#eupd

[world-lemination]

Wdym you wouldn't claw someone's eyes out for me??? That's kinda weird

[bpdandmexo]

Do you ever crave cutting, even when things aren't extremely bad

[belovedharlot]

knee deep in yr guts and i'm still hungry / my gods like me dirty

[starspd]

the BPD experience of yearning for someone to tell you its going to be okay, but then when they do you dont believe them (and sometimes can even trigger you more)

[templetv]

it's getting worse again (it never got better to begin with)

[someplacehigh]

When will I start feeling less *static noises*

[treehoused]

bpd is so fucking stupid cause im splitting on my fp so i hate him and i hope he dies and im having very vivid fantasies of physically harming him. but i also keep checking if hes texted me and hoping he will because i still need his attention to survive even though i genuinely hate him right now

[nagichi-boop]

I know that this scene is about Shadow grappling with the fact he has alien DNA, but I feel like his thoughts in this scene are relatable to people with conditions like autism, BPD and NPD (not an exhaustive list) who struggle with feeling and being treated like an outcast or monster at times. For some, it’s because we struggle to operate in a world not designed for us. For others, it’s fighting against all the negative perceptions society has of us.

Shadow sees himself as a monster. But Maria assures him that just because he expresses himself differently, that doesn’t make him evil. I feel like especially for people who struggle with empathy, this really hits home. People often assume that people who struggle with empathy, whether cognitive or emotional, are heartless. And for those with personality disorders, they’re often treated as if they are abusive or manipulative just because of the disorder they have, even though people with said disorders are victims of trauma and abuse themselves.

I hope you all have a Maria in your lives. And if not, please remember that it’s your actions that define you, not your neurotype or disorder. If you struggle with socialising, or emotional regulation, or empathy, you’re not a monster. You’re strong for living in a world that so often seems to outcast and insult you. You’re strong for choosing to be as kind as you can be, even though so many people refuse to show that common courtesy in return. Even when you can’t be strong, you are not a monster.

Please be kind to yourselves. You deserve it.

[feeling-likeastranger]

So I keep it to myself— and it hurts

[templetv]

I fear growing up is watching everyone find their place in the world, and losing what you thought was yours

[borderlinesedation]

All I can do is smoke about it

[love-ardour-anarchism]

living with borderline personality disorder is fucking WILD because one moment i feel like i'm just living one loooong extended crisis where every moment i have ever known is agony and the best thing i could hope for is for all of it to STOP forever and then next i feel sunlight on my skin and someone i love tells me they love me and suddenly all is right in my tiny world and i feel like i can continue fending off the horrors of it all for this eternity and then the next with nothing but my steady aim and aching heart and thats all fine

[idontfeelhappy]

[nagichi-boop]

No cuz genuinely my existence has no value.

“You have value by being alive” - I’m a financial and physical burden to everyone around me. My needs are a black hole that sucks away time, money and energy, but produces absolutely nothing in return. My existence causes a deficit, and if I were gone it would make things easier for my family.

[littleoddwriter]

when y'all stop perpetuating stigmas and demonisations of certain mental disorders you deem 'scary' and 'problematic', we can actually start having a conversation about it.

self-absorbed people aren't immediately 'narcissistic'. stop using it as an insult to or even descriptor of every person you feel is being particularly selfish or conceited. NPD is a serious disorder and should be treated as such. stop demonising it.

and also, abusers who use the tactics of putting others down, making everything about them, etc. are extremely self-absorbed and could be anyone. stop making it look like it's just people with NPD, who themselves are abuse victims... often of that exact abuse you accuse them of. same goes for BPD and emotional abuse/using emotions and outbursts as abuse tactics...

generally start treating people with a cluster B personality disorder like the human beings they are, deserving of respect and kindness, just like everybody else.

stop throwing around the word 'psychotic' when you're really just trying to say somebody is 'evil' or 'deranged'. psychosis is a very serious symptom of extremely demonised disorders, like schizophrenia. people with it are just as deserving of respect and kindness as every other human being is.

low/no empathy doesn't make you a bad person. not having compassion doesn't make you a bad person. it's okay for people to not have those traits. they aren't 'monsters' for it. nor are they undeserving of your love and compassion for it, either.

in order to have a nuanced and helpful conversation about stigmas of mental disorders, you need to understand your own partaking in them and unlearn those words, behaviours and thought patterns. please.

sincerely, a person with a cluster B disorder that is sick of your hypocritical bullshit aka ableism

[templetv]

it's been one of those days for my entire life