#promise me that you will not betray me

[xxswagcorexx]

The prisoner's dilemma is a standard thought experiment analyzed in game theory challenging two people; cooperate with your partner for mutual reward, or betray your partner for an individual reward.

or:

game theory by anonymous.

image credits:

sea waves during daytime photo by Inés Álvarez Fdez on unsplash // crashing waves by Ivan Bandura on unsplash // One Of Them Is Lying by @Boosfer on youtube // Don’t Go- Study for Limerence by Beth Cavener // Rest Energy by Marina Abramović and Ulay // Limerence by Beth Cavener // ashswagg on namemc // Reddoons on namemc

text credits:

One Of Them Is Lying by @Boosfer on youtube // game theory by Anonymous // Rest Energy (performance piece) from Wikipedia // Prisoner's dilemma from Wikipedia

[finalgirlsamwinchester]

guy who so desperately tries to find god. who wants to have faith in a higher authority to guide him out of the hole he's in. from the weight of guilt from simply existing, as the person he is. but every time he thinks he's answered his higher calling it turns out he's made the Morally Incorrect choice and his path to goodness and holiness was the road to the devil all along

[maxsix]

[bonebabbles]

I keep starting and abandoning posts that go into my drafts, as I try to stay tasteful about how fucking revolted this part makes me. Like, I'm legitimately unsure if the very relevant trauma I have is making me see things that aren't here

But first we see that Star Flower is trying to ingratiate herself to the group, just after she reappears from chapter 5. Chapter 5 is about how Clear Sky is still abusive towards his son, and she comes in after stroking his ego, stressing how alone she is, and appealing to how she'll be loyal unlike his child. (She glances over at Thunder, directly implying this.)

Now in Chapter 9, she's babysitting and trying to care for Milkweed's kits (in spite of discomfort from Milkweed), taking a wet sleeping space away from the others, and pulling more than her own weight "without complaint." Putting herself through harsh sitations to prove her worth.

All while trying to appear extra attractive to Thunder, and later Clear Sky. Basically every man in power who can "protect her"

Like, am I going fucking crazy? With how we later find out that Star Flower was "promised as a mate" to One Eye's subordinate Slash, is... is that hypersexualization? One of the extremely stigmatized symptoms of sexual abuse?

She goes to find Clear Sky alone to throw herself at his paws, and he's very quickly attracted to how she promises to perfectly obey him, have no needs of her own, and finally be the perfect servant that he desires

"I don't deserve your trust because I am dirt. I understand you because I also regret something. I'd die for you. I'll never betray you unlike those who have."

This isn't manipulation. She means this. The story is playing their romance sincerely. She's comparing "betraying" Thunder by telling her own father about an assassination ambush to Clear Sky's history of child abuse, physical assault, and murder

She believes she's on the same level as this; a monster who murdered a childhood friend in a fit of entitled rage. She was a victim of One Eye who really believes that the way her father used her means she "understands" this monster, deserves this treatment.

And Clear Sky LIKES that.

He likes that she will have COMPLETE FAITH in him. That she will follow him WITHOUT QUESTION. That she will OBEY his orders. That's fucking verbatim, that's THE TEXT!!!

WHILE HE'S STILL CRYING ABOUT "ive tried to atone every day" FOLLOWING THE LAST TWO BOOKS WHERE THE ONLY SHITTY THING HE DOESN'T DO IS MURDER INNOCENT WOMEN

Am I insane?? Am I wrong??? Am I missing something here???? Why the fuck is the fandom takeaway "haha sexy girl steals his dad." Did I read the same book

[hadesoftheladies]

How dare feminists center women’s struggles and define male oppression from the root lol. Feminists too smol brained to understand dialectical materialism. Feminism is a device of division that should be stopped. Feminism is . . . uh . . . racist. Feminists don’t understand women’s liberation or class struggle. Even the Marxist feminists are just uh . . . revisionists because Marx and Engels were already pure and perfect feminists with pure and perfect analysis

Women whining about their oppression is dividing the proletariat. Women don’t deserve their own political party that centers them lmao? There’s uh, working class struggles we all have to fix first! Then women will be free! If we were all just commies and marxists and people just understood that capitalism and imperialism (male-created) were abolished, men would be nicer and normal to women and women’s issues would evaporate! Because that’s worked so well before! Obvi!

feminists women are so stupid and don’t understand anything

feminism has done nothing for actual people men

[feelingtheaster99]

Luke calls Annabeth is his sister. Full stop. Not ‘she’s like a sister to me,’ “she is my sister.”

[willowedhepatica]

avatrice + one more kiss

Beatrice pressed on the wound and thought of love. 

It was like a bruise, spread over her body and stained her fingers like the blueberries Ava picked at the edge of a forest one Sunday morning when the sun hadn't quite reached the top. 

She couldn't really pretend it wasn't real anymore. She'd tried. So adamantly in fact that Ava got concerned and thought she was becoming sick. 

Yes. She'd wanted to say. 

Yes there's something wrong. My body wasn't meant for love. It treated it like a virus it needed to force away in order for her to survive. 

Because that's what it was, wasn't it? A sickness. How else could she explain why her heart thrummed harder now then it had ever done in battle? How else could she explain why her chest squeezed whenever Ava came close. Touched her. Smiled. 

It went through her like a shiver. Like her body couldn't quite handle it and needed to get rid of it as fast as it struck her. 

There's something wrong with me. My body can't take love. 

Maybe it was just Ava she couldn't take. There was something so overwhelmingly astronomic about her. She wanted to grab the stars. Wanted to cup the river in her palm and drink it up. It all lived inside her. Coming out in the gestures of the sun that made her in constant motion. Bright smiles that showed teeth. Laughter rang through the air and settled on her lips like the homemade lemonade Ava had insisted Beatrice should try at the little wooden stand a girl had put up. It was far too sweet, drowned out the lemons and only left the concept of pressed fruit in her mouth. She'd drank it anyway. Because it was Ava – and drowning in it had already become a constant notion. 

She'd never expected it to burst free. Had prepared for it to be caged up inside her for the rest of time. But Ava tugged at strings Beatrice couldn't control and somehow made her fall. 

Honestly, fuck that, it was expected. It was Ava. And like Ava did, it happened in the midst of battle where everything around them felt like an explosion. The clang of weapons and ringing of steel. It was only fair for her to match her surroundings with the intensity of her own heart. 

She had this look in her eyes. Beatrice was sure she'd been hiding something but it wasn't this– undoubtedly, it happened because Ava – ridiculous, foolish Ava – decided upon facing Adriel on her own. It happened because Ava decided that was the end. 

And in the end, everything was allowed to explode. Ava kissed her. Everything in Beatrice's body reacted – a supernova, a flat line – a car crash, a wound reopening and spreading like fire. 

If this was what sickness felt like she wanted more. Let it swallow her. Let it take her over and mend her back together.

Ava pulled away far too early and Beatrice chased after her. Wanted to feel Ava's lips against her own for a little longer. Wanted to etch the feeling into memory. 

Just one more... 

Please, just one more so we could stay in this eternity – only you and me together – without the existence of war. 

Please just one more, she wanted to beg. Don't leave me with the memory of how you taste on my lips while you sacrifice yourself for the world that was never kind to you. 

But Ava only smiled, traced a thumb over her cheek and told her to live. God dammit, Ava. She was the one who was supposed to live. She was the one who deserved more. She deserved to drown in the love she'd given the world so effortlessly.

If I had kissed you one more time, would that have made you stay?

[impossiblebird]

ava/mary & morality

frank bidart // the scorch trials (2015)

@themazewomen prompt: (broken) promises

[skydigiblogs]

also sorry to double post but i'm going to be thinking about this rewatch for a while now lmao

i know there are a lot of resources that talk about the differences between the sub and dub but i'm kind of losing my mind at how much better the build up felt for apocalymon in the sub?

like specifically that's the thing that's been sticking with me among all the other little differences here and there

i don't remember anything in the dub about distortions being a rampant issue, for instance, but they're mentioned frequently around the etemon arc (and actually i have to wonder if the dark network core was intended to be an extension of apocalymon past the wall of fire)

it's explicitly told in the sub that the dark masters even used the distortions to rise to power in the way they did, reformatting the world in the process

and like i know the ruins on file island (which prophesize apocalymon's return) are commented on during that first arc, but also, that's in both sub and dub. the whole distortion thread doesn't make it into the dub at all from my recollection

and then at the end explaining that the fairy time shit (1 mn IRL = 1 day in the digital world) as consequential of apocalymon!!!

i remember when i first watched 02 i was so confused as to how that fairy time 1 mn / 1 day thing was just gone!! that's part of what always bothered me when watching 02, because it felt like such a blatant ignoring of pre-established canon and the explanation in-dub never felt right (idr if they even explained it)

ourgh anyways

sub apocalymon may not be making jokes about their existential crisis of an existence but i still wanna give the damn mon(s?) a pizza

poor thing deserves it

[apricusapollo]

and what if i say the great war is codywan coded??

and what if I say that you need to stop because I cannot keep on living like this.

[wickershells]

txt

[wikipedie]

The way Merlin is a tragedy disguised as a comedy

[theskyexists]

It makes sense why she didn't maybe but Chani might have saved billions of people including her own by simply knifing Jessica for compelling her, or knifing Paul after he went off the deep end or knifing Stilgar in the assembly. Which would even have been acceptable and traditional! But I guess it's an example of feeling like you're helpless in the face of history.

[demon-princess13]

[ace-of-kats]

I accidentally told a friend about TheThingsThatGoOnInMyHead™️ and then he told his little brother a few weeks ago (which was kinda rude actually because that’s not for offline public ears) and anyway my friend FaceTimed his little brother today and then he saw me and asked, and I quote: “are you the cannibalism lady?” And I simply did not know how to respond to that except for maniacal laughter and I think I just made it worse. I just really don’t like having anything going on over here be anyone’s first impression of my real life self.

[therampicncrew]

Tag Dump