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some-dr-writings · 3 years

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Kokichi, Rantaro and Shuichi x SHSL Gambler Reader

Kokichi Oma:

· “Hey, HEY! Come play with me!” “Hmm? I didn’t know Hope’s Peak allowed children to join. Sure little boy, we can play a game. What will it be today? Cards? Chips?”

· The pair of you were quite the intimidating pair. There was this palpable smugness about you that you loved teasing others with. Embarrassing or frustrating others is a great tactic to distract them after all. You were an opportunist taking advantage of every last moment, any weakness for yourself. All this and more immediately drew Kokichi’s attention, and so, he knew he had to get your attention, which was easy, all he had to do was ask to play with you. But… “Hey! Take this seriously!” “… I don’t see why though. You have nothing to offer me. And don’t say you’ll bet your juice box, I’d never take candy from a baby, well… in a literal sense at least.” You chuckled recalling your countless, effortlessly won victories. Kokichi could already tell you were going to be fun to be with. You were on par with him when it came to misleading others and that thirst for merriment. “A date.” “Oh?” “Nishishi, if I win, you go on a date with me, and if you win I’ll do whatever you want for a day.” “Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, I don’t know…” Your poker face was that charmingly smug smile, an expression he was already growing tired of, he wanted to see more of you.

· Both of you loving fun in all it’s forms were practically magnetized to one another, knowing the other was restless and would inevitably start some trick or game that’d liven up the world.

· No matter how many times Kokichi tried, it seemed he could never beat you in any card-based game, even ‘go fish’ all of which only strengthened his resolve to win. Quickly you stopped making bets, the challenge against your boyfriend, one of the few who seemed to stand a chance against you was enough.

· ‘little boy’, you couldn’t help but smile seeing how Kokichi always reveled in that nickname you gave him, playing up his childish antics because of it. You were likely the only person outside of D.I.C.E. who found his antics endearing.

· Often times the pair of you would get into lying competitions trying to see who could make the most believable lie and actually convince the other of it. It was perfect practice.

· A pair of fun seeking liars like yourselves, it was as if you were destined for one another.

Rantaro Amami:

· Protecting you was Rantaro’s main goal in life aside from finding his sisters. You, the Super High School Level Gambler had gotten your title not through being lucky or even good at bluffing for these games. No, you were the Super High School Level Gambler because you would bet ANYTHING in ANY game. Didn’t matter what it was, you lived for the thrill of taking chances, not knowing what the outcome would be. This… got you into so much trouble, especially when you played with those who figured out they could take advantage of this and get you to do things like do their chores for a month or act as their personal maid. You even almost lost your entire life savings once. At least things were never boring with you.

· At times your boldness did come in handy though. You always insisted on joining Rantaro in his travels, saying he was too relaxed. You never let anything get in your way, often making bets and in exchange for you winning, gaining passage in some unallowed area, which surprisingly worked a good chunk of the time. You never took bullshit from anyone and would destroy the reputation for any who dared to cheat, saying that ruined the sanctity and basis for playing such risky games in the first place. That boldness seeped into most aspects of you actually, it was as if you had no fear… or maybe you just never thought things through. “It’s called a calculated risk!” “Uh, Honey… Just be careful.” “I already am, but the games are no fun if we don’t go all out!” Rantaro thought that being underaged, sneaking into a casino so you could gamble for some more money was rather risky in and of itself, but this was rather calm for you.

· You were semi responsible however, refusing any gifts of money from Rantaro, saying you’d feel guilty for placing that on the line. You only ever bet yourself and your property, only exclusion was any gifts from others. You also never kept any rewards, “I don’t care about that, I just want to play! But people are more likely to play if there’s something on the line. They chose to bet me items, I never ask for anything in return for my bet.” You always gave your rewards away in fact, acting as a philanthropist, after meeting Rantaro, the majority of those going into searching for his sisters. Items, money, services, didn’t matter, you gave it all away to charities, hospitals, even friends if not your boyfriend. You even specifically went gambling for their sake, overhear someone was short a little money at lunch? A few days later you give them a thousand dollars. Many would think you simply were searching for excuses to play, but Rantaro knew better, sure you like the game, but when it was for a friend you always tried your best, putting everything on the line to keep playing just to help them.

· You were reckless but so kind. At times it was a bit much to rein you in and keep you from losing everything, but he adored you, a selfless individual who knew how to stand up for themselves, he could maybe even learn a thing or two from you. You were his irreplaceable partner, and he loved you, just wanting to make sure you didn’t completely screw yourself over.

Shuichi Saihara:

· Honesty, that was the most important thing in your relationship with one another. The moment after Shuichi first asked you out, you told him your secret. You were a cheater. Life was very rough for you, running away from a bad home and not wanting to go to an orphanage or worse be sent back, you ended up living with a guy who you helped cheat at games, which quickly turned to you going out on your own. You were a criminal, and you thought Shuichi deserved to know that before getting involved with you. This really touched him.

· Even if you wanted to stop cheating, you had to keep going for the sake of attending Hope’s Peak and not getting kicked out for not improving. It was difficult at times to keep up the act, especially with Kokichi snooping around but Shuichi tried his best to protect you. Yes, what you were doing was illegal, but you didn’t want this, and… he wanted for you to have a chance at a better life beyond the lies and sleight of hand trickery you pulled, and what better place to find that than Hope’s Peak.

· Shuichi tried helping you find other occupations that could use your… specific skill set. In the end, you became an assistant to Shuichi, a legal assistant. You could read people, instantly spot their ticks, snuff out their lies with your own lies. Having gotten fake documents so you could live on your own at much too young of an age, you knew how and where people could forge such sheets. Any area Shuichi may struggle in or knowledge of how criminals may go about things, you were there to lead him in the right direction. Knowing how to avoid the law, you knew it rather well and acted as a good pretend lawyer, pointing out how a lawyer would look at the evidence and point out if the criminal would escape consequences or not, even with Shuichi’s investigation. You even taught Shuichi how to fake confidence in himself which helped him to gain real confidence.

· Even after years you still relied on one another, supporting the other as best you could. You still went gambling on occasion to keep face as the ex-Super High School Level Gambler, but you only won sometimes. If you did get anything you showered Shuichi in gifts, loving how flustered he got. You were eternally grateful for all he had done for you and you were determined to make his life as great as you could in return for giving you the safe stability you never could find before.

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danganronpasurvivoraskblog · 4 years

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You have a lot to explain, Shuichi.

NOTE: Spoilers for the entirety of V3.

Y-Yeah...no kidding...

Take your time. We’re not in any rush...

Th-Thank you...

It all started when me...A normal high school student, woke up in a place called the Ultimate Academy for Gifted Juveniles. I was trapped with 15 other students, including...

A girl named Kaede Akamatsu. The person in particular that I formed a pretty special bond with.

When we tried to get a handle on the situation, our group was abruptly accompanied by a team of bear robots, known as Monokubs who exposed us to a "Flashback Light," which kind of work like neuralysers. When we woke up again, we remembered having ultimate talents. For example, I was the Ultimate Detective and Kaede was the Ultimate Pianist. But then...

Monokuma, this robot bear and the Monokubs father, arrived and informed us that the only way to escape the academy is to successfully murder another student and not be voted as the culprit at the resulting class trial. Initially, we were obviously unwilling to take part in this game, until a new rule was imposed If nobody is killed within two days, Monokuma will prematurely end the game by killing all of the students.

Makoto: Huh!? That’s insane! Isn’t that just a life or death situation?

Hajime: Wouldn’t put it past Monokuma...I mean, it’s not too different from the funhouse, right?

Shuichi: Can I continue?

Hajime: Sure.

After finding a hidden card-locked door in the academies library, I reasoned that there must have been a mastermind controlling Monokuma, and Kaede worked with me to set a trap to expose the mastermind just prior to the time limit. However...

When our trap was sprung, we headed down to the library and found the dead body of Rantaro Amami, an amnesiac who couldn’t remember his own talent by this point.

It turns out that without telling me, concerned that there wouldn’t be enough time to stop the mastermind, Kaede had secretly altered the trap to kill the person it caught. Rantaro dying wasn’t part of her plan, and during the following class trial, Kaede attempted to uncover the mastermind but failed. After encouraging me to call her out, she confessed to her crime, encouraged me to keep going and survive with everyone and...

She was...executed...

Kuripa: I...I’m so sorry...

Shuichi: Don’t worry...It’s painful to remember but...she would want me to move on...

Although I was definitely brokenhearted at Kaede's death, I soon developed a lifelong friendship with Kaito Momota, the Ultimate Astronaut, as well as Maki Harukawa, the Ultimate Assassin, who hid her true self under the guise of the Ultimate Child Caregiver before she opened up to us...I wish I could say we lived in relative harmony but...that wasn’t the case...

Several more murders took place and several more of my “friends” were executed, but I was able to solve all of the mysteries that the class trials threw at me...but that’s where “he” always came into play...

Hajime: Who’s...”he?”

One of the students alongside me in the predicament was this short boy with purple hair named Kokichi Ouma, who’s ultimate talent was apparently being the “Ultimate Supreme Leader” of a secret evil organisation that had over 10,000 members...He constantly tried to vex me and the others investigations, continuously lying and obscuring the truth from us for his own entertainment...

Hajime: Why does that sound...familiar?

Makoto: Funny, I was just about to say that...

Kuripa: Guys, let him talk.

When about only half of us remained, we found additional Flashback Lights and gradually remembered that we were students of the reopened Hope's Peak Academy, who were sent into space in the hopes of preserving humanity after meteors began to fall upon the Earth and a deadly epidemic had ravaged the remainder of the population.

Kokichi revealed to us that the ship had been hijacked and returned to earth by people who were against the project, and that the world itself had been destroyed by the meteors. He also revealed to us that he was the mastermind behind the killing game controlling Monokuma, and he proved it by summoning the Exisal robots that had been used by the Monokubs to keep us in check up until now.

Kaito tried to fight back against him, but he ended up getting kidnapped.

When this happened, me, Maki, and the other students staged a rescue mission with the aim of saving Kaito and stopping the game, but after we used hacking weapons created by one of our deceased friends, Miu Iruma, an inventor, we broke into the Exisal hangar where Kokichi was keeping Kaito...But when we broke in...

We were greeted with a corpse, crushed underneath a hydraulic press. The trial ensued and it became hard to not only figure out the culprit, but also we didn’t know the victim...

Further complicating the mystery was the sudden arrival of a massive Exisal mech during the trial, whose unseen pilot sounded like and identified himself as Kokichi but bore the idiosyncrasies of both Kokichi and Kaito. During the ensuing trial, it became clear that Kokichi was not the mastermind and only claimed as such to stop the killing game. Kokichi convinced Kaito to kill him and then pretend to be him in the hopes of creating a crime Monokuma could not solve and defeat the game. His identity exposed, Kaito emerged from the Exisal and urged us survivors to uncover the truth before being executed.

Kuripa: You mean that this Kokichi guy was able to beat Monokuma at his own game by creating a mystery so impossible that even HE couldn’t solve it!? That’s...jeez, that’s actually pretty impressive.

Hajime: An impossible mystery? Yeah, this definitely sounds familiar...

Unwilling to continue the game, my friend Keebo, using his powers as the Ultimate Robot, decided to destroy the school, which would kill the rest of us with it. He gave us until dawn to find the mastermind, or else we’d all die from the lack of oxygen on the planet. It was me, Maki, and two other people, Ultimate Magician, Himiko Yumeno, and Ultimate Cosplayer, Tsumugi Shirogane. We investigated the school and discovered evidence that contradicted our memories, as well as inconsistencies in Rantaro's crime scene. We further learnt that Rantaro was the "Ultimate Survivor", having taken part in a previous killing game. To break up Keebo and the now revived Monokubs fight, I called a final class trial to re-try Rantaro's case.

At the trial, I found the mastermind. Tsumugi Shirogane was the real villain we’d been looking for the whole time, and she was the one who killed Rantaro and framed Kaede for the crime. Tsumugi confessed and revealed, when we asked about our memories, that our memories, talents, relationships, and personalities were entirely fake, the Flashback Light was a brainwashing device and the destroyed world was nothing more than a sound stage.

All of the events that we had found out about: The tragedy, the killing game at the original Hope’s Peak Academy, the Jabberwock Island incident, the remnants of despair, the final killing game and everything else...never existed. All of it took place in a fictional world known as Danganronpa. The disgusting truth was that Danganronpa was an anime that got so popular, that it was able to become a long running franchise, and by the time our killing game rolled around, it had become so famous that real people had begun to be used as part of the killing game.

Hajime: That’s completely insane...! How many incarnations did the killing game get?

Shuichi: Our version of the killing game was...Danganronpa 53...

Kuripa: 53!? That fucked up show reached 53 seasons!? How could something that sick and twisted reach so many seasons!?

Shuichi: Because people love and enjoyed watching shows like that, and it gave us hope in even the most trying times. In fact, we were no different...

Makoto: What do you mean?

All of the “Ultimates” except for Keebo, were ordinary individuals who willingly had our the memories of our previous, normal lives permanently erased in exchange for a talent and a fake background. Many of us, including Kaede, Kaito and even myself, were revealed to have joined purely for fame, fortune, or the thrill of the game, and we were far less trusting and altruistic than our killing game selves.

Makoto: You said Keebo wasn’t the same. Why’s that?

Keebo was...part of the equipment crew, and he didn’t even realize it...

He was a walking camera for the viewers, and possessed an antenna disguised as part of his hair, that let him hear the audience's opinions on the show. They encouraged him to battle Tsumugi's despair with hope. Tsumugi offered us a choice: "hope", where she is executed but we must choose two of their own to take part in the next killing game filling the same role as Rantaro, who was a survivor of the 52nd season, or "despair", where K1-B0 will be executed and the game will continue.

Hajime: I suddenly feel really self-conscious about my hair...

Makoto: I was just about to say that...

Shuichi: Yeah, I know, right?

Kuripa: Funny how this weird hair spike seems to run in the family.

Makoto: We’re...not a family...

Hajime: That’s not important right now. What...what did you choose...

Shuichi: That’s the thing...

Realizing either choice would still continue the killing game, I encouraged the others to not vote, meaning everyone would be executed but the killing game would also end. I was able to convince Maki, Himiko and Keebo, but then due to their desperation of never letting the slaughter and despair, their own entertainment, stop, the viewers hacked Keebo and forced him to serve only as a conduit for viewer votes.

But I wasn’t about to let that happen. I took advantage of the situation and used this to make an impassioned plea directly to the viewers to get them to stop watching. At the vote, all parties abstained, including Tsumugi and Keebo. Tsumugi was willing to sacrifice herself to continue Danganronpa and Keebo had also refused, indicating the audience has given up on Danganronpa. As the remaining viewers tuned out, Tsumugi, completely and utterly defeated, told Keebo to go ahead and destroy the school. He did so, killing Tsumugi in the process, then activated his self-destruct feature and deliberately flew into the glass dome surrounding the school.

Somehow, me, Maki and Himiko were able to escape from the rubble mostly unscathed. And when we did, we noticed this huge blue portal looking thing in the sky...

When we saw it, we considered the possibility that Tsumugi was lying about our past selves willingly signing up to participate in Danganronpa, and about the original editions of Danganronpa being fiction...

And in hope’s it’s where it would lead us, we stepped through the portal and departed for the real world...

And that’s how I somehow ended up here, through that weird portal...

I...woah...

#danganronpa survivor #danganronpa #danganronpa 1 #dr1 #danganronpa 2 #dr2 #danganronpa v3 #drv3 #oc #shuichi saihara #makoto naegi #hajime hinata #kuripa kurafto #ask #troubles brewing arc

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ao3feed-danganronpa · 5 years

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The Moonlit Revel of the Phantom Thief

read it on the AO3 at http://bit.ly/2C0MIMy

by TheMayBellTree

Shuichi Saihara. A prince. A standard, run of the mill royal brat - but not really.

Kokichi Ouma. A phantom thief. Living on the streets, but not a street rat.

During one of Kokichi's nightly escapades, Shuichi finds Kokichi on a windowsill. And since then, he couldn't be more intrigued.

For the Saiouma Pit Secret Santa gift exchange! This is my gift to Hikabuu.

Words: 3495, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Dangan Ronpa - All Media Types, New Dangan Ronpa V3: Everyone's New Semester of Killing

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M

Characters: Saihara Shuichi, Oma Kokichi, Amami Rantaro

Relationships: Oma Kokichi/Saihara Shuichi

Additional Tags: kingdom au, Phantom Thief AU, Shuichi's a prince, Kokichi's an infamous phantom thief, Rantaro's just chillin, I'm back, Saiouma Pit Secret Santa!, yeet, short and sweet, Fluff, just a splash of angst

read it on the AO3 at http://bit.ly/2C0MIMy

#IFTTT #ao3feed #fanfic #dangan ronpa #danganronpa #dr

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shegananigans · 2 months

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realized i never posted these but here's some extra amamotas i got to draw for dear @mangoisgay for the amami secret gift exchange!!

in these warm ass february days, its important to stock up on marketable popsicles of your favorite blorbos!

#danganronpa #drv3 #kaito momota #rantaro amami #amamota #kaede akamatsu #fanart #mine #oodles of doodles #rantaro amami secret gift exchange

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toxicpineapple · 4 years

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my (personal favourite) writings from 2019

I don’t have anything for January because I guess I didn’t write/didn’t post anything then? At any rate, here are my favourite writings from every month of 2019.

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February:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/17764769/chapters/41916899 : “To Give Life Meaning”, a 5+1 things Hinanami fic I wrote over the course of several days, mostly at night. The honourific situation with this one is messy and there are the beginnings of a lot of good lines? Like I know what I was trying to say. But it’s not the kind of thing that I would be happy posting nowadays. (Ignore the fact that it says it was completed in September of this year; I went through nine months later and separated the different sections into chapters so that it would be easier to read. I wrote and published all of it back in February.) This was the second Danganronpa fic I ever wrote.

Content warnings: Contains talk of suicide, and mentions of being suicidal. Generally in the past tense. Nobody is proactive in this fic.

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March:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/18232343 : “Hold his hand”, the very first Amasai one-shot I ever wrote. I got the idea for this one late at night thinking about how Shuichi would react if his mom died. I was actually going to write this with Ryoma comforting him, or Kiyo maybe, but I ended up doing Rantaro because I watched all of his FTEs with Shuichi and was like… I do like this green man. Anyway, I’m glad I did, because if I hadn’t I don’t know if the Amasai series would… even exist. That’s really weird to think about.

Content warnings: Minor character death on the part of Shuichi’s mother. The focus of the piece isn’t her dying (as it is in fact from Rantaro’s perspective) so much as it is the conflicting emotions that it stirs up for Shuichi, but it’s still, y’know, someone’s mother dying. Anyway, read with caution.

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April:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/18468478 : “Does it matter?”, a late-night fic where Aoi is conflicted about her sexuality and calls Makoto to talk about it. I wrote a lot of one-shots in April (I actually surprised myself going through them haha) but this one is my favourite because it touches on things that I don’t see addressed a lot. Makoto and Aoi are good friends. 10/10.

Content warnings: Internalised homophobia. It hasn’t triggered anybody that I know of because it’s mostly just Makoto giving advice and Aoi coming to the conclusion that she really likes Sakura in a not-so-platonic way, but y’know.

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May:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/18776947 : “Shuichi thinks too much”, another installment in the Amasai drabbles series, and… wow. I literally only posted Amasai in the month of May. This one is my favourite (of the ones I posted in May, obviously) because it’s the one where Shuichi realises that Rantaro is claustrophobic and then they have a messy first kiss in the wake of Rantaro’s panic attack. I like fics where Character A kisses Character B and B has to be like… slow down partner… ur panicking. I also just like milking Rantaro angst so it’s a win-win. I go back and read this one periodically :)

Content warnings: Panic attacks, claustrophobia. Shuichi is exhausted in this fic haha but at least he has his shit together enough to know exactly what he’s feeling through the whole thing.

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June:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/19210423 : “Quiet Moments”, an introspective drabble/character study in which Peko thinks about how much she loves Ibuki. Damn, I love Pekobuki. I haven’t written nearly enough for them. I wrote a lot of things in June (including an Undertale one-shot which was a strong contender for this spot just because this list is dominated by Danganronpa stuff) but this one is my favourite because it was just me… rambling about how much I love Ibuki… and projecting onto Peko. Which I do every time I write this pairing, but I didn’t make this list to call myself out, so yeah I’m just going to move on.

Content warnings: Peko briefly mentions that Fuyuhiko had to get an appendectomy within the piece, but it’s nothing intense.

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July:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/19974424 : “Take his soul with a kiss”, a Grim Reaper AU in which Maki is Death and Kaito is a guy with the audacity to tell her to wait a week before grabbing her soul. I’ve finally hit the part of this summer where I was eating one meal a day and spending the rest of my time on my laptop writing fic. 14k words a day, babey! I wrote all my favourite pieces in July (Shuichi’s love hotel, the one where Rantaro pierces Shuichi’s ears, the domestic Hinanami, the one where Shuichi has a breakdown and everyone comforts him, that one where Shuichi is mean to Kokichi and then apologises) but this one definitely deserves to be here because it’s my favourite. I like Momoharu/Kaimaki/Harukaito (idk what y’all call it man) so, uh. Yeah.

Content warnings: Death is talked about a lot but I don’t want to spoil anything about the ending by saying shit so I’ll just??? It’s a Grim Reaper AU, procede with caution. Oh, and Kaito has a lung disease.

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August:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/20442290/chapters/48499868 : “Causation and Correlation”, another 5+1 things fic (I have a good chunk of them) where Kyoko can hear death and so she goes around saving people. Also, in the end of the fic, someone saves her. It’s a cute fic and I love writing Kyoko so obviously this one is my favourite. (The one where Kokichi has parents and the Kaemugi fic I wrote that month are ones I really like too… this isn’t easy for me gamers ;w;) This is one of those fics where I was feeling extremely confident about my writing abilities the whole time I wrote it, and I’m still really proud of it.

Content warnings: Again, uh, death? Attempted murder, near-drowning, sickness, head injuries, and also attempted suicide. (Nobody dies in this fic, though.) Kyoko has her work cut out for her in this one.

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September:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/20577251 : “Cigarette smoke”, a vaguely nonsensical Saimota piece I wrote where Kaito breaks down and Shuichi comforts him. I’ve only written Saimota twice and both times it’s been Kaito angst because you guys, you just, you don’t address his sadness at all unless it’s in Oumota (and we all know how I feel about Oumota). I should start referring to September as “the month of angst fics I wrote in the middle of the night” because that’s exactly what all of it was. This one wasn’t a vent fic, but there were a lot of them. September is also the month I started doing Amami week, so there’s a lot of that, too.

Content warnings: Kaito really… berates himself in this one. His internal dialogue is hard for me to read in this one because he’s super hard on himself. He also has a meltdown and starts hyperventilating at one point (and the way I write breakdowns is always super descriptive) so please make sure you’re happy and healthy before reading.

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October:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/21195527 : “In the forever sense of the term”, what is probably my favourite Amasai fic at this moment, where Shuichi and Rantaro are forced to address Shuichi’s abandonment issues, and also there’s crying. A lot of it. From Shuichi mainly but a little bit from Rantaro too. I was surprised at how many fics I wrote in October because I was mostly focusing on Inktober I should think? I wrote a lot of original works in Inktober (though I ended up falling off the wagon at the end due to burnout) and it was a really fun experience! I think it strengthened my skills as a writer. Anyway this one is cathartic as hell.

Content warnings: The self loathing is strong with this one. It’s one of many mental breakdown fics that I’ve written this year. And there’s obviously the abandonment issues thing. Yikes.

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November:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/21399748 : “One hundred and twenty six tiles on the ceiling”, where Himiko ends up bailing on plans she made with everyone to hang out and instead stays at home, stewing in self deprecation, until Ryoma shows up, and then everyone else comes to take care of her. Another one of those ones where everyone is there for someone after a breakdown. I like this one because Himiko is my baby and most of the angst the fandom puts out for her is centered around Tenko and Angie, which sucks because I headcanon her as having depression. Like, depression that is entirely unrelated to the people she knows kind of depression. I didn’t write a lot in November because I had a relapse, but I like this one anyway.

Content warnings: Depressive episode, disassociating, suicidal ideation, all the ugly things that come with depression. This isn’t a pretty fic. I don’t write depression as something that’s pretty or poetic because it’s not. It fucking sucks and that’s just how things are going to be.

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December:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/21976864/chapters/52442179 : “An Ode to Yellow Carnations”, a 5+1 things fic where Tsumugi is a florist and Kaede takes different people to her shop until eventually she goes by herself. Is anyone surprised to see this one here? I wrote it for Tumblr’s Danganronpa Secret Santa Gift Exchange 2019 and went waaaay overboard with it. Which is probably why I like it so much. It took me ten days to actually complete, and I’ll frame it like I was diligently writing the whole time, but anyone who knows me knows that I never do things in that way. In truth I switched ideas for the fic four different times and then wrote half of it all in one night when I was hit with a surge of inspiration. I was really nervous that the person I wrote it for would hate it since it’s so long, lol. (Hi Alerane, I love you.) Anyway, I’m gonna think of December of this year as the month where I spent a really long time on a bunch of fics and then posted them all at once.

Content warnings: Very minor character death, mentions of alcohol use (nothing egregious, just recreational use on an outing with friends and all the characters are of age), also Kaede doesn’t go outside in this fic.

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I’m going to try and get out one more fic before the year ends. To be honest I wasn’t expecting to have updated Search by now so I’ve been kind of sitting around wondering what I should write. Maybe I should just start on the Aki chapter, but I’m kind of putting that off because writing those chapters takes a lot of energy and Aki’s is probably going to double Tsubaki’s in length. (Which is great, since Tsubaki’s was already a monster of a chapter on its own.) I’ve had a really great year for writing, y’all. I’ve made lots of friends and learned a whole lot about myself, and my writing style, and the characters I’m trying to portray.

I didn’t include any long-term multi-chapters in this list, like The Best Lies or my Fanganronpa (rip… I swear I’ll pick it back up again soon, I love those characters) but if you want to track my progress as a writer without reading eleven different fics, I’d really recommend reading one of those, because you can see it happening as the chapters go on. There’s so much that I’d probably write differently from where I am now as a writer, because that’s just how things work. Life is like that. You do things a certain way in the moment, and then later, you wish you could’ve done them differently. It’s impossible to live your life without regrets, or things that you’d like to do over again.

But for what it’s worth, I’m really happy that I don’t have to. Thank you guys so much for sticking with me this year. It hasn’t been the best, but it’s been all that it’s been capable of being.

Here’s to a new decade.

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