#pesimistic

[whitetickle-sl]

Right let's talk because I've been having second thoughts about this.

Sigh. What..what do I even say. I've tried to reimagine ow to even discuss anything for this acount and i always feel like I have to rethink my words everytime cause the message could always fall flat or come out wrong. Imagination is key when it come to getting your head around an idea that feels like it's out of left field. You know I have other acounts,tickled related and so on. Not everything about me focuses on things like race. And even still this is more so about getting people to think more so than it's about a fetish. To be honest most of my tickle related ideas I LIKE TO challenge norms and reach for the stars. Whenever I see an idea I can't give my full time towards I start to either lose focus on it or become demoralized if i HAVE A realy good idea that no one is interested in. So imagine it's an idea I put aot of thought in, then I hit a writers block but people LIKE IT! except the people I find like it have apercentage majority of the lees but other target demograpgic is...small. Which wouldn't be a problem if the topic wasn't so... well I mean take a good look. POC ler's on white lees. I'll be honest with you, perhap even if I was getting more blacks than whites it would probabaly still look bad either way. I mean I guess being lee is pretty popular but Thanks for making me feel like a JackAss, I knew I was stepping into quicksand and when I felt ground beneath my feet I honestly thought hey, maybe I'm on to somethingt and this could work... but then my wirter's block hits. my enxiaty kicks in and then I look at the numbers. and then when ever I get a POC coming in, I get my hopes up. Why even bother?

No I'm not throwing in the towl though. however, I think I'm gonna stop even asking. I'll let the insporation come to me whenever it does. though I admit I do hate to let others down. However If you dont' have imagination for this sort of thing, or if this just ain't for you, then why did you come? You know what I'd..rather just be friends, be on friedly terms. But I don't realy ... expect you to emerse yourself into something this complex or challenging. because I get it, it's a challenge. I find it abit challenging my self. I HAVE an easier time imaging a world where humans are underdogs to non humanoid ticklers than I do to something like this! Infact that idea came first, and this was more of an atympt to stage something more set in reality and in maturee topics. I don't know I figured people would atleast want to explore and try to figure out the lore that could back such a scenario as this but I guess I put to much faith in the idea of people having imagination or the ability to think outside a box or break any opinion they believe in. I don't know why when I struggle with my own at timese. I guess I fuigured since I was able to see how it could work, others would to. You know...it's frustrating. you put any amout of work into something and the progress is so slow that it it ends up stagnent. You put your work into something ambitious but the moment you began to question the point of why your even doing this, you sort of just feel like you waisted all that time. Sure you saw the potnential and you should never just give up due to nay sayers or critics. But not those guys causei hardly evene hear from them. No it's the idea that in the end , will people even get why I even did this at all? Or will it al fly over their head?

I guess what I should say right now is...I'm emotionaly confused right now. I'm torn between an ambitous vission, my other visions, what my target demographic for this even is and what I got instead.

My after thoughts is this. This is a topic worth tackling and most certainly potential for world building and kinky fun. However it's ambitous and if your hoping your gonna have an RP with someone on this sort of gimmick...I'm sorry.But no one has that kind of imagination for it. I mean people got imagination for tickling, tickle torture, sadism, masichims from what I've seen. But let's get real. No Black, asian or other wise is interested in this. ok maybe that's not fair I've met some sure... but the reality is people are either to buisy , or don't RP, or CAN'T EVEN FIND YOU. I waited paciantly, hoping people might be interested... I got some and tried some things out. I got to be a lee. I think I found myself getting more well told stories out though being the ler for white lees! I'm basicly carrying the story. Oh sure I'm used to narrating in other tickle rp types too but I still found many others where I and the other person can contribte alot to the RP and it feels like a story is unfolding. I came close thinking I finaly found someone who could help me do that with the Giggle Milkee idea. Who ws I kidding. Not only was the sotry more set up by me but they wound up not even apreciating it. they straight up jump scared me with a sudden mood swing! realy?! A mood swing?! Listen.. if your Black or Asian or any other Grabber cannidate, I'm not discouraging you from trying. I mean there are plenty white lees out there. You can try all you like, but as for me..I DON'T EVEN know. Send me a message if your even interested...however my reception might be differant for now on than what it would have been in the past. For now on. if you don't got imagination, I won't waist any time with you. Same goes for the Gigmigs, though they've been more interested I still find some that either gone missing or are lacking. Maybe I'm just sore right now...like I SAID. i'M EMOTIONAly condused. more like distraught,aggervated, not wanting to give up, not wanting to keep going. I'm torn is what I'm saying. and I needed to vent. I'm not sure about where I'm gonna go with this in the future. But If I see another Grabber...I'm not getting my hopes up... I just won't. I'll be happy...but chances are.....well you figure it out cause my throat is sore.

[tsururoach]

It no longer hurts to be remembered ;

[puura52]

yıldızlar, gecenin mezar taşlarıdır.

[lifeinbooks]

Ljudi misle da je razlika između optimista i pesimista pitanje karaktera. Ali ja vjerujem da se sve svodi na nesposobnost da zaboraviš. Što više čuvaš stvari u sjećanju, to su tanje tvoje šanse za optimizam.

[crimsonicarus]

Laurie how do u feel about the Max to Mercedes rumors, oh great Gax overlord 🙏🙏🙏🙏

Ngl, every headline I've seen feels like a fever dream. I would love to have these two as a line up, both for their potential as drivers and cause it would be fucking hilarious (the content we could get it's my Roman empire) but I honestly don't think of it as a possible out come, I would also rather have Jos Verstappen as far from the Merc garage as possible.

And even as a gax enjoyer, in this particular scenario I still prefer that Merc seat going to Alex (I'm rooting for him so hard, also if that Williams seat is free, maybe Fred can get there)

The idea is very entertaining, when I heard of it first I fell to my knees, but that's all it is for me, an idea.

[totalcharliespringsimp]

>:[

[pinkbreeze]

the pictures of riquelme crying after the game, im destroyed

[belovedsanie]

the fact that we might see tarlos on their honeymoon feels too good to be true??? something bad is gonna happen i can feel it

[maidurak]

Sabaha karşı bir yağmur sesi eşlik ediyor yalnızlığıma. Sol yanım soğuk. Sen rüyalarıma girmeye devam ediyorsun. Gururla birilerine bakıyordun. Huzurluydun. Ben huzursuzum sevgilim. Geçmiyor içimdeki kanayan yara. Her gün bugündür belki bitiş günü derken inat etmiş açılıp kanamaya.

Seni sigara içerken hissediyorum sevgilim. Çektiğin her dolu nefeste içimdesin. Varlığımda... Peki ben senin varlığında mıyım? Beni ruhunun hangi parçası duyuyor? Durduk yerde gelen ağlama krizlerimi hangi parçan hissediyor? Hissedebiliyor musun sahi?

Son iki gündür bir tarihe tav oldum aşkım. 3 ay dedim kendi kendime. Bir şekilde doğmazsa güneş üzerime bitireceğim dedim artık kanamayı. Yapabildiğim en iyi şeyi yapacağım. Kaçacağım. Arkama bile bakmadan buradan gideceğim. Bunları hissediyor musun peki? Son iki gündür beni işitiyor mu ruhundaki tanrı parçacığın? Görüyor musun sende beni rüyalarında?

Üşüyorum sevgilim. Aniden soğuyan hava gibi çöküyor yokluğun üzerime. İntikam alırcasına. Sanki bir düşmanmışım gibi inatla bakıyor suratıma. Beni anlar gibi yapıyor ve kollarını açıyor. Gel diyor bana sarıl, sana iyi geleceğim. İnanıyorum bu soğuk yalana. Titriyorum. Yaşam bedenimden akıyor ve ben donarken yalnızlığımda hala seni bekliyorum.

[blossominglovely]

Hggnggnhng i dont wanna go outside and meet new people and have to be at this bday party for like 5 hours i just wanna stay home and play sudoku all dayyy

[snakebitelove19-blog]

I don't want Quill with Rocket.

I don't want Quill with Nebula.

I don't want Quill with Kitty Pryde (and i don't care if that happened in the comics)

I don't want Quill with anyone else but Gamora.

That's all.

[thebeezcnys]

We didn't get world series, MLS championship, or super bowl victories this year but goddammit we got Chuck Fletcher fired.

Grease the poles Philly we need to celebrate some kind of victory

[purpangel]

Üstümde bitmek bilmeyen yorgunluk var. İnsan kalbinin kırıldığını, parçalandığını hisseder mi ? Göğsünde bir ağrı, sanki biri almış eline öyle bir sıkmış gibi. Parça parça kırılmış da batan sanki ufak cam parçalarıymış gibi. Ne ağzınızdan bir kelime çıkabilir ne nefes alabilirsin, sanki kocaman bir taş yutmuşsun gibi. İçinde kocaman ağırlık, acı... Ben her kalbimin kırıldığında hissettim bunları. Artık bu yorgunlukla ne bir kalp kırıklığını kaldırabilirim ne başka bir şeyi. Hiçbir beden, hiçbir ruh, hiçbir zihin bu kadar arzulamamıştır ölümü. Benim yapabileceğim tek şey artık bu. Elimden gelen ve hayal ettiğim şeyi yapabilmem için elimdeki tek fırsat bu. Sanki bunları binlerce insan okuyacakmış gibi yazıyorum da neyse boşverin bunu. Yine de okursanız benim için ölümü değil de insanları sevin.

[puura52]

"semaya uzanan bir ağaç, ne kadar heybetli olursa olsun,

yapraklarını sonbaharın katletmesine engel olamıyor, kendi de ruhundan birkaç parça bırakıyordu.

zaman, yaraları sarmak için en aptalca teselli yöntemiydi. çünkü bizleri yaralayan, aslında zamandı.."

14:47

-puura

[toomanythoughts-blog]

Do you ever feel like the whole world has gone crazy and you are the only sane on left?

[fog-kid]

/ toh spoilers

the moment belos finds out king is a titan shit's gonna go down, he'll do anything to get to him and i know king is so ready to sacrifice himself if needed so i am fucking terrified of what will happen this next episode