#s4ints

[lotusgrieved]

💬 for alina 🥺

[ SMS : sunny 🌟 — UNSENT ] hey! your eyes like GLOW sometimes when you smile and i think it's really pretty!!! 🥰 oh wait is that weird

[ SMS : sunny 🌟 — UNSENT ] i know you're the chosen one but this is crazy. you have to hate this. we could leave for a while?

[ SMS : sunny 🌟 — UNSENT ] i don't know how to say this but sometimes i miss you when i'm with you.. you won't change, right? you wouldn't lea

UNSENT TEXTS . / @s4ints

[narrated]

he didn't really think about it, honest. if matthias had, then his hand would have stayed at his side rather than meeting the darkling's cheek. he tries not to show on his expression how much his palm stings from the contact, though it brings a small bit of delight that the mighty shadow summoner must be in equal pain. he was certain he was going to regret that non-decision later though. matthias takes a step back, brows softening at the calm demeanour. ❛   i...   ❜ what does he want to say? three days ago, he was almost dead on the border between fjerda and ravka when sunlight started spilling from the cuts on his palms. three days ago, the little palace was a fairytale a million miles away from anything that would ever effect him. three days ago, he was not grisha. perhaps that's why he slapped aleksandr; it was a way to put the grief somewhere other than inside his body. ❛   i just felt like it, to tell you the truth. a lot has happened very quickly.   ❜ / @s4ints, cont.

[flmed]

the forgotten, almost childish beam is hidden underneath the calloused palm, however she still could see the rose tinted cheeks that are emerging bashfully upon the compliment––––––it has been few moons, or years perhaps, that he let himself to relishing a momentary indulgence for surviving the desolation of mankind . . . liquors are merely catalyst tools for effervescent happiness but the ingenuity of happiness always come from loving interaction 'twined with amorous flirtation, whether it is deliberate or not, but it is a reminder that he is not a shell oin the trench, but a person on the ground, coiling to the sense of reality; of how it used to be, but could never return to how it used to be .. remnants of what's left, or perhaps something to reclaim once again,

@s4ints, frieda said, "i've never heard your laugh before. i love it."

�� you should have met me before the war––––––i was much tolerable &. handsome, obviously, ’ wiggling his eyebrows as he raises his glass to his lips &. sipping an equal amount of audacity to return the same woo she has spoken to his ear .. cheeky simper, vehemently shaking his head disapprovingly within self because he let himself to be swindled by a jest &. compliment . . . but it felt good, it feels good, that he could be the ghost of how he used to be, or the person that was waiting within the dirt with their burnt hand above the ground; dangling &. expecting someone would pull him from the everlasting dread of being dead, &. taken to be alive .. perhaps she has made him feel alive, even if it feels iniquitous because she may have wanted her husband laughing alongside with her .. but it's the laugh she recognised, &. loved it that doesn't come from her husband, but the husband's comrade before he got burnt alive, ‘ but i guess, i still have it in me .. that a little boy. he still lives, apparently. ’

&. PLAYFUL AFFECTION

[vnetromancy]

OC: Amren.

Alias: S4INT.

Personal VPs. Some little lore drops . . . Amren is a netrunner and fixer in tandem. Primarily on the fixer side, but her skills in the code are very sharp. It goes back to her days of being under her father's guardianship, and a source to get away from him for a little while. S4INT comes from the fact that her father used to call her a "wretched sinner, never to be a saint."

Dealing with his religious psychosis as a preacher and cult leader put her through very intense situations physically and mentally, and why she dons a dozen different religious symbolism in ink or fashion.

[lotusgrieved]

𝐁𝐀𝐃 𝐇𝐀𝐁𝐈𝐓, their ever - talkative mouth— these questions go in circles, ( always do ), haunting and tugging and spiraling until they remember how to swallow the TENSION in their chest. alina has a gift for that kind of thing . . . making it seem like the most natural thing in the world, because there aren't really answers, are there ? revolutions aren't as cracked up as the stories make them seem. ❝ hm . . . ❞ they ponder it a moment before surrendering with a soft smile. * 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘩𝘶𝘮𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘥 𝘧𝘭𝘢𝘳𝘦.

another bad habit, really ; always reaching to make sure alina's still there. still in one piece. ❝ yeah , ❞ alma continues, high spirits and complete confidence overtaking the levity of the topic. ❝ probably when we were born. that sounds about right to me. ❞ bump back, shoulder to ( upper arm ). they'd ruffle alina's hair if it weren't so nice already.

❝ anyways ! how's it going with all the leadership stuff? we haven't talked about that in a while and i know it's not your . . . favorite . ❞

| | | | | @s4ints, continued for alina . ♥

[s4int3d]

Hey, you! Are you interested in both TWST and Obey me? Yeah, hi. Introducing my fic "Spellbound Ties" on wattpad! If you don't have wattpad, i'm also putting the fic up in this page.

https://www.wattpad.com/1548891415?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_reading&wp_page=reading&wp_uname=s4inted

[vullcanica]

𝐔𝐍𝐔𝐒𝐔𝐀𝐋 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐎𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒.

SPICE. poppy seeds

WEATHER. the worst thunderstorm of the year

PRIMARY COLOUR. ink black

COLOUR OF THE SKY. starless midnight

MAGICAL POWER. resurrection

SHOES. none. barefoot

HOUSEPLANT. painted leaf begonia. clematis viticella. purple passion vine.

BLADE WEAPON. dagger / axe

SCHOOL SUBJECT. biology

SOCIAL MEDIA. myspace (later twitter). human verse nik had a social media alt phase. low-waisted jeans, piercings, tattoos, raccoon liner and mandatory mirror selfies with his canon mini camera. has a shitpost twitter account as an adult and very little other social media.

MAKEUP PRODUCT. eyeliner pencil

CANDY. those sour middle candies that killed your mouth as a kid. something difficult to stomach. select taste.

TANGIBLE FEAR. sea depths/drowning. the only actual phobia he has.

ICE CUBE SHAPE. that solid block that ice cubes sometimes fuse into where your only option is to slam it against the kitchen counter

METHOD OF LONG-DISTANCE TRAVEL. riding. prefers donkeys and mules for difficult terrain or hiking and horses for speed on the open road

ART STYLE. the height of baroque's chiaroscuro abuse

HISTORICAL PERIOD. classical antiquity

MYTHOLOGICAL CREATURE. anything sentient and undead. ghoul, perhaps...

PIECE OF STATIONARY. letter opener

THREE EMOJIS. 🫀🪓🪦

CELESTIAL BODY. magnetar

Tagged by: no one, i just found it in my notes

Tagging: @vilestblood @dionidai @cryptidsdad @s4ints @vulpesse @oakthcrn @obsidius @mvnces @maramcna @vhgr and whoever else wants to!

[narrated]

nathanael makrov ; i talk when i'm nervous. i'm gonna shut up now.

the ship is simultaneously too quiet and too loud. he's accustomed to how the walls of the mantis hum when the engine is running, the difference when it's in regular orbit or hyperspace. it's lulled him to sleep most nights in the past three years, settled him down from a panic attack, grounded him when memories become alive. an inescapable tinnitus rattling in his ears, just a fraction louder than the hum of the force and its fractured discordant melody. and yet there's something missing: the voices of his family. cere, greez, merrin... all gone on their own missions. leaving him once again alone in a ship far too big for him and bd-1, leaving him once again feeling like the padawan stumbling through the corpses of republic ships.

❛   wait—   ❜ he says, turning the pilot seat around. @s4ints is already halfway out of the cockpit. they certainly hadn't gotten off to a good start, with cal ready to dump him at the nearest port after deciding he would tag along. they're still not close, but simply the presence of another living breathing being has made the ache inside him start to settle. cal sighs, running a hand over stubbled cheeks, before replying, ❛   you... you can stay. i don't mind, truly. it's nice hearing someone else talking.   ❜ he keeps the last bit unspoken (i haven't heard anyone's voice but my own for a while).

[wastedlands]

𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄𝐒 𝐃𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐑 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐌𝐒 𝐆𝐔𝐈𝐃𝐄. bold - always/yes, italic - sometimes/kind of, & strike - never/no.

( ashley macgrath )

𝐄𝐘𝐄𝐒. avoids eye contact when nervous, maintains eye contact when nervous, avoids eye contact due to being neurodivergent, enjoys eye contact as a means to read and convey emotion, looks down when emotional, looks up when emotional, cries openly, wipes tears quickly, suppresses tears, wandering gaze when lost in thought, holds gaze while thinking, seeks out eye contact for reassurance, seeks out eye contact to gauge enthusiasm during conversations, eyes move constantly during conversation, expressive eyes, emotions only evident through eyes, uses eye contact to intimidate, looks up while thinking, looks down while thinking.

𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐒. clasps behind back,  rests in lap,  fidgets with clothes,  twiddles thumbs,  chews at nails,  pushes back cuticles,  draws patterns on table/counter surfaces,  animated gestures while speaking,  only gestures to emphasize,  utilizes sign language,  speaks only through sign,   callouses,  scars,  smooth,  wrinkled,  worn,  soft,  delicate,  boney,  slender,  thick,  veiny,  touches others while speaking,  reaches out while laughing,  reaches out to comfort others,  reaches out to seek comfort,  places face in hands when exasperated, places palms over eyes to hide when overwhelmed,  rests chin in hands,  taps fingers when impatient,  taps fingers when nervous,  taps fingers while thinking,  scratches scalp,  strokes chin,  rubs back of head,  toys with objects around them,  runs fingers over surfaces while walking by.

𝐌𝐎𝐔𝐓𝐇. chews lip,  chews at inside of cheek,  licks lips,  bites tongue,  chews on straws,  resting frown,  resting smile,  neutral resting expression,  resting pout,  grinds teeth,  flexes jaw,  covers mouth when laughing,  covers mouth when shocked,  covers mouth when concerned,  hands to lips while thinking,  covers mouth when chewing,  chews with mouth closed,  chews with mouth open,  smirks,  grins,  subtle smiles,  wide smiles,  sad smiles,  intimidating smiles,  menacing grins,  openly smiles,  tries to suppress smiles,  bares teeth when angry,  lips quiver when emotional,  stutters,  speaks quickly,  speaks slowly,  good pronunciation,  poor pronunciation,  moderate pronunciation,  purses lips,  sucks in lips,  holds mouth open when shocked or confused.

𝐋𝐄𝐆𝐒. bounces leg when nervous,  draws knees to chest when sitting,  draws knees to chest as a means of comfort,  sits on knees,  sits with legs criss crossed,  sits with legs spread open in chairs,  crosses legs when sitting in chairs,  sits with one leg folded under the other,  places feet on furniture,  never places feet on furniture,  sits on counters,  sits on desks,  sits on tables,  sits on edge of seat,  sits hunched over with forearms on knees,  arches one knee up,  sits on the arm of chairs/couches,  feet on dashboard,  swings legs back and forth when sitting somewhere elevated,  wiggles toes when nervous,  wiggles toes as a general tick,  shuffles feet,  kicks foot into ground,  stomps feet,  loud footsteps,  quiet footsteps,  silent footsteps.

𝐇𝐀𝐈𝐑. runs fingers through hair,  tugs at hair,  picks at scalp,  chews on hair,  twists locks of hair while thinking or nervous,  smooths out locks of hair while thinking or nervous,  prefers hair out of face,  prefers long hair,  prefers short hair,  wears hair back,  keeps hair down,  smooths back hair,  plays with other’s hair while talking,  plays with own hair while talking,  strokes hair to comfort others,  likes having hair stroked for their own comfort,  braids others’ hair while talking,  braids own hair while talking,  flips hair out of face,  pushes hair out of face,  leaves hair alone even when falling into face.

tagged by: @imunities thank you! tagging: @s4ints @pointm4n @bgeck0 and whoever wants to steal <3

[solarisdog]

Hello. I have interacted with crimeclean / 4ger / s4ints, and while I know it's possible to not know someone as well as you might believe, accusing them of harassing others as the pinned post here claims is so wildly out of character? They're a very sweet person, and never once has that felt fake, unlike the interactions I had with solarisgod. And if nothing else, they're incredibly busy with their real life on a pretty consistent basis, so I also can't see them even having the time to do any of this, whether for solarisgod or because of them. I really don't think it's fair to have them explicitly listed like that without any proof. There have been plenty of people who have come forward about specific things solarisgod did, but I have not seen mention of really anyone else listed, outside of the apology written by one of them. I also want it known this was my own choice to come to this blog and say something, I was not sent here as a defender. I discovered the callout situation, saw the urls mentioned, and felt compelled to say something. I think the pinned post should focus on solarisgod solely unless anyone comes forward because solarisgod is the focus of harm in the rpc.

Hello,

The user you mentioned was always an alleged companion and was assumed that the user took part in harassing, bullying and sending hateful anons. You are correct that no one has come forward with any proof or confession regarding this user, so I will remove their urls from the pinned post, so that this user is not linked to the behaviors that have come forward regarding solarisgod. 

Thank you for sending in this information.

[lotusgrieved]

[ TWIRL ]: sender catches the receiver in their arms and spins them in a neat twirl just because they want to. / alina teehee

𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 is the delight in her gesture, a burst of soft giggling. what comes second is the wave of sensitivity humanity that comes from swaying in her arms. . . how pliable he feels with her ; gentle eyes and burning smile, so much stronger than she looks. not that her training hasn't helped .

arms wrap around her neck as if it's the most natural thing in the world, joy washing over alma's face as he laughs. ❝ you'll hurt your back! —then what would we do? ❞ & as they come to a still, he can't quite bring himself to let go. fingers dance at the back of her neck, ( to soothe her senses or your own? who can say. ) ❝ ooh! i've been working on some strawberries in the garden . . . ❞ in the space between words, he pleads to cling to this moment, to breathe away from the shadows of the chaos in the world. ❝ 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒖𝒔 ! ❞

| | | | | REASONS TO CARRY SOMEONE , for alina [ @s4ints ]

[realitybled]

@s4ints

when they're both doctor frankestein and the monster – they've created each other, they're each other's freaks of nature – and their very essences are so tangled together, so deeply woven, they can't shake themselves off. they become a haunting and an obsession, prey and predator, all at once, both at the same time.

[psychometrys]

for posterity's sake @s4ints

[vullcanica]

WHAT KIND OF ART WOULD SOMEONE MAKE ABOUT YOU?

paintings

everything you do is a work of art. you are beautiful without even trying, simply lounging around looks like you’re posing and waiting for someone to sketch you. you come off as light and easy but you are often misunderstood. people don’t tend to see you for who you really are, and focus too much on how effortlessly you appear to navigate the world. there's some kind of darkness behind your eyes that only some can see under all the layers of paint.

Tagged by: @vilestblood kiss !!

Tagging: @dionidai (vratis), @vhgr (muse of choice), @s4ints (todd), @demonstigma

[narrated]

jonathan sims ( @s4ints ) — ‘I played god once and it did not end well.’ 

what an oddly specific lesson to try and impart on someone. casper wished he didn't understand what he meant by that. the other man, the other avatar. that was the word, right? for what they were — avatars of some bigger power trying to influence humanity. at least he didn't get the fucking eye one. sure, his boyfriend died, he has a giant scar on his face, and he would never go back to a sense of normalcy... but now he knows it could have been eyes! ❛   okay, well, i can tell you right now that isn't in my plans. so don't worry, you won't have to lose any sleep over me suddenly turning evil.   ❜