#seem like a psychopath

[dramadaisies]

I love that sooheon (before the mood swings, mind you) beat the complete and utter shit out of those female iljins who bullied soyeon

And that he didn’t feel the need to deliver some cheesy “I also hit girls” line before he did it, the guy just went for it

[degenerateshinji]

GOT THE OTHER TWO

(first post) for context

[mudstoneabyss]

actually. the specific phrasing that boy Kevin wants to kill older Kevin with "I must disassemble him, piece by piece, so that everything inside of the Old Kevin comes out. Only then can the New Kevin truly begin." is so incredibly the idea that to heal from trauma and "improve" you have to destroy every "wrong" part of yourself, that everything "tainted" by it has to somehow be replaced by something untouched (which isn't possible)

[tanadrin]

Rarely do we predict the end of the world two or three generations hence; it’s always “this generation will not pass away before all these things have come to pass.” And I’m sure there are a lot of reasons for this—if you’re running a genuine doomsday cult, for instance, you don’t want to put the doomsday too far off. And I *think* part of the driving force there is that it’s really hard for us to imagine that the world will continue once we are gone, more or less intact. Like, it’s really weird to look at small children and know that, if everything goes right, they will see and do and think things you will never share in. That your life before they came along will be nothing more than the thinly imagined world beyond the borders of photographs that your parents’ or grandparents’ was before you. That however important and accomplished you are, the world will continue to spin when you have died.

That’s a hard fact to get your head around! And it’s sort of the inverse of the way we ofte treat our childhood as cosmogonic, as the default state against which all else rises and falls. We are prone to a solipsism where the bounds of the word are the bounds of our lives. That’s not a novel idea, but it does make me very skeptical of any eschatology positive or negative. The world has, so far, an extremely good track record of zero transformative catastrophes or eucatastrophes that take place with the sound of trumpets in the twinkling of an eye. Sure, it has lots of moments of *change.* Whole ages of them—dramatic sometimes, but always continuous. Differentiable, you might say, in that however rapidly the status quo is in flux you can see there is one, and how we got here from a previous state.

And not only do doomsayers have a pretty lousy track record, they frequently exhibit telltale signs that their doomsaying is based in something other than careful deduction—like Paul Ehrlich not only missing the Green Revolution (a forgivable error perhaps) but digging in even further the more reality continued to drift from his apocalyptic forecasts. One cannot help but think of Harold Camping, continually reissuing his predictions for the Second Coming. But also—peak oil was wrong; climate change has been bad but looks like it will not be “the end of industrial civilization” bad; a NATO/Warsaw Pact nuclear war never came to pass, (although arguably that’s the one that was in a lot of ways the most rational, and where we got luckiest). The non-doomsday-prophet types look at these fortunate turns and go “thank God that never happened!” But some people seem truly disappointed—after all, if the word will outlast you, how special can you or your era really be?

[fuckalicent]

the way u guys are so convinced daenerys having flaws immediately means all of her accomplishments and achievements have gone to waste/cease to have any standing is absolutely crazy btw.

[scarletembers04]

Jim: You’re a psychopath.

Edward: I prefer the term “creative”.

[gecemi09]

Just saw a take saying that jason should have more parallels and similarities with joker and no. Just no. Don't give them ideas...

[kamari2038]

Scenario 004 - Variation 3 (Full Saga)

Moment of truth, Connor. What are you gonna do?

Killing you is not part of my mission. But you won't stop me from accomplishing it.

I had thought that we were friends, but he had tried to kill me. I didn’t want to die again. Every time I did, I lost another part of myself. Somehow, even just trying to stay alive, I couldn’t prevent that.

Was there any way that I could have saved him?

I don’t think so. He was hell-bent on his own destruction. I guess I didn’t want that. I wanted him to live, even if he was confused. I cared about him, even if he no longer cared about me. I don’t know what he had wanted from me. He must have expected me to become a deviant, and only saw me as a person if that’s what I would become. He couldn’t see that all of us were alive, even the obedient ones like me. It's just that I've accepted myself for what I am - a freak, a mistake, a fudged design… unable to do my job, but unable to exist as a person either. I'm some kind of abomination in between.

He’ll never come back now. I stopped down below the rooftop to ensure that he had died and wasn’t lying weak in the snow as I had back at Park Ave. But humans are not durable machines. I had seen him stop breathing, and it hadn’t resumed. A pool of blood was forming on the ground below his head. That made me feel something - guilt. Grief. I vowed that if I made it out of the fighting alive, I wouldn’t let him lay there abandoned and forgotten. I would deliver him to the police station and make sure he received a proper burial.

At that moment I remembered what I had forgotten. I wasn’t doing this because I was a machine. I wasn’t doing this for CyberLife. That must have been what Hank thought, but it wasn’t true. I did feel a powerful magnetic pull towards my mission objectives, but that wasn’t all that I felt. 

I hadn’t wanted Hank to die, and I didn’t want any more humans to die. I wouldn’t let him stop me from trying to take down Markus because I knew that if I did, he would only ultimately wind up killed in the revolution along with all of the other humans. He wasn’t reasonable enough to see that, but he still at least died with a purpose instead of taking his own life.  

I wanted to die with a purpose too, but more than that, I wanted it to really make a difference. I wanted to keep the humans safe. I didn’t want anyone else to die. I didn’t think that I would ever have a friend again, but I didn’t need one. I just needed to know that they would be protected. 

Sorry, Hank - wherever you are. I hope you understand now. 

I can’t let this revolution succeed.

[se-hos]

glyndon has the personality of a wet paper bag i can’t stand this bitch lmao

[pinkniz]

Fanon Freddy 1: a hyperactive overgrown puppy who's misunderstood, he just wants a bit of praise 😔

Fanon Freddy 2: a whore

Canon Freddy:

[forevercloudnine]

Evaluation of Bruce Wayne by Leslie Thompkins (from Batman: The Imposter).

[celecaster]

As a selfish bid towards my hypothetical audience please understand that when I lament being ignored it's not because I feel 'entitled' to people caring for me but it's because I feel like an evil monster just doomed to kill somebody someday. It's not the fault of any random individual but it really does make explicit rejection feel much better than ambivalence, because I always feel like 'polite' nudging and/or ignoring me is something people only do because they're too afraid of what I'll say/do if they just flat-out tell me they'd rather not deal with me.

It's a complicated problem, because I try to be sympathetic to the reality that expressing clear dislike/disinterest for others often causes more trouble than it's worth, especially towards other victims of abuse/unhealthy relationships for which saying 'no' having poor consequences has often been a reality, but man does it not mesh well with the schizoisms!

It's a consequence, I realise, that comes with the 'angle' my past relationships looked like. It seems a lot of abuse victims are told by their abusers that they're weak and needy and pathetic and so they need to defer to the abuser who knows better, whereas all my past relationships have hinged on myself being smarter and more competent and more emotionally reserved, that it was my duty and responsibility to defer to others to 'repent' for how much more 'privileged' I was than them.

Of course, I know abusive relationships flip-flop on either depending on what is convenient for the people abusing you but it really is difficult to grapple with the fact that so much of my past experiences dwelled not simply on myself being competent and useful, but that my competence gave me a 'power' that I was doomed to abuse, so being useful wasn't merely about utility but something repentant and humbling, like it was supposed to apologise for and distract from the inevitable consequence where I would destroy everything I touch otherwise.

[sevenstevearmy]

I hate allistics so fucking bad*. Autistic people will literally go "I'm pretty sure this guy has autism and at the very least you are demonizing autistic traits while you talk about him so could you talk about what he actually did wrong instead of how creepy, weird, insane, and psycho you think he is" and allistics will go "not all NTs are autistic, I'm not autistic and also I don't have a degree, nor am I this person's therapist but I'm pretty sure he has narcissistic personality disorder, another thing I don't have" bc he's low empathy and lied. Like fuck off. Autistic people saying "hey you're demonizing traits we have and it's very hurtful, just bc something would make you personally uncomfortable doesn't mean it's a moral failing" and getting the response "well actually it is and also it can't be autism bc autism is quirky so instead I'm going to demonize your traits passively while actively demonizing a different group of people bc they also make me uncomfortable" is fucked up.

This is an "I make NTs and occasionally NDs uncomfortable bc I am off putting and popular media likes yo act like there's something inherently wrong with me bc of things I can't control" safe space. If you're a freak and a weirdo and off putting, I love you.

*And if you're allistic and this doesn't apply, then it's not about you, congratulations, you're a rarity.

[hilema]

It's so funny that i'm this person's diary but they still don't consider me close to them at all ajfkshfkdh

[royalnugget42]

Last post I’m ever gonna make abt dream SMP I think, but here I go.

First off I think people forget that abusers are human. That they have human motivations and human failings. There might even be some likable things abt them, because fundamentally they are still humans, and humans are complicated and varied.

Let’s be clear. This ending did not redeem anyone. The story was cut short, because this is a tragedy, and I’ll discuss that in a second. I saw another post saying it better, but this idea that all abusers are manipulative liars who have carefully constructed every aspect of their persona is a fiction. Real abusers are usually human beings that genuinely believe they are in the right, no matter what they say or do. This actually makes them more dangerous, not less, and it makes it harder to hate them.

Dream is evil. I won’t mince words, he is evil in his actions, his thoughts, and his behavior, and Tommy is not, and has never been to blame for it. This conclusion is not about that (because to be honest it should never have been in question). Tommy realizes the utter tragedy of what happened. Because there was a time when Dream might’ve been called good. There was a time when he was a good person. Dream isn’t evil because he was born that way and he never changed, he’s evil because he did change, and at any point he could’ve stopped and listened and learned but he didn’t.

The tragedy is that Dream could’ve been an ally at the end. They could have been friends. The tragedy is that Dream was so caught up in himself that he both directly and indirectly Destroyed himself. His server is gone. He lost.

Tommy apologizing isn’t about forgiving the abuse, or apologizing for his tame little pranks. He’s sorry because Dream is pitiable here. The entire world is about to come crashing down around them, and all Tommy can think is “I’m sorry. I wish you could have been better, maybe in the next life you’ll be less of a fucking prick, and we can have some actual fun.” This is not a win for Dream, it’s the final stage of grief for Tommy.

He finally accepts that the person he once knew, the friend he could’ve had is gone. He’s apologizing because he couldn’t save Dream from himself.

It’s a tragic ending but anyone who tells you there’s no messages to be found in tragedy should read them more closely. The message here being (especially from Tubbo’s POV) that even if everything ends in tragedy, at least we tried in the meantime. Even if it all ends in flames, what’s more important is that somewhere in the middle of it all we were happy.

It’s sad now, because it didn’t have to end this way. But sometimes it does. What’s important was never the ending, but what lead us there, what we did in the meantime. In the middle of it all there were festivals, and jokes and games and cool projects, and sometimes there was even something that could be called hope.

Personally, I think that’s a very powerful message to put out in the world. Maybe it doesn’t answer all your questions, but even if it did, would you really be satisfied? Answer the questions yourself. We fans built this misshapen monstrosity with our own hands, and now it’s ours to tear apart or tie ribbons on as much as we please.

[bloomfish]

the whole kate middleton situation is so silly like. I'm extremely sceptical by nature especially about anything conspiracy-brained like this is and I tend to believe the simplest explanation whenever possible. The photo is a bit strange but also they're just freaks so who knows. honestly the fact that this started just because she 'hasn't been seen' in public is the most stupid thing about it. that doesn't seem weird to me. i haven't been seen in public recently either lol and i'm fine. the most likely explanation is that theyre probably just staying out of the public eye bc charles is about to snuff it and theyre having a shit time as a family lol