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#right now is break time ! ( ooc. )
pvremichigan · 4 months
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Whoopsie time
#vent tw#cw vent#I'm stupid to have dropped out of college#now I don't know what I'm doing and I can't do the very passion I set out to do#Animation was my dream and I ruined it for a guy who groomed me and ended up physically abusing me.#I didn't realize trying to animate and failing because I don't understand it no matter what I look up about it would result in a breakdown#Not to mention I'm regressing in my art skill right now.#My art is ASS right now no matter how hard I try to improve it#references... Practice... Doodles... Warmups you name it#nothing is going right and I have the urge to quit art altogether#I'm not going to and I can't bring myself to ever do that but It's aching inside me#I want my art to be good according to me. not others. People can say it's great but if I don't like it... I'm not going to settle for it#I shouldn't have left#I loved college#I loved SELU#I loved my life back then#And now I'm here. And I'm not happy anymore.#Even with writing. I even took a long break from writing and I still can't do it right according to myself.#Now I have no muse or motivation for any of it#I feel empty. And I can't go to therapy because I can't afford the balance on my account.#I just feel like I failed.#I feel like I failed my parents and myself. They always tell me theyre so proud of me but I don't understand how they can be.#Not when I ended up in two severely abusive relationships... Dropped out of college twice... And now work in a factory full time.#Yeah i make decent money in a place I enjoy but it all just feels empty.#I could've been more#i could've done better#[[out of ammo]];; ooc
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scalproie · 7 months
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my extremely corny and indulgent but satisfying and symbolic ideal scenario for Kazuya and Jin to fully Break The Cycle™️ would be for one of them to grab and save the other from falling off a great height. perhaps even a cliff.
#LIKE YEAH ITS CHEESY AND A BIT OOC AS OF NOW#BUT IMAGINE WITH THE PROPER BUILD UP FOR THIS TO HAPPEN#cause jin already *kind of* accepted his father by accepting himself. he's not *there* yet but he left him alive after all#and kaz has a lot of work ahead of him before he would even take that action but PLEASE. PICTURE IT.#i dont even know who i want to save who bc both works so well regardless#if its jin saving kaz. not only has jin never participated in the cliff-tossing curse of the family but he's actively preventing it#and as for kaz: for the first time someone is NOT letting him fall. kaz who sees falling as a proof of weakness.#of course he would probably see him getting helped as an humiliating form of weakness but just as jin learned in t8 that hes not alone#well maybe he could see that wow someone (other than jun) his blood- his SON is helping him despite it all. must be a weird feeling.#that right here right now for arguably the second time in his life- hes not alone.#and as for kaz saving jin... well frankly i dont even have the words.#it feels too indulgent to imagine kaz preventing his son from suffering a similar fate as him. and would confuse the hell out of jin#smth about both of them having lost their wings but still not being at risk of falling if theyre willing to have each other in this fight#or in their lives.#also its kaz willingfully breaking the cycle HIMSELF even after hes convinced himself that family hurting each other is part of their blood#idk. i love on-the-nose symbolism#ok im done being sappy#tagging later#tekken
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timechange · 3 months
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It’s probably a good thing Marty doesn’t sleep much anymore; he’s only dozing when his homemade police scanner crackles. 
“We, uh, we got reports of a 10-103 on Kennedy Drive… 1646 Kennedy Drive. Possible 10-64.” 
He feels for the aluminum baseball bat by their bed and closes his fingers around it as he stumbles upright, his foot tangled in the blankets. Beside him, Jennifer stirs. 
“Marty?” she asks. He looks over his shoulder, catching her, all half-lidded eyes and messy bedhead, lit up by the moon. God, she’s beautiful. He can spare a moment to kiss her.
“Somethin’s goin’ down at Doc’s,” he tells her once he pulls away. Immediately alert, she sits up. 
“Do you think it’s—”
“I don’t know,” Marty sighs, running a hand through his hair. “But I’m gonna find out.”
“Copy that. 10-44,” the scanner continues. 
“10-4. 10-76.” 
“Go,” Jennifer urges, “They're on their way. But Marty, be careful.”
“Yeah, you got it.” Marty pats the sides of his pajama pants. “Keys.”
“On the nightstand,” Jennifer reminds him. Marty swipes them, stuffing them in his pocket before sprinting out the door. 
The truck roars to life and he floors it down the abandoned streets of Hill Valley. Though there may not be an actual groove worn in the asphalt— something he’s always kind of surprised by— there’s a map of this road etched somewhere inside him, he thinks. Asleep, awake, it doesn’t matter. He can always find his way back home. 
The young man grabs the walkie talkie on the passenger seat. 
“Jennifer, any updates?” 
“Nothing yet, Marty,” his wife replies. “Can you see anything?” 
“I’m pulling in now.” He puts the truck in park and abruptly cuts the engine, which responds by jerking forward. From the Burger King parking lot lights, he can just make out a figure by the fence surrounding @doctorbrown ‘s garage.
Marty clips the walkie talkie to his waistband and grabs the bat with both hands, holding it high, quietly making his way across to the garage. He has to think of how stupid he must look barefoot and shivering in the cold night air. 
He’s about to call out something to interrupt the almost frantic attempts to pry open the padlock on the fence (thankfully, they hadn’t reached the electronic keypad lock he’d installed on the door yet) when he catches a glimpse of the figure in profile. 
All of a sudden, he’s a kid again.
“…Doc?” 
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a-musing-mixologist · 2 months
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OK finally finished D.awntrail. Now I can poke my muse as I stew on the last ep...
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poppyseed799 · 1 year
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I feel like life series fanon jimmy is kind of mischaracterized and there’s an easy way to make sure you’re doing it right: he has a lot of unearned confidence
#the tags is where I’m going to ACTUALLY say stuff LOL!!!#but like I love life series Jimmy mkay. he’s got that curse of dying first and all. which is what I mean by fanon cuz curses aren’t real#but a lot of fans make it like Jimmy accepts the curse? or even acknowledges that it’s real. which bugs me a bit cuz No He Does Not#(side note tho. I’m not mad about it. I know ppl wanna explore the concept of someone cursed to die first and that’s what they’re doing)#but like Jimmy would just be so in denial about it okay. even if you managed to convince him he would be like ‘..BUT SURELY THIS TIME’#and this relates to ranchers too. I love ranchers ok. mostly cuz my sister does tbh LMAOO she loves them. but ranchers fan content isn’t#what I’m looking for cuz it’s so often stuff like.. Jimmy being like ‘I’m sorry I’m cursed’ and Tango being like ‘it’s ok love u anyway’#but it’s really more like ‘CURSED?? NO! WE WILL WIN!’ which I think is MORE fun for the aftermath of their death. meeting in the afterlife.#I NEED to see ranchers content where they keep denying that the curse is real then Jimmy dies and they’re ghosts or whatever and Jimmy’s#like ‘oh no. we didn’t break the curse. tango probably hates me now. he only liked me cuz we thought the curse wasn’t real.’ and tango to be#like upset at first as anyone would be when they die. but then he like notices the way Jimmy is acting and he’s like ‘no.. ranchers 4 life’#???? what am I saying. hire me for writing fanfic I totally know what I’m doing.#anyways what I’m saying is Jimmy is the canary but he’s the canary that’s like ‘SURELY I can sing for the miners the whole way THIS time’#he is NOT the canary who says ‘WELL time to eventually stop singing in this cave’#HOWEVER I do think that although he has loads of unearned confidence and is in a constant state of denial. he does also have that crumble#sometimes. so it’s not totally ooc imo for him to act like that. but it would be rare moments and also mostly post death#ANOTHER SIDE NOTE I WANNA SAY. I HATE the way I’m saying this as if it’s fact. it’s my personal analysis and just because I think it’s right#doesn’t mean I want to present it as undeniable fact. I could be misinterpreting. if you want to interpret life!Jimmy’s character different#then go on ahead. I don’t hate fanon Jimmy I just wish I saw more like how I see him. that is all.#ok I lied I also wanna add that I’m bad at explaining things ESPECIALLY personalities so it’s possible that I didn’t convey what I wanted to#say properly too. sorry. OKAY NOW THAT IS ALL.
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nuvomica · 8 months
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so tired of the enshittification (see: ooc fluffy domestication) of toxic ships
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ask-no151 · 1 year
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hmm??? hmmm...))
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mythvoiced · 11 months
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-. bro... i'm... bro this draft thing is actually working BRO- hehe~
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ateliaers · 1 year
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carrd update. basic information is up for desire & rapunzel, though their verses are still pending, because i’m itching to write write, & so am putting them off until another day ! rapunzel’s verses you can probably guess, & desire’s have some overlap with regal’s, but she’s also fairly flexible anyway, so !
desire’s information does come with a content warning for explicit alcohol & substance abuse, as well as mentions of miscarriages & stillbirths, so please be aware of that before you read.
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abyssembraced · 1 year
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I'm hesitant to outright promise anything, but I'm hoping to get to my owed replies sometime soon? At least the ones I owe for Ghost, anyway.
I'm also open to plot new threads for either Ghost or Rouxls! Admittedly, I'm not sure how much time I'll have to sit down and Discuss things this week, mind you, but I'm willing to give it a shot! Finishing my currently owed replies will have to take priority over writing any new starters or replies for new threads, though, since I've owed them for a frankly ridiculous amount of time and I feel really bad for putting them off for so long, but plotting and planning stuff is good!
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fstbmp-a · 1 year
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So sorry I didn't do that much today. It's been.. a wild ride. Sooort of vent in the tags? I suppose.
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fairymint · 1 year
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I'll state that it's a bit of a shame how much I'm gonna suck at IC on tumblr for the time being- among work soreness in my arms, i sustained a pretty bad 2 inch burn on my lower right wrist. it's not fair, but it's not you, it's my injuries.
i was even late on my T shot, so pinned post is updated for a wednesday weekly dosage-
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hamadacare-xoxo · 2 years
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life update
Hello buddies, you guys deserve an explanation for my absence these past months ʕ•́ᴥ•̀ʔっ
Remember my job I had since November? I no longer work there for reasons that exhausted my physical and mental health ( My right shoulder blade flares up often and my depression spiked up. ) and the work environment in general was unfair. ( The manager was bias to some workers than others and for enduring too much labor, I was paid the least. ) I am wholeheartedly content to say that I’m out. I may not be making $$$ anymore, but I’m optimistic for opportunities to come and for myself to be able to heal.
If there is anything that I learned, it’s to not stay at a job that will drain you. It is not worth your health.
Now that I’m out, I’m glad that I am able to return to my hobbies, roleplaying included :) I have big plans for this blog, and in one big breath, I want to thank everyone who stayed with me up to this point. Admittedly, I took incentive behind the scenes to take action for my mental health such as soft-blocking blogs that I couldn’t foresee interactions with and unfollowed blogs that did not reach out to me at all. I am not going to be following for following anymore; I’ll spend my time and energy with those that show incentive and care. I will continue to do this hereon out. If you want me to follow back, simply reach out to me ic or ooc!
Thank you for reading this far if you did. I missed my muse that never really left this whole time, and most of all, I missed the interaction that happened on here ♡
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unprocione · 2 years
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🗡* ⋆ — 𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐈𝐆𝐍 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌 𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐈'𝐋𝐋 𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐋 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐇𝐀𝐔𝐍𝐓𝐒 𝐈𝐓.
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VAMPIRE. you had been wondering why you felt so tired after moving into this house. when you discovered the bite marks, you had your answer. now that you've used some garlic to establish clearer boundaries, they're actually a pretty interesting roommate. they tell you stories from centuries ago, and you teach them how to use a computer. it's a nice enough balance, although it gets a little annoying cleaning up the occasional bloodstain.
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* tagged by : darkness took me, and I strayed out of thought and time, and I wandered far on roads that I will not tell. * tagging : @greenherb (dani & kevin!) @blitzkriegers @wintersdecay @destallo @sailento @shinylugers @emile8​ (carlos!) @winterslie​ @titanomyrma @goldlighter​ ​
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a-musing-mixologist · 4 months
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Oh boy I got TKO'd by some kind of stomach bug yesterday. Still feeling pretty gross. --___-- I feel way better today but still very icky.
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coffeebooh · 2 years
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orion, looking straight at raquel’s p****: “this is unknown technology”
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