#probably gonna digitalize em later idk

[mcsalturn]

*doodles the favs*

[madussavoudon]

Hey, Can I have your number?

“Excuse me, can I have your number?” I hear some deep voice come from behind me. I turn him around and stare him up and down, he was a chocolate handsome man but I honestly just wasn’t fucking interested. “No” I said. I was already annoyed with life this was my third time moving to Michigan from Atlanta, and I don’t want to be bothered. I just want to focus on me, and my child, but then again idk imma take his number just in case I thought.

“But I’ll take yours” I said when I turned back around. He smacked his lips, and gave me his number. I had no intentions on calling or texting this man but what do you know he’s the weed man so I’ll probably just buy weed from him From time to time. I walk back to my moms house, she’s in there cooking fried chicken, baked Mac, cabbage, and cornbread. I sit on the couch and start watching Tv, and a few mins later I hear a knock on the door. I open the door, and to my surprise it’s the boy from the store. I looked in confusion and turned around to my mother . “Ummm mama.. do you know him?” She looked and said “Aw yeah. Thats Jr… TK’s son.” The look of shock that spread across my face. “ Wooww see I can’t talk to you we family.” I said to him and even tho I was joking he came off like a dick “ We ain’t family.” And he finally walked in the house to check on his little brothers. My mom and TK had been dating for some time now and his babies were always there.

My ex called my phone but I couldn’t concentrate on the conversation because I was too busy watching Jrs every move. He’s handsome, chocolate, and I can tell from the way he walks he has a big dick! I watch him play with his brothers and think to myself “ okay he’s good with kids” but my thoughts were rudely interrupted by my ex Antwan. The nigga won’t leave me alone and no matter what I tell em he still thinks he has a chance. “HELLOO! Wtf are you doing?” I hear in my ear and I tell him I’m gonna call him back and he says “Well I sent you $100 I’ll talk to you later” I hang up the phone without even a response but then I texted him and said thanks because I hate to be rude.

It’s just it’s something about this guy. I don’t know what yet but there’s something. I mean him knocking on the door after I purposely planned not to call him couldn’t be a coincidence… right ?

“Hey, can you call my phone for me?” Jr is now in my face asking me to and I say sure but the only thing is I don’t know his number because I didn’t save it. “What’s your number ?” I asked him “Wooww didn’t you just take my number?” He questioned … I just stared blankly at him waiting for him to spit the digits. He huffed n puffed and said it again “313-438-1111”

I called the phone and heard nothing. I’m sitting on the couch staring him down while he’s looking at his phone. My stare got so deep and intense that I didn’t even realize I had a small little smirk on my face and when he noticed he said “What?” I snapped out of it and said “Nothing”. He left out the door and a few mins later I received a text saying “Can you come over here?”

Honestly, I thought about not doing it but I was sooo curious about this man. I wanna know him .. I wanna know what he’s about, I wanna know what he likes what he doesn’t like I wanna know everything. I tell my mom to watch my son and I’ll be back.. since I now knew who’s son he was I knew exactly where to go. “Wassup TK is Jr here?” I asked “ Yeah he in the back .. go ahead.” I walk to the back and he’s laying there on his back on the bed on his phone.

We stare at each other for a while before we start to speak.

Jr: You know you can sit down right?

Me: sure (Walks to the chair and sits down)

Jr: Why you sit all the way over there ? You could’ve sat on the bed next to me.

Me: naw I’m good. I don’t know you like that. Anyway what’s up? Why’d you call me over here ?

Jr: I think you a nice looking young lady and I wanna get to know you if that’s okay with you. ( He smiles)

Omg he has perfect teeth and his smile is sooo beautiful.

We sit there for a while as he asks me a series of questions like I’m on a fucking interview or something but I find myself answering them and asking some back. We sat there for hours talking about our lives, our goals, even childhood traumas.

Eventually I finally sat on the bed and we talked all night. I laid on his arms and it felt so good.. I don’t know why it just did.

Jr: Can I ask you something?

Me:What?

Jr: Can I kiss you?

I think to myself HELL NAW ‼️ I fucking hate kissing with a passion niggas do not be knowing what they doin these days but for some reason that didn’t come out of my mouth.

Me: Yeah …..

Me: wait wait wait … I don’t like kissing.

Jr: Why?

Me: because it’s always something wrong niggas don’t be knowing what they doing, and niggas always wanna stick they tongue down my throat ew.

Jr: well I’m not everybody… so let me show you okay?

I just stare at him and nods my head in agreement. He leans in and kisses me and In that moment I knew I was stuck. His lips were perfect they were soft, they were juicy , but they wasn’t all wet n disgusting. It was just right. He kissed me even more and it was so deep sending some type of electric feeling down my spine. I wonder did he feel it too? I’ve never felt this before.

That kiss was beautiful … that kiss was a mind fucking experience. That kiss was a hello to my future, and goodbye to my past.

[goldiipond]

Im drawing so much au stuff tonight,,, I feel powerful

[hoopz]

[starlit-dreaming]

Lucathy Ideas (10/?)

never thought i’d see the day where i’d be hitting double digits for my lucathy idea posts tbh

this is more of a note to self, but i’d like to go back over my idea posts, clean em up, make it tidier and more coherent, maybe add more content to make it longer. idk when i’ll be doing that. maybe i’ll include a word count at the end of each post to show that i went back to edit all of it?

or maybe i’d pick one of the au ideas that’s really fucking long and flesh it out in a separate post and title it “Lucathy Ideas: Extended Edition” or something 😂

edit: fuck im actually considering it

obligatory warning: its a long post turn back to save yourselves  

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accidental sugar daddy acquisition -- Sugar Daddy Lucas AU

• i’m finally talking about my sugar daddy lucas au that i mentioned in post 9 of my lucathy ideas series and im ngl im surprised i never mentioned it before now???

• @lithium-15 and @hwang-lucas because i feel that these two are specifically interested in this au (i have another sugar daddy lucas au thats more nsfwyn, but i think i’ll save the nsfwyn au ideas for a later lucathy ideas post)

• i don’t remember the original prompt word for word, since i saw this otp idea several years ago and i dont really feel like scrolling through my otp idea tag on my inspo side blog (thats like,,, its like. at Least 3-4 years worth of posts i think???)

• tl;dr -- rich dude ends up becoming a broke pal’s anonymous benefactor thats like a gang leader or something. i think the premise of it was that the broke dude was a college student??? and they would eventually get their degree and meet the person that’s provided them financial stability.

• yes, its another rich lucas x broke athy. cause im a slut for that otp dynamic ngl

• idk if i want this to also be a single mom athy au??? and a crime boss lucas au

• actually yknow what fuck it lets say that athy’s a single mom (i’ll think of a different idea for crime boss lucas, though; its implied for this au, but i dont feel like going with that)

• if we wanna make it spicy we could say that lucas and athy had a one night stand and didn’t recognize each other or something. or maybe lucas recognized athy??? regardless, im not sure rn. im kinda leaning towards the fact that they didnt recognize each other

• so yeah. athy is a single parent, probably got pregnant while she was in college and couldnt bring herself to abort because she didnt want to be alone or something (similar to my lawyer athy + ons au -- she realized that she wanted to have a family)

• she’s a waitress at a coffee shop, owned by lily maybe? that stays open pretty late at night. hannah and ces are her coworkers, although they work mornings and afternoons

• helena and cabel are regulars, and lucas is somewhat of a regular who stops by for coffee at night

• im thinking that lucas would be an influential family with some shady dealings on the downlow (maybe? i don’t remember if the prompt had the rich pal be a rich and generous mob boss or something), and that he ends up more or less becoming the family heir to his grandmother’s business

• so he ends up being a regular at the cafe in the evenings and ends up befriending athy (begrudingly)

• she’s comfortable enough with him to talk about her babies (as usual, its gonna be the twins -- ari and eli from my other ideas/wips) and he’s just dumbfounded because he never expected her to be a single mother

• eventually he decides to anonymously help her out

• by buying the appartment property that she lives on

• and getting someone to act as the “landlord” and tell her that someone already paid for her rent, and that it’s something that the landlord is offering to all the single parent tenants (which. lucas decides why the fuck not, it’ll be less hassle for him, plus he’s stupid fucking rich)

• ok now i’m gonna go over the basic timeline that i have in mind:

• i like the idea that lucas and athy end up meeting at the cafe when she’s still pregnant. and that lucas just decides “fuck it i can afford to run a few businesses why tf not” and bought lily’s cafe, allowing lily to still run the business as she likes, and giving the staff higher pay and more benefits (and lily more or less has a positive view of lucas)

• spoilers: he totally bought the business after hearing that athy might need a second job after she gives birth to her babies cause like. babies are fucking expensive

• guess who also paid her hospital bills?

• if you guessed lucas, then you’d be correct

• so her babies are born, she’s got a pretty good pay, so she’s able to pay a babysitter to take care of the babies whenever she works.

• throughout their friendship, lucas will more or less be stuck wondering why the fuck he’s doing so much for athy, and at first it’s simply because he thought it was annoying to see her suffering so much just to try and make ends meet, and eventually its because “oh fuck its because i consider her to be an important friend”

• because even though he is attracted to her, he does consider her to be an important friend and all

• the feelings end up coming in later

• at one point, athy comments that while she wants to continue college and finish up her degree, she finds that saving money for her babies is more important

• and lucas is just “you do realize that im rich with a ton of money that doesnt really get used for much, right”

• and naturally athy’s a very stubborn person who, despite finding the offer to be very beneficial, is Very reluctant to take on his offer

• he more or less tells her that if she feels bad for taking advantage of this offer -- which she shouldnt since he wants to help her -- then his one request would be that she gets at least a degree in business (so that he can just hand the cafe over to her as a gift in the future if she wants it)

• so yeah. she ends up going to college

• in terms of the twin’s age, year 1: lucas provides her financial stability in terms of handling the hospital bills, her rent, and giving her better pay /// year 2: athy gets a babysitter for the twins and goes back to finish up college /// year 3: she gets her degree in business

• OH MY GOD WHAT IF

• WHAT IF LUCAS’S NIECE IS ATHY’S BABYSITTER

• EVEN MORE REASON FOR LUCAS TO INTERACT WITH ATHY MORE OFTEN

• like. she’s a high schooler. looking for a summer job maybe??? and lucas is just “i have a friend looking for a babysitter”

• his niece, after being introduced to athy via lucas, is 100% in the conspiracy mindset that lucas and athy are exes or something and that this is lowkey his way of introducing his kids to the family

• and i mean. if we’re going with the idea that lucathy had a ons in this au, then she’s Technically not wrong with that theory?

• anyways, when the babies are finally 3 y/o, i’m thinking that lucas more or less established a place in athy’s life as her benefactor and friend, enough that the twins know that he’s always around

• hell, he’d probably go out of his way to help her buy groceries at one point. maybe a while before she hires his niece as a babysitter???

• i want the babies to cling onto lucas and call him dad when they’re toddlers because they both just see him with black hair and red eyes and go “he looks like ari/eli!!!”

• note to self: ari and eli both have black hair, but ari is the only one with red eyes (could pass off as rose pink like diana’s tbh). its only in wmmap-verse that they both have blonde hair and blue eyes (unless they’re in disguise)

• note: lucas’s niece is 100% going to teach the lucathy kids a bunch of slang. deadass i Will have these twins shouting shit like “YEET” or something

• i think thats all i had in mind for this au???

where the hell would i be without you -- Soulmates AU

• im ngl ive been listening to dodie music again (specifically “Sick of Losing Soulmates” which Hurts)

• i have like. 7 Soulmate AUs. but for now i’m just gonna focus on 1 of the 7 ideas i have, which happens to be the one that im the most interested in

• name of your sworn enemy / name of your soulmate

• for lucas, it’s Aeternithas de Alger Obelia and Athanasia de Alger Obelia. and tbh? he’s pretty pissed off that he has 2 names from the goddamn obelia royal fam tbh

• aeternithas would 100% assume that lucas is his soulmate (he isnt). idk who would be his other name. honestly? who tf knows cause i sure dont

• i considered having the whole soulmarks thing fade by claude’s generation, hence why athy wouldnt have a name on her wrist anymore, but i decided against it

• so lucas would be her soulmate

• the problem is that idk who would be her sworn enemy

• at first, i considered it to be claude for her sworn enemy, which would later change after she almost died (so after lucas saves her, claude’s name ends up disappearing)

• which i decided against cause i mean. he doesn’t Actually hate her from what i could tell. he just hates the fact that diana died and is coping with it by pinning the blame onto athy

• maybe he would be the name on athy’s wrist until she turned 5 y/o, when she actually meets him and causes a divergence from the lp-verse

• like. in the lp novel, claude wasnt her sworn enemy. i’d say it was probably jennette? and that lp athy believed that she had the rare platonic soulmate. or maybe she had ezekiel’s name as her soulmate, but she firmly believed that he was her sworn enemy since he’s jennette’s fiance

• the main reason why athy would have different names, comparing lp with wmmap athy, is because wmmap athy has the knowledge of her previous life

• at least, thats how i justified it lmao

what remains to be seen -- Model AU

• kinda self-explanatory, really

• like c’mon. look at lucas and athy and tell me that they can’t be models in the modern world

• i kinda imagine that athy would be a movie actress and model. normally she ends up playing princess roles, since she ended up gaining a lot of fans after her role as Princess Athanasia in the Lovely Princess movie when she was a teenager, so much that people often refer to her as “princess” or “Athy” (mainly from the people that worked with her on the film)

• she’ll be Lee Ji Hye in this au, but i’m referring to her as Athy to make it less confusing for my normally sleep-deprived squirrel brain

• i will admit that at one point i was tempted to have this as another fake dating au, where lucas and athy have their picture taken together and ends up having a shit ton of shippers

• lucas and athy for sure meet at a photoshoot for the first time

swipe tap swipe tap -- Tinder + Modern AU

• this is basically that imagine your otp post where this girl’s at an airport, her flight was delayed, and she’s swiping through tinder, and there’s a guy that’s behind her who goes “ouch. hard no for that one?” and she turns around and sees the guy she just swiped no on

oh how my knees go weak to be the one -- Canon Compliant

• similarly to the 100 prompt challenge of mine, i’d like to do a prompt challenge but with kisses

• not gonna go too detailed into it, since this will probably end up becoming another nsfwyn idea of mine. cause while im thinking of innocent kisses like butterfly, cheek, or forehead kisses, there’s definitely suggestive prompts here waiting to be written, especially when you look at the list

• also it doesn’t really help that i deadass got the title of this au from The Hush Sound’s “The Boys Are Too Refined”, and in the lyrics, there’s a mention of “oh, how my knees go weak to be the one / she kicks and bucks” plus “and if the timing is right / to sneak off into the night / i’ll let myself be taken just for the thrill”

• i considered using a lyric from their other song molasses, but that song gives off more of a sad vibe while the boys are too refined is more suggestive

• so yeah. suffice to say this is gonna be my nsfwyn project

• i’ll have to compile a list of different types of kisses, but if anyone’s curious on it that i’ll gladly post the list of which kisses i definitely plan on writing (i’m aiming to write 20 different kisses)

working out the differences -- Gym / Workout AU

• based off on a gym/workout prompt list: “I don’t care what your personal trainer says, if you keep doing it like that, you’re going to fuck yourself up, here let me show you how it’s done.“

• one of the au ideas that i don’t feel like writing, but it’s one of the au’s that i like to imagine, especially since it sounds really in character for lucathy

• like deadass lucas just criticizing athy’s personal trainer for being an absolute dumbass, and he’s infuriatingly annoying but he’s also RIGHT and athy absolutely hates him

• but eventually she decides to hire him and it’s 100% not because of how hot he looks in his black workout shirt

a writer and a murderer walk into a bar together... -- Matchmaking AU

• i’ve been, admittedly, looking through my “imagine your otp” tag on my side blog, and one of the otp prompts is about a matchmaking service based on your search history, and the match up ends up being a writer and a serial killer

• if it wasn’t obvious based on my previous au ideas, i’m a huge fan of author athy

• here’s the post in question [click here]

• im not too interested in writing death and all that, even if it’s for a murder comedy??? which is kind of ironic considering that i 100% wrote a murder mystery once when i was still in high school and was about to write a story involving detailed injuries and violence back in my college days, so this is just one of those ideas that’s vaguely in the back of my mind

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this is one of my smaller posts, since i guess i’m mainly thinking about both the sugar daddy lucas + single mom athy au, the nsfwyn-type of au’s, and the whole “going back to flesh out some details for some AUs or have the ideas be ready to get posted on wattpad and ao3” 

ideas i’d like to go over

• have one of my lucathy ideas post be focused on nsfwyn content (and thats my tag for 18+ content for those who would like to block the tag and avoid seeing those types of posts, and i sincerely hope that if i have minors following my blog, that you do Not read it or that you don’t actively let me know that you’re reading it otherwise i’ll feel inclined to actually kickstart my nsfwyn blog again. liking/reblogging posts are fine, i just don’t wanna know anything #let me be ignorant so i don’t feel like i need to be a responsible adult who has to hide that shit)

• my soulmate au for the death timer (although it’s probably gonna end up being pretty short

• hanahaki au (idk if ive mentioned it before; double check the ideas first)

• abo au w/alpha athy and beta lucas (did i ever mention this au too? fuck if i know; might talk about in the nsfwyn-focused idea post)

• au where athy ends up never meeting ezekiel prior to the debutante

[neopoliitan]

Neopoliitan’s weird ass prophetic rwby dream

So I’ve been thinking all day about this incredibly strange RWBY dream I had. It might be a comedown from the volume ending, it might be withdrawal, it might be unhealthy hyperfixation, but I wanted to share it because shit gets WEIRD.

I made it my mission to try and remember as much as possible, and I’ve succeeded more than any other dream.

The dream itself, as dreams tend to do, flitted between random scenes with little regard for continuity or character placements, so I’ve separated them into the different instances I can remember.

Part 1:

the main featured good guys are Ruby and Jaune, and the main featured bad guys are Cinder, Mercury, Neo and... BLUMPERT.

mostly takes place in the foyer of shade academy, the dream implied lots of staircases and corridors in the school, also that it was built into a mountain kinda like Petra in Jordan

blake and yang are in the foyer but they disappear from the dream almost instantly

blumpert is also in the foyer, he looks like a mix between the Blorp from the 10-year-old minecraft mod 'morecreeps and weirdos' and So Sorry from undertale. long neck, trunk, bottom heavy.

blumpert does absolutely nothing and disappears after only appearing in the foyer.

Part 2: 

- ruby gets disarmed, she has to abandon crescent rose to escape

- ruby remarks that qrow lost his weapon in mistral once and rebuilt it, there's a still image of him doing it

- ruby and jaune are being pursued by cinder and neo

- neo is wielding oscar's cane and can use glyphs for some reason

- neo traps ruby in a square corridor and makes glyphs on all the walls, hoping to project spikes or something in every direction to kill her

- jaune gets in the way with his shield and aura and protects ruby

Part 3, probably the most sensible part of the dream:

- mercury has jaune pinned to the ground on a balcony over shade's foyer, jaune's aura is broken

- mercury is like "you don't know anything about me, what I've been through"

- jaune responds that he's sorry for what happened to mercury

- for some reason this entirely vague statement makes mercury have a moment of clarity

- cinder is approaching them, jaune is like "i'm sorry, please don't let her kill me"

- mercury stands up and approaches cinder

- he grabs cinder by the shirt, and holds her up and says "go away"

- he throws her off the balcony

Part 4, shit gets weird; maiden piracy and drug dealing

- ruby and jaune run through shade's gym (it's literally a real life gym populated by middle aged fat white dudes)

- cinder says something that implies that shade has the summer maiden

- ruby and jaune run into a guy at the gym's emergency exit, they trade something for access to the escape and a "summer maiden keygen"

- (keygens generate serial numbers for digital products and are usually used to trick a program during piracy -- it seems that in the dream the summer maiden keygen would help them access the vault without the maiden)

- for some reason they don't go through the door and instead bump into /another/ guy who wants to trade them some 'smack cheese' he keeps in his shoes for the summer maiden keygen

- (smack is slang for heroin. this guy wanted them to trade their access to the vault for heroin-laced shredded cheese he keeps in his shoes)

- THEY TAKE HIM UP ON THE OFFER

Part 5, a weirdly wholesome ending:

- mercury and jaune get "up top" (on top of the cliff shade is apparently built into) and there are taxis waiting for the good guys

- they're walking in shallow water, mercury apparently has no idea that water like this exists and thought that the only water that exists is the ocean

- emerald appears and has an awkward encounter with mercury, but it ends up with them hugging and emerald gives mercury her necklace from her v8 design

- she says it's "in "congradia"" for defecting, idk what "congradia" means but it's probably good

- penny appears and hugs them too

- their auras all flare up

- ren appears to give expositon - he says that peoples' auras are sepia toned until they gain a semblance. Em's, Merc's and Penny's auras all keep changing colours with ren naming the colours until penny's settles on bronze and merc's on silver, then a bit later em's turns gold and then green.

- ren says 'i thought that was gonna take forever'

- I wake up because my fifth alarm for work went off

Feel free to psychoanalyse me for this, I’m genuinely interested if Blumpert is a manifestation of some dark part of me.

Here’s a shitty ms paint drawing of how shade’s foyer looks in my mind, because no other program can do it justice:

[marvel-download-tutorial]

How to Download Marvel comics for free!

I’ve been thinking about writing this for a while especially since we’re all stick inside but last week Marvel made the shitty decision to transition various print titles to digital only, meaning they’re directly taking revenue away from local shops rather than delay the titles, so since Marvel thinks digital comics is such a cool idea I’m gonna show you how to download as many as you’d like! (oh also this is for windows only, idk how to do it if you own a mac but also you’re rich anyways so who cares buy the comics richie)

I don’t want to take money away from the people that need it, not the actual companies of Marvel and DC fuck them they’re dying and they deserve it, but for my own rationalizing I want to take a minute to plug the Hero Initiative, basically what it is an organization that provides for comic creators that are having hard times, comics are a rough industry and you don’t get into it to get rich, I won’t go into it too much you can read for yourself but it’s been endorsed by Stan Lee, Justin Ponsor, Mike Grell, Skottie Young, Rags Morales, a lot of big names, so I’d ask if you do follow this guide and download some comics for free please consider donating to the Hero Initiative (they also sell autographed prints and you can commission some really famous artists)

anyways onto the good stuff! I’m going to be doing a fairly brief but easy to follow guide, there will be links at the bottom of the post so look for those, I’ll probably be making a few other posts with some more info so also check back for those if my blog is still here

What do I need?

You’re going to need 4 basic things if you want to do this as easily and safely as you can 

1) a good anti-virus

2) anonymous web browser (Tor)

4) a safe and reliable source for the comics

4) a torrent program to download the comics

Also optional: VPN

Anti-Virus 

it’s good to remember when torrenting that no one is your friend, everyone is out to trick you and no one cares, honestly you should also have a good anti-virus though, I’m not really gonna tell you which one you should have but Norton 360 is pretty good but say that in a room of CS majors is the quickest way to start a fist fight, honestly just google it, you’re gonna have to do some research, but really you’re good as long as you don’t go with Avast or Kaspersky, I’m going to go over typical tricks and traps later to ensure safety, this is just basic overall security thing

Anonymous Web Browser (Tor)

next we’re gonna download Tor (you can do this before getting a VPN, like I said either one is going to put you on a list but using one to cover you getting the other at least mitigates it lol) Tor is a great open source project that allows for basically complete anonymous web browsing, it’s a project dedicated to privacy and disruption of corporations ability to control every aspect of our lives, also a friend of mine bought K off silk road with it once in highschool, really not too much you need to know about it before using it, just download it, let it configure and you’re good, also use Duck Duck go that it comes with, don’t switch it to chrome or anything, Duck Duck go is anonymous search service which better lends to Tor’s protection

Where to get the torrents

Now this is really important because you can have everything else set up but without a safe reliable source none of this is gonna do any good, but this is the dangerous part, torrent sites are notorious traps (I bricked more than on family PC on limewire) and this is why I said earlier to remember these people are not your friends and are out to hurt you, don’t click banner ads, don’t believe pop ups, make sure your virus protection is on and it’s a very good idea to have an adblocker on, also look out for another post I’ll be making on what download buttons to trust for different popular torrent sites

when talking comics (and remember specifically only Marvel comics) there’s no other name out there than Nemesis43, he is a god and he’s going to be your new best friend, there are groups and sites out there that do comic scans that you have to pay to join or like apply to join, that shit’s dumb as hell and I’ve never used them once and I’ve got more comic than I can read in my lifetime, you don’t need em and you especially don’t need to give them money, donate to the Hero Initiative instead

Nemesis has moved around a bit in the past (if you remember the WWT debacle) right now the main site for him is ettv (there will be a link at the end of the post) sites a bit barren but he’s there, he also has a reddit he gives updates on very rarely, generally if he moves he adds where his new home is in a text doc in his recent uploads, I fully trust him and his uploads, he’s been doing this for years and I’d never have a second thought downloading from him, also because he uploads so much he’s often very highly rated and verified on whatever site he’s on

The second place I’d recommend is getcomic (again there will be a link at the end), now this is very important, never donate to them, they kinda suck, basically they’re plugged into a bunch of different scanner groups and just steal those scans and put them up and then ask for donations, basically they’re just an aggregate (Nem kinda is too but he doesn’t ask for donations and stuff), they usually use browser downloads which are a complete pain so I’d really recommend Nemesis over them but they do have TheComicGuy on torrent galaxy for larger files but that updates a lot less frequently then the main site, again I trust these guys (as long as you’re on the actual site) but don’t trust any banner ads or pop ups, also for downloading they give multiple options, a lot are very sketchy, just use the main server

also there’s other sites like readcomics or newcomics, never used em, don’t like em, use at your own behest 

On sites like ettv you’re gonna want to use the magnet, someone years ago told me it was safer and I just believed them and have always used em, not sure if it’s true but it’s worked so whatever, really you shouldn’t be too worried about this stuff and if you follow this guide you’re going to be way over prepared to download comics, really no one cares about comic torrenting, movies, video games, tv shows that’s the stuff people really get caught on, this is just nerd shit

I’m going to be making another post showing how to use these sites, and other sites comic can be found on so look back at my blog for that

Torrent program

This is pretty basic, just get utorrent, it’s what I’ve always used, it works, whatever, definitely look this up with a VPN on or on Tor, it’s simple to use, I��ll be doing a short tutorial on how to make it even safer

Lastly this one is optional but a pretty good idea, for more than just this

VPN aka Virtual Privacy Network

honestly you can get the anonymous web browser (Tor) or the VPN first, their both going to help cover you downloading the other and honestly both are going to put you on a list for googling them (which is why I suggest looking for someone who just already has the .exes ((I always keep them on a thumbdrive for when I have to reset one of my computers)), I might try to make a google drive with em but also I might not bc that sounds like work and I’m already typing all this up), anyways I’m not really gonna explain what a VPN is, there’s a lot of resources that can explain it better than I can but basically it masks what you do on the internet, there’s a lot of choices when picking a VPN but the big thing I looked for when choosing mine was 1) non-US based so it’s harder for US investigation agencies to request stuff for them or get anything from them 2) one that doesn’t keep logs, honestly they all do even if they say they don’t, but you wanna look for one that hasn’t turned over many logs to US agencies and 3) unlimited peer 2 peer connections which is complicated but basically means you can torrent stuff anonymously and with decent speed. Like Anti-Virus there are a ton of different VPN’s out there, you really have to do research because there are actual accounts of FBI agencies crating VPN’s telling people they’re anonymous when really they had direct access to all the info, I haven’t done any research but NordVPN seems kinda like one of these, really the more they advertise the more suspicious I am, Just google “best vpn 2020″ and look at like 5 lists and read the the stuff, personally I use IPvanish which unfortunately is US based and while it gave over logs in 2016 even thought they said they didn’t keep any but now they’re owned by a new company that super double promises they don’t (again who cares they all do) but they’ve allow P2P and use 256-bit AES encryption

I wanna take a second to mention that this isn’t going to be free, this is the only place you’re going to be spending money (besides donating to Heroe Initative of course), a good VPN is about $100 a year which all in all isn’t terrible, technically you can just get by on the anonymous browser but this gives you an extra layer of security to pretty much ensure you won’t get caught and plus in the ever worsening internet hell world a VPN is becoming more and more important, I’m sure you can find articles about it but yea you don’t technically need a VPN but it’s useful for more than just this

How to work it all

Ok so this is gonna be a little stream of consciousness, as this all kinda has been, so sorry but I’m gonna try and explain it as best I can and also feel free to ask any questions on this blog, I’ll check back eventually I’m sure

So first thing first, make sure you’re virus protection is on and you’re connected on your VPN if you’re using it (you can google “what is my IP” to double check it’s working) then load up Tor, let it load and connect up and whatever, then go to https://www.ettvdl.com/user/Nemesis43 (I’m just gonna show this with Nemesis43, maybe I’ll make another one for getcomics but that’s pretty straight forward, also nem is better)

now remember we’re only here for Marvel comics, so scroll past all those thousands of other comics this would work exactly the same for, I’m gonna go for Ant-Man #4 which was released on the 13 as a digital only comic despite the first three issues being physical copies and now sit on my shelf forever unfinished making me look like a complete penis

it may take a while but it’s going to look like this, click on the blue words, it’s gonna take you to a page that looks like this

now from here we’re going to get the magnet link, right click and select copy link address, I like doing this because it limits my interactions with the page, note the advertisement at the top telling me I need a VPN despite thinking I’m in Guadalajara (which for legal reasons I am)

just copy that and then go to utorrent and click the add link

it’ll open a little box, it should add the link automatically, if it doesn’t just hit ctrl+V

hit ok and it’ll load it up, it might need to download some metadata but after that it should be good, oh also it might bring up a window basically asking where you want to save it and what to name it, you can set all that up in preferences, I did so I just turned that window off and can’t be assed to turn it back on, just hit ok if you don’t wanna bother with that stuff, it’ll go into your downloads by default

and that’s it really, it’s that easy, I might make another thing talking about how to make utorrent more anonymous or whatever so look for that, but stock it’s fine, also when it’s finished downloading it’s gonna start seeding (like uploading to someone else) I’ve always been a scumbag and I never seed but Nemesis seeds stuff so much you really don’t need to anyways, just select it and hit the stop button (the black square on the tool bar)

here are all the links I could think of

Hero Initiative

download Tor

here’s a guide for VPNs

download utorrent

song I found recently that I like

getcomics

Nemesis

so yea that’s pretty much the basics, be smart, be safe, any viruses you get are on you but I hope you found this helpful and feel free to ask any questions

oh and also this is all parody and I’ve never actually torrented anything, I don’t even own a computer

[thebraingremlinsaremad]

Daily Blog #15: August 22, 2021

Dollar Tree is honestly pretty fucking awesome 👌👌👌

I set my alarm for like 6:25 this morning, but it took 6 minutes for the "Horsin' Around" theme song instrumental to wake me up. I was pretty tired lol. I just dismissed it and went back to sleep.

I only went back to sleep because I knew I had another alarm set for 7:00. That got me up.

I should mention that this was still in the RV over an hour away from the house.

After I got up, I went to go get a shower, and did so successfully.

Unfortunately, I had forgotten my brush this time and had to do it afterwards after my hair had a bit of time to dry, which did make it a little more difficult lol.

I got dressed and grabbed my stuff, putting it into my car.

I made it a point to see and say "see you later" to my grandparents before I left for the flea market.

My dad insisted that I stayed to say goodbye to my mom, so I left.

I did NOT have cell service up there, as was mentioned in my previous 2 blogs of which I could only post today, so finding my way was a tiny bit difficult until I got some service to ask Google to take me to "...".

It worked and I got there.

On my drive, I listened to 1 by Simple Kid, a CD I had previously purchased at a Dollar Tree location.

I got a call from the guy at the flea market saying that I had some people there waiting for me. He asked how far away I was, to which I said "about 10 minutes." Ironically, that call made me miss my exit, as Google couldn't talk during the call, and added about 3 minutes to my arrival time lmao.

I did sell the Xbox that he said someone was interested in. I got $40 for it. I spent 27¢ on it. Pretty good return if you ask me.

I couldn't sell it with anything other than a power cord because the controller and AV cables I had been using to play it there were for my personal console. I'm just glad I can actually hook my Xbox up and stop having to drag them to the flea market along with a small library of games.

Not too long after I sold the Xbox, someone came in and asked if I wanted to see some electronics he had in his car. I went out with him. It was a pair of 3ft speakers and a Pioneer audio system with dual cassette decks (although neither of them works) and a 25 Disc CD-changer, as well as the standard AM/FM tuner. Additionally, there was a Fisher amplifier and AM/FM tuner as well as a Fisher Direct Drive turntable. He said he wanted $60 for em, but before that he casually, and probably accidentally, dropped that he was just gonna take em to the thrift store.

Big mistake.

I got em for $35 lmao. THERE GOES MOST OF MY PROFIT.

Oh well.

I tested everything. As I mentioned, the cassette decks don't work, but everything else does apart from the turntable needing a new stylus.

I posted some new photos of the shop to Facebook, and someone soon DMed me about a stereo system.

I priced everything, and it turns out I have about $300 worth of equipment from that deal, the Fisher amp and tuner being worth about $150.

The buyer will hopefully show up next weekend, for he wants to buy the Fisher stuff ($185 with the turntable), the 3ft speakers, an 8-track deck, and a Kenwood deck we've had for a week or two.

The speakers are listed for $50 (and are worth around $100-150), the Kenwood Deck for $50 as well, and the 8-track for $35. That makes it about $320 in equipment. Since he's buying so much, I'll knock it down to $270 and essentially give him the speakers or cassette deck for free lol.

Apart from that stuff, not much happened at the flea market. I sold some records, cassettes, CDs and I think 2 DVDs. One person bought a VHS tape? That money was the other guy's though. Oh well xD.

I can't say that I didn't miss my wonderful partner while on the trip. I actually brought along the stuffed animal they gave me (who's name is Greg) and snuggled with him both nights.

I was very happy to hear from them UwU.

They let me rant and I let them rant.

I honestly give them too much responsibility over me xD. I'm like, "Okay, I'm gonna do this. HOLD ME TO IT."

I know I can't hold myself to anything I personally say (this blog being the only exception apparently), but I listen to them pretty well I think 🤔. If they tell me, "No, you don't need that VCR," so long as it's not some weird specialty thing, like a worldwide VCR 🥵, I'll be like "Yeah, you rite bro."

I love you man xD. You control my craziness pretty well. I'm so thankful for you UwU.

#relationshipgoals

So part way through the flea market day, I went over to Dollar Tree to buy some snack, but ended up looking through the CDs to see if there was anything good. I took photos of about 18 CDs and flipped through them online for the remainder of the flea market day.

I deleted the photos of the ones I didn't want and kept those that I liked. Surprisingly, I ended up buying 13 CDs there, but not before dropping them on the floor like the dumbass I am.

Also, sorry for all the nerd shit I spilled on your lap earlier. No one cares about amps and tuners xD.

I'M LISTENING TO ONE OF THE DOLLAR TREE CDS RIGHT NOW THO.

I already transferred over to my online library on iBroadcast and put the disc into my CD changer, which is now holding 164 CDs.

Its max capacity is 300 discs 🥵

WHY AM I NERD

Oh well

I like being a nerd gurl

Also maybe a technosexual 👀

I get really excited over some electronics. Like. REALLY excited.

Some editing VCRs are like "Holy shit that is SEXY. Look at those goddamn VU meters 🥵. And hhhh there are like 7 inputs on this thing and individual controls for left and right audio gain, not to mention Hi-Fi S-VHS recording. Hhhhhhhhhhh please gimme 😭. Why are you so expensive?"

I uh, mean, uh, *cough* look, pretty lights.

Oh yeah, I was gonna say the album I was listening to xD. MAN I GOT SIDETRACKED.

It's 37 Everywhere by Punchline. Def give it a listen; it's pretty heccin good.

Another notable album I picked up was Page One by Steven Page. I very much like the first track, "A New Shore." It's quite catchy and he has a great voice imo.

Also at dollar tree, I bought a regular bag of Fieras and 2 bags of Fieras Sticks, which were marked down to 75¢/bag because they're expiring soon.

I honestly like the generic Dollar Tree version of Takis more than actual Takis. They're a lot more flavorful when it comes to the lime, but also hotter at the same time.

Don't get the hot nacho ones tho. Hot nacho? More like hot pile of shit.

HAH

Goteem.

They're not that good xD.

THE REGULAR ONES ARE FIRE THO

"How do you do fellow kids?"

I got home and started working on putting the CDs onto my computer, and then onto iBroadcast, but not without first adding The Music Man to my digital library, something I had neglected for a month or two. The CD had just been sitting there lol.

I also switched my digital file for "The Black Parade" to that of the uncensored CD, which I had purchased before I event started working over 2 months ago.

MAN I'M LAZY

I eventually get around to shit tho lol. I guess it's just a matter of priority.

What usually takes priority is digging through everything to find something that I forgot about but then remembered, making a mess in the process that I would then have to clean up, at least partially.

I think the album just ended. I've been writing for a while xD. I'ma start "I Made You Something" by The Island of the Misfit Toys.

I'll tell you where that album came from in a minute.

In the meantime, where was I?

I kinda lost my train of thought despite reading up to see where I was. Oh well. On I go.

I ate dinner and kept working on those CDs, eventually putting my clothes from the week into the washer.

I FORGOT TO PUT MY SHAPING UNDERWEAR IN. FUCKING HELL MAN.

I wanted to wash em for this week 😭

No tight pants for Leonna I guess qwq.

Meanwhile, the box of my CD album cases is overflowing. I need another box.

I keep all of the album artworks in a big CD folder. That's almost full.

I wanna fill my entire CD changer. That's one of my big goals in life. Idk why, but I just wanna legitimately fill the entire thing.

My clothes are in the dryer now. I don't think I have the time (or energy) to fold them tonight. I'll leave that for tomorrow morning before work.

And God. Fucking. Damnit. I start school again on Wednesday. NOT looking forward to that, and neither are my 2 coworkers. We already have low enough staff, but only the two of them working is gonna be a pain in the ass.

I'll still work Saturdays.

I need to contact my guidance counselor to get out of the gym class I signed up for. I scheduled this shit before I found out I was trans, and I don't wanna deal with the fucking locker room situation 🙄 I have far more important matters.

Okay so anyway, the album I'm listening to came from a cassette. I bought this cassette a few months ago at the flea market along with a few others. The reason I bought them? They were all newer cassette releases from the 2010's, and they're all actually pretty good music from very indie bands.

Currently getting mad at iBroadcast's compression algorithm. It's unnaturally fucking anything over -10db up. Oh well, there's not really anything I can do about it.

I have like 13GB of music on my phone btw. That's about 3.5k songs on 268 albums.

I'm kind of an audiophile, but I'm too cheap to pay for a lossless service. Oh well.

They do actually have a lossless service on iBroadcast, but once again, too cheap.

Someone just sent me a friend request who legitimately posted that BLM and the democratic party are hate groups.

BLOCK.

Goodbye ho.

I don't get that. They call the democratic party a hate group when they hate people like me, and I, being more of a democrat although not fully because the 2-party system is fucked, think nothing more of them than they're very wrong about certain things, especially, as shown, that black people, as well as asian, Indian, native, and people of all ethnicities and backgrounds, are not equal to white people.

Yeh.

Totally.

You go buddy.

Anyway, yeah, I can, and do, convert music and video from analog formats to digital files in order for me to archive and listen to whenever and wherever I please. I've actually made a bit of a business out of it, but I don't get too much work from it. At least I'm not overloading myself xD.

I honestly have so much more to say, but I should probably go to sleep soon.

A few final shoutouts to the following people and companies:

-Dollar Tree

-Steven Page

-Broken World Media

-The Island of Misfit Toys

-Simple Kid

-Punchline

-My incredible partner QwQ I love you so much. Thanks for being the best all the time. I hope I can give you the best life ever.

Anyway I suppose this is goodnight. Lmk if you want a full list of the CDs I bought today! I'll link that song by Steven Page here.

And here's a good song from Simple Kid

I really like music lol. Enjoy these pieces.

Anyway, goodnight lol.

Lots of love,

-Leonna.

[clevercatchphrase]

2019 year in review

So… The 2010’s are almost over. Huh. What a decade it’s been. Hard to comprehend how much has changed in 10 years. I can barely believe that I was in high school at the beginning of this decade, and now I’m a college graduate with 2 degrees who’s been working at the same job for the last 3 years. But trying to summarize the past 10 years in a single post is a good way to give myself an existential crisis, so let’s not do that! Instead, let’s just focus on 2019 because there has been more than enough shit that’s happened to me in this year to talk about.

PART 1 OF 2: 2019 AND 2020 GOALS AND RESOLUTIONS

Huh, looking back through my archives, I apparently didn’t make a tumblr post about my goals this year. I definitely had some, though. Lemme list ‘em off real quick, and then we’ll go through them point by point.

1)      Pay off all my student loans 2)      Finish some song comics 3)      Make art for my Redbubble account 4)      Finish the first rough draft/script of a game I wanted to make 5)      Practice ASL 6)      Sew some stuffed animals 7)      Finish some fan fictions 8)      Work on Ghost Switch 9)      AMVs 10)   Do some original writing 11)   Make illustrations for my fan fictions

Okay, first off, the student loans. I was actually SO CLOSE to successfully completing this one bUT THEN MY CAR HAD TO BE A WHINEY PISS BABY AND HAVE ITS ALTERNATOR DIE ON ME WHILE I WAS ON THE HIGHWAY AND THEN A BLOW OUT THREE WEEKS LATER.

GOD, if I had to summarize this year in two words, for me it would be “Car troubles”. I swear I spent more on auto repair in the first third of this year than I ever have just freakin’ OWNING a car. All four of my tires had to be replaced, my alternator failed and my car literally just SHUT OFF while I was driving, and I was barely able to coast into a gas station. Both my front breaks and rear breaks were worn down the metal and I only learned this when my car was barely able to stop after I had to slam the petal down full force!  I went in for an oil change, and they found some problems and then I didn’t get my car back for three days! I don’t even like owning a car! I hate driving! I hate my country’s refusal to provide universal, free public transportation! I NEVER ASKED FOR THIS!

Oh-kay… number 2. Finish some song comics. I didn’t finish any. But that doesn’t mean I didn’t work on them. I have made tiny progress, but that’s certainly better than no progress. One of these song comics I hope to be realizes is going to be a collab with one of my friends. It’ll be a long-time coming as it’s pretty low priority for the both of us, but if anyone else out there was disappointed with KH3’s ending, we’re gonna have ya’ covered… With SONG!

3. Make some redbubble art. I actually did this one! Not in the way I expected, but I added (technically) 3 new designs to my redbubble in the middle of the year. If you like butterflies and dragons, I got some product for you~!

Number 4, finish a script for a game I want to make. I… thought about this. I thought about this a lot, but I never put pen to paper, so… oops. It almost happened! I debated making this my main writing project for NaNoWriMo this year, but ended up having more inspiration for another story. Maybe next year? (god, I hope not. I don’t want to wait a full year just to write something)

Number 5, practice ASL. I just straight up didn’t do this and I only have myself to blame. Still keepin’ up that Danish Duolingo streak, though. 4 years going strong and not a day missed yet.

Number 6, sew some stuffed animals. Again, another one I just straight up didn’t do, but I have an excuse of trying to save money while my car crashed and burned in every other sense except literal this year. Hopefully 2020 will be different. I’ll definitely be able to pay off this last loan within the first half of 2020, and then I can start saving for whatever I want to buy.

Finish some fan fictions was number 7, and I did this! Well, I only finished, 1, but it was a story I’ve been working on for over 3 years, and it came out to over 200 THOUSAND words long, which is the longest thing I’ve ever written, and I’m quite proud of myself. Now that the big story is out of the way, and I’ve gotten into a good rhythm of working on Ghost Switch, maybe I can squeeze in some short writing sessions more frequently. (either that, or just wait for my car to break down again and then go on a writing spree in a pepboys. The lord and the fan fic discord know that’s solely why I finished my other fic this year)

Speaking of Ghost Switch, working on it was a goal this year too, and I did that! I kept it up all year and took a vacation in November and it was wonderful. While the major plot points have been in place since before I started drawing, I still need to script each arc beyond Snowdin, but hey, by the time we get there, it’ll be 2022 so I got time. (Note, don’t do this, kids. Script your stories and comics thoroughly before publishing. The road I’m on is paved with misery and pain and it will only end in tears unless I change lanes soon)

Number 9, amvs. Do people make AMVs anymore? Idk… the last one I made was... Jesus, 5 years ago? (it was a gravity falls/fall out boy crossover, if you were curious) I’ve been wanting to do 2 more for just as long, but in order for me to do that, I’d have to spend time re-watching the shows to find the footage, and then actually edit them together, and I just don’t…. feel like it. Maybe someday, but not any day soon.

10; do some original writing. I did this! For nanowrimo! I wrote the first draft of some original fiction I’ve been planning for a year or two now and it completely sucks! But it’s on paper now and I’m happy. Will I revise and edit it? Sure, but not for a while. I want to let it sit and forget about it and look at it with new eyes months from now so I can be sure I can make it better when time comes to rewrite.

11, make illustrations for my fan fics. Now that You Monster is done, I want to go back and add pictures to it. I didn’t do any this year, but I did keep a list of scenes I wanted to draw, so I have plenty of ideas to do as warm up sketches next year~ I kinda want to stream them~

So, that was 11 goals, and I successfully fulfilled 4 of them! That’s! Not a very good ratio… QmQ So, goals for 2020. Some I’m gonna keep from this year, some I’m gonna drop and some I’m gonna add. In short I would like to,

1)      Finish paying off that last student loan 2)      Put more stuff on my redbubble 3)      Illustrate my own fan fics 4)      Sew at least one stuffed animal 5)      Make an enamel pin 6)      Read one new book a month 7)      Write one page a day/Complete at least one new fan fic 8)      Learn Python or C# for the game I want to make 9)      Finish fully scripting Ghost Switch 10)   Boost my patreon

Most of these I think are pretty self-explanitory, but I’ll go into detail just a bit because I’m on a roll and typing my thoughts helps me feel less alone in the middle of the night when you’re super tired and you know you should probably go to sleep, but the toddler in you is throwing a tantrum and doesn’t wanna go to sleep just yet, but you can’t fight the progression of time either way.

Number 1- I should be able to reach this goal by the end of March. End of June at the absolute latest. Once that goal is met, my secret new year’s resolution will be unlocked as well!

Number 2- I want to put more art of my OCs on redbubble. These OCs are tied to the game I want to make. There’s already some art of them up there, but I want at least one piece for each character.

Number 3- Mostly for You Monster. Embrace the cardinal rule of fan fic and apply it to fan art. If you want to read about see art about certain ideas, scenarios, or what-ifs, you gotta make it yourself.

Number 4- I have 3 potential ideas to sew. One is definitely leagues easier than the other two and will probably be chosen if/when I have the time and materials.

Number 5- This year I got really, REALLY into the idea of making enamel pins. Unfortunately it’s a pretty big investment (like, $350 to make 100 pins you  might not even sell). If this happens, it’ll probably be towards the end of the year, and if I get enough interest. I’m currently torn between making an original enamel pin and one based off Undertale. We’ll just have to see where this goes.

Number 6- Back in 2018 when I paid off one of my many student loans, I rewarded myself by spending over 200 dollars in used books. All these books had a theme; they were focused on dragons because I have a problem. I have not yet read a single one of these books I have bought, and I would like to fix that. I have, like, 20 unread dragon books, and even if I only read 12 out of 20, I would consider that an amazing accomplishment and money well spent.

Number 7- I currently have about 8 different WIPs I could work on. (well, I don’t know if I can even call them wips. More like, a general idea and a title written down.) I want to build good writing habits, and if I can write just 200 words a day, hell, even 200 words a week and just one of my 8 stories done, I would consider this goal met.

Number 8- I’m torn between making my game in unity or ren’py. I know jack shit about both. Ren’py is more user friendly, but unity will allow me more customization. (Lol, can you guess what kind of game I want to make yet?)

Number  9- I really just want the full story to be done and written incase anything goes horribly terribly wrong in my life and I find myself unable to continue making ghost switch in comic form. Then at least I can finish the story by other means, you know?

Number 10- It always surprises me every month when I get that patreon email saying I got paid. Sure, I don’t even make double digits on it, but it still awes me enough to know that people out there like my work enough to throw me a tip. I can’t thank my patrons enough for supporting me and I hope to one day be in such a good place I can update my comic/song comics/writing frequently enough without need for goals or milestones. But until that magical day arrives, money is always a great incentive for anything, I suppose. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 ALRIGHT. PART 2 OF 2: SHIT THAT HAPPENED TO ME IN 2019

Cheesus crust what a year. This year started off great! Back in late January Kingdom Hearts 3 FINALLY released, and let me tell you a little story. Back in the summer of 2006 I was a 13 year old middle schooler with no way of making money other than by doing house hold chores at a rate of 25 cents a task. A few weeks ago, I had a sleep over at a friend’s house and they let me play this weird game called “Kingdom Hearts” and god, I was instantly hooked on it. That summer, I did over 800 chores, enough to earn myself 200$ and buy myself a playstation 2 (just in time for the ps3 to come out, gg me) The only games I had for the ps2 were KH1, 2, Re:CoM and Okami, and I beat them all… except Okami. Miffed that the PS3 wouldn’t allow for backwards compatibility, little 13-year-old me made a promise. I looked myself in the mirror and said “I will not buy the next playstation console until KH3 comes out, AND BOY that was probably a good choice for me to make with my level of gaming. I’m even less of a casual gamer than the average casual gamer, but I have been waiting 13 years for this piece of closure, and I even told my friends and family that “the day Kingdom Hearts 3 comes out is the day I will buy a playstation 4”. My dad apparently thought this was the funniest shit, because he literally took the day off from work that Friday to drive me on base to get the game and console (he thought it would be less crowded than a regular walmart, I suppose). I paid $400 on a ps4 pro while he bought me the game. Again, I have an impecible sense of timing seeing as the PS5 is now right on the horrizion, but just like before, I’m not buying a new console until the next KH game is released. See you in 2045, sony~. While I was at the gamestop on base, I also picked up Okami HD and The Last Guardian. For all of February and even early March, I took my time playing through KH3. And…! It was the best disappointment I’ve ever played. After a month away from gaming, I started The Last Guardian and finished it in a couple weeks. I love trico and would die for him, but trying to get 100% completion on that game is udder insanity. Okami, HD, however… again after a month break after finishing TLG, I started replaying Okami. I think I had only managed to get about halfway through the game before I just… stopped playing it on my ps2 version. I am currently SO CLOSE to getting a 100% on the ps4 version. In fact, I’ve beaten the game. I only (techinically) need 2 more trophies to be done; 1st, escape the water dragon without being eaten, 2nd, I need to beat that dumb stupid race with Kai, in order to get the last bead on my rosary, as well as the top dog trophy. I hate her so much. I hate this race so much. It’s awful and bad.

Flash forward to December! Earlier this month I was at Barnes and Noble, buying myself a planner for 2020. I exit the store and notice that there’s a gamestop across the street. For shits and giggles I go inside to look at their game selection, and I find KH 1.5 and 2.5. Now, my PS2 died a few years back (it just won’t read my discs anymore, I don’t know why) and I haven’t been able to replay any of my other kingdom hearts games since. If you had seen me the day I finished kingdom hearts 3, after the ending credits rolled, you would have heard me say “Man…. I wish I could play kingdom hearts 2 again”. AND NOW I CAN, ALONG WITH BBS which I had never even played yet, but knew the story of. I’ve restarted playing kh1, and I was so happy to hear that familiar music when I booted the game up for the first time. While at the game stop, I also picked up Rime and Tearaway, two games that had looked interesting to me. At the time of writing, I’ve finished Rime and am 25% done with tearaway. Rime was…. An interesting experience. I learned about it through Jacksepticeye’s channel a couple years back and thought the art style was enticing. For a super casual gamer like me, I found the puzzles just the right level of challenging and exploring was a blast! The music gave me VERY strong Princes Mononoke vibes, but the overall story left something to be desired. Overall I had fun, and enjoyed completing this game to 100%. Now for tearaway. Can I just say this game is super fucking adorable? I know the original was on the ps vita and the gameplay there was arguably more diverse and imaginative, but this game is just so fucking cute I don’t care?? ALSO, this game’s sound track is ABSOLUTELY incredible and I’ve only heard the first fourth of it! Listen to The Orchards, Pig Riding, and Gibbet Hill Pilgrimage for a taste of their wonderful beats and fantastic use of string and woodwinds! God, I’m so excited to get some more games in 2020. I’m proud to say I currently own more ps4 games than I ever did with my ps2 (and now the majority AREN’T Kingdom Hearts titles!), and I’m still hoping to play Journey, The Witness, and Abzu before everything becomes ps5.

What else happened to me this year. Oh, I went to a doctor for, like, the first time in seven years. I also had my blood drawn for the first time ever, and the nurse said the most disturbing thing to me while she did it. Now, whenever I get shots, I refuse to look. I did that here. So she thought it would be appropriate to say to me “Can you feel your blood leaving your body?” Lady… You can clearly see I am uncomfortable with what is happening here. Why, of all the things you could say, did you choose to say that. Unfortunately, while my doctor is nice, she keeps wanting to run tests on me, that I just cannot afford with my current salary, and my monthly insurance is about to go up to 200$ a month, so I’ve cancelled my next appointment with them, and don’t plan to go back until it’s absolutely necessary. Capitalism is fun, guys. Preventative healthcare is for wusses.

I started going to a chiropractor on a monthly basis. Story time- I don’t know when it started, but sometime late last November I began to notice that I had a headache that just... wasn’t... going away? And each day it was starting to get a little worse. It made it hard for me to find a comfortable position to sleep, it made it hard for me to be in bright areas or move fast. So I said to myself “Okay, if this headache persist through the month of december, then something is proooobably wrong and I should go see someone about it. And hoo-boy were thing wrong with me. By the time this January rolled around, I couldn’t even stay on my feet for more than a few hours without it physically hurting to just BREATHE. So I started going to this chain called The Joint (A+ name, I know). THey aksed me “How are you doing?” I said “I’m in pain” and they said “We can help fix that!”. I’ve only been to a chiropractor once before in my life a few years back after my freshmen year of college because I began to notice my hips weren’t able to support me? LIke, I would lie on my back, and I couldn’t push my hips up when my feet were flat on the floor. I also couldn’t climb anything steep, because my legs just couldn’t push me up if my knee had to bend more than 90 degrees when I lifted my leg up. (Turned out both my hips were apparently out of place). This time only one of my hips were out of place (which they fixed. they said one of my legs was an inch “longer” than the other because I had been leaning all my weight on one leg when I stand). But two of my ribs were apparently “Stuck” which was why it was hurting for me to just breathe, and one of my shoulders was missaligned too, causing one of my trap muscles to constantly be streched, which was pulling on my skull, and causing the headache. Anyway, after they popped all my bones back into place, I still felt terrible, but by god, that night was the first time in weeks I was able to sleep without a migrane. A chiropractor can’t magically heal your arthritis, or fibro, but I definately think they have merit to keeping your posture good and helping your body with things like circulation. 10 outa 10, would recomend. It’s all the fun of getting your neck snapped without the dying!

Earlier this month I got together with two of my friends and we baked Christmas cookies. It was a lot of fun, as well as a great learning experience. A member of my family has a gluten allergy, so we used rice flour for most of the cookies. We learned this is a bad idea! The cookies will just fall apart! A few member’s in one of the friend’s family have nut allergies. Other friend and I knew this and were careful to avoid cookie recipes with nuts, bUT THEN COMPLETELY FORGOT THAT ALMOND MILK AND ALMOND EXTRACT COUNT AS NUT. IN FACT, ALMOND EXTRACT IS PURE CONCENTRATED NUT JUICE AND WE FELT SO BAD FOR ALMOST ACCIDENTALLY POISONING THE FAMILY.

Earlier this year me and these same friends took a field trip to Hobby Lobby and just dicked around the store for a couple of hours. It was super fun, 11 outa 10, would recommend, a great date idea for your artsy S.O.

Back in May I went to a wedding for the first time in my life. (well, not true, but the first one I could remember) we left at 5am, drove 5 hours to get there, hung out at a zoo and spent the night in a la quinta before the wedding day. I slept on the bathroom floor because my mom was snoring too loud in the main room and keeping me awake, and the rest of the day was just spent me trying to keep myself together because I was pissed off and tired.

Other than all of that, nothing really major happened to me this year. I guess one more thing I’ve tried to do this year is started the process of breaking certain internet addictions so I can use my free time for more personal projects. Seriously, I found myself watching way too much youtube and following blogs that didn’t even make me happy. I had a personal intervention with myself where I sat down and asked myself, “why do you watch these videos and youtubers? Why do you follow these blogs? Do you really enjoy their content? Do you really care? If you stopped watching/following them, would you even notice?” After critically thinking it over, I’ve found myself unfollowing several channels and blogs and suddenly I feel so much happier. I thought I would miss it, but I realized I didn’t really care if I saw their content or not. I wasn’t missing much. And now I feel like I have more time to draw, read and write. If you think you spend too much time consuming and not enough time creating, I suggest you try and de-clutter your internet habits as well. It’s done wonders to un-fuck my headspace.

And… well, that about sums up my year. How are your holidays going? Anything fun, exciting, dramatic happen to you this year? I hope your new year is warm and safe! Good night, everybody!

[punkscowardschampions]

Fearghal & Kaitlin

Fearghal: [So the setup is sending her a postcard pretending to be a mate visiting in England for whatever reason (could be fam you get the vibe, nothing suspect given the time this is) but giving enough info that she 1. Knows it is him 2. has the number of at least a phonebox nearby if not a phone in his care home 3. a time when he plans to first call the phonebox nearest their home in Ireland, assumedly this is some sneaky twin shit they've pulled similar enough before that she can catch on without any of the rest of the fam also doing so; only question is how long do we want it to be since he left?] Kaitlin: [3 months ish later then and they've turned 15 but only just for our ref how do we think the situation is with his dad etc like would he just be acting like he's dead cos is to him?] Fearghal: [basically my vibe was they wanted to weaponize Tabby killing herself for their gain, like make it something political even though literally not about that bar the fact her family and his family and co didn't want them together and she was a dramatic teenage girl in love (no offense but like) and so when he wouldn't go along with that there was a massive fight, actual, between him and his dad and then Fearghal left 'cos there's never any option but to do as your told with this fam and he can't lose face with all the other people etc etc and the story the dad is telling the fam etc is that Fearghal deserted them which not untrue but yeah, good enough for all the olders to disown him too so it'd be like we don't talk about him and if someone else bring him up you denounce him] Kaitlin: [let's say there's a crying baby in the background cos like in my OG post she can use her youngest sister needing fresh air as an excuse so casually left her outside the phonebox but might be able to hear her if she's going for it] Kaitlin: How ya Fearghal: K? Fuck's sake, you've not had a bastard, have ya? 's'not been that long, like Kaitlin: Catch yourself on! mind how ya ma was fit to drop, you eejit? well we're all lurred she had another girl who I'm hauling about as my cover, so I am Fearghal: [Laughs] Still easy to windup then [slight pause to take in that it's a girl and is here, like not the biggest shock but also literally no way of knowing at this time so] And go on, don't leave me in suspense, what name they burden the poor fucker with Kaitlin: [makes an unimpressed noise like fuck off] full of that good craic you are, bet the brits are buzzing to hear it. You ready? Niamh Roisin, it's a cracker, like [sighs] Fearghal: [laughs some more] Yeah, catch me on that most wanted list, obviously [makes a wincing noise like no] Christ, actually lost it fully then, has she? Made it longer than some but dunno if mentals get to heaven, haveta ask Father Quigley, like Kaitlin: [laughs herself] yeah yeah [makes like a idk noise] can you lose what you've never had? A good catholic'll find a way, to be sure, and she is that, our ma [makes a scornful noise at the mention of the priest as is standard for her] Fearghal: [makes a mm noise to agree] Suppose so, don't reckon much was said 'bout being good to 'em once you had 'em, so be alright [sighs] What have you been up to, then...How's it been Kaitlin: if it was she'd recite between the lines to keep us anyone's problem but hers, poor critter [sarcastic laugh because mum's getting no real sympathy] it could've been 3 days from when you went off for what's changed and not- [a long pause because everything's shit and we know it is] Fearghal: What's God if not top babysitter, eh? Cheaper than telly and who's giving money to the BBC [scoffs but cuts it short 'cos yep] And I'm fine too, you rude cow Kaitlin: and stand him next to our earthly da and he comes out lookin' class [chefs kiss noise] Hey now! [makes a fake noise of shock like she's appalled at the mention of the bbc] watch your profanity around me, dicko! [really long exaggerated sigh as a pisstake] a'course you are, land well anywhere, but hit me with your bars, it's no bother to hear how right I am Fearghal: If you can get him stand still long enough, like and you ain't a lad so no chance, babe [does pisstake wistful sigh] Forgot you needed protecting from the evils of this world, my apologies [coughs awkwardly then, stalling for time, fiddling with the phone in ways she can probably hear] Taking a bow as we speak, can't fit in here with me but the adoring fans are aplenty over this way, well more than there so fuck it, life's grand so it is Kaitlin: Wise up, boy, he only sways slightly of an evening on these ones lately so he does [but her voice is MAD because fuck being a girl in this fam] Did you now? Thank fuck my new lad has his uses then, like [takes a deep breath to try and calm down but exaggerates it for the pisstake because have to, god forbid they are serious rn] I went and saw your former biggest fan under that rock they've carved with protestant shite, no word on if life's grander for her now it's ended or if she's regretting she didn't send her prayers up saying she wanted another bite of the cherry, one that wasn't yours- [stops like I've probably gone a bit far here and shouldn't mention his dead ex anymore] Fearghal: Good for him [through gritted teeth like let's never talk about him thank you] Like you need a replacement protector, got how many ready and willing at home, just DYING to beat the shit out of some 15 year old kid for your honour and just for the craic of it [does it back, like and then is silent until the pips are going but he's still there 'cos they stop when he puts more money in] You'll be under some rock with Catholic shite if they catch you in their graveyard [says it much more quietly than he's said the rest] Kaitlin: [makes a noise of disgust that doesn't need to be exaggerated for the pisstake cos genuinely horrified at this fam thanks] what honour? Shame you brought down on us with what they caught you at [but her voice is softer too because didn't mean to go off and also doesn't mean any of that we know] supposed to scare me, is it? [said like I wouldn't be here to give them a chance to do it just like you weren't] Fearghal: Why you need to ask one of the others, ain't it; can't be the best looking of the bunch and the best behaved, got to leave something for 'em to do and impressing n pleasing him 's'never been high on my to-do so have at it, lads [does meh noise like this is all so casual] Called the fear of God for a reason, aye Kaitlin: [does the meh noise back and it's her turn to awkwardly fiddle with the phone/cough while she works up to saying what she does next, more quietly than she has anything else] how's it truly then? Away and everything. Free and clear Fearghal: It's, like- just shit because you realize that everything that happens in that fucking town, all the stuff that rules our lives and is all they give a shit about, no other cunt does, you know, Kait? Sure, its on the news when another bomb goes off or don't and that; but the English don't even have to think about it, their day to day ain't affected at all, no fucker but our lot cares and what's the point, honestly? Everything we were forced to at least think was important, if not fecking stupid, ain't and now I don't- [Stops to do some actual breathing to calm down] Not to mention I'm thick as shite, thanks for that and all- 'cos frees a bloody joke [laughs bitterly] I get by, now, got a place to stay so, don't haveta worry but don't be hopping the next ferry yourself, girl Kaitlin: [when you're just silent for ages because as much as you think it's bullshit you're basically in a cult rn with no chance of getting out so what can you say like] not that thick, warning me off coming to keep an eye on all these english girls with theirs on ya but no bother 'cause mind I get sea sick and class as boking on brits sounds I'd get fairly covered myself before I made any casualties of 'em Fearghal: Know enough about girls and enough about you to know the two don't need mixing, that's just school of life, that [moving away a bit and telling someone who's impatiently waiting to fuck off] Stay put [when you say it firmly like serious voice] That wain and the rest needs someone VAGUELY sane about to stand any chance, fuck me, Aislinn's already been corrupted and she's barely in double digits [kicks the box] Kaitlin: [laughs because yeah don't let her around any girls you like babe] you should know enough about me to know what giving me your orders'll do fer ya and what it'll make me do [but there's no actual real threat in it we all know she's staying for the bubs] Sane as you by that count, ain't I? [can't help genuinely sighing] Mammy's girl is Aislinn been like it since she was old enough to play house [grimaces at the thought cos never that bitch] got the rest under MY apron strings, grand they are and it goes for the stories I tell 'em every night after prayers, rest easy yourself knowing that, yeah? Fearghal: Alright, alright [hear the 🙄😏] But if you wanna be the next to bring shame on 'em, you can do better than a cheeky abortion, surely? [shakes his head] Yeah. [Pause] Yeah [Coughs again] I'm doing my bit, swear, it's gonna take a while 'til I can send you anything and I've got to work out how when I do- it ain't for them, just you lot but like I said, not cheap Kaitlin: [an outraged noise like who do you think you're talking to, of course I can do better than that etc] Yeah. [Pauses herself because again what to say, there's so much it's too much] I've got faith in the right shite, Gally [nickname ftw because feels] it'll work out. We'll work it out, like we did this Fearghal: 'Course we will, K. No other choice, is there [definitely not a question] Kaitlin: not a real question, is it? [she knows its not] Fearghal: you want me to ask you one? Kaitlin: do English girls fall for that? Fearghal: Enough of 'em, yeah Kaitlin: [makes a ugh noise] how you've got a bed, is it? Fearghal: Theirs top where mine is Kaitlin: I deeply feel that Fearghal: [makes the kinda sad 'ha' sound like 'I know'] Not all bad though, some class drugs about and you don't get kneecapped for taking a casual interest Kaitlin: [does a little hooray down the phone] Fearghal: Send you some but your phones probably tapped so I definitely won't Kaitlin: thanks or no thanks, depending who'll be listening Fearghal: Cover those bases and the baby's ears Kaitlin: nothing to be heard over her crying Fearghal: don't lie, you miss me that much [laughs] Kaitlin: fuck off [but laughs too] Fearghal: Will do Fearghal: so many English girls Kaitlin: [exaggerated being sick noise] nowhere close to a ferry and sick as a dog, don't start me any further Fearghal: You think I escaped to pray every day and fight the good fight, like Kaitlin: if you still pray you ain't escaped fuck all Fearghal: Not living on my knees for no cunt, sis Fearghal: am being haunted, for my sins, though Kaitlin: Be on track to commit more, you'll have enough ghosts for all manner of shite to get done Fearghal: No rest for the wicked on the one hand, but on the other, idle hands and idle minds [breathes out like so conflicted and confused] Kaitlin: [a change in tone because serious] She's gone, so are you. Leave it here. Leave it in this fucking town Fearghal: Not a choice Kaitlin: Can be Fearghal: Nah, s'not, boths already happened Kaitlin: Happened to you, gives you a say in how you deal with it Fearghal: Yeah Kaitlin: You've lived in one haunted house as things stand, ain't you? Miss home that much, is it? Fearghal: How could I not? Live for these lectures, like Kaitlin: [an unamused noise because you're basically calling her a nagging girl which ain't a mood] Fearghal: [the pips again] Oh shit, should robably let you go, yeah? Kaitlin: Yeah probably [but she obvs doesn't wanna that'd be clear] Fearghal: Tell the kids I miss 'em, won't ya Kaitlin: I'll even include her out there Fearghal: Try and send a picture some time, alright Kaitlin: 'Course Fearghal: You too, kid Kaitlin: [laughs but in a more genuine way] You're my twin brother, calling me kid is calling yourself a wain, you eejit Fearghal: That's alright by me, like Kaitlin: I'll not baby you, got enough noses and arses to wipe here while you're hand holding these brits Fearghal: No handholding, on me life, just good old-fashioned- [will cut him off before he can be gross] Kaitlin: [we can say she cuts him off with a very unamused noise as per like no thank you] Fearghal: G'wan then, piss off before that kid freezes to death Kaitlin: [doesn't wanna be the first one to hang up obvs] Watch yourself then Fearghal: You too Fearghal: When can we do this again then Kaitlin: When can you? It's no bother for me to slip out with this ginger whinger, needs fresh air so she does Fearghal: [laughs then is pondering like umm] Try next Sunday, after church, if I don't answer then I'll send another postcard or whatever, yeah Kaitlin: Tryin' to get a free sermon told to ya, respect that hustle if not the message Fearghal: Obviously, how am I getting to heaven from England? Kaitlin: [laughs] no angels in England is there not? You'll have been thinking on your feet for fresh pick up lines all these months, no wonder you ain't had time for me, like Fearghal: Something like that... [Trails off 'cos don't wanna tell her what's really been going on but also does 'cos not its like that and its been a lot to just deal with on his own] Kaitlin: But it's something else like what? [cos sees through you boyyy] Fearghal: It's alright now, like Fearghal: but it ain't as if the old man sent me on me way with anywhere to go, is it Kaitlin: He didn't put a bullet in your head as a send off, that's what gets me to sleep of a night, but- [trails off because she was gonna say she knows it hasn't been easy but she doesn't know how hard it's been and she's not trying to guess like let's compare struggles] Kaitlin: Yeah [another pause] Fearghal: Should've put one in his [so under his breath it's like did you mean that to be heard or] Kaitlin: You'd have to take ma out an' all, I don't reckon the broken heart myth is anything other than another story, and probably a few of us would make the cut for cute little orphans but you and me'd have to catch ourselves on quick and wise up Fearghal: Make Tara look after you all as well as Diarmaid's kids, see how committed to the family she really is [sniffs 'cos we been knew] Kaitlin: [makes an identical sound cos twinning] I'll take her out if she was bothered to try and get near 'em Fearghal: Least Owie is old enough to help out, young enough to give a clout, yeah? [genuine concern] Kaitlin: [scoffs because we know he's a bit of a knob but it's still affectionate because] Fearghal: He'll be alright [but doesn't sound as reassuring as that's meant to be 'cos like unlikely at this point] Kaitlin: He's got me, my will's stronger than god's so father Q likes to say [laughs] under his breath, a'course Fearghal: [laughs back but its less 'cos sad] He doesn't always chat shite Kaitlin: Reckon he's a soft spot for me Fearghal: [makes noise like 'hopefully not too soft' but is joking, doesn't need to be that kind of priest] Kaitlin: I don't wish you were here Fearghal: How could he not, with the charm [but just jk like] Is it better, in some ways Kaitlin: It's...[trails off cos we all know even if there's less hassle it's not better as far as she's concerned and the loneliness is a real mood] I'm buzzing you got out [genuine but her voice is sad] Fearghal: Your turn next, I mean it Kaitlin: After we get a few birthday's under Niamh's belt [pauses because it's sinking in how stuck she is for now] and the rest, give 'em a fighting chance Fearghal: Yeah Fearghal: I'll make it easier, any which way I can Kaitlin: Me too, for you, I mean Fearghal: I'm grand, honest but cheers [more pips] I am outta shrapnel though so- Kaitlin: Don't be putting honest on a lie [frustrated sigh because nobody wants this to end but she wouldn't have money] speak Sunday and like I said, watch yourself Fearghal: Love ya, K ['cos no time to take the piss for it or protest] Kaitlin: [let's say she gets cut off before she can say it back for the pain]

[groundramon]

Homph I finished tri and I wrote down my thoughts as I was watching because I had too many funny shitposts and nobody to share them with bc charlie hasn’t watched tri yet

PS i wont be reblogging tri spoilers (besides MINOR stuff like, digivolutions of already confirmed digivolution lines or non-spoilery shitposts, but I’ll try to tag shitposts as #tri spoilers anyways [digivolutions specific to tri ill tag as well but not ones that were already basically confirmed]) for a while so ur safe here!  I’m just gonna like everything/most things because then I can rb em to hisyaryumon lmao (also u should check out hisyaryumon....its me n charlie’s digimon blog)

EP 1:

- ok. alright. ok. good. they’re dealing with kari’s emotions now instead of just. nothing.  ok. alright. cool.  Still dont like how obscure/”artsy” they’re being with it, this is digimon not kagerou project, but ok.

- Also. I stand by tk and kari being one of the few good straight ships in digimon.  just saying.

- kari: this is my fault... me: god damn it shut up you little brat also me: god relatable ALSO me: ill take whatever display of emotions i can get

- I love how nobody believes tai is dead like.  They’re upset and worried but they’re also like “nah. he cant be. that fucking asshole just left us in our time of need” (actually only matt is the last one)

- Gabumon i would die for you also im crying and I think that’s the first time tri managed to make me fucking CRY

EP 2:

- I had thoughts but then the 02 kids happened and I entered another plane of reality.  I don’t feel real right now

- the only one I can remember is evil!gennai being a dumbass and being like “SUFFER AND SQUIRM YOU PATHETIC HUMANS AS YOU FIGHT OVER THE LAST SEAT” 1. humans are KNOWN for their ability to care for others you dumb obvious fuck and 2. is. is the entire tube going? because that tube can fit too people if they squish.  This isn’t a joke I’m serious it can.

- oh yeah also when i saw whomstever the fuck his name is (adult guy who i love but fuck names) and he was all bloodied i was like “its a cold day in hell when i see blood in digimon” (I think there was blood in an earlier ep but shh idc)

EP 3:

- didn’t nishijima start off as a fucking life coach to these kids.  What the fuck he was supposed to help them find a career not emotionally scar them by bloodily dying in front of one of them

- im realizing that the reason hackmon was always in his cloak, in the shadows, standing still is that they cannot animate him in any normal position for the life of him.  I drew him with better anatomy when i was 14 and didn’t have a tablet.  No seriously, look:

I didn’t say it wasn’t bad, you guys are just underestimating how bad the anatomy on this poor creature is.  Why cant ppl draw dracomon or hackmon correctly imma cry

- ordinemon has the best reaction faces

the best part about these two screenshots is that they literally cut one to the other, first the first one to the second one and then it cuts back to the first one.  They were really proud of these stupid ass expressions.

- I started overcoming my dissociation shock from the second episode and my hypercritical mind was analyzing the shit out of everything that happened (it is Not happy) but then evil!gennai called kari and evil goddess and idk if he’s exaggerating to make her feel bad or if she’s literally a fucking god of chaos and destruction and either way im like

she did kinda like.  Watch wizardmon die, watch tai die, watch gatomon get absorbed.  The dark ocean is just a metaphor for depression and honestly if 02 wasn’t all over the fucking place I think Kari would’ve had some pretty decent development in it.  Actually you know what, I’m using that as an angle to approach Tri at now, wish me luck bc i might actually give it more leeway now

EP 4:

- I’m not dissociating but I forgot to say anything again and I already forgot what happened

- Cant believe mei is fucking dead

EP 5:

- I like to imagine that Tai got there like a few minutes ago, but he was like “well damn guess yall figured it out without me.  alright ill just. see if I need to do anything” and then meicoomon was Still Bad so he waited for when she struck just to make the most badass entrance possible.  Fucking extra ass bitch

- I forgot to write anything again but uhhh I wasn’t satisfied so anyways lets just get into the Juicy Details

Originally I was actually planning to be kinder to Tri than I expected.  Was very invested during it.  ‘Round the end of the last ep I realized hmmm no this isn’t working out.  Where are the 02 kids.  You should’ve brought them in to save the day.  That would’ve been SO cool and SO fun.  Fucking cowards.

god I’m kinda tired so I’m going to address a couple things I still had problems with, note that this isn’t everything it’s just everything I felt comfortable yelling about without rewatching past eps.  Like I forgot nishijima was all bloodied and presumably died in the last part until they brought it up and I was like “????” ALSO DID THE LADY WHO WAS HIS PARTNER OR W/E KILL HERSELF WITH THE GUN SHE FOUND, I JUST REALIZED LITERALLY AS I WAS TYPING THIS THAT SHE FOUND A GUN AND THEN I THINK IT CUT TO BLACK AND I’M

DID SHE FUCKING KILL HERSELF WHAT THE FUCK

anyways my problems:

1. They did joe. really dirty.  I’ll write a more proper rant on this sometime later (mostly bc charlie is MUCH better at talking about joe than I am) but basically I can tell you that his character development in the movies squandered his OG character development.  He’s basically an entirely different person.  Like Tri joe isn’t bad, besides being largely neglected (yes he has a whole half a movie to himself, no that doesn’t make up for it all), its just...not OG joe.  He’s a fine character just not the same character, and its NOT fine when you put the two together.

2. THEY DID THE 02 KIDS EVEN DIRTIER IM SO BITTER sorry you nostalgia-blind, money-hungry fucks at bandai, but the 02 cast is PART OF THE ADVENTURES UNIVERSE.  The only people who hate 02 are ones who like the characters but hate the mess of the storyline at the end, or are completely irrational and elitist about their love of the digimon series and would greatly re-evaluate their opinions if they watched the original series and 02 back to back.  They couldn’t even show them in some kind of group montage at the end??? Standing in the background when they call Mei???  Why couldn’t they call mei from a home phone also, but that’s a less important problem idc that much.  It was a cute scene besides the lack of 02 characters.  Whatever.  AND THE PROBLEM IS LIKE kari and tk?  This entire time???  Were like “oh they disappeared. oops” instead of being frantically searching for their lost friends???  Like i get tk and kari probably have fucking ptsd and can’t express any emotions because they watched important people die in front of their eyes at an incredibly young age but also 1. they didn’t address the ramifications of ptsd, so fuck that theory/excuse and 2. THAT??? WOULD ONLY MAKE THEM LOOK HARDER??? and put on a brave face as they look, but inside they’re so scared and so worried.  Not just “oh sweet, they were found/saved, theyre in the hospital but that’s fine” like WHAT theyre fucking assholes if that’s what they’d canonically do lmao.  God I am SO bitter over the ENTIRE thing with the 02 kids, it would’ve been BETTER if they were deleted from the fucking canon entirely.  Would I have still been bitter?  Yes.  But at least I wouldn’t be madder at TK and Kari too.

3. I stand 100% by the notion that Digimon is not and will never be cut out to be an adults’ franchise.  It wasn’t designed for adults, and it can’t be skewered towards adults.  These particular characters were designed for kids to relate to and find entertaining.  They do not work when placed into an adult setting.  Like, can you imagine a character like Ed from FMA going to the Digimon world?  I guess in a way that’s just Marcus but like.  Just imagine the FMA cast in Digimon Adventure.  It doesn’t work.  Digimon Tri is basically that except real.  Also Data Squad was darker than Adventure so my joke doesn’t even work.

I guess my primary point is that Tri isn’t mature enough of a setup for an adult audience.  It puts a focus on being “complex” and “philosophical” instead of working within Digimon’s constraints and making something good and adult out of that.  Like!  Digimon is a fucking TOY COMMERCIAL.  Don’t give me messages about the futility of human life.  I want bad puns and emotional characters.  That’s what Digimon has ALWAYS been, and ideally always will be.  Tri could’ve made itself more mature by dealing with the ramifications of the Digital World’s events, how it affected the kids psychologically and dealing with healing old scars.  It would’ve been a more mature take on a story we loved and would use things we loved about the story already - the fact that it took so much time exploring characters’ emotions and was surprisingly mature for the time - to make itself better.  You need to take the aspects that drew adults to the show and amplify them, not just slap on a complex story and unfunny dialogue and be like “oh this is fine, right?”

It’s not that Digimon can’t exist as an adult property, its just that if it repeats what Tri did, it’s got no merit and in my eyes the franchise is dead.  If it survives I guess I’ll be happy that people can still enjoy it but I find it unsustainable and unsatisfying to fans of the older series.  Tri is just a fuckfest of highly specific nostalgia that tries too hard to appeal to old fans without capturing what made the original series so magical, and in part thats because the original series WASN’T FOR ADULTS.  I don’t know about the Digimon Story games, bc they’re T-rated so perhaps they’re a better take on an adult Digimon story than Tri?  But you either need to make your own characters and lore specifically for an adult-oriented Digimon season, or perish.  Also, please make it a series and not a group of movies.  Getting four eps every 6-9 months was hell.

I stand by saying Appmon is a more faithful Digimon season than Tri to Digimon’s original spirit.  I believe it holds more potential for success than Tri and better embodies the spirit of the older Digimon seasons.  It’s dumb, its corny, it has horrible puns, but I LOVE it because it also has a deep dark story and emotional moments.  If you dislike Tri and you agree with things I said that make it unlikeable, I highly recommend giving Appmon a chance - if you watch a few episodes and think “oh yeah, I guess this is decent” you’re going to like it.  It’s everything Digimon has always been and hopefully always will be, just with a different concept.  And hopefully the end of the series doesn’t leave a sour taste in my mouth and I have to redact this statement haha since I’m not done with it yet, but I’ve heard good things about it so I’m hoping not so.

Overall, if you watch Tri, don’t get your hopes up.  It resolves everything okay-ish but it’s a pretty forgettable anime on its own and simply doesn’t work as part of the Digimon franchise.

I am, however, pretty interested in what evil!gennai said at the end about Diaboromon and Daemon.  It raises interesting questions about the timeline too.  We know Daemon is in the dark ocean, so perhaps that’s a hint at a future project?  (They did confirm a future project btw, in conjunction with tri being over)  But what about Diaboromon?  I dont believe that Our War Game (I think thats what its called?) took place after Tri, based on the outfits and ages and stuff, but I also don’t remember the movies that well.  Could Diaboromon still be out there too?  It’s interesting.

However, because of the lackluster performance of Tri, I don’t have my hopes up and I really hope that this “next project” goes in a different direction.  Although I guess if they include the 02 kids, I’ll be somewhat less salty...

Side note, did they ever explain why the gennais went evil?  Like ?  That’s a pretty important thing.  The gennais helped SAVE the human world in 02.  And I get that apparently Tri is ignoring 02′s ending but still.  It’s shitty, because Gennai was still a good guy in the original too (and also they cant just keep is younger look and act like 02 never happened)  MAYBE its something I missed but I dont think so.  God there’s just.  So much wrong with Tri.  I’m very displeased and very bitter and I wanna get back to Appmon asap.

It’s got good moments, its got bad moments, I dont know, I don’t care.  There’s nothing wrong with you if you like it, there’s nothing wrong with you if you don’t, and there’s nothing wrong with you if you flip flop and are split like me.  I just wish Tri fulfilled its potential instead of becoming a boring mess.

[verdigrisprowl]

Oct 11 Blurr’s Horror Stream - Friday the 13th

Once again, Bonecrusher showed up. He talked about cannibalism with Blurr, grumbled about how the boss hasn’t been helping the Constructicons move closer to the freedom he promised them, and showed off his new avatar upgrades to Buzzsaw.

Missed the first few lines, nothing of substance had started yet.

boomtank: ((??? B l u r r: [[ okay, so a candy bar is like those things they have at parties that have all kinds of candies on the table and you can make your own combos ]] B l u r r: [ usually got wait. ]] Bonecrusher: ((... sssso just a bunch of candy you can grab?)) B l u r r: [[ like this ]] boomtank: ((oh that is awesome B l u r r: [[ a ton of candy you can make your own combos with . Oh and probably like a chocolate fountain somewhere. But, idk. Chocolate for bots. Oil. Energon. whatever ]] Bonecrusher: ((ooooh)) B l u r r: [[ yes! So, if y'all are interested in some snacks ]] Bevel: ((awesomeness B l u r r: / anyway. He's here. Yanks drape off of the candy table / B l u r r: / Asmall portion is for cannibals. That is over yonder on the side, with a label that says 'Candy Cannibar' / ItsyBitsySpyers: *Ravage immediately heads for that side of the bar while Soundwave shakes his helm and sits down. He'd like to make something himself, but not in front of everyone. One of the twins can-- Starscream changed their nickname to Starscream. Bevel: *will avoid that part of the table later* ItsyBitsySpyers: do it and save it for him for later. Right now, he's going to nonchalantly park himself by Bonecrusher.* B l u r r: / going to reach out and pat Ravage politely. / ItsyBitsySpyers: *And turn his helm to look at him with a greeting glyph on his visor.* B l u r r: / loading up a small tray for himself. / ItsyBitsySpyers: *Ravage bumps Bevel's leg as he trots by and headbutts right up against the hand. Good.* boomtank: ((seriously tempted to switch muses Bonecrusher: *Bonecrusher has just gotten around to surveying the room. Oh hey there's food over— Oh hey it's Soundwave. Haha. Ha. hh.* Bonecrusher: ............... Sup. B l u r r: Want me to make you a tray? / to ravage / Bevel: *Bevel is sporting the same frame as Soundwave's movie night. Hi Ravage, have a small skritch if you're up for it* ItsyBitsySpyers: *Soundwave bobs his helm in response and turns back to face the movie, squashing the urge to laugh with a vengeance. In the meantime, Ravage wriggles at the skritch as he passes by--* ItsyBitsySpyers: *And blinks at Blurr.* ItsyBitsySpyers: =...Yes. I will sit.= Bonecrusher: *The second Soundwave looks away from him, he heads the other way. Takes the long way around to the snack table.* B l u r r: / nods and grabs another tray. Starts loading things up/ Bonecrusher: ... Hey, what's this "Cannibar" slag about? *points at the sign.* This for real or you bein' cute? Bevel: *Bevel has been given a gift. She will accept it with only a small squeak of pleasure* B l u r r: ... /glaances at / Ah. You again. /licks denta / Oh no, it's very real. B l u r r: I wouldn't joke about that. Bonecrusher: *Optics light up.* Fraggin' FINALLY. *He grabs a handful from the bar.* Ain't nobody got good taste. B l u r r: Well. I do. B l u r r: Over here is the fear flavor. That's my favorite. Then there's some anger in there. Some condensed whining. / props claw on hip/ Not a bad flavor choice this haul. ItsyBitsySpyers: =Paranoia?= B l u r r: Oooh, that's sprinkled in everywhere! Bonecrusher: Oooh. *Drops the load he'd scooped up and grabs a handful of fear instead.* Bonecrusher: *Snaps back Nova Prime's battlemask and shoves the whole handful in his mouth.* ItsyBitsySpyers: =Hm.= Small nod. Those mixtures should be close enough to the hunt, then. B l u r r: ... Well. At least we know you have an appetite. B l u r r: / walks over to Ravage and sets down the tray for him/ Bonecrusher: *Chews for a moment. Stops chewing. Frowns.* Bevel: *she'll make her way over to the bar and carefully consider the non-cannibal options* Do you make everything yourself, Blurr? Bonecrusher: *Sadly spits it back into his hand.* Forgot I'm a hologram. B l u r r: Yes, I do. /to Bevel/ I make everything myself. B l u r r: / looks to bonecrusher / Pity. Shall I send you some in person? ItsyBitsySpyers: [[No. They do not receive presents from outside.]] Bonecrusher: Yeah! You know where we— Awww! *gives Soundwave the Most Upset look.* B l u r r: What a pity... and here I've found another mech who enjoys my type of appetite. ItsyBitsySpyers: =Ravage looks exceedingly smug as he paws through the contents of his tray.* ItsyBitsySpyers: =More for me.= Bonecrusher: *Gives the wad of half-chewed candy in his hand one last mournful look.* B l u r r: / smirks a little/ I'm sure I could find a way to get them to you. Bonecrusher: *Then sticks it back in the bowl.* ItsyBitsySpyers: =...Disgusting.= B l u r r: Well, better not to waste it. Bonecrusher: Yeah Ravage. Mor fer you, right? ItsyBitsySpyers: =...MORE disgusting.= Gonna just hunch protectively over his tray so nobody can put pre-chewed food in it. B l u r r: / grabs a piece of fear and chews on it, avoiding what's been chewed/ Oberyn will eat it. B l u r r: [[ yall ready?? ]] ItsyBitsySpyers: ((yep)) boomtank: ((more or less Bonecrusher: *Laughs of obnoxiously and heads for... a couch that ISN'T occupied by Soundwave.* Bonecrusher: ((yep!)) B l u r r: / you can sit with me, sad food buddy / Bonecrusher: ((... "Laughs of Obnoxiously.")) boomtank: ((trying to pick a muse ItsyBitsySpyers: ((all of them)) B l u r r: [[ ... oh. ]] B l u r r: [ uh ill start the movie , but i might have be sparse. ]] B l u r r: [[ for a second ]] Bonecrusher: ((fuse all of your muses into a single muse.)) B l u r r: [[ my poor friend. 8( their parents house is gone. ]] ItsyBitsySpyers: *Soundwave stretches across his whole couch and weaves his feelers over himself as a sort of tarp. Ah.* Bonecrusher: ((oh no. :( the fires?)) ItsyBitsySpyers: ((OH NO)) B l u r r: [[ yeah. ]] boomtank: ((do we really want a small Leaguer in here? B l u r r: [[ they said all that's left is the fountain in the front. ]] boomtank: ((and holy ***, is she okay? B l u r r: [[ they're okay. ]] ItsyBitsySpyers: ((that's terrible, i'm sorry for them...)) B l u r r: [[ they evacuated in time. ]] Bonecrusher: ((... hey. hey. if you ever DO wanna start bringing magnum, prowl would be happy to provide him with covert space bridges.)) Bonecrusher: ((come hang out with the giant aliens)) boomtank: ((it is tempting B l u r r: [[ do whatever you want. I've seen the whole series, even if blurr hasnt lmao ]] Bonecrusher: ((he'll be like "rumble come here and meet an Actual Baseball Celebrity From Earth)) B l u r r: / anyway. Settles on a couch with his snacks. He has some space for anybody that wants to join / B l u r r: [[ okay imma start ]] Bonecrusher: *You know what? He IS gonna sit next to Blurr. Maybe the host can protect him from Soundwave's evil ways.* boomtank: ((ah, why not, Blurr, that okay? Bevel: *will settle on the floor by Soundwave and company* B l u r r: [[ yeah ?? You're free to bring whoever you want to, yknow. ]] B l u r r: / glances over at bonecrusher and wiggles claws at / Bonecrusher: ((if u want it to be through prowl it can't be this stream but like, i mean, that's no reason you can't bring him anyway)) Bonecrusher: Sup. B l u r r: [[ i will leave captions for you ]] B l u r r: [[ if you all don't mind ]] boomtank: ((multiverse *** B l u r r: ... You know, I don't think I ever got your name. Bevel: ((i need them myself so yay captions Bonecrusher: *... glances at Soundwave to see if he's watching him.* ItsyBitsySpyers: *Soundwave is looking at Bonecrusher, yes. Mostly because he can see the screen through the feelers.* Bonecrusher: 'M Bonecrusher. ItsyBitsySpyers: *He drops a hand over the side of the couch to pat Bevel. Greetings.* Bonecrusher: *... slouches down to hide behind blurr. this is hard to do as nova prime.* Bevel: *is patted?* Hi! ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Remind him to ask you something later, Bevel.]] B l u r r: / will try to appear larger to hide him ? / Fireball: ((I am gonna see how well I can do this B l u r r: I'm Blurr. Captain of the Emperor- the ship you're on. Bevel: Huh? Ok. Bevel: *tries really hard not to remind him now out of curiosity about what Soundwave wants to ask* Bonecrusher: Yeah, I know. The one with the dead boyfriend. B l u r r: / tilts helm a little / Who told you that? Bonecrusher: Boss did. Bevel: *could appear larger but sitting next to Soundwave probably negates her ability to hide anyone* B l u r r: [[ oh 80s horror ]] Bonecrusher: Well—I mean, he didn't tell us. We saw it from hardlinin' with him. B l u r r: ...Well, your boss is an idiot. ItsyBitsySpyers: [[No, he isn't.]] B l u r r: / lifts two digits / It's not one boyfriend. It's two. Bonecrusher: Nuh-uh! He's the greatest! Ain't NOBODY smarter than him. B l u r r: Technically three, but I lack the frame for one. B l u r r: / rolls optic/ Oh, sure. Bonecrusher: Damn. Whaddaya do, invite 'em home to frag and just—? *pantomimes slasher-style stabbing* B l u r r: ... Oh, no. Those aren't for the boyfriends. B l u r r: That's for when I have an itch i can't scratch. Bonecrusher: ... *Offers fistbump.* ItsyBitsySpyers: //Y'know that's what backscratchers is for. Or feelers.// B l u r r: / a fistbump for me? / Bonecrusher: *a fistbump for you!* B l u r r: / fist bumps ? though he isn't sure what for / B l u r r: it's not that kind of itch, mech. It's the kind you can't scratch normally. Bonecrusher: That's how ya do it. Frag 'em then slag 'em. B l u r r: It's that itching desire for something. B l u r r: K-Kyeheheheheh. I don't always frag them. In fact, it's rare that I do. Bonecrusher: Nice. Skip to the fun part. B l u r r: I'm more interested in the way their energon feels all over me. B l u r r: / chews another snack/ Bonecrusher: I just like chewin' 'em. B l u r r: [ my favorite line, tbfh. "Oh shut up, Ralph. " ]] B l u r r: I prefer to play with my food, honestly. Fireball: -don't mind him, he just froze between one step and another. How did he end up here again?- Bevel: *Bevel waves from her spot on the floor to the new person* Bonecrusher: Oh, yeah, heh. Chasin' 'em around the room while they scream's fun. "Help, help, don't eat me, I'll do anything ya want!" Haw! B l u r r: Ahhh. They don't always know I'm going to eat them. Sometimes, I don't. Fireball: -How are they all so hu-oh one's waving- Hello. B l u r r: Sometimes, I send them down to the keg room to become part of the Cannibar on the ship. ItsyBitsySpyers: *Soundwave twists one of his feelers around to look at the new being.* [[Designation?]] B l u r r: If you keg fear up, it'll cool and chill perfectly. Bonecrusher: Yeah? Huh. I'll ask Mix about that. B l u r r: / twitches finials and glances at the newcomer / Hnnnh... new metal. B l u r r: ... Well, if you ever want some recipes for good energon. Bonecrusher: Yeah! Send it over. Mix loves that stuff. Fireball: Magnum Ace. I...think something went wrong with my door. B l u r r: I'll organize them and send them. Fireball: ...this is not the workshop B l u r r: You want to give me your comm so I can? B l u r r: Definitely not a workshop. Bonecrusher: Yeah, sure. *pings it over.* ItsyBitsySpyers: [[You came through a door? Where?]] B l u r r: / twitches claws and sends over a list of five energon recipes/ Bevel: Oh, that happens sometimes. Fireball: Japan. And what happens? B l u r r: ... So. /shifts a little / what do you do for fun in that confinement you're in? Don't you hate being locked up? Bevel: Universes overlapping and stuff. Bonecrusher: Yeah, it fraggin' sucks. B l u r r: Why not break out? Fireball: Universes. Plural. Like...-don't mind him as his mind catches up with the idea- Bevel: Uh-huh. Bonecrusher: *mutters* Boss says no. Bevel: Untold numbers of them. *still trying to find the one where Lord of the Rings is real, she knows it exists* Fireball: O-oh...That's unexpected...untold, huh? Bonecrusher: *mutters more darkly* Startin' to wonder why we're listenin' to him anymore. Starscream: ((sorry about that I'm having technical difficulties, I'm back Bonecrusher: ((which starscream is you)) Fireball: ((welcome back! Starscream: ((thebestdecepticonleader Bevel: That's what I was told, yeah. Bonecrusher: ((o7)) ItsyBitsySpyers: *Takes note of that there mutter.* B l u r r: ... Don't agree with your boss, hn? Fireball: That sounds daunting...um... Starscream: the music is... interesting Bonecrusher: He said if we listened to him he'd get us free again in no time. All legal-like so we wouldn't have to be on the run. Starscream: Okay, how did he do that? Starscream: Do humans have the ability to teleport? ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Not usually.]] B l u r r: ... Where's the fun in that? Starscream: Then again, neither do we but Skywarp can Fireball: ...what is your name? B l u r r: Life on the run is much more exciting. Bevel: Bevel! Bonecrusher: Instead he's fraggin' around with an fleshy bug that's gonna kill him, he's turned down an offer that would get us outta prison, he's... Fireball: Hello, Bevel. I'm Magnum Ace. Starscream: So did he pretend to drown so he could... bite her? B l u r r: Hnh... sounds lack luster. ItsyBitsySpyers: ((oh god i forgot about this. no, i'm out for a moment, i can't watch what they do)) Bonecrusher: ... He ain't doin' good. Bevel: Nice to meet you. Do you want to watch the movie with us or see if you can find your way back home? B l u r r: ... / tilts helm/ So why do you listen to him? ItsyBitsySpyers: ((okay back)) Fireball: ((wb! Bonecrusher: ... Cuz he's smarter than the rest of us. *But he doesn't sound convinced.* Fireball: The movie's not long, is it? Bevel: Um, I am not sure. Blurr? B l u r r: I don't think so. B l u r r: [[ wb! ]] B l u r r: / looks back at Bonecrusher/ Well. Let me tell you something about intelligence. Sometimes it's not as perfect as you think. Starscream: wooowooo spoopy Fireball: Okay. Then...I think I can stay a bit. We were settling down for the night anyway. Bonecrusher: His is. We've seen inside his head. We know everything about how he thinks. B l u r r: ... / tilts helm a little / You said your friend was Mixmaster? Fireball: Though I think most of the seating was not made for someone my size. Bonecrusher: Yeah. Teammate. 'Nother Constructicon. ItsyBitsySpyers: ((...oh no how small is mag)) B l u r r: / flickers optic/ With Scrapper? Scavenger? Fireball: (( 6'8 ItsyBitsySpyers: ((OH  NO)) B l u r r: [[ SMOL ]] Bonecrusher: ... Scrap's dead. Fireball: ((he's /tiny/ B l u r r: Well, you can sit wherever / turns to Fireball / Honestly, no one will eat you. Today. ItsyBitsySpyers: *Soundwave vents and sits up.* [[If you require assistance getting onto a couch, you may share his.]] B l u r r: ... Yeah? /vents/ I bet yours was better than ours Starscream: Not subtle flirting there Fireball: -well Blurr sounded a bit ominous- Fireball: -and he's glancing around for where the other comment came from, because that was not him- ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Here. In blue.]] Fireball: -curious wave- Hello? You are? Starscream: ugh Bonecrusher: *makes disgusted nova prime noises at the screen* Starscream: Why do human movies have such a fascination with kissing Bonecrusher: Heh. Bet ours was. ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Soundwave. You need not be concerned. He is not a mechannibal.]] B l u r r: / frowns/ Our Constructicons were so annoying. Fireball: A /what?/ Starscream: ew ItsyBitsySpyers: [[A cannibal. The others were joking about that.]] Fireball: -Yep. Ominous- B l u r r: Eugh... disgusting. Bonecrusher: Mm? Bonecrusher: *more disgusted noises* ItsyBitsySpyers: [[It is a joke in poor taste.]] He taps his visor. No mouth. Starscream: ew ItsyBitsySpyers: //Ugh. I shoulda listened when Frenzy said it was fulla fleshies interfacin' 'n stayed home.// ItsyBitsySpyers: //Heh, community chest. Sounds like boxy Boss.// B l u r r: Well of course they do. That's all humans every do. B l u r r: *ever Bonecrusher: ((PFFFF)) Fireball: Okay...I would appriciate some help up to a seat. Bonecrusher: ((that was a quality joke)) ItsyBitsySpyers: ((bows)) Fireball: ((nice ItsyBitsySpyers: *Soundwave offers the flat of his arm as a sort of elevator up.* Fireball: -he's going to pull himself up onto it- Thanks. ItsyBitsySpyers: *Nod. It is not a problem.* B l u r r: Oh, finally. B l u r r: The good part. /shoves a candy in his mouth / B l u r r: Hey, mech, you're sure I can't sneak you some snacks? /glances at Bonecrusher/ I'm not one for rules. Bonecrusher: It'd be better if they got killed WHILE fraggin' instead of after. Starscream: Well then... Bonecrusher: ... Or before. Before's good. Bevel: Before. Then we would not have to watch. B l u r r: Before, after or during. It's all entertaining. Bonecrusher: Yeah. 'Xactly. Fireball: -and he's going to settle where he's been seated- ItsyBitsySpyers: //Ha!// Starscream: yeah but if he had done it during he could get two birds with one stone ItsyBitsySpyers: [[You said you come from an Earth country?]] Bonecrusher: S'not as fun as gettin' to watch 'em die one at a time. B l u r r: True. Starscream: More efficient though Fireball: Yes! I come from Japan. Silver Castle's home is there. B l u r r: ... You know. ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Who is Silver Castle?]] B l u r r: I wouldn't stand there and scream if I was about to get attacked. Bonecrusher: ((that was the lamest horror movie scream ever)) Fireball: A soccer team, part of the Iron League Bevel: ((why didn't you put your clothes back on???? ItsyBitsySpyers: //She ain't puttin' her arm-- uh, her clothes back on?// Bonecrusher: ((she high)) Fireball: Well, mainly soccer Bevel: Humans is scary movies are dumb. Bevel: ((in* Fireball: We've played other sports, like baseball and ice hockey ItsyBitsySpyers: *Soundwave hears 'team' and 'league' and looks to Rumble. Rumble looks back and quickly explains over comm. It's an Eject kind of thing.* ItsyBitsySpyers: //Hold up, I heard baseball.// Fireball: Yes? ItsyBitsySpyers: //You any good?// Starscream: Humans are dumb in general ItsyBitsySpyers: =Agreed.= B l u r r: humans are incredibly stunted in the intelligence department. Fireball: Well, technically Silver Castle is a soccer team, but I was made for baseball Fireball: I'm their main pitcher Fireball: Though Windy is getting the hang of it. ItsyBitsySpyers: //Yeah? You allowed to throw a couple outside games 'n scrap?// Bevel: *learned new thing about baseball, it involves throwing* Fireball: You...want to see me pitch? ItsyBitsySpyers: //No, no, I - I mean, uh. Yeah, I do. Jus'. Not in here. That guy,// Points to Blurr. //He ain't gonna be happy if we break stuff.// B l u r r: Oh, you can break things... Bonecrusher: ... Oh! Hey. I had somethin' t' show... Almost forgot. B l u r r: but, I /will/ break something on you for everything you break. Bonecrusher: *peeks slyly over at Soundwave. Is he still watching Bonecrusher?* B l u r r: / will block the way as best he can / ItsyBitsySpyers: *Is now.* Fireball: .......-yeah, he's not pitching in here, thanks- Bonecrusher: *gulps. shyly waves at.* Hhhhey. Starscream: Maybe you shouldn't split up Fireball: I think I can get footage, if that'll do? ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Hello. Do you require something?]] B l u r r: / tilts helm/ You want a wall between you? /whisper / Bonecrusher: Is, uh. Did Buzzsaw come? ItsyBitsySpyers: //Yeah! Yeah, sure. My brother knows a guy, bet he'd wanna see too. Oh, uh, 'n somebody else.// ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Buzzsaw did not come. He can be here. Unless you want that wall.]] ItsyBitsySpyers: *Twitch glance to Blurr and back.* Bonecrusher: ... Don't worry 'bout it. *slllllouches back down.* Fireball: -grins at that- Good! That I can do, without the risk of damaging something. ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Are you certain...?]] Bevel: Did Buzzsaw stay home? Bonecrusher: *mumblemumble* dunworyboudit. B l u r r: ... /tilts helm. Confused, but. Will continue to sit by Bonecrusher like he's bigger / ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Buzzsaw prefers the clawed human's films. [][][]More creative.[][][] ]] Bevel: Clawed human? ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Yes, the... one with the rhyme, he believes.]] Bevel: Oh. I do not think I have seen those. I only watch horror movies here. B l u r r: Which one with the rhyme? There are many ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Something about never sleeping again.]] Bonecrusher: *dejected slouch. he was excited about showing buzzsaw.* B l u r r: Oh, that's nightmare on elm street. ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Yes, that is the one.]] Wing: ((tiny peek in)) Bonecrusher: *and he cAN'T EVEN EAT DEAD PEOPLE.* B l u r r: / poor bonecrusher / B l u r r: / he will find a way to send you snacks / B l u r r: [[ hiii ]] Fireball: -don't tell this one that it wasn't a joke- ItsyBitsySpyers: *Blurr will get those snacks right back with an angry face scrawled on a datapad.* Bonecrusher: *the OLD head of security didn't care about them smuggling things in.* ItsyBitsySpyers: *In the meantime, someone told a little birdy that someone else wanted to see him. Buzzsaw slowly drifts into the room to perch on Bonecrusher's head.* Bonecrusher: *What the—? Looks up.* Bevel: *will wave to Buzzsaw* Bonecrusher: *Looking up doesn't actually work very well when the thing you're looking for is on your head.* ItsyBitsySpyers: //Quit worryin' about the fraggin' door 'n get the windows.// ItsyBitsySpyers: *Buzzsaw waves a claw at Bevel.* B l u r r: / Blurr will get snacks to his new cannibal friend / ItsyBitsySpyers: }}Hff! Be still.{{ Bonecrusher: Oh! Hey! Ya showed up. Fireball: ... ItsyBitsySpyers: *Soundwave looks to Fireball to see if they're handling the film all right.* Fireball: -Magnum's handling it fine, he's just at a loss on how to comment- ItsyBitsySpyers: }}I did. Did you not expect me?{{ ItsyBitsySpyers: *Chittery chuckling.* Bonecrusher: Naw, didn't think you were comin'. Bonecrusher: Hey! *sits upright.* Hey, check it out, I made upgrades. ItsyBitsySpyers: }}I wasn't.{{ Buzzsaw waves a feeler. }}Have you something for me? I detest these wastes of film.{{ Bonecrusher: *flexes arm.* Look at this. ItsyBitsySpyers: *Buzzsaw floats up again and over to the arm, optic band brightening. What should he be seeing?* Bonecrusher: *Reflecting in the armor over his bicep like a ghost is Senator Ratbat's smug smile.* ItsyBitsySpyers: *BRIGHT* }}Disgusting. Oily as the vorn Primus mistakenly forged him. Beautiful. How? I must know!{{ Bonecrusher: Gets better. I got Proteus on my aft. ItsyBitsySpyers: }}Proteus, Proteus...{{ ItsyBitsySpyers: *Nope. No bells.{{ Bonecrusher: Proteus's Promise? Guy who said if a buncha Decepticons registered as a political party we'd get get a senate seat or somethin' but used the list to hunt 'em down instead. Fireball: . . . Bonecrusher: M'gonna render him makin' out with Sentinel. Cuz they'd hate that. ItsyBitsySpyers: *Hisses.* }}A well-deserved resting place.{{ ItsyBitsySpyers: *Soundwave huffs softly. All things considered, he can't say he disapproves.* Bonecrusher: Anyway. This. *Points at his bicep.* Takes a lotta memory. First ya gotta render models of the senators. I only made four of 'em and I only did busts. Bevel: *can't argue with Bonecrusher either, that bot sounds like a big jerk* ItsyBitsySpyers: //Aw, c'mon! The endin' was good without 'im.// Bevel: Is this gonna have a bad ending like the other ones? ItsyBitsySpyers: }}Yes? Yes? And then? Reflection versus paint, how?{{ ItsyBitsySpyers: [[The other what, Bevel?]] Bonecrusher: Then you gotta set 'em so they're locked near the places you want them to be reflectin'. I got Ratbat floatin' like, here. *points about six inches over his bicep* Bevel: The other scary movies? Where they defeat the big bad but not really. Bonecrusher: And THEN, you set them so they're invisible and ain't solid. ItsyBitsySpyers: //Probably, cause they made bunches more.// Bevel: Boo. Fireball: -now he gets to worry about how he's getting home- B l u r r: I like when the "big bad" makes it. Bonecrusher: But you tell your armor—there's a subroutine in the reflection program that tells it how to reflect other solid matter, since it don't work like the reflection program that reflects real things. B l u r r: It means the heroes have less of a chance. ItsyBitsySpyers: *Voice those concerns, Fireball. You'll get an answer.* Bevel: *kicks the floor with one her heels in protest of this injustice* Bonecrusher: So you just tell it to treat the invisible slag like it's visible. ItsyBitsySpyers: }}And you discovered this alone?{{ Bonecrusher: Naw. Figured out how to get it work in my sleep. Dunno which one of us did it. B l u r r: ... You'd rather the humans fruitlessly mess around and get people killed? Fireball: -give him a moment. everything, including the company, is daunting- B l u r r: / scratches helm/ Though, I'm more a fan of the monster side of things. Bonecrusher: Bet it was boss, he thinks of clever slag like that. ItsyBitsySpyers: }}I imagine. Still! Execution is as vital as planning.{{ Fireball: -eventually taps on Soundwave's arm- Bonecrusher: Frag yeah. And if you stick a hand through where the invisible holograms are it feels all staticky. Like a data ghost. B l u r r: / glances at this smol. / B l u r r: / would totally harvest it, if he could. But, it's maybe a shotglass worth of energon? / ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Hm?]] Looks down at the smol. [[Yes?]] ItsyBitsySpyers: }}Will it reflect?{{ Bevel: *is gonna leave to sulk about bad movie endings because the mun needs to be up early for work* Fireball: -still weird having another voice up in there- How...exactly do I get home? ItsyBitsySpyers: *Soundwave bobs a feeler at Bevel.* Fireball: -waves after Bevel- Goodbye! Bonecrusher: What, the hand? Uh... Bonecrusher: *sticks his other hand through where he hid Ratbat's bust, squints at his bicep armor.* ... Yup. ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Do you possess coordinates to your home? Addresses, star charts, time descriptions...]] Bonecrusher: *... Wiggles a finger out of Ratbat's nose.* ItsyBitsySpyers: *Buzzsaw squawk-laughs.* B l u r r: / vents and grabs another snack to chew / ItsyBitsySpyers: *Ravage paws at Blurr's foot as he passes* Fireball: -Sondwave. Please don't move. Magnum is currently attempting to use you as a buffer between himself and Blurr- B l u r r: /glances at Ravage/ Yes? ItsyBitsySpyers: =Recurring monsters are good. It is a long hunt.= B l u r r: ... /smirks/ You think so? ItsyBitsySpyers: =Mm.= ItsyBitsySpyers: *Soundwave will be perfectly still.* B l u r r: I rather adore monsters, to be honest. Fireball: I have a star chart. I don't know how accurate, but it got me back to my Earth once. B l u r r: / flexes claws/ I aspire to be like the greatest Fireball: -Thank you- ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Give him that and where you intend to return. He will do what he can.]] ItsyBitsySpyers: =Who?= B l u r r: / still staring at Fireball like he's food. / B l u r r: / smiking/ Hnn? Oh, you know. Just the greatest monsters. Fireball: -Blurr, you're unsettling him- B l u r r: / grINS / ItsyBitsySpyers: [[Desist.]] ItsyBitsySpyers: *Shields Fireball with an arm.* Fireball: -phew. Thank you Soundwave- B l u r r: / snickering / B l u r r: /flexes claws / Fireball: -and he's pinging over a starchart, mostly centered around Earth, which is the one he's pointed out as where he needs to go- ItsyBitsySpyers: *The mun is tired and needs to drop out of the chat, but Soundwave is still here, so - assume he spends a few minutes examining it with Chimera's help before handing -- ItsyBitsySpyers: over his contact data (just in case) and attempting a bridge.* Fireball: -Well, it was unexpected, the contact data, but he's hoping the bridge works- Fireball: ((and g'night to the mun)) Bonecrusher: ((assume bonecrusher goes home too. probably before soundwave, since soundwave Lurks.)) B l u r r: [[ i have to open so i gotta go ]] Bonecrusher: ((gnight~)) Bonecrusher: ((GO SLEP)) Fireball: ((and whoever's left, because I am out as well)) B l u r r: [[ ni ni! ]] B l u r r: [[ thanks for coming ]] Fireball: ((thanks for the movie!

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11/15/19 3:33am - goin home, trying new things

So the trip home to see the family was wonderful. Actually I spent a little too long watching TV before leaving and waiting for the gas guy to turn on the heat, so I left a little late and was damn near passing out on the drive over. Had to stop a few times to nap, but made it. Got caught up on The Adventure Zone again. I’m really excited for this new story they’re gonna do, it’s like Harry Potter meets My Hero Academia. Pretty fuckin neato.

But yeah I got there had a beer with my mom and went to the game and froze my fucking BALLS off watching taven play football. ugh jesus. And the poor guys were against a team like 4 times bigger than them, I swear they didn’t get double digit offensive yardage. They’d get an offsides call and start first and 5, hand off the ball to taven three times in a row and he’d pick up 1 yard, 1 yard, -2 yards, and they’d punt it away again. I don’t think I saw a single first down lol. Taven got hurt so we left in the fourth, they were down 77-0 with 10 minutes left -_-

But still, good to see him play lol. It wasn’t about watching a win, it was about being there for him on his birthday. Fuck that sucks though lol. I always hated playing in the cold. 

Most of the weekend I hung out with wes at his and jenny’s place. We did hang out with mom and the fam for a bonfire on saturday, I ate as much guac as I could fit in my face, we had a couple beers, made some fires. It was sweet. Then we played some super metroid before I started passing out.

Sunday wes and I beat the game and went to breakfast. My dad wasn’t around so I drove out to visit JMell in NoVa instead. His place is pretty nice, and we mostly watched some funny youtube videos. Good ol Rack Em Willie and other crackhead vids and this guy Super Sus and general nonsense. Couldn’t go crazy because I needed to make it back for work.

So I drove back. Made it to Jill’s at 2 and she helped keep me awake until I needed to get ready for work because I picked up a daytime shift from 7 to 5. And I slogged through that just fine. Got a raise at work, but like the bare minimum, but I’llll fucking take it. It’s been the exact same as every other time I got a raise I think lmfao. A little extra pocket cash to throw at new toys is nothing to scoff at, though, I need another butt plug and stuff lmfao. 

I was supposed to roll from there to durham to watch the new rick and morty, but I passed out and overslept by an hour instead. fucking hate when my bodily needs get in the way of me trying to hang out with people for 48 hours straight, yknow? Sucks.

But I went to slosh still, had a lovely chill time. Made plans to go home to Jill but ended up bouncing to another bar with a bunch of people there and drank for another hour. Got me in a little hot water, but whatever. Worth it I think lol. I just can’t help myself from hanging out with as many people as long as possible. 

Jill and I woke up at like 2 and hung out most of the day just fucking around watching tv. I bailed to go run some errands and do karaoke. Had to get some epoxy so I could put together my butt plug tail. I finally knocked that out this evening before work, I think it turned out great. Gotta try it out soon :3

But karaoke was quiet. Not a lot of people came out because it was like bitter cold and windy and had been raining all day. So on the plus side I got to sing like five songs. On the downside, I didn’t get to flirt with any new people lolol. An old stripper friend I had made there, Kellene, showed up and we talked about how I was in her dream the night before and chit chatted a bit. Got to sing a little together, I love her fucking voice. But at the end of the night she asked me for some money to help pay for her tab. I was like sure and gave her $8, she said I was sweet asked if I wanted to do anything with her I was like huwhaaa I guess? maybe we make out somewhere? Idk. Then she roams the room around and comes back and asks me for money again and I was like dude I gave you everything in my wallet, you have my $8 right there in your hand. And she says “no this is my $8 I got it from my purse,” while she opens her purse and pulls the rest of the money she needs out of it. I was like... pretty flabbergasted. Like not like floored, more still amused than anything. Drunk people are funny.

Also after I sang some Drake my beautiful bartender Jaime said I should sing Frank Ocean. Killed it singing self control, and she like held my hands and said I love you like she has the past couple weeks. I made a slight mistake and let my curiosity get the better of me. It’s definitely a rule of mine to not ask girls who are working out, but I was just like “look I know this is a little inapprop, but would you want to go out sometime?” and she says “yeah, as friends, definitely.” and I’m like oooooof. She had to take care of another customer so I just walked away from that one. Glad I cleared that up though I really thought she was being flirty and cutesy but I’m just a knucklehead. Could’ve been worse lmfao. 

Anyway, went home with Jill, we hung out all day again watching this mediocre 911 show. Kinda fun at points though. It was mostly nice just chilling with her early since I’d blown her off til really late a couple times in a row. 

Then spice was last night and ho. my. god. It was the normal confection of watching people get beat, not meeting as people this time around because I knew a whole bunch of people that were there already. But I did meet a few. Hung out with the cute boy from the fashion show for a while. We have these like really awkward pauses in conversation though where he doesn’t like ask me anything and I run out of things to say but he’s just staring at me and grinning so intently. Idk, man.  Lol. I was supposed to do a scene that I had talked out with someone, but they unfortunately called in sick. So I thought I wasn’t gonna do anything, but then I ended up chit chatting with Neko and he offered to beat on me that night.

Wowowoww bottoming a REAL impact scene was intense. Like IN. TENSE. like I was thinking about tapping out a few times from the pain of it, but then he’d take a break and scratch me or rub my back and it would just feel so gooooood. By the end I was taking these hits in the back and like shivering with excitement/adrenaline/idk what. He like threw his thigh between my legs while I was up on the cross to support me and started rubbing my back and bit my shoulder and hnnnnng. god I just started lightly scratching and chewing on his arm. I was literally in uncontrollable shivers and giggles afterward, it was actually probably too much lol but I lovvvved it. I feel like I really Get it now. Especially as I sit on my ass covered in bruises today lol. Then my friend Bun squish cuddled me until I came back down to normalcy. Maya and Jill came to watch, actually, they got to see it happen so that was kinda rad. Jill wanted to go dancing at alchemy afterward but I was like no fucking way could I dance after taking that lol. So I drug them out to boxcar with me and we played some galaga and skee ball and foosball and tekken. Me and Jill almost got a shutout on Maya+some rando, and then the randos were like nahhhh so I beat Jill+Maya 2v1. We played again later and I lost the set though. But I was dressed up as a kitty all through boxcar lol, kinda neat. We stayed up til 6am just watching Daria and ranodm youtube shit. 

Slept a long time, almost had a weird fight with Jill, smoothed that over, took a bath for a few hours and I’ve been working. Excited to get off though, but not for any reason in particular. Just fuck work I guess? lol.

I really felt like I needed to write about that impact scene while it was fresh. It’s kinda stuck in my head. :3 

I’ve got emo karaoke in a few days, should be a lot of fun. <3 nothing too exciting coming up though. Having to schedule a bunch of extra work days to appease my boss kinda suckkssss but whatever I’ll take the money lol.

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Today was... okay, I think. I mean, it was mostly okay. I got to school rly early and talked to T a lot and I saw MG in the morning a bit there. He looked rly nice today. Anyway, history class was interesting and after it me, D and AN waited for T to finish her class so we could eat w her and then we ended up going w MG and his friend instead (T showed up later tho). I had asked MG if he wanted to eat w me but he kinda dissed me on snapchat. But we saw him while waiting for T and just kinda went w him. We talked during lunch and then this one music student dude crawled under tables to hide behind my chair. I sat right across MG at the table and I only noticed the dude when MG started laughing. MG moved after a while to sit w those dudes and me and T joined em (T has a crush on the chair dude so when I suggested moving over to where they were she was like nononono but then we did anyway) and. I sat next to MG and idk if he looked at me a lot or not. I think he did. I don’t know why tho. We went back to school together and MG expressed his hatred towards smoking and I just. Didn’t care. I’ve heard it all before. Me and D sat w MG and T and some others before religion class and I had him listen to a Strokes-song and he liked it which makes me rly happy. Rly rly happy honestly. Religion class was fuckin hell though. I got called a tr_nny by the annoying dude in class and he said “you’ll always be a girl to me” which almost threw me into a fuckin panic attack so I left. I went outside and smoked and got something to drink and then I went up, got my things and sat outside at a table and worked. The teacher came and talked to me and then I talked a bit to T and went out and smoked w Z and another guy as company and then I went to digital creations class. It was just me and AS in our group so we were gonna fix the signs in the cafeteria and make em look better but we never found any crayons so. We did nothing. At one point when I was gonna go talk to a teacher about it MG walked by and told me to come with him to his locker and then he literally just said he won an argument w a teacher. Just that. I ended up sitting in the cafeteria for most of the class while AS went out in search of crayons but when he didn’t find any we sat some more and then I joined MG and Z’s classes for English. I helped Z and one of his classmates and then I spent like 40 minutes trying to get MG to go w me home bc JC (i think that’s his name here, idk tho) was gonna go too but I ended up failing p miserably to get him to come. He said he wanted to though, so that’s something. We talked abt relationships bc I said I’d get him a girlfriend if he came w me and he said he could get anyone to fall for him. He told me to name a girl or dude and he’d make them want him and it took so much fuckin willpower in me to not say “me”. So much. Ugh. I just hope I wasn’t too annoying. I probably was. Oh well. We’re gonna hang out on Thursday so it’s okay. Now I’m home and!! I got pants. My dad’s friend gave me some clothes (aka pants and two jackets) and I loooove the jackets. They’re so nice. Kinda disappointed bc only one pair of pants has fit me so far but meh. At least I have more than one pair now.