#prettyviaa

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how I feel after getting every single one of my desires after manifesting overnight:

no but seriously, why was it so easy??

(manifesting)

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Me walking into my first period class knowing I'm at my desired school, my summer work is complete, I have an amazing friend group and family, my socials are blowing up, and I'm the prettiest in the school:

(manifesting)

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the feminine urge to make account a blaise "fanpage" because he's too underrated is too real 🙈

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I love my friends but omg they are so fake.

"I literally hate her, she's so two faced and is such a narcissistic. I'm never talking to her again"

*talks to her lively the next day*

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A list of things I'm getting when I get into the void state tonight pt.1:

Socials:

- Any account I have blows up immediately.

- people who follow my shifting account on tt, shifts on their next try.

- antis mind their own business/don't interact w/ me.

- my videos never flop (going through that rn and it's so embarrassing and for what?)

- whoever I follow, follows me back.

- all my moots are my friends.

- my vsp never cancels.

+ more!!

School:

- All my math summer work is done (I'm skipping a math year and I missed the deadline ☹️)

- rory gilmore mindset

- The people who I wanna be friends with talk to me and ask me to hangout on the first day back.

- english is my best subject (it originally is but essays keep beating my ass)

- high honors every quarter

- my school gives more opportunities than just one msubject (I hate science with a passion)

- I'm able to balance a social life and school with ease

- once it's college application time, any school I apply to accepts me.

- teachers love me and think I'm a model student

- I'm a "hallway crush"

fangirl:

- cds, records, lightsticks, and any other merch from my favorite artist are cheap in my state and easy to find

- concerts are held in my state and I always get tickets whenever (always front row)

- I've met Taylor Swift and some members of Twice (cuz why not?)

- I have tickets to see both Taylor and Twice later this year (the tours were extended)

[my desired appearance]

shifting/manifesting:

- getting into the void state is so easy for me.

- my results come immediately.

- any shifting method is works for me.

- I get motivation to shift easily.

- I can shift to my drs when and wherever I want to.

wardrobe:

- I have my desired closet.

- all my clothes fit me perfectly

- even when I don't know what to wear, my outfits alway coordinate

- I don't easily get tired of my clothes, but when I do, I can sell them/exchange them for good money.

- I always have money to buy whatever I need.

+ more!!

me after getting all my desires in one night:

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not sure if I wanna kms or cry

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I know I brought this situation up earlier but there's always something new going on so ventinggg:

I might I have jealousy problems: one of my friends was talking to the same girl who just hates me (for no reason btw) and I felt my heart drop to my stomach. I don't know if it was the fact that they were laughing like nothing ever happened or that she brought up wanting to be friends with her but I felt.. upset?? idk. I feel bad for feeling like that too because earlier, another one of my friends brought up how she wants to talk to her (the girl) because she's started talking to her again and she wants to be more forgiving. Now I'm wondering if I should do that to because I don't wanna lose my friends (I have literally no one other than them) but I can't get over the way she treated me beforehand. It's the way she would say the most degrading things to me and then laugh it off like it was nothing. She's someone who mentally drains me (and my friends, from what they've said) and I would really prefer if I had absolutely nothing to do with her. If I were to do that though, I know that I would be pushed to the side because said girl has a lot of things going on in her personal life that would make her my friends #1 priority. It sounds selfish, I know but I've always had the feeling that I'm always the second choice and the one time that I start to feel as important as everyone else, I get seriously humbled. That just puts me in a position where I could either: a.) stop associating myself with her completely, lose all my friends slowly in that process, and start to spiral or b.) talk to her and lose all my dignity and self respect but still have people I can talk to and be around.

I know it sounds obvious what I should do but it's all just so complicated and ughh.

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How I feel after shifting to the same dr just different timelines:

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I wish I had more shifting friends or friends in general :(

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realized that I should just keep my feelings to myself after this one guy (who I thought was my friend) took everything I said to him for the past 3 weeks and told her. She proceeded to make a gc with everyone (there's more to the story) and use my insecurities against me and blame me for her fucked up mind without mentioning the specifics. I had to be hospitalized for a day because of how bad my panic attack was and I got yelled at by my mom for "starting this whole thing" and making her miss work.

I can't even trust my own friends because they're still friends with her. I've resorted to only speaking when I'm spoken to and only sharing my personal feelings when I absolutely need to.

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Maybe if I did instead of worry, I would be further in my shifting journey...

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gonna try and convince my mom to let me stay home from school tomorrow, wish me luck!

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The feminine urge to go insane (I clicked on the blaise zabini tag and found nothing related to him) 🎀🩷

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me rotting in bed because murder is illegal and I lose motivation to shift the second I enter my room:

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I talk about Blaise so much to the point where I can type "guyss" in the gc and everyone just assumes I'm gonna talk about him and prepare themselves for what's gonna happen next.

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shifting to 2 of the same drs have got to be one of the most confusing things ever because I absolutely hate someone in one dr because of how she treated my friends (canon) and are sharing the same lipgloss with her in the next.