Y me he dado cuenta que de nada sirve amarte, de nada sirve apoyarte y estar siempre contigo, de nada sirve entregarte el alma y el corazón, de nada sirve demostrarte tanto cariño. Si al final del día solo verás mi qlo y mis ttas, si al final del día; realmente yo no te importo en lo absoluto, tú no me amas y para ti solo soy una calentura más.
I am so depressed today… just everything weighing on me heavily. I feel I’ve had undiagnosed ADHD my entire life and it makes living very difficult. My brain never stops and I can’t focus. I’m messy and have to write lists of every single thing I want to do because if I don’t I will never remember I want to do that. It makes me feel like I am not good enough on top of everything I already deal with. And then it pisses me off that I’m 31 and no dr was ever like hey maybe we could try medication and change your life! But if I were a dude I feel I’d have been diagnosed early on. Everything is a fight all the time constantly.
Feeling physically terrible after gardening and I have so much to do this week. Like really… gardening!? I want to go on a run! I want to lift weights! I want to do it all! And I’m sooo limited. I want to be a boss ass bitch!
I’m planning on having a yard sale this weekend, gotta finish getting my plants in the ground and make some sample strawberries to sell for graduations. Doing this on top of working is tough but I know I’m good at it and I know I could get better and have it turn into something I can do and enjoy more. I get so tired of having to be so strong and push myself so hard. Some days I just want to quit but I know I want more for myself. It just feels so unfair that I have to work so much harder to do normal things I enjoy. Saw something on Twitter about how different countries kill dogs in insane ways to eat and now I’m like man this world is…. Too much for my soft heart. I’m too soft. Just wish the universe would let me wear pink and look pretty and make everything get easier. Fuck.
I know I will keep pushing and keep finding ways to move forward. Some days I just have a lil breakdown as a treat and then I keep on trying.
I promise I’ll post writing I just had one of my bad luck days (it’s ok that’s normal) and I got lithium poisoning and was very sick and then I got rear ended and then I sat in a hot car in a Lowe’s parking lot for three hours but at least I got published in a local lit mag but like I also have whiplash and my body hurts and I want to stop vomiting
AU where Leo is trapped in the Prison Dimension for months instead of minutes and the only way he gets by with his sanity intact is through recording himself talking to his wrist comm.
When they finally manage to get Leo back and make him rest up to heal, Donnie can’t help but listen to the recordings left behind.
He’s not sure what exactly he’s expecting, only that his subconscious is screaming at him that it has to be heartbreaking, that it has to be torturous.
Instead, what Donnie is subject to is a full thousand hours’ worth of Jupiter Jim and Lou Jitsu crossover fanfiction. More than one part in the series. Spanning well over a million words.
i feel like everyone always talks abt how in love troy is w abed (which is true he IS very in love with him, and his love is explicitly stated. cough cough epidemiology), but i don't see as many people talking about how in love abed is with troy!!!
and i think this is because his love is more subtextual than troys is. sure, he never directly tells him "i love you", but he includes troy in everything he does, hes jealous of britta when she starts dating troy, he literally hallucinated lava because troy has to sail across the world without him!!!!! he's just as in love as troy is, he's just more subtle about it
okay thats all i have to say goodbye trobed nation