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thatstheproblemwithnapkinman · 7 months

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rich people really hear us saying "i want to be able to afford a house and food and some luxuries with a single full time job" and think we want the downfall of democracy

#oh and not be in the 3rd recession i've lived through at the ripe old age of 21 #also like paid maternity leave and more vacation days #and not working overtime for free #please i just want to be able to survive #billionaires #capitalism #inequality #eat the rich

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age-of-moonknight · 8 months

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House of M: Avengers (Vol. 1/2007), #5.

Writer: Christos N. Gage; Penciler: Mike Perkins; Inker: Andrew Hennessy; Colorist: Raul Trevino; Letterer: Rus Wooton

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 58163 #House of M: Avengers #Moon Knight comics #Moon Knight #Marc Spector #Iron Fist #Danny Rand #I guess I wanted to give these panels their own post because there’s just….something about them I wanted to discuss more #this is diving dangerously close to «personal opinion» territory (so please feel free to ignore all that follows)#but I guess I just wish this point had been developed a bit more because for the past 5 issues Marc’s refused to change because the cowl’s #«spiritual significant» to him and I’m (again personally) of the idea that something that important to someone is not easily foregone #idk this is probably stemming more from the long conversations I’ve had about «when outward displays of faith become dangerous #when should you start changing what you do? Should you ever? Is it a greater show of faith to continue on despite the danger?#Do you only practice in secret? Or is doing whatever you must to survive a greater show of endurance #living and working to make the necessary changes within the system so that one day you might be able to practice openly in peace?»#sorry for getting philosophical and sorry for being perhaps unfair to a friggin comic book particularly for a minor character #but I’m feeling a little uncharitable because I was dodging violence against women/close up shots of women’s rears this entire series #(if this post looks a little weirdly cropped it’s because I chose to exclude the panel where unlike what Danny + Marc get here #there’s a very male-gaze look at Angela and Felicia undressing)#and again! (at least on that second point because that might have been entirely Perkins’ doing) I might be being a little unfair #but that sort of content doesn’t inspire me to believe that the creators were asking complex questions when they had Marc hang up his #spiritually significant hood but maybe were thinking things like «is spirituality really /that/ significant compared to tactical efficacy?»#something that…gets me when about a guy who has demonstrated that spirituality is uniquely/complexly important to him #anyway this is entirely my opinion on something that is very much up to reader interpretation so please ignore me rambling #(and quite possibly simply blowing things completely out of proportion) in the tags hahaha

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dovesnest · 2 months

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#got signed up for group therapy in the psychiatric hospital for six weeks #today was my first day and it was absolutely soul crushing !#like all these people mean so well and everyone is so hopeful but its literally just breathing exercises and self help books #and 'oh have you tried sleeping more'#ive TRIED all of this it doesnt work #i walked the whole way home and was just sobbing my lungs out because i need a fucking EXORCISM !!!! none of this works !!!!!!#i just wanna be able to be safe in my head and i want to stop crawling theres fucking claw marks all over the place because the only reason #im surviving is that its my duty #i need some of the work im doing to actually pay off but so far it hasnt and the world is still a terrifying place #please tell me this is just being a woman in your mid twenties syndrome . please tell me it'll pass

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transgenderfivepebbles · 10 months

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if one more Thing Happens i swear to god i'm going to distort

#ramblings #tag wall ahead ->#why is. why is it [vaguely gestures; sobbing] why is it #why are the people who care the most the ones who can do the least. why are the people who can make things right never the ones who want to #oh Mili & KIHOW - In Hell We Live‚ Lament we're really in it now #why can so few good things come without the suffering of others. is everyone just used to this. for the love of god can anyone hear me #the nectar of morality burns my throat; my heart holds enough love to be broken yet not enough to repair itself #why am i so fragile as to break at even trying to make anything better #what is there left to do even #i just want to live. i want to survive and i want everyone else to be able to live alongside me. is that too much to ask #is it too much to want the happiness of my life to not come at the cost of someone else's #i want to tell myself it'll be okay but i really don't know if it will be #please save me fearlessness to keep on living. please

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yourcalamity · 9 months

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hell yeah baby 2024

#i hope i consume enough substances this year to stump scientists for generations to come #and/or find peace lol #god please i dont want tochave to feel like this for a whole year again #i dont want tochave to survive for another year i want to be able to live and exist like everyone else #ive been struggling so much for so long its exhausting living like this but every time i try to get out of it sometging knocks me down again #im jusy tired i just want any sign of worth i dont feel like i have any lol #im jist around to be useful who i am and how i feel and what i like dont actually matter lol

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gnc-tits · 1 year

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my worst quality as a student is that if i think an assignment is not worth my time i just dont do it. like thats not to say if i think its annoying or dumb i dont do it bcoz i still do some of those but if the net gain to my education and me personally isnt substantial i just wont do it! like what is the value here. what does this teach me like actually. like girl shut up

#the pharmacy wont fill my vyvanse PLEASE LORD. I AM DROWNING LORD PLEASE #even the stuff that i want to do and that im GOOD at is like. oh my god the focus is not focusing!!!!!!#300 mg of wellbutrin xl and an absurd amount of notebooks and planners only gets a girl so far………….#anyways genuinely i wish i were good at school like. its such a privilege to even be able to go to school and yet i am fucken. dying #constantly. like i have gotten so much better and i love the work i do and what i get to learn!! but oh my god like the adhd is suffocating #how did i survive this long without a diagnosis lol #ugh whatever #iits not just that ig i mean there r other factors. i wish i could just be like. an On Campus Student whose only responsibility is to learn #and do their assignments but. idk. i just didnt get that. whixh is not to say my life is like sooooo hard but idk its just #watching friends n my peers get to have the College experience when u gotta like pay bills n stuff is. idk. alienating. and idk how much of #my shittiness as a student is the syndromes and how much is just like my life situation #uggGHHHHH. WHATEVER #if i dont get my medication soon i will explode forever #first crit in my fiction workshop is comin up and i gotta get at least 10 pages done which is like feasible i just need to be medicated lol

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year

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I hate when apps temporarily block your acct bcs "suspicious activity", yeah yeah I understand it's for security measures BUT PLEASE IM JUST BAD AT REMEMBERING PASSWORDS, LET ME LIVE 😭😭

#having a bit of a freak out right now 🌚#my best friend is gonna be in china for 2 months and our only option of communication is wechat #expect i forgot to log into wechat lately so it logged me out and i cant remember my pass and it got pissy with me for requesting sms codes #so it temporarily blocked me for suspicious behavior PLEASE WECHAT I JUST AM IMPATIENT #and then it said i requested unblocking too many times i have to 'wait'#wait how fucking long wechat?????? how long?????????#and even then with requesting your acct to be unblocked the easiest way is to get a friend w a wechat acct to verify you #HOW MANY FRIENDS DO YOU THINK I HAVE WECHAT 😭😭😭😭#MY ONLY FRIEND WHO HAS WECHAT IS ON HER WAY TO CHINA AS WE SPEAK WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO ABOUT THAT #she has to stop in another country for like half a day so im hoping when she lands she can help me 😭#BUT WHAT IF I STILL CSNT REQUEST BY THEN?? WHAT DO I DO THEN WECHAT????#once she gets to china i feel like im basically fucked #but yes i understand security measures but jesus christ please irs me i swear why are you making me jump through all these hoops?????#but im gonna actually be so upset if this screws up me being able to msg her :( we talk every day :(#i think i will actually combust and die if were just no contact for that long im actually gonna die #how am i gonna survive without her sending me china pics and me harassing her with f1 updates :(((#ugh i dont know what to do :( and i feel really upset abt it #maybe whatsapp will work and we can fix my acct but who knows :(#catie.rambling.txt

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13eyond13 · 2 years

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#another hot tip for recovering people pleasers / codependents is #actually talk to people about what they feel and like and want and do the same in return about your own feels #because mind reading can actually be both creepy and annoying to people who have developed those communication skills #and sometimes it can seem like youre not even actually in a relationship with them but just treating them like an npc #with a mysterious riddle you have to solve when you can probably actually just be like 'hey do you like this?'#or maybe they've already been trying to tell you what they want but you're still acting like you have to read between the lines #one of the issues codependents have is not being able to identify their own feelings desires or opinions because #they spend all their time trying to figure out and understand other people's intuitively #and are probably mostly spending time around other codependents who do the same for them #probably because they spent time in a toxic environment where that was a survival coping mechanism for them #or the only way everyone got their needs met #so at first it can be rough and embarrassing to be like #omg i don't even know who i am when im not trying to please somebody else #but start with really basic things like #do i actually want to eat this for dinner?#and try to be true to what you feel #and the more that you practise that the easier it gets to quickly identify your own needs and feels #and eventually be able to identify and express very nuanced ones as well #it is like exercising a muscle you havent worked out in years it takes reptition and time #p

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brine-in-my-eyes · 11 months

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i feel like alot of my problems could be fixed or avoided entirely if i actually knew what anyone was actually fucking saying

#i have like #3 hit problems ina row #and its so fucking frustrating to live with #1. shit speakers cant hear what people are saying to me #2. shit language comprehension ive been trying to survive in this country for years and i still feel like im barely grasping what anyone is #-saying to me and its so fucking frustrating i just want to know and understand like every other person here please im fucking begging you #i want to be here i know im difficult to work with and i know im not the best at this whole language thing but please please please please-#-i want to be able to be normal i want to speak the language and i really want to understand whats happening when people speak #3. shit ears. doesnt help that one of thems basically popped too hard and also my general focus when it comes to listening #so wow not only is my problems stemming from a physical level but mental and internal problem too!!! great!!!! just wonderful.#i just want to speak in the language my country speaks in #is that too much to ask #why is it so hard #everything is so so difficult all the time #i just want to learn and know #when is it going to ever feel like enough #vent #sorry #i hate feeling like a foreigner in my own country #its so alienating to just exist right now #and im just really angry

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ikkan · 1 year

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of course my mom is trying to guilt me into staying, by using her tears 😑

#.txt #i don’t care anymore #this has been my whole life #she cries and i have to take the abuse because i have to be the bigger person #i’m done doing that #i refuse to sacrifice my mental health and sanity for others #i am no longer being the ‘bigger person’#i am not keeping the peace to please others and make them comfortable #this is just a big middle finger to me and my healing path #i WANT to heal and she won’t let with keeping me in this house #and not letting me break this cycle of toxicity #i want to finally be free #i wanna stop being in survival mode #i want to be able to feel safe in my OWN space #i want to be able to love myself #i want to heal and possibly be a mother #i don’t want my child to suffer like me #no child deserves that #i didn’t deserve it #this should’ve never been okay #why was i not protected when i was supposed to be #i deserve a healthy and safe environment/life

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sukimas · 2 years

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to be clear i love intellectual property theft and i love it even more when it has heart and isn't trying to make a quick buck on recognizability. the only thing i mind is people trying to bounce off my writing and then telling me to look at it. look, i'm glad you want to write your own thing inspired by what i've done but i promise that you are probably doing a million things differently from me and it will annoy me to no end if you have me read it.

#this INCLUDES laboratory work #i think that it is understandable to want to protect your 'babies' whether for financial or sentimental reasons #but it's unambiguously way better for anyone to be able to bounce off anyone's work #and for people to get enough money to survive without requiring their works to remain in copyright #(if you write work that people infringe on and it still sells better you did a good job! but your life shouldn't hinge on that)#post is about a real fanfiction someone created based on minutes/millennia #please don't say 'gift for [author]' about work that they didn't ask for you are just asking to be embarrassed

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handfulofmuses · 1 year

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The one eyed evil lives again. A wandering darkness, his mind insane. He gathers an army beginning with one The battle for peace is not yet done.

"...Master. I live to serve you."

#;deceitful coward (vervain)#i both love and hate this scene so much #he is so exhausted to a point where he sleeps in the open #not even hiding somewhere #he just wants to rest #so of course he gets attacked by a predator like that #and unfortunately #he gets found by the one rabbit he should NOT be around #he doesn't even recognize him at first #because he goes 'please spare me'#it is not until woundwort leans down that he is able to get a closer look #blinks multiple times #and then just #master i live to serve you #because he has nothing else woundwort is all he has if he wants to survive and that's the saddest part #but i also love it because Fiver's visions plays over it #'he gathers an army beginning with one'#its like rubbing salt in the wound

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naggingatlas · 1 year

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i will not survive deltarune chapter 3. i will not survive mike not being a ginormous blue cat boy w the personality mix of patrick and spongebob. spamton calls him like pspsps miku miku miku and mike comes running w the foxy fnaf running sfx.

#i will not survive spark tej 4. i will not survive if it's not a homoerotic adventure of two best friends #set in a green/red apocalypse. w big open levels and intense platforming #and the difficulty rising not bc of enemies or whatever but increasingly more unplanned and hostile terrain #of rubble and ashes of a dead civilozation aaaaaa #god please i need this felipe i need it i just wanna run and listen to spark rant in farkles' head #i want to be able to visit him in the sim and sparr w the guy and play stupid minigames and hug him #my ass is not surviving this is forty times worse than the waiting between telltale batman episodes

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schoolhater · 2 months

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i think hazem got shadowbanned again. he hasn't even raised €1k and tumblr seems hell bent on making sure he never reaches his goal. please don't let them get away with it!

(his younger brother ^)

Hazem Khalil (@hazem1999sblog) is @bilal-salah0's friend. Bilal is verified by Nairuz and Hussein. He's legit. His old blog, @hazem1999, was shadowbanned and he had to remake just a few days ago. Now he's getting error messages when he tries to send DMs. This is really, really bad.

His entire family has been stuck in Jabalia refugee camp in northern Gaza for months. Now the cost of living has skyrocketed and the means for survival are scarce. His family cannot even access drinking water or food. Tumblr is taking away his only source of income during the genocide.

They need €50,000 as soon as possible, but its been 10 days and they haven't even broken €1k.

Please reblog this, follow his blog, read his previous posts and donate. We can't let Tumblr silence him.

current progress: €953 / €50,000

edit august 1:

Hazem got terminated! I swear to god Tumblr wants him to never see his family again!

but thanks to you we crossed €1000. how quickly can we get his family to €2000??

his new blog is @hazempalestine, please follow, donate, and share

edit august 15:

Thank you to everyone who showed concern for him.

Thankfully no bullshit happened to @hazempalestine’s new blog and you can still find him there. Since making this post two weeks ago we have managed to raise around €6000 for Hazem which is a great start but he has an urgent goal of €10k by the start of next week, which means he has to raise around €1000 a day!

Please keep sharing and donating!!

tagging for reach!

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@rhubarbspring @pcktknife @transmutationisms @sawasawako @feluka

@terroristiraqi @irhabiya @commissions4aid-international @wellwaterhysteria @deepspaceboytoy

@post-brahminism @khanger @kibumkim @neechees @mangocheesecakes

@kyra45-helping-others @marnota @7bitter @tortiefrancis @toiletpotato

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@stuckinapril @mavigator @lacecap @yugiohz @socalgal

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#og #palestine #free palestine #save palestine #i stand with palestine #palestine news #all eyes on palestine #free gaza #gaza strip #gaza #gaza genocide #fuck israel

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red-revival · 1 month

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I love HRT but I really do wish it wasn't so much harder to cry now

If anyone has. Idk anything. Cute animals, stories, characters or interests they want to talk about, please. I need to stop thinking about my life for a bit

#situation is just so. fucked #if I cant get my chronic fatigue diagnosed within a year I lose access to my meds #including HRT which has let me transition and also prevented me from starving due to a severe eating disorder #and my antidepressants which have kept me from yknow. fucking dying intentionally #so I have. a year left where I guarentee unless some horrible accident happens I WILL continue living #but if I cant get my chronic fatigue diagnosed I dont know how long I can survive after that #nvm the yknow. withdrawals(which I dont want) and detransitioning(which I DONT WANT). which even if I do survive will have consequences #and on top of all of that we're currently trying to move. and I'm trying to pack shit up with chronic fatigue. which is not easy #and I still have hypermetabolism so I'm so hungry all the time but we cant afford enough for me to not be hungry #so I just eat as much bread as I can because even if it doesn't help the reason I have hypermetabolism at least its filling #so even if it doesnt help me actually repair the damage my ED did I dont have to deal with hunger pains #i want to go on a walk but I feel 2 seconds away from passing out but I cant go tobed because I'm panicking and have hunger pains and #i need a break. please. i need to be able to agford tonot die. I want to not have chronic fatigue I want to work a job and live and go-#-outside and have energy for hobbies and be abke to see people and be able to afford the meds that are keeping me alive #I managed to cry a bit. 2 tears exactly. its not enough but its something at least

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thatrandomrabbit · 3 months

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is it too much to ask for just one day with a working brain?? Please I’m on my knees rn to just lock tf in and be normal

#nerodivergent #guys idk #autism #normal as in not wanting to off myself not as in I think being neurodivergent is bad #Depression #depressing shit #it would just be nice to be able to wake up and not feel like I’ve been punched in the gut yk?#But hey that’s just me #Maybe there actually is danger under my bed or something and my body is like “for God sakes please just survive 🤦‍♀️”

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