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[sherwees]

cw : cheating (that's it)

busy idol boyfie winwin that'll take you out everyday even after stressing practices whenever you weren't "busy" with anything. he knew that you had time to visit him and his suspicions stayed high on his mind but he'll never want to make you upset so he just pushes his conflicting thoughts to the side.

winwin loves coming home after a long day and having you sit on his tense,sore lap whilst you whisper all types of praises; his hands rubbing soothing circles into your plush thighs. especially when you say his real name, it makes him feel all warm inside and makes him relish in the moment. But, knowing that deep in his gut, he knows that you're slipping right through his fingers.

he hates when you're mad at him. those times that he questions why there's a certain amount of makeup on one part of your neck but you only dismiss it and move away from him. he'll spend the rest of the week thinking about how he could make it up to you and even asks his fellow groupmate and best friend yangyang about it but his advice is only him saying to stay away from you so it's only futile. he just ends up buying chrysanthemums for you (hendery's advice) and you end up catching hay fever but at least you accepted them.

and he also hates that you mention yangyang nearly everyday. “yangyang bought me it” “yangyang said..” or you just reusing a cheeky joke from the orange haired goblin. he also wonders if you were "playing" around with yangyang behind his back because he'll never mention the gifts or when he would ask him about it, he'll act oblivious and cut the conversation right there. there was a problem, he doesn't think he could fix it.

your hands on the headboard keeps your stature as you ride his cock. the silence of it all made it feel so solemn.. winwin didn't feel the lovey doveyness of it all anymore. he was quite turned off at this point and it was even the fact you had your eyes closed.. what the fuck? winwin wished you could just simply open your eyes to see his unamused expression or the fact that he's gone soft inside of you already. it was so fucking awkward just seeing you mumble to yourself, it only made the turmoil of anger worsen. he didn't want this to end but you were being fucking rude.. his dick game wasn't bad because he made you cum before, maybe even scream but what was your fucking problem? there was a cork in his throat, that cork turned into the words. the more he paid attention to his gut, the more he would listen to your mumbling;

“s’ so big”

“im yours and nobody elses”

“I will, I will..”

“hmm.. you're sure bigger than him”.

okay now what the fuck. so you wer– are fucking with him? I mean you grabbing your shit and storming out after he simply asked, “are you fucking liu yangyang?” was an overreaction, I mean you were able to simply cheat on him so..? the looks that yangyang gave him was a contrast from hendery's “I feel bad for you and I wish I told you but you're still a loser” looks even pissed him off more. I mean he couldn't even comprehend why you would do that; he gave you everything you wanted and you just ran for the arrogant sore loser in his group. yangyang's dick game was oftentimes mentioned only by himself,

“well I only fuck with real bitches because only high classes deserve this dick” like ew?

winwin took another harsh bite of his subway sandwich, it felt like his teeth were poking at his gums and his jaw hurt from chewing; he ended up just slamming his sandwich down on the table and leaning back with his arms folded. xiaojun looked at him crazy then returned to his phone which only made him mad enough and tears started streaming, bit by bit that only pushed his anger into loneliness.

“this is captain liu huge cock speaking..” ; from when he wore that stupid pilot outfit for their seasons greetings 3 years ago and he had that walkie talkie thing in his hand, his lips forming into a crisp smile.

“yangyang bought me this really~ cute necklace, wanna see?” ; from when you turned around in the summer dress that winwin bought you that same week; all giggly and smiley over a silver flower necklace. He remembers looking at the pandora bracelet on your tan wrist and all it's charms, winwin never had the time to take you anywhere now so he guessed it was yangyang again.

“do you think I could impress her” ; from that one time when he stood by the dormitory's bathroom doors before a party, texting YOU actually. he looked between the photo of you wearing the dress you got and the little slit in the bathroom door that let him see; yangyang fixing his collar of his suit. You sent another image of you in a lacey butterfly bra from Victoria's Secret through his peripherals and his eyes darted from the screen and back to the slit in the door once he heard Hendery say something also.

he turned back and yangyang's head appeared like a whack a mole in the doorway with that stupid innocent look in his face, eyes with a sad glint with a slight pout to his lips “don't be a snooper.. babe~” yangyang lilted with a smile before laughing at himself; winwin noticed that he tried to mock your unique tone.. he was also sure that you've never said that to him before. yangyang's pupils directed to something else, winwin's eyes searched for what he was looking for or at but he soon realized that he was looking at his phone and his smile widened.

his wrist immediately turned the phone away, looking back to him with an uncertain look that he, himself couldn't even describe till this day. yangyang only sighed before raising an eyebrow at winwin, his lips slightly distorted because of the laugh he held and once he popped his big ass head back in, he obviously started laughing.. boastfully..

The memory ended adruptly once winwin felt a headache incoming. his fingers found his temple immediately, massaging circles but immediately stopped his ministrations once he remembered the better times.

when you were both together.

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[jonny-versace]

Over the past couple of weeks I've been watching a lot of Rosanne (seasons 1-6) and honestly I don't think I've ever hated a celebrity's fall from grace more than Roseanne Barr/Arnold/whatever's, it might sound like mental gymnastics but the woman who made television that groundbreaking and progressive is not the same woman she's been for the last decade or so

[crying-in-converse]

no body ever texts me back.

but no body ever texts me if I don't text first.

[iminaworldofpureimagination]

[punk-scum-of-the-earth]

i will never stop mourning the loss of about 15 oc's i spent hours writing about and making on the sims. they all got wiped :(

[upperxground]

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[fromthebackofmybrokenhand]

ignore this, i’m just sad.

Maybe if I write this down I’ll feel better:

The cracks in the sealant on our brand new wall-sized windows make every day cold, so I spent hours scrolling through the kind of websites we’d make fun of.

You remember? The ones with keywords on keywords and a review that’s more just an endorsement. Thousands of words wasted on something that never comes into view.

I ran my fingers through the fog and touched something worse than the air pooling on our floors, 

spent eleven hours and twenty minutes of pay on slippers that barely function and make every touch painfully static.

I wish that I didn’t have to wear them to make you feel that way about me,

and I wish that abnormal March chill didn’t settle so heavily into my eyelids and my shoulders,

and I wish that I could spend that pay and those hours on something that’s endorsement was more of a review, and had a keyword (if it had one) that was incredibly cliché.  

[c0nt3nt-d3le7ed]

waaa

[theflyingfeeling]

so I'm going through the course contents of the courses I'll be teaching in my new job (yesssss it hasn't been cancelled wohoo) and I'm equal parts scared scared oh so scared because I have no idea if I'm at all qualified to teach any of this stuff, but at the same time I'm ridiculously excited because I get to teach about e.g. phonetics and I fucking love phonetics?? 😭

[fictive-explosion]

good job, you killed blu /j

WHIMPERWHIMPERWHIMPER SADSADSAD

[your-littlesecret]

WIP Game

RULES: Post the names of the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! Tag as many people as you have WIPs.

uh, I will be tagging no one because I am not that close to anyone to tag them (I am shy) (I am not, that's the biggest mistake people assume about me hehe)

anyways, I was tagged by @singsweetmelodies (thank you 💕💕) and I will steal her idea but different hehe. I will put the title + word count + the general idea of the fic.

THAT BEING SAID (you all should already know I ramble a lot. I am sorry.) (I am also probably talking to myself so eh.) I can not for the love of god leave well enough alone and I OBSESS about shit, so I have been working on Taylor Swift inspired fics and most of those are in that category. They are all mostly written but I'm still not 100% satisfied with them so they continue on my WIP list.

I'll shut up now, whoever wants to message me you are more than welcome please I love talking nonstop (as you can see). they are all Piarles because that's the only thing I write (I'm not sorry about that)

there ain't no rest for the wicked 28.964 - it's the Lucifer!au (kinda?)

wrap your arms around me, baby boy 3.048 - it's inspired on 'Paper rings' and it's my favourite from this collection

they say looks can kill and I might try 3.705 - it's a secret agent!au inspired by 'vigilante shit'

i ain't gonna tell him, i think he knows 1.168 - inspired in (duh) 'I think he knows'

but it's never too late to come back to my side + we could call it even, you could call me babe for the weekend 4.679 + 7.018 - inspired in 'Dorothea' and ''tis the damn season', it's two fics but they go together. I absolutely adore those, the first one is mostly in a letter format.

i know i'll never get it (there's not a day that I won't try) 4.981 - last but not least, this one feels much longer because it's just sadsadsad. I love it, but it's sad.

that should be it byeeeee 🫧

[persistent-wallflower]

Sadsadsad. Melting. Bite. Bite.

[enivlens]

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[iminaworldofpureimagination]

I did it I watched an ep of orange is the new black/ watched scooby doo and the reluauant werewolf/ got clips for my kataang gifs woo!

i have adhd so i consider accomplishing anythign i sat out to do a victory.

[owlphibiansprite]

my relationship to the dragon prince... (the series, not the zym lol)

(v personal thoughts ahead, honestly i don't recommend reading because it is just meant to be me venting to myself lol)

i think i may or may not have already written this down somewhere but season 5 was not really it for me. like, i'm in a kind of love/hate relationship with the series as of now. i love the universe, the premise, the characters.\ the stories, and as of late, the animation?...not so much. but that's okay. (i really really don't understand when people get all nasty about a series when a tiny minor thing happens that they don't like!! like all attack-y and stuff. like unless it's reproducing very harmful tropes etc, why do people get all mean and say hurtful nonsense...(even then, one should actually call it out instead of randomly spouting nasty shit,no?) anyways, getting off-track here.)

i honestly cannot understand why the team made certain decisions that they did. one thing i can't understand is why the fuck they would release a season when one episode has a port crowded with like the same 2 npcs cloned all over the place. it's quite hilarious but makes me feel weird and shivery and kind of grossly empty inside. and like the storytelling is just... i just... why?? is my question to some things.

but still, idk i feel like the fanfictions i read featuring these characters make me feel warm and fuzzy inside. maybe it's just because the potential of xadia and everything is just so high. there's is just so much that can be done with this universe. plus, i love elves and the fact that there are different magic types and humans and and and like ughhhhhhhhhh i am so happy that these people created this universe!!!! for us to play around in and frolic and enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(some of this excitement might be due to re-entering fanfiction in general with the ceracurist as one of the first fanfics i read by someone who is not me since i got out of my bandfic phase as a younger teen (i didn't even know that fanfiction really was that much of a thing before randomly stumbling across someone looking for the ceracurist on reddit))

anyways i kind of lost the whole point of certain plotpoints here. in the dragon prince i mean. but ALSO i am just so excited for there to be two more seasons and to see what happens with viren and how aaravos will escape and what things are. tbh i'd love to play the ttrpg (if i had people to play with).

PLUS wasn't tdp created so that the video game they'll release will have a cartoon? like idk i kind of love that it's its own universe with books and graphic novels and little stories online ---even though LET ME TELL YOU callum's art book is, like, really bad and kind of useless. not like marcy's journal was to amphibia or anything. it just kind of re-iterates canon stuff in a really boring, non-magical way with random screenshots of the show, i-. my broke ass, like really fucking broke, bought it in my hyperfixation and i was sadsadsad at the lost 16e? idremember how much it was. maybe 12e.

anywayyyyyyyyyys like yeah it's kind of cute and cool how there's little stories and things even though like, there is better fanfiction out there lol. but it's great!!!!!!!!!!!!!! entertainment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

literally i am excited for the new seasons!!!!!!!!!!!

but i m sad that the original raging queerness of the first three seasons got kinda dimmed down. but hello!!!!!!!! cool!!!!!!!!!!!! queer!!!! in the first seasons!

and i am really not a fan of rayllum. like idk. i know everyone loves this ship for some odd reason but i find them boring and stinky (affectionate). hehe. like i read rayllum fanfics because, well just because.\ i've always enjoyed all kinds of shippings and pairings and rarepairs and love seeing people's different takes on characters and romantic dynamics. but like i don't see the appeal...

ANYWAYS those were my braintrash thoughts for now!!!!!! had to get them out into the opennn heh.

baiii

[c0nt3nt-d3le7ed]

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