#or whatevs. ok now that i dont feel like crawling out of my skin w energy im gonna go put away clothes and dishes. dfjealdsj

[bright-and-burning]

lando norris & oscar piastri x letters from medea by salma deera

(x x x x x)

[tshxrin]

ren lore!!!!

good morning (its 11pm rn as im typing this), welcome back to my yapping, im gonna drop some latest ren lore 😘😘; tbh im not gonna lie i forgot I had tumblr for a hot minute LMAOAO, i was locked in since school is lowkey assfucking me rn, but besides the point!!!!, I keep yapping here (not that anyone cares, or cares enough to read), these are my archives, someday in the future, I better have a disorder named after me. ANYWAY BACK TO THE TOPIC hello!!!!!, welcome, or welcome back, if you're reading this i love you. tbh I feel like I often have trouble voicing out my feelings, considering the fact i find it 'cheesy' to express them? so thats why your girl is ranting on a tumblr blog😝😝. lore has been CRAZY, as of now, i think about 3-4 months ago I just cut everyone off, online mainly (fake ass bitches bro istg.) and I decided to focus on things that mattered (valorant, joke; i was focusing on my studies!) so i guess burnout finally caught up to me, my schedule is so packed I just wanna crawl out of my skin suit and transcend into another dimension, but oh well, sky is the limit for man, afterall. anyways my seatmate is a real one bro, she uses my slang and humor like omfg?!??!?!, i recently got back on social media, idk what i was on all those months ago, talking w people i know damn well weren't the people i should be talking with, but oh well. either way, im going to drop some drama in here, people are surprisingly jealous of me!! (3.) some crusty ass classmates tho so im not surprised tbh, she got so mad and jealous she shittalked about me w her friends, and then her friends confronted me and I made her friends turn against her LMFAO (p.s: i was not the bad guy here, girl had major victim issues, and she made it seem like i hated her, when infact i do not even acknowledge her existence, {im a nice person- for the most part}), so currently i've a decent friend group? but still, recently i found out one of the guys i used to talk to, who i was in a situationship w, or whatever (putting emphasis on WAS.) apparently bro was lying the entire time, he acted innocent pretending he was loyal and shit but turns out he had women irl too, its ok i didnt cry i would never cry over that dog face ran through piece of burning dumpster dog shit ass bitch smh smh. (he made me hate all men, except the ones who dont exist ofc, [shoutout to geto suguru i fw you heavy]),, EITHER WAYYY, im gonna try to yap more here, becus yes :3, i didnt choose the yapping lifestyle the yapping lifestyle chose mee!!!!!!

tysm for reading till here lets take a moment to appreciate my beautiful prince geto suguru tyvm

LOOK AT MY BEAUTIFUL AWESOME RADIANT AMAZING WONDERFUL CHARISMATIC BREATHTAKING CHARMING ALLURING LOVEABLE ADORABLE PERFECT GORGEOUS AWE-STRIKING KISSABLE HUGGABLE KING goodnight :3

[just4notherd4ydre4mer]

Sibling headcanons [1/3]

(you are here) -> PART 1 || Part 2 || Part 3

Important note: To the person who requested this, I will be splitting this into 3 parts so its more doable... and bearable to read through. Sorry that just these two took so long :') Enjoy tho!

content: [gn!reader], [olderbrother!kageura], [olderbrother!ninomiya]

status: unedited/not proofread + requested

character(s): Masato Kageura, Masataka Ninomiya

warning(s): mild cursing. Uhhh... likely wont be proofread? I dont think they're too OOC, but Kageura might be...

extra: Masterlist

(reader is around 10 years younger in my mind but its written in a way where you can imagine the age gap as whatever)

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Masato Kageura:

Ur probably one of his favorite people tbh, if not THE favorite

Why?

because ur emotions towards him arent so prickly AT LEAST 60% of the time

Puts up w whatever antics you do and might go along with it

But also gets fed up w you so quickly

He's aggressively protective? Kind of.

Kage knows when you're upset w him due to his side effect

When he senses that, he usually does try to talk to you.

100% hates it when ur angry or upset towards him for more than a day.

He does his best to not have outbursts towards you

Always encourages you to stand up for yourself and gets absolutely pissed off if you dont.

He'll defend you despite that though

Will scold you when he's done

"Why're ya mad at me this time?!" He groaned in frustration, turning to face you.

The annoying, prickly sensation was crawling across his skin. He knew it was coming from you, the only other person in the room.

You glowered at him from your spot on the couch, right across the room from him.

"..."

"..."

Kageura gave you a narrowed eyed look of which you returned.

He apologized, "Alright, damn... Sorry for making a scene earlier."

"Good," you said.

Someone had bad mouthed you for outfit choice and the both of you had heard it. Kageura had expected you to at least give them a stern look but you didn't do anything. So, he stood up for you like a good big brother would.

Masataka Ninomiya:

He isn't as cold and arrogant towards you as he is to everyone else

But he is blunt and is still kind of an ass

Personally, I think he wouldnt be the best older brother, but also not the worst.

Would probably hurt ur feelings tbh LOL

and he'd mean it

If ur the type to friendly to everyone, it annoys him

He wont tell u tho (the one thing he wont bring up)

Ur still ur own person after all

Are u talented in something? Anything?

Ur not his sibling anymore /j

Ok but seriously, in his trivia it says he hates ppl with talent lmaooo

I have the feeling that if u are, he doesnt subject you to his opinion about that but always has that icy stare whenever he see's u doing whatever it is

You call him "Masa" and he doesnt care until you say it in front of someone, especially if they're from Border

In the end, ur his younger sibling and he treats you accordingly

Maybe buys you gifts for special occasions... but always gets u smth for ur birthday

Idk, he's just not the greatest sibling out there.

It was your birthday today. Everyone had wished you a happy one throughout the day. Well, everyone besides your own brother. But what could you do? It was the Masataka Ninomiya after all.

After his shift at Border, he dropped by your room. Usually an unexpected thing, but he seemed to remember that he had a younger sibling when it was your birthday.

"Here," he said with his normal blunt tone.

You didnt question him and simply took the item (pretend it's smth you've wanted for a while now). It wasnt even wrapped up...

After silently swallowing your subtle displeasure, you were thankful in the end, "Thanks Masa."

He ignored this nickname and began to walk out.

"Dinner's ready," he said from over his shoulder.

You suddenly couldn't help but wonder what his reaction was when he found out he was going to have a younger sibling. An amusing thought crossed your mind. It would've been really funny if he had actually made a face of worry or discontent. You were definitely going to bring it up to your parents during dinner.

~~~

to be continued...

word count: dont feel like looking

start: 7/04/23

finish: 7/09/23

a/n: gonna be honest. just these two should NOT have taken this long. the procrastination is hitting me... I PROMISE PT2 AND 3 WILL BE OUT SOON... <3

[angelblumes]

hi hi hiii so one of my fam members is ignoring me 😟😤I tried texting her many times, but at least I tried. She knows that im here for her i dont know if she is there for me tho but its ok. I drank coffee for the first time in a couple weeks and its 1 30am and im up. I had therapy today, fun activity: timeline of my life by year and it will be mostly "traumatic" events. I say "traumatic" because technically they are, but tis normal to me Im a pretty afraid person so im scared I thought abt my past so much. I found out that I could start going to a lgbt support group im excited to see 😁 we for real on the same wavelength, tmi but Im also on my . this week. 🙄 I wish I could tell you my dreams because even-Steven, I dont remember though. We did research on that possible diagnosis today 👀 uh yeah I might have it, it scare me😔 but dont worry its not bad. TWO (2!!!) caterpillars crawled on me today I took them to safety tho. They dont scare me as much as other bugs do for some reason. It sounds silly but I'm a little afraid of butterflys so I have no idea why. Okay this is rambly so im sorry but not really because I do like talking to you 😊 Also just post it the og I saw you "🙄" jk. Ok goodbye 'night ❤

hope u slept well❤️ and ok mood. what if i just said that and nothing else😭 jk. i had to do that w my psychiatrist and it was awful like she didn't explain what i was supposed to say so i was like um uh er .... *nonsense*. good luck(?) w the diagnosis!

let's see. i dreamt... something. i don't remember. i woke up intensely thinking about hannibal though so if i had to guess i'd say it was that. now ok i read that one fic the other day. it was bc i saw it on a diff webbed site right so i was like hm i've never ventured into hannigram fic. i wish i still hadn't. like that fic was INSANE but well written. the rest of all hannibal fics ever? just insane😓😭🙁. thats what i did all day. search for good hannigram fics. i read a few decent ones like one where will graham owns a coffee shop but it still includes murder. it was ok. but really i just want will to kill people. like let him be evil! w/o hannibal ab*sing him😐. um wow was that all one thing? i cleaned a little. found this fancy hand cream i forgot i had. its worked rlly well for the skin peeling on my hands but i put it elsewhere today. other peels. hoping it works! so far i just feel greasy. found some other old stuff that just made me super nostalgic 🙁. realized my mom still thinks i'm 8. it's lowkey a little depressing. like she's so contradictory like if i'm too upset i'm a child but if i'm not upset enough "i'm not her baby anymore"..... #5....ummm...... i'm going to sound a little insane here. but i don't have a therapist rn right. and i'm all ohoho hannibal right. so before bed i like to be like oh what if i'm in *whatever media i'm into* so ofc i was like let me do that with hannibal. and the show is him as will's therapist right. so in this scenario i am the will being therapied. therapy-ed. it made me realize how many problems i really do have! and idk made me reflect like how awful i explained it all to my new psychiatrist HAHA. if she was hannibal she would have killed me.