#resilency

[hea-musings]

evening muse: resilency through positive thinking

as i sat in class the other week i began to recognize that my year long efforts during my gap year had failed brilliantly. spurred by a tenacious state of unemployment, during my gap year i came to the resolution of starting a journey of wellbeing to preempt the burnout i felt creeping upon me post grad. at the drawing board i mapped a course with the intention of understanding my stressors and triggers intimately so as to avoid or compartmentalize them appropriately so that would not hinder my ambitions. tuesday after class, i cried as i recognized the ways in which the symptoms of burnout aligned with my difficulties of successfully achieving remediation. now, as i battle anxious, depressive thoughts in each waking moment, i wonder in my debilitated state how or if i will overcome the learned helplessness i feel stifled by.

[cupidon5757]

[girlactionfigure]

muslim_zionist18

Calling a war you started a gen*cide doesn't make you a victim. Truth matters.

[winterfieldfrontiers]

Sammick but Remmick is at 20s Mysterious Charismatic.

Remmick: mo Sammie bheag, so you wanna work with me?

Sammie: I feel i could trust you, you looks nice..i guess

Remmick: O darling, you don't know me.

[thoughtfullytired]

#MiqoMarch 2025 Day 11: Loss

"...You two would have been best friends..."

[romain57]

[ninadove]

Nina reads Dracula 🦇

September 24th

I hadn't the heart to write last night; that terrible record of Jonathan's upset me so. Poor dear! How he must have suffered, whether it be true or only imagination. I wonder if there is any truth in it at all. Did he get his brain fever, and then write all those terrible things, or had he some cause for it all? I suppose I shall never know, for I dare not open the subject to him.... And yet that man we saw yesterday! He seemed quite certain of him.... Poor fellow! I suppose it was the funeral upset him and sent his mind back on some train of thought.... He believes it all himself. I remember how on our wedding-day he said: "Unless some solemn duty come upon me to go back to the bitter hours, asleep or awake, mad or sane." There seems to be through it all some thread of continuity.... That fearful Count was coming to London.... If it should be, and he came to London, with his teeming millions.... There may be a solemn duty; and if it come we must not shrink from it.... I shall be prepared. I shall get my typewriter this very hour and begin transcribing. Then we shall be ready for other eyes if required. And if it be wanted; then, perhaps, if I am ready, poor Jonathan may not be upset, for I can speak for him and never let him be troubled or worried with it at all. If ever Jonathan quite gets over the nervousness he may want to tell me of it all, and I can ask him questions and find out things, and see how I may comfort him.

Can we talk about how cool Mina is for a second? Her first reaction upon finding out is disbelief, of course, but she turns around so quickly so she can A. support Jonathan and B. potentially save the world. She knows her skills are valuable and she immediately puts them to good use. It’s not hard to see why Jonathan fell in love with her!

It also means that everything we’ve been reading so far is courtesy of her work, by the way. Which immediately prompts two thoughts:

She apparently wasn’t jealous at all upon reading the Three Weed-Smoking Girlfriends bit Jonathan was so worried about, otherwise she would have edited it out;

She had to transcribe Lucy’s journal and her own letters… She had to add the “unopened by her” mention herself…

Everybody say thank you Mina!

And now for the bit where I genuinely shed a tear:

I pray you to pardon my writing, in that I am so far friend as that I sent to you sad news of Miss Lucy Westenra's death. By the kindness of Lord Godalming, I am empowered to read her letters and papers, for I am deeply concerned about certain matters vitally important. In them I find some letters from you, which show how great friends you were and how you love her. Oh, Madam Mina, by that love, I implore you, help me. It is for others' good that I ask—to redress great wrong, and to lift much and terrible troubles—that may be more great than you can know. May it be that I see you? You can trust me. I am friend of Dr. John Seward and of Lord Godalming (that was Arthur of Miss Lucy). I must keep it private for the present from all. I should come to Exeter to see you at once if you tell me I am privilege to come, and where and when. I implore your pardon, madam. I have read your letters to poor Lucy, and know how good you are and how your husband suffer; so I pray you, if it may be, enlighten him not, lest it may harm. Again your pardon, and forgive me.

I’ve said it before, but there are some similarities in the way Dracula and Van Helsing talk. Well, there are some in the way they write too!

You may remember this little bit from May 3rd:

"My Friend.--Welcome to the Carpathians. I am anxiously expecting you. Sleep well to-night. At three to-morrow the diligence will start for Bukovina; a place on it is kept for you. At the Borgo Pass my carriage will await you and will bring you to me. I trust that your journey from London has been a happy one, and that you will enjoy your stay in my beautiful land.

Your friend,

DRACULA.

The letter opened and closed on a fake declaration of friendship, foreshadowing Jonathan’s imprisonment.

Van Helsing does something very similar here, but A. with desperate apologies and B. recognising his status as someone who is very much not Mina’s friend (yet?). So what does it mean?

It means he is breaking down

We saw him run himself ragged to save Lucy and fail. We’ve seen him fall from witty and pretentious banter (with Seward) to hysterical sobbing and laughing (also with Seward) in the span of a few weeks. We’ve seen him hide the truth while also giving out clues, we’ve seen him break down because he knows, and doesn’t want to burden anyone else with this knowledge, but realistically can’t bear the weight on his own.

So when he reads Mina’s letters — the ones Lucy never got to open — he has no choice but to reach out. Mina is not a doctor like Seward, she’s not a Strong Young Blood Donor like the suitors, she’s just a young woman who is also struggling and also loved Lucy, and this fifty-something genius finds a sense of kinship in her, and immediately decides she is the only person who can help him.

But that means she must know, and therefore be trapped in the same Hell he is. Hence the structure of the letter. I LOVE THIS BOOK

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[cupidon5757]

[girlactionfigure]

muslim_zionist18

Jews will never forget and never forgive.

[achilleid]

I wanna know what kind of "spirit" you all think your Rook, Inquisitor, Hawke and Warden would be. Feel free to gush and wax poetically i wanna READ IT.

Ex. My Rook would be a spirit of Tenacity. Inquisitor would be a spirit of Judgment. Hawke would be a spirit of Devotion. Warden Tabris would be a spirit of Justice.

Edit, now with DEMONS too cause yall so smart.

My Rook, Reine, would be a demon of Spite. Yes yes same as Lucanis. When tenacity becomes just a doged rage against whatever seeks to tell them "no" or they "cant". Well they will and the consequences be on everyones head! Sahlin Lavellan would be a demon of Woe. Upon her enemies, upon herself. All her sorrows and hurts sharpened to a cutting edge. Eislie Hawke would be a demon of Obsession-- devotion perverted to an unyielding and paranoid need to control and protect her loved ones. Devotion but with that harder, hateful edge. And Nadia Tabris, easiest of all, would be a demon of Vengeance.

[thoughtfullytired]

#MiqoMarch Day 1: Introduction

"Meowdy! ...Hells, I already bungled it. Anyway, name's Mirha Resil, proud daughter of Mikh Resil, the Leader of the Resil Tribe of the Black Shroud! Jack of All Trades, Master of None, and Adventurer for Fun. What mischief are we going to get up to today?"

[natureisthegreatestartist]

[romain57]

[cupidon5757]

[girlactionfigure]

muslim_zionist18

Those Muslims who support H@mas and are anti israel, do you have any shame? You hate those who protect your holy site, even knowing Al Aqsa is built on the Jewish Temple. Just Shame on you.

[leathercircuits]

Life throwing you the same situation but now you’re able to make the right decision flawlessly that you should have made before despite the pain and turmoil it took for you to get to where you are today:

"Growth / Resilience" ❌😒✋

"Certified Neo Moment" ✅😎👌