#php will be the death of me

[mechanical-moron]

Programmers, Web designers, game developers, anyone else who does stuff with numbers on a computer screen.....curious to know if you guys ever dream in code, and if so, do you like it? I for one do not find it to be particularly enjoyable but want to hear what others have to say lol.

[kommandonuovidiavoli]

So, I’ve been thinking about the KND Mourning AU by arty0315

& the Toiletnator SPY Au made by U & I can’t help but wonder…What if Lou as the Toiletnator sees Mella & Evan’s graves during a mission?

how would he react? Would he break character? What would he do after words? Would he tell anyone? Would Irwin know about it & perhaps talk about it with him over a drink or 2(considering he’s seen the graves before) Would Lou be upset that Irwin never told him?

considering he’s a SPY for the KND he probably feels some guilt over not saving those 2 kids like”My job is to protect children,yet I couldn’t even save 2” unless I’m wrong whiz in this case, I’m stupid as all hell XD

anyways thanks for reading so much of this

I think he might go through some stages like everyone else. As always, Mourning AU by @artsygirl0315

[tw: drinking, self-destruction, death]

Stage 1: Denial

He was called to check on Sector PHP, who's been acting strange in the last days. Upon arriving, he announced himself with his usual self-confident, loud introduction... which got cut short when he saw the graves. From there, all kinds of emotions went through him, but most of all, he couldn't believe that two KIDS were apparently gone. And he didn't know about it. No one told him about it. Or... maybe no one knew about it.

His "visit" was cut short as Phoebe kicked him out. No one is allowed, villains especially.

But even after he was gone, he had many questions and a familiar, heavy feeling in his heart.

--

Stage 2: Anger

As he returned to the Adult Division, he felt rage growing and he decided to let it out by destroying some of the landscape around himself. Trees were knocked down, rocks were smashed, but nothing could calm those feelings that were just getting more and more persistent.

Did Vicky know and just didn't tell him? Did Moonbase know and didn't tell them? What the fuck was happening there? Why were two kids dead???

--

Stage 3: Bargaining

He started to get low on energy. He fell down on his knees, crying as he had never done in years.

They could've taken him! He was an adult, he lived long enough! Those kids had a LOT to live for! They had to grow up, fulfil their dreams, and see the world... and everything was just cut short. And he couldn't do anything about it. He failed his mission of keeping kids safe from the other side.

This brought him to past times he thought were gone, but now made every single scar from those times hurt like hell. It was like he failed one of his siblings again.

Taking off that costume he now felt he couldn't wear anymore, he walked up to a place he shouldn't even be close to: a bar.

--

Stage 4: Depression

He was worthless. He was a disgrace. He should've died after falling from that cliff. He should have said no to Vicky when she proposed for him to join the Adult Division. He was ready to push daisies and quit; he couldn't go on after what happened.

He ordered a drink. And another. And another. And again, another one. The taste of alcohol helped him relax, and slowly he got intoxicated enough that his bad feelings were almost gone. He had missed it, after 7 long years of nothing.

He didn't even notice someone sat next to him.

--

Stage 5: Acceptance

As he was about to take another sip, the bottle was taken from his hand. He turned to see who DARED to do it... just to find the last person he wanted to see. "This shit is bad for you." Irwin let out. "You get addicted easily and end up destroying yourself." "So what? I deserve this." Lou replied, already intoxicated, looking away from the other man. "... Numbuh 510 told me about your visit. ... you saw them, didn't you." Lou got up, grasping on Irwin's shirt and pulling him closer to his face. "YOU KNEW?? YOU'VE BEEN KNOWING THIS FOR THIS WHOLE TIME AND NEVER SAID ANYTHING?? WHY???" Irwin sighed. "Because I made a promise. They want to handle it their own way. And if we interfere, we risk losing all of them. Do you understand?"

Lou slowly let go of the shirt, his words settling into his foggy mind. He was silent for a moment before he looked up at him.

"What do we do now...?"

"We wait."

He didn't like that answer. Tears started rolling down his cheeks as he sat down once more, resting both arms on the counter and burying his head into them, as he started crying again, more desperate.

Irwin patted his back, taking away the last bottle he ordered. He knew too well where that was coming from.

It will take time.

--

Aftermath:

Lou took 3 days off his spy duty (not that anyone but people in the Adult Division noticed). He stayed at Vicky's house because he didn't want to be alone.

Vicky noticed how he somehow became milder than his usual self, almost shutting down and not caring about anything. Irwin visited every single day, making sure he was ok. He didn't even answer Sydney's calls or texts in those days.

Eventually, he got back to his usual self. He just needed those days to calm down completely. He assured Vicky he was ready to get back to his duties, and then, the Toiletnator was back into the Villains' lines.

Searching.

Because if it was an adult villain who did it...

One single adult life for two kids' sounded unfair. But good enough to him.

[the-vampire-fish-queen]

The UK needs some help with there own Online Safety Act (UK KOSA) that going to end up shutting down both small and big sites starting in March 2025.

It's already starting a online cycling community web forum with over 60K users shutting down because of the UK Online Safety Act (UK KOSA).

Link to more info here

"Reading https://www.ofcom.org.uk/online-safety/illegal-and-harmful-content/time-for-tech-firms-to-act-uk-online-safety-regulation-comes-into-force/ and we're done... we fall firmly into scope, and I have no way to dodge it. The act is too broad, and it doesn't matter that there's never been an instance of any of the proclaimed things that this act protects adults, children and vulnerable people from... the very broad language and the fact that I'm based in the UK means we're covered.

The act simply does not care that this site and platform is run by an individual, and that I do so philanthropically without any profit motive (typically losing money), nor that the site exists to reduce social loneliness, reduce suicide rates, help build meaningful communities that enrich life.

The act only cares that is it "linked to the UK" (by me being involved as a UK native and resident, by you being a UK based user), and that users can talk to other users... that's it, that's the scope.

I can't afford what is likely tens of thousand to go through all the legal hoops here over a prolonged period of time, the site itself barely gets a few hundred in donations each month and costs a little more to run... this is not a venture that can afford compliance costs... and if we did, what remains is a disproportionately high personal liability for me, and one that could easily be weaponised by disgruntled people who are banned for their egregious behaviour (in the years running fora I've been signed up to porn sites, stalked IRL and online, subject to death threats, had fake copyright takedown notices, an attempt to delete the domain name with ICANN... all from those whom I've moderated to protect community members)... I do not see an alternative to shuttering it.

The conclusion I have to make is that we're done... Microcosm, LFGSS, the many other communities running on this platform... the risk to me personally is too high, and so I will need to shutter them all.

What and When

So here's the statement...

On Sunday 16th March 2025 (the last day prior to the Act taking effect) I will delete the virtual servers hosting LFGSS and other communities, and effectively immediately end the approximately 300 small communities that I run, and the few large communities such as LFGSS.

It's been a good run, I've administered internet forums since 1996 having first written my own in Perl to help fans of music bands to connect with each other, and I then contributed to PHP forum software like vBulletin, Vanilla, and phpBB, before finally writing a platform in Go that made it cost efficient enough to bring interest based communities to so many others, and expand the social good that comes from people being connected to people.

Approximately 28 years and 9 months of providing almost 500 forums in total to what is likely a half a million people in that time frame... the impact that these forums have had on the lives of so many cannot be understated.

The peak of the forums has been the last 5 years, we've plateaued around 275k monthly users across the almost 300 websites on multiple instances of the platform that is Microcosm, though LFGSS as a single community probably peaked in the 2013-2018 time period when it alone was hitting numbers in excess of 50k monthly users.

The forums have delivered marriages, births, support for those who have passed (cancer being the biggest reason), people reunited with stolen bikes, travel support, work support, so much joy and happiness and memorable experiences... but it's also been directly cited by many as being the reason that they are here today, the reason they didn't commit suicide or self-harm. It's help people get through awful relationship breakups, and helped people overcome incredible challenges with their health.

It's devastating to just... turn it off... but this is what the Act forces a sole individual running so many social websites for a public good to do.

I don't know where to recommend... I know lots of people have moved small groups to places like Signal and WhatsApp, and that some people are on the fediverse, and some are in other websites and groups.

There is no central place that could take us all and preserve the very special thing we had... so it's done.

This is a really special place... the people are special... I guess the next 3 months will be a time of sharing what it meant, and of groups figuring out where they want to go next.

Love you all forever, it's been amazing to be a part of it all, I never thought I'd touch the lives of so many people by running websites, and in turn to give so much reason to my own life. In the end, the person I save most was likely myself.

Dee"

This is very bad and the compliance requirements will affect alot of websites based in the UK and Ofcom seems very out of its depth.

The whole thing is an unworkable mess and will collapse under its own weight. There also alot of privacy and legal issues with it.

This may also affect Tumblr and force the site to leave the UK.

Please spread awareness!

[numbuh-72]

"Possible Threats" - Blue Moon AU

It's been a couple months since Gianna's passing...while people were still mourning for her loss slowly....Alice's tyranny has only grown rapidly.

Kids have been scrambling to do their best to keep these beasts at bay...to most have fallen or hidden out of fear. Moon Base has been struggling to get out more members out in the fields to join along side Gianna's close friends; Sector PHP, Carol, Aiden, Plantazia, and many more to put on the list that are fighting to avenge Gianna from her death.

However, there was still ways to go until their main mission is complete; Defeat Alice and destroy The Entity.

One night, the creatures in one area of the neighborhood decide to roam and search for any new victims to torture...Except for one. One of the Shadow Walkers was just roaming the streets normally, watching all of the destruction happen in front of it.

Creatures were happily flying around, destroying anything in their paths. It was like their own little playground..

Though behind the eyes of the Shadow Walkers...is the eyes of The Devil's Doll....Alice Anderson. The demon girl who kids heavily despise and hate for the terrible crime she committed. Somewhere in the town, is a base for her to rest in and watch chaos rain down from above, admiring her new powers and abilities given by The Entity.

"...Hehehe..."

"Finally....everything is going according to plan, my friends!" "Soon enough...this world will be ours and kids will finally see who they've been dealing with this whole time!" "After I killed Gianna...that right there has been the warning sign to everyone in the world that any who oppose...will pay a price!" "Nothing can stop us now!"

It wasn't long before a spirit form of The Entity appeared from the shadows and approaches Alice. While it did enjoy the current victory...it knew that there would still be obstacles to worry about.

"....Ms. Anderson..."

"...As much we are victorious at this time...Aren't you worried that despise the act you committed, there are still kids out there who still fight to get to us?"

Alice could only laugh at The Entity's question for a good few seconds....before changing her expression to be serious and brushing off the concern.

"You worry too much my dear friend....May I remind you that we are swatting people down like flies when attempting to fight our creatures?"

Alice then turns to face her spiritual friend, smiling widely.

"..Besides, you've seen the current progress through this crystal ball yourself! Haha! How can you not be smiling and enjoying every second of this moment?! So what if a couple brats don't heed the warning, their demise will be met anyways!!"

This of course didn't please The Entity....it decided to grow large and stare down at Alice, sending a threatening aura.

"Alice...May I remind you that your pride is in the way to completing the plan in its entirety.." "I am aware of the progress we have; However, there is an issue with the current kids that are still fighting back...specifically Gianna's friends."

It then uses the crystal ball to change point of views...to the one where some of Gianna's friends were fighting the hoards of creatures attacking them....It was Aiden and Carol. Both of their expressions had the aura of enragement while taking down these creatures one by one.

"...What concerns me is that despite the despair levels being higher than 5....they continue to fight on and not rest until they reach us.." "..Plus...let's not forget about this new....Blue Moon that suddenly appeared that made the creatures weaker to those kids!" "There are rumors as we speak that this Blue Moon is actually Gianna in spirit, trying to help out the people by lending her energy to fight back our army."

Alice could only go silent at that point since the current situations were...shocking. Yet she shook off her speechless reactions and folds her arms, looking away.

"...Ok then...what do you think we should do to make sure these guys don't slow down our progress?"

The Entity soon returns to its spirit form and floats to Alice's face.

"I suggest that we keep making sure that these creatures soon start going towards them...push them back while the rest keep the progress of the world domination going at a steady pace. I can adjust these creatures to make sure that Gianna's friends are wanted dead..."

"That way the second their sight is on any of these friends....no mercy will be shown."

Alice soon thinks on the plan and realizes what The Entity meant...a smirk slowly forming on her face.

"In other words...we exhaust them til they are too tired to fight!"

She then laughs evilly and claps her hands together.

"Very well, master...I shall pay a visit to our other 'friend' and inform them about this course of action~"

The Entity nods once, soon disappearing into a puff of smoke.

Alice soon makes her way to a very dark room, skipping happily...until she stopped and looked up at giant being that was chained up...Acting as a power source to summoning the Shadow Creatures to the world.

"Hello there~ I do hope you're ready for an upgrade..."

"...Irk~"

(Whew! This panels were a lot to do but it was worth it! Thank you to Kandy for doing that fight scene for me since I can't really do one for the love of me ^^;)

(But enjoy this new Blue Moon post~)

Aiden and Carol and Fight Scene Drawing - @kandykatz

Sector PHP - @artsygirl0315

Plantaiza & Irk - @some-loozzr

[artsygirl0315]

first of all, Thank u So So Sooooooooooo much for answering my last question! It was a treat!! I’m so sorry it took me so long to see it, I was busy!! But I’m here for another question(well questions)for the KND Mourning AU

How do the PARENTS of Mella & Evan cope with the death of their child? Are THEY allowed to see the graves around the treehouse. I know they have a strict”No one is allowed to enter” but considering it’s their Freaking PARENTS! Surly they made an exception right?

SPEAKING of which, what about the parents of what’s left of Sector PHP? How do they help their children dealing with their grief? Do they also grieve for Evan & Mella? What if THEY want to see the graves near the treehouse?? God the drama around this AU is ENDLESS

(Oh it's definitely endless because many things could happen in the KND and this is just one of the many topics that has plenty of layers to build on, From minor problems to major long-term pain. The KND is a full organization of just children and possibly adults but what exactly happens when something as scary as this kind of situation occurs? Many more of these are in need to be uncovered.)

(Pls know that this post consists of death and sensitive topics, DNI if you don't wish to read such content)

That's actually a lot but all of them are allowed to visit so I'll just try to go one by one with explaining each of Sector PHP;

First is Evan, Evan's family was obviously devastated to their child having to go through such a terrible experience and only to lose him at the process. They kept his urn in their home which was very much taken cared for by everyone, especially Jamie.

Jamie was more than guilty, feeling as though he had a part of his older brother's passing and to be honest, He couldn't help but blame himself the most even after his family tried to help him.

They visit their graves frequently but slowly became only once a week, The sadness occurred deeply in the family but they tried to be strong when putting flowers on their child's grave.

Next is Mella, Her family only now consists of her Father and little sister, Eleanor (Mourn). Her father couldn't accept what happened with his wife and oldest daughter, Finding himself in a spiral of despair and grief that it made him get off work for almost months.

He stayed strong and brave for Eleanor but even she knew his misery was palpable every night he was alone with his thoughts, Crying himself to sleep whole holding Eleanor in his arms.

He never drank, never tried to off himself or even consider harming himself or his youngest child.

They visit the graves every week for a new bouquet, One for Mella and one for her mother.

The only reason Mella's grave was far away from her mother's is that her mother's grave had already been dug by Mrs. Burnham herself, having suffering something damaging in her body that lead to her upcoming passing and she wanted to be prepared.

It was a kind of illness that left her only 9 months to live, unfortunately that day came much sooner.

Now for Phoebe; Now everyone in Sector PHP are friends with each other's family so they're very close. They do visit their graves but not so very often. They too grieved for the two lost souls that passed at such an early age and are deeply concerned for the children whom have deep connections with them. One of them was Phoebe.

Her parents weren't exactly open with problems, they wouldn't try to openly speak about what they feel and don't exactly know how to make a solution.

When they get into arguments, they wouldn't actively try to reason or talk about what happened. Just wait for a bit and pretend it didn't happen, not an apology or 'thank you'.

So you can imagine how awkward and uncomfortable it would've been after the funerals, Her parents didn't know how to face Phoebe with that problem so they left her to herself in hopes that she could think about those feelings on her own.

Although, that only did the opposite. She mostly kept to herself and stayed quiet, not wanting to openly communicate about the situation and sometimes gets aggressively physical rather than talking about what's on her mind.

She only does so with Jeremiah, she couldn't bring herself to talk to Tyler anyway.

Next would be Jeremiah, His family only consists of his mother, grandparents and sibling. He lost his father at a young age but never knew him that well or probably didn't even remember him, so he wasn't as affected by his absence but he did wonder what it would've been like to have him around.

This was also why he was more in denial, desperate to hold on to the ideas of Mella and Evan still being around because he never felt that way with his late father, so these new emotions and feelings were unfamiliar despite wanting to seem level-headed and calm.

His family worries for him, telling him that it was okay to face the reality but he just didn't want to listen. He wants to believe that this was just a nightmare, that Mella and Evan will come back eventually.

But they don't, He couldn't stand that truth so he bottles it all up inside.

He let's his family visit their graves every other week but he wouldn't be there to grieve with them, still holding on hope and prayers. Even if that hope held on by a thin thread.

Last but not the least, Tyler. His family consists of his brothers and their grandmother, He too was there when his parents had passed but it was such a long time ago that only now did those old bubbling feelings he kept at the back of his mind began to resurface.

Those feelings added on to his despair and misery after witnessing his friends' passing, He couldn't talk to anyone about this because he feared that they wouldn't understand or would make him try to forget what happened.

He couldn't forget even if he so desperately tried, He was haunted by the fear and guilt that he forbade his family from seeing the graves after a few visits because they accidentally broke something.

Yeah, he's become to think unhealthy and make brash decisions by his own accord. He feels guilty but would gaslight himself to believe that it was for the best, He wouldn't let harm happen to his friends while they rested peacefully.

(That's all of them, Hopefully I worded this correctly and hope that I answered your question. Thank you for leaving an ask again!!)

[mostlysignssomeportents]

Object permanence

I'm on a 20+ city book tour for my new novel PICKS AND SHOVELS. Catch me in SAN DIEGO at MYSTERIOUS GALAXY on Mar 24, and in CHICAGO with PETER SAGAL on Apr 2. More tour dates here.

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[mylittlemystery]

Why I Left

Hey there. It's been quite some time, hasn't it? I want to start this post by saying that I missed all of you, and that the continuous asks left in my inbox along with the wonderful friends I've made via this website is what encouraged me to finally come back - I never intended to leave for this long, but that's besides the point.

TL;DR: I left for two years due to my declining mental health reaching a point where I could no longer sit by and do nothing about it. The asks in my inbox will be being answered, and requests will be published whenever I finish them. I will undoubtedly be slow to respond due to other things I wish to accomplish simultaneously, but for all intents and purposes I have returned - I will be giving this blog a fresh coat of paint before I begin posting anything new.

If you'd like to hear about the nitty gritty details, please see below.

CW: talk of eating disorders, death, declining mental health, suicidal ideation, and self-harm.

Originally, I only intended to be gone for the month of June back in 2022 - I went to a partial hospitalization program (or PHP) for people with eating disorders, and I was told that it should only last from the first to the twenty-ninth. I happen to suffer from both binge eating disorder (BED) and anorexia, so the time I spent there proved to be very impactful and positive for me.

I met some great people. I learned some good coping strategies. I made some long lasting memories.

The day after I had been discharged, someone who I had recently come to look up to and derived a great deal of comfort from passed away - I expect some of you will have been affected by this as well.

Mere months later, I was informed of something extremely difficult involving my extended family with whom I was very close to during my childhood.

The majority of the past two years were spent retreating into myself - my mental health has not been very stable ever since I was rather young, but this was a sort of low point that I had not experienced in a long time. The notion of suicide came very easily to me, and I even resorted to self-harm at the beginning of this year in a poor attempt to cope.

I didn’t want that to be the way things ended.

I went to another PHP program (this one specifically focused on coping with depression), and I have felt better than I have in many moons ever since.

I am coming back to this blog in the hopes that I can continue to make people happy with what I write - after all, this niche little special interest got me through many a dark day myself.

Please keep fighting - I promise that it’s worth it.

You are worthy of love. <3

[knightinkosherarmour]

Post Human Studies: The Unreal State

This week, students, we return to the concept of Post Human Polities - PHP - as opposed to Post Human Species - PHS - as established in our previous lecture on the Progress Cult. As loathe as I am to bring up the maniacs behind the Progress Cult, if you can all forgive my editorializing, today's lecture deals with one of their successor PHPs, the Unreal State. The Unreal State most likely has deep ties to the social thought behind the Progress Cult which was Anarchoacademic Liberism.

For reasons you will come to understand, I hope, most of today's statements regarding the Unreal State must be coached in uncertainties. First however, let us discuss and attempt if not to define than circle a definition for Anarchoacademic Liberism. Anarchoacademic Liberism is an attempt at a revival of old Earthen ideologies of futurism and anarchism as understood by the Provost Major of the Progress Cult. To his understanding, anarchism was simply abolishing any and all social taboos and understandings as well as abolition of most state functions and futurism was putting ultimate faith in any and all new emergent technologies regardless of ethics behind them. As a student of Earthen and Human philosophies and ideologies, I must question where the Provost Major gained his understanding. The Provost Major thusly structured what remained of the Progress Cults state apparatus after various academic institutions supposing they would be best at encouraging the acquisition of information.

After the Applied Military Theories and the dissolution of the Progress Cult's holdings following the Provost Major's death, one of the break away polities was the Unreal State. The Unreal State was like many other successors to the Progress Cult, charismatic leaders putting their own spin on Anarchoacademic Liberism. However, the Unreal State took it one step forward, and began an assault against the very fundamental laws of reality.

This is now where things will have to enter supposition. Everything after this is conjecture. There are three possibilities to what the current Unreal State is.

The first is this, there is a pocket of space in what was once a Progress Cult controlled system once was. The Unreal State as much as it exists exists there, in space that no longer follows the same rules, if any, as the rest of reality if the space follows any rules at all. The Unreal State has managed to create a rupture in reality that in a system whose name can no longer be recorded on any form of media, believe me experts in the field of memetic hazardous storage have tried. Now that we have established that Unreal State now lies entirely within this rupture and potentially other ruptures comes the questions of those people who claim to be from the Unreal State. Those individuals we met claiming to be Citizens of the Land That Isn't and are displaying high levels of universal dissociation are from this Unreality and seek to spread its dissolution of reality with a fever that rivals adherents of the Green Orthodox Bible. Attempts to enter these gaping holes in reality, which now include what once was Mercury of the Sol System, more or less than resounding failures with to this dates no contact being able to be established or return trips emerging.

The second is this there is a pocket of space in what was once a Progress Cult controlled system once was. The second possible explanation is that these ruptures in space time are actually more akin wormholes, portals to a place we do not yet understand where only those who have spent long periods exposed to the Unreal State can survive, or those become citizens there. We have heard reports from surviving Citizens that have return that the state is engaged now and not just the war against the very fabric of reality but against those that maintain it and those beyond the veil. They claim knowledge of Cthulhiods, named after the Old Earthen Occultist’s Erotic Creation’s writing, and other creatures of the firmament such as Angels of Vangel. These citizens that they alone of humanity take the war for liberation to new fronts, they fulfill the work in words promised by humanity for years before. Whoever is part of this work they have emerged to changed, part of the universal disassociation is that in parlance some of you might laugh at they seem to clip through objects that were steady as possible they no longer react in the right ways on a physiochemical level to external interactions. Most worrisome part of this is that this does not seem to be isolated and is capable of spreading it is how Mercury once a famed center of medical research was dissolved and in the place where it once rotated now is a gaping Mall visible through the solar system at all times. It has made Earth's first colony Venus, turn itself into a fortificated world and reinforce the paranoia in isolation of the Martian gardeners. That of the four cradle worlds of mankind, on has been lost already, is a portent of doom.

The third is this there is a pocket of space in what was once a Progress Cult controlled system once was. This one is the most comforting one to me, all individuals claiming to be from the Unreal State are charlatans and delusional. The Unreal State does not in any form exist and it is merely a galactic Boogeyman. That all previous suppositions can be simply explained away through a clever trick of the hand and a heavy heavy dose of ignorance. This however is the least likely.

The one confirmed fragment I have found consistent is this.

"In the Unreal State, the whole of the law is this: There shall be no Law, neither against murder nor that yoke of gravity, and to oppose all other laws shall be your duty."

Even speaking of the Unreal State is fraught with the fact almost nothing is confirmed there are many suppositions many ideas of things that could be known but in the end what is confirmed is a little more than dust in the wind. I hope against hope to whatever deities that there truly are if they are benevolent in this world, that the Unreal State is simply a fiction of already unstable cultists. For the consider anymore of what it's potential truths imply makes me jealous of those with cybernetic implants who may cleanse their mind.

Now students, if any of you here are truly real or here, the lecture is over. Class dismissed. I hope to see you in some form again soon. I need a drink of coffee. Is this still recording?

[communionwaiver]

One of the wilder beliefs I'm still working on is the belief that the outside world only pretends to have a separate set of a moral values than life inside the cult. Non-fundamentalists allegedly don't believe in such severe corporal punishment, they don't think women and men are separate but complementary, and they don't believe in the Rapture or Salvation. But sometimes I still really feel like if I fuck up badly enough, any outsider is going to 'turn' and reveal that they really do think the way we do in the cult. Chiefly, and I don't know if this is as common as a belief for other ex-fundamentalists, but it's felt so universal for me, the belief that if I break the rules, any authority figure is allowed to hurt me in any way they feel necessary. I temporarily stop being a person when I do something 'bad'. (And of course children, being inherently sinful, aren't fully people to begin with.)

It's made all conflict impossible up until after IOP/PHP. In conversations with roommates, coworkers, and friends, I was so scared of being wrong because it really felt like life or death. In other contexts I thought if I rolled over and let people walk all over me that they'd have a little more mercy when I really did make them angry. It made it basically impossible to be honest with any mental health professionals, too, because some part of me wanted those beliefs to be wrong and I was absolutely terrified they would prove me right, that the 'secular' world is just a less self-aware version of the 'normal' world. On a deeper level I was scared I'd be punished for questioning anything.

Ironically it's really hard for 'secularists' to understand why I'm so weird. This conflict between fundamentalism and anything else feels like a universal struggle, but basically nobody I've met since moving to Chicago knows what the fuck I'm talking about when I talk about speaking in tongues or the end times. I probably seemed like a socially-anxious pathological liar for a couple years. It's taken almost a year of therapy to feel okay saying, "I was raised in a cult," and not completely worry that the person I'm talking to is gonna go mask-off and drag me back into the cult.

[vampyrehospital]

im just gonna outright say it now before people get upset again when i talk abt mental health treatment:

i had a shit experience inpatient for mental health. if it saved your life, good for you, my posts are not about you, they are about me.

tw for abuse, neglect, suicide, death, sa mentions

the place i went to caused the death of a sixteen year old girl and almost took the life of a thirteen year old i know, as well as fucked over so many vulnerable children. they neglected my health issues resulting in almost weekly er visits. therefore, i hold the view that long term treatment facilities are not helpful, they are institutions filled with greed that function as prisons where mentally ill children go to get more mentally ill

i do agree with short term psychiatric wards. i think php and iop are also good options though i never went. outpatient therapy may be enough if someone hasnt been mentally ill for too long. i draw the line at ripping someone from all their friends and comforts, watching them 24/7, not letting them make any friends, and punishing them for every misstep. that doesnt help

i am more sick than ever, my cognitive skills are declining due to overmedication and ive developed a movement disorder that causes me to involuntarily distort my face in painful ways. i have ptsd and nightmares multiple times a week. im scared of people, and im never seeking any mental health help ever again. i see an anp for meds but thats it, we dont discuss how im doing i dont say anything. my arms and legs are covered in scars, most of which happened when i started cutting way deeper after treatment due to paranoia and ptsd. i cant socialize i cant make friends, i dont know how. i cant open up to people.

im a mess but i cant tell anyone. all i want to do is to tell someone tell a friend i want fo fucking cry and scream but i cant bc all i think about is inpatient. i cant even attempt suicide not bc im scared of dying but bc im scared of SURVIVING and ending up insitutionalized again.

dont argue with me on this, youll just piss me off and get blocked.

[daisyvisions]

you were getting to know sangyeon in a very spicy way because he started it anyway and you decided to go along.

you asked how big he is and he pulled out his wallet and took a handful of coins. he lines them up on the table and he said, "count."

1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. 5.. 6.. 7..

and he said, "that's when im soft."

p.s. i literally took out my 1 php coins before writing this because im that delulu

please where are all these sangyeon asks coming from WHERE HAVE YOU ALL BEEN HIDING!!! WE NEED MORE SANGYEON STANS TO SPEAK UP!!

fml that is so hot 7 inches WHEN SOFT?! god monster cock sangyeon will be the death of me I dont think I could function around him properly after him saying this to me 😫

[numbuh-72]

"I Leave Treasures..." - Blue Moon AU Scenario

You were called to Gianna's house by Rosella and Salvador to be told that a Will was founded in Gianna's room.

Without a second thought, you came over to the house...a few of Gianna's close friends were there too...Waiting for the Will to be read out.

Once all of Gianna's closest friends were there....Rosella begins to read the Will;

"To my friends and family....

I am so sorry to have leave you all behind in this world...I never thought my naiveness would cost my life in desperately trying to free Alice from her chains...only to see in my final moments that she was long gone as well...

In all honesty...I kind of foresaw this to be the case....so before this fate was met, I took the time to prepare some gifts to you all....for you guys were my lights of life...my reasons to keep going. None of you deserve to see or know about my death.

One thing I will ask though is please don't be too sad....The last thing I want from you guys is sadness forever...May the rain that pour down be my tears, seeing you guys in pain from my disappearance.

May the sun be me smiling down, seeing you all push forward for my sake.

May the moon be me giving you sweet dreams and well rest forthe next day.

Do know that I'm not forever gone though....at least not spiritually. Anytime you come visit me...eventually, you will feel a warm presence hug around you...that will be me, comforting you at best...reassuring you that I'm always next to you no matter how far away you are.

Now, for those gifts...please go to my grave...you will see some of my possessions on it. Find the item with your nametag on it...Once you receive that item, my dad will give you a letter corresponding to the item you received from me.

May these items be a symbol to remind you that I will be by your side til the very end...and to never give up. Your smiles, will be my smile.

On the day of the next full moon, a phenomenon will happen that will help you in dire times. Use that advantage, and please for my sake to rest easily, complete my mission; Defeat Alice and Destroy The Entity. Show them no mercy...."

After reading the will, they guide you to the backyard....to Gianna's grave.

On Gianna's grave, the presents given from her friends, were replaced with Gianna's gifts. The parents explained that their presents were moved to Gianna's room as a temporary spot til the gifts on Gianna's grave were claimed.

The following gifts are what Gianna is giving out;

Fan Blades (Sector PHP)

Earrings (Sector PHP)

Plushies (Gianna and Joseph, their hands are stitched together so you must take both) (Aiden)

Two gift boxes....(Those will be reserved to Carol and Skye)

R.I.T.A - She decided to go with someone she can trust to remain by their side forever. (Renya has taken R.I.T.A)

Laptop (Plantazia)

One by one, Gianna's friends walk to the grave and look for the gifts that belong to them.

Once it was your turn, you step up to the grave and find the gift that belongs to you...

Which item do you take?

(If possible DM the item so that way I can edit the post that the item was claimed already-)

[artsygirl0315]

So, first of all I would like to apologize for the ask about Kommandonuovidiavoli's OC Penny in your AU. I didnt mean any harm in it, I was just curious, so sorry :(

anyway, what inspired you to make the KND Morning Au in the fist place? and why Mella & Evan in particular?

(It's all good, I could understand the curiosity and there wasn't any harm done asking because it was still a good idea to clarify the topic!)

As for the question at hand, I have actually answered this a few times (I think) on other posts but still a good question.

The Mourning AU was stemmed from the idea "What happens when the sunshine characters die?"

and mind you, this would be a somewhat sensitive topic in the KND universe in general than just Sector PHP.

These are children working along dangerous tasks and in a constant battling environment, where they help kids from all around the globe and fight adult tyranny daily.

But a certain thought comes to me and asks, "What specifically happens when they have to face reality? Like a fellow KND operative passing away? Another child?"

That in itself is cruel, gruesome and very overwhelming to the minds of children. But there's still a possibility that it could happen and that leads to the thought of how children cope with them.

How exactly do they handle all those big emotions, those bad thoughts, those feelings that just couldn't be taken away even when they're trying for distract themselves with childish wonder or by playing pretend?

Now for the part which begs the question; "Why Mella and Evan?"

Because like I said, they're the ones more likely to be described as the 'sunshine characters', they are the ones who give light to a sector where everyone has something of a part in their group.

Mella was the more reasonable one, who even with the most calm demeanor, still finds to be fun and has that charm that soothes others.

Evan was the kind-hearted one, the one to laugh and smile at any occasion either good or bad, a little ray of sunshine to keep the dark clouds away.

After they passed, Sector PHP became the embodiment of grief and tragedy that fell upon children who just weren't prepared for it.

Phoebe was Anger, Jeremiah was Denial, and Tyler was the most deranged form of depression.

The story then began, a journey of how children cope and handle the begrudging weight of life and death in their minds.

And it won't end until they finally get the help they need, it won't pass until they help others along with themselves.

(That's all I have for now, hopefully this answered your question! Thank you for leaving an ask again!💙)

[kyra45]

This year has been exceedingly rough for me, and she came to me pretty early on in it. I tried to do a little research but I didn't know her full name yet, so just searching her username brought up posts talking about it being unfair that just because she was Filipina people were accusing her of being a scammer.

Plus at the time she was messaging me every other week about a new tragedy, I was having a similar experience, with my FiL constantly going to the hospital, storm taking out our electricity, my FiL running out of oxygen, etc. She told me things like her house needing repairs, then that house was flooding, then I believe her mom was in the hospital, and then either hers (or a neighbors?) house caught on fire, and then after that was when she faked her arrest and death, but those may be out of order.

I only ever sent her about $23 total, but she asked for more money than I made. I tried to ask her like "how can I help today?" since I didn't have much to spare, and I consistently got answers in the hundreds of USD. (Ex: asking for abt 45k PHP and then down to maybe 11k PHP) I wasn't sure if she wasn't understanding bc she had a different conception of how much money I had or something else, but she would constantly message me telling me how everything has gotten worse. The fact that the same thing was happening to me made me more sympathetic and made me feel bad for doubting her.

The messages were very guilt trippy, and it was to the point where I just pretended not to be online for a few months. It was around the fire that I started having serious doubts about her validity, and by the time she posted the picture of her in the hello kitty sheet claiming to be deceased I was able to laugh to friends about ever believing her.

But it's incredibly upsetting seeing how many people not only believed her, had the resources to help her, and she continued to claim no one was helping her. But I guess a fake crowd funding campaign that seems successful isn't as profitable as one that's portrayed as tanking.

Hi anon, thanks for the ask!

Unfortunately, she was always targeting certain communities for fundraising. The trend of tagging certain blogs, messaging users constantly, and also pretty much guilt tripping everyone she talked to into giving her money even if they couldn’t afford it. Even when someone had sent her hundreds of dollars, it’s pretty much shown now that she would claim no one’s helping her.

I often like to think Laura started the trend of blogs who made fake fundraisers and would start tagging random people in it or messaging people constantly sharing unprompted images and using guilt trippy methods at the same time. It doesn’t seem like these existed all that often until Laura did it. But who knows, really xD

Early on, no one really knew she was a scammer. She looked genuine enough after all and there wasn’t any real reason to doubt her. It took a while before some things started not making sense. I hope you’re doing alright now.

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[sudokufriend]

honestly as a very vindictive person who, since childhood, has imagined tragically dying and being able to watch people who mistreated me feel terrible about my death, i am going to be the biggest bitch in the world if the symptoms i’m experiencing end up being not-GERD. i certainly wasn’t worried about any of this initially, but considering that the symptoms i’m experiencing do plausibly match later stages of serious conditions and no one except me seems to remember that a 1 in 100 chance of being hit by a bus means that SOMEONE IS STILL BEING HIT BY A BUS SOMEWHERE, i certainly am growing increasingly frustrated.

from my GP (PHP for US ppl) father not really caring about any of my symptoms and sending me off to the ED alone, to my nurse mother making fun of me for being concerned, to my medical intern sister and their obsession with psychosomatic disorders because of my mental illnesses. to my GP who concluded i had GERD a year ago but has been functionally useless since then aside from prescribing pantoprazole (a PPI) and ondansetron more recently - and took the whole year to decide that an endoscopy was worth a shot. and then the gastroenterologist i saw last week who concluded i simply had anxiety. and of course the ED that dismissed me but will probably be where i get treatment if it ends up being serious. i will seriously guilt trip my sister and parents over this. i’ll never let them forget how they sat on their pedestals as medical professionals and pulled the rope up after them while i was writhing in pain.

of course all of this is meaningless if it isn’t serious. LMAO.