#raleigh x marina

[camillemontespan]

oblivion [M! raleigh carrera] [part seven: lose yourself]

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Warnings: NSFW. Mention of drug use. Master List

Marina slept for twelve hours after playing another video game with Raleigh. She had been exhausted; her eyes were shadowed and her body felt heavy and bone tired. Raleigh let her sleep, knowing she needed her rest.  While she was safe under her blankets, Raleigh looked up therapists in Michigan. 

He accepted now that Marina needed more help. It wasn’t enough for Raleigh to take her out of Los Angeles, out of her drug induced, champagne bubbled, drug addled bubble. He had taken her away from the place where she would be tempted but she was still the same girl with the same problems. Asking her to go cold turkey was too much; Raleigh could see that now. Marina needed professional help. 

Raleigh stayed up until 2am with his laptop open as he browsed for the therapist he could find. Rehab hadn’t worked for Marina; she had been a patient twice. But maybe a safe space where she could talk to a therapist about her issues and then retreat to Raleigh’s mom’s place would help? 

Overset with tiredness, Raleigh shut his laptop and rested his head in his hands. He needed to make this right. He had failed her before and he wouldn’t do it again. Right now, his only priority was getting Marina back to the person she was; or even if that wasn’t possible, he would try to bring hope and light back into her life when all she had known for so long was endless darkness.

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Raleigh arranged for Marina to attend a private therapy session. One to one with the therapist, Dr. Henderson, signing an NDA. 

On Monday morning, Raleigh supported Marina as she got herself dressed for the therapy session. ‘Is this okay?’ she asked, giving him a weak twirl.  She was wearing a blue and white fluffy sweater paired with blue ripped jeans and Converse. 

Raleigh thought she looked ridiculously cute and he really wanted to give her a hug. 

‘You look awesome,’ he told her simply. ‘You ready for this?’

Marina nodded mutely. ‘Nervous,’ she said. ‘But that’s understandable. I guess I just hope this therapist won’t tell the press about all my secrets ha!’ She forced the laugh out but Raleigh knew she wasn’t joking. 

‘She’s signed an NDA,’ Raleigh assured her. ‘She’s a professional anyway, Mari. She wants to help. It’s her job.’

Marina nodded, processing his words. Raleigh smiled softly and moved towards her to take her hands. 

‘I’ll be out in the waiting room,’ he whispered. ‘If it gets too much, I’ll be right outside.’

‘Guys, you ready to go?’ Raleigh’s mom called up the stairs. ‘Car’s ready!’

Raleigh took Marina’s hand and led her down the stairs to the car, making sure to bundle on scarves so no prying neighbours would see them. Marina’s privacy had been non-existent in LA; Raleigh wasn’t having a repeat of it again.

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The therapist’s office was empty, thank God. Marina could breathe easy that nobody would see her and recognise who she was. She was taken into the room immediately, leaving Raleigh in the waiting room. 

His eyes found the stack of magazines before he could tear his gaze away. Tabloids emblazoned with Marina’s image. Pictures of her looking worse for wear, like she was barely surviving in this dog eat dog world. 

Raleigh quickly picked up the magazines and shoved them in the trash can. 

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Marina played with the hem of her sweater as she sat in awkward silence. Dr Henderson was sat opposite her with her legs crossed and a notepad on her lap, pen poised. She was wearing cat eye shaped spectacles and her dark hair was pulled up into a neat ponytail. She looked friendly.

‘This is just a get to know you session’, Dr Henderson said gently. ‘Nothing too scary. Would you like some water?’

Marina took the glass of water and sipped the drink, her hands shaking as she did so.  

‘I’m here to help you,’ the therapist told her in a low voice. ‘There is no judgment here. This is a safe space-’

‘Because you signed the NDA,’ Marina interrupted, her voice startling even her.

The therapist smiled. ‘Yes, I did. But it would still be a safe space even if I hadn’t signed. Do you think I will tell everyone the confidential information you’ll give me?’

Marina shrugged. ‘No. You’re a professional,’ she said quietly, repeating what Raleigh had told her. ‘It’s your job.’

Her tone was reluctant, which the therapist noted.

‘Do you find it hard to trust people?’

Marina bit her lip. ‘No..’

‘Yet you think I will tell everyone everything that you say in this room?’

‘I’ve trusted people in the past and they have always thrown it back in my face,’ Marina told her. ‘I trusted people too easily and they took advantage.’

‘In what way?’

The words flooded out of Marina before she could stop them. 

‘Like we would go out to a bar and I would be the one left to pay the $500 bill. Or I would tell them I was seeing a guy and the next day, the papers would be talking about it. Or I had friends ask me for loans of money to keep themselves afloat, I couldn’t say no, but in the end, they would use that cash on drugs or alcohol.’

Marina looked down at her hands. ‘I’ve been chewed up and spat back out.’

The therapist made a note on her pad. ‘Your friend outside,’ she said. ‘Raleigh. Do you want to talk about him?’

Marina blushed. The therapist smiled. ‘Boyfriend?’

‘Something like that,’ Marina replied softly. ‘It’s complicated.’

‘How?’

‘We were bad for each other,’ Marina said. ‘But in the end, he is the one who is by my side when nobody else is. Everyone shows their true colours in the end; Raleigh has shown his.’

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An hour later, Marina came out of the therapists room. Raleigh stood up and gave her a smile; Marina smiled back, to his relief. 

‘I’m seeing her again next week,’ Marina told him. ‘That was just a get to know you session.’

Raleigh wrapped his arms around her waist and pressed a kiss on top of her head. ‘I’m proud of you,’ he murmured into her hair. ‘So fucking proud of you.’

They left the office together and back into Raleigh’s mom’s car. She had bought McDonalds as a treat and laughed as Raleigh and Marina tore into the brown paper bags.

‘It’s like you’re kids again!’ she laughed, shaking her head. ‘God, I should have got you Happy Meals!’

‘Happy Meals are fucking legit!’ Raleigh hollered with his mouth open. 

Marina giggled and sank her teeth into the burger. She hadn’t had McDonalds in years. Ever since she became famous, fast food was off the menu and replaced by protein shakes, Diet Coke and salad. As she swallowed the burger and made quick work of the fries, she realised that for the first time in what felt like forever, she was enjoying a meal. 

‘Jesus, ma, can we get some more?’ Raleigh asked after he finished his burger and screwed the paper bag into a ball. ‘I got money, I can buy us a truckload of McDonalds.’

‘Ooh and maybe a milkshake?’ Marina joked.

Raleigh looked at her, his mouth quirking up in the corner. ‘Yeah and a milkshake,’ he said. 

His mom shrugged. ‘If you want to get fat on McDonalds with your hard earned money, babe, by all means, be my guest.’

Raleigh let out a whoop. ‘Let’s go back!’

So that afternoon, Raleigh ordered two Happy Meals - who cared that they were adults?- and a milkshake. He gave Marina the milkshake, winking at her as he did so,and she sipped the thick strawberry milk, feeling lighter than air.

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That night, Marina lay on the bed wearing one of Raleigh’s white vests and black lace underwear. Her dark hair was spilled out across the pillow and she was looking up at the ceiling as she listened to Raleigh singing under his breath.

He was lying on his front beside her with a journal in front of him. He was working on new lyrics, his writing an illegible mess of spidering words and crossing out. His eyebrows were furrowed in concentration as he wrote and scored out, occasionally stopping to sing softly so he could test out his progress. 

‘What’s the song about?’ Marina asked, reaching out to stroke a lock of his hair through her finger. 

Raleigh bit his lip. ‘I can’t get it right..’

‘What’s it about?’ she repeated.

His eyes found hers. ‘You,’ he said softly.

Marina sat up in surprise. Raleigh looked sheepish. 

‘You’re writing about me?’ she asked, her eyes wide. ‘Me?’

‘Yeah…’ Raleigh admitted. ‘It’s not the first time.’

Marina blushed. There had always been rumours that his songs had been about her; Raleigh had never confirmed nor denied it. But now, she could see that it was true. 

‘What do you want to say about me?’ she asked.

‘Just how strong you are, how I lose myself when I’m with you,’ Raleigh said, looking down to pick at his fingernails. ‘I forget everything when I’m with you. Always have. Nothing matters in the world when we’re together.’

Marina could feel her heart beginning to beat a little bit faster. This was the Raleigh she knew that nobody else did. The Raleigh who was open and vulnerable; the Raleigh she had fallen in love with. 

‘I’m a mess,’ Marina said. ‘I bring you down-’

‘No you don’t,’ Raleigh cut in fiercely. ‘You are incredible. You are beautiful and strong with the most gorgeous soul-’

‘I am a trainwreck,’ Marina told him. ‘Disaster.’

‘So am I,’ Raleigh replied softly. ‘I’m not perfect either. Nobody is.’

Marina watched him as he abandoned his journal and crawled over the bed to her. She closed her eyes as his lips brushed against her cheek, trailing down to her jawline, to the collar bone, before kissing her chest. 

‘Raleigh..’ she whispered.

‘But you’re mine,’ he murmured, his warm breath tickling her skin. His fingers reached to pull up the vest she was wearing so he could gently kiss her stomach. His lips blazed a trail down her skin, brushing against the waistband of her lace boy shorts, making her jolt. 

Raleigh looked up at her with dark, hungry eyes. Marina smiled and reached for him; Raleigh’s hands caressed the back of her head as their lips met in an urgent, desperate kiss. 

Marina pulled off her vest and reached down to pull down her underwear. Raleigh discarded his clothes too before he stopped to study her. Slowly, his hands ran down her body, gently stroking her skin as he did so. 

‘What are you doing?’ she asked impatiently. She really wanted him, right now.

‘I’m losing myself in you,’ he murmured. 

He gently pulled her towards him so she settled on his lap; Marina wrapped her legs around his waist, holding him tightly. Raleigh bent down to kiss her cleavage, making her gasp his name. His fingers stroked her inner thigh before finding her centre.

Marina’s head fell into the crook of his neck. ‘Oh god..’

‘You are beautiful,’ Raleigh whispered, his fingers stroking her. ‘You are strong and powerful. You are the most amazing woman and don’t let anybody tell you otherwise.’

‘Raleigh-’

She let out a cry as she felt him enter her.  He filled her entirely, making her body jerk from the impact. Marina moved her hips against his, pulling a low groan from Raleigh’s throat. His hands gripped her hips as they gathered pace. 

‘You make me happy,’ Raleigh breathed in her ear. ‘You make me laugh.’

‘You- you make me happy too,’ Marina whispered, her breath catching. She kissed him hard, sinking into his taste of tobacco and burnt sugar. 

‘You’re my Marina,’ Raleigh groaned, increasing the pace. ‘Mine.’

‘But if you leave-’

‘I’m not fucking leaving you ever again,’ Raleigh interrupted, kissing her fiercely. His eyes were black now; black and wild. ‘You’ll always have me. I promise.’

No more words were needed after that. Raleigh and Marina lost themselves in each other. 

[nagichi-boop]

Borderline Personality Disorder - Music Playlist Ideas

Disclaimer: These are my personal suggestions and may not relate to everyone’s experience of BPD. I tried to add as many songs as possible so that there are more options for people to choose from if they are looking for recommendations.

These are sorted in alphabetical order for the song artists:

• Breathe - 88rising

• Demons - Alec Benjamin

• If I Killed Someone For You - Alec Benjamin

• I’m Not a Cynic - Alec Benjamin

• Mind is a Prison - Alec Benjamin

• Shadow of Mine - Alec Benjamin

• The Knife in My Back - Alec Benjamin

• Use Me - Alec Benjamin

• Little Do You Know - Alex & Sierra

• Panic Room - Au/Ra

• I’m a Mess - Bebe Rexha

• Friends - Chase Atlantic

• I DON’T LIKE DARKNESS - Chase Atlantic

• I NEVER EXISTED - Chase Atlantic

• EMPTY - Chase Atlantic

CW // swearing, drugs

• EVEN THOUGH I’M DEPRESSED - Chase Atlantic

CW // swearing, suicide mention

• PARANOID - Chase Atlantic

CW // swearing, drugs, alcohol

STUCKINMYBRAIN - Chase Atlantic

CW // swearing, drugs

• Triggered - Chase Atlantic

CW // swearing, drugs, alcohol

• human - Christina Perri

• Your Reality - Dan Salvato

• Still Here - Digital Daggers

• Haunt - Echos

• Lost - EDEN

• Hate Me - Ellie Goulding

• Forgive Yourself - Em Beihold

• Numb Little Bug - Em Beihold

• Erase This - Evanescence

• Taking Over Me - Evanescence

• Hurts Like Hell - Fleurie

• I hate u, I love u - Gnash

CW // swearing

• Sorry - Halsey

• Please Don’t Go - Joel Adams

• Human - Krewella

• Carry Me - Kygo (ft. Julia Michaels)

• 1-800-273-8255 - Logic

CW // swearing (clean version available), suicide mention

• internet drama part 1 - Lubalin

Note: This song is less than a minute long

• Hunger - Mafumafu

Note: This song is in Japanese, but I find the lyrics fit bpd vibes

• Are You Satisfied - MARINA

CW // suicide mention

• Fear and Loathing - MARINA

• Girls - MARINA

CW // food talk

• Homewrecker - MARINA

• Oh No! - MARINA

• Soft to Be Strong - MARINA

• Valley of the Dolls - MARINA

• Bad for Me - Meg DeAngelis

• Cake - Melanie Martinez

• Dollhouse - Melanie Martinez

CW // nsfw language, drugs

• Soap - Melanie Martinez

• Dynasty - MIIA

• prom dress - mxmtoon

• Hate Myself - NF

• Mansion - NF

CW // physical abuse

• Trauma - NF

• Why - NF

• Something Comforting - Porter Robinson

• Stronger Than Ever - Raleigh Ritchie

• Sick and Empty - Skillet

• Borderline - Tame Impala

• Eventually - Tame Impala

• Is It True - Tame Impala

• Let It Happen - Tame Impala

• I’m Losing Friends - Tanner Swift

• Shapeshifting - Taylor Acorn

• Doubt - twenty one pilots

• Someone to Stay - Vancouver Sleep Clinic

— x —

Please feel free to suggest any other songs to add!

(Might not add them all to my list as these are songs I personally vibe with, so check the comments for more recommendations!)

(Masterlist)

[raleighcarrera]

magic in the hamptons

platinum | raleigh carrera x mc (cadence dorian)

raleigh and cadence enjoy the summer before he leaves for tour in the fall.

~3.4k words of pure gratuitous ns/fw (18+ only)

she giggled wildly as raleigh sprayed champagne all over the floor of the yacht, the sound of her laughter only spurring him on. at her encouragement, he shook the bottle harder, laughing himself as he angled the spray first towards her, and then, when she leapt away with a shriek, over the railing and down the side of the boat.

as cadence ran up the few steps to the top of the deck he brought the bottle to his lips, drinking deeply before following her with a grin. she’d already settled on the bench at the highest point of the boat and had her arms pillowed on the railing with her chin perched atop them, paying him no mind as she gazed out at the ocean. her voice was awed when she said, “this is incredible.”

he tipped his head until his sunglasses slipped down his nose, and let his gaze slowly wander the length of her back. with her legs folded beneath her, he had the perfect view of what seemed like miles of suntanned, freckled skin, and then finally -- a simple white bikini bottom stretched over her perfect ass. “oh, it’s really something.”

she twisted over her shoulder and caught him looking, the expression on her face first surprised, and then pleased, her cheeks pink when she grinned at him. he only smirked unabashedly back, holding out the half-empty champagne bottle as a peace offering.

cadence took it from his hands and tilted her head back for a long sip. he wasn’t subtle about staring at her while she did it, his fingertips itching with the urge to pop a new bottle just so he could spray her down with it and then clean her up on his own. this far out from the shore, there weren’t any paparazzi to snap pictures of them acting up, meaning he was officially out of self-restraint.

she looked at him like he had something on his face. “why are you staring at me like that?”

honesty was always his favorite policy, at least where she was concerned. she always made the best faces when he said what was on his mind. “i’m just thinking about later... when we bring this boat back to the marina. and i hand the keys in... knowing that we had sex on every last inch of it.”

predictably, her face flushed prettily. she was stunned for only a second before she arched her eyebrows at him. “but we haven’t had sex at all.”

raleigh leaned in, crowding her against the boat’s railing. without missing a beat, he pulled the bottle from between them and set it on the floor. his gaze swept warmly over her face as he leaned in, his cocky grin widening when just his proximity made her eyes go half-lidded, her inhales turning suddenly sharper. how could he not smirk at her, when she looked at him like that?

cadence made a sound akin to annoyance and reached up to thread her fingers into his hair. that was the thing he liked most about her, he realized, as her grip tightened and she yanked him into a kiss -- she wasn’t afraid to make the first move. though it seemed like every day he was coming up with some new thing he liked most about her.

he leaned over her on the bench until she was almost flat on her back, reaching out blindly for her bare thigh and curling his fingers over her skin. she was warm from the sun and sighing into his mouth in a way that was music to his ears, better than anything he or anyone had ever won a stupid vinyl award for.

he hitched her leg around his waist in the cramped space of the ledge and then, without warning, lifted her up so they could stand, their mouths dislodging for only a moment while he focused on getting them down the few steps on the deck safely. the smile she was giving him sucked him in completely, making his heartbeat ratchet up dangerously. even if he’d wanted to look away, it seemed impossible.

“where are we going?”

in lieu of an answer, he set her down gently on the floor of the boat, standing over her silently for a long moment just so he could look at her, chuckling when her bottom lip thrust out into a pout nearly instantly. “impatient, are we?”

she stopped pouting. a glint appeared in her eyes that let him know he was in trouble. she reached up and tugged on the string holding her bikini top in place until it came loose and fell away. without breaking eye contact, she tossed it over to the far side of the boat.

“jesus christ,” he mumbled, his throat suddenly dry. surely this was the thing he liked most about her.

the smile she shot him let him know that she thought she’d won, and he couldn’t have that. he dropped to the deck of the yacht with a thud, kneeling between her spread legs. as soon as she was within reaching distance, his hands were on her urgently, skimming up her sides and running over her newly bare skin. his fingers gently brushed over each side of her chest, and he shot cadence a crooked grin as she demanded, her voice wavering with a moan, “now who’s impatient?”

raleigh ducked down and kissed her again, his mouth hot and insistent and urgent. when she broke away from him with a gasp, he moved his lips along her jaw, kissing a quick trail to the spot behind her ear he loved marking with his teeth. “cadence, cadence, cadence,” he chided, one hand sliding down to her hip and fiddling with the string holding her bottoms together, “they’re going to hear you begging for me back on the beach.”

his hips pressed her down onto the floor of the boat and she groaned, tossing her arm over her face and covering her eyes. with his free hand, he reached up to pull it away, gently grasping her wrist and pinning it to the deck above her head. “no way,” he murmured, his voice low, “am i letting you hide that pretty face from me. now hold still.”

“raleigh,” she whined, as he deftly used the hand at her hip to pull her bikini bottoms off and away, brushing his fingertips tenderly against the insides of her thighs.

“i’ve got you.” for a moment, he forgot completely what he was supposed to be doing, stuck on the sight of her, stretched out naked beneath him. “god, you’re beautiful.”

“raleigh,” she repeated, her voice more insistent this time, “don’t you dare--”

her words cut off abruptly into a long, gorgeous moan as his fingers finally dipped between her folds, and he watched with rapt attention as her back arched up off the floor, her eyelids fluttering shut. “yes,” she gasped, “yes, raleigh, i need...”

a single fingertip found her clit and swirled delicately around it, providing neither the pressure nor the pace he was sure she was hoping for. “what do you need?”

her nose scrunched up in a manner that was far too cute for someone he wanted to fuck so badly. he leaned down to hide his smile against the side of her neck, pressing kisses to her skin. her hips twisted beneath him and he let her gasps fill his ears as his fingers pushed in further, his lips sliding down to her chest. “hmm?” he questioned again, panting against her skin, “what is it? you can tell me.”

she lifted her free hand and gripped his shoulder tightly, her eyes flying open to lock onto his. “raleigh,” she groaned again, clearly frustrated, “just -- please --”

immediately, he dipped down to kiss her, savoring the way she melted into it and how she opened up for him. he took his time exploring her mouth with thorough, even pressure, languidly moving his lips against hers as a reward for her plea. when he finally pulled back to catch his breath he couldn’t help but to shoot her a grin, affectionately bumping his nose into hers. “atta girl.”

before cadence could find it within herself to muster up a sarcastic remark, he gave in, rubbing two fingers against her clit in the exact way she liked, gratified by the way her nails immediately set into the skin of his shoulder and scratched. he spared a brief, fleeting thought to the crowd back at the beach party, grinning into the valley between her breasts as he imagined the looks on their faces when they returned from their little escape, the whispers that would follow them around the beach.

the thought was gone as quickly as it came. cadence was grabbing at his hair, demanding his full attention -- she tugged him into another desperate kiss that left his whole body buzzing, his hand releasing her wrist so that he could be free to touch her all over without letting up on the insistent motion between her legs, fueled by the hungry gasps she kept pouring into his mouth.

“raleigh,” she moaned, and he closed his eyes, inhaling sharply as he committed the sound to memory. it was going to get a lot of replays while he was on his fall tour, he was certain. “oh, god. that feels so good.”

just the sight of her was enough to make him achingly hard, and the sounds she was making weren’t helping. his hips pressed urgently into her thigh as he encouraged, “that’s it, baby. i want to see you lose it for me.”

“oh.” her breath hitched, and her hips rocked against his hand one last time before she shivered underneath him, her pretty mouth dropping open with a loud moan. she swore as she came, squeezing her eyes shut tight, and he stared at her as her hips bucked wildly until he couldn’t take it anymore, leaning down for another eager kiss.

it felt like eons before he pulled away, but that was how kissing cadence always felt. it was the world’s greatest way to lose track of time.

her gaze was dreamy and unfocused when she finally let her eyelids open to smile at him. his heart thrummed with something new, his fast pulse veering off course momentarily as he smiled helplessly back. “mmmm,” she groaned, barely twitching when he pulled his hand from between her legs. “has anyone ever told you that you are really -- i mean stupidly -- attractive?”

“not in so many words.” the stroke to his ego was the last thing he needed. if she kept that little act up, he was going to embarrass himself. in the next instant, her hand lifted to dip between the waistband of his swim trunks. maybe she could read him better than he thought. “cadence...”

her hand wrapped around his cock without preamble. raleigh’s hips jerked forward, his hands planted on either side of her body on the floor.

“should we move to a different part of the boat? you know, in the interest of... using our time efficiently.” he didn’t need to look at her to know that she was grinning, but he did anyway, lifting his head to bring his face close to hers.

“someone’s feeling bold after their orgasm,” he murmured, his breathing labored. a quick kiss helped him gather himself, and then he shot her a smile of his own. “maybe you’re right.”

it took everything he had in him to stand, holding out his hand to pull cadence to her feet, too. she looked suddenly shy as she reached her full height, glancing around nervously like they weren’t out in the middle of the ocean without anyone around for miles. his lips twitched as he pulled her in towards his chest for another kiss.

that loosened her up immensely, and she didn’t protest as he led her over to the railing at the side of the boat, stepping out of his own swimsuit as they went. he was breathless when he finally forced himself to stop kissing her. “do you have any idea how gorgeous you look?”

her smile was sunny as she leaned back against the railing. “i mean, i have some idea. you’ve only told me about... fifty thousand times.”

he leaned in to press one last gentle kiss to her lips before gently guiding her around with a hand on her hip. “let’s just say there’ll eventually be a song about today.”

she shimmied her hips playfully, and he laughed as he stepped up behind her, leaning in to press kisses along the side of her throat. “i like the sound of that.”

his hand laid over hers where she was holding onto the railing of the boat, white-knuckled. raleigh squeezed her fingers affectionately, his other hand lining himself up between her legs. a low groan ruffled her hair as he started to push inside of her, and he cursed before bowing his head to press his forehead against her shoulder. “christ, cadence.”

she pressed back against him, echoing his moan. she almost threatened the volume of the music still playing in the background and he shivered against her, biting down lightly on her shoulder as he eased himself the rest of the way inside her.

“raleigh,” she breathed, more beautifully than poetry. his hips snapped forward despite his best efforts to move slowly for her, all thoughts of giving her time to adjust slipping from his mind. all he could focus on was her, and the melodic little gasps of yes -- yes -- yes she couldn’t stop herself from emitting.

“oh, god.” she was so tight around him it was maddening, hot and wet and squeezing him on every thrust in a life-ruining sort of way. nothing would ever top this -- she was unbelievable, incredible, indescribable. the way she felt was unlike anything else he’d ever experienced, and he’d had a hell of a career before she’d tornadoed into his life. “you’re amazing.”

it wasn’t just that she let him fuck her, or that she took his cock so perfectly. it was so much more than just sex, it was -- she was everything. she was motivation to go to these stupid parties and leave early, she was the only person he could dream of escaping with and she was the one reason he bothered being social, so that he could make her smile when he suggested taking her out and showing her off.

for some reason, she stuck with him. just about everyone she knew and probably a majority of the people that didn’t know either of them but thought they did figured she could do better -- him included. but she didn’t want better, and he was constantly baffled and awed by that. she wanted him. raleigh carrera. she wanted this.

he knew he couldn’t possibly be lucky enough to expect a lifetime of summers like these. one day, she’d come to her senses and drop him, and then he’d be stuck with the herculean task of trying to get over her -- to forget she ever existed, if that was even possible.

but for now -- she showed no signs of wanting to kick him to the curb, and so he wrapped his arm around her body from behind, holding onto her tightly as he increased his speed, determined to make her feel as mind-meltingly good as he did. from the sound of her moans he was succeeding, and he groaned into her ear as he frantically pressed kisses over any piece of her skin he could reach.

“please,” she begged, somehow knowing exactly what he wanted to hear without him having to ask for it, “please, raleigh, i want -- i need you to touch me, please. raleigh, please.”

“fuck.” he wanted to shush her, to reassure her -- to tease her for being so needy, but it was impossible. all he could do was slide his hand down the front of her body, his fingers pressing between her legs again to seek out the spot he knew she wanted him most. “like that?” he demanded, his voice a low growl, “is that what you like?”

“yes!” her answer rang out, high-pitched and desperate, and his hips snapped forward harder as he felt her start to tighten around him. “i love that, i love --”

his brain short-circuited as he came, swearing into her skin, hardly able to stop himself from biting down on her shoulder again. she jerked into his hand and followed him over the edge, shaking apart against him as their moans echoed together in time.

raleigh only realized how tightly he was squeezing her once he finally felt like he could breathe again, and he released her slowly, pressing a delicate kiss to the back of her neck. he took a step back, rubbing a hand over his face. “shit.”

cadence turned around on unsteady legs, still holding onto the railing behind her for support. “oh my god.”

he reached for his swim trunks, moving slowly around the boat to gather the tiny pieces of her bikini. tossing each garment at her, he watched as she redressed and then grinned when she pulled him closer and into a kiss, his sigh full of pure content when his lips met hers.

he could have spent the rest of their weekend in the hamptons right there, kissing her without moving, if she hadn’t started to laugh.

it was just a giggle at first, that bubbled up within her and slipped into his mouth, and he smiled against her lips as he angled his head to kiss her more deeply. his hands anchored on her waist and tugged her in closer, but then one giggle became two and after a moment she was full-on laughing at him, leaving him looking at her curiously.

“i’m sorry,” she gasped, her shoulders shaking as she lifted her hands to her face. “it’s just that -- five years ago in college i lost my virginity to this guy named kevin in my dorm room and it was so awkward and terrible and now i’m getting fucked on a yacht by raleigh carrera and it’s amazing and it’s like -- the weirdest and most awesome thing that ever happened to me? ever? do you know what i mean?”

as she’d been talking, his grin had been widening, and he found himself full-on beaming at her by the time she finished. she was something else, that was for sure. “i think so,” he laughed, his gaze warm and fond when it locked onto hers. “because you’re the weirdest and most awesome thing that ever happened to me, too. and i didn’t even have to sleep with anyone named kevin.”

that set her off again, and she fell into his chest laughing, his arms coming up to wrap around her. sure, he would go on tour in the fall, and that meant that they’d spend a lot less time together, and maybe this summer was the only summer he’d be lucky enough to call her his, and maybe next year he’d be back at this same party brooding instead of laughing, but...

he caught sight of the look in her eyes and felt unidentified warmth spread through his chest. maybe he wouldn’t be.

besides, anything that happened next was worth it if he got to see her smile at him like that even one more time. he lifted a hand to her cheek, brushing a lock of hair behind her ear. his heartbeat felt so loud he was surprised she hadn’t commented on it, but maybe she was just being nice.

she was the one to look away first, glancing over her shoulder out at the ocean and the sun, which was getting dangerously low in the sky. she said what they were both thinking: “we should get back to the beach.”

he nodded, but that look was back in her eyes again. raleigh held her gaze and then grinned, laughing as he used the arms around her waist to lift her, spinning her around and chasing her up to the top deck again.

she was quicker than he wanted her to be, diving for the half-full bottle of champagne and shaking it up again, jumping up and down on the bench as she sprayed him down.

oh god, was he in love. one hand pushed his damp hair back, and then he dove for her, tackling her down onto the bench. “the party,” she gasped, her words protesting even as her hands pulled him closer.

“don’t care,” he bit out, pressing sticky kisses down her stomach, “let the coast guard find us. i’m not ready to share you just yet.”

[hvntersmark]

Rules: Spell out your url using song titles. Then, tag as many people as there are letters in your url.

tagged by @tevinterspirit​ !! 

there’s a lot of letters in my url so i’ll tag a few : @brandnewcitymp3​ ; @daisychained-x​ ; @sofi-vevo​ ; @aghostfromtheages​ ; @star-scripter​ ; @prettyandsarcastic

saint bernard - lincoln tt - twice vampire money - my chemical romance nobody - mitski naughty boy - pentagon i wanna be your girlfriend - girl in red nikes - frank ocean girls - marina say so - doja cat toes - dababy r u mine? - arctic monkeys is it any wonder - durand jones & the indiciations keep it simple - raleigh ritchie ft stormzy easy - mac ayres

[cosmic-fairycore]

Green with Envy

M!Raleigh x mc with M!Avery x mc (platonic) My mc is Marina Quinn

This is my first attempt at writing in almost 5 years so beware! There are definitely issues with this so any constructive criticism is welcome! I hate this so much it’s the biggest load of garbage ever but ANYWAY, listen to Woman by Harry Styles for Raleigh’s p.o.v.

Tag List: @a-i-n-a-a-s-h @furiouscloddonutpeanut @pegxcarter @lunalixo @lovedrakewalker @badboycarrera @cordoniasmost

Marina didn't intend to fall for Raleigh Carrera.

It was rather annoying that her heart and head were not on the same page as she knew it could only end in heartbreak. She felt like a fool. Marina felt her heart shatter into a million pieces when their breakup went public, and it broke, even more, when Raleigh showed no emotion towards the announcement. Did those two months mean nothing to him? Was she going insane, were the elusive touches and longing glances just an act to him? "I'll see you around superstar" That was it. She stood there alone and on the brink of tears. Marina had never been in love before. These new emotions were raw and left her feeling dizzy: she felt incapable of going back to a life without Raleigh Carrera. She just couldn't. The weeks following were nothing but a blur. Marina felt like a monotonous robot; her days merged into one, and the only thing she could focus on was the emptiness in her heart. It wasn't long before people noticed that Marina's sunny aura had faded. One of those people being Avery Wilshere; a knight in shining armour for the heartbroken heroine. It was clear to Avery that Marina had fallen for the r&b star. He felt guilty for not prepping her for the inevitable; after all, he was supposed to be her mentor. She had become a national treasure overnight. Fiona forgot that she was just a regular girl who worked in a smoothie shop before Avery swooped in and made her a superstar. Avery felt that it was his job to help Marina heal and eventually move on. After his recording session, Avery went straight to Marina's apartment. Marina was pleasantly surprised to see him standing at her door, because if truth be told; the more she was left alone the more the pain hurt. "Okay darling, no more wallowing" Avery said as he surveyed the state of Marina's room. It was chaos. "I'm not..." "Do not even go there missy, it's clear as day that you're madly in love with Raleigh" Marina was silent. She had never said it out loud before. Maybe she wasn't doing a very good job of keeping her feelings hidden. "I know you're hurting but together we're going to make it go away, you have your whole career ahead of you please don't waste it because of a boy" Marina knew it was pointless to argue and anyway he was right. Raleigh never loved her and she'd be damned if she let a stupid bad boy ruin her dreams. No matter how beautiful that said bad boy was. Avery did everything in his power to cheer Marina up. Whether it be going out for pizza at 2 am or going to the nearest mall to get some fluffy socks (Marina insisted these were essential), he happily obliged. Avery encouraged her to lose herself in music; it was the best form of escapism after all. He was there for her through it all. It wasn't long before the public began to speculate whether anything was going on between the two. Their faces were on every major magazine and fans went into a frenzy every time they were spotted together. Avery fuelled the rumours even further when he posted several photos and videos of the pair on his pictagram. Some days were hard for Marina, she would end up spiralling at every mention of Raleigh Carrera. In almost no time at all the boy that must not be named ( a rule implemented by Avery) was spotted with a Victoria Secrets model. Marina's sadness became anger. She was so mad at herself for falling for his charms and she was mad at him for treating her like she was disposable. She knew she couldn't wallow forever. Marina didn't know what she would do without Avery. She found herself attached to her celebrity crush/former mentor/friend and was unsure if she could function without him. Marina questioned why she couldn't have fallen for Avery instead. He was just as amazing as she hoped he would be and even more handsome in real life. His beautiful blue eyes lit up whenever she walked in the room and he supported her no matter what, that's all she ever wanted. He brought a smile back to her face and made her forget about her heartbreak for a few hours every day. She was slowly but surely getting over Raleigh Carrera.

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Raleigh Carrera didn't intend to fall for Marina Quinn. He had spent the last ten years building his walls up and was hell-bent on keeping everyone out. Raleigh had to learn the hard way that nobody in the industry could be trusted, and love definitely didn't exist in the business. But he couldn't ignore the ache in his heart when he chose to walk away from the only girl he's ever loved. It was driving him insane not being able to see her. He was constantly checking and refreshing all of her social media pages; just to make sure she was okay. Raleigh's heart shattered when the first photo of her emerged post-break-up. She had lost the sparkle in her enchanting eyes and the smile she wore so well had disappeared. Raleigh couldn't help but believe he had caused that pain. No, he knew it was his fault. He had seen her face fall and her lip quiver when he turned away from her. Raleigh yearned to hold Marina and make the hurt go away. God, he would've done anything to go back in time and tell her how madly in love with her he was but instead he acted like an asshole. He refused to do anything for weeks. Raleigh had very little tolerance for people in the first place but his management was getting on his last nerve trying to set him up with some new girl. It turned out that his fans did not like the new and improved Raleigh, therefore, they had to take the necessary steps to regain his old image. Before meeting Marina this wouldn't have bothered him but now everything had changed.

"Raleigh I like you for you, I don't care about your past or your image"

Marina had admitted during one of their escapades after bailing some sort of event. He had replayed that conversation in his head many, many times. Every other girl he had been with just wanted Raleigh Carrera, the R&B bad boy; nobody had ever genuinely cared about him. She made him a better person.

After a busy day of evading his agent's requests, Raleigh collapsed onto his bed and pulled out his phone for his daily check-in on all things Marina Quinn. He immediately wished he hadn't looked. The headline of every gossip magazine was about how Marina had moved on from Raleigh, and attached below was a photo of his superstar beaming with Avery Wilshere on her arm. His blood was boiling and his heart was hammering. Raleigh knew it was selfish but he just couldn't help it. He had caused her so much pain and she finally looked happy again! But it was supposed to be him that brought that beautiful smile back. When Marina was on One In A Million, Raleigh had helped her work through the drama with Jaylen and her anxiety of performing live.  He had been there for her every step of the way when she was adjusting to her new lifestyle. She didn't need him anymore. She had replaced him with Avery freaking Wilshere. Raleigh had considered Avery a friend which meant he knew very well that Avery was a better match for Marina. They were both too kind for the world and Raleigh was sure that their optimism could cure anything. Raleigh was never good enough for her. That didn't change the fact that jealousy was coursing through his veins. All he wanted was to hold her. He had dreamt of being front row at her first headlining show. He actually looked forward to attending dull events just so that he ditch them and go cause mayhem with her. Raleigh just wanted Marina.

He kept staring at the photo, Avery had his arm slung around her waist. Marina was looking up at him with a huge grin on her face. She used to look at him like that. Raleigh couldn't maintain his composure. He hurled his phone at the wall which resulted in it shattering all over the floor. He ran his hands through his famous brown curls and screamed in an attempt to calm down. No use. He needed to speak to her immediately, maybe if he confessed now she would come back to him. He took deep breaths. Again no good. He rummaged around his very messy living room trying to find his laptop. After searching for a while he swiftly logged in and opened his emails. Before he processed what he was doing, he had emailed his agent demanding that they find out whether Marina would be at the awards show he was scheduled to attend later that week. An age seemed to have passed but his agent finally responded and informed him that she would indeed be there but it would be wise to stay well away from the young pop star to avoid any rumours. He scoffed. As if he had the willpower to stay away. Later that week, Raleigh was suited and booted for the event. His agent insisted he take, whatever her name is as his date but Raleigh refused. He made it very clear that things would not end well if they forced him to and everyone knew he was not lying. He couldn't lie to himself he was so nervous about seeing Marina, he hoped she would be alone because he was afraid of what he might do if she wasn't. Raleigh couldn't sit still during the ceremony as he had yet to catch a glimpse of Marina. At the after-party, Raleigh scoured the room and to his dismay, he still couldn't see her anywhere. Maybe she bailed already. The only reason he was at this stupid thing and wearing a tux was for Marina. Feeling defeated, Raleigh headed over to the bar and ordered 3 shots of tequila. It wasn't long before he felt quite intoxicated. Halfway through downing yet another drink, Raleigh heard a laugh that always put a smile on his face. His head turned so fast he swore he almost snapped his neck. There she was, wearing a striking emerald green dress that matched her eyes. Raleigh swore he stopped breathing for a moment. How was it possible for one woman to be so beautiful, Raleigh found himself thinking. He felt a knot form in his stomach, he had missed her so much and seeing her sat there made him fall in love with her all over again. His eyes drifted to the person sat next to her. Of course. Marina was laughing at something Avery had said and they were sitting a bit too close for Raleigh's liking. Raleigh clenched his jaw and a scowl found itself upon his face. That was supposed to be him. Again, without even considering his actions, he stepped away from the bar and walked over to the pair. "Marina" "Avery" He didn't intend to sound so cold. Wait no he did. His expression softened when Marina turned to look at him. Her smile had gone once more and he could see her shake slightly. Avery looked at Marina with worry in his eyes, Raleigh watched him reach out to squeeze her hand. "Raleigh, it's good to see you" Avery turned his attention to Raleigh with a small smile. He scoffed "Oh I'm sure" Raleigh really couldn't hide it. He was green with envy, anyone and everyone could see it. Raleigh wasn't used to this emotion, he had always gotten what he wanted and as selfish as it was he wouldn't rest until Marina was back in his life. Marina had yet to say anything, she couldn't even look him in the eyes. "I suppose this was always going to happen" Raleigh muttered "Avery Wilshere just cannot help himself, he always has to be the hero because he's a sweet little English boy" he chuckled. Marina noticed that Raleigh was different. There was a tone in his voice she had never heard before. It was clear he had been drinking, the last time she had seen him so drunk he almost admitted his feelings towards her. "Buddy I really don't think this is a good idea, just walk away" Avery removed his hand from Marina's and stood up to discreetly whisper in Raleigh's ear. Raleigh's blood boiled yet again. "Why should I? It's a free country" Raleigh near enough shouted. "Raleigh please" Marina finally spoke in a small whisper. Raleigh paused. It took all of his strength to not reach out to her. Her voice was trembling and she couldn't quite meet his eyes. Raleigh's heart was pounding. He couldn't do this anymore, he couldn't keep causing her this much pain. Within a second he had sobered up and realised that he was being unfair. Raleigh was so unbelievably jealous of Avery, jealous of the way he was able to open up to Marina and be the man she wanted to be with. "Marina..." Raleigh began to speak to her but he couldn't find the words to try and explain. Raleigh simply shook his head and walked away from the couple and the event. Again.

[lesbiansassemble]

(posting again because something went wrong posting it before)

tagged by this cutie @thunclerer - thanks so much love! x

01 Little by Little - Oasis

02 Bloodsport - Raleigh Ritchie

03 Human - The Killers

04 She’s Electric - Oasis

05 Bangarang - Skrillex (thanks DP)

06 Baby, I Love Your Way - Big Mountain

07 Half The World Away - Oasis

08 Read My Mind - The Killers

09 Heaven Is A Halfpipe - OPM

10 Primadonna - Marina and the Diamonds

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Star Sightings: Katie Holmes Stylishly Steps Out, Gabrielle Union & Dwyane Wade Party With Rick Ross & More!

The temps are starting to heat up and celebs' sartorial styles aren't cooling down! Katie Holmes rocked a pretty navy blue asymmetrical JD Williams jumpsuit for a photo shoot in New York City.

Sophie Fritz

Heidi Klum went even bolder, topping her outfit with a bright green “Henny Faux Fur” trench coat from KUT from the Cloth while on the set of Germany's Next Top Model in Santa Monica, California, in early June. The 45-year-old model’s stylist, Rob Zangardi, originally got the jacket as a gift for Cara Delevingne, but Klum fell in love with it, so he gave it to her instead!

Rob Zangardi

Shay Mitchell kept warm in some, well, not-so-cold temps by layering with a jacket by Canadian designer Ellie Mae. “When it’s 52° in the morning and mid-70s by lunchtime, a faux fur jacket with a crop top, seems sensible👌,” the Pretty Little Liars alum joked on Instagram on June 6.

When it’s 52° in the morning and mid-70s by lunchtime, a faux fur jacket with a crop top, seems sensible👌🏽

A post shared by Shay Mitchell (@shaymitchell) on Jun 6, 2018 at 2:17pm PDT

Younger star Nico Tortorella rocked the Teva Hurricane XLT-2 when he stopped by the shoe brand’s Festival Gifting Suite at New York City’s Extra Butter on May 30.

Kimberly Mufferi

Cara Santana donned a pretty burnt orange dress for POPSUGAR x Winemaker's Selection Launch at A.O.C in Los Angeles on May 24.

Joe Scarnici/Getty Images for POPSUGAR

On fashion's biggest night, the 2018 CFDA Fashion Awards in New York City on June 4, Rosario Dawson was among the celebs who snagged a complimentary LYFT to get home safely following the after-party in New York City.

Madison McGaw/BFA

And Miles Heizer, Derek Luke, Alisha Boe, Katherine Langford and Dylan Minnette all looked quite nice at the 13 Reasons Why ATAS FYC Event held at Netflix FYSee at Raleigh Studios in Los Angeles on June 1.

Eric Charbonneau

Workouts were on the brain of Hollywood's elite as well.

Jordana Brewster enjoyed a day at the horse stable with her family in Los Angeles last week, where she exclusively revealed her favorite go-to beauty trends to ET. "I love Fascia massages. They really get deep into your muscles, even more than a deep tissue massage. This massage really helps stretch your muscles when you are tight and extra sore," the 38-year-old actress, who works out six days a week, explained. “I am also loving dry brushing because it really gets your circulation and lymphatic system going." The Lethal Weapon star also revealed that "allergies are a challenge all year round" for her.  "Whether I’m heading to the Farmers Market with my kids or trying to exercise outdoors, my runny nose and watery eyes can be really disruptive, but, thankfully, I take ZYRTEC to give me consistent allergy relief," she added.

Michael Simon/Startraks Photo

Also in the City of Angels, American Woman co-stars Kyle Richards and Jennifer Bartels hosted a panel at Flywheel’s Larchmont studio on what it means to be a woman in 2018.

Lauren Katz

Rather than hit the gym, James Franco, New York Mets pitcher Noah Syndergaard and NBA trainer Chris Brickley took in a game, watching the NBA Finals together at The Ainsworth East Village in New York City on June 2.

Andy Cohen was also in the Big Apple, enjoying a birthday lunch with his parents and a friend at Black Tap Craft Burgers & Beer's Midtown Manhattan outpost on June 1, where he ate an All-American Burger and drank seltzer one day before turning the big 5-0. And Michael Kors dined at NYC’s db Bistro Moderne by Daniel Boulud for a quiet lunch with a small group of colleagues on June 1, enjoying restaurant classics like the Original DB Burger and the Peekytoe Crab & Avocado Tartine.

There were plenty of parties and performances going on not just in New York and Hollywood, but Las Vegas and Miami as well.

Fresh off a romantic vacay, Gabrielle Union and Dwyane Wade partied with Rick Ross at Rockwell Nightclub in Miami Beach on June 2.

Seth Browarnik/Worldredeye.com

Hailee Steinfeld and birthday girl Normani were in the audience for the Jennifer Lopez: All I Have residency at Zappos Theater at Planet Hollywood Resort & Casino in Las Vegas on May 30, posting snaps to social media as they took in the show.

Hailee Steinfeld/Instagram

Logic returned to the stage at Drai’s Nightclub atop The Cromwell in Las Vegas on June 1, wowing the crowd with hits like “Everyday” and “1-800-273-8255.” After his show, which was taken in by the likes of San Francisco wide receiver Pierre Garcon, Oakland Raiders wide receiver Martavis Bryant and DJ Henry Fong, the rapper chilled in a stageside VIP booth with friends.

Tony Tran Photography

Jhene Aiko also had a big night out at The Cromwell over the weekend, celebrating a friend’s bachelorette party at an exclusive dancefloor booth during her boyfriend, Big Sean’s, performance at Drai’s LIVE.

Tyga closed out Memorial Day weekend on May 27 at Oxford Social Club at Pendry San Diego, performing his hits like “Rack City” and “Faded” and inviting a few partygoers onstage when he introduced his new single, “Taste.”

Oxford Social Club

Rapper Pusha-T hosted Beats by Dre's Governors Ball party at PHD Rooftop Lounge at Dream Downtown in New York City on June 1, ending his performance with “Infrared,” the song that started the recent drama between him and Drake.

Ty Dolla $ign got the crowd pumped at Jammcard's private JammJam event at Capitol Records in Los Angeles on June 3.

Rodjiana Munoz

Ben Rector hit the stage at a Spotify Secret Show at Nashville’s Bits & Pieces Antique Boutique on May 23, performing songs like "Brand New" and "When a Heart Breaks" off his upcoming album, Magic, which drops June 22.

Destiny J. Keller

Betty Who performed at Moonlight Rollerway in Los Angeles to celebrate the launch of Henry’s Hard Sparkling Water.

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And Antonio Banderas hopped in the DJ booth during the Miami Fashion Week Designers Dinner at the Doheny Room at Delano on May 31.

Seth Browarnik/Worldredeye.com

Plenty more stars were out and about for fun events.  Lauren Bushnell and her pals attended a brunch at Skin Laundry's new headquarters in Newport Beach's Lido Marina Village on June 4 to celebrate the launch of her new wine line, Dear Rosé, just a few days ahead of National Rosé Day.

Sydney Wallace

Paris Hilton chatted with fellow dog advocate Megan O'Brien about her hound accessory, the Dogipack, during a wellness event at her mom, Kathy Hilton’s, home in Bel-Air, California, on May 26.

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Katrina Bowden celebrated the opening of the La Fete french cocktail bar, a new hot spot from IB Hospitality Founder Rohan Talwar, in West Hollywood on May 31.

La Fete

Tamera Mowry was the keynote speaker at Fashion Mamas: Mamas Making It Summit at the Line Hotel in Los Angeles on June 3.

Jacky Andrews

Mom-to-be Christine Lakin showed off her growing baby bump at Neocell presents Bloom Summit by New Bloom Media, sponsored by Mychelle Beauty, Radar Roller and more, at the Beverly Hilton in Beverly Hills on June 2.

Stefanie Keenan/Getty Images for Bloom Summit

After all that fun comes some R&R!

Actress Leven Rambin enjoyed a late 28th birthday celebration with boyfriend Tilky Jones at Aqua Beach Resort Cancun in late May, enjoying the beach and lounge around their Presidential Suite’s rooftop hot tub and leaving the resort to explore the Mayan ruins in nearby Tulum and Cenote Chaak Tun in Playa del Carmen during their week-long stay.

Karla Ruiz

Red Hot Paris’ Ashley Hutson snapped a selfie with a clean-shaven Robert Pattinson at Charles de Gaulle Airport in Paris, France, on June 1.

Red Hot Paris

Real Housewives of New Jersey star Melissa Gorga visited plastic surgeon Dr. Ramtin Kassir for Botox and Photo-Facial procedures in early June.

Astrit Sabani

Plus, Kyle Busch’s wife, Samantha Busch, grabbed new Walmart Family Mobile smartphones from a Walmart in Charlotte, North Carolina.

Michael Simon

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I’m at work for 12 hours today and am making a playlist for the lobby so I don’t murder anyone, working list so far is under the cut because I wasted 25 mninutes on typing this up. PLEASE rec songs to add with the understanding it can’t be excessively swear-y.

Countdown- Beyonce

Escape- Rupert Holmes

Sit Next to Me- Foster the People

El Perdedor- Maluma

The Louvre- Lorde

Magnets- Disclosure ft. Lorde

Into You- Ariana Grande

The Greatest- Raleigh Ritchie

Do The Panic- Phantom Planet

Africa- Toto

Uptown Girl- Billy Joel

Season Two Episode Three- Glass Animals

Safety Dance- Men Without Hats

Kinks Shirt- Matt Nathanson

Good Day- DNCE

Mother & Father- Broods

Young and Wild- The Strumbellas

Sleep On The Floor- The Lumineers

Sweater Weather- The Neighborhood

West Coast- The Neighborhood

Don’t You Want Me- Human League

Hymn for the Weekend- Coldplay ft. Beyonce

Meteor- The Bird and the Bee

Chocolate- The 1975

Papaoutai- Stromae

The Predatory Wasp of the Palisades- Sufjan Stevens

There’s Nothing Holdin’ Me Back- Shawn Mendes

Chantaje- Shakira ft. Maluma

Carried Away- Passion Pit

Thunder- Imagine Dragons

Ready To Go- Panic! At The Disco

Her Morning Elegance- Oren Lavie

Sight of Spira- Final Fantasy X

Something I Need- One Republic

Take Me to Church- Hozier

It’s A Disaster- OKGO

Here It Goes Again- OKGO

Obsession- OKGO

So Cruel- Young Empires

Sunshine- Young Empires

My Body- Young the Giant

Cough Syrup- Young the Giant

You Told The Drunks I Knew Karate- Zoey Van Goey

Can’t Sleep Love- Pentatonix ft. Tink

Boy Problems- Carly Rae Jepsen

Run Away With Me- Carly Rae Jepsen

Lone Digger- Caravan Palace

Safe and Sound- Capital Cities

Heatstroke- Calvin Harris ft. Young Thug, Pharrell, and Ariana Grande

Come and Get Your Love- Redbone

September- Earth Wind and Fire

Mama Say- Betty Who

Some Kinda Wonderful- Betty Who

Arabella- Arctic Monkeys

Honey I’m Good- Andy Grammar

C’Mon- Ke$ha

Let ‘Em Talk- Kesha

One Dance- Drake ft. Wizkid and Kyla

Just Dance- Lady Gaga

Can’t Stop the Feeling- Justin Timberlake

Cassiopeia- Sara Bareilles

Brave- Sara Bareilles

Cold Cold Man- Saint Motel

My Type- Saint Motel

Don’t Stop Me Now- Queen

Somebody to Love- Queen

Say My Name- Peking Duck

Unpack Your Heart- Phillip Phillips

Get Up Get Down- Phillip Phillips

Without You- Oh Wonder

Lose It- Oh Wonder

Crazy In Love- Emili Sande cover of Beyonce

Find You- Nick Jonas

Polish Girl- Neon Indian

Make Your Mind Up- Moon Taxi

Grace Kelly- Mika

Lollipop- Mika

Animal- Miike Snow

Sugar- Maroon 5 ft. Nicki Minaj

Cold- Maroon 5 ft. Future

I Am Not A Robot- Marina and The Diamonds

Girls- Marina and The Diamonds

Can’t Hold Us- Macklememe ft. Ray Dalton

Glorious- Mackleless ft. Skylar Grey

New Rules- Dua Lipa

The Mother We Share (Errors Remix)- Chvrches

Ohmygodiloveyoupleasedontleaveme- Clever Girl

Talk Too Much- Coin

Boys- Charli XCX

Blessings- Chance the Rapper

Love On Top- Beyonce

Harbour Lights- A Silent Film

The Girl is Mine- 99 Souls ft. Destiny’s Child and Brandy

Feather- Nujabes ft. Cise Starr and Akin From Cyne

Money- Mystery Skulls

Earthquake Weather- Matt Nathanson

Secrets- Mary Lambert

Uptown Funk- Mark Ronson ft. Bruno Mars

Ain’t No Mountain High Enough- Marvin Gaye and Tammi Terrell

Gorgeous- Taylor Swift

Blank Space- Taylor Swift

Ours- Taylor Swift

Chelsea Dagger- The Fratellis

Uruwashiki Hito- Ikimono Gakari

Hanabi- Ikimono Gakari

Way Back When- Kodaline

Tuesday- Hippo Campus

Hand Clap- Fitz and the Tantrums

Don’t Kill the Magic- Magic

Love Lockdown- Glass Animals cover of Kanye West

Drunk on a Plane- Dierks Bentley

Shooting Stars- Bag Raiders

Lips Are Movin- Meghan Trainer

Tenerife Sea- Ed Sheeran

My House- Flo Rida

Dance Dance- Fall Out Boy

Uma Thurman- Fall Out Boy

Young Volcanos- Fall Out Boy

[swordmaid]

shrek x king farquaad

LEAVE A SHIP IN MY INBOX.

and i’ll put my ipod playlist on shuffle and come up with their soundtrack. 

opening credits: Tenerife Sea --- Ed Sheeranmeeting for the first time: The Greatest Performance of my Life --- Shirley Basseyhey, i kinda like you: No One Ever Loved --- Lykke Lii’m going to kiss you now: Shut Up and Drive --- Rihannafalling in love: Blue --- Marina and the Diamondsyour place or mine: Sicko ---- Raleigh Ritchienaked in bed: Beautiful People, Beautiful Problems --- Lana Del Reyfirst fight: Applause --- Lady Gagamaybe we should take a break:  [You make me feel like] A Natural Woman --- Aretha Franklini want you back: Le Freak --- Chicwill you marry me: Illusions --- Marlene Dietrichwe’re getting older: Team --- Lordeif you die i’ll go with you: Savages --- Marina and the Diamondsend credits: Two To Make it Right --- Seduction 

[camillemontespan]

raleigh’s instagram 2 feat marina

I’m trying to gather ideas for writing the latest chapter of Oblivion (Raleigh x Marina) but creativity has escaped me. So I made these instead.

The format won’t let me delete the ‘add a comment’ thing which is really shit because in my head, I like to think Raleigh has disabled the comments because of all the shit his diehard fans post about Marina. 

But this is just a little glimpse into how their life could look. As you can see, he worships the ground she walks on and is real excited to make music with soulllll. 

ALSO, I need to find a good Raleigh face claim. I’m aware Matt Corby isn’t Raleigh. I’m yet to find a better face. 

taggin’ Maleigh shippers: @ibldw-main​ @emichelle​ @simplymissjulia​ @pug-bitch​ @omgjasminesimone​ 

[pokechampion]

A Year With Pokemon GO!

I meant to post this on the 6th, but I’m a few days behind! What can I say? July 6th, 2016 Pokemon GO was released on mobile devices and I’ve been hooked eve since. I can remember that sense of elation everyone felt and I remember seeing the downtown marina area just packed with people of all ages. I remember the pride I felt in taking down my first gym, i mean look at my first “strong” defenders up there. I’ve gotten to play Pokemon while traveling too from being the gym leader of the capital of the US, to Chicago, St. Louis, Raleigh, and beyond I’ve been catching Pokemon. I remember looking at Magikarp and thinking “I’ll never get enough candies.” Gosh, remember that horrendous server lag? So many times spent waiting for the game to work or trying 10 times to even take down a gym thinking “I should stop.” But how would I catch them all otherwise? Oh the appeal of getting medals from Pokestops, to captures, walking, and all those type medals to get to! I remember how ecstatic I was to FINALLY get a Dragonite and how strong it was too. Or walking for what felt like months to get a Charizard, Tyranitar, Ampharos, and more! I did end up completing that Generation 1 Pokedex (x) and reaching Level 30 too!  It hasn’t been an easy road and the game surely didn’t help sometimes. However, with raids and new things always coming, I’m glad I stuck around this far! Here’s to another (hopefully better) year trainers! 

Also, my current progress is under the cut for those interested!

On my way to getting one of the last Pokemon I need from Generation 2: Togetic

Also, my current list of Defenders! I’m bolstering up many of them to help out with raids!

[camillemontespan]

bad things one shot [raleigh carrera x marina cortez]

This is the first fic I’ve written in god knows how long. I’ve been feeling very anxious lately and I still do, but I’m trying my best to get through it and be positive. 

This is not one of my best writings, not by a long shot. But I wanted to write again and so this is what I’ve ended up with. 

The song Bad Things by Machine Gun Kelly & Camila Cabello inspired this fic and the lyrics are also in this. In this fic, just pretend that Marina sang this song instead of Camila :)

Warnings: NSFW. References to drugs. Raleigh x Marina are not a wholesome couple..

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Raleigh lit another cigarette as he listened to Marina curse under her breath. Paper covered with her loopy handwriting scattered the floor around her; she held her pen tightly, her eyebrows furrowed in concentration as her eyes scanned the latest lyrics she had written. She was sat down on the floor with her legs crossed and her rising frustration was becoming more evident. 

‘This is fucking shit,’ she muttered. ‘What the hell is that supposed to even mean?’

Raleigh sighed and moved to sit down beside her. ‘Do you need help?’ he asked.

‘No..’ Marina said unconvincingly. ‘Maybe.. Yes.’

Raleigh chuckled and slung his arm around her shoulder, bringing her in close to him. As he rested his chin on top of her head, Raleigh read the lyrics she had written so far. 

Marina was recording a song with the rapper Machine Gun Kelly and had been put in charge of writing it. Although it was MGK’s song and Marina was only featuring, she was the artist who could write magic on a page. Marina Cortez was the whole package: beautiful, talented, creative, hardworking. She was the most in demand singer in America right now.

But for some reason, the lyrics weren’t coming easy to her. 

‘This is good so far!’ Raleigh told her honestly. ‘What’s the problem?’

Marina bit her lip. ‘It feels.. Fake.’

Raleigh frowned. ‘What do you mean?’

Marina sighed and ran her hands through her raven hair. She leaned into Raleigh and examined her fingernails. ‘Usually, I write from the heart,’ she told him. ‘Personal stuff. Like how much music drives me, how alone I used to feel, you know? Songs for a lonely girl who spends all her time in her bedroom. I want my fans to be able to connect with me and feel like I’m there for them. But I don’t know what this song is supposed to be. MGK has given me free rein but I can’t find inspiration. So this song is gonna tank, his reputation will be ruined and everyone will hate me-’

‘Mari, you’re spiralling,’ Raleigh interrupted. He took the paper and examined it in more detail before picking up her pen. ‘You gotta relax,’ he continued. ‘You’re too close to this. Let me help.’

Marina sighed. ‘Thank you.’

Raleigh smiled. ‘How do you feel right now? Like, in life. How do you, Marina Cortez, feel?’

Marina’s red knit sweater was too long for her arms. The material covered her fingers. Marina played with the sleeves as she thought to herself. ‘I feel good,’ she finally said. ‘Accomplished. I have everything I ever wanted..  I have you.’

Raleigh felt a blush creep on his cheeks. He and Marina had been dating for the past four months and everything was good. Sure, they had their moments. Moments when they argued passionately and fiercely after too many drinks. Moments when things got too heated in a smashed up hotel room and they swore they would never speak to each other again. Magazines and paparazzi lapped it up. Many nights photographers captured images of Raleigh and Marina that should never have made it into print; but that was what the couple had signed up for. Their lives were no longer private. But god, they tried hard to keep it so. 

Raleigh was happy. He got to wake up beside the most beautiful girl in the world. He got to kiss her whenever he wanted, feel her skin against his whenever he wanted, feel her fingernails against his back whenever he wanted. He remembered one night when Marina had gently grazed her finger along his cheek as she whispered in a drunken haze, ‘I want you forever even when we’re not together.’

‘Wait,’ Raleigh said suddenly, his fingers tightening on the sheet of paper. He crossed out a lyric and wrote, muttering under his breath, ‘I want you forever even when we’re not together..’

Marina turned pink now. She remembered that night. ‘You want me to write about us?’ she asked, her voice cracking. ‘Do you think MGK will stand for that?’

Raleigh smiled. ‘You said you write about personal things,’ he explained. ‘So write personally.’

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Over the next few hours, Raleigh and Marina wrote together until they had the bare bones of a song. Raleigh ordered pizza and found bottles of beer; Marina snuggled into him as she wrote, occasionally stopping to sip her beer and ask for his opinions.

‘Am I out of my head?

Am I out of my mind?

If you only knew the bad things I like

Don't think that I can explain it

What can I say, it's complicated’

Marina sang softly, her voice hesitant as she tried out the words that rolled like silk from her tongue. 

‘Bad things, huh?’ Raleigh asked. ‘Care to elaborate?’

Marina laughed and covered her eyes with her hands. ‘Noooo!’ she protested. ‘The words just came to me, don’t ask me what they mean!’

Raleigh let out a deep chuckle and tried to prise her hands away from her eyes. ‘Tell me!’ he said. ‘I won’t laugh!’

Marina kept her hands clamped to her eyes, refusing to look at Raleigh. Raleigh rolled his eyes and kept trying to prise her hands away, wanting to see the girl hiding herself. As he pulled at her hands, Marina shuffled away from him. Raleigh followed, not relenting. 

‘You know I love the chase,’ he teased. His fingers wrapped gently around her wrists. ‘I can do this all day, Mari.’

Marina giggled and scooted away from him, enjoying their little game. Raleigh pulled her back, tackling her to the floor, laughing as she screamed in surprise. His hands held her wrists above her head as he pinned her down. ‘Raleigh!’ Marina cried. ‘Get off!’

‘Nah babe,’ Raleigh said, smiling down into her brown eyes. ‘You’re mine now. So, bad things. What bad things are you talking about?’

Marina’s eyes glinted mischievously. She brought her legs around his waist and pulled him further down onto her. ‘What do you think?’ she murmured. 

Raleigh let out a low growl. He knew exactly the kind of bad things she was meaning. The bad things they performed in the dark. The bad things that nobody in the world would think Marina Cortez enjoyed. To the outside world, Marina Cortez was the innocent pop princess who was dominating the charts. Only Raleigh knew what she was really like. Only Raleigh knew the hidden side of Marina, the one that came out when they were alone. The Marina who liked to be pinned down by Raleigh’s tattooed body. The Marina who liked to be fucked hard against the wall. The Marina who left scars on Raleigh’s back. The Marina who screamed his name as he ravaged her on a nightly basis. 

But he also knew the Marina who told him her deepest fears. The Marina who was terrified of being alone. The Marina who felt inferior to everyone in the music industry despite her incredible talent. The Marina who was vulnerable and scared in this shiny, glimmering world of trophies, accolades and red carpets. Raleigh loved that Marina. His Marina. 

‘I like bad things..’ Raleigh murmured, leaning down to press a kiss against her neck. As he pulled away, he gently nipped at her skin with his teeth, causing her to let out a gasp. Marina’s eyes darkened as she looked into his; both of their pupils were dilated and their hearts beating an extra beat inside their full chests. 

‘I like bad things too,’ Marina whispered, her hands reaching out to slide under Raleigh’s t-shirt.

Raleigh let out a chuckle as he felt her fingers graze his skin. ‘So you’ve said,’ he replied in a low voice. ‘How about you prove it?’

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Marina’s fingernails dug into Raleigh’s tattooed back as he fucked her hard, just the way she liked it. She didn’t care that the hardwood floor and the impact of Raleigh on top of her was hurting her spine. She didn’t care that her cries echoed around the room, probably disturbing the occupants of the neighbouring apartment. 

All she wanted was to feel Raleigh Carerra inside her. 

‘Oh god, Raleigh..’ she groaned, tugging on his lower lip with her teeth. 

‘Mari..’ Raleigh whispered, his breath hot against her ear. ‘You like this?’

‘Yes,’ she whispered back, digging her nails into his skin harder and scratching down his spine. ‘Keep going.’

Raleigh began to move against her more rapidly, his pace increasing as they gathered momentum. Without warning, he reached down to gather her up so she was straddling his lap as he sat on the floor; Marina instantly took control. 

She was on fire. Her black hair was a tousled mane down her back. Droplets of sweat trickled down her temples as she moved her hips, grinding against him hard and deep. She held onto Raleigh’s shoulders for dear life as she ground into him, letting out husky groans as she enjoyed the feel of him inside of her. 

Raleigh’s fingers tangled in her hair as he kissed her hard. Their sex was always like this; passionate, all encompassing, volcanic. Pure fire.

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Later that evening, as Marina and Raleigh wrote together, they remembered nights where they inhaled white powder chased down with vodka. Nights where memories blurred together, things were said, hands touched, clothes stripped. 

I can't explain it

I love the pain

And I love the way your breath

Numbs me of novacaine

And we are

Always high

Keep it strange

Okay, yeah, I'm insane

But you the same

The night where Marina only wore a white vest top and lace briefs, her dark hair tangled down her back as she danced around the living room with a bottle in her hand. Raleigh watched her from his position on the couch, his eyes dark as he took in the way her hips snaked and rolled as she moved around the room with the lights of Los Angeles lighting her up like the star she was. 

Marina reached out to take the paper that was now strewn with lyrics. With her eyes glinting, she smiled to herself as she scrawled more words. She felt adrenaline as the song began to come together. She sat back and started to sing softly. 

The way we love, is so unique

And when we touch, I'm shivering

And no one has to get it

Just you and me

‘Awww, Mari..’ Raleigh joked, pulling her in to press a kiss on her forehead. ‘You’re so sentimental!’

‘Shurrup!’ Marina protested, laughing as Raleigh began to press quick and tiny kisses all over her head. Unlike their sex a few hours previously, this time they were playful with each other. The two sides of Raleigh and Marina that nobody else got to see. The sides that they only showed each other. 

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Nails scratchin' my back tatt

Eyes closed while you scream out

And you keep me in with those hips

While my teeth sink in those lips

While your body's giving me life

And you suffocate in my kiss

Marina watched with wide, nervous eyes as MGK read the lyrics out loud. She had arranged to meet him in a recording studio in downtown LA and she was feeling apprehensive about the entire situation. She still felt like an imposter when she met these established musicians, even though she was now one herself. Any minute now, she was waiting for someone to find her out. Tell her to pack her shit and go home. 

‘Marina, this is awesome,’ MGK finally said after a long moment. ‘Jesus. I mean.. I knew you were good but this is fucking the SHIT.’

Marina exhaled, relief flooding her veins. ‘Oh my gosh, thank you!’ she said. ‘But it wasn’t all me; Raleigh also wrote. He’s due a writing credit.’

MGK eyed her and looked back down at the lyrics. ‘Is this about you guys?’

Marina tucked her hair behind her ear and cleared her throat. ‘So, when do you want to start recording?’ 

[camillemontespan]

a collection of my edits - with the bottom right one by the lovely @mskaneko ❤️

Sorry for only posting edits I've made of Cake - I miss writing them but I don't have motivation to write the next chapter of her one constant. But..

I actually have an idea for a Raleigh x Marina fic. It's a comforting idea and I need comfort right now, so I might write that soon :)

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[camillemontespan]

bad things one shot sneak peek [raleigh x marina]

For some reason, writing Raleigh fics brings me comfort. I started working on this one shot focusing on Raleigh x MC (Marina). It is inspired by the song ‘Bad Things’ by Machine Gun Kelly feat. Camila Cabello. Here’s a sneak peek. I’m writing it very very slowly. Taggin’ those who read Raleigh:

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Warnings: Some NSFW language. 

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Marina giggled and scooted away from him, enjoying their little game. Raleigh pulled her back, tackling her to the floor, laughing as she screamed in surprise. His hands held her wrists above her head as he pinned her down. ‘Raleigh!’ Marina cried. ‘Get off!’

‘Nah babe,’ Raleigh said, smiling down into her brown eyes. ‘You’re mine now. So, bad things. What bad things are you talking about?’

Marina’s eyes glinted mischievously. She brought her legs around his waist and pulled him further down onto her. ‘What do you think?’ she murmured. 

Raleigh let out a low growl. He knew exactly the kind of bad things she was meaning. The bad things they performed in the dark. The bad things that nobody in the world would think Marina Cortez enjoyed. To the outside world, Marina Cortez was the innocent pop princess who was dominating the charts. Only Raleigh knew what she was really like. Only Raleigh knew the hidden side of Marina, the one that came out when they were alone. The Marina who liked to be pinned down by Raleigh’s tattooed body. The Marina who liked to be fucked hard against the wall. The Marina who left scars on Raleigh’s back. The Marina who screamed his name as he ravaged her on a nightly basis. 

But he also knew the Marina who told him her deepest fears. The Marina who was terrified of being alone. The Marina who felt inferior to everyone in the music industry despite her incredible talent. The Marina who was vulnerable and scared in this shiny, glimmering world of trophies, accolades and red carpets. Raleigh loved that Marina. His Marina. 

[camillemontespan]

midnight confessional [M!Raleigh x MC one shot]

Prompt by @omgjasminesimone​ ‘Wow. You’ve made quite the glow up.’

The prompt will appear in bold.

Warnings: NSFWish.

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No idea who else likes Raleigh! 

The lyric from Raleigh’s song is actually Addicted by Enrique Iglesias. 

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The girls were studying the guy who was standing at the bar drinking a glass of scotch. He had that look about him that screamed ‘look but don’t touch’ ; a battered leather jacket, ripped jeans, worn boots. His dark hair curled around his neck and his wrists were decorated with woven braided bracelets and leather cuffs. His arms were inked with tattoos.

‘It’s definitely him,’ the girl whispered to her friend. ‘Go say hi to him.’

‘No, you say hi to him!’ the other shot back. ‘He’ll laugh in my face!’

The first girl sighed and tossed back her prosecco. Throwing her shoulders back, she strutted across the floor towards him. Her stilettos echoed across the wooden floor and she swayed on her feet slightly, trying her best not to trip. She managed to make it over to the guy, grabbing hold of the bar edge before she could fall.

‘Hi!’ she said breathlessly, swiping her hair over her shoulder. 

The guy slowly turned to look down at her. She swallowed. He was, without a doubt, the singer Raleigh Carrera. 

‘Hey,’ he muttered. 

‘I can’t believe it’s you,’ the girl said. ‘I’m a huge fan! Oh my God, I have all your albums, your mixtapes.. Midnight Confessional is my favourite record of yours, so soulful..’

She continued to ramble on while Raleigh studied her through bored eyes. Because he was bored. Anytime a girl came up to him, it was to gush about how amazing he was, how much his music had defined her life, how hot he looked.. He was bored of it. 

Give me something real. Give me the honest truth. 

‘I watched your performance on the AMAs, you were incredible!’ she was saying. ‘Really sexy.’

Someone behind her caught Raleigh’s eye. As the girl went on and on, Raleigh looked over her head and found himself staring at someone who was familiar yet wasn’t. 

Marina Cortez.

Somehow, she had sneaked into this bar undetected, which to Raleigh was ridiculous because everything about her was showstopping. He couldn’t remember the last time he had seen her but she certainly looked different. 

Six months had gone by and the innocent girl who wore glasses and pretty floral sundresses was gone. In her place stood a woman who looked as if she had been forged by fire.  

Her dark hair was loose and curled down her back. She was wearing a chainmail crop top, leather pants and black Doc Martin boots. Her eyes were lined with kohl and dark eyeshadow; silver rings decorated her slender fingers. 

Raleigh wanted her all to himself.

He watched as she ordered a whiskey sour. Raleigh swallowed. He needed to talk to her. He needed to be beside her, drinking whiskey sours with her. He didn’t even like whiskey sours but damn it, he was gonna order one and drink it with her.

‘Um, sorry, are you listening?’ the girl asked.

Raleigh blinked and cleared his throat. ‘Good to meetcha..’ he murmured, gently moving past her so he could join Marina at the bar. His eyes remained fixed on Marina as she sipped her drink. 

‘Wow. You’ve made quite the glow up,’ Raleigh said, keeping his voice confident and steady, completely at odds with the nervous beat of his heart. He leaned casually against the bar, but a bit too casually as he slid on his foot and nearly slipped. He grabbed the bar edge and tried his best to act like nothing had happened.

Marina smirked. ‘Hey Raleigh.’

Raleigh gestured to the bartender and asked for a whiskey sour. He then turned back to Marina, trying to appear cool as cucumber. 

‘You don’t normally come to places like this,’ he said, taking his whiskey sour from the bartender.

‘Places like this?’ Marina asked. ‘What does that mean?’

Raleigh shrugged. ‘Well… it’s a bar for one thing. Last I saw you, you preferred staying at home watching The Great British Bake Off.’

Marina shrugged and sipped her drink. ‘People change,’ she said. She looked up at him with her brown eyes. ‘Besides, what’s wrong with The Great British Bake Off?’

Raleigh laughed, surprised, and shook his head. ‘N-Nothing-’

‘Good, glad we agree,’ Marina interrupted. She smiled and nudged his arm with hers to show she was only joking. They sipped their drinks in silence until Raleigh broke it. He hated silences. He always had to have the conversation flowing. He needed energy and vibrancy; he needed to fill the void. 

‘You look good, M,’ he said. ‘Really good.’

Marina blushed. ‘Thanks, Raleigh,’ she whispered. ‘You do too.’

Their eyes locked. In that moment, Raleigh remembered their times together. Singing together, brainstorming lyrics, laughing at inane jokes. Drinking wine at 3am. Sending each other goofy videos. Kissing, lots of kissing. Midnight drives. Midnight confessionals. 

‘Wanna get outta here?’ Raleigh croaked.

Marina tossed back her drink and slammed it down on the bar. ‘Let’s go.’

Raleigh placed his hand on her lower back, guiding her through the bar. They passed the two girls who had been gawping at him without giving them a glance.

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They had ended up in Raleigh’s bed. In the dark, Raleigh kissed her and touched her. He swallowed down her cries and inhaled the scent of her perfume. His fingers left imprints on her hips where he had held her tight. The bedsheets tangled around their sweaty bodies; Marina held onto them for dear life. 

Afterwards, they needed air.  Raleigh opened the door out to the balcony and Marina padded outside, wearing only his checked shirt as a layer. Her hair was dishevelled and her eyeliner streaked but as the moonlight shone down on her, Raleigh couldn’t help but feel that she was the most gorgeous thing he had ever laid eyes on.

Raleigh moved to stand behind her and placed his arms on either side of her body so he was holding onto the railing. He rested his chin in the crook of her neck, his eyes on the skyline of Los Angeles. It had just gone midnight; the streets were still pulsing with people and the lights of the City of Angels glimmered before them. 

‘How was your tour?’ Marina asked. ‘It has been six months since we saw each other, tell me about what you’ve been doing.’

Raleigh chuckled. ‘Nah,’ he said. ‘I don’t wanna talk shop. I just wanna soak this up, right here, right now.’ 

He nuzzled into her hair. Marina smiled and reached out to take his hand. 

‘I missed you,’ she whispered. 

‘I missed you too,’ he whispered back. ‘You know you’re my girl, right?’

Marina laughed dryly. ‘Am I? You seemed pretty preoccupied talking to that airhead at the bar earlier.’

‘I wasn’t listening to a word she was saying,’ he told her, his breath tickling her throat. ‘My eyes were on you the whole time.’

Marina felt her cheeks burn. 

‘Is it because I dress different now?’ she asked. ‘I dress more sexy?’

Raleigh kissed her neck, making her groan softly. His hands roamed up her legs and along her stomach. 

‘I like you wearing my shirt,’ he murmured. ‘That’s the look I like. Or naked in my bed.’

‘You’re such a guy-’

‘Because you’re bare to me, stripped back,’ Raleigh interrupted. ‘Sure, I love your new look. It’s fucking hot. But right now? Here? You look beautiful.’

Marina turned to face him. Raleigh smiled and cupped her face in his hands. ‘My Marina,’ he whispered.

She reached out to stroke his chest. ‘Is it true your record was about me?’ she murmured. ‘That’s what all those fan sites are saying. The press are lapping it up, trying to make stories. Gossip sites are having a field day. I guess I just wondered if it was all true..’

Raleigh’s hands ran through her curls, knotting her hair in his hands. His lips brushed against her cheekbones before burning a trail like wildfire to her lips. When they parted, Marina’s eyes had darkened. 

‘I meant every single word,’ Raleigh whispered. 

Marina smiled and leaned up to kiss him again. The kiss turned more urgent, making her breathless. In her head, she could hear Raleigh’s soft voice as he sang about her. Marina had listened to the record on repeat; his songs had been stripped back, vulnerable, almost uncomfortably honest. But Marina had adored it. 

I'm not afraid of dying

But I am afraid of losing you

Only Marina knew the real Raleigh, just like only Raleigh knew the real Marina. The world could believe all they wanted about them but in reality, only the two of them really understood the other. Theirs was a complicated relationship based on a publicity stunt that soon grew to be something more. Marina remembered everything, every single thing that nobody else knew. 

Singing together, brainstorming lyrics, laughing at inane jokes. Drinking wine at 3am. Sending each other goofy videos. Kissing, lots of kissing. Midnight drives. Midnight confessionals. 

[camillemontespan]

senorita [raleigh x MC] [one shot]

NSFW.

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The screaming that echoed around the arena was deafening. Marina felt a little thrill as she adjusted her vision. The lights were so bright.

But as she slowly walked onto the stage, the lights dimmed, the screaming faded and all of the 50,000 fans in the audience were gazing up at her in rapture.

Marina focused on the microphone in front of her and closed her eyes as she began to sing without music. Her husky vocals filled the arena, the silence from the audience so palpable you could hear a pin drop.

'I love it when you call me senorita, I wish I could pretend I didn't need ya, but every touch is ooh lala, it's true lala, oh I should be running..'

She broke off and opened her brown eyes to look coyly at the audience. They waited with bated breath.

'Oh you keep me coming for ya,' she finished, laughing as the audience began to cheer. They were chanting her name, something she was yet to become accustomed to. She had only been famous for a few months. Everything was a whirlwind right now but she wouldn't change a thing.

'Land in Miami..'

Raleigh's smooth voice lilted from the wings. The audience screamed louder, knowing he was there. They were going to see Raleigh Carrera in the flesh.

She could feel him behind her. Marina was always aware when he was near her. Her body would break out into goosebumps and heat would build in her core and she would curse herself for feeling this way. She didn't want to.

Raleigh's hand ran up her arm, sending electricity through her veins.

'The air was hot from summer rain, sweat dripping off me,' he sang. Raleigh chuckled when the audience screamed at the lyric about sweat. Of course they enjoyed that line.

'Before I even knew her name, la la la..'

Raleigh wandered around the stage, keeping his eyes fixed on Marina. They had agreed with their managers to make this performance as steamy as possible because the publicity would be wild. But Marina knew that deep down, they didn't need to pretend. She joined in with his singing, their voices merging together.

'Sapphire moonlight, we danced for hours in the sand, tequila sunrise..'

Raleigh shot Marina a knowing look. She blushed despite herself, remembering tequila cocktails, desperate kisses and blurred vision.

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'Right, Cortez, you're up,' Raleigh said. 'What should we drink in this fine establishment?'

Marina rolled her eyes. 'We're not drinking together,' she told him. They happened to be at the same bar on this Friday night but that wasn't unusual. All their celebrity friends liked to come here. Raleigh was with his entourage while Marina was hanging out with Micah and Avery. Her friends were sat at the back, swallowed up by the throng of socialites, musicians and actors.

They had been pretending to be in a relationship for publicity. It hadn't been their idea. Their labels thought that Pop's Bad Boy and Pop's Good Girl would be perfect for headlines.

Raleigh gave her a lazy smile and leaned close. 'What? Afraid that when you lose your inhibitions, you won't be able to keep your hands off me?'

Marina's cheeks flamed. Yes, that was exactly it, but he didn't have to know that.

Twice Marina had ended up in Raleigh's bed after sinking too many drinks. Twice was too much.

They were friends. Colleagues. Marina didn't want to be drawn to him. Raleigh was bad news and she didn't want to be dragged down with him. By all means, pretend to be together if it meant boosted album sales. But she didn’t want to be associated with everything else like his drug use and penchant for trashing hotel rooms.

But there was something about him. He was flirty, sure, and arrogant, but underneath that bravado, he was kind to her. He was interested in what she had to say. He gave her ideas for her songwriting. He made her laugh. 

She was catching feelings. 

Regardless, she had to stop whatever this was. She had to stop it before she was in too deep.

'Come on, Marina,' Raleigh teased. 'Have a drink with me.'

Marina sighed. 'Fine. Tequila Sunrise.'

Raleigh smiled. 'As you wish, senorita.'

Marina gently hit his shoulder. 'Don't call me that.'

'Why not?' he asked. 'There's worse nicknames out there.'

Marina cast her eyes down, trying to stop a little smile from forming. Senorita. Senorita.

The bartender handed them both the Tequila Sunrise cocktails and Raleigh raised his up, facing her. 'Bottoms up, Cortez.'

Marina took a deep sip of the drink, feeling the Tequila burn down her throat to the pit of her stomach. Raleigh's eyes slid down to focus on her lips that were wrapped around the straw and he quickly looked away, anywhere but at her.

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'I love it when you call me senorita,' the two of them sang, beginning to move closer to each other. Raleigh stroked her jawline with his finger, his brown eyes burning into hers, and Marina ran her hand up his chest, ignoring the screams from the audience who were lapping this up.

'I wish I could pretend I didn't need you, but every touch is ooh la la la, it's true, la la la..'

Raleigh grabbed her hand and twirled her, making her long hair billow around her. He brought her back into him, their chests pressed up against each other, sweat running down Raleigh's collar bone and sliding down his white vest. Marina's eyes followed the droplet and Raleigh smirked, knowing exactly what she was thinking.

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They had sunk four tequila sunrises each, chased down by tequila shots.

Marina's mind was hazy but she was capable of knowing what she was doing. She knew she had made her decision. Raleigh was going to take her home but she insisted that they hang out longer because spending time with Raleigh was intoxicating and wild and made her feel free.

They burst into Raleigh's hotel room. His long fingers raked through her hair as she launched herself at him, their mouths crashing together in a mix of heat, desperation, aching attraction and tequila.

'Señorita..' Raleigh groaned, throwing his head back as Marina's lips kissed his neck. His hands moved down her back, down her spine, until they rested on her ass and he squeezed hard. Marina let out a moan and tugged on his lower lip with her teeth.

Raleigh picked her up roughly and carried her to the bed. Sex with Raleigh was always like this. Like he needed her. Like he was mad for her.

He threw her down and Marina burst out laughing. Raleigh smiled and moved to suspend his body over hers.

'You're wearing too much,' he whispered.

'So are you,' Marina replied, running her finger down his arm.

'Let's fix that then,' Raleigh murmured. Marina watched hazily as he pulled his white t-shirt off, exposing his tattooed torso. Black swirls of ink wrapped around his arms and his favourite lyrics were tattooed in pretty writing on his ribcage. Marina loved his tattoos. They told her the story of Raleigh. Raleigh as a man and a person. The Raleigh nobody else got to see.

Raleigh's fingers gently pulled at her top. Marina arched her back as he pulled the garment off, tossing it to the floor. His eyes studied her and Marina could see the sheer lust in his eyes.

'Hermosa,' he whispered.

He made his way down the bed so he was just above her hips. His hands delicately undid her jeans and he pulled them off her legs. Marina watched as his fingers hooked around the string of her lace thong and pulled them down too.

'You're art,' Raleigh told her.

'No I'm not,' she muttered, blushing again.

'You are, Marina,' he said steadily. 'Fucking gorgeous.'

'Raleigh -'

'Let me prove it to you,' he murmured against her core, his hot breath tingling against her. She watched as his tongue slid out between her folds and she groaned as she felt him begin to work her. Raleigh was fantastic at oral. He enjoyed making her writhe and cry out his name. He knew what she tasted of and he couldn't get enough of the elixir.

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'Locked in the hotel, there's just some things that never change,' Marina sang, beginning to move her hips as she danced with Raleigh.

'You say we're just friends,' they both sang, their voices turning low. Marina smirked and turned her body so her back was against his chest. She slowly moved her body down so she was near the floor and Raleigh's hand took hers as he guided her back to standing.

'But friends don't know the way you taste, la la la,' Marina sang, enjoying the feel of Raleigh's heart beating against her back. His fingers clenched around her wrist as he remembered what she tasted like.

She could remember too. She remembered wrapping her lips around his length, taking all of him in deep, making him groan her name and beg for more.

Because at the end of the day, Raleigh and Marina couldn't get enough of each other.

They were friends disguised as colleagues. Lovers disguised as friends.

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Raleigh pulled Marina on top of him, letting out a hiss as he felt himself slide into her so easily. She was more than ready for him.

Her black hair was tousled and wild. Her brown eyes were huge and her lips swollen from their harsh kisses.

Raleigh thought she was the most beautiful woman he had ever seen.

Marina moved her hips against his, throwing her head back as she focused on the sensation of him. His hands grasped her hips as he ground up into her, his breath ragged from the effort.

'Oh god, don't stop!' Marina called out, enjoying the increased speed. Her fingernails scratched his chest but Raleigh didn't care. The marks left from Marina were reminders for him about what they did together in the dark.

He never wanted to forget.

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'Ooh love, your kiss is deadly,' they sang, their lips dangerously close to touching. The audience were loving the performance. They loved Raleigh and Marina.

'Don't stop,' they sang before suddenly stopping.

The audience cheered for more, waiting for the song to continue. Raleigh and Marina's eyes were locked on each other and their chests were heaving from the energy of dancing and singing.

Raleigh kissed her.

The audience screamed.

Marina lost focus as his lips brushed hers. She longed to wrap her arms around his neck and pull him in but that was for private moments. Not public moments like this on stage.

They parted as suddenly as they stopped.

'I love it when you call me señorita,' they sang, walking in a circle around each other, sizing each other up.

They were singing for each other now. This was no longer a performance. As the music reached its crescendo, Raleigh and Marina's voices rang out around the arena.

Feeling confident, Marina strutted around Raleigh, trailing her hand across his chest before she tugged at the material of his vest. He smirked. He loved it when she lost her inhibitions and just went with it. That, to him, was the mark of a true artist. Someone who let the song flood their veins and feel it in their soul.

‘All along I've been coming for you, and I hope it meant something to you, ' they sang, not once taking their eyes off the other. 'Call my name, I'll be coming for you,'

Their voices collided. They sang passionately and truthfully.

'She loves it when I come,' Raleigh sang. Marina pressed her lips together to stop laughing. An innocent lyric with its hidden meaning evident for everyone to see.

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They lay tangled around each other with legs intertwined. Raleigh played with a lock of her hair as he gazed up at the ceiling. He was humming to himself.

'What are you singing?' Marina asked.

'I've got lyrics in my head,' Raleigh told her softly.

Marina smiled and turned to rest on her side, propping herself up as she studied him. 'What lyrics?'

Raleigh shrugged. 'Lyrics about a señorita,' he said, chucking when she rolled her eyes. 'It's a duet.'

'Oh?' Marina's interest was peaked. 'Duet with who?'

Raleigh grinned and pulled her on top of him. She let out a squeal and Raleigh kissed her deeply silencing her.

'Who do you think?' he asked. 'You're my señorita.'