#semi-publishable

[flowerhungry]

tired of being ✨disposable✨

I do not think my move to North Carolina is going well.

There are more bad things than good things living with Cameron's mom.

It is insanely hot.

I was denied health insurance, and the dental insurance available to me is useless.

I have spent more than anticipated in moving costs.

I am not writing as expected.

I am not feeling as expected--I thought I would feel relaxed. I thought I would have purpose. Instead, I feel alone. Oh, how alone I feel. Being surrounded by a family who does not want you unless you perform accordingly is dreadful. (Though not much different from my family. Unfortunately, I do not have the familial tie, love, or commitment with Cameron's family making any and all acts of engagement difficult.)

I upset easily.

Normal activity exhausts me.

Restful sleep alludes me.

Cameron and I are "fighting" more. They are not fights, but rather emotionally draining conversations about how my transition is hard for her.

Unfortunately, I have to (can) look at all of these bullet points through different eyes:

Marina is drinking heavily. She is going through an entire $60 bottle of Jack Daniels every 3-5 days. (Not counting the Vodka...) Her behavior is erratic and concerning. Her dependence on and unrequited obsession with Andy only seems to grow despite the cross-country distance. I find her desperation to connect with Christian and Cole unattractive. Especially compared to her disinterest in connecting with Cameron, her daughter who wants connection. There appears to be trouble in her relationship with Lonnie; such a quick entanglement and ensuing fallout further demonstrates her inability to maintain relationships. She is not capable of giving me what she advertised or what I had hoped for. And that is not my fault. Advice from yours truly: Wait until everyone is asleep. Tiptoe upstairs with your freshly brewed green tea and your girlfriend's homemade sugar cookies. Dig out your best stationary. Light a black candle for light and protection. Put on your big noise cancelling headphones. Outline your misgivings, your expectations, and your hurt. Commit such emotion to paper in pencil in case the tide changes (because it will). Include your best wishes; your hopes for a relationship in the near future. Fold the paper nicely, making sure not to smear your intentions. Tuck into its forever home, seal with a lick of indifference, and leave it somewhere pretty. Then, let it be.

It is insanely hot everywhere. The Earth is dying. We are dying. There is no escaping; our coolest summers are behind us.

Yes, it sucks that you were not approved for Medicaid. Yes, it is truly unfair that universal healthcare does not exist in America. Yes, you should have kept your dentist appointment in October when you were still in California and still insured. But nothing can be done. There is no going back. This is the now, and, in the now, I have fourteen cavities. I am going to have to pay a significant amount out of pocket to have them filled. But nothing can be done. Advice from yours truly: Look into other options. Make a list. Call Mike. Schedule an appointment. Move forward.

Money is a renewable resource.

Stephen King, among countless others, said it best: you must write--the only way to get better is to write. The only way to learn is to write. Writing is the answer. Stop running away from your destiny! It sounds cheesy, but it is the truth! write is the sound your heart whispers when you ask, "what was I made for?" It always has been. Forever and always. Advice from yours truly: Watch more hero movies. Carefully craft a "bad bitch" playlist and listen to it frequently. Remember, you are a bad bitch. Bad bitches do not hide from what they want; bad bitches run after what they want. Start every writing session by writing intentions like Octavia Butler: "I AM A WRITER. I AM A BEST SELLING AUTHOR. MY BOOKS MAKE PEOPLE FEEL. MY BOOKS ARE ON THE NEW YORK TIMES BEST SELLING LIST. I WRITE IMPORTANT STORIES THAT MAKE PEOPLE FEEL, THINK, AND REACT. I AM A WRITER. I AM A WRITER. I AM A WRITER. MY BOOK HAS A BIRTHDAY." Laugh at yourself. Find the joy, the childlike wonder in writing again. You like it for a reason. Find it. Capture it. Put it in an ecosystem it can survive in, like one of those cool terrariums you see on TikTok. Nurture it. Keep it alive.

It is okay to not feel good. It is okay to not clean your room. It is okay to struggle. You are doing your best and that is all I have ever asked for.

You just moved across the country into a shared living space with a complete stranger who regularly invites other strangers into the shared living space. You have no job, no school, and no friends. It is normal to struggle under these conditions. It is normal to not be sleeping regularly. Honestly, it would be weird if you were not struggling in some way.

Cameron is struggling too. Most importantly, she just wants to help you. Advice from yours truly: Let her help you.

[fallloverfic]

Han Yoojin's Black Choker

This post isn't going to be everything, but it's going to hopefully be easier to find/navigate than the handful of posts I'm seeing floating around and that I've responded to: a summary of official art with Han Yoojin wearing the black choker in S-Classes that I Raised, its maybe appearances in the text of the novel, and its maybe relationship with fanart. For the short answer, yes it appears in multiple pieces of official novel art, and maybe at least once in the novel text. But it might also be a fan design that's sort of accepted as official at least in some cases? Explanation beneath the read more.

Yoojin's black choker is most likely Grace, the protection item Myeongwoo made from Shalos. Other folks have said it's the translation item he gets from Yoohyun, and I disagree, but I'll get to that.

The novel text

Text-wise the "choker" is possibly from novel chapter 109, where Grace turns into a sparkling choker at one point (which Yoojin notes is more over the top than a bracelet during his struggle to get her to turn into something less ostentatious). Some folks looked at different text in the novel here for how it and particularly Grace look, but just as a warning, there is no official English translation for the novel outside what we get in the manhwa, which is somewhat modified because it's a manhwa adaptation. There are fan translations for parts of the novel, but a lot of folks use machine translation, which can be very dubious.

In other places in the novel she's just described as turning into a necklace, not specifically a choker, though in novel chapter 176, it's described as sitting close around Yoojin's neck (which sounds like a choker). Whatever jewelry she turns into is specifically described as having a blue/silver jewel from which her bird form emerges (as she has in novel chapter 156, which is the chapter one fanwiki lists it appearing in, and in which she is described as turning into a necklace, not specifically a choker). So there's very little textual support for him to be wearing a choker, though he does at least on occasion wear necklaces.

Revised ebook novel volumes

SCTIR the novel was (and still is) originally released chapter by chapter on Naver, Munpia, and Ridibooks (currently Side Story is only available on Naver, but the chapters of the main story are on all three). The main story was eventually collected into 35 volumes and partially revised or at least given additional scenes in places. Each volume contained at least two pieces of art. For volumes 1-14 this was seemingly a character portrait with their bio (e.g., age, height, likes, dislikes), and 1 piece of interior art, with the latter at least being by 비완 (the manhwa artist). Volumes 15+ switched up interior artists, for a total of I think at least 3-4 artists, and those volumes had at least 2 pieces of interior art, with volume 35 having 4. The individual chapters didn't have this, it was added for the ebook release.

The volumes themselves are available on Ridibooks and Naver (they might be somewhere on Munpia but I couldn't find them).

The first volume of the ebook released in May 2020 (the Ridibooks release lists an earlier date for some reason than the one on Naver, which is November 2020). By this point, fans had already been drawing Yoojin wearing a black choker with a gem (usually blue or silver) on it since at least 2019: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6. <This fanart is by onlyraii, the artist who went on to make the new cover for the novel published in April 2022 (included down below). So at least some of the official artists were involved in the community and knew of popular fan designs (though notably, Yoojin is not wearing the choker on onlyraii's official book cover).

Just want to emphasize: there's a difference between an author drawing/commissioning art and ensuring that it complies with their specifications in the text/their vision and their publisher commissioning art that might not even get approval/comment from the author. I don't know how much geunseo had a say in any of the art for the novel. If there's some interview or something somewhere where they state clearly how many/which pieces of art they approve and the level of control they have over what the art looks like, I haven't seen it. It's not unusual for third party artists to have more freedom to do stuff and draw fan designs/things that aren't accurate in "official" art and for it to get approved (e.g., some of the interior art for the official English translation of "Mo Dao Zu Shi", which actually goes directly against what's on the page; it's kind of unclear how much control MXTX had over this stuff, and heavily implied she had little to none; it's possible that's the same case with geunseo). So whether or not you view this stuff as official is up to you. But it is in the official ebooks, though designs are not really consistent, which implies there was a lack of strong direction in what artists were/weren't allowed to do.

비완 potentially drew Yoojin wearing the choker in volume 13, for the Chuseok art (September 2020, I'm going by the Ridibooks release dates). It's very hard to tell whether that's his shirt collar or a choker. But it sort of looks like it.

The next time it was potentially drawn was by a different artist in volume 18 (July 2021). It's hard to tell because he's holding a bouquet that mostly covers his neck, but on the right side of his neck seems to be part of a black choker.

You can kind of see something that looks like a black choker near Peace's front left paw.

The clearest earliest example of him wearing it in official art is in volume 19 (April 2022), where he's clearly visible wearing a black choker with a blue gem on it. I don't see it mentioned as something he's wearing in the text of that chapter, at least from a brief browse.

He's also definitely wearing it in two pieces (one each) of art for volumes 20-21 (April 2022). Here's the one from volume 21:

In volumes 22 (April 2022) and 25 (August 2022), Yoojin seems to be wearing a cat collar with a similar design in two other pieces of art (one each volume). Not exactly a choker, but he's at least wearing something on his neck. Here's the one from volume 22:

The other art of him with the cat collar in volume 25 is a lot more similar to the other interior art choker designs, with a black ribbon or whatever it is and a blue gem in the center, rather than a blue ribbon.

After that, they switch artists at least once if not twice and none of them drew Yoojin with the choker - or any necklace at all - that I can see. He didn't lose Grace for good in the novel, though he doesn't wear her all the time, but no other artist for the interiors drew him wearing the choker for the last 10 volumes of the revised ebook novel release, if not the last 14. Whether that's a narrative choice or the inclusion of the choker at all is random/whatever the current artist wants/what was geunseo/the publisher's mood, who knows?

The manhwa adaptation

This is how manhwa episode 103 depicts Yoojin trying to get Grace to turn into something wearable after first receiving her (art by 비완), when the alleged "choker" description appears in the novel text:

I'm not seeing a black choker anywhere. The black line near his neck is the collar of his shirt.

As of posting on June 21st, 2024, at least on the free to read Webtoons page and Tappytoon English chapters of the manhwa, there is no art of Yoojin wearing the choker, either as Grace or the translation item he got from Yoohyun. The manhwa depicts the translation item differently, and Grace has only appeared as fancy necklaces or a bracelet. If 비완 drew the choker on Yoojin in the Chuseok ebook novel art for 2020, although the manhwa hasn't gotten there yet, they have drawn him wearing the choker before in official artwork, and yet have not drawn him wearing it since in the manhwa, for whatever reason. We'll have to see how the scene is drawn when the manhwa gets to Chuseok.

In the manhwa, Grace is shown turning into a simple bracelet after negotiation in episode 103:

You'll note he often wears shirts with black collars on them.

This is the translation item that Yoohyun gives Yoojin as it appears in manhwa episode 55:

Which is roughly how it's described in novel chapter 68, absent any specific color description for the metal ornament. Someone else said this is actually what people are drawing when they draw the choker because the design is vague enough to match a choker, which is strange to me, because from what I recall of the novel, Yoojin has this in his pocket/inventory most of the time. He's not wearing it constantly (he also already had it when he got Grace). It's kind of implied if not stated he doesn't like wearing it much and only puts it on out of necessity and takes it off at the first opportunity. He does, however, typically wear Grace (though he does, for various reasons, take her off a decent amount).

The April Fool's 2022 art by ? and the 2022 official novel cover by onlyraii

Someone else pointed out the "sketch" for the official novel art by onlyraii (final art below):

And here it is when it was released seemingly originally on 31 March 2022/1 April 2022 (KST).

In the other post I'm seeing about the "sketch" for this, the unfinished "sketch" listed was actually the April Fool's Day joke for 2022 that seems to parody onlyraii's cover, but with all the guys being bald:

(A lot of manhwa and I think Korean webnovels do April Fool's Day joke posts with fake "new" art done by official artists; 2022's SCTIR manhwa April's Fool's Day joke was magical girl themed, and this was 2024's, which had most of the cast become dinosaurs).

You can also see that while there are similarities, this is very much not what they ended up with, and again, it's dubious this was an actual sketch for the cover: it's not on onlyraii's twitter, though that doesn't mean it wasn't posted elsewhere, and seems more in the style of 비완's art, so it's likely this is the manhwa team doing a jokey post (the manhwa started in November 2021, and 비완 was still doing art for the novel ebook revision at least around 2020, so they'd have been around, and serikachan, the lead storyboard artist, does post about recent novel chapters on twitter, so at least some of them pay attention to the novel). I think it's intentional that all the men are bald as well, to note it's a joke; a lot of the Korean commenters are commenting on their baldness.

A core issue is the similarity and that they were released 11 hours apart (the gag went up around 11 hours before the official cover was released; onlyraii commented on their work for the cover around 40 minutes after the official cover was released). The "sketch" seems to show maybe a planned choker, but if it was an actual sketch in whole or part, it was clearly nixed for the final design. Who made that decision is anyone's guess.

"Sketch" or not, again, onlyraii has drawn Yoojin with a choker many times in their fanart dating back to 2019: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6. Before the 2022 piece. If onlyraii and/or 비완 wanted to incorporate a fan design into the official art in some way, again, they wouldn't be the first fanartist/community member to do so on official artwork.

In conclusion:

At this point I don't fully know if the design/his regularly wearing a choker comes from the novel or fanon that was later incorporated by fans into canon when they worked on the official art, or if geunseo suggested it or at least okay'd its inclusion on official art, but these things at least are true:

Grace is apparently mentioned as being a choker at least once in the novel text, but it's described as being rather fancy

the fan design/idea of the black choker with a small gem in the middle predates at least the official release of the ebook art with him wearing a choker (if they were released earlier than that on an artist social media post or portfolio or publisher post somewhere, in some form, encouraging fans to use it in fanart prior to the book releases, I have no idea), so at least the stuff pre-2020 was not inspired by the ebook interior art, and potentially nothing before 2022 was inspired by interior art because the clearest art with him wearing it wasn't out until then; it was likely inspired by the potential single/two times Grace is described as a choker in the text, or just generally popular fanon about him wearing a choker (wouldn't be surprising, there's a lot of emphasis on Hyunje grabbing Yoojin's neck all the time and how Yoojin's neck feels when he's not grabbing it)

Yoojin wears a black choker/collar with a gem in the middle of it in at least 3 if not 6 pieces of official ebook interior art, and a blue ribbon collar in at least one piece of official ebook art

after the choker/collar shows up on those 3-7 pieces of interior art, it stopped appearing at all (his neck is visibly bare of any necklace of any kind in multiple art pieces), and he doesn't wear anything on his neck in the artwork for at least 10 volumes; furthermore, despite the manhwa artist potentially drawing him wearing the choker in one of those pieces, they have not drawn him wearing it in the manhwa in the years since that ebook art was released, even after he had both Grace and the translation necklace item, both of which have been suggestions for what the choker is

So does he wear a choker? In the novel text and novel art, maybe, at least sometimes, but not currently in the manhwa. Does it look like it does in fanart? Maybe: it's not really described in the text and the few novel art pieces we have don't quite match each other. The publisher and/or possibly geunseo okay'd at least some official art with it on (though I don't know how much control geunseo has in that decision, and the author of the original work okaying art is different than the publisher okaying art, particularly depending on what degree of control geunseo had over any changes/what could be drawn, or if they were just allowed to say yes or no and that's it).

I'll try to keep this updated if new information/art comes out, so if you're seeing this as a reblog, check the source post to see if there's an update.

[barrencelenny]

✨fav fics published in 2023 ✨

173 fics (+ 15 podfics) (in English) were published in the coldflash tag in 2023! Bless everybody who continues to write fic for a show that has now ended!! Here is a semi complete list of all my faves from this year in lieu of a Spotify wrapped fics edition!!!

heading off the rails by Sandrine shaw

-let Barry be drunk (for a little bit) that's what I always say! he's in his 20s he should be at the club! and that's where he is here! incredible.

Into the Speed Force by captainicecube

-ahhh I just love fics where the speed force is a character and is also Super Creepy Eldritch Horror about it

detox just to retox (i’d promise you anything) by trespresh

-coming back to this series after years since the previous instalment made me go relisten to disloyal order of water buffaloes and single handedly restarted my fob obsession so thanks for that

Seek Comfort, Find Faith by Annawry

-love when fics just have the characters be cursed by magic. it's already a superhero show set in a universe with canon magic users it's not even a reach. also love when their solution is to fuck about it.

to give hope by Aerica_Menai

-Star Trek mention gives me so much serotonin it’s not even funny + honorary mention to ‘Just Another Tuesday Amongst the Stars’ for also being about Star Trek

small favours in high doses by QLaLa

-pov outsider and teacher!barry you are everything to me. the DTR bit had me in stitches. they're both SO goddamn embarrassing my god.

There’s blood on your teeth (let me get that for you) by SoftBoyDepot

-the tag being “if you’re a fan of Leonard Snart begging this is the fic for you!” and boy did it deliver

I Won’t Ever be Too Far Away to Feel You by RedRidingStiles

-this is the only fic where I would agree with len being a cop because it’s so good. the second hand embarrassment of the initial call from Barry makes my chest hurt but hey, that just tells you how visceral the experience of reading can be lmao

So Long, Scarlet Speedster by HowToKillAVampire

-time! travel! You are everything to me! Time travellers wife-esque situations where they meeting out of sync is catnip to me I’m gobbling this fic right up

The Fair Price of a Plate of Dinner by RetroactiveCon

-hehe love fics where both Barry and len are being little shits and causing problems for Joe. Me 🤝 Len “has no interest in Christmas, but do just about anything to cause problems on purpose”

slipstream by wednesday

- competent! Barry is everything to me. Misunderstanding is delicious to me. Len not knowing how to deal with random acts of kindness is Kryptonite to me. You see how this fic is exactly up my alley

[nomaejie]

i did something unusual

[bubblesandpages]

Does it mean anything that "the house is sentient" really picked up after 2020?

[prince-liest]

I think I've written myself into a corner and I'm going to have to edit the ending of Transmission 666, Emergency Broadca—ca—ca—zzzzt so that it resolves in the two chapters already posted instead of three like I intended. I've written, like, a few hundred words of what would have been chapter three but it just feels like it would work so much better rolled over into a specific sequel idea instead of being part of this particular fic. Which is unfortunate, because it's been sitting there marked incomplete for a few days and I absolutely was like, "Sure, this one will definitely also have smut!" and now it's like. No. No, it will not! Oops.

I issue a heartfelt apology about this to one person and one person only, and that person is terrified of missionary anon. >:)

[lauronk]

random recs on a tuesday

i have been so focused on writing fic lately that i haven't been READING it so i gave myself a couple hours to try to scratch some off my list and it was such a good choice on my part because they were all SO GOOD

life is pretty cruel for a touchy feely fool by @bumblepony (how do you manage to get so much emotion in a ficlet i want to SOB and also i need this entire world written kthanks)

how deep they lie by @ameerawrites (*muffled sobbing into a pillow*)

if tomorrow never comes also by @bumblepony (i'm biased bc she wrote this one for meeeee and also it was a reread because it's so wonderful)

sunny side of heaven by @chronicallyonlinewriter (literally no words for this one 😭🦋)

where you last placed your heart by itainthardtrying (needed so badly to catch up on this one; could scream about it forever and ever lemme tell you)

chicken soup for the apocalypse soul by @barlowstreet (sickfics my beloved, so amazing)

[chuuyrr]

tomorrow's gonna be valentine's day but i'm already wishing everyone a happy valentine's day in advance !! i love you all mwah <3 <3

[honeydots]

i made a laslow book........

[demifiendrsa]

Alan Wake 2 — The Dark Place Trailer | Gamescom Opening Night Live 2023

Alan Wake II has been delayed to October 27, 2023. It will launch digitally for PlayStation 5, Xbox Series X|S, and PC via Epic Games Store.

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Latest details

Alan Wake II pushes players into a psychological horror story from the perspective of two playable characters. Saga Anderson risks her life to solve a deadly mystery of murders in the Pacific Northwest while Alan Wake attempts to rewrite his reality to escape the depths of the Dark Place, a nightmare version of New York City. Taking full advantage of the power of current consoles and PC, and driven by Remedy Entertainment’s proprietary Northlight engine, players will take on powerful supernatural enemies in desperate situations filled with intense suspense and unexpected twists. Anderson and Wake are two heroes on two desperate journeys in two separate realities, connected at heart in ways neither of them can understand.

[pinkandblueblurbs]

being a semi-retired fanfic writer is sick because now my fics are behind me enough that i can reread them almost like they arent mine. i just had a craving for a hyper-specific trope and knew it would be a pain in the ass to try to find a good fic about it and then remembered i’ve written one

[shitty-check-please-aus]

I think there was even worse stuff than the whole art thing I talked about last night going on in the depths of Ao3 at the time but I have & had a very low bar for what it takes to make me close out of a tab so I don’t think I encountered quite as much of that

[gosorsomething]

White Christmas (1954) AU

“General Superion?!” Ava’s hands release her luggage, sending it clattering to the floor. Her right arm raises into a crisp salute, and her feet snap together at attention. “Ma’am. Private first-class, Ava Silva.”

Superion takes a few commanding steps in her direction. She raises an eyebrow and gives Ava a once-over, feigning judgement of her attire. Her eyes hesitate momentarily upon Ava’s flappy hat before she turns back toward the mantle by the door.

“At-ease, Silva. It’s good to see you again.” Suzanne places bundles of firewood from her arms into a basket near the lobby’s fireplace. “And, good to see you on your feet.”

“I—yes General Superi—” Ava stumbles over her words, lowering her hand cautiously away from her head. “Yes ma’am—Suzanne—I can’t believe you’re here! In a convent? I never pictured that you would become a nun—well—you can do anything you set your mind to, ma’am—but a nun? Or...” Ava looks over Suzanne’s worn, sawdust-covered cargo pants and toolbelt. “A janitor?”

Suzanne glances at a smirking Shannon, who busies herself straightening the room keys behind the desk.

“I’m afraid it’s worse than that, Ava,” Suzanne deadpans. “I own this hotel.”

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would anyone actually be interested in reading this haha

in which Ava and Lilith are veterans/big-time musical producers and performers, and Camila and Beatrice have been scraping by performing at supper clubs. Ava convinces Lilith to join Beatrice and Camila at their next gig over the holidays--a floor show at a struggling convent-turned-hotel in Switzerland--owned by the retired army general, Suzanne Superion, and staffed by her niece, Shannon and Shannon's wife, Mary.

uhhhh romance ensues

[enby-mori]

absolutely floored that one of my fics predicted season 2.

[penofglen]

England vs Netherlands: The Euro 2024 Semi-Final Showdown

England v Netherlands tonight - what is your score prediction? #engned #euro24 #euro2024 #football #uefa #germany #sport #books #author #writing #thriller #poem #nedeng #england #netherlands #engvned #nedveng

In Dortmund’s grand arena, under twilight’s embrace,England and Netherlands prepare for the race.A semi-final clash, a game of high stakes,With dreams of glory, each player awakes.Gareth Southgate’s men, with a burning desire,Seek to reach the final, to ignite the fire.Their journey, though tough, has led them here,Facing the Dutch, without any fear.Through penalties and challenges, they've…

[rotisseries]

well now u have to explain ur beef w spirk to me

AKAJDHFJS OK. so back in march when EVERYONE was running poll tournaments, my lovely mutual @tallytals ran a sun and moon duo one, @sun-n-moon-showdown. spirk was one of the contestants (so was merthur btw jayme got mad when they lost), but, so was MY pick, MYYY submission, the CLEAR winner, joe and nicky from netflix original action movie the old guard. tals' poll accidentally got pretty popular, so naturally spirk starts sweeping it's polls, meanwhile I'm over there just fighting for the joenicky agenda, because they were not the most popular pairing involved, so I'm campaigning like crazy I'm reblogging their polls to MY poll tournament sideblog for more attention and I'm CALLING IN FAVORS. I'm hitting up more popular mutuals to ask them to rb the poll for me (hella. hi hella if you see this do you remember that) AND I sent an ask to this old guard blog that I knew was relatively popular in the fandom, THEY bring attention to it, SO NOW THIS FANDOM THAT HAS BEEN A LITTLE DRY FOR A FEW YEARS ARE ALL GOING NUTS FOR THIS POLL LIKE THE BAND GOT BACK TOGETHER FOR A REUNION TOUR. there was strategy involved in this. the blog was organizing people and telling them to go mass vote for the less popular pairings in the other polls so joe and nicky would have easy competition. we should've won. we deserved it. BUT. IN QUARTER FINALS. WE ARE UP AGAINST SPIRK. IT IS A HARROWING TWENTY-FOUR HOURS. MY BLOG WAS A WAR ZONE. IT IS SO SO SO CLOSE. LITERALLY NECK AND NECK. WE LOSE BY POINT. 10. POINT TEN!!! PERCENT!!! IT IS LITERALLY 49.2 to 50.8!! I COULD FUCKING KILL A MAN

AND WHAT MAKES THAT LOSS SO BRUTAL. SO GUTWRENCHING. IS THE SPIRK FANS DIDN'T EVEN TRY. THEY RODE THE COATTAILS OF POP CULTURE KNOWLEDGE TO THE END. JOE NICKY VOTERS. WE WERE OUT THERE QUOTING THE VAN SPEECH. FROM MEMORY. YOU ARE A CHILD. AN INFANT. YOUR MOCKING IS THUS INFANTILE THIS MAN IS NOT MY BOYFRIEND. HE'S MORE TO ME THAN YOU CAN DREAM. HE'S THE MOON WHEN I'M LOST IN DARKNESS AND WARMTH WHEN I SHIVER IN COLD AND HIS KISS STILL THRILLS ME EVEN AFTER A MILLENIA. HIS HEART OVERFLOWS WITH A KINDNESS OF WHICH THIS WORLD IS NOT WORTHY OF. I LOVE THIS MAN BEYOND MEASURE AND REASON. THIS MAN IS NOT MY BOYFRIEND. HE IS ALL AND HE'S MORE. <- QUOTE FROM JOE ABOUT NICKY. FUCKING INSANE. EXTRA INSANE THING I FOUND OUT FROM ALL THE PROPAGANDA!! THE MOON HAS EXTRA SYMBOLISM BECAUSE JOE IS MUSLIM!!! I DON'T REMEMBER THE SPECIFICS BUT IT WAS IMPORTANT!! AND THAT JUST SERVES MY POINT. JOENICKY VOTERS WERE BRINGING ACADEMIC TEXTS THEY WERE BRINGING COLLEGE LEVEL COURSEWORK AND WHAT DID SPIRK BRING??? "oh guys don't forget your fandom history!!" THIS!! IS NOT!! THE FUCKING!! FANDOM HISTORY POLL!! IT IS THE SUN AND MOON POLL!! BLUE AND YELLOW COLOR CODING DOES NOT A SUN AND MOON COUPLE MAKE!! THEY BROUGHT NO EFFORT NO PROPAGANDA THEY JUST THOUGHT THEY DESERVED TO WIN BECAUSE THEY ARE ENTITLED. AND THEN THEY DID. THEY WON QUARTER FINALS. AND SO NOW I WILL MAKE SURE TO VOTE AGAINST SPIRK IN EVERY POLL I EVER SEE. INCLUDING THE FUCKING FANDOM HISTORY ONES. THEY DESERVE NOTHING