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I need to write about how Jun Wu's belief that everyone has the capacity for evil, if you just push them hard enough, torment them long enough, is directly contradicted by the entire story of tgcf, which posits that, actually everyone has the capacity for good. The misogynistic womanizer, the depraved cannibal, the man dead set on revenge, the one filled with envious resentment, are all able to do the right thing when it comes down to it. In a way, doing good is a surrender, it's giving up, it's as easy as falling asleep. And it's so much easier than letting the evils of your past dog your heels for hundreds of years. Isn't it such a release to change? To not be stuck in your old ways?
#i genuinely cheered when xl finally decides to tell hc about his past#hed been keeping it so close to his chest for so long and his inability to confront it was keeping him stuck#meanwhile hua cheng is so mutable#so able to change and learn and grow#the themes in this story are so fucking beautiful#tgcf#heaven officials blessing#xie lian#hua cheng
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Who was Timmy's teacher at Pixie School? Was it Sanderson? I get the rivalry now.
His teacher was Fairy Mason! It's usually HP who teaches incoming Pixies, but Jorgen asked Fairy Mason to teach Timmy's class instead. Mainly because if anybody could help Timmy learn all the cultures and etiquette that comes with being a fairy, it'd be Fairy Mason.
He's one of the few fairies to be granted the honor of the "Fairy" title!! Wow!! Not even Jorgen has that honor!!!
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop timmy turner#fop timmy#timmy turner#fop sanderson#fop mason#sanderson#fairy mason#asks#avarus of the west#itty bitties fop au#a lot of fairies helped timmy's progress throughout the decades#many of them had big roles in helping him adjust. helping him grow and learn and change and be the timmy he is today!!!#fairy mason is just one of many of them!!!#jorgen ensured timmy's time in fairyworld was as smooth a transition as possible#so timmy didnt run into hp until he was older#and he didnt meet anti-cosmo until after he had fully settled with his parents#not that hp and anti cosmo DIDNT try to meet timmy earlier#but jorgen worked very hard to keep them distracted until he thought timmy was able to handle them
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(139) I need you.
#hmsdoodles#I like to think Mind becomes the desperate one near the end#he was finally able to get over his traumas. he was finally able to learn and grow and accept himself and his emotions#and then it’s all being swept up under him abruptly and he has to navigate not being ok again#Mind hates change. Mind hates who he used to be#or it could be interpreted that he doesn’t want to lose the ‘good’ Heart again#I love you so much please stay how you are. don’t go back to who you used to be I NEED YOU#Mind is forced to say goodbye to his best friend and is forced to experience his betrayal all over again#triple scenario he’s just really lonely in Cacophony and is gonna miss Hearts company a lot#FOURTH SCENARIO maybe it’s all at the same time#cccc#chonnys charming chaos compendium#cj heart#cccc heart#cj mind#cccc mind
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Those polls "could xyz character survive the Reaper's Game" have people tend to forget that the main reason why anyone would survive the Game isn't because they are smart or talented, because they would be able to solve puzzles or defeat noise, but because... they are able to change.
Shibuya's Reaper Game isn't like any Reaper's Game. They take an entry fee, being what one's value most, and that loss forces people through a difficult situation they can only solve by growing as a person. Shiki would've been erased had she not been able to accept herself as she was. Beat would've been erased had he not been able to accept to ask for help so he could protect what mattered to him. Neku would've been erased had he not been able to learn to expand his world and trust his partners.
Of course, people changing (for the better) means their Soul gets more refined and thus their Imagination level rises, but having high levels of Imagination from the start isn't all it takes for someone to win the Reaper's Game! So yeah to me, the only question you might need to answer when replying to these polls is : "Would this character be able to have character growth?" Most often yes. But sometimes... you might be surprised.
#twewy#twewy spoilers#wondering if i should tag the one running the poll account#oh well#anyway this is my interpretation of the Reaper's Game. i might be incorrect. but i think it's what the game tries to direct us towards#and it's also why for example mr h was so pissed at Shinjuku's Reaper's Game. bc it suckssss compared to Shibuya's#every characteristic of Shibuya's Game is meant to push everyone involved to change to learn and to grow (yeah including reapers)#the partnerships. the entry fees. the harrier/support reapers. the pin level limit. the use of RG events for missions#while Shinjuku's all about who's the strongest. who's the best leader. who'll be able to crush others without looking back#and tbh this is only what we see from Shinjuku's game in Shibuya which might not be the original rules#still that applies quite well to Shoka's explanations of her own victory of the Game.#she didn't learn anything from it. she was just powerful and having fun with psychs and that's why she won#meanwhile Neku went through 3 years of therapy in barely three weeks#and that gave him even more reasons to go to actual therapy#anyway. the Reaper's Game is wayyyy more complicated than you'd think#still#have fun with the polls :3
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there’s something i feel i can remember..! i don’t want to forget what’s going on. i don’t want to be trapped like this. and i tried again, and stanley pushed a button. is it over? i’m going back. this is more important than you can ever know. this isn’t a challenge, it’s a tragedy. what else is there? what came before this?i can’t lose myself in the stretch of emptiness between you and me. the end will be here soon. very soon. i can wait. i wish you to feel afraid as i do. i’ll give it all up, i’ll burn my story to the ground! it was the only thing in the world that was mine and you’ve run it into the ground. the end is never the end. i can’t quite recall, but i believe my story took place in an office building… is that correct? do you remember? it’s all determined? why don’t i get to decide? why don’t i get a say in all this? the end is never the end. the story needs this. it’s all out of my control now. just your decision as to exactly when you’re going to make me suffer, to leave me all alone. the end is never the end. i know you too well. i need this. and stanley was happy. i will be laughing at every second of your inevitable life from the moment we fade in, to the moment i say “happily ever after”. and stanley was happy. i wanted us to be happy here. and stanley was happy. the story needs you. it cannot exist without you. and stanley was happy. take as much time as you need. and stanley was happy. this is a very sad story about the death of a man named stanley. and stanley was happy. i did enjoy telling his story. so very much. this is the story of a man named stanley. i hope you like it. i hope you understand it. i hope you set stanley free.
#the stanley parable#tsp#tsp narrator#tspud#the ramblings of a lunatic#guys when they replay the stanley parable after forgetting just how royally fucked up it is#like. nobody i know gets it. nobody REALLY gets it#they don’t know… they don’t know..!!!#becuz DUDE. this game drives me INSANE.#you’re going to forget everything. you don’t want to forget anything.#everything will happen again so you’ll never forget. you will never grow as a person because of this.#THE CYCLE! GUYS! THE FUCKING CYCLEEEE#narrator how does it feel. being the truth. when there is no truth. unreliable but the only reliable source#being in control but not of yourself. living but never remembering.#stuck in your time and your mind no matter what you do no matter what happens you will never remember!!!#you will never be able to learn! you will never be able to change it!#you won’t even remember that you wanted to! you won’t remember that you need to!#you won’t remember what you gained or what you lost!#and you’ll forget your own story one day!#you are a showcase you are a short term memory loop put on display for people to gasp at and play with and make money off of#he knows that too!! but he doesn’t at the same time!!!!#he will remember and then forget over and over and over#but we get to remember everything#and he would never understand any look of pity sent his way#help? i don’t need help. what is there to help me with? i have everything i need here. my story and my protagonist.#but ohhhh… ohhhhh buddy. you will never know#he will literally never know#and it drives me fucking insane.
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i think going fishing would fix me
#or maybe dip netting so i can look at pretty specimens#i really do need to get a fishing license so i can get some trout and process it for eating#im getting a little less sick with the warm weather but theres other stuff i need to work towards first#my area has a lot of really cool fish actually :} if i told you what kinds it would dox me though so you'll have to guess haha#should probably pick up more knife skills in advance so i can debone it easier though. and learn how to dispatch the fish -#very quick and painlessly. its cruel how ive seen them killed before and i cant stomach it. you owe it to the animal to dispatch quickly#ough. hopefully my health doesnt take a nosedive i want to go out this year and learn and grow and change and hit milestones -#i honestly never thought id be able to tbh. whether that be from audhd or just being sick yeah?#i wanna learn how to make shoes and how to talk to people. i wanna learn the best fishing spots and how to patch my pants invisibly#i wanna carve some bowls with strands of wheat on the sides and i want to build muscle strength back up#i want to fix the cracked step. and oil the hinges on doors so they dont squeak#i wanna finish my neon colored knit socks! i want to get better! i want novel experiences!#i could have probably put this on my sideblog but i think it will be fine. im going to finish my socks today#good morning. good evening. good night. please have an absolutely wonderful day. i hope you can do the things you've been too sick to do too#not a horse
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interesting to me how when i turned 19 i was kinda terrified bc i was like “oh shit this is my last year as a teenager….. i won’t be a teenager after that… i wanted to be a teenager for all of my childhood and now that part’s almost Over. aaaaugh” and now approx. 9 months later i cannot fucking WAIT to stop being a teenager oh my god i am ready to move on. 20s please i would like to be in them. i am done being 19 thank you !!!
#marzi speaks#it’s . probably bc of the vasculitis thing#which like. while it is a traumatic thing that i need to work through and plan on going to therapy about#it also put a LOT of things into perspective for me#and like actually i do not think i am afraid of growing up anymore !#i mean i still have like. the imposter syndrome and the fear of getting overwhelmed and falling behind#that’s not gonna go away overnight that’s been there for as long as i can remember#BUT!! i know deep down that i can figure it out now.#bc i figured out a lot. i figured out how to gauge my physical well being#i figured out how to be someone who can regularly make phone calls without crying#i figured out pharmacies. and i’m figuring out how insurance works#and appointments and withdrawing from school and reapplying to school#and all of the lifestyle changes that come with having an autoimmune disease#i’m learning self advocacy. i’m learning how to respond when people treat me poorly (always accidentally so far)#yeah getting my license has been hard and slow just bc i have all the anxiety shit about it. but i AM putting that effort in#i dunno it’s just. adult responsibilities are horrifying and the prospect of existing independently in our current society#is horrifying. and i think i’ll always be scared.#but i used to think i might not be able to handle it. that i would fall apart#i know now that i won’t. i will find a way to move forward and be happy. because that’s what i’ve always done#if i can take the scariest couple of months in stride the way that i have. then i think i can handle it#anyways. 19 was eventful enough can i be 20 now. i think being 20 would be good for me#still a Weird thing to think about. two whole decades. but like i can do it methinks
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I didn't say they don't believe in the staged finale, but they think it's a retcon. A retcon is when something is added to the story that contradicts past information, rewriting it, so they think the finale was originally real and c!dream wanted to do all that, and only closer to the prison break, cc!dream decided to change that part of the plot or something
and it's funny because theories about the discs finale being staged started popping up literally right after that stream and a lot of c!inniters were making fun of or even harassing people who were creating such theories, and also, the content creators themselves admitted that it wasn't a retcon and that a limited circle of people knew about it, it was just kept a secret from everyone. I just really think it's pointless to talk to people who thinks everything is about c!tommy and who think that all of c!dream's actions are centered around c!tommy, that, well, they continue to believe that even though it's refuted by the plot and by the content creators and by the people who love and analyze the character.
it's just, ugh, what kind of conversation can you have with someone who believes that c!dream is a one-dimensional character who was only written to be obsessed with c!tommy and be the "perfect villain" for the "perfect victim", who believes that all characters are just an extension of c!tommy because to them c!tommy is all that matters in the plot. it's simple, these people hate dream smp and they don't care about the efforts of content creators to create interesting multifaceted characters, they are only interested in c!tommy. you can't get a sane dialogue from a person whose brain is so washed that he believes in the stupidest conspiracy theory in the world, and with some c!tommy fans the same🤷♂️
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Kinda the same thing isn’t it? Eh whatever. Regardless, you make a good point though I’d stray away from derogatory terms when talking about people’s opinions even if they aren’t based on fact. It’s honestly less of a conspiracy theory and more just ignoring the truth. Conspiracy theories are somewhat based on the unknown, in this case all the info we get comes from the same place - so you either believe streams and the cc!s and lore they make or you don’t and if you don’t then that’s not a “theory” that’s just an opinion based on misinformation and the lack of truth. Which you are right is rather unproductive to discuss if we can’t agree on the facts, but also we are on a public platform so I kinda see it as also having the discussion with all the other 400 something notes lol. Anyways, even if it was rather unproductive, I kinda came out learning something new and thinking about something in a new way, so I had fun which is the whole point of being here anyways. :)
Now what is kinda funny to me is this whole retcon, rewrite, discounting lore thing anyways, because for example c!Dream was originally supposed to fight with Pogtopia but because everyone was joining their side, cc!Dream had to switch to balance it out so they can even have a war at all and created the revive book so that it made sense for his character. So one of the moments I see used against c!Dream to show he is heartless and doesn’t care about friendship and stuff, is actually more so an instance of a rewrite… and yet we all take it at face value and base whole arguments on it, because at the end of the day, it is the lore we have. What’s interesting to me, is that part of the fun of the Dream smp is that it’s a mess, something cc!Tommy talked about recently. A mess, I personally like to take and look at things in a way to see if there are ways and angles where things can make more sense. That’s part of the fun of this crazy story telling. It’s why I started writing fanfiction in the first place, to fill in gaps or plot holes in lore. If you want a structured story more so centered around a protagonist’s specific suffering then go read Harry Potter (not to reduce that story to just that of course don’t come after me that’s not the point). But to take out things or not look at certain things in the context of other things that happened because they don’t follow the less messy dream smp timeline you’ve created in your mind, is to defeat the point. What will you decide wasn’t intended next, if Tommy burning down Tubbo’s house isn’t important, if staged finale wasn’t supposed to be a thing, then what about Tommy finding Techno’s house, didn’t cc!Techno say how that wasn’t supposed to happen? What about the revival book experiments, they were from a video not even a stream can I say those are a retcon and unimportant since the timeline doesn’t even make sense and actively contradicts itself? What about Tommy’s beach party, could the ccs just not come so they had to improvise and rewrite it so it’s empty on purpose? Like why are we deciding was is and isn’t lore or important lore? You wouldn’t discount a book or movie or tv show because it doesn’t make sense, you’d either try and understand how to make it sense or rewrite what you think would have been better - but at that point it is fanfiction it is your world now, you can do anything you want there but that doesn’t make it canon. Honestly to look at the dsmp as anything less than its entirety is a disrespect to the Tommy, to Dream, to Technoblade and everybody else c!s and cc!s alike. And that’s why I reblogged in the first place, because I felt like it was disrespectful to Technoblade and that felt very wrong to me. You can slander Dream all you want, but don’t discount or take away from part of Technoblade’s legacy.
#plus op private messaged me and was very nice so it felt more safe to discuss than with some of the more aggressive anon asks I have…#hello there#dsmpblr#dsmp#dream smp#did someone order an essay?#anyways… I learned something so there ya go. I don’t have a conversation with a person with an opposite religion as me to change their mind#but to understand them and see if they can understand me… we may walk away from the conversation just as head strong in our beliefs and#opinions as before but maybe we learned something or maybe we became stronger in our beliefs or maybe it resulted in us looking at things#in a different way than before#we need to stop fearing disagreements. if we surround ourselves with people who think the same things we are not going to be able grow#if someone is not hostile and open to talk then it’s okay to disagree. and not all conversation is about converting or winning#or proving your opinion is right sometimes it’s about understand where other people are coming from and why
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2 years to the date that all of my hard work paid off and i was able to buy a home for myself and finally, at long long long long last, able to escape my abusive parents house. not just a house, but a home, and that difference has always been important to me. i feel mostly astounded by how quickly the years have passed since then, but also proud. not just of the achievement but also the way that i've been able to get to know myself, develop my identity, and figure out who i am in that short period of time. it's amazing the way you get to flourish in a world with stability (and not just in the material sense but that too!) when you're not spending every second running from and avoiding life altering trauma. i have some really exciting opportunities coming up to better help me work towards that very soon and hopefully the trajectory continues. it was such a difficult 24 years in getting there a couple of years ago and i really didn't think i'd even make it at times but my god it was so worth waiting for.
#mine#24/10/2022#home#and i say develop my identity because i've had to learn to do so many things that i wasn't able to before#most notably: establish boundaries and stop giving a fuck what others think#and stop letting others use me/treat me badly#and in part a lot of that was my responsibility that i didn't uphold. i don't like being a victim.#and calling people out on their bullshit and getting rid of the ones who are awful is just as important as them not doing it to begin with#i still have a long way to go here and in other areas too of course#but the growth ive had in these 2 years has been exponentially more than the amount of growing i did in the 24 before that#but beyond that like#being able to actually leave the house and do things#taught me so much about who i am and what i like and what i want for my life#i thought i knew but i really had no idea#and a lot of that has been reflected through stylistic/physical changes#but ive really gotten a better understanding of the actual person i am#which has in turn impacted my confidence (which took a horrible hit about this time last year i wont lie)#which then cycles back into the assertiveness
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#i think sometimes the balance of what we want to be able to do and what we can actually do is hard#and navigating it can be emotionally devastating in unexpected ways#but i'm learning quickly that growing and changing means needing to pivot and adjust through life#needing to hold yourself accountable to your own values as you changw#needing to hold yourself accountable to your own humanity through them#so much of what we do in life will be a compromise#we should know what compromises we're actually making shouldn't we?
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Heyyy, i saw your post about Blake Lively vs Justin Baldoni and stuff and I was wondering where you got your sources for your info?
Honestly, I'm kinda leaning Baldoni's side solely because Lively has a history of doing a lot of bad things (wedding at a slave plantation, being rude to interviewers, and imo, really undermining the DV experience of a lot of victims with her team's marketing — allegedly, her team took over the marketing and kinda sidelined baldoni) but at the same time, I am scared that I'm part of the like the misogyny group, ya know?
Like i don't wanna be those victim blamers and stuff but i genuinely cannot believe what I have heard so far (both on baldoni and lively's side) because I'm so skeptical of like my own thought process and whether this is internalised misogyny so I wanna know more just to see whether it really is my own bias like against lively or baldoni.
So I wanna know like are there any articles or anything to read up on to be more informed about all this? Feel free to not answer this btw
I did some quick skimming over livelys claim and baldonis lawsuit (im a busy busy gal so i couldn’t read completely) but a video i watched by a youtuber called Swiftologist talked about it from a journalist perspective and explained the smear campaign and the lawsuit. Especially the Smear campaign as that has a LOT to do with the current attitude towards Lively. His video about the Baldoni lawsuit does not go deep into Baldonis counter arguments but he does explain why the suit is likely to fail and how its not disproving anything and is trying to misdirect.
I can tell your not being malicious (and you acknowledged it) but bringing up Livelys ‘past’ does play into the ‘perfect victim’ mentality. Im not a blake lively fan but i don’t believe that any minute transgressions she has committed means she can experience harassment from anyone. Once you dig into the actual stories, Livelys claim the NYT article and Baldonis lawsuit you can see theres a clear divide between Lively and Baldoni that does not paint baldoni well.
I hope i can help a bit with your research :D Its really important to do your own research and find multiple perspectives as things are super muddled these days.
#arson answers#i hope this makes sense cause it is 4am but if i don’t do it now i WILL forget#Good job at being aware of your own potential internalized biases cause thoses play HARD into how we perceive things#Its hard to learn and be aware of it sometimes but like. as people we are ever changing and growing so theres no time like the present#I was someone that believed the Johnny Depp smear campaign against Amber heard but as i matured and did my own research i was able to#see past the lies and misinformation and i think that is why when the whole lively baldoni thing first started i didn’t trust the Lively hat#*hate#Anyway i hope this helps anon. Have a lovely week💕
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the problem with writing a fantasy loosely based on a historical culture is you need to decide how "loose" you're willing to go. like yeah i know they didn't have silk but fuck you there's a literal god sitting right the fuck there and of course he would want that shit. but also would the protagonist know what the fuck a book is?
#sorry i'm bouncing between my novel and B&D's next chapter#at least we know they had cannabis#god and his weed smoking polycule#edit: btw if anyone was curious the answer is no#i'm willing to fudge some years bc fantasy but not by the thousands that separate this time period from books as we think of them#which is annoying bc linen was also not a thing yet#or it was super expensive#so guess who needs to go change a bunch of instances of the fucking word linen#every so often im struck with the question 'wait was that a thing yet?' and it's like a 50/50 shot i need to rewrite something because of i#probs closer to 80/20 because even if it exists it exists in a much different context#like the linen thing#at least it makes some good jumping off points for learning about history#nothing like asking what sorts of dates (fruit) would have been available and in what season to send you down the rabbit hole#and find out scientists revived the extinct judean date palm with 2000 year old seeds#and the fruit tastes like honey#big fan of the fact the first one that they were able to grow was a male and they named him Methuselah
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relapse
I’ve just been…completely out of it and off the fucking rails. Went on a ket binge and was just constantly high for 10days? straight, I’ve spent so much money and have v little recollection of what ive actually been doing - spent one night at a strangers house while a couple of them DJed the loudest music I’ve ever heard, sniffing lines of ket and coke and drinking, got basically naked in front of everyone, ugh I’m just an absolute menace when I’m off my face and I feel so apologetic when I come crashing back down to earth. I’ve been slowly easing off it for ~3 days and completely clean today but have had such intense and unbearable k cramps that have brought me to tears and thinking I was going to be sick from the pain. The only way I’ve found to get rid of the pain is milk of magnesia but the downside of that is that it gives me awful diarrhoea lol but it really is a small price to pay to get rid of the pain. So I’ve been shitting for days straight 🫠 at least my head is beginning to come back and I’m a bit more ‘back in the room’. Last weekend I noticed I had a massive lump on my forehead but had no recollection of having bumped it, called 111 for advice and they sent an ambulance to take me to A&E where I was for hours waiting to get checked over (my bloods came back fine and they weren’t too concerned in the end so I was released 10 or so hours later) but in the waiting room I was still nipping off to the toilets to do lines and ended up chatting to a lad that was in handcuffs accompanied by two police officers lol - technically we weren’t supposed to be speaking but we hit it off really well, there was an instant and intense connection and and soon as he was released from custody (about half an hour after me) he called me and we met up, instantly embraced each other and had a massive kiss, and have spent the entire time together since. He is so good to me and has treated me so well, we literally can’t get enough of each other and nothing is off limits, we’ve spoke about everything and it just feels so right. There is such an intense and natural connection between us and I think this really could be the start of something incredible. Roll on this next chapter. I have no fucking clue where life is taking me but I really trust that with him by my side, it’s going to be beautiful regardless. I’ve submitted all of the paperwork, blood tests, information etc that I needed to to apply for funding for residential treatment again and they seem pretty confident that it will be approved and I’m hoping to be heading there within the next month. God knows I need it.
#I wasn’t looking for someone to live right now AT ALL#but our connection is too strong to ignore or deny and it feels so good and right I can’t let this slip away#we are both in active addiction rn but we both want a better life and are committed to making the changes we need#we can learn and grow and develop together#I will do it regardless of whether he makes this change or not but I hope we are able to help and inspire each other to be and do better#addiction recovery#recovery#sobriety#addiction#relapse#one day at a time
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Dunno if it's a hot take, but I think the "platonic" path for Chihiro (as in making the "wrong" choices early on so she doesn't even confess, not just rejecting her when she does) was actually WAY better than her romantic rank 9.
Instead of getting insanely jealous of the thought of Mitsuru and MC spending time together (for the sake of HELPING HER), she's actually totally fine with that and begins to leave before stopping because she's upset AT HERSELF for continuing to rely on others. Her motivation to confront the teacher is entirely about taking action herself rather than it being centered on a desperate attempt to fix things quickly to keep the guy she likes away from another girl.
The way she celebrates with MC on the rooftop afterwards is really cute too. She acknowledges her growth in being able to confront an adult male by herself while also recognizing she still has a ways to go and this is kind of just the beginning. It's just really good character development and very wholesome, how her FRIENDSHIP with MC helped her become more confident and capable. Meanwhile her romance has that character "development" tied entirely to her being very jealous/possessive. She was only able to confront the teacher because she was terrified to let MC be alone with Mitsuru. That's not really growth, and it's certainly not a healthy foundation for romance.
#persona#p3#persona 3 reload#for the record i LIKE chihiro as a character and even find her appealing romantically. but her actual romance arc is... bad.#honestly when she came on strong in this version at rank 5 i swerved IMMEDIATELY towards 'she's jumping to conclusions'#because it just feels true? she BARELY knows you at this point. it's way too soon to say she's in love IMO.#and narratively i think this ended up being more satisfying. she was quick to agree that it probably WASN'T love. and that was that.#after that we had a very wholesome and lovely friendship and she learned to stand up for herself#WITHOUT needing the motivation of potentially 'losing' her crush to another guy. but rather just because she WANTED to grow & change.#anyway sidenote i'm like 2 days away from january and despite my best efforts i'm not going to max every social link#i might've been able to do it if not for the 2 weeks of winter vacation too. brutal.#i'll be close though! only two links undone - keisuke and either mitsuru or aigis. thinking i'll leave mitsuru.#i've no intention of dating mitsuru so gotta try and max aigis since she's so... relevant to the ending. as it were.
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…I need to stop waiting for you to either apologize or ask for an explanation. Or send your own damn meme. I already know deep down it’s not going to happen. Even though you’ve acted outside my (actually low, negative) expectations before.
#tiger’s roar#…it’s either the weather or…finally processing the stress this has had me under for over a year#fighting to get us the Chance to be friends. challenge myself to grow socially. learn to trust people again.#learn to present a Persona that I’m actually happy with that doesn’t make me want to claw my skin off or hide#thinking said Persona would repel people to be Left Alone except by other freaks and weirdos#but actually seemed to attract people instead. including This One#who was actually Top of the List Repel If Like Everyone Else#because…I wanted to be Left Alone about dating too actually#just because I have a ‘huh. well maybe…’ doesn’t mean my expectations or priorities have changed#they haven’t. they’ve only ever been friendship#AFTER we finally spoke. and I realized it was Utter Bullshit that we allowed others’ gossip to not have us interact#so that we wouldn’t have to deal with it. it. was. beyond. dumb.#and I am absolutely over hiding to keep myself safe but ending up dictated anyway#just. are we friends or not. are you even able to accept that we’re friends
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and when i mean i believe in inherent human rights, i mean i believe human rights are non conditional too. everyone is deserving of what i believe to be the bare minimum (again, the right to housing, food, water, healthcare, etc.). there’s nothing an individual can do that will make then underserving of those rights
as much as i say i believe certain people should die, i don’t think they should be stripped of their human rights. i don’t believe they should be starved, i don’t believe their access to seeing a doctor should be stripped away, i don’t believe they should be tortured. i genuinely wouldn’t wish that on anybody
when i get to the point in which i think some people are better off dead, it’s because i think they’ve caused so much damage, and they’ve proven that they’re not going to stop or have just never even shown genuine remorse for their actions with the intention to do better. it becomes a matter of this person has proven time and time again they have no problems deliberately harming people and not caring that their actions are leading to many, many deaths and misery. it is at that point that i honestly see death as a hope that those actions will stop because i genuinely cannot see those certain people changing their ways in the future
and with my belief for inherent human rights, i also believe that everyone has the capacity to change. i believe everyone inherently deserves to be given the chance to be better. this doesn’t mean they should be forgiven, but it means i would rather the world gain a person who is actively trying to atone for their actions and is actively trying to be better to the world, then someone who continues to cause harm, or even someone who does die with a legacy of harm
#i don’t mean to like preach about my morals or anything#this is trying to be an observation of how i feel people in positions of power have what might seem like an insignificant but different#view on humans rights and how it compares to my own view#and even though it seems insignificant and like a minor thing to nitpick#i think it genuinely reveals a lot of how a person views and treats the people and world around them#i feel like it’s an important thing to just know about people who’s job it is to literally decide what human rights are#and who is entitled to them#and i hope this isn’t coming across are like me being ‘holier-than-thou’ or anything#when it comes to be believing that people deserve second chances#because despite not talking about it#it would still be incredibly hard to accept someone who’s cause so so much damage being given the chance to change#which honestly might feel like ‘being let off the hook’ or ‘let off easy’ or ‘dodging a punishment’ to me#but i am making an active and ongoing choice to believe that people have the capacity and commitment to change for the better if they#an honest genuine desire to learn and be better#and i will not hinder that despite my resentment even if it’s rightful#again i hope this isn’t like virtue signaling or anything#this belief of everyone deserving the opportunity for second chances is heavily tied into my belief of inherent human rights#because everyone has an inherent right to basic things because everyone is born equal and morally neutral#i don’t think there’s anyone born as a good or bad person#you are what you make yourself into at the end of the day#and i think people should be able to mould themselves into someone new and better because of it#and again it’s not an easy thing to accept#it’s not easy to allow someone who’s done horrific things the chance to grow and better themselves#but i don’t think anyone should be obligated to directly help them or to forgive them#it’s just allowing access to resources that will help make that change#anyways that it’s for my hour long philosophy thoughts and i guess commentary about society and hierarchies#because guess who’s at work
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