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eonars · 4 months

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um. tfw your life is about to change massively very very soon and it still doesn't even feel real yet and still feels like somethings gonna pop up and it won't actually happen and also you're scared as fuck that you're too stupid to actually do it and it'll all be for nothing

#like what do you mean full time salaried w benefits and paid vacation just to do. school.#what made you so enthusiastically think i was the perfect one to do this #when the last approx 20something other guys were like ummmm no you cannot do it #tbf like all that other shit up there aside #this did actually come at the perfect time #i look back on who i was during my masters and i legit do not recognize that person #i barely even remember it i have to look at pictures to think back on who i was #in a strange roundabout way being forced home to stay for a while #kind of re centered me and gave me time to come back to myself in a big way. i was really lost before #and chaining something like this directly after my masters would have been disasters #even like this time last year i did not have this level of mental clarity #and i think thats why i didn't get any of the other positions i was just in a fog and i think people could tell #so as much as like im super scared and nervous about this big change and big exit from my comfort zone #and a little sad and mournful that im leaving my family and wont hear my native language all day every day anymore #im the most ready ive ever been #2019 me was NOT ready im scared of her tbh!! idk what wave i was on but it was weirdo shit!#im also proud that i essentially rawdogged and brute forced a lot of introspection and improvement #entirely on my own #like i really can only just describe it as clarity i feel like i matured 10 years in 4 and cleared all the fog #i feel so good about the way i handle things and react to things now vs then #im like 500x more unbothered and actually know how to put myself first now #anyway uh this prob could have been its own post in and of itself #but woteva innit im proud of how much internal repairs i did on myself over the last few years #became a stable genius as it were #whos a lot more clearly defined and present #but fuck man! i am still scared of being 2stupid

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1-800-dreamgirl · 4 months

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this is what everyone has been saying!! no one is looking at celebrities for political statements, but they should and must use their platform to amplify the voices of those who need and most importantly be against this genocide!!

#if you’re not being openly against a genocide then you are being silently complicit in it #i don’t know how else to put it anymore and there is no excuse to not be using your platform #so to say the least I’m extremely dissapointed in my own favorite artists for being absolutely in silence about this #they keep proving themselves to be soulless people and to call themselves artists when they have no humanity in them is quite ironic #you’re not an artist you’re an entertainer that happens to be good at songwriting and your entire existence is manufactured #you’re a modern capitalism's little toy not an artist #free palestine #b talks

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akemisalem · 22 days

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i can’t believe how much he’s serving in the middle of a literal war

#i’m sorry i had to make this into its own entire gif #i just can’t get over how pretty he is in this scene #bones really have been putting their all into animating him this season #i’m on my hands and knees for him #shouta aizawa #aizawa shouta #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #mha #bnha

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coddda · 3 months

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I wish we could have met in some other way.

Lawlight Week Day 2: Soulmates

If you saw me repost and re-edit this several times uh No you didn't </3

Still frames/Individual gifs:

If you know what every frame is from you get a free cookie. by the way

#death note #dn #light yagami #l lawliet #lawlight #oh god here we go #death note jdrama #death note 2015 #death note 2006 #death note musical #lctw #l change the world #dntm #lawlightweek2024 #my art #collapses i am NEVER putting this much effort in one piece ever again /hj this was the Only one i had mostly prepared in advance #ironically the most painstaking part about making this entire thing was converting the images into an animated file #that wasn't either horrifically compressed or just. wouldn't loop. why do gifs have to look so BAD it's so inconvenient #and THEN i realized I had to forcibly Stitch the two animations together so they would actually be synced and it wouldn't look dumb #and the end result is STILL so compressed. because Tumblr. uhhh just don't click on it it'll look so scuffed LOL. anyways #this is what i get for watching Every Adaptation of Death Note. i am a death note multiverse truther #usually i'd have something clever to say in the tags but. this drained the life out of me just uh.#yeah. they're doomed in every universe. this is the only way they could've met. they are doomed by their own natures and the #circumstances that surround them. there is no universe where light tries to prevent L's death. and even in the cases where L Doesn't die #there is no universe where L can save light. there is no universe where he can truly “catch” Kira and make him see where he went wrong #(<- if you read LCTW you know. :) )#in every universe and adaptation L will call Light his first friend. in some universes they'll take that notion more seriously than others #no matter what one of them will die due to the other. its the only constant. it's the only way it can ever be. they are the others downfall

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ruporas · 3 months

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need to exist in your warmth (id in alt)

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #blood tw #ruporas art #love u when i get to cuddle u and love u when i get to feel ur blood soak into my hands #being this close to one another means the eternal suffering of trying to separate love and mission. love for one and love for humanity #i like to think of pre-vol8 vash as someone who struggles with his feelings for ww bc as equal and as trusted he is -#vash knows his responsibilities and he knows/expects ww wouldn't let him stray from it either. for that he can't take to any romantic incli #and i think itd make him view ww in a stricter non-personal way... If that makes ANY sense.#for ww - take someone who youv gotten close to and ended up liking more than you expected #someone who has a belief and follows it stubbornly - someone who'll get into more fights and trouble more than youv had your entire life #ww thinks of him as a monster but he knows theres a limit he himself can take - i feel like hes considered what might be the limit for vash #for Safety measures. just in case. yknow. whenever he himself might have to load the bullet < him hyping himself up as if he could do it #my point being that the thought of vash being dead crosses his mind more than he'd like. i think its a simultaneous dread drop in his stoma #for failure of the mission - but also an Ok? They can be killed? and also a disastrous gunning of his own heart. considering how much they #both live in their own heads some days are Just the worst ever for them in each others company. but also they lov each other :[ sooo much

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inkskinned · 1 year

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hey btw if you're in the USA at 2:20 p.m. ET on Wednesday, Oct. 4, they're testing the emergency broadcast system. your phone is probably going to make a really loud noise, even if it's on silent. there's a backup date on the 11th if they need to postpone it.

if you're not in a safe situation and have an extra phone, you should turn that phone completely off beforehand.

additionally, if you're like me, and are easily startled; i recommend treating it like a party. have a countdown or something. be surrounded by your loved ones. take the actions you personally need to take to make yourself safe.

i have already seen mockery towards any person who feels nervous about this. for the record, it completely, completely valid to have "emergency broadcast sounds" be an anxiety trigger. do not let other people make fun of you for that. emergency sounds are legitimately engineered to make us take action; those of us with high levels of anxiety and/or neurodivergence are already pre-disposed to have a Bad Time. sometimes it is best to acknowledge that the situation will be triggering for some, and to prepare for that; rather than just saying "well that's stupid, it's just a test."

"loud scary sound time" isn't like, my favorite thing, but we can at least try to prevent some additional anxiety by preparing for it. maybe get yourself a cake? noise cancelling headphones? the new hozier album? whatever helps. love u, hope you're okay. we are gonna ride it out together.

#watching ppl go from being like ''support neurodivergent ppl~~!"#to being like ''if this is going to give u a panic attack ur fuckken stupid''#like..... gets me #yeah man. i know im going to be triggered by it . in the old fashioned term. it is GOING to give me a panic attack. it's pretty much certai #and i shouldn't have to tell u about what i have survived for you to be okay with that.#you can just trust that i ALSO don't want me to react to it. i'm not gonna be having a FUN time.#dismissing that bc you think it's stupid.... like is the whole problem.#these sounds are workshopped by entire teams of people to get you to pay attention and move quickly.#they arent meant to be fun and exciting.#OBVIOUSLY it's gonna set ppl off.#but yeah there's something so fuckken demeaning about ppl being like. well that trigger isn't valid bc u haven't undergone X #dude i have ptsd bc i was abused as a child. like plain and simple. the fact im 30 and afraid of the dark tells you how bad it was.#i shouldn't have to ask u for permission to be mentally ill.#the reason it's a fucking disorder and not a fucking choice is that I DO NOT CONTROL IT.#like how is it any different from when ppl are like ''oh public speaking isn't that scary'' like FOR YOU #for YOU this isn't scary. now if i could fucking eat my own amygdala...

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leaf--storm · 12 days

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Emerald hunting

#I havent drawn them in FOREVER!!! (two months)#artfight and then my own ocs kinda consumed my entire mind for a while there woah #also turns out backgrounds are actually kinda fun who woulda thought #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #sonic fanart #tails the fox #miles tails prower #sth #my art

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dapper-lil-arts · 8 months

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The entire premise of Alicorns being on another untouchable level dissapears when you account for Cadence's basic-ass taste in men

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hinamie · 1 month

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thank u canon plant nerd megumi for my life

bonus:

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #megumi fushiguro #itafushi #fushiguro megumi #yuji itadori #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #itadori yuuji #megumi #yuuji #middle one FOUGHT oh my god #angle/arm position/watering can/expression NONE of it wld go right #took 2 hours to get the lines only to realize upon laying down flats that it was still Completely off #so i took a break to bake an entire cake came back n finally it started cooperating #tbh idk if im still shaking off ytd's weird funk or what but this took ages longer than it should have #but its ok bc florist/botanist/general plant nerd megu is free serotonin 2 me #i could not decide on one apron 2 give him #but then i remembered he is th type 2 take his hobby Very seriously of course he would own multiple #looks at the hydrangeas listen . listen I Know i ws bemoaning having 2 draw so many cursing their name etc etc #but u dont understand he had to be holding one he just had to. he told me so. he held a gun 2 my head and said U Know What To Do #and i said ok ok ok ok #there r only 2 i survived #and i wld do anything fr him as we well know . cuffs his jeans puts leaves in his hair <3 #jjk may have given me trust issues depression anxiety etc but it Also gave me flowerboy megu and i think that balances it out :)#edit added the bonus here bc reblogs dont show up in the main tags enjoy itfs gross flirting mwah <3

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k2-truther · 4 months

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not the step siblings, just the siblings that stepped up

(so excited for junior year finale prt 1!!!)

#i needed an icon for this blog and these two own my entire heart #bard siblings! the coolest kids in school! the doofiest teenz alive! Complicated Women!#fig faeth #figuroth faeth #fabian seacaster #fabian aramais seacaster #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #ktruth art #ktruth posts

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beebfreeb · 8 months

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If I saw a nutcracker nobody could stop me

#I don't know what's happening to me I usually draw only my own characters this is scary. Unprecedented behavior from me.#beebfreeb art tag #ms paint #lethal company #lethal company nutcracker #My wifi has been going out regularly so I haven't actually been able to play in a bit autism taking over controlling me or whatever.#I hear that metal clunking I hear that 400+ lb footsteps I giggle and twirl my cables like hair. I don't know. What are your pronouns ba-#*I am kicked with incredible force and slam into a wall which destroys my spinal cord and many of my bones as well.*#Something about it makes me put my entire soul into shading #Because it is just so darn cutes *coughing up blood*#nutcracker #lethal company fanart

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iamtoothandclaw · 8 months

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Cerberus, 2022

I cannot believe I never posted this, as it's one of my favorite art pieces I've done in years. A painting of my darling nephew, Buckley.

#yeah my family has entirely embraced the pets as children thing #we're never having kids #my mom has to cope with having no grandchildren somehow #that and adopting neighborhood kids as honorary grandkids #anyyyyyyway #artists on tumblr #pet portrait #my own art #watercolor #animal art

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ashoss · 10 months

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dick and jason being asshole older brothers because i think its funny

dialogue

dick: what do you think we should do, jaybird?

jason: i've got an idea, dickie.

#i just made them my own older brothers #batfam #batfamily #dick grayson #nightwing #jason todd #red hood #tim drake #red robin #dc fanart #dc comics #batbros #i have an entire stash of funny shirt pics i wanna draw the batboys in #ash's doodlings #illustration

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lee-luca · 10 months

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X-Men: Sharks

Fassbender's Magneto has been described as having a shark-like smile. I have decided that a Blahaj would complete the look.

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uncanny-tranny · 9 months

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This might seem like an "old man yells at cloud" situation, but it's just wild growing up and being told how dangerous distracted driving is - how, at highway speeds, you can traverse the length of a football field (100 yards, 91 meters) in a matter of seconds - how one split second sending a text while driving could result in a potential fatal crash, and then getting on the road as a driver and being surrounded by billboards. Their entire purpose is to catch one's attention, so they're lining major roads, which tend to be highways. How is it that you're told how important it is to never be distracted while driving, but still being advertised to?

At best, this type of advertising is an eyesore to pedestrians and motorists and a general waste of electricity to light it, and at worst, it is an active danger considering they are there to advertise and therefore, must catch people's attention.

I'm not even against advertising in theory, but this particular mode bothers me so much and I hate how pervasive it is - especially in large cities or highways.

#politics #i don't know much about são paulo banning marketing billboards but on paper i want that here in the USA #as a motorist it at best just makes me more anxious driving in those larger cities because i want to FOCUS ON THE ROAD #and passing 5000 billboards per mile isn't helping actually!#i've gotten good at filtering that out of my FOV but it's still fucking exhausting lol #i especially hate those modern electric billboards. despise them actually #i am aware that advertising is a critical aspect to business management in some cases...#...but it shouldn't risk the safety of the populous for you to advertise to them and i see things like billboards as risking safety...#...i feel similarly about online advertising in that so much of it risks internet user's safety...#...such as flashing ads online which risk triggering epileptic seizures in light/photo-sensitive folks #distracted driving (texting): NO >:( || distracted driving (being advertised to): YAYYYY :D #i've been driving on my own for a few years now and i've been thinking about this for ENTIRELY too long

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galedekarios · 11 months

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i can't believe it took me this long to realise that almost all of gale's greetings, whether they are:

low approval

friendly

romanced in act i

to romanced in act ii

to romanced in act iii

are just variations of asking what he can do for the protag / what they need from him

#gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #gale x tav #tav x gale #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #otp: a soul that streels my own #ch: gale dekarios #vg: baldur's gate 3 #series: baldur's gate #meta: mybg3 #it only took me making two entire gifsets to notice lol

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