dont really expect to get any commissions on tumblr, but my insta is @greasby11 if you want more info!
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Something I've learned about myself is that I tear my heart open first for someone and THEN ask: will you love me? Will you run towards me because you're glad to see me? Will you take the time to listen and learn about me the way im willing to for you? Will you grow alongside me and delight in the little things? Will you actually want and invest in a future with me? Will you love me with attentiveness and tenderness and careful intention? And the answer to THAT has always been/keeps being a resounding no lol
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So. Uh…the next couple months are gonna probably be bad with me stressing out with work and such. My whole shift is probably going to be changing—hours and days—and we are suppose to know this week what we all got. So, I’m a nervous wreck since I go on vacation this month and in two months.
My husband, on the other hand, is not holding it in well. They are forcing people in his department to go from 8a-4p to 3a-11a. And we can’t do that since my mom watches our son four days a week, which will now be 5 days with my new schedule. He is only working 8a-11a three to four days a week and his fifth day is always 8 hours. So, we lost over $500 on this paycheck.
He’s panicking, I’m taking my anxiety medicine to just not FEEL anything cause if I do, I’m going to scream or cry or hit something, so we are a wreck. We can’t even do anything for our son’s birthday this Sunday which we planned out weeks ago and have to cancel.
And my mom’s hours and days are being cut—two or three days of work instead of four—so I’m the bread winner and I’m losing my mind. Not knowing what’s gonna happen is causing me to get my period earlier than normal and I don’t wanna leave this place. We just got insurance taken care of thanks to the union, so I’ll save money, and there is no customer interactions, but dammit—I have to take melatonin to knock me out or I’ll be up all night worrying.
So, I’m a nervous wreck and just spotty with talking to people or wanting to do anything. I try to stay at places for more than four years but every TIME I do, something shitty happens. This is the third time my shift and hours have changed in four years since I’ve been here. Just…needed to vent and rant cause I hear it all day at work and I want my days off with my husband and I wanna see my kid and want to come home for dinner—!
I hate playing everything day by day. I just want a life outside of work even if I don’t have friends or anything to do. Just…want to unwind and can’t. I’ll keep you all updated on what the heck happens this month.
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i want to feel productive, but literally having a job is like the least productive thing you could do.
in retail / food service positions, there’s nothing to take pride in — you’re told to just do things as fast as possible. in our over saturated culture of extreme worker exploitation, selling art and skilled crafts would require you to charge more than most people would be willing (or able) to pay.
on top of all of this, you’re required to market yourself as a product, as generic, inoffensive, and asskissy as possible.
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Regular Fuel on Porsche Cayman? Yes You Can With Fuel Factor X
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"Phew... Startin' to get real cold... Gotta get all the blankets out ready."
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I love telling people that I'm broke and all my money comes from the government and then brag about my smart watch and my housekeeper and watch them get uncomfortable as they try to figure out if I "deserve" these things and decide whether or not they should accuse me of scamming the government lmaooo
(My smart watch is 100% free on my mom's promotional plan and my mom pays the extra $5 a month for it to have cell phone service in case my phone dies)
(My housekeeper is paid for thru a program that helps disabled people)
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i think i found a really promising deal on a car and insurance... i hope this works out. insurance is unbelievably insane for me having a new license and already an at fault accident so. really hope this car doesnt get sold before i can take a look at it
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