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[angelprettty]

Th1nspo

from my gender envy 📌trest board

(I'm nonbinary)

[angelprettty]

May 2024 ⭐vePlan (TW ED)

get it? like gameplan? tsktsk

OKAY folks I gotta get it together this month or I will literally go batshit insane.

My diet plan is still mostly in effect, (mostly OMAD, not over 750 kcals, etc) but I also realize I am thinking about food, w3ight loss, and 4n4 way too much. Making it harder on myself and life miserable. So my Ultimate Plan for May is to embody the sk1nny 'girl' mindset ✨

also maybe this way I won't have to lie as much to my bf

Naturally sk1nny people don't think about food, at the least, they don't obsess over it!

So the affirmation/rules for Sk1nny Mindset May include:

some of these are already true for me, and some I am working on

I don't like feeling full, feeling satisfied after a few bites is enough for me

Food is mostly boring and I only eat what tastes really good

I prefer hiking, dancing, yoga, playing soccer, etc more than I like going to restaurants

I never finish my food/plates

I would rather not eat than eat something disgusting or bland

I eat really slow, sometimes it annoys people

I'm always busy writing, reading, and doing my other hobbies so I just forget to eat

When I get upset (sad, angry, repulsed, etc) I lose my appetite

I'm never on a diet, I plan to eat like this for the rest of my life (whole foods, mostly plants, not eating out much)

I almost always have to make my food look pretty, I will take time out of my mealtime to set the food aesthetically.

I tried writing this as things the new me would say If I was describing myself. Luckily most of these I really feel like describe me already,,,, the others.... we workin on

Anyway, I will also be on Tumblr a lot less because the whole point is not to think about food, diets, or comparing myself to others. If I can follow these ideas then by June I'll be like a different person (in size and mind lol).

I will update this post by May 31, wish me luck rexies!

Start: 163 lbs (74 kg)

End: 154.2 !!!!!

[angelprettty]

Slim and straight

So excited that I am getting top surgery on July 1st, I hate having b00bs and am so jealous of small chested/ flat chested people who can wear whatever top they want, can't wait for that to be me fr

[angelprettty]

Guys fuck, my vision is going out 😭 I'm eating rn hoping it helps, there's like a spot (no matter which eye I close) that blinks in and out??? Fuck It suckz

Hope I didn't do anything permanent or whatever 😭

Like the words on the screen are blinking but it's just my eyesight.....

[angelprettty]

TMI / TW 3D

messy bowel movements

Why did I take lax4tives 😭 I was just so tired of not going #2 and my weight was stagnating so I took them without really thinking... But I've only had them once before (months ago before I relaps3d) and they gave me diarrhea both times 😭. I hate diarrhea this shit sucks balls. Never again 😭 I rather just be bloated. Shit I rather just eat than this

Ouch I hate it

[angelprettty]

My bf calls me "Tiny" because he's 6' (183cm) and I'm 5'1 (152 cm) but I can't wait until I really am tiny in every sense of the word...

But also 4nar3xia hack to date someone so much bigger than you that you can pretend to be sk1nny 💀😂

[angelprettty]

Okay 3 days of being back on my restricting bs and I'm down 3lbs thank God.

I haven't been under 159 lbs in like a YEAR OR MORE. But as sad as that Is, it also means hitting It in like a week will be so rewarding. Thank you 4n@ 🙏🏾

[angelprettty]

PSA (Pixie service announcement)

Hello everyone, I haven't posted in forever and now I'm hella recovered tbh.

I'm still working on losing weight but health is more important to me now and I don't purposely skip meals or over stress about my weight to the point I can't live life.

I think a big reason is having top surgery made most of my body dysphoria go away and it turns out maybe my 3d was just gender dysphoria....

Anywho I am going to keep this account for w3ightloss motivation but I'll probably slowly be unfollowing heavily disordered accounts because it just makes me feel sad. My hair started falling out after I stopped ⭐ving and that was a huge wake up call too. I got educated about the long term effects of 4na and it made me realize it wasn't worth it at all.

Also I'm not even sure what my weight is at the moment but I feel hot ASF, it's amazing....So 3d was lame, not going back lol.

Okay that's all, I wish everyone the best of luck ❤️

[angelprettty]

Bloated so bad my whole body hurts and my stomach feels filled with rocks. Hate laxitives so hopefully eating a big salad for dinner Will help 😭

[angelprettty]

NEW DIET PLAN 😍

Not eating until he texts back OR fasting for 24 hours, let's see which comes first 🤭🫠

(I will eat for whichever comes last)

[angelprettty]

Bf: *Comes home from work*

Me: Hi baby!

Bf: *sits down to take off his work boots but then stops and stares at me*

Me: *getting a little self conscious*

Bf: *bites lips* You look smaller.

Me: *internally jumping with immense joy* Yeah I weighed less this morning! 😌

Bf: *Smiles* Good job baby

Me: *spins around to show off*

Bf: .....how much? 🤨

*RECORD SCRATCH MADAY MADAY CODE RED MF*

Me: haha...what?

Moral of the story I need to STFU about my we1ght bc when I lose 7lbs by next Sunday he will NOT be saying "good job baby" he will be very concerned 😭

[angelprettty]

The sick thing is I have such great body composition, like I really enjoy the shape (except for my b00bs but I'm getting rid of those anyways), the shape of my legs>>>> BUT then its all covered in fat and being ruined and it simultaneously motivates me sm and makes me want to scream until my lungs burst

Like, I was lucky enough to be overweight and get a 22 inch waist and the start of a thigh gap and I RUINED IT???? like 😭 I got the lottery and threw it in the trash....

But it's okay because before the year is up I'm going to be the smallest I ever have and everyone will see how great my body is too 🥲

[angelprettty]

My confession is I'm jealous of siblings/best friends who both have 3ds and compete with each other in some sick and twisted way bc constantly being around and competing with someone would literally just make me drink caffeine and eat nothing lmao

Like fuck, you can't ever be caught slippin... need that fr. I'm tired of eating anything at all tbh

[angelprettty]

Eating feels like a punishment and ⭐ ving makes me feel beautiful and free

Annoying 😭 but 4na is happy so yay IG

[angelprettty]

Guys my May plan is working so well omg, I'm really happy 🥹 can't wait for the month to be over bc I have a feeling I'm going to be significantly lighter.

Also really happy I gained muscle over the last two years because despite being at higher weights my body lookssimilar to 5-7lbs lower than I am. I hope I can keep a good ratio of muscle as loose more, I'd hate being sk1nny f@t...

[angelprettty]

My Sk1nny Mindset May plan is already working!!! I definitely need it to work because I can't cut my hair until I'm 140 lbs 😭 and I want to cut it SO bad.

Wish I made cutting my hair a 150 lbs GW gift but I am super determined to get 140 ASAP so I can cut it, so I guess it's good I made It harder.

Hoping to be 143ish by the end of May which would be perfect because my 130lbs GW gift is to get a tattoo and I leave the USA in August and I want to get a tattoo before leaving. No way I don't reach 130lbs at least in July 🙏🏾.

Also I haven't binged yet (since relapsing) and I'm so proud of myself, I feel like I can definitely Just avoid binging almost completely with the approach I'm taking.

Alright good luck to everyone this May with whatever goals in Life you have! I'm off again ✌🏾