#probably others that aren't occurring to me rn

[mysticarcanum]

god, eight truly does have an astronomical companion death rate, huh

[hussyknee]

Does our level of emotional investment in our favourite Gazan journalists' wellbeing constitute a parasocial relationship, or is that only if we get creepily invested in their love lives or smth.

[moonswolfie]

When YOU kabedon THEM

let's turn the tables a bit why don't we 😈😈 i was in the mood to write something a little more silly hehe

characters featured: Bokuto, Kenma, Ushijima, Tsukishima

ₓ˚. ୭ ˚ Bokuto Koutaro

He freezes over in shock, literally loses all bodily functions for a second

He looks as if he just got the worst jumpscare of his LIFE

...and then proceeds to go completely red and starts smiling like an idiot

A very lovesick idiot❤

"Hey, aren't I supposed to be the one doing this...?" He sounds oddly quiet

Possibly because his stomach is imploding from butterflies

"Hmm?" You tease him by sliding a finger across his lips, smiling up at him and he makes a weird strangled noise

You don't get it babe, you're murdering him rn

(He totally won't miss all his spikes at practice today because he won't be able to stop thinking about this)

ₓ˚. ୭ ˚ Kozume Kenma

"Ummm..." he is completely lost on what to say or do right now

The thing he probably expected the least to happen today is being pushed against the wall by you

His PSP almost slips out of his hands but he quickly grips it to prevent that disaster from occuring

He doesn't even realise how red he is right now or the weird face he's making

"Ahaha, sorry. You just looked so cute, is all." You smiled, pulling on his cheek

And he is still too shocked to even react or slap your hand away for doing that

Being pushed against a wall in dating games always felt so cliché but...

He has a feeling the loud beating of his heart won't subside anytime soon...

Hopefully no one notices...😏😏

ₓ˚. ୭ ˚ Ushijima Wakatoshi

He is very confused. Why are you pushing him against the wall?

"Are you angry?" He asks, making you... sigh?

"What did I expect... of course you don't get it..." his eyebrows furrowed. What is he missing?

"I want to understand. I want to be a good boyfriend." The serious tone he said that in made you snort slightly

After you explain to him that people usually find being pushed against the wall by their significant other hot...

He simply asks "Do you want me to do that to you?"

(Ignoring the heat that rushed to your face at that thought..)

Do not be fooled by his seeming lack of reaction, he felt a strange feeling in his chest when trapped in between your arms🤭

ₓ˚. ୭ ˚ Tsukishima Kei

"What are you doing?" He hisses behind clenched teeth, eyebrows furrowing

You simply smile, leaning close to his neck, but not kissing it 😈

"S-Stop that..." he feels embarrased at how he's losing his composure because of this

He even stuttered just now... God he hopes he isn't completely red right now (he is)

You let him go, casually walking away while he just kinda... stands there in shock

He will so get you back for this, you cannot get away with flustering him and just walking away like that

[maxtothemax]

crying on the floor rn thinking about zipper and river preening each other's wings for the first time

like okay they're both 15, recovering from The Horrors, and have only recently decided they don't hate each other. river's experience with preening is that he does some of it himself, but he's always had gavin or someone else to help him reach the tough spots. zipper's experience is it's a DIY thing and anything they can't reach themself just… doesn't get preened. even when they were living at the arcade, it just didn't occur to them to ask for help, and then at the foundation they didn't trust anyone enough to ask.

but river has limited arm mobility because of his stitches and injuries, so he begrudgingly decides to ask zipper for help with preening, because he has an annoying feather right where he can't reach. and he's apprehensive, because zipper isn't what he'd call gentle. but they're careful not to hurt anything, even when dealing with the pin feathers, making sure the preening oil gets where it's supposed to. river is pleasantly surprised that they're so thorough.

afterwards, he badgers them into letting him preen them, because they've both been through hell in the past few weeks and he knows their wings haven't gotten any maintenance, either. zipper begrudgingly lets him. they're really tense and jumpy at first, but he's just as careful with them as they were with him. and he notices that their wings aren't very well-groomed, especially near their back where they can't reach, and it suddenly hits him that they've probably never had anyone preen them before. and he doesn't say anything, because he doesn't want them thinking he feels bad for them, but he's sort of thinking, "oh, yeah, i'd probably be snappy and irritated all the time if i didn't have anyone to help me with pin feathers and stuff."

and they're both just quiet while he works on zipper's wings, but river knows in the future he's definitely going to bother them into letting him preen them again.

[grahamcarmen]

Nothing making my eyes roll all the way back in my head more rn then " he doesn't deserve her but -" in reference to any type of relationship they could have [usually to the tune of him returning to being the " like a big brother" she used to think he was and completely ignoring the *everything*]

Its so off handedly dismissive of gray and by proxy carmen for caring about him I hate it

Do I understand hating the double down decisions? Sure. but like wow its almost like hes literally the one who got shot FOR her sake BY her after thinking he would be left with nothing but a [hey she made it]

and then people start pulling the *deserve card for a [ I GUESS they probably can acknowledge they give a shit about each other or smth as a lil bow, maybe continue the same old same ol']

Because Heaven forbid carmen actually have to fully go through a complex thought about a dynamic that wasn't as simple as her side or nothing at all when how it ended currently was her side and nothing [because wattya know he probably has feelings about this whole thing that aren't so simple and double forbid his feelings be allowed to be more complicated than gee wilikers im ready to be the brosef i guess you wanted me to be. 😒barf.]

CARMEN values his past kindness and she decides. This person is important to her. She wants him to be with her.

her reaction to him

* getting what he deserves* is to break down

[Which I guess side note: 🙄there ya go. what a VILE agent might "deserve" canonically all done.]

saying he doesn't deserve her caring???

Bro HE GOT ELECTROCUTED

AND the phrase is a mild stab at carmen at literally any point even when they're guarded [mildly still nostalgic] towards each other like in the pilot because SHE IS THERE BECAUSE SHE WANTED TO SEE IF HE COULD BE ON HER SIDE AGAIN, KNOWING! WHAT HE WAS CAPABLE OF.

She still thought he deserved* that much at least.

And she still has affection for him even when it looks like he's someone who doesn't *deserve* it

She wants to be allowed to care.

Like sometimes

Love&affection =/= only to those who deserve it

Like sometimes -

Its just something someone wants to give [and hey look its almost like he ends his current arc giving back to her as well] and the phrase "doesn't deserve but I guess -" just -

Just -

Youtube look straight into my eyes and explain why it occurs to you to think that that is what I love seeing on my browsing experience

[ceilidho]

Hey ceilidh!! This is not me being an anti or any of that dumb shit, I just wanted to ask you if there might be any other tags for your most recent ghoap x reader! I saw the non-con/dubcon, NSFW, etc. But when I scrolled through the reblogs and comments it seems a little more than that? I'm just asking because I do love your works and am okay with non-con/dubcon, but sometimes other dark themes that are parallel with that freak me out. So I just wanted to ask, cause I love your writing, but I really don't need to freak myself out rn 😅

no that's a fair question to ask!!! hmm.....dubcon/noncon were the biggest tags (for how Ghost treats Soap and some implications for reader later on and how he sees her).

if you want a teensy bit more info, i'm putting it below the read more:

there's no graphic violence at all, no blood or anything like that. there's no penetrative sex either, just frottage/handjobs and then some super light comeplay (Ghost sticks his fingers in Soap's mouth). they spar a bit, but there aren't any injuries. the dubcon/noncon tag also applies to the way Ghost talks about the reader character (he tells Soap that she's also his and he has a right to her, sort of thing, very possessive and nasty)

NEXT chapter will have actual penetrative sex (piv for soap/reader and anal for ghostsoap) and i'm still undecided on how i want that part to play out, but i'll give ample warnings beforehand.

i tend to not write the extremer side of noncon if that helps? i prefer the weird nebulous middle ground personally, so you probably won't ever read a fic of mine that has very graphic noncon/rape in it (even "catch and release" teeters on the edge but i never quite push it over - in MY personal opinion, for some people even that is too much, which i get, but i personally think i tend to hover in between dubcon and noncon idk). anyway, i overtag for a reason because i don't want to catch people off guard, but i personally think i'm overstating how dark my fics are tbh.

idk if this helped but if there are any specific triggers for you, you can always ask me privately and i can tell you if it's in there, because it might have not even occurred to me to look out for something!

[growandrecover]

I’m really struggling to accept my body because it feels like everywhere I look I see people smaller than me. All my friends are smaller than me, my parents and sister are smaller than me. I feel like most of the people I see on the street are smaller than me. It just feels like I must be doing something wrong if other people can be smaller than me without even trying to be. Like I should be trying to be like them.

Hey, Anon.

I have been exactly where you are, and sometimes still struggle with this. You're not alone.

My childhood best friend is much smaller than I am, and she always has been. I grew up comparing myself to her, and I catch myself doing it all these years later. As we've gotten older, two things have occurred to me in terms of comparing my body with hers:

She and I have very different genetic makeups. I could try every diet in the world and work out like my life depends on it, but I'm never going to look like her. It's just not going to happen. Not only is my family made up of really tall people, but our families are from opposite sides of the world. People are built differently everywhere you go, and that's a beautiful thing.

She's told me within the last year or so that she's uncomfortable in her body as well. She's listed off a few things that I won't put on the internet just for the sake of her privacy, but just because someone has the body we desire for ourselves doesn't mean they're happy with it.

Now as far as your family goes, here's my experience that may or may not be helpful:

my sibling and I both share the same mother and father, and while it's obvious in a lot of ways, we're built differently. They're at LEAST two heads taller than I am, and naturally more muscular.

Yes, we have similar DNA, but we're just different.

As for my parents, I'm a mixture of the two. My father is very tall and naturally skinny, while my mother is about average height and probably naturally average weight for her height.

Comparing your body to your parents and sister may seem like an obvious thing to do because you're related, right? (been there myself)

I know you know this, but both you and your sister are mixes of your parents and every ancestor they have ever had. No matter how much you may or may not look alike, the two of you aren't the same combinations. You're you, and she's her.

When you go everywhere and see people smaller than you, I want you to look a little bit harder. I used to think the same way too, but once I started paying a little bit more attention (i.e., more than just "wow, they're so skinny"), I noticed that the people around me were just average people, just like me. I was the one hyper focused on what everyone looked like. I promise, everyone around you is not smaller than you.

Another thing you could try is noticeably looking for something different about the people you're comparing your body to. My therapist in treatment suggested I look at their eyes because it makes them more human apparently. So notice what color their eyes are. What shade are they? Do you know someone with a similar shade? Or you could try to notice their hair. What color is it? How do they have it styled? etc etc

I'm not 100% sure how to respond to this, and I wrote this a few days ago and left it in the drafts to be sure this is what I wanted to say. I hope this is at least a little bit helpful? If this is not what you're looking for, please feel free to reach out again and spell it out for me 😅 I'm super sick rn and a little bit out of my mind hahaha

I know what you're going through, and I really hope it gets better for you, anon.

[go-to-the-mirror]

howdy howdy howdy, some good words, mostly rambling, one (1) reaction image bc I'm Sad About Jon Constantly All The Time. Content warnings for like, most things in the episode because I'm pulling quotes, and also existential fear (the state of the world rn) because I went on a little extinction ramble.

@a-mag-a-day

Case 9550307 – Wallis Turner. Incident occurred at the North Point prisoner of-war camp, then later the sunken ship Nemesis in late 1942. Statement taken 3rd July 1955 at the Pu Songling Research Centre, Beijing. Committed to tape 9th October 2014. Gertrude Robinson recording.

Jon, I love you, but Gertrude's way of introducing statements is way better. Although she did intentionally leave the archives in disarray so...

Like, I mean, in an ideal world, you'd be able to search for statements by people who appear in them and places and notable things that happen, and then... idk I just, alright like, I want to just, learn how to code so I can make myself a little website and organize the statements and then my little rat brain who just wants to sort things out will finally be appeased

Even if it’s just sleep, just a quiet nothing forever, it’s not like you know enough to be bored, is it?

Fun fact about yours truly, that's one of the parts of death that scares me the most! I cannot handle being bored, it's just... no, I can't do it. And boredom forever? No end in sight? I hope there is an afterlife so that I don't have to deal with that.

Worse than that is just... nothing, just an end, and I don't really like to think about that.

Sergeant once told me it’s no different from killing a chicken back home, but people aren’t chickens, and the idea that war strips us all down to just a body that moves and kills, or falls and dies, makes me feel sick to my stomach.

Fear soup! This is pretty Flesh.

I could feel my pulse quicken, like it wanted to match the tempo, though I’ve no idea why. I should have been confused, scared maybe, and I guess I was, but I could also feel my fingers tap-tap-tapping away to the beat.

Right, alright, The Slaughter and music thing makes sense to me now. It's about the... I called it group project violence? That but serious. I know The Hunt was the mob mentality episode, but like... idk, I'm not sure. Something about the music in these episodes, Jane's song of the Hive, luring you in, entrancing you. The song of the Web, making you dance to its tune. The song of the Slaughter, getting caught up in the rhythm of it all.

There's something there, I can't exactly articulate it.

[...] just before the trumpet began to drift over the waters just a few yards beyond the walls.

woodwinds against trumpets 2023

And when they were lying still and the music stopped and night was quiet again, that’s when I heard the sound that really chilled my blood. All my comrades, my fellow prisoners, cheered. And it wasn’t the cheer of those glad for freedom, it was the sound of bloodlust and cruelty.

the slaughter feels like the least... spooky of all the fears to me. like, of course, there's a lot of war ghosts, and uncontrollable urges to do violence among other things, but the thing about the slaughter really feels like human and stuff. like, all of them are, not necessarily human, but influenced by the fear of mortals -- and probably those weird jellyfish, too -- but the slaughter feels different.

also, may I just say a thing? a few of the entities aren't really made manifest by that thing happening. like, sure, the eye is the fear of being watched -- among many other things -- but you know what really breeds paranoia? not being sure if you're being watched or not. the end is the fear of death, and yet victims of the end are commonly just told when the end will come for them. the slaughter is the fear of violence in a slaughter-y way and not a hunt or desolation-y way, and a lot of the slaughter's fear comes from witnessing the violence, or dreading it.

thus the extinction manifesting wouldn't end the world, because it would be a world without fear -- like maybe it would replace humans with spooky inheritors -- but honestly I think it would be enough just to give us the knowledge, the constant dread that there are people more powerful than us who can end the world with a decision, or trash the environment knowing full well what the consequences are. I think it would be enough to look at the doomsday clock and see that we're 90 seconds to midnight. but make it spooky.

woo! existential fear! hopelessness and helplessness! i know, i know, don't give up, people can cause change, but also I am one (1) tiny little guy.

Leonard was the first to dance. Well, I think of it as a dance, though I don’t know why. He reached over and grabbed another one of the former prisoners, a scrawny guy, I think his name was Milton. He gave a cry of anger that I could never have imagined coming from his gentle, smiling lips even in the head of battle. There was nothing Milton could do. Even malnourished as he was, it was easy for Leonard to snap his arm like a twig, twist his neck until his leg spasmed and his skull started to crack. Even when his victim was clearly dead, he kept beating it, tossing the corpse across the deck with as much ferocity as if it were the most hated man alive. The bloody crew of the Nemesis watched, their eyes riveted and their feet tapping to the music.

First of all, I love the way Jonny writes violence, it feels so visceral, I don't know, just the way he describes it. It's good. 10/10.

Secondly, I've danced in like a group but like a community sort of group not a lot of times, but I have acted, and it feels similar. Like, I don't know. Something about being on stage, the lights almost blinding you, it feels invigorating, it feels like you're being swept up in something. Idk, like that scene in Mama Mia where Sophie meets all three of her dads in one dance, and then passes out.

Yeah idk.

Few wars in my lifetime have reached anywhere the near the heights of fear I suspect this ritual would need, though I did spend some time a while back looking over some details from the Cuban Missile Crisis to no avail.

Nah, mate, the cold war's a feast for the extinction! (however, soup)

Anyway, point is, you can probably discount The Slaughter. It had its chance.

I forgot these tapes were supposed to be for her successor.

oh... hmnr. and they didn't help... this one told them outright how to stop The Unknowing, there was probably one going into more detail about it. The tape she intended the Archivist to hear as soon as they got the job... well, we all know what happened to that.

That's just... sad to me.

I feel like I’m on a deadline, like I’m running out time, somehow. And I don’t even know where to go, what to look for, or—

THIS! THIS IS WHAT SEASON 4 FEELS LIKE! Weirdly stressful, despite not clearly having a... point, something to... do, it feels like that feeling you get when you're so... bored or understimulated that you're just pacing around trying to find something to do, and you can't find anything to do! And it's like, aaaaa.

That's season 4.

(oh, also, for the last time the watcher's crown was in the past, the mass ritual doesn't have a canon name and when asked, Jonny tentatively said "The Magnus Archives" however of course that's word of god and the author is dead so take it as you will, however please do know that it's not the watcher's crown)

Daisy’s got me listening to The Archers. I hate it. But it feels nice to hate something that can’t hurt me. I don’t know. That’s it, I, I guess. End recording.

[ID: A drawing of someone sitting at a computer crying.]

I'M JUST SAD. "It feels nice to hate something that can't hurt me." HHHHH HES REALLY BEEN THROUGH THE WRINGER HASN'T HE D:

right, uh,

this is over ig.

[fangirl-erdariel]

Ok this is just me overthinking things that were never meant to be thought through and are just a result from the Shire being inspired by a much more recent time period than the rest of Middle-Earth, but. It just occurred to me that in both the Hobbit and the LOTR, there's a mention of there being a clock on the mantelpiece in Bag End.

Which just makes me wonder who made it? Like, correct me if I'm wrong, but my impression is that clockmaking historically was (and still is) a highly skilled, specialized trade that required a lot of specialist tools, plus pieces of clockwork are quite small, intricate, and need to be made very precisely to be useful/function right.

So I just wonder, were clocks something that hobbits imported from dwarves? After all, dwarves seem to have that level of craftsmanship that I'd find it plausible for them to have the know-how to make clocks. And we know that dwarves did sometimes travel through the Shire, and Blue Mountains, which aren't unreasonably far from the Shire, still had some dwarf cities by the end of the Third Age, so trade between hobbits and dwarves seems plausible in terms of that too. But on the other hand, at least as far as I recall, the dwarves don't seem to have/use clocks themselves, or have any other clockwork-based mechanisms in regular use, which kind of speaks against this theory. On the other other hand, though, we don't really get to know a lot about dwarves or their technology, so the fact that we don't know any examples of them undeniably having clockwork-based mechanisms in use might not mean much.

Or did the hobbits invent mechanical clocks themselves? As a people, they're not really known for skill at craftsmanship, so one could argue that clocks would have been beyond their skill, but they have to have had the skill and knowledge to make at least everyday things required, from scythe-blades and door hinges to watermill parts and such, as well as equipment needed to make those, because having to import those would not be very practical. And all things considered, aside from a few specific instances, Shire was left in relative peace for most of its history, and looks to have on some occasions weathered troubled times better than most other societies in the same part of the continent. So that prosperity would give people the time and leisure to tinker and try things out and innovate, so maybe at some point some hobbit with the necessary skill set tinkered out of curiosity with the right things to come up with clockwork mechanisms, and someone else at some point figured out how to make it useful, or something

And then there's of course the borderline crack theory possibility that the Númenoreans had some technology similar to the Antikythera Mechanism, and that knowledge/technology remained among the dúnedain in Arnor long enough for the hobbits to get it from them, decide they didn't really have that much use for knowing the positions of the stars in the sky on a given date in the future, but they found a way to build on top of the technology to make a clock for showing the time of the day, and the technology was lost among northern dúnedain when Arthedain fell, or something. But this one opens up the possibility that the technology was not lost in Gondor and was possibly improved upon/taken to its own direction there, and I don't want to be the one to try and go through the possibilities that could lead to

Anyway, please tell me your theories on this and feel free to build on this, this is just dumb rambling without any head or tail about things I was probably never meant to think this much about in the first place, because I'm procrastinating on actually doing any useful shit rn, but I was just randomly struck with the thought of "hold on, where did hobbits get clocks from anyway when no one else seems to have them?", so, yeah. If you have thoughts or headcanons on how common clockwork-based mechanisms are in various cultures in Middle-Earth, I'd be curious to hear them :D

[justablah56]

*sighs* tell me about your fursona /lh /pos

ok first off- Vik is that you 👁️👁️ you're the only one who I know has seen my fursona recently sbjsjdjs either that or it's rae who saw it on your blog and didn't interact w it so I wouldn't think it was him if they went on anon lmao- but methinks its vik

okay now I'm gonna actually answer- bUT INSERT THAT ONE ENTRAPTA MEME- THE "IVE WAITED Y E A R S FOR SOMEONE TO ASK ABOUT MY THEORIES" YEAH THATS ME RN- anon I am looking at you with my big ol autistic eyes that are sparkling with this 10 minute unstoppable rant that is about to occur (✧⁠ω⁠✧⁠)

SO ! ampen right ? my little guy ? my baby girl ? my beloved ? I'm gonna talk mostly abt their physical design than their other details bcs I have more notes abt their physical appearance than anything :]

I have no idea what they are, I kinda just started drawing her abhdjsjsj but I think the two most notable animals he could conceivably be are probably a fox and a dragon of some sort (original I know) however I do want to give an honorable mention to my first draft of them, bcs goddamn I changed a lot abt her bsjdhsjjs. at first he was just completely a dog but I decided to give them those 3 fingered claw/hoof things, here's the very sketchy guy herself who inspired Ampen:

yeah snndjsn basically the only thing that stayed the same was the vague color scheme and the "hooves" changed from the hands to the feet. a lot of ampens physical design was just cool things I saw in other fursuits that I thought would be cool, like I just loooove the hoof feet, they look v cool and I just like them a lot, so I included them ! (I didn't in my first real drawing of ampen but then I did on their character sheet) same with the tail, I'm p sure at the time of ampens actual creation I had recently seen a dragon fursuit with that kind of tail and was obsessed with it, I tried so many different tails for him and none of them were looking quite right until I tried their current tail, and I love it . the dragon bit also comes out in her muzzle, it's a bit more pointed and sharp than a canine muzzle would be, again mostly just bcs I think it looks neat :] and I knew I wanted my fursona to have big ol ears from the very beginning, I didn't put them on ampen-rough-draft bcs I didn't start with the intent for him to be my fursona sbjdjdjs but anyways- the fur pattern took me a while to come up with, I started with just vague splotches of color in random spots, messed around with specific colors, I don't think I decided on the pink stitch mark things until like- the very end dnjsjjd I have no idea where I came up with it , I was just trying random things and hoping they looked right lmao-

I gave them glasses bcs . I have glasses . and I think it's cute and there aren't enough furrys with glasses :3 then added the piercings bcs I think they look cool and that's really it bajshjejskwks

anyways , now for the couple things that aren't visible on a drawing, I imagine her being like 5'4 MAX , he's pretty short . mostly bcs I am v short and plan to actually make ampen, and that's a height I could realistically get to accounting for the ears hdjwjdjjejdke anyways, I don't really have many other little facts about them since they're basically just me personality-wise, so make of that what you will ! I will however GLADLY answer more specific questions if you (or anyone else 👀) have them bcs it will give me an excuse to come up with answers abhdjsjdjsjjd

anyways- this is all to say that I'm in love with Ampens design and I really should draw him more often and also probably just develop them more tbh- BUT ! ty v much anon for enabling me to ramble about Ampen, they're my most specialest little guy and I love her <33

[sapphic-story]

this post got me really thinking about the set rules in the Slips of the Stars universe with the time stuff so here's a bit of what I consider the way it works:

Slips of the Stars definitely leans more time loop radical than time loop purist

The loops aren't entirely the same every day! they're very similar and end in the same general results occur but there are definitely variations and the further from the first loop they are the more variations there are. this is in part because...

There is a finite ticking clock that's tied to permadeath for everyone. the apocalypse happens every day! this is fine. what isn't fine is that after a while the loops start to leak into each other, and the weather gets really fucky, and it seems like the fabric of time is kind of...tearing apart. uh oh!

There's a narrative/characterizations reason for the loops happening, but I don't really have a magic or sci-fi reason rn tbh. maybe it'll be added...maybe not lol

Multiple characters are aware of the loops. Additionally, characters can be made aware of the loops and keep that awareness under certain circumstances. Slips doesn't figure this all out until way later

The loops always happen in a day, and they're death-to-death (probably). The loops are death-to-death because they always happen in a day. Slips is literally incapable of surviving until the next day until they break the loop

Nothing physical can be taken intentionally from loop to loop, and intentional changes don't carry over. However, as the loops continue, some things may unintentionally leak over into other loops.

I don't think Slips actually goes through, like, thousands or hundreds of loops because of the ticking clock element. I have yet to decide how many occur, but I think it's definitely going to be under, like, 45.

may be updated when I think of some more! I've only watched a few movies on that post (Groundshog Day, Palm Springs, Russian Doll) so I really want to watch those and maybe take some more inspiration in how they do things haha

[hamliet]

I know emotional energy plays a heavy role in shipping and character relationships, but do you think that emotional energy can become a substitute for looking at subtext and intention?

Is portraying a relationship that is more rooted in comfort (sorry i don't know how else to describe this rn lol) a bad thing? I guess this is a matter of personal preference too, but I was curious about your thoughts

Hi!

To answer your questions: maybe, no, exactly.

I'm going to start with the "exactly." Yes, it has to do with personal preference, 100%. A comforting ship appeals less to me than a challenging one.

That said, no, it's absolutely not inherently a bad thing.

However, I will say that it very, very much depends on the kind of story being told, on its themes, on the characters involved. Different dynamics suit different stories. In addition, comfort and conflict aren't mutually exclusive. I actually ride or die for "we've tried to kill each other, and so you're the one who knows more of me than anyone else, so I can turn to you in more ways than I can with anyone else."

For example, in RWBY, Ren and Nora are comforting childhood friends to lovers. But they still challenge each other in some ways (trying to allow the other to find who they are, etc.) As two kids raised alone with only each other to cling to, presented to the audience as a pair even before we delved into their pasts, the comfort aspect really works for their relationship. It's not my favorite RWBY ship, but I absolutely ship it because it works so well for their characters and for RWBY's themes about growing up.

In regards to emotional energy as a substitute, are you asking if fans can misread emotional energy for deliberate teasing or intentional foreshadowing? I apologize if I misunderstand this, and feel free to clarify! If this is what you mean, then yeah, I agree.

Writers can and do bait fans sometimes (cough, Zutara, even Black Sun). But fans can also misread/watch the story. I also do not think Kiribaku has any textual basis, but hats off to shippers, go for it.

For example, and this ties nicely into the "comfort vs conflict" idea about shipping: in RWBY, I do not ship Ruby and Penny, and it never even occurred to me that they were heading in that direction until fans started acting like it was set in stone, which I found baffling. I've written about the coding of said characters a bunch of times, so the retcon aspect is a part of it, but another aspect of it is that Ruby is comforted by everyone around her. Unlike Nora or Ren, she has a sibling with her, and her uncle. She's not someone who has been lonely and never had a friend besides Penny. Now, of course they had a special friendship, I'm not denying that. The point though is that her friendship with Penny wasn't a challenge to Ruby's worldview.

In fact, no one really challenges Ruby consistently, except Weiss, Qrow, and Oscar. Qrow's challenge isn't a positive challenge either, plus he's her uncle. Weiss does challenge Ruby, and honestly her platonic relationship with Ruby is probably one of the most important in the entire series, but there's no explicit romantic coding, while there is with Oscar. Ruby needs to grow since she's the main protagonist, and her struggle isn't about a lack of comfort or home, but instead a need to find the lost and do whatever she can to protect the world. It's what that protection looks like that she needs to mature in, and that's where the likes of Oscar comes in.

[gedwimora-arc]

She HATES this. Every fibre of her being is telling her to leave, push him out a window or at least keep him at the end of a more literal sword. But giving into any of those urges would be a show of incredible weakness. Like keeping Yrre with her to comfort her with his own solid menace would have been a sign of weakness, that she feared him enough to need a bodyguard. As it stands it takes all her training for court and bitterly gained hardness to remain anything close to seeming unaffected. Even as her insides constrict painfully. 

I wish he were Theon. It comes sudden and unbidden, the constriction on her lungs amplifying 10 fold. But if he were Theon this conversation wouldn’t be happening. For all she loved the youngest Greyjoy she couldn’t picture him leading the ironborn anywhere, save maybe the nearest brothel. Still, he would have been a comfort, a known element to the enemy side. His older brother on the other hand is true ironborn, the ocean so deeply ingrained in him that she can smell it on him at times, in the leathers that will never forget being drenched again and again. It sends her blood cold.

She’s likely been quiet a moment too long at this point. Not sure what to say, how to do this. How did Robb do it? Be King? But Robb had help Mother and Lords, her own advisors are a barely leashed murderer and a spy with no network-- neither of who are here to save her from her own locking up. Shit. With considerable effort she takes a breath, her mind turning to the Kings in the crypt at home, as it often does when she has to command, or appear as if she can. A statue cannot be frightened, stone cannot be hurt, a dead king cannot be killed. The vice on her lungs slackens just a bit.

“ Despite the differences between our people and conflicts of the past, I think that now -- in this moment -- we can agree that this once at least, our purposes run parallel. Independence. To that end, I know if we put aside our past enmity for a time and come to an understanding we present a truly terrifying front.”

 “ WINTER IS COMING-- and I mean that literally, not to be dramatic. The snows are already settling in, sending a southern army up north now would be suicide. Trying to fight northerners with one in the North in winter is insanity. And that’s assuming they can make it through the Riverlands and past the Neck, a difficult task as is with how chaotic they are currently. It would be even more so if every river is full of ironborn and leaving your port a forgone death sentence. ”

 “ The majority of Northmen loath the Boltons and will leap at chance to be rid of them after what they’ve done and no one wants your uncle on the seastone throne and no one with self respect wants to be ruled by the Lannisters by way of a bastard child. And that’s just scratching the surface of it. ”

LYARRA: starter for @azmenka​

[dontwanderoff]

so ive reblogged a few writing prompts and i have more in this tag if anyone wanted to send me any 👀

[astrojoy]

did you see what @flavaflavbutitznyork said about you 👀

No I didn't, I checked it out tho

I don't really feel like I need to give a reason since it's my blog and I can choose who I want to see on tumblr. Straight up, I don't block anyone without reason. That blog may not know why but I don't expect them to. I work off of observation and my sense of sight. Sometimes energy or psychic guidance paves my road too. I don't need to tell anyone when and why I block a certain blog. Most people don't care, as we're all people vibing on tumblr and have better things to do. And no, they haven't said anything to me, not from what I can remember or recall. I have eyes though. I'm not blind. Just because someone doesn't interact with me doesn't mean I don't browse and observe blog interaction within the community and other ones

Btw, I confirm, I love positivity

Coming from someone who's had a life surrounded by quite the contrary such as myself, you'd expect as much. Blocking a blog doesn't instantly mean something negative, especially when you don't know the reason why. At that point it's just assuming. Someone could argue, "The reason can't be positive tho" but it's not negative either. Sure, no one would understand without me going into detail, however I'm not here to make anyone understand either. I have my own reasons and it's just that. It's simply a preference based on my personal reasonings that I don't feel like discussing rn. It's like, 11 pm bro ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ id much rather eat dinner and work on my next tarot pac. I've wasted enough time on this as it is 💀

I have no beef with anyone,

Just a simple block, that as I've stated above, is due to what I've observed from afar. I also don't toss blocks around like confetti, I rarely block people and I've only blocked around 3 maybe 4??? I can't remember tbh but it wasn't much. It doesn't have to be a major or minor reason either. If I saw something that didn't sit right with me, I'm not going to force myself to see a possibility of future occurence. I simply move on. I guess some people may take it to heart but I had no ill intent, as you can see, I haven't mentioned these 2 blogs or started some elaborate post on them when I did it

But then again it doesn't matter

If you get upset over someone blocking you then you probably need better things to get upset over. It's tumblr. I'm a user like anyone else. I have preferences too. If someone gets mad at me blocking someone and their mutual its a bit silly 😂

PS - I don't know who you are and its totally chill that you brought it to my attention. You could be an amazing person and that's beautiful ☺💖 but I will add, someone warned me out of fear that there's apparently fake accounts going around and into the asks of some other content creators and inching in asks that may seem quite similar to this one that seem sketchy (sorry if you aren't that person, it just came off odd ig 🤣) If you are that person (only) then stop trying to start unnecessary drama, its childish. Find a hobby or go out and explore if you can :) There's much more relaxing ways to release energy 🥰

If you are a genuine person with no bad intent and actually concerned, this was my response, stay safe and have a wonderful day 🫂✨

[queer-full-of-fear-18]

Ep4 gave me all the feels: the good, the bad, the ugly the cute and the sexy

First off wanna mention that I love the way the story is progressing -arbeit I'm annoyed at how its occurring BC these chapters be doing dumb shit but at the same time thungs happen and they make sense. I also like how events previously affects current events - like were all sitting here being like: its so fucking clear Lian is in live with you Kuea dummy BUT flashback to the conversation in ep1 and through Kuea's eyes this relationship is purely transactional - Lian does not love him and so all these moves Lian's been playing feel like hes trying to control Kuea

Kuea looks so sad the entire time, to the point he cries in the car remembering the argument - I'm his mind this is not romantic but controlling and I think deep down Lian is aware of this and is probably not having a good time bacuse of it

I agree with what Yi says, Lian's intentions are there just his execution may not be what he wants it to be - side note Lian and Yi's friendship is so funny their banter is A tear.

That flash back really hit me - the date feels suffocating and staged, Kuea cute voice sound s genuine but also a bit forced and is upset at the fact Lian won't be there for his birthday. I think its a running theme that Kuea is hard to please from Lian's perspective, but from his chacterisation Kuea isn't really - all he wants in Lian's love and approval and so everything else is truly frivolous - he may be a rich kid but he doesn't seem all that materialistic.

Speaking off while I thought it was funny the way the had him crying over having to leave Quilin (you know the motorcycle) it shows how he deeply cares for the things he has and how he thinks the things he cares about (making music and performing as Kirin, the motorcycle, his personality...) aren't something Lian approves of - and so this feds Kuea's insecurities of not being good for Lian.

Side note n2 - the plushy conversation is both funny and sad bc it really drives the point home that this whole thing to Kuea is just a way to take him away from the things in his life he loves amd control him - a running theme is that Kuea 'misbehaves' - the real misbehavior is really him hidding everything form Lian; but Kuea takes it like his entire person is a problem , hence his cut boi persona on dates with Lian.

He leaves everything, saying goodbye to his motorcycle, telling Jay he's not sure when hell come to perform, and tells someone (I'll get to that) be wont be making music for a while. Aside from school Kuea basically puts hair entire life on hold for a guy that in his mind doesn't love him, even tho he does love lian Bc he's surronded himself with it EVERYWERE: His stage name Kirin, comes from Quilin (his motorcycles name) which is derived from Lian's name or smth, he drinks the water from his company, the photo shrine, the plushies, all of the effort put into being cute boi Kuea like shit no wonder this boy started crying. (That scene ficking broke me Nunew is a great cryer like shit king go off)

Speaking of Lian, he is so fine and that beginning conversation is surface level full of sexual tension but is also some game of 4D chess as he has rapid fire combacks to everything Kuea says - witty bitch. I wonder what his plan is about the while drunken Kuea situation,bc I have no idea what the play is. Him calling Kuea's mom is kinda genius but its not doing him alot of favors - he seeems to wanna rip out the truth out of Kuea and I agree with Yi on if that's the best idea here...we will have to see...

On to the others characters, shoutout to best boi Foei love that guy.

Wtf is up with Jay? First off obligatory Perth is so fuking fine uhghhh 😩😩😩 second like whats his relationship with Lian like dude knows im so sused on him rn🤨

SPEAKING OF SUS - NUEA

But before that, gotta also mention I love Kuea squad so much - them and Diao give Kuea such a great support system I'm sure he needs and like great bros. Syn is so cute and funny I love him and him and I both get hella sus vibea from Naea but also he so SECC WTF ABSBSB Like he's is so fine

But he is very much flirting and his friends (legends) assuming Kuea is probably not getting tired cuz he's such a nice dude - Syn really went "he don't want ur drink bitch he taken" legend behavior

So yeah we learned that the squad was not told about the ,were not engaged' drama yikes😬and Kuea storms off upset (as he was already anyway) and Naue tries to follow him- Syn said not today bitch leave him alone

all I know about Nuea is 1) he wants to get with Kuea for some reason (either money/status or a lost childhood friend perhaps? My bets on money right now) and 2) HE IS VERY CHARISMATIC AND HOT and is very aware of the fact and thus uses him to his advantage - he fucking hot sexy evil villan tells Syn thank you for bringing up the topic to learn that Kuea is 'single' which is a plot point that will be brought up later I'm sure - which makes me think how these two are gonna end up together since Syn is slowly but surely falling for his charm (his red cheeks and the friends reactions and comments had me on the floor 😂)

DIAO YI NATION HOW WE FEELLING we learn more about them and I have more questions that answers - they live together but are not engaged but are they dating? By the way Yi explained it to Lian of "it doesnt matter if I love him or not" my guess is no - which Yi u fuck u love him shut up. Diao seems to be on a similar bout to Kuea here of assuming Yi doesnt love him. From the conversation I can only guess Yi may have caused Diao harm in some way, which seems to have affected his memories? Which also means that Diao does not rember this accident and or that it was Yi's fault (according to him) - but it certainly explains Yi's panic protection of Diao so he gets a pass

The fucking look in Yi's eyes when he looked at Diao in that class? His 'you even have a black belt' stapo I'm *cries* who's cutting onions?😭😭😭i wonder if Yi even knew Diao was teacher - he offhandedly mentions tutoring someone for English I think? Which might be what he tells Yi when in reality this is what hes doing (technically still teaching just not the same thing exactly) - Diao seems to really easily lie to Yi, even when he knows Yi seems to HATE liars; I wonder if Diao lies more for Yi's sake, to have him be calm and not worry about his safety..

who the hell was Kuea talking on the phone about his music/yt channel ? A producer or a manager perhaps? I also wonder why Lian would want to give Pentagon to Kuea - we call him spoiled but its not as if hes lazy, he works hard in school and gigs as Kirin are basically a job and he could probably get a really high paying job once he's done with school since it seems like such a niche - his class is small and doesnt seem exactly easy...so why give him Pentagon? I'm sure just showing him all the work you do if more than enough to teach hima bout it? Idk it feels a bit imposing, but I guess I just dont get what Lian's play is... Speaking off...

WHAT IS BEHIND THAT DOOR? A DAM SEX DUNGEON OR SMTH? A RECORDING STUDIO? LIKE ???????? Foei was just in there a moment ago, he tells Kuea not to go in KNOWING kuea is soooo gonna not listen and go in so what's up???

The ending is a bit abrupt like the last one, sort of mid Kuelian moment, but I anticipate next episode satisfied as I really wanna know Neau intentions with Kuea, what is behind the door, what Lian is planning (you both gonna sleep in the same room, with this big ass house? What are we doing 👀👀) and more DiaoYi sauce pleaseeee