#please don’t judge

[kissboybyler]

i can’t stress enough just how much i long for failure characters. Damaged ones, but not in the sense that something horrible has happened to them. They have absolutely no idea why they are so fucked up. They could be better, so much better, they really could, but they’re not. They’re failures, they rot and waste time and they can feel their insides churning. We have this taboo about people and characters like that, as if somebody who isn’t remarkable isn’t worthy. As if someone deserves praise and love only if they’re extraordinary.

I love and relate to characters who just hate themselves for no reason, or many reasons, but nothing concrete, nothing to pin-point. Nothing specific. Everything and nothing. They’re mad at the world, but they don’t know why. They are unsatisfied and they seek something more, but they’re too tired and hate themselves too much to try. These are real experiences that real people have, and pretending that they are not, demonising them, is so brutal and like- not cool.

I’m speaking as a person who’s spent their entire life searching for something more, hating myslef for just existing, hating the world around me because however much i had to offer, it was never enough. I’ve always been a perfectionist, but i’ve started to get really tired and pissed. I’ve started to slack off at the most vital point of my life. I’m just tired and i want to give up. But i can’t. But for the first time i want or need to. But i can’t because i already hate who i am too much- so giving up now would mean that id have to try again and stay behind. Which is cool, but painful for my self-esteem.

It’s not that i aspire to be the character-failures. But i am a character failure. I’ve always looked up to characters such as Hermione Granger, Annabeth Chase, Anne Shirley, Elizabeth bennet etc, you know, really smart, intellectual, opinionated, badass characters. I share qualities with them and i’ve tried so hard to only make these shine that i’ve suppressed everything else. Or i’ve tried to. It’s all slipping up. It’s all a lie. I’d cry myself to sleep because i wasn’t as smart as hermione at 12, though people would say i was, but i wanted to be more, i wanted to be more than even her. I wanted to be her at her fullest, always. But i wasn’t. I’m not that character, i am a character-failure.

And seeing characters who are clumsy and smart, nerdy but also fucked up (IM LOOKING AT YOU MIKE WHEELER), characters with so many flaws, most people hate them, i- i feel close to them in a most remarkable way. Characters like Julia from luca, always second though she’d tried so hard, characters like todd anderson, too afraid to know themselves, characters like remus lupin, aristotle mendoza, katie mitchell, luca, james wilson, robin buckley and so many more. Characters who feel real. Not that all the others don’t, but something about how fucked up they are really appeals to me. Like- even someone this broken, crooked, wrong can be so loved. Maybe there’s still hope.

[fern-fri3nd]

Basil cosplay I did last October for Halloween

[ampersandbastille]

as someone who used to be a (mostly) one direction blog (and a liam girlie back in the day) i am understandably not doing well.

i haven’t been posting anything related to it because frankly, i have been grieving. seeing him and all the beautiful tributes make me cry, the awful realities of what happened make me cry, seeing his dad and paul in argentina makes me cry, having old friends reach out to me and check on me. seeing the boys’ posts, their families, etc. and then…i opened twitter to the leaked photos of, well, his d*** body (don’t even get me started on my absolute anger and disgust over that entire situation, i am very genuinely traumatized and will be talking through it in therapy this week). i cannot express in words how much and how many feelings i’ve felt the last handful of days. my hope is to reblog posts related to the statements from folks, some of my old posts, and just in general the wave of positivity that i’ve been seeing on here since it happened.

if you scroll back enough in my blog, i was defending liam way back during the 1d days, because there were always times liam wasn’t treated fairly. i’d like to mention, it should go without saying that certain situations with liam in the last few years were not situations i was okay with defending, and instead welcomed the apologies he’d give and NEVER ever took part in the dogpiling and bullying. criticism, concern, and respectful discourse, sure. the apologies weren’t mine to accept though, and i genuinely just welcomed them in hopes he could conquer the struggles he faced so publicly. i was rooting for him to get the help and support in his personal life that he needed and deserved. addiction and mental health are not issues so easily helped. it is heartbreaking. none of us can ever know the worst or in fact the best of him…we weren’t in his life and we didn’t know him.

that being said, i have absolutely no interest in discussing those matters here. i respect everyone’s opinions on those fronts and how they feel. it truly is complicated. all i would like to say is that here on this blog, i want to at least have a moment to briefly remember the parts of my life that one direction greatly improved: giving me friends for life, memories i hold dear, strength and solace during dark times, unbridled joy, community, and etc. etc.

anyone who needs someone to talk to, i am here. this community has been nothing short of chaotic over the years, but the love and care has always shone through, and those who were there just get it. we always wanted to protect the boys and i know they know that we have always wanted the very best for them. liam loved one direction the way all of us did, and he flat out showed up for and supported his brothers in their solo endeavors. he loved the music, the joy, the shows, the fun, US, and all the good parts of one direction. and that’s what i will keep reminding myself as i continue figuring out how to grieve.

long live one direction.

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[rositaa01xxr]

Hi sweetheart🫶🏻🥺❤️

Could I possibly get sweet tooth x fem! reader? Where he takes you through the cornfields, it's summer and its warm weather so you're wearing a summer's dress. That's makes it easy for him. smut please <33

Request Accepted🌼📄

☙“Cornfield Paradise”❧

Sweet Tooth x Fem Reader

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Summary: A long day to spend at the cornfields with a familiar face🤡🤭

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‼️little smut‼️

This story takes place in a cornfield near Las Vegas. About 2 hours out of the city. A cornfield not many people go to for leisure/explore for the day. But this girl, who goes by the name ‘Stacey’ who lives in Reno, Nevada, lives in a quiet, little settlement.

She has brown hair, wearing a golden flora dress with brown boots was on a bus trip for the holiday. Just her alone.

Her place of peace was the cornfields. It was unexplainable to answer when her family or friends ask why she always goes to that exact location every holiday. But there is a little secret she has kept from others and that secret is her meeting a clown who goes by the name ‘Sweet Tooth’. He is crazy, funny, strong and she admires those traits about him 🤭. Stacey knows that she cannot tell others because, well, it’s obvious that they’ll judge or think she’s crazy for talking or perhaps hanging out with a psychotic clown, but in her eyes he’s something else…someone who she can understand with all her heart and soul.

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Stacey arrives at the cornfields, smiling, feeling the hot sun hit her pale skin. She puts on her brim hat which has a bow on the top to make the outfit look more cute. She steps off the bus and starts walking towards the sign which says ‘Cornfield Paradise’!

Her eyes drift from the sign to a familiar ice-cream truck. Her eyes widen with surprise, a wide smile appears and (can we not forget the heart starting to pound because why not! 🤷🏻‍♀️, whose heart wouldn’t beat fast if ya saw The ChunkyHunkyBeefCakeBoi🤭)

She walks over to the truck to see if the beefy guy was inside waiting and he certainly was, except he was at the back, ramaging through his arsenal of tools. Stacey shares a big smile and speaks to get his attention.

“Hey Sweet Tootie”

Sweet Tooth turns to her and smiles, pleased to see her again.

“Hello darling, what a nice surprise”

Her heart was pounding out of her chest, hearing his voice and feeling weak at the knees of his words, but she keeps her sanity in check but just seeing him made her feel *something*.

He notices her reaction and smirks under his mask. His dark brown eyes gazing upon her figure, taking in everything. Knowing that him gazing so intensely leads to a *bulge* happening in his polka dot pants. She notices and starts blushing. He quickly hopped out of his mini truck before grabbing her hand and leading her into the cornfield. She didn’t hesitate to allow him to guide her through the tall cornfield and arrived at an abandoned but rather tidy looking barn. He spun her round and she happened to face his way, making her walk backwards inside the barn. He closed the big doors and…..

To Be Continued📝

[nervousyoung-milo]

[bitterrfruit]

there’s my good girl

[lil-king-louis]

Scrungly ungroomed egg

[rebelguitargirl]

I was tagged courtesy of my lil boo @malvpswanson I hope I don’t disappoint

I’m gonna tag @joker-rb-29 but please don’t feel pressured to lol

[gender-haver]

…I mean she got stabbed,,,

you just got transformed into the last drawing you did. how are you faring?

[dystopiansewerrat]

motorsport/motogp au?

+ the(stressed out)mechanics!

Alright, so— obviously, Blurr is the world champion of the year, he constantly finishing in 1st place in pretty much every season. Arcee was running 2nd in the recent race, but got overtaken by Drift on the final lap! the audacity… Also Roddy was actually been holding 3rd position for over 10 laps before he got bored and dropped back lol.

and the mechanics! Ratchet and First Aid being on Drift’s team just makes more sense in my head. Also, Lotty is on Blurr’s team but is gossip buddies with First Aid (mostly bond over how tired they are).

[kuroiyuki96-art]

Still alive. Here’re some random drawings finished recently.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hi guys!

So I have been hit with a bit of the sads today and I’m trying to convince myself that it’s okay to like…ask for help and reassurance 😅 and I think I need some right now. There’s some things I’ve been putting off working on for a while that I need to do and I could use your encouragement! So..

50 notes and I’ll clean up around my house

100 notes and I’ll work on some job applications to find a less toxic school that accepts my identity

500 notes and I’ll talk to a friend about some issues we’ve been having that I’ve been avoiding

1000 notes and I’ll make a goal to drink at least 4 glasses of water a day because I’m chronically dehydrated lol

2000 notes and I’ll make a goal to be active five times a week (right now it’s three and I really need to do more)

3000 notes and I’ll actually listen to my doctor about how to treat my new health condition instead of just ignoring it until my next appointment (don’t do what I do, kids!)

4000 notes and I’ll force myself to write nice things about myself and I’ll post them here.

5000 notes and I’ll question all of your sanity for being so dedicated and I’ll…idk I’ll do whatever you guys want to take care of myself. I’ll take your suggestions I guess. As long as it’s not expensive. And I’ll post proof on here.

[unoriginallyned]

Everything I know about Deep Space Nine as someone who has only ever seen the memes

O’Brien suffers

The captain would condone murder, as a treat

The cop is made out of liquid?? (sometimes)

There’s a tailor who’s a spy and also gay

There’s a bisexual-coded doctor

They play baseball at some point

Kira is a major (I’m not sure who Kira is but they are definitely a major)

There’s a ferengi capitalist who runs a bar

Worf is also there

[diapereddoe]

The Job

Doe really needed a new job and just her luck she snagged an interview at a reputable organization. The application clearly stated that this was a padded position and whoever was going to fill it needed to be comfortable wearing diapers in the office. It took her awhile to find a website that sold diapers in her size but she finally got her hands on a pack of adult diapers. It felt so bulky and awkward to tape it on herself for the first time but she really needed this job.

She showed up to the interview very timid. She was acutely aware of the crinkle as she walked through the lobby. It seemed to be ringing in her ears with every step she took.

Finally she was called in to be interviewed. The man behind the desk seemed bored and inconvenienced that he even had to be conducting these interviews. He immediately had her lift her skirt to prove she was padded as stated in the email she received before coming in today. She shyly lifted her skirt to reveal the large adult diaper she was wearing. She noticed his mood change when she showed him her diaper. He gave a snide chuckle and shook his head almost in disbelief that she actually wore it.

After some formal interview talk he explained the position involved one diaper change per shift and that she would report to a specially appointed nurse for her changes. Doe felt her cheeks burn with embarrassment as he talked about her role at the company. The work she was going to be doing was very important so they needed someone who wouldn’t require bathroom breaks. At the end he informed her she had landed the position and that she was to come in bright and early the next day ready to work.

Doe realized none of the clothes she had at home would fully cover her new “underwear”. With reluctance she put on the new dress she had gotten for her first day, the dress she had bought before she realized she would be wearing large bulky diapers underneath.

Once she arrived for her first day the first thing her new boss did was spin her around and lifted her dress to ensure she was properly padded. She felt so violated the way he manhandled her. He gave her a quick pat on the butt and guided her to her desk to begin explaining the work she’d be doing from now on. Doe was starting to regret her decision to accept this position as she felt her first urge to pee and dreaded the thought of having to fill her diaper before the day was over.

[writeroffantasy03]

Me finishing a WIP? It’s more likely than you think.

After completing this, I have lots more respect for those artists who upload comic chapters every week.

Anyway, this scene has been stuck in my head and I immediately started it right after the episode it’s in but then procrastinated BUT THEN decided to finish it after the latest turn of events in the campaign.

[pattartwork]

Dear tumblr please do not delete this 💕