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c-kiddo · 30 days

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i will look for the posts (maybe) bc im sure ive said on here before but i got reminded of cr au in which theyre all just from th uk and its funny to me. rip beau you wouldve loved being scottish

#kiddo say #can u imagine.... weegie beau #its so clear in my head #cads from the highlands and literally no one knows what hes saying apart from yasha (also highlands) they speak gàidhlig togehrer <3 #fjords got the southerner english accent so they all get to bully him #jes is from edinburgh #ok ran out of thoughts. it was warm earlier and the temperature dropped 2 degrees v quick because some fog rolled in and the sun went away #i wanted to hang out at ______ but it got too cold

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eonars · 1 month

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um. tfw your life is about to change massively very very soon and it still doesn't even feel real yet and still feels like somethings gonna pop up and it won't actually happen and also you're scared as fuck that you're too stupid to actually do it and it'll all be for nothing

#like what do you mean full time salaried w benefits and paid vacation just to do. school.#what made you so enthusiastically think i was the perfect one to do this #when the last approx 20something other guys were like ummmm no you cannot do it #tbf like all that other shit up there aside #this did actually come at the perfect time #i look back on who i was during my masters and i legit do not recognize that person #i barely even remember it i have to look at pictures to think back on who i was #in a strange roundabout way being forced home to stay for a while #kind of re centered me and gave me time to come back to myself in a big way. i was really lost before #and chaining something like this directly after my masters would have been disasters #even like this time last year i did not have this level of mental clarity #and i think thats why i didn't get any of the other positions i was just in a fog and i think people could tell #so as much as like im super scared and nervous about this big change and big exit from my comfort zone #and a little sad and mournful that im leaving my family and wont hear my native language all day every day anymore #im the most ready ive ever been #2019 me was NOT ready im scared of her tbh!! idk what wave i was on but it was weirdo shit!#im also proud that i essentially rawdogged and brute forced a lot of introspection and improvement #entirely on my own #like i really can only just describe it as clarity i feel like i matured 10 years in 4 and cleared all the fog #i feel so good about the way i handle things and react to things now vs then #im like 500x more unbothered and actually know how to put myself first now #anyway uh this prob could have been its own post in and of itself #but woteva innit im proud of how much internal repairs i did on myself over the last few years #became a stable genius as it were #whos a lot more clearly defined and present #but fuck man! i am still scared of being 2stupid

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d0d0-b0i · 1 year

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it’s weird how much lighter my life feels now. not that i don’t have any issues (because there are many in my life, as i am sure there are in yours), but they’re just so much more manageable than they were a year ago.

what’s more; i love myself now. i may not be perfect. but i am trying my best, and i can tell that i am! i see myself in the mirror, and sometimes i just examine myself, and my features, and i smile. i feel so much more authentic when talking to people, not worrying about how they view me, because i don’t have to anymore. i wish i could’ve told 15-year old me just how good it’s gotten so far, i know that he would’ve loved hearing about the shitty sideburns we’re growing out right now :’)

#it gets better :)#i used to think that transitioning medically wouldn’t lessen the sadness and depression i felt #and to some degree it is still there since t isn’t a cure all #but by the gods it is so much fucking easier to deal with everything #when a major reason for my mental health being the way it was has been abated #it’s like the fog cleared enough for me to actually see the road i’m driving on #instead of assuming blindly that i won’t crash #once i get top surgery.#idk. i wonder if things will be even easier?#i’m almost a year in and already my life feels so much brighter. yeah there’s problems with keeping the house. and yeah #i don’t have an income yet and i don’t know if the internship will even be in the cards for me #but. i just feel that everything will work out. enough for me to enjoy the time i have here :)#sorry i am being sappy but god! i love and i love! so much now!! i feel so much and i enjoy nearly every day despite the Issues #the world is getting worse but still i find reasons to love and live #so maybe one day it will get better? maybe one day my love will have helped even #if you’re reading. i love you. even if you’re just a follower #even if we’re mutuals that haven’t talked before #i think about you often. i wonder where my oldest mutual went after they stopped posting years ago #i don’t think i can forget. and i love you. and i wish i. could give you a hug. we all need one from time to time #i love the friends i’ve made and the friends i’ve had. i love. and this past year has opened up my floodgates of emotion

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unabashedmoonlight · 1 month

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#too true #yes ma'am this helps #you think you don't need a reminder but then you actually do #it also fucks you up academically because you can't think when you go from having a normal weight to being extremely underweight in months #don't do it #have a healthy mindful diet and realistic goals #ed recovery #purposefully shutting out your friends who are trying to help you is no solution either #for all that 'they don't understand' they do love you #and letting them in helps #it helped mee #it's funny mine wasn't even about weight #brain is so stupid sometimes #anything can escalate #academia will save you because you might be ok with dying but are you ok with getting <80% on a test #no #time to wake up #lol #when you feel like fainting all the damn time you forget that it's not normal #it is unnoticeable not because it is not uncomfortable but because you are used to the discomfort #a single brain fog clearing moment can do wonders #just important to hold that awareness and do something about it #and break away from old patterns #which i am doing and i will manage #*hold on to #well

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softpine · 6 months

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lmaoo i actually saw a post about how to properly censor images; because AI can just remove black bars now and read what's underneath, you have to actually delete the part you're trying to hide and THEN add the black bars on top just to denote that you removed something. i obviously don't care about confidentiality when it comes to something as silly as my sims story, but it's good to know for anyone who works with important web documents!! soooo you're gonna need more than x ray vision because those words are not on the photo anymore :P

mmmm cornbread and mac & cheese sounds so good, i would love to try baking it on top to make kind of a crispy casserole texture. i love to crush up potato chips and put them on top of avocado toast :D ohhh and i love dipping french fries in vanilla milkshakes

ANYWAY MY CHARACTERS (can you tell i'm hungry fjskjds) i think stevie has a remarkable ability to eat really nasty things just to make people laugh but otherwise she eats normally. elaine will try any of those novelty desserts like bacon dipped in chocolate or fried oreos because she has a sweet tooth. asa & beth being vegans can put together a meal from the most random forgotten food at the back of the cupboard. oh and casper will eat THE weirdest food when he's bulking up lmao because he's naturally skinny so his goal is just to pack in as many calories as possible; drown a ham roast in mayo, add shots of olive oil & eggs to protein shakes, cover salmon with peanut butter, etc etc. nasty stuff lol

@morrigan-sims lmaoo i believe your word, don't worry ;-; i love that you have such solid memories because i do the same thing with the media i love (like the day i started watching supernatural with my friend because our school had a half day due to a big snow storm in 2012 fjskjd) so i'll take it as a huge compliment that you remember where you were when you started reading frozen pines! thank you so much for all your kind words 💖 i've just been feeling insecure for reasons that have nothing to do with any of the lovely people who read my story, but the love i got in response to that post made me so happy anyway!! i can't say thank you enough, especially to you in particular because you've always been SO kind to me and i appreciate everything you've done for me 💗💗 i hope you have a wonderful day morri!!!

my bad i didn't see this until thursday fjksjds 🐪

i'm so sorry if i forgot to answer this or if i did answer it and i just can't remember, my memory has been BAD bad lately but this made me so happy to read!! thank you so much for spending your time with my story 🥺 i really appreciate it 💖💖

i'm also sorry if i forgot to answer this ahhhhh :( but that's a good question!! most other ghosts we've seen don't have enough consciousness to even realize that finn is different from them, let alone be jealous of him. they're trapped in their own little worlds with no awareness of their surroundings. it's really bleak :(

#i'm clearing my inbox now because i still have asks in there from simblreen fjskdjs but i think i've answered everything now!#if i missed yours i'm so so sorry it was not intentional #brain fog is a hell of a drug....#well i'm saving a couple messages so i can take screenshots for you or put more thought into my response #it's probably been so long you don't even remember that it was you who sent the message lmaooo but i'm trying my best #asks #anonymous #nonsims #brandi answers #morrigan-sims

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puhpandas · 6 months

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i have not said any of it but i actually have a very specific idea of beckory in my head that ive yet to touch on anywhere

#ive said nothing everywhere not just on tumblr #hope i can get through this writing funk soon so i can showcase it somehow #i can kinda feel the fog clearing up a bit so. fingers crossed #pandas.txt

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qvietspvce · 3 months

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oh i am so grumpy at being awake right now

#i’ve been awake for like 2 hours and actually cognisant of the fact for an hour #whose stupid idea was is to drive to plymouth???#oh wait it was mine #at least the fog is clearing so i can see some of the countryside from the M5 #(ps i’m not driving my friend is driving because he knows i’d be a mild hazard today)#(my brain is going too fast to be a safe driver rn)#(i’m gonna make him go to the beach with me after we’re done with appointments)

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lemememeringue · 1 year

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local idiot forgets to inject anti pain juice, wonders why pain

#mine #lem has a body #literally all last week I was staring at my calendar thinking how I can't wait for the ninth so my brain fog can start clearing up #then on the ninth #the fucking brain fog #kept me from registering what the hell my calendar reminder was for

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robo-dino-puppy · 1 year

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a sunwing for varl

(a glitch to get your full kit in a new game: video by Diverdjent. you can’t actually progress with a whole game but you can explore the prologue areas with a sunwing)

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vio1315 · 6 months

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Anyone noticed the anti lampshade trend lately??

#Vio's Personal #Got a nightlight and realized the glass was just like.... clear #so you can see the light directly #As a kid they textured the glass so it was sorta fogged looking and you couldn't see the bulb directly #y'know 'glass'#and the light fixtures in the kitchen have been the same way #used to be both had ways to keep you from seeing the bulbs directly but the new ones have no such covers #This makes it impossible for me to do anything #I do not get this trend

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hzdtrees · 2 years

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Fog

#horizon forbidden west #hfw #hfw photomode #only 62.5% of this post actually features fog to some degree #you can argue about the aloy one but generally it was fairly clear when i took it #plus the campfire one is one of those failed attempts i kept regardless #there was a bunch of wind and there were neat particle effects but i was incapable to capture them adequately #so what you get is a stack of wood #and one (1) particle

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sekwar · 1 year

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#everything sucks right now #i haven't had a spiral this bad #i've been thinking about a lot of things recently and now i feel so sad and lonely #including how much longer i'll be here #i want it to be monday so i can clear my head #if the end is coming i best be prepared #sorry if it looks like i'm vagueposting but this is the third time i've tried to make this post #and my head is really really grey and i can't find any reason to be happy for a prolonged period of time #so i can't get my point across clearly #the fog is really setting in and i need some reasurrance that it's gonna be ok...

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tortoisesshells · 1 year

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#all i want for my birthday/the end of the year/whatever is for the sickness fog to clear off so i can write a grammatical sentence&#so i can finally finish tinkering with ch. 27. let me go free brain.#polkaknox talks

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rowanhoney · 1 year

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okay SO I don’t remember what meds I was given (and only 2 doses of it </3) and it hasn’t helped in the ways I’d hoped but god I’m experiencing some reeeeal clarity today and I think some healing to follow

#I feel less stagnant mentally also brain fog cleared #it’s somewhat easier to activate myself to go and do things but I am still putting off the things I need to do #still it’s progress!!!!! I’m trying to be patient w myself #my sense of time is a lot better tooo????#like generally my sense of it passing is usually okay #but my perception of how it will pass and how much time I actually have to do things is all fucky #like how am I supposed to do anything if I have 5 hours in which to do it?#cos 5 hours to me is in some ways equivalent to 15 mins #but I was told these meds will last 12 hrs so it will wear off 11 pm #it’s 7pm now #and I’m a bit like hm well I have time to do things ! I can eat and do laundry! I can out the Xmas tree away too!! and relax !#plenty of time to do all these things even for my slowest of days!#yes it is true my Xmas trees is still up 😭 I’m telling u it’s been Severe executive dysfunction here #but so far I went into work to get my keys and hang out a minute #I went on a walk on the way back cos I got a bit restless which tbh nice change from Severe fatigue #and I sat and read and hour or so and the reading was a lot easier than usual!!!#like I didn’t have to continuously reread the same bits and almost cry and I can actually recall what happened #so successful day so far

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starbuck · 1 year

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thanks for tagging me @nedlittle !! ❤️❤️

last book i read: Interpreting Our Heritage by Freeman Tilden and uhhhhh, technically a book on local tree identification, if that counts (mostly pictures, but i DID read the whole thing and take notes!).

book(s) i’m currently reading: Interpretation By Design by Shea Lewis, Paul Caputo, and Lisa Brochu, Nature’s Best Hope by Douglas W. Tallamy (book my Grammy sent me that i’m getting certain Weird Vibes from, but which is generally informative and helpful), and i’m TECHNICALLY still rereading Moby-Dick with the lads, though i’m around 15 chapters behind at this point because, if you couldn’t tell, my job is currently taking up all of my reading time and energy (voluntarily and in a good way, but STILL).

next book: i have certain plans for some Fun Reading in the near future, but honestly it’s probably gonna end up being yet another Job Book on local history (short though, and again - mostly pictures!).

tagging… uhhhhhh honestly idk who’s on a reading kick rn and who’s not and i don’t wanna guilt anyone so 😂😂 anybody feel free to do it and say i tagged you!

#to be clear: i haven’t read this much in AGES #like. possibly ever????????#i am really forcing it but just not to the point of straining myself #it’s a delicate balance #like. No - this DOESN’T feel natural at all - but i do ENJOY doing it #because it’s all interesting to me and will make me more confident in my work #which isn’t just a job to me - but is legitimately something i’m passionate about #it’s kind of like my language-learning pursuits #again - this kind of self-discipline is in no way natural - but it makes me feel good to do so i can make it happen #it’s so weird to have a legitimate thirst for knowledge again after so many years of Depression Fog #i feel so powerful - it’s great!!

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toastsnaffler · 6 days

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urgh.. trying to troubleshoot an assay while my mind feels frozen in amber..its not happening

#ill figure it out tmr morning. basically just have some samples that are too viscous to dilute properly #but i might be able to dilute them by weight instead of volume bc its just a % compared to the control not a fixed value #ah i cant think its like most of my ram has been removed im so spacey and my face feels weird. :-(#i almost miss the headaches from first weeks on meds id rather be in pain than have brain fog or whatever this is #every fucking afternoon. well going home in 15 mins anyway so i can just lie in bed and float when im home #its making my memory way worse too. ik im forgetful generally but i keep forgetting abt the things that remind me not to forget #if that makes sense. just lots of stupid little things i dont remember to do and its so frustrating #like whats the point of having meds to improve my focus if thry only work half the day and then make it worse than normal #my sense of time is fucked too i lost another 2hrs today doing idk what. at least it makes me feel like im not at work for so long lmao #man. if the whole week is gonna be like this thats gonna suck. and ill have to cancel on social plans snd ill get rly sad again :-(((((#ahhhhhhh #well it doesnt matter cant do anything abt it anyway. just taking it one thing at a time #i just need to clear up and then ill clock out #.diaries

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