#rockintwink

[ironwoman359]

okay so I'm going to have to do this based off of Thomas's characters because I don't know any other characters that you also know, so I'm gonna go ahead and say you remind me of a healthy mix between Logan and Patton, with a smaller dash of Remy on top.

Ooh, you’re the first person who’s ever said I have some Remy in me! But honestly, I do kinda see it XD

What three characters do you associate with me?

[tuntematonkorppi]

three characters? easy. martin/the rowdy 3, eliot waugh, and wynonna earp.

yaaaaaaaassssss!!! i haven’t been into wynonna earp in a long time but i probably spammed your dash with that shit so yeah, i get it x)

[jessicajones616]

big heart energy!

[nintendo63]

hi we have the same name, also your fanfic trope would be coffeeshop au. it's familiar, it's warm, it's just exactly what we need when we're having a bad day.

hi name twin i love u....

which fanfiction cliche am i?

[globrights]

if you were a fanfic trope, i'd say you'd be a friends to lovers? idk why, just a gut thing.

oh that’s sexy, i love that 

tell me what fanfic trope i am

[promiseimnotacop]

let's go about this a different way: pick your fave ten questions from the trans journey ask game and answer them!

bold of you to assume I’ve ever managed to make a decision in my life. also warning this gonna be looooooong

from this ask game

1. How did you choose your name? 

so I’ve always been interested in names and a couple years before i ever came out to anyone I asked my mum casually if there were any other names she’d considered giving me. She said that Finn or Finnbar were up there had I “”been born a boy”” and so I latched on to that. It worked pretty well for me because I wanted something that felt like an equivalent exchange for my birthname and that I didn’t associate strongly with a particular individual and I’d never had a Finn in my year at school so that was all hunky dory. Took me a while longer to figure out middle names (because my birthname has two middle names and it’s sort of a tradition on my dad’s side so I wanted to have those). 

There was a hot minute when I considered calling myself “Hugo Finn” which I’m so glad I didn’t, not that it is objectively a bad name, but because my reasoning was erm....bad. It was at a time when I had a lot of internalised self hatred/disgust and the name Hugo I first came across and associated heavily with the morally ambiguous “freak” from ASOUE. At the time I thought using a name I associated so heavily with the word freak was a way of subverting negative feelings but tbh it wasn’t. I’m so glad I didn’t tether myself that negativity. 

Also fun fact, my birthname is Shakespearean protagonist who spends most of the play dressed as a boy so again for a hot second I considered using the name she does, Fidele, but I wasn’t about having a super conspicuously uncommon name. 

For middle names in the end I went for James Lee (though nothing is legal or set in stone feedback and opinions are welcome lol). Lee came first, after the river in my village that I have a lot of postive memories associated with, outside of all the gender bullshit. The problem then became that the name “Finn Lee” would sound like/get mistaken for “Finley” and “Finnbar Lee” would sound like “Finn Barley” which would be eccentric and confusing. So it needed a buffer. In the end I went for James, partly because the first middle name of my given name is a saint, but mostly because James can be Jim and that allows for some of my childhood nicknames (im jim jam, imbo jimbo) to sort of still apply. that was a long answer to a short question lol but I spent a lot of time thinking about this because for some reason I felt  like I couldn’t come out until I’d already settled on a full name. 

3. Do you have more physical dysphoria or more social dysphoria?

I don’t think they’re separable. I have dysphoria about my body but it is because of societal perceptions of my body

8. How would you explain your gender identity to others?

depends on how savvy that person is to trans jargon honestly. The best, if clunky, label I’ve found for my gender is “transmasculine non-binary” which is two different quite broad umbrella terms lol. I like the looseness of it. For me personally, it means that the framework of masculinity and maleness is not an exact fit and does not cover some of the complexities of my gender but, in my daily interactions it is a close enough approximation and I do desire to pursue parts of what might be considered a “trans masculine” medical transition. For the most part masculine coded language (including he/him pronouns) is what suits me the best, with only a few particular exceptions. So, for most of the world I am functionally “a man” (even though that is one of the few bits of masculine coded language I don’t gel with), or maybe “a gender non-conforming man” and I am not gonna split hairs about that if we aren’t close. 

But if we’re seriously getting into a chat about gender there’s a lot more to be said. If drawing a diagram of my gender I would say I’m about 55% male, 30% “other”/third gender/maverique/genderqueer/whatever you want to call a gender identity autonomous and seperate from male or female, and 15% nothing/void. And all of that is subject to fluctuate a bit and which parts I might connect with most can be slightly contextual. I am more “a man” than anything else but also pretending to be a binary man is cutting out a significant part. 

12. Do you pass?

Let’s unpack the most Problematique question lol. Just kidding. It is important to acknowledge how “passing” or not effects daily safety/experiences but....god can we not use that word? Can that not be the agreed upon term? The implication that you are otherwise “failing”? The way in which it is incredibly difficult to apply to no-binary people? The way it does not acknowledge the nuances and the way that being read as a certain gender can be conditional? 

I prefer to use the terms “read as” because it allows for more nuanced discussion, does not have moralistic implications, puts the onus on the people viewing - not the individual being viewed and is kinda intuitive to understand.

To answer the question though? For the most part (like maybe 80% of the time) I am read as male. By no means always, and it is conditional on me following a certain level of gender conformity, but for the most part I interact with the world being addressed as a guy. As someone who is very much pre-t it seems that this alone subverts the standard “trans narrative”. Hell I was mostly read as male for a while before I ever came out. I’ve been corrected and laughed at in the women’s bathrooms. I’ve been harassed for gender nonconformity not in spite of but because I was wearing “girl’s” uniform. I have had fellow trans people assume I was a cis man (on more than one occasion) even when I introduced myself by my very much feminine birthname. I have little kids point blank refuse to believe I am “a girl”. I have had strangers confront and correct my mum for addressing me with she/her pronouns (before I was out). I have had kids yell the T slur at me (before I had begun to learn the invisible rules - which to be totally clear are bullshit -that need to be followed in order to be more consistently and unerringly read as male). I’ve been read as male occasionally in contexts where it was impossible for me to be out (near strangers on holiday whilst using birthname, new teachers and students at a school i’d been at since I was 11 and worn “girl’s uniform” until 16, etc).

It’s by no means always though. Which makes the times I don’t difficult and awkward. The technician on my course refers to me with feminine language but none of my tutors. The other day I tried out wearing eye shadow to class and I guy I bumped into later said that he hadn’t recognised me because it made me look like a girl (cringe). etc.

17. What do you do when you have to go to the bathroom in public?

haha i don’t go. I literally haven’t been to the men’s bathroom (apart from once on holiday) but also i get harassed in the women’s/get directed towards the men’s so.....here’s to hoping I don’t get a UTI lads. Literally been in a public loos once since June (not including holiday abroad) and then i nipped into the disabled one during shark week. 

19. Would you ever go stealth, and if you are stealth, why do you choose to be stealth?

so at the beginning of uni I sort of tried to go stealth to see if I could/if it was comfortable (and by go stealth I mostly mean I just didn’t openly talk about my trans-ness for a while). I didn’t wanna be known as ‘the trans one’ and so i didn’t want to introduce myself with that fact. It fucking sucked would not recommend 0/10. It’s incredibly lonely-making to try and filter your experiences and to not be able to discuss certain issues with anyone irl. 

32. How do you see yourself identifying and presenting in 5 years?

I used to do this thing when I was feeling particularly dysphoric/hopeless where I would draw myself now, and myself in 5 years time. Help construct something to look forward to, and work out what I would sincerely like to wear/express but don’t due to dysphoria. For me I really want to get to a place where I am comfortable in androgyny. I want to grow my hair out without sacrificing being read as male. I want to wear long skirts and crop tops whilst still being read and understood as a guy. I’ve done a lot of self reflection and I don’t think I can get to the place of being comfortable until I have had top surgery and I might also require T (though top surgery is really the necessity for my day to day life). Fingers crossed that will be possible and slightly healed within 5 years but given the NHS it really is not certain. 

39. Is your ideal partner also trans, or do you not have a preference?

T4T is self care. Jk. Honestly probably but that’s not to say a cis person couldn’t be my ideal partner? like at any rate it’s fucking necessary that my partner fully understands/perceives me to not be a woman. They could just be cis and no. 1 ally but in all likeliness they’re probably gonna be trans (particularly given the number trans and/or nb cuties out there)

40. How did/do you manage waiting to transition?

I’m not managing. Send help.

seriously every week I have a break down about how long NHS wait times are.

42. Do you interact with other trans people IRL?

I’m an art student in Brighton. Yes. 

(Also my sibling Sumner is an NB lesbian, and my childhood best friend Hunter is NB). 

Literally going to be one cis person in my house of six next year. 

[hadeantaiga]

rockintwink reblogged your photo and added: “Today I learned the unfortunate news that JK Rowling based Dobby, and...”

like, i get what you’re saying, and my original...

I @’d you because you purposely spread misinformation without fact-checking it. I FULLY expect people to @ ME if I say shit that isn’t true.

But, for whatever reason, you also decided to block me because I @’d you about some lies you were telling, so real brave u are.

[trashangel-dee]

20 and 25 for the iasip asks?

20- Best BDE Dee moment?

I absolutely love her yelling at the guy at the gun show. “I’ll show you what’s final you redneck son-of-a-bitch! I’ll burn you alive like the last bitch who crossed me!” It’s in my top Dee moments ever. Kicking Dennis down the plane steps then doing that cute little wave was great, too.

25- Favorite promo shoot?

I love so many! s9 is great because it was so elaborate. I’m very fond of s12, s7 and the Christmas special

[ordinaryquip]

rockintwink replied to your photo “did some weird shit while drawin an anti to get art block to fuck off...”

the picture wouldn't load and I though you meant anti as in a hater and you could not imagine my confusion when the first thing I saw was an undone jeans zipper

I’M SO SORRY MY DUDE

[onlyfangz]

your nsp name is your first name + your url

[pamayapaya]

Who said anything about “if you don’t consume every bit of it you’re not a true fan”???

I myself don’t watch every last interview and panel and whatever for shows that I watch. This was brought to my attention by a friend of mine who was just minding their own business trying to find pan representation in media and stumbled across this interview by chance.

I didn’t say a word about being a bad fan if you didn’t see this interview, all I said was Klaus was referred to as being pansexual in an interview by his actor.

Whether or not he meant it in an offhand way doesn’t really matter when you consider the practically nonexistent representation there is for pansexual people.

I know that not everyone has seen the interview which is why I provided a link for it for those who asked and asked for people to reblog this so the info could be passed around.

I’ve seen a lot of people already referring to Klaus as being simply gay or bisexual and it just sucks a lot for people who are pan and want representation.

Robert Sheehan said PAN! Not bi, not gay, PAN! That means the correct label to use is pansexual unless we’re given another official sexuality for Klaus

And this is all coming from a bisexual girl (with lots of Pansexual friends)

Hey guys can we please stop calling Klaus gay or bi or whatever when he’s canonically pansexual?

It was confirmed in an interview so it’s not just your personal headcanon or whatever. He is pansexual and you all need to respect that

[tuntematonkorppi]

rockintwink replied to your chat: friend: how are you so calm about the possible...

three piece tartan suit always, you disappoint me tunte! also i love you very much and would hug your brain better if i could. please keep yourself well.

i might buy it later when i figure out how the fuck men’s suit sizes work tbh

but honestly look at that jacket 

i can’t not want it.

[stuntmancolt]

To you, which Sanders sides or sanders shorts character am I like?

@beach-fan

@glumshoe

@officialdeceit

@the-pastel-peach

@the-duke-remus

@virusap

@nonoahstop

@intrurality-fusion

@parano--vigilant

@virgils-paranoia

@winchester-05

@quinintheclouds

@rockintwink

@romansleftshoulderpad

[nintendo63]

@rockintwink

1: sexuality headcanon bi bastard

2: otp dirk/todd!! if you can’t tell from like... my whole blog

3: brotp mmm todd/farah or todd and amanda

4: notp todd/farah... i love them both but Where Is The Chemistry

5: first headcanon that pops into my head he’s trans! and amanda was the first person he came out to

6: one way in which I relate to this character when i get worked up abt smth i can get all energetic and manic like he does occasionally

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character when he gets all pissy and pushes people away... not exactly embarrassment but stop that shit todd. also his Straight Cop/Ranger impersonation he did for farah in s2... 8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave? problematic bastard man... for occasionally being a prick to dirk

send me a character!!

[babyfairy]

that person really said u could catch hands like okay Mx. Rockintwink try and throw em....

notice how he said that only after he blocked me LMAOOO he’s not about shit just like every other cracker that says that

[promiseimnotacop]

21, 43, 51? 🌈

21) Who is your celebrity crush?

Ben J Pierce / miss Benny, Keiynan Lonsdale, Tati Gabrielle, more but I can’t think of them

43) Do you have any nicknames?

yup I love nicknames. Growing up I was imbo jimbo, im jim jam, and imy. More recently I’ve been flim flam, flimbut and gaymo. 

51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

I try not to but I’m only human.