I love you guys. I hope you know that.
Like.
Ok so I posted the new TRT chapter the other day. Obviously. And I had to force myself to do it, to click that final, 'post' button because at that last moment, this big wave of imposter syndrome hit (that had already hit on and off as I'd started working on the chapter again). And it was just this cycle of, 'It's been like 6 months since you posted a chapter or anything other than a couple one-shots and you're out of practice, I bet it's bad, it's probably terrible, I bet everyone's left and no one cares about this thing you love so why do you? What if no one likes it, you're gonna drop this and everyone's gonna god 'wtf is this, pasta? what happened?'' And so I forced myself to post it, took my meds to ensure I slept, and then kinda just bunkered down and slept/hid because I was halfway convinced that all the trauma in the previous six months had just bopped any ability I had to write.
Instead I got this outpouring, of just like, 'WELCOME BACK' and people telling me they're happy that mom is ok (which made me cry but in a good way) and they're sorry Cato passed away (more tears, but comforted tears), but also delightful jokes about the funny lines I put in or screaming over that romantic line or about missing Jane and the dynamics and comments about being eager for the next chapter, and how now I can be one of those AO3 authors with those notes of 'yeah my life blew up so I was delayed, but hey I'm back!' which... yeah. And much like when I first started TRT, I didn't... really expect that at all, and it's made me really emotional.
So if you've dropped into my ask box or the comments or the replies, seriously, from the bottom of my heart, thank you, because the excitement and love and just you all being the best little fam and continuing on this journey of TRT with me - a journey that has now included both Matt and Jane's journey, and a real life journey through a pandemic, a huge move, a passing of two of my pets, my mom's hospitalization and recovery, some heart issues, the cancellation and resurrection of the show, me meeting Charlie Cox and getting him to hold a red thread, my first wood carving event, etc - and I know I say this a lot, but you all really, really help me keep going when things get hard. I'd write TRT for nothing, I would, because I love this story and I intend to see it through, but ya'll just... I love you all tons. I'm hoping to get through the asks and fic comments and replies in the next few days, but I just wanted you guys to know that.
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Drabble prompt-
“You dumbass. Don’t do that. Ever again.”
I think I did it! I think I actually wrote a drabble. And crossed off another @badthingshappenbingo square!
UPDATE: I did not do it lmao
UPDATE2: Now on ao3 so I can have everything together.
Jamie Tartt was going to be the death of him.
“You dumbass. Don’t do that. Ever again.”
Roy pressed his thumb and index finger against the bridge of his nose and sighed deeply.
“What was I supposed to do?” Jamie scoffed.
“Not that!” Roy said, trying to keep his voice down but failing.
“You were going to fucking fall!”
“Your fucking point?” Roy asked, psychotic eyebrows shooting nearly to his hairline.
“Didn’t want you to get hurt,” Jamie pouted.
“So you got hurt instead?”
“Didn’t think that part through, did I?”
“No fucking shit.”
“Well, innit better me than you and your old man bones? They’re probably just dust in there held together by anger and stubbornness. My bones are young and strong.”
“Jamie your wrist is broken.”
“I told you I didn’t think it through, alright?”
Jamie adjusted the ice pack on his wrist. The pair had been having a similar conversation on and off since they arrived at A&E. All the trouble started on a bike ride. They were nearing the coffee shop by Keeley’s office, intent on bringing her and Barbara coffee and pastries while they worked on their latest campaign.
They were bike riding when Roy’s tire caught a divot. He started to tip and Jamie lept off his bike to try to catch Roy before he landed on his bad knee. And it worked. Roy didn’t land on his bad knee, unfortunately, all Roy’s weight landed on Jamie’s outstretched wrist instead. Ice packs and x-rays replaced coffees and scones.
So much for an uneventful off-season.
“Next time, maybe wrist guards, knee and elbow pads for everyone. And helmets. Definitely helmets,” Ruth said, pulling back the curtain where the pair sat waiting. “I’m afraid I have bad news.”
“Fuck.”
“That is my diagnosis. Yes.”
“Fucking professional. Is it really broken?”
Ruth turned her ipad to show the pair the x-ray and pointed. “Unfortunately, yes. You can see the break right there.”
“Fuuuuuuuuuck,” Roy and Jamie said simultaneously.
“Told you.”
“Fuck off.”
Ruth rolled her eyes. “There’s minor displacement, so I can reduce it and then we’ll get you in a cast and get you out of here a soon as we can.”
True to her word, Jamie and Roy are waiting for Ruth an hour later, Jamie’s broken wrist secured in a cast and sling.
“You’re such a dumbass,” Roy said again.
“Stop calling me that,” Jamie said and Roy began to feel badly.
The situation seemed to sink in for Jamie once the cast was applied. The nerve block meant he wasn’t in too much pain but that wouldn’t last and right now the lad just looked uncomfortable.
“I’m sorry. I just, I hate seeing you hurt and especially when it was my fault.”
“How was it your fault?” Jamie asked skeptically.
“You were trying to catch me. Did you hit your fucking head too?”
“It were an accident, Roy. If anyone’s to blame it’s the fucking pot hole you drove through. Thinking of writing a strongly worded letter to our boy Sadiq Khan about the maintenance of London’s roads.”
“I’m impressed you know who the Mayor is.”
“Fuck off. Met him at one of the England matches couple of weeks ago.”
“I’m sorry,” Roy said again then motioned vaguely at Jamie. ”About all this.”
“I told. you, it were an accident,” Jamie shrugged then winced as it jostled his injured wrist.
“Ready lads?” Ruth appeared holding a bag with pain medication she handed to Roy.
“We picking Phoebe up?” Jamie asked.
“I can drive you home first if you want?”
The bikes were abandoned after the incident and they’d taken a taxi to the hospital, thankful Ruth’s shift ended as they were ready to leave.
“Let’s get Phoebe and then Roy said he’d buy us all kebabs, didn’t you, Royo?”
“When the fuck did I say that?”
“You did. Felt bad on account of landing on me and all.”
“Right, yeah,” Roy said as he helped Jamie into Ruth’s Range Rover and buckled him in, careful of his sling. “But seriously, don’t do that again, yeah?”
“No promises, mate.”
One way or another, Jamie Tartt was going to be the death of him.
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