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voraxiia · 8 months

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remember there was a time when i said i wouldn't know how to quit tumblr

( there's a small rant going on in the tags but the point is i miss it here ok and i hope everyone's having a splendid day / week / month and your favourite treat is on sale bc you deserve it )

#// i would like to thank my parents and teachers and everyone who convinced me to be a doctor #// i now have raging depriety and gastritis and there are firecrackers in my knees everytime i even slightly bend them #// i also cry when people are nice to me bc i'm used to being treated like i'm a dumbass b*tch #// and people refuse to teach you how to handle things so that when there are urgent situations they can take time to insult you #// instead of idk give instructions/orders what to do to be useful #// like if you really wanted to do everything yourself just shut up and do it it's quicker that way #// ' what are you doing ' idk waiting for you to send the link to access your brain and download the information we should magically know #// also bc i already have a diagnosis it's more tricky to ask for a leave for some reason #// bc apparently it'll easily become ' proof ' that i'm not fit for the job after all and 7 years of hard work and money will go to waste #// and i haven't even gotten my first paycheck #// so of course it would be better to wait my turn for 2.5 hours at the ED with a ' less severe ' diagnosis for the day #// like oh no my tummy hurts so much for some reason today but it's totally not bc of anxiety pfft what's an anxiety

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orionhere · 1 year

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Men in suits got me to feel things 🙏🙏💕💕

#pgr #punishing gray raven #punishing: gray raven #pgr chrome #pgr lee #orion shittalk #now we wait until chrome forger #I can't believe that Chrome said don't spend money on him #but almost all of his coatings are locked behind paywall #chrome: skk pls don't spent money on me #me: shut up you pretty boy and take my goddamn money

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pirefyrelight · 5 days

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Ive been riding my bike to work for the past week or so and I've noticed a few things. One, of the two major roads that have bike lanes, both of them are shit and I have simply found an alternative route that uses sidestreets with less traffic, and two, random children on parking garage rooftops wildly overestimate my abilities.

To go into more detail on that second point:

The last stretch going to my work is a just steep enough decline that I've never noticed before when walking or driving, but am able to sail down into a pleasant breeze for about 3 blocks (baring stoplights and pedestrians). The downside, or rather the going up side of this, is that after a long day of work I might as well be climing everest biking home those first few blocks.

And of course, another thing I've noticed, is that no matter which way you're going there's a headwind.

So picture me, last week. 9 hour shift. No sitting down since I got on my bike that morning. Hot as balls but in that way it *could* theoretically be worse? In black pants and t-shirt as is dress code and I haven't gotten into the habit of bring shorts to change into yet. At the start of the summer I haven't been on a bike in at least 5 years, probably closer to 10, I am so incredibly out of shape.

So this goddamn child, this hooligan hanging out on the top of a three story parking garage, sees me battling for my goddam life, going uphill into a headwind and sweating so bad he can probably smell it from up there, calls "do a wheelie" like sir the only wheelie that's imminent from me is being blown back down the hill in such a way the front tires get caught first. The only trick doable from me right now is getting to the top without falling over.

#Pire.txt #I'm not actually mad #I know *do a trick* is just something people say to people on bikes and skateboards #or in a location that looks like they know how to do a backflip #I am mad about the bike lanes though #Even if they weren't shit on their own they aren't even connected to each other #They take up space on the road and for what #One is just painted lines and cars regularly drive with a wheel over the line #And the other road has barriers protecting the bike lanes but the bike lanes are like two times to wide?#You don't need two lanes for bikes on this road #You go one street to the right and you have a more scenic route with a nice wide sidewalk #You go one street to the left and you're actually downtown where all the stores and destinations are #Meanwhile I don't even drive on this particular road anymore since they still allow parking on the side that doesn't have a bike lane #And the street feels so fukin narrow now #'We need to slow down traffic in [this city]' our mayor has apparently said #To that I say shut the fuck up #I know capitalism bad but if you want to tax businesses you have to have businesses #And lately all of them have been going over the boarder to the newer city two miles away #I remember when we used to have corner stores now they're all gone to a new residential district #I also know car bad but people with cars are the ones spending money to tax #Idk sorry this was suppose to be a positive post #I think I've already noticed I'm stronger #I didn't have to stop specifically to push off for momentum at all coming home today #And my leg hasn't shaken while coasting last night or today #I am still panting like a dog and finding intersections newly confusing since I know I'm supposed to stop at stop signs #But cars don't seem to know that and wait for me even though they stopped first and are scarier #I also understand now the stereotype that bikers are pretentious assholes who ignore traffic directions because momentum is everything #I ain't coming to a full stop when I can see from a distance that there aren't any cars coming #Also I don't know if the rules are different when I'm on the sidewalk or the road I should probably look up specifics #Ups and downs to this I guess

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slippery-minghus · 1 month

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gods, why didn't i get a college degree in anything useful?

#i've known since the day it unceremoniously came in the mail that my degree is worth less than the paper it's printed on #yeah i needed to college experience for social and lersonal growth #but why couldn't i have gotten something out of it that can help me find a damn job?#what was the fucking point of going through all that?#(the social and personal growth obviously)#ahgggggg #i'm too broke and disabled to go back to school NOW #(the way i'm coping with the anxiety of waiting to hear back about the internal job i just interviewed for #is to have Officially Decided That I'll Be Rejected Out Of Hand. So What Do I Do Next?#it hurts but at least i can move forward if the worst come to pass #and it gives me something to do while i'm Waiting #ughhhhh #why couldn't i have sold my damn soul and gotten the shitty computer science degree my school had??#i remember visiting a house a friend was pet-sitting for and seeing the couple's gaming setup #and just seeing dollar signs. they both worked in computer science and made $$$#but at the time it sounded like the worst thing in the world #and i'd already changed my major once... loved what i was studying... and had my dad breathing down my neck about how much my education cost #i'm so lucky i don't have debt. thanks to my grampa. but holy hell did my dad lord that inheritance over me and make me dance for it #i don't think he ever got over grampa pulling *his* college funding bc he spent college fucking around and dropped out #couldn't wrap his head around that the narrow thing he'd trained me to be would never follow in his 'rebelious' footsteps #i beat myself up over A-'s there was no way i'd do anything other than take my grades seriously #but that was the problem. i was worried about grades and what sounded bearable to learn. not what was realistic to do with it #i wanted to get a fucking phd! with what fucking money!!!!#of course not that i had the support or the maturity to understand what it meant to choose an education that could grant me a career #but who can i blame if not myself?#dad always said i had to Go To College. there was no choice in not going. but as soon as college came he shoved me out the door #and slammed shut. how was i supposed to know what to do without him there to make me do things all of a sudden?#that took nearly a decade to learn dammit #personal

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dykecadence · 5 months

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cover letters are evil actually. yes let me take an hour or even multiple hours after working my exhausting current job to craft a personalized letter begging you to hire me that only has a 50/50 chance of reaching human hands and will, in all likelihood, not even get an automated rejection letter for my trouble

#yall i am struggling #i applied for entry level jobs right out of college and no one would hire me because i had no experience #so ive spent 2 years building up my resume a bit as i could but now theyre like :/ you havent really worked any fancy jobs :/ no #LIKE WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME #sorry i like in fucking nowheresville and have no fucking money so i couldnt take a internship or count on the local scene to give me work #anyway ✌✌ capitalism is killing me and all of us and its not getting better wahoo #shut up em

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shaddy-bee · 8 months

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#we had the money we needed we had the shit to cover the bills that were backed up because i cant get a fucking job #and yet i let it all get wasted on him ordering $15 taco bell orders #and $20 sushi when we had rice and fish at home #be he ccouldnt cook #and i couldnt do the diahes #and now we are going to have our power shut off and be kicked out of our appartment and even now #even still #i could just go beg to my grandparents #and they might even help me #i could beg to my mom #and maybe they would take pitty on me #but i cant even do that #i cant save myself #but no one else can save me but me #maybe once i no longer have a place to live #ill finally be able to convince my hand to move the knife #and cut the cords of this flesh covered doll #i have no one to blame but myself #i should delete this too #later

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nerdie-faerie · 5 months

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Apparently I timed my quitting perfectly

#work tag #the new manager is absolutely awful and since hes taken over nothings been done properly #the managers that are left are sick of everything they barely do anything on shift the slackers are worse than ever #the newbies dont take anything seriously or have any common sense whatsoever so its just completely downhill #we had an EHO visit last week on the boss' close had lost a star on our rating as a result so the area manager came in a couple days later #he bollocked our boss for the way hes been acting but then he went right back to being a prick #so apparently after i left last night the district manager visited and they had to shut the store early for cleaning #but this was after my manager told me that the boss has been blaming everyone for the state of things but #when they offered to close the store and do a deep clean he refused because of money #the district manager was not happy he pulled both managers aside and now theyre gonna have to close the store for a deep clean #but they might also have to shut down temporarily to get everything sorted but the thing is since this new guy took over only about #half of the closing cleaning tasks have been being done because close is usually made up of the slackers and they just dont wanna do #anything properly its been an ongoing issue for months now and now its catching up with them cus theyve got in the habit of not doing it #one of my managers has kept saying he doesnt think the store will last until Christmas but everyone else is sure were gonna be shut #well before that point like its gotten the bad its part of why i quit #anyway i just got the rundown from my coworker who was on close when this all went down last night

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rosicheeks · 1 year

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#me?????#fall asleep in my car????#nooOoOoOooOOOOOOO I would never #I even was chilling up in my front seat this time!#I didn’t lay down or anything #but then all of a sudden I woke up and I was all cuddled under my blankie #and my neck is super mad at me #when I get a little extra money I think my goal is to get a chair for outside on my deck #it’s starting to get nice out #maybe I can just chill outside most of the night #and then when I get sleepy I can just head inside #driving home and sneaking inside every night is so much workkk #I mean ideally I wanna get an erig or nectar collector but that’s more money than just a cheap shitty chair haha #ughhhhhh I guess I go home now #so who’s going to take one for the team and come over??#I want some cuddles #wrap me up in your arms and give me lil kisses until I fall asleep pls & ty 😌#shut up rosie

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kittlyns · 7 months

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Girls I am on the fucking brink for realsies this time.

#I am on Tumblr Desktop for the first time in probably years and first of all. it sucks ass #but also. what the fuckkkkkkkk is happening to me #somebody has cursed me. for real.#(pause to say I do enjoy typing on keys. I have missed that if nothing else)#anyways. so first. didn't find my debit card and had to report it lost and get a replacement that could take up to 2 weeks to get.#so no money for 2 weeks. yippee.#and like 2 hours ago my phone shut off for no reason and now I cannot get it to turn back on. I've been trying for 2 hours.#it's not dead. it didn't get wet or dropped. it didn't overheat. it just shut off and will not come back on.#so for 2 hours I was completely unable to complain on here. which is the real issue tbh #I have NO money and NO phone. I can't even fucking buy another phone right now if I had the money.#what's next??? my car?????? (probably)#but like. I can't fucking do this right now #what do I dooooooooooooooo #I'm gonna fucking kill myself. I'm sorry I know we're not supposed to say that anymore cuz positivity or whatever #but I'm so serious. I can't take another mishap that's gonna set me back several years financially. I'm so fucking exhausted #anyways!! sparkle on !!

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southislandwren · 1 year

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Oh actually I think some of my resentment towards my friend stems from the fact she addresses me as “hey girl” like 1. not a girl 2. if I told you that I would immediately be in serious danger seeing as you’re radically christian and we live in south dakota.

#she just called me and I didn’t answer because can I have ONE fucking day where no one calls me ????#and she left a voice mail and I heard hey girl and I shut it off. bro I’m literally a guy how haven’t you picked up on this yet #I just don’t have the bandwidth to deal with her problems right now like I can’t listen to her complain abt work and her roommate for 2 hrs #I want to finish totk and I want to finish ss and I want to replay Diamond and I want to finish my French play through of pla #and I want to play geoguessr and meeblings and I want to finish cleaning my house and I want to start knitting socks #and this was supposed to be a fun easy summer and then I picked literally the worst job in the world.#and I’m dealing with my own fucking mental problems and I’m trying to not just run away like I so desperately crave #and actually whatever it is she needs can probably wait until I’m not suicidal and reliving March 30th 2021 over and over again #but like I’m fine whatever. I have like no food to eat because I put all my money towards saving for a sword and a tattoo #so now I have 30 dollars until Thursday when I’ll get roughly #120 bucks after they take out a huge obnoxious amount for federal taxes #sorry I’m fine. it’s just it’s Sunday and I’m about to go into a week of waking up early and I feel like I haven’t had a chance to breath #diary post #time to play a game and try to chill out please can I just chill out a little

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fingertipsmp3 · 1 year

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I am once again sad that a person I bonded with in a dream is not real

#ALEX. where are you and who are youuuu #okay so the dream was crazy. like.. coherent by my usual standards but still ridiculous #i was back at high school but was the age i am now & i was attending a class in ‘business and employment’ which was supposed to help us all #get jobs and learn skills. but in reality the vast majority of the people in the class (including myself) were in mlm schemes #(multi-level marketing before anyone gets confused with the acronym)#myself and the entirety of my high school friend group (about 8 or 9 people) formed the largest faction and we were selling fragrances #for exactly the sort of company you would expect. anyway. i’d been elected manager even though someone else in the group (who actually sells #this shit irl lol) had recruited me & another person’s mom had invested money into it so that none of us had to actually buy inventory #and i was so uncomfortable and ashamed. i was like ‘okay i’ll just do this for a month and then bounce so i can at least get work/management #experience’. so i was very much checked out when everyone was brainstorming ideas for how to come up with a brand & sell it #the only thing i did notice is that there was this guy named alex who was pretty much reporting us whenever we breathed. an example would be #we wanted to call ourselves ‘lions’ but apparently that was the name of an lgbt society in the area that was important to him #so he complained to the teacher/facilitator about us and we couldn’t use lions. and our whole group was complaining about him #but i was thinking ‘fuck i hope he gets us shut down’. he seemed like a nice guy and the stuff people started saying was borderline #homophobic so i had to be the one to shut them down like ‘hey i’m bi as well and i’m your fucking manager. any more of that and you can find #yourself a new job’#so anyway. next thing that happened was the facilitator was like ‘okay we seem to have pretty much been taken over by mlm schemes BUT here #is a list of people in the class who do not want to be recruited & their reasoning. just so you can take note’ and she does a presentation #of course it starts with alex and his ideological opposition to mlms; but there are other people like a girl who has a large academic #workload. but it becomes apparent that alex is the one who rallied them all together to spread dissent. so i went over to talk to him #(for some reason he was now hiding in a tent) and i was like ‘yes alex!!!! can i shake your hand?’ and he was puzzled but he let me #then i stood up and said ‘can i just say something. everyone has great reasons for not wanting to be recruited and as a manager; i want to #say that if i catch any of my employees trying to recruit anyone on the do not recruit list for any reason; you will be fired immediately’#of course this causes a schism. but it also causes me and alex to end up having a heart-to-heart where he’s like ‘why are you even part of #one of these things’ and i’m like ‘honestly i just want legitimate work experience’ and he’s like ‘i can think of so many more legitimate #jobs. including like. fly-tipping. i’d rather have that on my cv than scentsy’ and i was like ‘you’re so right’#and then i woke up thinking ‘god i’m going to have to go door to door selling this shit’ but then i realised i actually didn’t #and i was so happy #it has motivated me to go back to job-hunting though because my god.#that five minutes when i thought i was going to have to traverse the neighbourhood dressed like an idiot and selling wax melts? bleak.

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cowboykakashi · 2 years

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Characters with curly hair get all my love by default

#this post is about luo binghe and quan yizhen thank you #spent the majority of my life hating my seemingly unmanageable mop of curls and straightened it for like #I dunno 10+ years but it turns out it wasn’t so unruly I just never knew how to take care of it properly #so now in my adult life I am finally learning to properly care for my curls and love them despite it all #and when I see one of my Guys w thick curly hair it’s like !!!!!!! SAME HAT y’know very exciting #this post brought to you by my spending several hours tending to my honestly super damaged hair today #and spending money I don’t have on products to maintain it #shut up satan #also brought to you by qyz FINALLY APPEARING IN OFFICIAL WORK !!!!! cant wait to get the book

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zouisexo · 2 years

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the Ability parents have to put u in a bad mood... truly remarkable

#got home happy bc i bought the little girl i babysit some cute bday presents #spent all my money btw jkdfsnfjd #tough month i gotta say #and they were like u have to buy her brother something too or he's gonna get mad u have no idea #and like 1 ofc im gonna buy him something too!!! im not an idiot!!#i've been babysitting him for literally 3 and a half years i know... abt kids #and also he's an angel he honestly wouldn't mind if i didn't buy him anything #he's a really good kid he never gets mad about shit like that #just........ everything about it bothered me #the telling me to do something i was ALREADY PLANNING ON DOING #and talking like that abt my little man they don't even know him !!!!#or ask anything about them or my job ever #bc they don't consider it a job bc it's taking care of little kids so it's not like #a Real Job u kno #anywaysss sorry abt the rant dfjkfnj back to larry now #shut up laura

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agenderarkham · 2 years

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Y’all ever been in so much pain it makes you feel like you’re gonna throw up and or pass out but two people are either out or coming in late so you can’t go home from work without making a big deal out of it

#can’t even go to the doctor about it for another week bc we have like two or three people out for like most of next week so I’m gonna have #to be working shitty overtime all next week feeling like this #am genuinely very worried about this it’s been feeling like someone is scraping out the inside of my elbow joint like a pumpkin for a little #while now and my knee has been feeling loose 😳😳 so maybe one morning I’ll just wake up and they won’t work and I’ll really have to call out #🙃🙃🙃#vent #if my body could choose to shut down when we’re a little bit better staffed that’d be GREAT bc I have a shit garbage brain that takes way #too much responsibility for how things go at work and makes me upset when I can’t work bc then I have nothing to do and I’m not #making any money #Arkham rambles #arkhamrambles

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snapbackslide · 10 days

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i also feel like sometimes my anxiety makes it seem worse than it is, like maybe she’s not even upset or mad and i’m just assuming bc i constantly think everyone hates me lol but i had a panic attack at work yesterday and took my break and bawled my eyes out in my car and i think i need a new job and i also just want to move far away honestly

how are you doing??

that’s why i said maybe she’s not feeling that way, anxiety makes it easy to get in your head and overthink… i’m really sorry though, panic attacks are hard enough but when they happen at work… the worst.

mood, i also hate my job, or rather my workplace. that pretty much sums it up 🤷‍♀️

#i also just had a mini panic attack but it's bc my body hates me #wish i could take all of my anxiety and pain and give it to my coworker instead ✨#he won't shut the fuck up he's so loud and obnoxious and borderline abusive i really fucking hate him ✨#every morning that i drive to work i hope for something horrible to happen so i never have to see these people again #i actually cannot believe i'm spending my 20s here i'm pretty sure i'm gonna regret it looking back - if i ever reach an old age #but what other choice do i have really. i need money. i'll never be able to afford a house at this rate. meals are like $50 now.#i'm not bold enough to go back to school to study something that would pay me more and who knows if we'll even survive anyway #the planet's gonna die before i get the chance to even have kids i'm pretty sure #anyway #that got real dark real quick #consequences of talking to me #answered #🫶🏻

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marcvscicero · 4 months

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(just a very long rant, feel 100% free to ignore, it’s just to vent somewhere, could’ve ranted even more but apparently 30 tags is the limit whoops 🤭🤭)

#life is so bad lately i feel like i’ve tried absolutely everything and things never improve they just get worse somehow #it’s like i think things can’t get any worse and then somehow they do #and they do so even as i’m putting in so much effort to try and improve the already bad things #🧍‍♂️ i just ?? what do i do now ?? when i’ve tried everything ??#like i’m being soooo genuinely when i say tht dying feels like the only thing left but like. i don’t even WANT to die. it just feels like #the only road left to take 🧍‍♂️ and ik that’s fucked up but honestly there is nothing left for me lol 🧍‍♂️#and to make things worse i actually think that the few ppl i have in my life r becoming just as sick of me as i am of myself #which rly scares me bc the only reason i have to stay alive is the ppl in my life and my pets that is it #but i just can’t fake it like i used to like i used to be soooo good at hiding things #but now things have gotten so bad that i can’t hide them bc they are actively ruining my life and making me do things or not do things that #other ppl can see #so even though i tell ppl i’m fine they just don’t believe it and like yeah fairs bc it’s very obvious i’m not #it’s also incredibly embarrassing like i’m 25 this month and i live at home and all my irl friends have moved away and got big girl jobs and #are doing things with their lives so i haven’t even seen a single friend in months and months like i think the last time i saw a friend was #halloween… halloween!!!!! aka october last year!!!!!#and i only work one day a week bc i left my old proper job bc i thought i was going to kill myself and kept taking more and more time off #so i’m very poor and i’m very much in debt and i can’t pay it off bc i spend so much money self medicating bc i’m convinced there’s somethin #seriously seriously wrong with my body and i’m always in pain or extreme nausea but the doctors have ignored me so many times and just shut #me down or made me feel stupid or said everything looks fine when i know it isn’t #and i’m also 99% convinced i’ve got quite severe autism and the doctor basically confirmed it lol but she said that on the nhs the current #waiting list is about 4-5 years so i may as well turn to the internet and do research myself since even if u get an official diagnosis #there’s no meds or real cure for it other than learning how to cope #except im also convinced that with the autism i have a lot of strong adhd traits so like. i know it’s bad but i buy adhd meds online and i #don’t even abuse them i take them to literally help me like they’re meant to but bc it’s obvs not allowed it’s so expensive #and i already have no fuckingn money so every single month is hell bc i’m either rationing them to make them last longer #OR i’m taking them but with the knowledge that it means i’ll run out sooner and have more days with NONE #and every day is just full of immense guilt too for doing this bc it’s not technically allowed and i should be doing better things with what #i do pay my mum some money each month towards housekeeping/bills/etc but it isn’t much at all and i know she deserves more #also i either sleep 0 hours a night or 20 there’s no balance and it’s fucking ridiculous i’ve tried EVERYTHING to no avail #i

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