#should I make the first one my pfp hmm

[yuktuts]

Some angry emas

[anakinskywalkerog]

omg no way tumblr never bothered to tell me you replied. plus why is nothing showing up in my following feed??? a bone to pick for next time ig

ahaha i missed this too you're so good with advice! ❤ and thank you hehe i have been informed the new pfp it a character calld lust from an anime called fullmetal alchemist, but i just like the aesthetic

it really is and thank youuuuu! im sure it will! *sends ✨good luck✨*

hmm i dont wanna obsess over han at all, because first of all, ELI! that would be unfair. and han is sort of crazy, anyways. i am listening to i can see you from speak now tv but i shouldnt because it reminds me of han. it also reminds me of anakin. very anakincore track. i cant help it though, i can see you is so good, although it gives more of a reputation vibe than speak now tbh. still love it anyways and thank mother taylor for it. are you enjoying speak now tv? what's your favourite track? i think im enjoying mine, mean and back to december, but everything is ofc v nice! wish we had a mine pop mix tv and some more beat to enchanted, but its perfect as it is!

yess "there will be plenty more guys 😂 trust me." that's exactly what i thought, too! like, he's here now, but someday there's going to be someone else EXACTLY like that. although it might not be so bad if i did make a decision influenced by him because he and i have a similar objective - physics/engineering degree at oxford/cambridge so its a win-win no matter which way i go ig. plus we're academic rivals. competition is the norm for us. but about intrigue with han...

"oh? whos your friend? (i asked han to pose for one of my snaps hehe) is this friend good-looking?"

... dude? like, WHAT? that sounds like pretty blatant flirting to me.

but lets not forget that once we were in the corridor and bro leaned in super close (keep in mind this was months ago and this was in the middle of like 15 other people anyways) and i leaned away out of reflex 😂 i think he looked at me later with a very patronizingly disappointed

kinda expression. i think that was a test, and i failed miserably but thats fine 💀

eli really is we even have loads of similar interests!

yw and sameee! it is hehe she even send me memes and is a pedro pascal stan (as she should. pedro pascal is an icon. love him) ! very happy with that

oh no, is everything okay? can i do anything to help? if it helps, my life is only peaceful because i am in isolation from all friends, hehe i need time to regenerate. i am an ambivert at heart. my extrovert meter needs to recharge lmaooo

also, a part of me wonders if cranberry is mad at me? basically, he aksed me to write a steamy story abt him and han (thyre best friends) and didnt want his gf to find out incase she thought he was weird (bro she already does. shes ur gf. she knows what weird she signed up for smh)

anyways i made a small oopsie. i asked some people to critique it for me, and one of those poeple may have been the girl from my diary, whos friends with cranberry's gf, and who previously told machete i liked him when i wanted it to be a scret and explicitly told her so, and the one who i knew cannot be trusted with secrets because she will tell someone and lie about it 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

anyways cranberry was annoyed (and understandably so.) he said his gf was mad at him (impossible - if she was, shed be mad at ME first cos thats how women are. better than revenge is living proof. but she isnt! ) and i get it, but then people stop being mad, right? i mean, ive been really mad at him too, for a variety of reasons. i forgave him though and he didnt even apologize like i did! but he seemed normal at prom perhaps a bit icy? a guy friend told me im overthinkinngit and while he may have been annoyed it doesnt mean hd stop being friends with me or anything, and that he definitely wouldnt stay mad because its not a big deal.

but i texted him cranberry with a pretty obvious joke and he didnt even find it funny??? like thats HIS sort of joke??? how does he ot find that funny??? my friend says he must be mad then, but says theres the chance he just didnt find it funny?

like, i get it, but i want to make amends! and i wont even see cranberry in person so i can never tell. but if he was mad, he wouldve blocked me, or left me on delivered, or just opened. but he even sees my stories n stuff!

plus his friends would be mad if something happened. like guys are super gangy like that. but his friends are not mad at all, like han and this other guy are totally normal and no one sad that. even when han brought it up the day after the whole thing, he didnt imply it was serious and just dropped it after joking around abt it.

my friend did say if i was friends with cranberrys friends, it doesnt mean they have to be mad, but what if cranberry and his gf broke up over something as stupid as a joke???? and it was my fault??? i would feel awful and i cant even tell or say sorry.

nor can i ask han over text cos then hed tell cranberry and itd be weird. and i cant ask eli cos i dont want to set a bad rep.

he texted about it and i delved into a tiny argument he said its fine but "just think more next time". i think he and han both know i didnt mean for this to happen and that it was a genuine accident, but people gte hurt over things even if they know it wasnt meant to hurt them. shoulve said no is proof of this.

but they did send me a video of them reading the story together [cranberry and his friends, it was han who filmed (i did ask them to film their reaction)] and cranberry was cracking up as he read it! if he was mad he wouldve abandoned it. but they sill seemed to love it. surely if cranberry was mad at me, then that wouldnt have happened?

jesus christ, thats LONG. i apologize for troubling you, i didnt think itd get this long! its just been on my mind :( ironically it happened yesterday just after i was so happy. ugh. boys are awful

yes haha thank youuu :) if you're okay with my constant somewhat accidental drama dumps, i definitely will :D

love you and stay safe x

hi sythe so sorry it took me so long to respond to this!

I hope all is well with Eli. but GIRL have I been listening to “I Can See You” sooooo much it’s literally the delulu girl anthem! I love it. having a little crush on Han just adds some spice!! there’s nothing wrong with a little seasoning to an otherwise boring existence 😂

I am okay 🩵 just really been struggling with my OCD lately. I hope it gets better soon.

no fuckinf WAY cranberry asked you to write a steamy story!!? girl that is NOT platonic. what are these men doing out here 😂😂😂😂 but I agree, very unlikely that he is mad at you

I love the drama dumps, I wish we could vent together for real because I have been ALL over the place with my drama lately 😅 but it’s fine, it adds the comedy. i’m watching my own life like a work of absurdism. I would absolutely recommend that strategy.

[theladyinwhite13]

Hi Sky, (waves)

It's your Grishaverse Secret Santa again. Hope you're doing well babes.

Firstly, I absolutely love Nina and Wylan so I totally understand that it's so hard to choose.

Is there anything specific you like about each character ? I know this is a really hard question to answer so I'm sorry in advance.

And tbh Wesper is my fave ship too (if I was forced to choose)

But I'd be happy to make something Wytthias related especially for you.

Again, anything specific you like about the beautiful crack ship of Wytthias ?

But I think my main question right now is do you mind if there are spoilers from the show ?

Final question, I promise, I'm so sorry, I feel like I'm interrogating you.

What's your favourite artist, album and song ?

You can give me your top 3 for each of that's easier.

Have a great day/night babes.

Again, so sorry for interrogating you.

Your Grishaverse Secret Santa 🥰

omg hiiii babe!!!

hmm okay so I’m actually gonna give some random backstory that you didn’t really ask for first cause this might make my answer make more sense. SO one of my best online friends val (@firebrand-witch) was the one who got me into soc!! first she had told my sister to read it and then I was just an innocent bystander who was making lots of comments without any real context HOWEVER I had seen a photo of wylan once with googles and I thought he was adorable and I decided he was my favorite character but I didn’t know his name yet so I just referred to him as “the one with the googles” to everyone!! then I remembered that at one point my favorite mutual had put a photo of wylan as her pfp and that MAYBE that was part of the reason I loved him? like subconsciously I associated them with each other? idk but aside from all of those reasons I’m always big on the characters that are kinda overlooked or underestimated (like I don’t mean by the fandom but by the other characters in the story) and as someone with a Complicated relationship with a lot of family members, I just really like his story line!!

BUT NINA!!! OMG NINA!!! I honestly don’t even know if I have a coherent reason why I love her BUT SHE’S AMAZING SHE’S HOT SHE’S SMART SHE’S POWERFUL SHE’S SHAIHSKQNSJQHDOQISKEJDJIWIEJDNEQOSM ALSO SHE IS BISEXUAL!!! AND I AM BISEXUAL!!! I LOVE HER!!!

I just realized that all my answers are gonna be SO LONG omg this post will be very long, this is me apologizing in advance <3

hmm well first off I love that my gf DOES NOT like wytthias!! that makes it very fun to me!! but also idk it’s just really cute and it’s fun to have crackships that don’t make a ton of sense and like matthias DOES kinda treat wylan adorably, i just CANNOT ignore that fact!!

honestly I definitely haven’t been doing as great at avoiding spoilers as I should have, I know a few things that are spoilers, but I honestly don’t mind!! I definitely plan to watch the show, but the list of things to watch and read grows each day, so you really don’t have to worry too much about spoilers <3

oooh okay so my top three favorite artists (in no particular order) are maisie peters, 5 seconds of summer, and taylor swift!! I also LOVE harry styles and sabrina carpenter and olivia rodrigo and conan gray!!

top three albums are (also in no particular order) speak now (taylor’s version), harry styles (2017) and 5sos5!!

favorite songs ever is a little harder, cause I think favorite songs have to have emotional value to me so top three songs ever are falling by harry styles, mirrorball by taylor swift, and only a lifetime by finneas!!

alright hopefully this isn’t the most obnoxiously long and random answer ever, but thank youuuu (also I would never feel like you were interrogating me!! I love your questions!!

[imthebadguyyy]

i was tagged by the lovely @querencva to do this tag game, thank you so much for the tag, i loved doing this! 💜

1. Why did you choose your url?

when i was choosing the name, i had an obsession with billie eilish (which i still do ksksk) and bad guy was my jam, and then i never really got to changing it lol, but it's become my name now so it all worked out!! i also never thought i'd actually get to posting so i just picked something random : ))

2. Any side blogs?

yes, but it's all pure bs so i'd rather not mention it 💀

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

I've been on tumblr for a little over a year actively, only started actually using it towards the end of 2020 and started posting in 2021, earlier i just had the app and didn't use it because i didn't know how lol

4. Do you have a queue tag?

no, i never even use my queue, and the one time i tried i messed it up so 💀

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

i've always loved reading and writing and exploring new stuff, and one day i randomly stumbled upon this app when i had my peaky blinders obsession, and i fell in lobve with the blogs and people here. then i started to write and reblog and stuff and i just eventually fell in love with how much fun it was, and when i developed an interest in F1, i met a bunch of people who also shared my interest !!

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

it's a picture of lewis on a bike, which was my favourite photo from that photoshoot!!

7. Why did you choose your header?

i edited all the photo's from the WSJ mag photoshoot together because it remains superior 😌

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

hmm, it'd have to be this one and this one, this and this but y'all have shown so much love to so many of them!!

9. How many mutuals do you have?

i have a few but i'm lazy as a guesstimate would be like 20?? there may be more i'm just not counting 😂

10. How many followers do you have?

currently, i have 710 followers (holy guacamole) and i love and every one of em <33

11. How many people do you follow?

i follow 76 people!

12. Have you ever made a shit post?

i don't know??

13. How often do you use tumblr a day?

way too often, i have no social life 🤧

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog?

nope, it takes time and energy i just don't have

15. How do you feel about the ‘you need to reblog’ posts?

i think people should have the choice to reblog what they want, but this is a difficult one. if it's about needing help or for a humanitarian crisis i feel the need to reblog it, but once again it depends on personal preferences, but reblogging is just a click of a button and if it makes someone happy or helps them, might as well!

16. Do you like tag games?

i love em!!

17. Do you like ask games?

YES i do but for some reason, i can never get people to participate in ask games lmao

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

oh lots of em, and as they should be!!

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

nope, but i love em all

20. Tags!

tagging @grandestrategia @theonly1outof-a-billion @e44hamilton @lucent-knight @itsallyscorner @heureux4430 @soadoya @quillsink and whoever wants to, as always, only if you want to !! 💜

[oftincturedwords]

Tagged by @ourlordapollo & @ezras-channel-rat ( thank you both so much for thinking of me to tag ! i appreciate it ! <33 )

I tag @flosimo , @snidgethex , @pain-in-the-asguardian , @bisamwilson , @lindir , @theancientvaleofsoulmaking , @hexagonaldecency , @alexpenkala , @inspirationmerls / @merlevum , @garbria , @quietspace , @wallywastaken , @wecomrades , @yuzukimist , @winterinhimring , @legolas--thranduilion , @newtness532 , @zelsisi , && whoever else wishes to do this , i tag you !

1. Why did you choose your url?

i thought it was clever since i enjoy writing & writing involves being crafty with your words , thus ‘of’ , 'tinctured’ meaning slight trace of something , & ‘words’ so words with a slight trace of something , a flavour or tinge

2. Any side blogs?

no , i don't use sideblogs. nothing against them though , just never got into using them

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

ten years ^^’ thus far agdjfkfl i’ve been here since i was fourteen years old , but this blog specifically is only four years old

4. Do you have a queue tag?

as much as i do use the queue feature i should have a queue tag but i don't have one. a majority of the posts on my blog though are from the queue , i use that feature very often so perhaps i'll create one some day , i'll have to think on it

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

well , i started this blog because i wanted a personal blog to just reblogged whatever i wanted & have a place for all the fandoms i like

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

i just really like william bush from hornblower <3 plus paul mcgann in period clothing & smiling ??? how could i not have him as my icon agdjfkgl

7. Why did you choose your header?

it's q from the daniel craig 007 bond films , spectre to be specific , because i liked the screenshot & thought it'd look good as a mobile header ; plus i rather like q , we have the same fashion tastes & spend rather a lot of time in front of computer or working on projects agdjfkfl as well what's not to love about ben whishaw ??

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

hmm i'm not entirely sure but i believe it's this one

9. How many mutuals do you have?

100+ i think ? i've not counted

10. How many followers do you have?

250 but this number fluctuates near daily so don't quote me on it

11. How many people do you follow?

2956 ^^’ but a lot of them are inactive & that task to go through them all to unfollow is just too daunting now to even consider , i've had this blog for awhile now & hadn't kept up with ensuring the blogs i followed were active , now it's just piled up

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

i guess , maybe if you count the posts i make about writing that i think are funny ? not certain though ...

13. How often do you use Tumblr everyday?

nearly every day , but i do skip some days if i’m busy or am too tired , so more often than not every other day to every two days i guess is more accurate

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

no , i haven't ever had a fight nor argument with any other blogs

15. How do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

it rather depends on the message though that's being said in the post

16. Do you like tag games?

yes very much !

17. Do you like ask games?

yes i love those as well !

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

i’m not entirely sure because i'm not entirely sure what tumblr famous equates ? how would one go about determining that ?

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

no , not any crushes , but i have some that i consider friends & absolutely brilliant / talented people such as @pain-in-the-asguardian , @flosimo , @snidgethex , @lembasbrad , @inspirationmerls to name a few that i've converse/ed with

[jayflrt]

ouu let's go with 8, 10, 11, and 13 <33

VIV LMAOFJF that’s so funny bc those were the ones i was gonna choose for you but i saw ppl already asked you a few of them already 🤧 AND IM SORRY FOR GETTING TO THIS SO LATE life has been so hectic 😵‍💫 also pfp .. concerned

8. if you could create something and knew beforehand it would end up being a thing you were satisfied with the quality of, what would you create? describe it, whether it’s a poem or building or clothing or machine or painting, etc.

this is a hard one omg :o not to be basic but i think i’d want to create a novel HAHAH one that i’m rlly rlly proud of bc one of my little bucket list things for life is to write something (not fanfiction) that might not necessarily be for publishing but just for my personal happiness :’)) or i’d lowkey want to create hologram technology but that’s a lot to get into LMFAO

10. share an anecdote of a time you surprised yourself.

hmm probably the first time i got a skating medal !! i think ppl like to think about their big achievements, and i could talk about when i won nationals, but i think the time i most surprised myself was when i got my first medal ever. i had a losing streak for about a year until that one contest that flipped my confidence completely around and started my winning streak :’)) ♡

11. what do you find the most fun (lighthearted) shorthand method of categorising people (ex. astrology, dungeons and dragons classes, character tropes, style types, etc) and do you have a favourite type of person within that system?

hmmm IDK WHY IM HAVING A HARD TIME THINKING OF THIS ONE but i think i tend to categorize ppl based on what they wear ?? like guys who wear their caps backward, guys who actually know how to dress, guys who wear khaki pants, women who dress in floral, women who can pull off jumpsuits, women who have rlly rlly good style, etc. especially with the men i feel like i get a good idea of someone based on their style 😭 you just know how those engineering dads dress LOL 🥲 but i think my fav is girls who wear heels so confidently !!! don’t even care ab anyone else and just click click along the streets 🤩

13. write something that life has taught you that you’re willing to share, because you really do believe it.

idk if this is good advice but this is just something i personally have formulated myself from experiences and observations, but i’ve just learned that we beat ourselves up over education to receive more education, and then with that, we work for the rest of our lives. so appreciate the little things and make the most of what you can because we live in a world where we’ve created currency and economy to force us to work to maintain stability, so we should at least enjoy the moments where we can unwind and relax 💞

[adrenaline-whump]

Thanks for the tag @thatsgonnaleaveamark !  

1. Why did you choose your url?

It’s a play on “adrenaline dump” - basically when you're startled by something scary/bad happening and your body gives you all the adrenaline at once.

2. Any side-blogs? If you have them, name them and why you have them. 

Yep, I’ve got a few, though they’re not very active. [Edit: updated URLs] I’ve got @drensfavorites which I use to reblog/save long posts, there’s @drens-writing-reference for writing reference posts, @vertical-shift is an aesthetic blog, and then one called @exhaleandsettle where I save things to look at when stressed out.

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

Started this blog on December 30, 2017, though I was lurking for a while before that.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

Just “q”.  

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

I was SO excited to find the whump community!  I did a little lurking but I knew pretty fast that I wanted to participate.  

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

Joel Kinnaman’s character in Altered Carbon is pretty much my ideal whumpee. He’s strong and capable, but he’s up against equally tough opponents. He always seems to be simmering with resentment or anger, but that’s partly to cover up the emotional pain he’s struggling with. Also he looks great with bruises!

7. Why did you choose your header?

Tbh I just wanted a good whumpy picture, and I always like the aesthetic of a whumper tilting a whumpee’s chin up.

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

Technically this one about the fighter & the rescued kid, although I never know if I should count it since the addition is so good, it really increased the visibility & reach.  Other than that one, this post about whumpee types is probably the one with the most notes.

9. How many mutuals do you have?

Hmm, I wish there was an easier way to figure that out.  A fast scroll through the followers list says about 25.

10. How many followers do you have?

1360.

11. How many people do you follow?

89, and nearly all whump blogs. I really should follow more people, but since this is my main, I worry about people thinking “ew, why is a whump blog following me?” Social anxiety strikes again, lol.

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

You know, I don’t think so. 

13. How often do you use Tumblr each day?

It’s the first thing I open in the morning, haha. Right now, work is super busy so I’m just checking a couple of times during the day and in the evening after dinner.

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?  Who won?

Nah, I prefer to avoid drama. More than once I’ve written out a whole response to something that annoyed me, then deleted it and moved on.  

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

Even if I agree with the sentiment being expressed, that type of post strikes me as manipulative and a little rude. 

16. Do you like tag games?

Yes, but I have a spotty track record, lol. I promise, if you tag me in something and I don’t do it, the most likely scenario is that I went “Yay, I got tagged! I should do this thing!” and promptly got distracted and forgot about it.

17. Do you like ask games?

In theory, yes, although I’ve never reblogged one for myself.

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

I think all of my mutuals are whump blogs, and I don’t think any of us are really tumblr famous. We have our own happy little bubble over here.

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

If we’re defining crush as someone that makes you go all heart-eyes-and-blushing, nah, but platonic/affectionate feelings, sure.  :)

20. Tags?

I’ve already seen others tag everyone I would tag, haha.  If you are reading this and want to do it, I tag YOU.

[we-with-the-wings-of-freedom]

I was tagged by @tired-dummy thanks for the tag, baby~ 💞

1- why did you choose your URL?

Having wings would be amazing and the thought of just flying freely, is in a way why I chose that as my url.

2- Any side blogs?

I do, it's my fanfic blog. We-with-the-lgbtqfanfiction

3- How long have you been on Tumblr?

7 years or so.

4- Do you have a queue tag?

I don't. Should I make one tho?

5- Why did you start your blog in the first place?

One of my irl friend recommended the tumblr app since we love anime and they told me there was some amazing art on here

6- Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

I love katsuki and izuku. There dynamic is so good. Also I just love them. I change my pfp and all the ones I use and will use in the future are just art/characters I love.

7- Why did you choose your header?

Same answer as n°6. I use art or characters I love.

8- What’s your post with the most notes?

Let cis/trans boys be/do supposedly feminine things if it makes them happy/comfortable.

9- How many mutuals do you have?

Not sure? Maybe 5 or more. If we are mutuals, I adore you all and I'd love to talk with you all more.

10- How many followers do you have

560 of you💞 I consider you all as friends so don't be afraid to start a conversation!

11-How many people do you follow?

I follow 3805 people on here.

12- Have you ever made a shit post?

I don't think so?

13- How often do you use Tumblr each day

It depends. Sometimes I'm on here for hours sometimes a few minutes.

14- Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

Nope, never have.

15- How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts.

Don't care for them but I'll reblog one every now and then.

16- Do you like tag games?

I love these. These are so fun!

17- Do you like ask games

Yes, So much!

18- Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous

I don't know. Being famous on this site doesn't matter. Making friends on here and having fun is most important.

19- Do you have a crush on a mutual?

Well, tired-dummy is my significant other and I guess we have followed eachother on here for a long time (making us mutuals) but they're not just a crush, we're a couple.

Hmm ok, I'll tag: @ivywing @thecandymattie @palewhiteghost @starcatchernet @xero0 @jaackal

[noxyfied]

This, is Noxy/Noxyfied/Nox. This is the character I identify as online, and I want to tell you my story with this adorable Arctic Fox because it is one heck of a tale from not so long ago

Things did begin rough at the beginning of my persona’s history. I honestly can’t recall how I came up with it, only how I inserted my love for something and went with it.

From the early years of 2017 to 2019 I was all paper and pencil. Ah yes traditional art was my big thing for a couple of years during that era of 2013 to 2020. I had a time where I wrote stories about characters I made, and not much. No fan art, no nothing, I wanted to stick to my own original ideas at first before I took the step to do something that I did not own; it was a weird mindset I know, I couldn’t hold myself to want to be original and develop to be good enough to draw other things.

It took me some time to develop, hell even to this day I still am unsure of my own skills but I enjoyed trying new things. I don’t reject much criticism even if it comes harsh it still lingers in my head when received anyway. I needed someone to identify as online, a persona who I would have an identity through as I was moving forward on this hopeful career I want to make with my art.

Idea #1 draw my own self accurate to how I look 

Scratch that...

Nononono, I am too bad at showing my face, even at that I don’t like myself.

So I had to come up with something else, 2019 was ending with my skills rising up to something neat. I had Fire alpaca and a wacom cheap tablet which I used time to time back then, and with how I moved foward I said “why not, lets draw a glaceon.

Not bad, not bad. I do enjoy anthropomorphic animals, and for a anthro Glaceon it wasn't so bad. Even back then I did not enjoy much of this picture but the idea sparked. I did roleplay around online a lot as a Glaceon. People always had referred to me as a Glaceon when talking, because furry friends tend to be like that and I don’t mind. It had definitely sparked the idea of identifying as one for my persona.

I had a hard time how I would draw this character, a more personalized Glaceon with my own flare of the art style I carry should be nice, should I make it tall? short? anthro? feral? the questions rose up. Even more as time passed, took some time unsure of it, Unluckily I had a Glaceon FURsona, not a persona. (Yes those were two separate things as I carried 7 fursonas as individual characters in their own stories).

But soon one day in class, my artsy self was bored and it just sparked.

This is it! yes! I love it! something about this just clicked for some reason, it was like nothing I had seen before I could not look away at it, this was it.

After class I went home and played some games. The idea was there but man am I tired. Things did go slow, but not for long as of January, the classes I took gave me the ability to better understand this Adobe Photoshop, an amazing tool for editing pictures but also... To draw?!? I have heard of using Photoshop to draw but was amazed to have the ability using such program. During my time 2019 I would doodle around on Photoshop in my school or at home (thanks to the campus giving me a cheaper prize to use it for assignments) Not bad, not bad, the program was for sure something nice to use. Look! I even drew my Fursonas there too, ain’t that nice

2019 was something for sure. It had just begun making 2020 quite the year as I took my wacom tablet, opened Photoshop, and on January there it was.

Oh how cute! I felt so proud of myself, firealpaca was nothing like how clean and pretty Photoshop was, I was amazed at this ability.

“I made this?” that would be what I ask myself everyday. Time to time I would, and still, look at my phone to my drawings and remember what I used to make some pieces, I will not forget how I used thick outlines with the line too from photoshop, added some depth on the eyes. But most importantly, I had a persona, and I introduced it

My friends loved it, I could not believe I am starting to do the shift, my days of traditional art were at a halt. Not at a complete stop since I do use traditional art for a few other things of course, this was just my main focus now.

This little creature was everything to me, cute, easy to make, helped me throughout a few months as I practiced with my digital art.

I also perfected it’s look, but something looked rather familiar about it. Could not put my finger to it, so I went on drawing it.

that was a few exceptions where I shifted the proportions for “it”

“It” “it” what was this thing supposed to be, I myself was unsure how to identify myself with this persona. Male? no, female? no. The issue was there, who am I really inside, who was my persona gonna be.

I still cannot tell you exactly what my persona was for the longest time. I at times felt lost and confused with my identity, it did not help that 2020 did its mumbo jumbo and a pandemic happened, it was a lot of time on my own at home just questioning really who I had been for the longest time. Classes were minimal so my free time was big around April and May.

I was always unsure of who I was exactly, through my early years late 2000′s I had in me that my body was uncomfortable for looking the way it did, 2010′s went silent but there was something in me I did not understand. why did I feel this way, why do I feel as I am not happy with who I am, and who I identify with.

This persona was the wake up call to who I really wanted to be. I saw it in me that I knew being a male was the main issue in me feeling unhappy. Throughout my life I did not enjoy masculinity as much as other kids, yeah I had some boy traits but it was rather minimal, I enjoyed other things more. I enjoyed a lot of things about being female it was something I had never seen before. as hard or confusing things tend to be from me to explain, its a rather hard thing for myself to explain. But that how it felt “confusing” I researched and looked for things and to my conclusion I had come to be, I come to identify as a MtF trans.

I felt relieved in me of it and I already enjoyed my days more after from it. The only issue is “who do I tell..?” I was timid to tell this to anyone, friends or even family. Especially family, those I come to admit they will never be told of what my decision was because of how hard headed they are. It is a tragic story to tell since most families are such closed minded people of rejecting others.

“My friends tho, my friends? I would feel bad if I told them” that was the mindset I had for a while before admitting to them time to time, one by one. This was a chapter in my life that had changed me early 2020′s but I felt a lot of joy in me to be who I wanted to be, I no longer took anyone else's guidance for controlling who I am, I just went with my own flow.

My persona was.... more comically confused, it could be either so I just left it how my mood wanted it to go for when drawing it. So, things went well, in 2019 with the money I got I found myself enjoying a lot of second handed games, with a game coming real soon that had me pumped for I had to get a console I wanted for so long

A PS4 for the the Final fantasy 7 Remake, I was so pumped waiting for the game, I got a used PS4 for it and even bought couple other games for it to get to know the console: Final fantasy 15, destiny, and later on this Persona 5 game a lot of people talked about. Hmm ok, well lets try it out and oh me oh my, a few days later:

The art style captivated me, can you tell I went all out to trying anything with my persona? I cannot believe I was my own guinea pig for these sorts.

Going around some friends and they will tell you that I used this pfp quite a lot back then, as well as updating it with a new oc I had come up with

A tale in due time will be told about this gal.

well, it was set and forth that this was me, my persona, this glaceon was who I was. People loved it, my friends really liked it, and I had a blast having this first pure year of digital art only. Meeting new friends, and admiring their art. Having old friends come back, and even losing a few others on the way. During the time of june, to July I was rapid about drawing my persona in many ways, short, tall, anthro, feral

even metallic.

 But there come some time I did not grew tired of. But a little worried that I had to rely on a franchise for my own identity, of course there is nothing wrong for those doing it. But reflecting on myself, back then when I wanted this art career to happen, I wanted to go all out letting out my imagination  with my own creations. I had to make the decision, it was time to move on...

...To a new art program and new drawing tablet

No, it wasn’t that. I had to branch out from this Glaceon, but keep my identity, my legacy of this persona in check, but with a new coat of paint of course. did not take a long time before choosing that I had to use a real life animal as inspiration for this change. Something at least close to it, ah yes of course! the inspiration of the Glaceon was an arctic fox, well those are some good stepping stones to begin with so what happened one day is that I began sketching, not before saying good bye to this old self that helped me begin. It was weird, this is me but it was old me?

Tested the new Brushes from this amazing program called Clip studio paint, and I gotta say I love the program. Sincerely the best choice I made to leave Photoshop for this.

At last, this is it. the new Me!

Familiar looking isn’t it,baby steps we can say.

I cannot blame the people for calling my new persona a “Glaceon-alike”

I headed to the right direction stepping away from it, but it was hard to let go

new program, new tablet, new me. the later half of 2020 went onto a lot of changes with myself, the chibi small version did not make me happy to make anymore, I was losing the touch and with the few comments I got of looking like a “powerpuff girl look a like” did set me off to do a drastic change I am thankful to do. This new me had some weird phases, don’t we all tho?

where else to brainstorm than back to the traditional old ways. Now, you may see this and ask what was I thinking when making this. the order of when i started and finish goes as: Top right: ok what if it was feral, nah nah scratch. Top left: Can I still make it cute with a round face and features I had from before? ew no! that looks scary Bottom right: lets make it more natural and wow hey! yes yes yes! this looks hundred times better. Bottom left: It is time I go all out and make it humanoid, it was how I found myself enjoying drawing most things but still did some anthropomorphic things. I was just not the best of it.

Back to digital and.... Amazing, I really out did myself this time, lets go for it, lets keep going with this

I even got a cool sword too!

My practice continued from here, the second half was great and fun. New persona got me in a place where I was happy with and through October and December I was having a blast with the more possibilities with it. I went on to practice with even more suggestive things after a life drawing class I took, proportions mattered to me and with this new persona I went out to make more better looking proportions that were attractive and stylish.

This persona was great, and I managed to make so much of it. even Drawing the more suggestive stuff had left me with an answer for this persona. Just make it gender fluid, my selection for this character being male or female made me so tired I did not know why I just made it gender fluid since the beginning. My mood swings for this character, and I can’t resist drawing it either way. Was I finished? of course not, this persona still had some work around to do. The hair became a pain to make to keeping up with  consistently.

2020 ended, with a year of exciting new things coming for this new year. I went through quite a lot in my life and my art career took a shaken with this new digital life style, my persona became the identity I saw myself through, something im happy with drawing to represent Me.

That isn’t to say that I gave up on drawing Me Me.

I drew who I hope to be, and will use this from time to time, nothing fancy but something.

It has been a year already since I began identifying myself with this persona from last year from now. ever since I sketched that doodle in class, it has been a happy trip through memory lane writing it and I am happy how things turned out. 2021 is what I hope to be as good as 2020 was (by that I mean drawing only of course) In 2021 one more change was made that had made me just as happy to continue on with.

I got more hair! as crazy as it is yes. More hair, and a different front style has been to this day what I been using.

I even made a discord emoji for all the warm hugs to have with my fursona!

and my first ever animation I have ever done before!!

I am always experimenting new things, and i’m proud to be an artists to go out there and leave my art out there to be noticed by anyone. The love and appreciation friends and others leave me are the best thing I could ask. I look foward to see what is up ahead, for me, my career, and Noxy.

[michelemoutons]

tagged by @gaslypodium! i did do a similar one on my main but i want to do it again >:] it's a bit long though so hop on under the read more and we'll get to the good stuff

1. Why did you choose your url?

of course i had to reference my favorite driver, michèle 😌 back in the day the press really did not know how to Act around her so she had a lot of tabloid nicknames. and the german one was literally ‘black volcano’ bc of her hair and her (reported) temper

2. Any side blogs?

this is a sideblog! my main blog is @knapp-shappeys.

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

i’ve been lurking on here since abandoning google+ in 2015, but didn’t make an effort to take care of my main until 2016. i’ve been on motorsport tumblr since march 2021

4. Do you have a queue tag?

i don’t use queue except for my (almost) daily group b posting, and i don’t have a special tag for it

5. Why did you start your blog on the first place?

i got into group b rally first. i ended up picking up f1 bc i’d been seeing a lot of f1 on my dash (thanks alix) and had also come across a picture of seb and schumi with michèle at a race of champions and thought hmm those don’t look like rally drivers! :) i wonder who they are! :)

i got up to something like 100 motorsport-related posts on my main and then had a blazing moment of realization that this was certainly not what anyone had come to my main blog for, so i made this one! alix inspired me on this front as well.

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

michèle and fabrizia my beloveds! yes the posts on this blog may be overwhelmingly related to f1 at this point, but my original entry point into motorsport was learning about their story. and i love them dearly

7. Why did you choose your header ?

this was the picture that technically started it all for me.

so long story (that you can skip if you want, i don’t care) my parents took me to stare at cars in a dealership one afternoon when i was about nine years old. i was dragging my feet/complaining about being there, so they had me sit in a chair and wait. now i hadn’t brought anything to read. i was bored out of my mind and settled on staring at the pictures on the walls. right next to me was this picture of a woman standing next to a yellow-and-white car against a backdrop of a mountain.

my first thought was, “that’s a pretty car.” my second was, “wow, she’s beautiful.” third, “i wonder if she’s asian?” because she had long black hair like me. so i spent a lovely hour piecing together a story about her in my head before my parents came back and collected me, and i promptly forgot about the whole thing even though it was arguably a formative Fruity Moment.

fast forward to a few months ago, when i was doing research for something else and came across the same picture. i remembered being 9 and seeing michèle mouton’s picture on the wall, and decided to read her wikipedia page. lo and behold: i became a motorsport fan.

8. What’s your post with the most notes ?

pfffft got no clue but i had one with 50k on my main somewhere back in 2017

9. How many mutuals do you have ?

i don’t keep track of this. if you follow me we’re automatically besties

10. How many followers do you have ?

44 here (hehe) and 332 on main

11. How many people do you follow ?

😬 a lot, i should go clean it up a bit

12. Have you ever made a shit post?

oh what is microblogging platform but to create shitposts day in day out

13. How often do you use tumblr a day?

i check it a few times: once in morning, sometimes in the afternoon, mostly at night because that’s when a good amount of my internet acquaintances are awake (we love time zones!)

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog?

no. life’s too short

15. How do you feel about the “you need to reblog” posts ?

i ignore luck ones on principle but as for awareness posts, i’ve said this before but i come to social media to have a laugh and relax, not to be aware of news or educate others. i do have a life away from the screen where i do stay informed and in touch with reality, where i do educate myself and other people in my life and participate in physical actions like boycotting and donations and (barring pandemic times) volunteering. that’s my activism. that’s just me of course, different things for different people, and no one’s better or worse than others for trying to do something in their own ways as they are capable to help others. hopefully that made sense too

16. Do you like tag games ?

of course i do!

17. Do you like ask games ?

yes! i love being asked things!

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is mutual famous?

how would you even keep track of this? haha

19. Do you have a mutual crush?

i don’t have crushes on people i’m only acquainted with through a screen

no pressure of course, but tagging @totowoof, @jedivszombie, @p1tstop, @maranello, and @hon3y-badg3r

[moonbeamsung]

tag game!

thank you for the tags @navyhyuck @nakamotocore and @sweetlyjaem <33

tagging: @jisungiest @chicksung and anyone else who may want to do this :)

-why did you choose your url?

i wanted to use a nature word + the ‘sung’ in jisung as he’s my ult bias. i thought ‘moonbeam’ was really pretty and the rest is history

-any sideblogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them

no, i wish i did though because i would feel more organized. i should have made a main/personal and made writing separate but i didn’t know how tumblr worked at the time that i joined, oops

-how long have you been on tumblr?

i’ve been reading fics on here since late 2019/early 2020, but only made my blog at the end of july 2020!

-do you have a queue tag?

yes, but different ones! the main tag i use when i queue things (because it’s usually during the night) is queue: dreaming of jisung😴

-why did you start your blog in the first place?

to interact more with the writers that i read works from! but soon enough i was convinced to post my own writing here, as you can tell

-why did you choose your icon/pfp?

purple haired jisung >>> enough said

-why did you choose your header?

i love the colors in the pictures from the crazy jalapeno ver. of the hot sauce album and wanted to make a collage of sorts with them :) and again, it’s jisung. need i say more

-which post of yours have the most notes?

my haechan fic ‘serendipitous synergy’, which has 257 notes :) but like why though i have much better fics than that or at least tell me why people like it so much so i can write something that does that well again okay thank u

-how many mutuals do you have?

at least 50 because i can’t tag them all in one post lol, not sure of the exact number though. for all i know it could be closer to 100 by now

-how many followers do you have?

333        why

-how many people do you follow?

250

-have you ever made a shitpost?

yes, far too many

-how often do you use tumblr each day?

probably 3 hours at least :,] i’m working on that

-did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

no and i hope i never do :/ i cannot stand conflict or confrontation so i would simply cease to exist

-how do you feel about "you need to compare this" posts?

also don’t know what these are so i have no opinion. in general though comparisons can be harsh so even if i did know, i probably wouldn’t care for them

-do you like tag games?

yep, like this one! hehe

-do you like ask games?

if i get asks for them then yes

-which one of your mutuals do you think are tumblr famous?

ahh i think @nakamotocore @meraki-mark @prettyjaems @navyhyuck are all pretty famous perhaps? and rightfully so honestly

-do you have a crush on a mutual?

hmm not necessarily a crush, but i do have some moots that have the cutest friendships with each other, and make me wish i had that with someone too skjxdnfs :,)

[eienloveslesmis]

Ask the Shipper.

Pick your top ten ships without reading the questions.

Enjoltaire

Méponine

Merthur

Morgwen

Harmony

Fremione

Leta Lestrange x Newt Scamander (idk the ship name)

Jily

Eleven x Max (idk the ship name again)

Johnlock

1: Do you remember the episode/scene/chapter that you first started shipping 6?

-When Draco called Hermione a mudblood and Fred and George tried to jump on him to defend her. 

2: Have you ever read a FanFiction about 2?

-Too many. Written a few as well.

3: Has a picture of 4 ever been your screen saver/profile picture/tumblr avatar?

-Yes, on my Instagram Merlin fan account Morgana and Gwen were the pfp for awhile.

5: Why is 1 so important?

-Grantaire loved Enjolras in the best way there is. Loving someone for their character instead of their looks or their ideals is exactly the way it should be. And the tragedy is pretty cool too, I’m all for the fluff but they died holding hANDSSS.

6: Is 9 a funny ship or a serious ship?

-Kind of a funny ship in that they seem to really enjoy each other’s company and there isn’t too much angsty shit.

7: Out of all of your ships listed, which ship has the most chemistry?

Probably 3 or 7.

8: Out of all of the ships, which ship has the strongest bond?

3 and 5.

9: How many times have you read/watched 10’s fandom?

I’ve seen Sherlock twice and I’m in the middle of it again.

10: Which ship has lasted the longest?

Uhh a lot of them never even got together lmao but I guess Jily would still be together if not for the whole death thing.

11: How many times, if ever, has 6 broken up?

Fred and hermione never got together lol so never ig.

12: If the world was suddenly thrust into a zombie apocalypse, which ship would make it out alive, 2 or 8?

Damn that’s a hard one. I mean Marius is a complete idiot, he’d probably try to reason with the zombies but I guess Éponine’s survived on the streets long enough to know some shit. On the other hand, James and Lily know magic and could blast zombies off their feet, although they didn’t manage to survive a wizarding war... I’d have to say Jily, mainly because they’ve got magic going for them.

13: Did 7 ever have to hide their relationship for any reason?

Hmm, I don’t know if you would really call it that because it was kind of not even a relationship, but they were kind of on the DL about their friendship because of the stigma around Hufflepuffs always being ridiculed by Slytherins so I guess so.

14: Is 4 still together?

Nah, Uther had to go and ruin Morgana.

15: Is 10 canon?

Depends on who you ask but I guess not really. Almost.

16: If all ten ships were put into a couple’s Hunger Games, which couple would win?

Merthur. Merlin’s magic and Arthur’s fighting combined make them a pretty badass team.

17: Has anybody ever tried to sabotage 5’s ship?

The Weasleys, bruh. Specifically Ron and Ginny.

18: Which ship would you defend to the death and beyond?

Enjoltaire and Merthur. 

19: Do you spend hours a day going through 3’s tumblr page?

Absolutely.

20: If an evil witch descended from the sky and told you that you had to pick one of the ten ships to break up forever or else she’d break them all up forever, which ship would you sink?

Probably Enjoltaire. I KNOW. They’re my favourite ship, but a huge part of why I like it so much is how heartbreaking it is to see Grantaire’s adoration go almost unrequited. I like the ship as it is. Obvious in canon, but tragically ended before it begins.

[an-infinity-of-possibilities]

I was tagged by @mildolyn-love, thank you dear 😊

1. Why did you choose your url?

Hmm.... To be quite honest I cannot remember? It's always been this URL as far as I remember. I think I just like the idea? There was a moment in my life where I felt I had no choices whatsoever. I like thinking that it's not true. Life is a complicated thing... But it isn'T set in stone. If tomorrow I decide to move to Prince Edward Island... I could. If I decide to become a full time photographer I can. It is not because right now my life is a certain and that I am a certain way... Well that doesn't mean I HAVE to stay that way forever you know? So... Yeah probably why I kept that URL

2. Any side blogs? If you have them, name them and why you have them.

None that I use anymore ! I do have one I plan on taking back but not right now.

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

Feels like forever? 2014? probably. I was in college ( in Quebec mind you so I was a very young 17). I would have joined before but my strict parents wouldn't let me. Which is fine I get where they were coming from

4. Do you have a queue tag?

Nooooopee. I blog whenever I feel like it so.... It'S pretty much all over the place

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

I had become obsessed with Faking it, Carmilla and OUaT ( Well more like with the Evil Queen). I wanted to talk about all of it and ... like my little sapphic ships but no one I knew irl knew them. And not being out back then made it complicated for me to openly talk about said ships cause I felt it would sell me out. Soooo that is why I started the blog. Then I just liked it and stayed

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

My ex best friend drew that for me a long time ago. It's supposed to be me. I used to love it haha I've been working on a new icon... It should be there soon haha

7. Why did you choose your header?

It was the view I had every morning in my second flat four years ago. Don't ask me why it's sideways... I've no idea when I put it up it was okay and then for some reasons both my icon and header were turned sideways.... I nver bothered to change them

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

Think it was my Bernie Sanders in Mildolyn scenes post? hahah followed by my Mildolyn background post.

9. How many mutuals do you have?

No idea tbh haha But I appreciate you all. You're all awesome!

10. How many followers do you have?

118? I am definitely NOT a big blog

11. How many people do you follow?

255

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

Not that I know of hahah

13. How often do you use Tumblr each day?

It really depends on the day. When I have schcool and work I tend to go way less than when I have a day off.

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? Who won?

Not that I am aware of. I tend to... not really talk? When I do it's mostly it's to make sure people are okay. I hate confrontations so if something annoys me... I'll just ignore it. At least on here haha

15. How do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

I tend to ignore them. But then again it depends on which type of you need to reblog this. Some are funny so I do reblog but if we are talking about " Reblog this or your family will be cursed for the next century" it just reminds me of the old spam mails so I just ignore them

16. Do you like tag games?

Absolutely love them! I think it's fun and it gives me the chance to know more about y'all

17. Do you like ask games?

Again absolutely! For the same reasons :) I just hope y'all don't mind my babbling

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

No idea? I don't really check that hahah

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

Nope :) I don't have a crush on anyone as of right now

Tags: If you've done it just ignore it ;)

@coffee-is-below-my-standards @fantasydreamworld @midnight-love-song @xxjordyyy and anyone else who feels like it :)

[melissa-kenobi]

I was tagged by @hunters-heathen, thank you hun x

Why did you choose your URL?

I just adore Obi-Wan, honestly I love this man with all my heart! He's so soft and pure and everything. Also, I'm basic and couldn't think of anything else lol x

Any side blogs?

Nope. Although I am considering making a Mando/Javier Peña one because I love them sm x

How long have you been on tumblr?

Oh crap, I dunno. Not that long, I think it's been like a year or s- hold on I just checked, it's 2018. Hmm damn x

Do you have a queue tag?

Queued post 💕

Why did you start your blog in the first place?

I started writing an Obi-Wan fic (my undying love for obi) and I really wanted to post it somewhere but I was too much of a wimp. So I did some of it on A03, but then a mate messaged me and told me I should do it on Tumblr and I'd make a lot of friends via Tumblr. So I did and voila, here I am x

Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

Lmao because it's supposed to be me 😂

Why did you choose your header?

Well, I dabble a bit in drawing and I drew Din and I was hella proud of him (and I love this man and Pedro with all my heart) so I thought why not? x

What’s your post with the most notes?

I don't even know how to check - I think it might be my Wolffe fic or Hunter one x

How many mutuals do you have?

Maybe like 20 I think? x

How many followers do you have?

374

How many people do you follow?

253

Have you ever made a shitpost?

Erm, I don't think so lol x

How often do you use tumblr each day?

Lmao way too long. According to my app usage thingy, it's 4-5 hours a day x

Did you have a fight with another blog once?

I don't think so! I love everyone here x

How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

Tbh I don't really care x

Do you like tag games?

Hell yeahh, I always get way too excited when someone tags me in one!! x

Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

Every single one of them!!! x

Do you have a crush on a mutual?

Hell yeahh, all of them ;) x

***

No pressure tags: @justanothersadperson93 @lysawayne @pinkiemme @padme-parker @starwarsworld @simping-for-fives @tobitofunction and anyone else who wants to do it :)

💕

[teamnick]

blog tag

Thanks for the tag @skyshipper and @nina-zcnik 💙

1. Why did you choose your url?

Originally I had a gibberish url - when I registered, I didnt think I’d interact with anyone here lol - then later on I thought I should change it to something that actually means something, and that time I was deep, deep in my Nick Blaine - feels...hence my current url. 😊

2. Any side blogs?

I do have a few - I use them mainly to “store” there the fics that I really love, and there is also another one that was dedicated to Giancarlo’s llama show. RIP.

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

Hmm I think I registered in 2017? So I’ve been here for 4 years now. Geez.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

Nope, I dont even understand whats the reason behind it tbh - but I hardly queue anything, so...what do I know.

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

To find an outlet for my feelings re: Nick and June (and Max Minghella in particular).

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

Okay so I watched Shadow and Bone and fell in love with the show, mostly with Helnik and Matthias. He is amazing. So I knew immediately that I wanna change my icon - but didnt find anything that I liked. And then I got lucky - @hvitstark had her 4k celebration event and she was kind enough to make me a Matthias icon with the style/colour that I chose (again - thank you so much!!). And I’m in love with this pfp ever since. 💙💙💙 

7. Why did you choose your header?

LOL see above. The gif is from my favourite Helnik scene, with one of my favourite Matthias moments. My heart melts every time I look at it tbh.

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

Uhm...I think its this Normal People gifset from last year. I made only a handful of edits, and I’m also unable to learn how to use Photoshop, so yeah...its not great, but I still love the concept. 

9. How many mutuals do you have?

I dont know...I counted it once, but I cant remember now. Somewhere between 30 and 50, maybe?

10. How many followers do you have?

813

11. How many people do you follow?

285

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

Oh yes. Yes. 😂 Once I will be brave enough to share them here, but for now the receipts shall remain on the llama blog.

13. How often do you use Tumblr each day?

Definitely too often. I go through the dash every morning, then I check it during my breaks @ work...not that healthy tbh.

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

Nope. The stupidity is quite astounding sometimes, but hey, thats what the block button is for!

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

I hate these childish guilt trips. If I see a post saying “You need to reblog this!!”, or “If you cant reblog this, unfollow me now!!” - theres a 100% chance that I will NOT reblog it. 

(If the question refers to the reblogging of posts like fics or edits - then yes, I absolutely agree; I tend to reblog everything I really like, why not? It’s important to encourage content creators, otherwise how would they be motivated enough to keep the fandoms alive?!)

16. Do you like tag games?

Oh yes, very much!! They are a nice distraction or a procrastination method

17. Do you like ask games?

I do like them, yes, but I’m the absolute worst in answering any asks that I might get. Idk I always get overwhelmed, or I just dont have enough time to make my answers nice/good enough...and in the end I get anxious af. So I havent reblogged any ask games lately.

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

@zalrb definitely. (Or if she isnt yet, she should be.)

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

Yeah I do! But they probably know that lol since I’m bugging them nearly every day. 😂💕

Tagging: @kachoobu @thescorpioracer @eleincanti @tidemakar @lena-haloways @misselesava if u wanna ✨

[survivorelara]

Episode #1: “So thank you Gods and Goddesses.” -Ci’ere

three people on this tribe are 100% pros they have mangastars as their pfp im scared

Okay, this is my second time typing this because I accidentally deleted the first attempt ASDF. Hello every1 out there 👽 I'm so thrilled to be playing Elara because I know that the hosts are going to make this an awesome experience! We began our journey about an hour & a half ago, but something tremendous has already occured... I happened to snatch the Zosma idol on my first guess! Something about the placement of the 39th star spoke to me & luck was definitely on my side, so thank you celestial gods and goddesses! I’m kind of wondering if the idol locations & the iconic phrase “18 people, 39 days, 1 Survivor” have any correlation. Hmm. :O Even though I have some power to fall back on now, I don’t wanna have to rely on the idol to save myself so I’m stepping up to the plate socially to hopefully solidify myself in this group. I was hyped before, but this hype train has went through the ceiling!

Not only am I in this game with like many other Facebook ORGers.... I'm the least popular of them all. Like I see Emma, Ci'ere, Andrea and Toby... like they have a good friend group and people generally like them. Me on the other hand, I get easily annoyed with certain people and groups within this community and I have been told that I am a rainy and dark cloud. I mean, LOVE the comparison... but when you're in a "scavenger hunt" and one of the things is to get 50 reactions on a post and I average about 5-6... it ain't looking good for this bitch. And ITS ONLY DAY 1.

Great question. I am trying to figure that out. I realize not knowing discord puts me at s disadvantage. Let’s hope we win till I can figure it out.

Well I like this tribe, I'm feeling good about things at the moment, I've talked to loris, Andreaa, and John who I had a prior relationship with. They all seem nice enough. I'm hoping to make more connections with people in the near future, because with only 6 people on the tribe I need to make ABSOLUTE sure I'm in the numbers.

I'm such a flop, I did almost all my voice recordings on my phone while I accidentally left voice chat on. My Computer Mic isn't great and it was only for a little while, nobody said anything, so I don't know if anybody caught anything I might have said for the challenge, but the worst thing that might have been caught was my statement about Dani

We're approaching the end of Day 1 and I don't think I've made much progress with anyone other than John... this tribe is very quiet, and I don't know if that's due to many different timezones, or inactivity, or what have you. Regardless I'm a little worried about this challenge, but hopefully a win can be pulled out.

Its so quiet dawg

ok i love selfie scavenger hunts so this challenge is great. as for my tribe mates, roxy and i are in F6 in atomic together, so thats a interesting. Drew H was in that season and like. i have no idea what our relationship is going to be like ydgfs. the only person who I haven't talked to at all is Odd. i should get on that

Oh these motherfuckers think they got me found. They think they know me. Expect drama.

My tribe is ducking stacked with people I like so this is hot hopefully we can get this scav hunt done and get max point WEW

Well. I’m doing another one. Do I have the time? Nope! Is this a good idea? No ma’am/sir. But I’m doing it anyway. This is an...interesting tribe for me to be on. I have my one true love, Sam Drachus, and a tribe of people that probably don’t know he’s my husband. Of course, a pregame relationship never equates to an ingame relationship necessarily, so I will not rest in my socialisation (especially given I will have ass for physical game for a while). Louise I’ve hosted twice, Ci’ere I’ve hosted and played with. Dani and Brian I don’t really know properly but they seem very inactive. I am quite sure we will lose this challenge, but hopefully I can be active and bond-build enough to be Victorious!!

i hate this challenge because im so lazy

hi!! so my social game is going pretty good so far, i'm v tight with andrea, emma and i said we don't want each other to go, john's an icon and i like talking to zach. kori doesn't talk a lot so he'll probably be an ez boot. also i think im gonna end up with the most points for our immunity so that'll probably let me be spared if we do end up losing :)))). ALSO,,,,,,,,, i found the legacy advantage bc i clicked on seamus' manga on the tumblr?? of course they hid it behind the ugly one... no one looks there.

So our first challenge is a cute scavenger hunt & one of the 10 point items is getting 50 likes on a FB post. When I initially made the post, only a few people reacted to it so I knew I was going to have to do something drastic in order to get more people’s attention. I stole Nicki Minaj’s brand & started running KWEENT (6 letters Jack :p) Radio! I put in a lot of work to get people to help me out, but I also wanted to have fun with it & in the end it paid off. I’mma bit worried however since only Louise, Sam & I have made contributions to the challenge thus far. We don’t have that much time left & there’s still three empty columns... I’ve been talking a lot to Dani who I find I probably relate to the most. They made it pretty far in the actual Survivor casting process & they have also been talking to Sam. Sam is so nice & has that straight male humor, YEET. Louise is obviously a kween & we’ve played together before so I think I could work something out with her? Toby’s timezone & schedule is tough to work through, but I think I might be able to charm him up hehe. Brian is the only person that hasn’t shown any sign of life so I’ve been pushing for him, but of course he shows up now ASDFG.

Did so many challenges but have trouble uploading to gdoc

Anxiety is a bitch. Like I already have alot of it due to work and school, but for us to be submitting things for the scavenger hunt last minute... that made my heart quicken a bit more than needed. ESPECIALLY if your video links for the video portion of the hunt DON'T WORK. Like wth ODD? Like if you're gonna submit late.. like at least check the damn links so you can actually win the points for the videos that you are submitting. OH AND IN OTHER WORDS. I didn't think Jack was gonna view my poem to him. And he watched it. I have no words. Like let me die of embarrassment because I am flummoxed with a straight man once again in my life. ALL FOR 6 MEASLY POINTS IN A GAME! LIKE WHAT THE FUCK!?

That's so FETCH! Even with Odd's bumbling incapabilities, he can make us get a narrow win for reward! Maybe my frustrations were misplaced with him! But I am glad that I will not be the first boot and get to stay here for another 3 days or so! Pumped!

well just as i thought,,, TRASH this tribe has good people that i like but apart from ci'ere CHILEEEEEEE we sucked so bad we didn't deserve to win. I think it's brian that's going tbh he wasn't active till the last 4? hours of the comp and people have already said if we lose it's him so yikes guess that's what is happening.

we won the challenge which is actually surprising. Odd's links didn't work but if they did I would've had the lowest score. I was gonna do so much more but my phone won't charge !! and i went to a college fair ok. I love how i said i was good at comps during my live interview. i swear im not a liar hosts

Woo we won, I put a fair amount of work in, so I'm glad we got results... unfortunately it didn't REALLY matter because of how badly the losing tribe did.

I think I have a decent shot of making a 4-person alliance with John, Andrea, and Loris. Hopefully I can get that going through. Emma is LIKELY the weak link on the tribe, which is fine by me she has yet to talk to me really, so I'd have no qualms voting her out.

I have a funny story. I spent a half hour walking and  looking for a license plate with ce on it. I had to use scooter plates. Half the cars only have one letter. When I finally found the plate parked in front of a restaurant . I got on one knee to take the pic. It was night so flash went out. A guy came out and demanded I delete the photo. Not kidding. He was not happy. I couldn’t explain what I was doing. I deleted it. He drove away. I was really bummed. So I got on my motorcycle and drove to the university where I knew there were hundreds of scooters. I slowly drove while looking on both sides of the parking lot. I must of looked at more than 500 plates. Finally I found one. Guess what? It was the same scooter from earlier. This time the guy not around. I was still really nervous like I was breaking the law. When the flash went off I was waiting for the guy to start running at me. He didn’t. Success.

Well, I'm a bit scared. Apparently, Sam has already found something? Or someone has... Item 39 purportedly received the "There was something there, but isn't anymore" treatment, which is Scary AF! Like, if someone has an idol THIS early in the game...if I got idol'd out THIS early in the game!!

But, I suspect that whatever was hidden in Position 39 was not, in fact, an idol, but was rather some clue or aspect to the idol system. 50 possibilities isn't enough of a competition space for an idol search, right? I mean, I bloody hope so because the alternative is that a Zosma idol is already flying around at the literal first tribal council and, man, I don't need that paranoia right now.

Winning this challenge was way easier than I expected, I figure some inactive is about to die on the other tribe so no worries there. I had a blast this thing is gonna be a fun time if the challenges continue to be similar to this.

Well it's day 2, John and Andreaa seem on board for an alliance, now all I need is to hear what Loris thinks and if he seems on board, I've got my 4-some right there. Which'll leave Emma and Big Z on the outs. Which is fine, we could even split the votes in case of an idol if we felt like it.

But I can't afford to get too comfortable, players can be real snakes and I can't let myself be too trusting. I just have to work on being super relateable and someone people feel comfortable talking to.

I just hope I didn't start "talking game" too early…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Onr3BoPGJzA

I guess I cast assess now! Loris: he is a mood and playing hard but he likes me so for now we r gucci. He is super fun to talk to and we share idol guesses so hes aight! I dont want to work long term with him. Kori: Yikes. He's super inactive but he was like i like u lets form an alliance so ofc I'm like ok. He left me on read on the first day and randomly offered and im like k wyd i wasnt born yesterday Emma: Queen? I knew her before this we used to be married until she deactivated and I divorced her but like that literally not even the point. Shes kinda  inactive and very on the bottom besides Kori so I'm hoping I can convince Loris to keep her if we go to tribal twice. Big Z: Ok I have never met him before now but OMG ive heard so much about him AND I LOVE HIM!!! I get the hype and then some. I wish we talked more. I 100% would not vote him or Emma out rn. John: he's cool! I havent talked to him too much but were in an alliance Basically im really happy we won LMAO. I am in an alliance I have no plans of following through with. life is interesting. I may just go off the rails. I am predicting Brian goes home because Zosma is a facebook clusterfuck right now.

I’m winning this org... I’m in a silly alliance with kori Andrea and John that I’m not gonna take seriously but kori probably will... me and Andrea are rlly good allies and I have the legacy??? give me my money

We lost the challenge by a landslide. https://tenor.com/view/davonne-rogers-pretends-to-be-gif-6175133

Zosma was 400+ points behind the other tribes so they really did snatch us huh. I’m happy to hear that they’re active though unlike some of my tribemates for the past two days l m a o. I scored more than half of our aggregate, so I think I should be set to survive this vote.

Toby wants to share idol info and I can’t decline that so I gave him fake receipts hehe. He also stated that I’m the person he’s connected to the most. Sam says that I’m easy to talk to as well, so I think my social game is going pretty well at the moment!

Sam wants to vote for anybody that isn’t him & he also said he loved me 😳 L i s t e n: love is a BIG word (to me at least) & you can’t just throw it out to anyone & their mother, Sam. Louise is in the same mindset as myself as she’s talked to Toby/Dani more than Brian so let’s just snipe Brian right? Well, Toby comes to me after scoring 0 & says he has a “gut feeling” that we should vote out Dani because Brian is preoccupied with Mount Olympus. Does that make any sense? We just lost the challenge by an extremely large margin & you want to keep the person that doesn’t prioritize this game? Go to sleep Toby, you’re drunk. I guess it’s hard to judge who will be more active since it’s only round uno. Dani was present, but only sent in one thing…& Brian had internet problems. I had a great conversation with Dani the first day, but it’s day three now. Should I stick my neck out for him? I told Toby what he wanted to hear because it was 3AM for him & he wanted to sleep, but there’s still a lot of time left & I want Brian dead.

I need to talk to people more often hn

I mean this vote is as simple as it gets, it's basically a battle of which inactive should we kick. Most votes seem to be going on brian, which I do feel bad about cuz I love him in mount Olympus and feel he could easily be a number to drag. but at the same time he's been so inactive to the point where he'll probs just die at a swap or something. I feel bad for toby since he already voted dani but im sure he'd understand with all the timezone differences, I would like dani to go but if brian stayed, we would probs lose again then he would just leave so rip

Hi!! It's me john coffey!!! So I love the theme of my tribe being like  the emotional players and I love the vibe of all my tribemates. However I know that the emotional players are also sometimes the messiest players because I forsure fall into that category sometimes!! So far I have just been trying to chill tf out and get to know people, and use the scavenger hunt to show that I really want to be here. I may not have as much to offer in future tribe challenges so I like being able to use scavenger hunts to really go ham. I got the highest score on our tribe and I think the second highest behind Roxy so woo! Now let's move on to my fellow tribe mates. Kori - the only person I was familiar with going into this game. I played with him in my most recent game where he witnessed me win. We had a good bond the entire game but he also voted for me when he thought I was the majority vote, setting aside any connection I had made with him, so that is always kinda going to be on my mind in this game. But as of now he is the person I trust the most. Andrea - I LOVE her! We bonded quickly over being messes so that's always fun. I could see myself growing close with her in this game. Loris- I really like him, I always like British guys LOL it's been kinda difficult getting to talk to him at a time that works for both of us but I really like him so far Emma- she hosted me a few years ago though I didn't know it was her at first, I like her but haven talked to her as much as the others Big z - I like him though we haven't talked too much but I immediately see him as my biggest threat at this point. Just something about him idk.

As far as other tribe members go - drew Heuser is one of my favorite people to have played orgs with. He was the reason I was first boot in my first Tumblr game but has remained a dear friend of mine ever since. I met him in person and he's the besssst. If I have a chance to play with him I'm excited to see what the outcome will be.

https://youtu.be/TfQ4Xmeb2J8

Brian is voted out 5-1.