#other than that everything is calm

[lavenoon]

They have each other. They aren't losing that.

@naffeclipse Surprise! You get both today! I realized while I was drawing that it's probably at least subconsciously inspired by this post, though I wasn't thinking of it when I planned this. I just wanted to draw hand holding 👉👈

[universalheart]

the cake twins & pinkie's brood!

[trainingdummyrabbit]

in conclusion the most poignant thing about ruina is its running theme of Imperfection. imperfection, focused not on its flaws, but on the miracle of it existing to begin with. imperfection not as a failing, but as a triumph. its cracked, broken, deeply in need of repair-- but it's real and its ours and it exists. despite everything it exists and that enough is a relief beyond words, beyond expression. to present a toppled structure not as a conclusion, but an opportunity.

its the choice-- and the joy-- of looking forward, unflinchingly, and facing it. one step at a time.

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

if dorian didn't show up, do you think louis would have shot minnie?

I do. I know some people think either he wouldn't have or he would've missed so that's why the writers had him shoot Dorian instead, but mmmmmm no, I don't personally think so. I like to think that if he had taken the shot, his shaky hands would've caused him to shoot her fatally.

Mostly because I'm already so normal about the fact that of the Ericson crew, Marlon and Louis are the only ones with a body count. Well, that we know of, but shown to us in the game, at least. Plus, we know it's Louis' first kill.

Like yeah, Clementine and AJ become part of the crew and they have bigger body counts, and if we're counting indirect kills caused by actions, then Tenn has a count... and I guess everyone has blood on their hands for blowing up the boat... but I'm talking about killed directly with a weapon like....... I lied, I'm not normal about that at all, Louis and Marlon are the ones who have killed someone in Louis' route. I'm also not normal about the fact that Louis kills Dorian and then even as he's clearly in shock, he tries to go with Clementine to get AJ, and then later on when they talk about it, he says it feels like bile but not quite and he's glad he has it in him to do it.... listen, listen, listen... I'm obsessed with that.

Anyway, so if Louis shot Minerva, I think he would've accidentally killed her and can you imagine? He's already enough of a mess after killing the woman who pinned him down and tried to cut his finger off [or succeeded] but he knew Minerva, they were friends before the twins were taken. Even Violet couldn't kill her even though that would've been the smarter thing to do, and we know thanks to meta knowledge that killing her would've saved lives, but Violet couldn't, and I don't think Louis would intentionally either.

Speaking of Violet, if Louis killed Minerva, I hate to think about what that would've done to Vi. I think she might've actually left at that point, like what was planned before it got changed to her being burned. I don't think she would've attacked Louis over it, though, like yeah she attacked Clementine in the cell but Louis? I don't know, but I don't think so just because it's Louis and he'd be a mess about it anyway.

Though if he did kill her, it would be a neat parallel to draw... y'know, because Louis forgave AJ for killing Marlon even though he was pissed and heartbroken, and Violet was annoyed with him the entire time... but could she ever forgive Louis for killing Minerva? Y'know? We already have a similar parallel with AJ shooting Tenn, but still.

If Clementine killed Minerva in that moment, though, then I could see Violet attacking her since in her eyes, Clem proved her right.

So yeah, I get why they added the Dorian kill to his route. It adds another compelling element to Louis as a character, but we also need Minerva alive for episode 4; Louis can't kill her, he can't miss, and he's not going to stay with her because we need Violet to stay on the boat and him to be on shore for all routes.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[boag]

Man I just woke up and i had to use the bathroom and my mom’s boyfriend just kept banging on the door the whole time trying to talk to me and rush me and ask me to hand him things and I kept telling him I couldn’t fucking hear him and to please just let me finish what I was doing but he wouldn’t stop like saying the time out loud to me and shit and it pisses me off so baddd it’s literally like this every single time I use the bathroom like why cant this be the one room in the house where privacy is given and we respect each other’s space oh my GOD . Like I’m sick and I just woke up with my period and we don’t have any tampons or anything or money to buy them and I needed to clean myself up and wash my face and brush my teeth and it’s like even with the door closed I can feel him breathing down my neck trying to fucking control me like PLEASE shut the fuck up and leave me alone for a minute . I will be done when I’m done . I literally actively avoid using the bathroom as much as I can in my day to day life bc I’m never allowed to be in there with the door closed for more than 5 minutes without him and/or my mom being invasive and rude and yelling and banging on the door and timing me or whatever else they feel like . GIVE ME SOME FUCKING SPACE😭😭😭

[acaesic]

man. i wanna get back into multifandom stuff but at the same time i cannot feel anything for things that arent idkhow anymore :,)

[sovonight]

calm & collected

[direwombat]

r: free animals (aka. jacob seed / sybille la roux / eli palmer) | far cry 5

You get what you came for, what you stayed for I only know how to satisfy your craving This is what you crave Know what you're made of, what you're made of Flesh and bones won't lie They won't lie Free animal, free animal My heart beats in patters to the broken sound Free animal, free animal You're the only one that can calm me down

made using @marissources template here!

[llitchilitchi]

oh bless I can finally delete my twitter account

[octarineblues]

not to doxx myself but ive just seen player kings (with ian mckellen!!) and uhhhh it was so good. brb gonna explode.

[altschmerzes]

maybe this is...... idk, but i don't understand what's so objectionable about mentioning popular tropes in marketing for a book. seeing a bunch of posts all over the last couple of weeks being like Seeing Someone Describe Their Book As Enemies To Lovers Makes Me Want To Kill Them or whatever - and yes, with that level of direct aggression which, even joking, seems a bit overboard at best - and being like. yeah? and??? who. gives a shit? 

someone wrote a book, they're talking about it in a way maybe they grew up talking about narratives, maybe a way that helps people find what they're interested in. sorry fandom and 'cringe' community related verbiage is polluting the prestigious and classy world of Real BooksTM and Real WritersTM and Real Serious Stories Not That Meaningless Garbage You Dummies On The Internet Throw Around Because You Have No Soul Or Appreciation For Art Or Whatever. 

i don't know what is so enraging about it. everything has tropes in it that's how they ended up tropes. they're a value-neutral narrative tool or phenomenon. i feel like i'm losing my fucking MIND here sometimes. why is it such a hyperbolic violence worthy offence to use language commonly associated with fandom to discuss your published book if that's what it contains. 

 and i don't mean like- the people who are like oh you should read this, it has [rattles off list of diverse character identities and says absolutely nothing about what the book is actually like or about]. that's different. that tells me nothing abt what the book is about, though it does give people who are wanting to read about characters that are like them a piece of valuable information. not the only piece but a piece. this is like. 

why are you so fucking mad and snotty about someone describing their book as 'enemies to lovers.' legitimately who is that harming. not something i'd ever read but that's because i'm allergic to romance, not because describing books using tropes, even tropes common in fanworks, is a fucking cardinal sin or definite hallmark that something is shallow trash. 

[bunnihearted]

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[daz4i]

suicide and general negativity ig

i hate that english doesn't have a good word for מיואש (filled with despair. hopeless? ig) bc this is how i'm feeling fr

there is just. nothing good. and there is so much bad - both BAD bad bc of the war but also mundane bad bc yknow, Life - that i'm getting so overwhelmed i can't handle anything

my whole month is filled with medical shit and there's probably gonna be even more bc i need more tests and they're all just. such a pain to do (it sounds whiny but genuinely i can't handle them. just thinking abt them makes me so anxious bc they all require lots of painful preparation, sometimes for a few days, and they're so gross and require being poked with needles which my medical trauma certainly isn't helping with. and even tho i did so many already they can't find shit and i'm so tired i'm so done with this body

and like. it'd be one thing if i wanted to live. if i wanted to make my life better or thought it was possible. but by now i know it's not and i know i won't so it just becomes infinitely harder. like if i compare life to being in prison, it feels like the warden decided to torture me just for fun to make it even worse

but there is nothing good there is nothing to look forward to bc everything is shit and nothing's worth it and i hate when ppl tell me to enjoy the little things bc there is nothing to enjoy about them either. i can't have most of them anyway. i wish i could. but this shitty ass body and fucked up brain won't let me

there is no future for me i know i'm never gonna amount to anything when i can't even do the most basic shit about being human, literally how am i gonna be able to fulfill my """"potential"""" when i can't even do stuff like eat or sleep normally. when i can't go outside. when i can't handle being around people. when my body crashes and burns after standing for a few minutes or walking for more than a couple hundred meters. what even IS there for me to achieve in such a state. the only win i can have is getting out of bed and it doesn't feel like a win because i don't. want. to live. i have fucking professionals, people getting paid to help me do at least some of these things, and i can't bring myself to even take the first step bc just thinking about it makes me clam up so bad i can't move or talk and everything starts hurting so much more

there's not even. mundane fun. or joy. bc no one i know has time or energy for that. bc that's just what being an adult is ig. not that there's much to do in order to have fun anyway. like i said nothing to look forward to everything is so shit and nothing actually brings me joy anyway and it's not like i can handle being around people enough to help with that

i was not meant to be alive i am not designed to exist and like at this point I'd assume my who knows how many near death experiences may have been the universe trying to correct the mistake that is my existence and for some reason not managing to pull through the final stretch

i'm so tired i'm so done with this i wish i could be killed in some certain quick way bc i can't. i can't handle any of this. this is too much

[odinsblog]

So I was stuck in traffic today and I decided to give my cuz’n a call ….

[dandyshucks]

going to cry because i am worried i won't finish all the crochet gifts in time :''")