told me to go to Stage One when I arrived this morning.”

He smiled a soft chuckle coming from his chest, “Oh you must be Jared’s new wrangler. Here I will show you where to go.”

I followed him to a small office building that had on site office staff and writers housed. He pointed me in the direction of Susan, the executive assistant to Jim Michaels. She was on the phone as she waved me into her office. Standing off to the side was another woman with long, wavy blonde hair. Her fit body was covered by a simple pair of dark jeans, soft chocolate sweater and black knee high boots.

She stuck her hand out towards me, “Hi, I’m Ash. You must be Jared’s new PA.”

Shaking her hand I nodded, “I’m (Y/N).”

“I’m so excited you’re here. Now I don’t have to keep my eyes on both of them. I’m Jensen’s PA so you’ll be hanging with me quite a bit.”

Susan ended her call smiling up at the both of us, “Fantastic, you’re here! I will go with you to meet Jared and then you can shadow Ash for this week. How did your move go?”

“As well as could be expected moving from Kansas to Vancouver. My apartment is amazing.” It was the truth. The apartment Warner Brothers provided was twice the size of the one I had in Kansas.

Ash chuckled, “Yeah it’s nice until you have two Texans crashing your place at all hours.”

My eyes must have widened because both ladies began to laugh, “I haven’t told anyone that you are a fan, (Y/N).”

“Oh… yeah…” I felt my cheeks burning and my inner fangirl was doing cartwheels.

“We’ll keep that between us for now. Jensen and Jared will eat you alive if they found out that juicy piece of information.” Ash chuckled as I noticed Susan flinch slightly.

They led me back towards the row of trailers, the first of which, they stopped and knocked on the door. My heart was beating against my chest and my hands began to shake as the door opened. There stood Jared Padalecki in all his 6’4” glory. His chestnut hair damp from a shower, his light gray t-shirt clinging to his sculpted body and the waistband of his boxers peeking out from his low hanging jeans.

I sucked in a shaky breath making Ash chuckled beside me

“Jared this is your new PA, (Y/N). Be nice.” Susan warned, narrowing her eyes at him.

His laughter echoed around them, “I’m always nice. It’s great to meet you (Y/N). Susan and Jim have told me great things about you. Hopefully, we’ll be great friends.” He held out his hand to me.

When I placed mine in his, the heat coming off of it surprised me. The corner of his lips curling upward into a sly smirk. His hazel eyes caught my attention as flecks of emerald and sapphire seemed to shine. He let go of her hand taking a step towards Ash then leaning down to kiss her kiss.

“Now I see why you needed a new PA.” I mentioned as they both smiled at me, “I look forward to working and getting to know you.”

“Me as well. Are you taking her to meet grumpy pants?” Jared looked at Susan who brow was furrowed at the interaction.

Ash groaned, “Oh no, I thought after last night he would be in a better mood.”

Looking from Susan to Ash it seemed everyone was in on the secret except me, “I’m sure we don’t need to bother him before filming. I can always meet him another time.”

“I’ll take her over to meet him. I need to check in with him anyway and it will be a good experience for her.” Ash reached up giving Jared a quick kiss then stepping away from him.

“I think you have this under control, so if you need anything (Y/N) just come to my office. Please check in with me when you’re done with your day.” Susan did not wait for a reply and walked back towards the offices.

Jared chuckled, “You’d think after all this time that she would be used to us. Ugh!” Ash smacked him in the stomach giving him a stern look.

“Come on (Y/N), let’s go meet Jensen.” Ash and I waved goodbye to Jared.

We walked a couple of trailers down and again my heart began to race. I tried taking a few deep breaths to calm down but the moment she knocked on the door all the air in my lungs vanished. The door opened and Jensen Ackles looked down at us.

“Ash, why so early?” His velvet voice sent shivers down my body.

A slight breeze blew past us and his lean body went rigid. His bright olive eyes darkened to a deep forest green. His fists were clenched at his sides and I could see his arms trembling. Jensen narrowed his menacing gaze at me freezing me in place.

“Go. Away. Now.” He seethed going back into his trailer and slamming the door.

Wide eyed and stunned, I turned to Ash who was looking perplexed, “(Y/N) why don’t you go to craft services. Tell them you want Jared’s usually breakfast and bring it back to his trailer. I will meet you there.”

“O-Okay.”

Ash directed me to where craft services were and the wonderful owners started chuckling when I asked for Jared’s usual. I carefully balanced three cups of coffee atop of three styrofoam containers filled to the brim with eggs, bacon, sausage, pancakes, muffins and a small cup of fruit. Before I could knock, Ash opened the door to let me inside.

“Great job! My first day, I spilled the coffee.” Ash began to open the containers taking some food for herself and one of the coffees.

She handed another one to me with a soft smile, “Where’s Jared?”

“He’ll be back. He’s having a heart to heart with Jensen. For today, I would just stay clear of him.” I nodded sipping my coffee as Jared came back in frowning.

The morning and afternoon flew by as the guys began filming. Taking Ash’s advice, I made sure to stay out of Jensen’s way and even his line of sight. Not that it mattered because he was permanently in a foul mood for the day. Finally, around six o’clock Ash sent me to see Susan saying she could handle the rest of the evening filming.

Making my way to the offices, I had not seen Jensen for a while and as I made my way to Susan’s office I could hear his velvet voice coming from Jim Michaels’ office.

“She has to go.” He hissed, my heart dropping to my stomach.

There was a long sigh, “She comes highly recommended and honestly she is over qualified to even be a PA. She’s smart, talented and in need of getting her foot in the door. You better than anyone know that starts from the lower level. Did she do something or see something?”

Jensen let out a dark chuckle, “She hasn’t seen anything. She seems naive.”

“Then what’s the problem Jensen?”

There was a long pause before he answered, “She exists, that's the problem.”

I had heard enough and walked towards Susan’s door knocking before entering her office. She was packing up for the day when she looked up smiling at me, “How’d it go?”

I put on my best smile, “Jared and Ash are great. Even Misha behaved himself.”

“Jensen?” She inquired looking as if she were trying to see under my mask.

I squared my shoulders back determined to make this work, “Fine. I know my place and will keep my distance. He’s not who I have to worry about, so all that matters is how I keep Jared on time and in line.”

Susan seemed impressed by my answer then pulled out a manila envelope from her briefcase, “Legal didn’t have this drawn up at the time of your hiring. You will need to read this over and sign it by tomorrow morning.”

I took it from her, “Of course. I will have it for you first thing in the morning. Have a good night.”

Walking out of her office, I made sure Jensen was nowhere in sight. Feeling confident he was gone, I made my way towards my car. Looking down towards the ground as I walked past the row of trailers, I did not notice the black SUV behind me. The honk startled me as I tripped over my own feet landing firmly on my ass.

“Sorry, didn’t mean to scare you. Just needed you to move over a little.” I recognized the driver as Jared and Jensen’s bodyguard/driver, Clif.

The back window slid down as I stood up and Jensen’s dark eyes pierced through me. As they began to pull away I swore I heard a low hiss coming from him. I hurried to my car and drove off the lot as fast as I could. It was not until I was on the highway that my fired nerves finally started to calm down. I knew there was nothing special about me but having my favorite actor despise me sapped all hope out of my heart.

Once I was parked in my spot at my apartment building, I was standing at the elevator when the doors slid open revealing once again the gorgeous man who seemingly hated me.

“Are you following me?” He asked, walking directly at me glaring.

I stepped back, “No I-I’m not. The studio is renting an apartment for me here. I h-had no idea you lived here until Ash mentioned it this morning.”

He ran his hand over his sandy, brown hair, “Why did you take this job?”

His question took me by surprise for a moment, deciding honesty was the best policy, “I wanted to be a part of my favorite show and I wanted to learn more about the business. No better way than to start at ground level and work my way up.”

“Favorite show, huh? So, you like monsters?” He chuckled as if he had told himself a joke.

“The monsters are cool, I guess. I’m more invested in the story of the brothers. Plus there’s no romance in Supernatural which is nice.” I watched as his shoulders relaxed briefly.

His eyes glanced around then came back to me, “You don’t like a love story?”

“No. I’ve had my heart broken too many times. I’d rather escape into a world of monsters than deal with matters of the heart.” My own heart betraying me as it thumped against my ribs.

Standing in front of him now, Jensen was truly striking. His sharp facial features, fair skin, plump red lips and muscular body had my own body aching in ways it had not in years. He was beautiful.

“I should go.” He abruptly left walking off towards the street.

As soon as he was out of sight, I sucked in a deep breath willing my body to move towards the elevator. That night my dreams were filled with dark alleyways and forest green eyes.

Over the next several weeks, I fell into a regular routine on set with Jared and Ash. I kept to my word that I avoided Jensen at any cost, but had noticed he was continually coming around me more. At first, I thought it was just because of Jared, but then I noticed he was coming around when he was not needed on set.

My inner fangirl was urging and encouraging me to talk to him. Then my first time meeting Jensen flashed through my mind and kept me far away from him. The last day of filming for the week was a night shoot. Ash and I were constantly running to get coffee for ourselves and the crew to stay warm. Jared every once in a while would pull us both into a bear hug allowing his body heat to warm us up. We were in the middle of a forest as Jared and Misha were filming a scene and I was trying everything in my power not to chatter my teeth.

“You’re going to freeze to death.” His smooth voice brought heat to my cheeks.

I pulled my coat around me tighter, “I-I’ll be al-alright.”

His perfect lips pursed together before he slid his jacket off his shoulders, “Here take this,” He stepped just close enough to drape his large jacket over my shoulders.

“T-Thank you.” I slipped my arms inside surprised that it was slightly chilled still.

We stood there in silence watching as Jared purposely messed with Misha’s takes, “Children.” Jensen muttered as I chuckled.

In a rare moment I witnessed him smile brief and my inner fangirl sighed gracefully falling onto a lounge chair, “You have a great smile. It’s nice to see it.”

Jensen rolled his eyes, “Yes well, I’ve recently come to the realization that instead of trying to fight fate I should just embrace her cruel destiny.”

I raised an eyebrow at him confused, but decided it was better I remain silent. What did he mean by fighting fate? What destiny? My heart began to race as hope filled my chest. There was something about the way he had been acting and what he said that gave me hope he was talking about me. The director wrapped for the night and we made the trip back to the studio.

Just as my luck has always been, when I got to my car it would not start. I was one of the last people to leave the studio in the early hours of the morning. Trying to decide if it was worth calling a cab or just sleeping in my car. I was leaning towards the latter of the two.

“Everything okay?”

I yelped turning quickly to see Jensen stopped in his car, “Jesus, you scared me.”

He chuckled before shutting his car off and coming towards mine. He lifted the hood and began checking through everything, “Looks like it could be your starter or alternator. We can have one of the mechanics look at it Monday morning.”

I sighed heavily, “Great… just great.”

“Come on, I can give you a ride back to our building.” His genuine smile dazzled me for a moment as he closed up my car and went to open the door to his car for me, “(Y/N)?”

“Um, yeah that would be great. Thank you.” I got into his car shivering from how cold it was inside.

Jensen turned on the heat and took off down the main street towards the highway. His large hands gripped the steering wheel tightly but the rest of his body seemed relaxed. A wave of fear crashed into a wave of excitement of being in close proximity to him. My inner fangirl and mine’s curiosity was getting the better of us from earlier.

“What did you mean by embracing fate’s cruel destiny?” I thought maybe he had not heard me as a silent tension filled the air between us.

“Did you sign the NDA they drew up for you?” Answering a question with a question was a pet peeve of mine but I let it slide.

I turned slightly in my seat, “Yes, though I don’t understand why I needed to sign one. It was clearly stated in my new hire paperwork not to speak of any upcoming episodes or scripts.”

Again, his soft laughter had an edge to it, “The NDA has nothing to do with the show or network. It is something our managers and agents have in place to protect us.”

“You mean protect you and Jared? Why would you two need protecting?” Suddenly images of Jensen starring in his very own version of Fifty Shades of Grey filled my mind and my cheeks burned.

We were approaching our exit and I knew my time would be up with him, but I did not want to leave. He remained silent until he parked in his space within our garage. He turned towards me, his eyes downcast and shoulders slumped forward. If I had not known any better, I would have thought he was upset or in pain.

“Jensen, anything you or Jared would tell me or I would see would strictly be between us. I don’t need a NDA to keep private matters private. I have more respect for both of you that I would never want anyone running your names through the mud of public opinion.”

I reached out my fingers briefly brushing against the back of his smooth skin. A small gasp escaped my lips from how cold he was even with his heater on. He pulled his hand away from me quickly getting out of his car. I followed him towards the main street where he finally stopped.

“I-I’m sorry. I didn’t mean…” He held up his hand to silence me.

Turning back towards me, his eyes were dark once again but not threatening unlike when we first met. No, there was something else. Something I did not recognize, but it made my heart race with anticipation.

“Tomorrow, I promise to explain everything. I will come by to get you around ten o’clock.” Jensen hesitantly brushed the back of his fingers against my cheek and instinctively I gravitated towards his embrace.

He quickly took off down the sidewalk leaving me with a million questions and yearning I had never felt before. In a daze I made up to my apartment and into my bed. Sleep did not come easy and when it did my dreams were vivid, sensual.

True to his word, there was a knock on my door at ten o’clock on the dot. I opened my door inviting him in as I finished getting ready.

“I’m sorry about my place being a mess.” I mumbled going back into my room to grab my coat.

I heard me laugh, “Quite alright, I mean Jared’s place is a pigsty.”

When I walked back out, I watched as his bright olive eyes traveled the length of my body. I nervously fidget with the strings on my coat as a slow smirk spread across his face. Jensen was dressed in a simple black hoodie, dark denim pants and black boots. A pair of dark Ray Bans hanging from the collar of his hoodie. Even dressed down he looked like a runway model.

We walked to the elevator, an empty car arriving, and as we stepped in the tension between us was nearly unbearable. I shifted from one foot to the next avoiding his intense gaze. With lightning speed, Jensen had me caged against the wall and his lips pressed against my throat.

“Jen-Jensen…” I sighed breathlessly as he dragged his nose up my neck to under my ear.

“Dammit, I promised myself I would not lose control around you, but…” he paused taking a deep breath in making my legs tremble, “you smell divine.”

As quickly as the moment had happened it was over as the elevator doors opened. Jensen was on the other side of the car looking unphased by what had happened. Whereas I was trying to remember how to breath and walk at the same time. His low chuckle and smug smirk made me smack his rock hard bicep.

“Ow.” I muttered making him laugh even harder. The pain was worth it to hear his musical laughter.

Instead of going to the garage, Jensen led me towards the sidewalk. He slid his dark sunglasses over his beautiful eyes and pulled his hood up over his head. I figured this was so no one would recognize him from the show. We walked side by side towards a nearby park. Our hands would brush against one another until finally he took mine in his pulling me closer to him. Leading me to a spot just off the Vancouver Harbor.

The sun was shining bright warming my skin then a cold breeze from the water would make me shiver. We sat at a clear spot sitting silently next to one another staring out over the water. Jensen gently pulled me into his side and draped his arm around my shoulder.

“Well, this is much better than when I first met you.” I whispered leaning my head on his shoulder.

I felt him press his lips and nose against the top of my head inhaling deeply, “Yes, well when we first met I wasn’t expecting you to be so… appealing.”

I sat up looking at him, “What does that mean? I feel like you are talking around me and I don’t like that.”

He sighed, pulling his hood down further as the sun shined brightly over us, “It’s only because the truth would send you running far, far away.”

“I told you, anything you tell me is between us. You have my word and a signed NDA for a safety net.” My inner fangirl and I were desperate to know what secret he was holding back. She was practically jumping on the lounger within my mind.

“When Eric Kripke came up with the idea of Supernatural, he had no idea how close to being right he was.” He pulled his sunglasses down his piercing out looking over them.

I swallowed the small lump lodge in my throat, “So you’re saying that supernatural creatures are real or that hunters are real?”

He smiled, pushing his glasses back up, “I guess hunters could be real, but then humans would have to acknowledge the fact that monsters were real.”

“Monsters… like you?” Suddenly a lot of his behaviors were making sense even if my mind could not wrap around the fact that monsters were real.

He nodded, “Does that scare you?”

“No.” My answer came quick and firm. I was not afraid of him. I knew he would never harm me. Somewhere deep within my heart and soul, I knew I was right where I belonged.

“You should be. I’m a dangerous creature even more so than Jared.” He looked out towards the water, “Mainly because Jared is just a big dog. All cute and cuddly as Ash would say.”

“Jared is a… werewolf?” I could not quite believe the words coming from my mouth, but his nod answered my question, “Then you are…”

Jensen faced me baring his teeth as his fangs grew slightly longer than the rest. I sucked in a breath as he closed his mouth, “Now you’re afraid.”

“No. More mesmerized than anything. You’re… you’re a vampire.” The awe in my voice could not be helped. I spent most of my life reading grand tales of mythical creatures and humans falling in love with them. Now, I was in the middle of my own fairytale.

He scoffed, “Mesmerized? I’m an undead murderer and you're in awe of it.” He looked away in disgust.

“I’m in awe of you. You’re obviously drawn to my scent and yet here you sit next to me. You could have ended me at any time these last few weeks but you haven’t. Hell, in the elevator that could have been it, but all you did was… kiss my neck. I’m in awe of your strength and will power.”

Jensen's expression softened and he pulled me back into his side, “It’s difficult being around you. When I first met you, I had never wanted a human so much in my life. First it was my primal need, but now…”

“Now what?” My heart skipped a beat as hope filled my chest.

“Now, I have this overwhelming need to protect you and be by your side always.” His jaw clenched as he spoke the words.

I reached up brushing my hand against his cheek, “Why is that so hard for you to say?”

He leaned into my touch, “Loving me is a death sentence. The thought of losing you is insufferable.”

Jensen’s forehead pressed against mine as I whispered, “We found each other. That’s all that matters.”

“You’re ridiculous, you know that right?” He chuckled, easily lifting me onto his lap and wrapping his arms around me.

“I’ve been called worse. Tell me more about your life.”

For the next several hours, Jensen told me all about his life from his rebirth in 1920 to how he and Jared became best friends. I hung on every word of every story he told and it was not until my stomach began to growl from hunger that he finally stopped.

“You should eat.” He easily picked me up as he stood and set my feet on the ground.

I looked away from him, the anxiety building in my chest knowing we would have to part ways soon. He laced his fingers through mine and led me back towards the main sidewalk. When we arrived at our building, I was having a difficult time keeping the tears that threatened to fall back. Once again, as we stepped into the elevator, the air tightened around us.

“What is it about elevators?” he muttered making me laugh as the very thought had gone through my head.

When we went past my floor, I looked over and saw a smile on his face. We stopped at the very top floor both sighing as we exited the elevator. He pulled out his keys and opened the door for apartment 1520.

“I thought it was only fair if you saw my place as well.” Jensen held the door open for me as I walked in.

The layout was open and bright with one wall being all windows. His furniture was dark gray with steel blue and navy accent pillows. He had a big flat screen TV with a few game consoles. What caught her by surprise was the wall of records and record player he had. I turned back around to see him anxiously watching me.

“Not what I expected from a vampire.” I walked towards his flawless kitchen and looked untouched which I guess was to be expected.

“Were you expecting a coffin and velvet?” His smile was infectious as I nodded.

Taking off my coat, I sat down on his couch as he walked off towards his bedroom. Jensen came back in with his tablet and a blanket. He placed the blanket over my and sat next to me.

“Order whatever you would like for dinner. Don’t worry about paying for it because I insist.” He chuckled as I rolled my eyes.

Deciding to order from my favorite pizza place I handed him the tablet to put his payment information in, “What do you eat?”

“Finally! The question I have been waiting for all day.” He exclaimed, “Are you sure you want to know?”

I nodded, “If I’m diving head first into oblivion then I want to know everything.”

“Brave woman. I still drink blood, but that which is donated. There are certain organizations within the acting community that are set up for actors such as myself. We go to grab our supply of ‘food’ and then we store it in our homes.” He pointed back towards the refrigerator, “All of it is from blood drives once the hospital receives its share then we buy the remainder.”

It was better than him stealing blood like Benny in Supernatural or drinking animal blood like Edward in Twilight, “Oh okay then. At least I won’t be surprised if I open the fridge now.”

There was a sad undertone in his laugh, but I chose to ignore it, “What about Jared and Ash?”

“Ash is human, but she seemingly blossomed at the end of last season. Jared was immediately drawn to her and they spent most of the summer at his cabin near Red Rock Point, Montana.” Jensen bit his lip smirking.

“Why?” I knew there was more to what he was saying but he seemed almost embarrassed to speak of it.

He sighed pulling me closer to him, “If you had asked me that question a month ago I would have given you a snarky answer about not being able to control his inner animal, but now… now I know better.”

I leaned my head against his shoulder, “Meaning…”

“Every few months, Jared would go into what he calls a rut. His need to procreate becomes overwhelming and he has to be off on his own as a wolf to deal with it. Now, he found his mate and one weekend a month they will go off to his cabin to… you know…”

My inner fangirl was begging on her knees for Jensen to say the words out loud but I just nodded, “I get it. Why is it now that you know better than before?”

I looked up into his shining eyes captivated as he leaned closer to me, “Because now I know exactly how Jared felt when he found Ash.”

His perfect full lips were inching closer to mine. My tongue darted out over them just before his were going to touch them then his door intercom buzzed. A small growl escaped his lips as he quickly got up buzzing the delivery man in. I found myself trying to take deep breaths to collect myself as my inner fangirl was hyperventilating.

“Dinner is served.” He said placing the box down on the table.

“I’m not hungry right now.” I said as he sat back down next to me.

He laughed, “Eat before the alien in your stomach pops out and eats the pizza for you.”

I narrowed my eyes at him before lifting the box open and grabbing a slice. Settling back into his side, he turned on his Netflix account. His fingertips trailing down my arm as I took a bite.

As I was taking a second bite he leaned in whispering into my ear, “There will be plenty of time to test my will power later.”

I shivered, truly no longer hungry for food. I placed the piece of pizza back in the back turning towards him, “What would happen if I took initiative and kissed you?”

He turned into a stone statue as he stared at me, “That would be a very dangerous thing to do.” He spoke slowly with a hint of challenge in his tone.

My inner fangirl was cheering me on as I pushed the blanket onto the floor and swung my leg over his lap sitting on his thighs. His ice cold hands gripped my hips as I leaned down my lips hovering his. There was a brief moment where time stood still then it was as if a rubber band snapped. His lips crashed against me and his arms wrapped around my waist holding me against him. He groaned as if in pain and I pulled away from him.

“Since I’m breaking all my rules and going to hell…” He whispered and in a flash we were both tumbling onto his bed.

That night was the best one of my life. Jensen may be a primal killer but with me he was nothing short of a gentle lover. I knew from that moment, I would do anything to remain at his side forever. Just like every cliche movie or book trope where the meek, naive woman falls in love with a monster that has a heart gold. I found myself in their exact shoes desiring an everlasting love affair with a vampire.

On Monday, when Jensen and I arrived at the studio, Jared and Ash were waiting by his trailer. No words were spoken between them but by the smiles on their faces I could tell they knew what was going on between Jensen and I.

“You owe me twenty bucks Padalecki.” I heard Ash as Jared grumbled.

Jensen and I laughed as we walked to the studio building to meet with the executive producers and legal team concerning our newly starting relationship together.  

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[queen-of-deans-booty]

goodnight n go

Characters: Dean x Reader

Word Count: 796

Warnings: Fluff

Request: Can you write a Dean x reader based off "goodnight n go" by Ariana Grande? I just love that song and spn lol

Summary: It was only supposed to be a one-night stand, you and Dean. It was never supposed to be more. You were supposed to say goodnight and go. It’s funny how life has different plans for you.

Author’s Note: This is based on the song goodnight n go by Ariana Grande. This is unbeta’d and any and all mistakes are all on me.

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Tell me why you gotta look at me that way You know what it does to me So baby, what you tryna say? Lately, all I want is you on top of me You know where your hands should be So baby, won't you come show me? I got you, I got you dreamin' You close your eyes and you're screamin' Play with your mind for no reason I know you love how I tease it You know that I'm playin', so don't be mistaken You already know what I'm thinkin', boy

You were never supposed to fall for a man like Dean Winchester. You've heard about him all over the country thanks to other hunters. You’ve heard about his reputation and didn’t want to get caught in his mess. That night you spent with him was only supposed to be a one-night stand, you were never supposed to enjoy being with him, much less fall in love with him.

When you met him, it was all about the physical connection you two had. He knew you were a hunter which was better that way. You brought him back to your place and had an intimate night with him. You both knew he was going to be gone the next morning so you didn’t care about what was being said that night.

All you wanted was him on top of you. And you still continue to want that. But for different reasons.

After that night, you two met up more and more. At first, it was all about the physical attractiveness the two of you shared. But the more the two of you spent together, you grew to like who he was. You were falling head over heels for a man you never thought you would like. You told yourself to stay away from him but you never listened.

Oh, why'd you have to be so cute? It's impossible to ignore you, ah Why must you make me laugh so much? It's bad enough we get along so well Just say goodnight and go Just say goodnight and go Just say goodnight and go

You two were meeting so much that you thought it would be best if you hunted with him and Sam. You two were phenomenal hunters and you both thought it was smart to be working together. You both knew that the reason you wanted to hunt together wasn’t because of how good you two were. It was something much more than that.

In between hunts, you two have been hanging out. He always found a way to make you smile and laugh, something you hadn’t done in such a long time. Dean brought out a different side to you and you weren’t sure if it would burn up in your face but you liked it and you wanted more of it.

This whole thing wasn’t supposed to end up like this. You were never supposed to get along with him so much. You were never supposed to like who he was as a person. You were never supposed to fall for him the way you did.

All you were supposed to do was say goodnight and go.

One of these days You'll miss your train and come stay with me (It's always say goodnight and go) We'll have drinks and talk about things And any excuse to stay awake with you And you'd sleep here, and I'd sleep there But then the heating may be down again (At my convenience) We'd be good, we'd be great together

On nights you two didn’t have to be up, you would spend the night in your motel room where you didn’t have to worry about waking Sam up. He would bust out the alcohol and you would bring the food. You two would stay like that until the sun came up, talking about anything and everything.

At this point, you knew him better than you knew yourself which scared you but it was a good kind of scared. You never felt like this towards anyone before but you were glad that it was Dean you fell for.

He never thought he would feel the same way about another woman since Lisa but he was glad it was you. You two had so much in common, yet you two were majorly different. He thought that one-night stand would only be for one night, he never thought it would go on this long.

He’s kind of glad it didn’t stay for one night.

Want to say goodnight Want to say goodnight and go Want to say goodnight Baby, say goodnight and go Want to say goodnight Say goodnight and go

It was only supposed to be for one night. Now, it’s going to be for a lifetime.

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Angelina’s Best of November

So I started doing something new and will be featuring author recs every couple of weeks in addition to this monthly list. I will still be reblogging all those fantastic fics, but now they will be here: @angreadsficsandauthors.

But send me an ASK and tell me who you think I should read. Who are YOU reading right now? You wanna send me you? DO IT! There is nothing sinful about being proud of yourself!

I am soooo sorry happy this is so long!! That means I am discovering new authors that are just amazing!! It was a tough month, but I pampered myself with the gift of time and the written word. Enjoy!

Here is my literary vomit for the month:

Fast Cars and Freedom 4 (series masterlist)

I Burn Easy (Jensen x Reader)

Girl Crush (Dean x Reader) 

The House That Built Me (Dean x Reader AU) 

She Waits (Rob x Reader)

Fire & Ice (a follow up to She Waits)

Fluff:

Memory Foam and Fever Dreams @hannahindie (Dean x Reader)

Waiting @not-moose-one-shots (Dean x Reader)

When Words Fail @jotink78 (Dean x Reader)

Pin Up @crispychrissy (Dean x Reader)

Nov Drabble #2 @iwantthedean (Rob x Reader)

Nov Drabble #5 @iwantthedean (Jared x Reader)

Nov Drabble #12 @iwantthedean (Rob x Reader)

Tingles @lipstickandwhiskey (Sam x Reader)

Book Smart @crispychrissy (Sam x Reader)

Repay You @supernatural-jackles (Dean x Reader)

Happy Thanksgiving Y’all @arazialotis (Dean x Reader)

Skip to the Good Stuff @pinknerdpanda (Dean x Reader)

Heart of Gratitude @pinknerdpanda (Dean, Sam, Reader)

Imagine...Overhearing Dean @luci-in-trenchcoats (Dean x Reader)

Not What it Seems @katymacsupernatural (Dean x Reader)

Untitled Rob Drabble @oneshoeshort (Rob, Reader)

The Red Nosed One @luci-in-trenchcoats (Winchesters, Reader, Jack, friends)

Of The Sea @hannahindie (Sam x Reader)

From Then to Now @roxyspearing (Dean x Reader)

Pumpkin Pie and Thanksgiving @deansdirtylittlesecretsblog (Dean x Donna)

With a Bow @elizabeth-silverthorn (Dean x Reader)

A Winmills Thanksgiving @ilostmyshoe-79 (Sam x Jody)

Flangst:

Second Chances @luci-in-trenchcoats (Dean x Reader)

Just a Dream @emoryhemsworth (Dean x Reader AU)

Love & Uncertainty @impala-dreamer (Jensen x Reader)

Hey Handsome @supernatural-jackles (Dean x Reader)

Unexpected @bringmesomepie56 (Dean x Reader)

39 Hours @luci-in-trenchcoats (Dean x Reader AU)

Me & Cinderella @luci-in-trenchcoats (Dean x Reader AU)

Merry Christmas to Me @roxyspearing (Jensen x Reader) 

Left Behind @tngrayson (Teen!Dean x Reader) 

Perfect As it Could Be @just-another-busy-fangirl​ (Dean X Donna) 

Freedom @ilostmyshoe-79​ (J2)

We Were Bound To Meet @queen-of-deans-booty (Sam x Reader)

Sparks Fly @queen-of-deans-booty (Dean x Reader)

Embrace @ellen-reincarnated1967 (Jared x Friend!Reader)

Best Laid Plans @roxyspearing (Dean x Reader)

Chat Room? @just-a-touch-of-sass-and-fandoms (Dean x Reader)

Somewhere Only We Know @deanssweetheart23 (Dean, Reader)

Open Arms @fandomoniumflurry (Sam x Reader)

Angst:

I Trust You @torn-and-frayed (Dean x Reader)

Hey Jude @hannahindie (Dean x Reader)

Save Himself @thing-you-do-with-that-thing (Dean x Reader)

What The Darkness Says @just-a-touch-of-sass-and-fandoms (Dean x Reader)

Dreams on Fire @hannahindie (Reader, Sam)

Unrequited @sofreddie (Sam x Reader)

Smut:

Blindfolds @luci-in-trenchcoats (Dean x Reader)

Breathe, Relax @bringmesomepie56 (Mystery Winchester x Reader)

Midnight Snack @impala-dreamer (Dean x Reader) 

Happy Ending @pinknerdpanda (Sam x Reader)

Pull Over @ilostmyshoe-79 (Dean x Reader A/B/O)

Best Kept Secret @leatherwhiskeycoffeeplaid (Dean x Reader A/B/O)

Like Old Times @roxyspearing (Sam x Reader)

Riddle @kathaswings (Sam x Reader x Dean, no wincest)

Poor Cleaning Lady @just-a-touch-of-sass-and-fandoms (Dean x Reader)

Unnamed Request @littlegreenplasticsoldier (Dean x Reader)

He Likes to Watch @saxxxology (Sam x Reader, Dean)

Muffled @crispychrissy (Dean x Reader)

Can’t Help Myself @bringmesomepie56 (Dean x Reader)

Magnetic @kittenofdoomage (Sam x Reader, Dean x Reader)

Heads, I Win @littlegreenplasticsoldier (Dean x Reader)

#53 Size Kink @luci-in-trenchcoats (Sam x Reader)

A Wet Blow Dry @crispychrissy (Sam x Reader)

You Can Leave Your Hat On @rizlowwritessortof (Dean x Reader)

Two of a Kind @kittenofdoomage (Sam x Reader ABO)

Smangst:

Mending a Broken Heart @supernatural-jackles (Jensen x Danneel x Reader)

Sovereign @leatherwhiskeycoffeeplaid (Wincest)

All I Ask @bringmesomepie56 (Dean x Reader)

General - no real warnings or genre (please read warnings if applicable):

An All Hallows’ Haunting @whispersandwhiskerburn (Dean x Reader)

Security @georgialouisea (Dean x Reader) 

Funkytown @percywinchester27 (Dean x Reader)

The Pie Challenge @wheresthekillswitch (Dean x Reader)

Drive Shuts His Cakehole @winchesterprincessbride (Dean x Reader)

Whoop a Man’s Ass @deansdirtylittlesecretsblog (Dean x Donna)

Imagine...The Red Shirt of Sex @luci-in-trenchcoats (Dean x Reader)

Harmless Flirting @crispychrissy (Dean, Reader)

Pumpkin Spice @torn-and-frayed (Jensen x Reader)

Imagine...Dean Babysitting @luci-in-trenchcoats (Dean x Reader)

Art @just-another-busy-fangirl (Dean x Cas x Jimmy ABO, not explicit, sensual)

Series (most likely a lethal combination of smut, fluff and angst - HEED THE WARNINGS - links will be to the series master list unless noted) I know I have a problem and am following way too many series!

Void @kathaswings (Dean x Reader)

This Is How We Heal @sofreddie (Jared, Reader)

The Bond @just-another-busy-fangirl (Sam x Reader Soulmate AU)

What a Beautiful Day @impalaimagining (Sam x Reader)

Never Normal (link to pt 1) @masksandtruths (Dean x Reader)

The Next Best Thing @ilovebeingjoyful (Sam x Reader)

Forward @blacktithe7 Jensen x Reader

The Fool @whispersandwhiskerburn (Sam x Reader, Dean x Lisa...)

The Wedding Singer @pinknerdpanda and @hannahindie 

Fifteen Years @just-another-busy-fangirl (Dean x Reader)

Destiny @jelly-beans-and-gstrings (Jensen x Reader) 

Why Not Both? @jayankles (Jensen x Reader x Misha)

Hunters Academy (link to pt 1) @arazialotis (no pairing)

Kill Zone @thing-you-do-with-that-thing (Dean x Reader AU) COMPLETE

The Beauty in the Beast @like-a-bag-of-potatoes (Demon Dean x Reader)

Just Another Face In The Crowd @impalaimagining (Jared x Reader)

You Found Me @impalaimagining (Jensen x Reader)

Heaven Sent @pinknerdpanda (Dean, Reader, not really a pairing) COMPLETE

Findings @kathaswings (no pairing)

You’re Mine, Omega @jensensjaredsandmishaslover (Jensen x Reader A/B/O)

Camp Counselors @katymacsupernatural (Dean x Reader)

Meet The Ackles (link to pt 1) @karlee-fay-my-wayward-son (Jensen x Reader)

Museum of Death @hannahindie (Dean x Reader) 

Lost and Found (link to part 1) @crispychrissy (Sam x Reader)

I Know Your Brother @luci-in-trenchcoats (Sam x Reader ABO Dynamics) COMPLETE

The Wedding Ringer @frickfracklesackles (Dean x Reader, Sam x Reader)

Love Born of Fire @mamaredd123 (Dean x Reader)

365 Days Of Jensen (Rewrite) @supernaturalismalife (Jensen x Reader)

Heart of a Hunter Act III (entire list here) @muchamusedaboutnothing (Dean x Reader)

Take it All Back @iwantthedean (Jensen x OFC)

Undeniable Heat @katymacsupernatural (Jensen x Reader)

Impala67 (link to part 1) @dancingalone21 (Dean x Reader)

The Path Taken @mysupernaturalfics (Jensen x Reader AU)

Not What He Expected (link to part 1) @winchesterprincessbride (Dean x Reader ABO)

Our Little Secret @sis-tafics (Dean x Reader)

Define Justice @crispychrissy (Sam x Reader x Ruby)

Freaky Friday @hannahindie (Sam x Reader, Dean)

The Ties That Bind @thing-you-do-with-that-thing (Dean x Reader AU)

Unglued @d-s-winchester (Misha x OFC AU)

Hotel California @katymacsupernatural (Dean x Reader)

Homesick @itswitchcraft-not-googlemaps (Rob Benedict x Reader)

Toil & Trouble @littlegreenplasticsoldier (Dean x Reader)

Yes, Sir @evansrogerskitten (John x Reader AU)

I Know Your Wife... @teamfreewill-imagine (Jared x Reader x Gen)

Centerfold @revwinchester (Destiel) 

Living Two Lives (link to pt 1) @imaginesforthose-wholovefandoms (Sister!Winchester Reader)

November Rain @whywhydoyouwantmetosaymyname​ (Dean x Reader ABO)

Dysfunctional Family @just-another-busy-fangirl (Sam x Reader) 

Nesting (link to pt 1) @mrswhozeewhatsis (Dean x Reader)

You Saved Me @impalaimagining​ (Jared x Reader)

Welcome to the End of the World @luci-in-trenchcoats (Dean x Reader) COMPLETE

Life Unexpected @bringmesomepie56 (Dean x Reader)

Gypsy Girl (link to pt 1) @wi-deangirl77 (Sam x Reader)

Wishing, Wanting, Wishing @saxxxology (Sam x Reader)

Force of Habit @littlegreenplasticsoldier (Dean x Reader) COMPLETE

Stroke of Luck @percywinchester27 (Dean x Reader) COMPLETE

Love Triumphs @katymacsupernatural (Jared x Reader)

Bless Your Heart (link to pt 1) @masksandtruths (Dean x Reader) 

November Spotlight

The Winchester Way (link to pt 1) @sofreddie - An extremely dark look at how the Winchester family, the best of the best, train new hunters with their unorthodox ways. PLEASE HEED THE WARNINGS IN THIS SERIES!!

Once Upon a Flannel @deanssweetheart23 - A beautifully written tale of apparel, but so much more. The way you can strong together simple words into something so damn beautifully breathtaking leaves me speechless. 

Bi-Line @just-another-busy-fangirl - This is a flangsty series centered around discovering one’s own sexuality. This is so incredibly well done and a beautifully touching story, to be completely honest. And what a clever title...

No tags cause Tumblr hates tags...

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Angelina’s Best of June

Here it is, June’s list. It is hella long, so fics will be under the cut. I started a new thing with this last month and will be featuring one to two fics that really did it for me. I can never pick just one and would spotlight all of them if I could! But that wouldn’t make any sense! I hope you guys are enjoying these fics as much as I did and a GIGANTIC THANK YOU to all the writers that keep us entertained!

Feel free to tag me, but be aware I read mostly Dean and Sam or J2; with an occasional Cas or Misha. 

Smut

Sexcation @leatherwhiskeycoffeeplaid (Sam x Reader)

Sam Shower Drabble @helvonasche (Sam x Reader) 

So Lucky @babypieandwhiskey (Jensen x Reader x Danneel)

Hunting a Hunter @luci-in-trenchcoats (Demon!Dean x Reader)

A Helping Hand @kittenofdoomage (Sam x Reader)

Danger @just-another-busy-fangirl (Demon!Dean x Donna)

In A Frenzy @scorpiongirl1 (Sam x Reader A/B/O)

Mind Reader @bringmesomepie56 (Dean x Reader)

Good Night @melissaj616 (Dean x Reader) 

Strip @saxxxology (Destiel x Reader)

Training Day @deansdirtylittlesecretsblog (Dean x Donna)

One Way To Graduate @kittenofdoomage (Dean x Reader x Sam AU)

One Way Ticket Downstairs @just-a-touch-of-sass-and-fandoms (Father!Dean x Reader x Father!Sam)

Crime and Reward @kittenofdoomage (Soulless!Omega!Sub!Sam x Alpha!fem!reader)

Not For Me @melissaj616 (Sam x Reader A/B/O)

A Dip in Delinquency @deanscolette (Dean x Reader)

Despacito @just-a-touch-of-sass-and-fandoms (Dean x Reader)

Smangst

Can’t Forgive, Wanna Forget @iwantthedean (Dean x Reader)

Angst

Not About You @iwantthedean (Dean x Reader)

Swept Away @hollygopossum (Dean x Reader) 

There You’ll Always Be @deansdirtylittlesecretsblog (Sam x Eileen) 

The Letters @blacktithe7 (Sister!Winchester Reader)

Dark Nights @luci-in-trenchcoats (Dean x Reader A/B/O)

Imagine Sam Confessing His Love For You... @thegreatficmaster (Dean x Reader)

After All @d-s-winchester (Cas x Reader)

Like The Heart Goes @thing-you-do-with-that-thing (Cas, no pairing(s))

St. Louis @iwantthedean (Dean x Reader)

Fluff

Your Song @jensen-jarpad (Dean x Reader)

Imagine Babystitting with Chuck @supernaturalfreewill (Chuck x Reader)

If The Bootie Fits @impalaimagining (Jared x Reader)

Kissing Dean Winchester @bringmesomepie56 (Jensen x Reader)

Raiders of the Lost Ark @deansdirtylittlesecretsblog (Dean x Donna)

Wonder Woman @impalaimagining (Jensen x Reader)

Smluff

What It Feels Like @emilywritesaboutdean (Dean x Reader)

Someone Like Me @emilywritesaboutdean (Sam x Reader)

To Build A Home @bringmesomepie56 (Jensen x Reader)

Flangst

Time Stands Still @ravenangel33 (Dean x Reader)

Lights in the Sky @ilostmyshoe-79 (Wincest - no sex)

Bright @d-s-winchester (Misha x Reader)

Smutty/Angsty/Fluff

Free to be You and Me @thing-you-do-with-that-thing (Dean x Reader)

It’s Sam... @just-a-touch-of-sass-and-fandoms (Dean x Reader)

Nesting @mrswhozeewhatsis (Dean x Reader)

Austin @melissaj616 (Jared x Reader)

Crack/Fluff (Craff? Flack?)

That Works @just-a-touch-of-sass-and-fandoms (Dean, Sam x Reader)

Getting Inked @winchesterprincessbride (Sam x Reader)

Unscripted @impala-dreamer (Jensen x Reader)

Series (Series Master list will be linked, if available) Heed The Warnings!

Forward @blacktithe7 (Jensen x Reader)

Undeniable Heat @katymacsupernatural (Jensen x Reader)

Iron Heart @kittenofdoomage (Dean x Reader A/B/O)

The Contest @winchesterprincessbride (Jared x Reader)

You Saved Me @impalaimagining (Jared x Reader)

Invisible @just-another-busy-fangirl (Dean x Reader)

Reunited @like-a-bag-of-potatoes (Jensen x Reader)

Magnetic @katymacsupernatural (Dean x Reader)

I’m Yours @impala-dreamer (Jared x Reader)

Worlds’ Best Dad (link to part 3) @luci-in-trenchcoats (Dean x Reader AU)

Killzone @thing-you-do-with-that-thing (Dean x Reader AU)

Whatever U Want (link to 2) @kas-not-cas (Dean x Reader)

Stolen Moments (link to 1) @i-dont-do-rpfs (Jensen x Reader)

The Hunter in Training (link to 1) @goldenolaf25 (Sam x Reader)

Take It All Back @iwantthedean (Jensen x  OFCJourney)

The Charade @iwantthedean & @d-s-winchester (Jensen x OFC, Misha x OFC)

Into The Mystic @tankcupcakes (Dean x OFC Evelyn)

Dark Nights  @luci-in-trenchcoats (Dean x Reader A/B/O)

Our Little Secret @sis-tafics (Dean x Reader)

This Love @not-moose-one-shots (Jensen x Reader)

I Know Your Wife... @teamfreewill-imagine (Jared x Reader x Gen)

The Cherry Stem Knots Saga @sunriserose1023 (Dean x Reader AU)

Pretty Flowers Are Made For Blooming @madamelibrarian (Dean x OFC Sister!Winchester)

Poor Little Rich Girl (link to part 4) @winchesterprincessbride (Sam x Reader A//B/O)

SPOTLIGHT: If I could rec only ONE (maybe two) fic this month…

Heart of a Hunter @muchamusedaboutnothing- Starting with the first chapter of Act I, I was drawn in. It is a very well thought out series and keeps my full attention. I look forward to more of this series!

Summer Fling (link to part 1) @supernatural-jackles - I was hooked from the aesthetic. I am always amazed at how well you bring your characters to life, Jen. I was captivated with the first chapter, then reading it all again from Dean’s POV almost makes it an entirely new story.