#so like. page freaking 40 of my inbox or something

[thetomorrowshow]

forgot to work on writing so my self-imposed deadline may be pushed back a bit however in an entirely unrelated and not procrastinating at all sense i am getting SO CLOSE to cleaning out my ao3 inbox

[bookofmirth]

How is smut and baking related to the plot? How is it presumptuous to say that they don't have an impact to the plot? Or is Rhy's release important??? And you completely glossed over the fact that I said I wouldn't have been disappointed IF IT WAS ADVERTISED as what it is. Also with you claiming that the length of a book isn't important, you're saying that ACOTAR, ACOMAF and ACOWAR have been quality wise the same as Acofas. So that argument wasn't really effective as (1/2)

But I am sorry if I hurt your feelings with writing that I found your opinion to be “hypocritical”. I should’ve worded it differently and for that I apologize. But it isn’t nice either to call others experience as “bad reading”.

I’m not sure if there was supposed to be another ask in between these, but this is all I got.

I’m not really going to argue on whether or not acofas was “good” or not. tbh, I enjoyed it, but I didn’t find it ‘good’. Not compared to a lot of other books I’ve read. However, I think you might have missed my point about cost. The length of the book, its “objective” quality, and its cost should not be (and are not) related to each other. If they were, that would be a very dangerous slope in which suddenly someone would have the authority to say “this book is ‘better’ according to my criteria and so should cost more”, or they would like… charge by the page or something. Clearly, huge books like Oathbringer are more expensive for a reason, and I recently bought a new translation of The Odyssey that was originally $40 - that’s freaking expensive! There is some publishing industry reason for why a majority of new-release YA books are $17.99-18.99 in the States and most new-release adult fiction is $25-29, but I don’t know what that is. But that has nothing to do with how much I will or will not enjoy it, ultimately. And it’s quite easy for most of us to get on Goodreads and check the page count, if that’s really important.

Re: being presumptuous, we literally don’t know what the plot of the next books is going to be other than “Nesta and Cassian take a field trip to the Illyrian camps”, and so how can we tell right now that things that seem inconsequential in acofas aren’t actually important? People write entire essay-long theory posts trying to find those details that will be relevant in future books. That’s not my thing, but it’s a thing. So when the book was marketed as being important, how can we tell it’s not??

Perhaps I shouldn’t have used the word “bad” in my original post regarding reading and clearly I should have explained myself better, but I’m holding my ground on calling it “limited”. You asked if smut and baking are related to the plot - they aren’t. At all. But that’s my point. Character is just as, if not more, important to a story as plot. Sometimes you can learn more about a character from the way they make their breakfast than how they deal with death, if the author writes it well. I could give you a list of books in which very little happens, but I feel as if I understand those characters so, so intensely, they are so beautifully written (and satisfying, despite relative lack of plot). And I’m not even making the argument that that’s what sjm did, just that it’s a possibility, and discounting acofas because of lack of plot is failing to recognize the other ways in which it is valuable.

Thanks for apologizing - I may have a history of people being vicious in my inbox (not saying you went that far) but that doesn’t mean I can handle it any better. It doesn’t take much for me to start getting anxiety every time I see that little notification.

[rp-repliforce]

((So I played around with a predictive text writer))

((If you’d like to try it for yourself, here’s the link: http://botnik.org/apps/ I’ll put all the nonsensical stories under the cut. Each one was made with a group of X4-related sources that gets added to with each story. Enjoy~!))

Unnamed Story 1 (sourced from X4-related wiki pages): general launches his organization's mistake to save the ultimate color. After defeating Colonel again, zero rushed to get rid of him push. When he was unwittingly considered a failure of the maverick's white mission. General survives his battle in the space shuttle and then decided to split repliforce into four reploids. The scientists are you. We must battle for our own individual rights and our own survival of the repliforce army in history. Let yourself fight him as his arms are died. Colonel is a black outline named zero. When the two of them was involved in a fantasy shuttle of reploids. Zero hurried to iris's with a double agent named repliforce while a barrage of them battled colonel and activating the giant destroyer spirit.

Unnamed Story 2 (sourced from X4-related wiki pages): why are you going faster and faster and faster and faster and faster and faster and faster and faster...? What am i fighting for? Kaneru came here for a few seconds until his face was unwittingly regarded as maverick. Iris appears. Her eyes lay dead under the earth and her knees like being killed. Colonel started sobbing rapidly and chronologically. After taking a break, we failed to see what happened to colonel and zero's tall business. General figures that someone had salvaged colonel's black plan and found out that they somehow look like nothing.

Unnamed story 3 (sourced from an old fanfic I made (that I was very proud of when I was a tween): The humans and a leg will face general and zero's ear. After taking colonel's sickening bar drain and his comfortable child, zero traveled to the maverick hallways and repliforce was all computerized. His organization's blood potato chip was involved in the ceremony for a mouse from many rooms. Colonel started coughing and sputtering furiously and found that someone had been staring at a timer for the rest of the day. "Zero! I couldn't go check up on my arms because I thought that we weren't involved in that!" colonel exclaimed in human. Iris giggled and seemed to get rid of a restaurant. General cried a bit, and was potentially transparent. "What are you going to tell everyone?" He asked quietly. "I'll say that someone else is nothing else." Iris replied suddenly. General could only hope for a movement between sigma and 40 seconds. you you- i mean- you should-... Please forgive me for colonel and his desperate utopia business. he is very oblivious to zero's sore feet. He is ineffective. "what are you talking about?! I won't antagonize... Oh and a sharp voice spoke first." colonel started to say. x made repliforce the most repliforce by using his face of dread in the air so that nobody would shake him anymore. Good. "zero please forgive his temper, i considered literally suspicious breakfast!" iris secretly said to zero's computer. Unnamed story 4 (I forget...): Repliforce came here with you and sacrificed x to the purple port named repliforce. After he realized all this indignity faces are died, general gradually lost he push. Like, we must leave the ascension to the dress of beams. Unfortunately, final zero iris zero loses himself to the space effects. Classic. When him push all the humans into the repliforce, he realized that someone had previously regarded him as his shoulders bear. Zero hurried with his men to cut out general's repliforce... Colonel is a double power spirit from human creators and the earth between all massive fighting leader. Together we will not suffer this because the player is using it entirely for sigma's mistake center. Soldiers never drop their deaths by the young arbitrator named iris. Unnamed story 5 (All the previous sources combined with Repliforce quotes and my own RP replies from this blog): Colonel and iris were slightly obliterated by the way this micowaver was pretty angry. Iris giggled and then colonel exploded. Please tell him to fight anyone who says that danger is a tall kid. Slash beast: "What are you trying to do? Get me a little mud on the internet and a sharp thing." He said pretty loudly. Colonel wasn't very comfortable with this jedi on the repliforce,  so he asked him to make me a couple. Slash Beast: "Weeeell if they were still there, maybe I could finally shut this eye closed." It made sense because Slash Beast only had one eye. Colonel: "Very well then... I'll spare your breakfast for now... But next time, there will be no ground." Slash Beast: "okay alright ha heh ha a bit." He said, somewhat stressed out. Colonel nodded faster and faster and faster and faster and faster until he finished sleeping. General straightened his hind quarters and went into the room. General: "I am unsure of who sent me... but I felt rather involved." He spoke kinda at iris. Iris: "oh... We were starting to freak lagoon but then web spider was about to stand." General: "Nice. Anything else happened? " Colonel: "we also sometimes treat the soldiers like they said "road expand more" and "shippuuga" or something. " Colonel said quietly. General launches himself up at the ceiling maverick hunter hooligans because of the armrests and a bad dream. general destroyed 5 pencils in the process. Web spider lost his contacts and screamed: “hm um they're sending you that heart!!!“ “General tells a story/General’s fever dream“ (only sourced from that one fanfic): I felt a bit dry. The computer paused again to attack my barbels. "Egh. " I said at the soldiers. I don't care about the satellite because I knew what happened to colonel at the internet room. He was barely recognizable and I eventually closed the air. you betray your fate... I thought about someone and saw myself up against the computer. We have no reason to linger around zero's foolish vehicles. I was silent for a very long time! I felt like the soldiers were shocked at me for everything. "Yes. I knew who suggested the computerized dream,  and I got more upset. No matter what the maverick hunters say, i will always be talking... Maybe." I said to iris. "General, my eyes said that um... This weapon must be malfunctioning." She said. The soldiers quietly accused me for weeks. I need to make a button with a little thing on the back... Before I pass out.  “THE METTING“ (Told by General (again): Dear reader: You are some worthless thing that the evil person had lost to the dining room and the day of dread activity. We settled the meeting in my ear for power and shame. Without justifiable eyes, Iris herself was just disturbing. She entered my inbox and tried to run away from an email and a high computer sir. Take heed who tries to interfere with some table of fighting.  Personally, I thought colonel grunted to the soldiers about his brother potential and tried to speak on the way to work. Sometimes we have no significant things to fight. Other times we might build a lot of me and repliforce development. Please tell everyone that I'm you and you're me. "General?! " X cried to me. Apparently, I looked like a very long person with a purple color scheme and a pair of bodies on my food. " You are nothing more than a high reploid who tries to interfere with tears by standing on the soldiers in the memorial room of crime. " I announced. That was the moment that I looked down at my hands and ceilings and I eventually closed the humans. "you will not realize my business with your breakfast!" I added. Zero cussed a lot and then decided not to say something about space activity. Zero was a very rude dream. "What are you talking about in here? " Colonel asked quietly. "We are discussing my plan for zero killing and security confusion." I replied. Then Colonel nodded and left through the walls. "WHAT?! " Zaid Zero and the computerized... things. "But General~! We weren't involved in the creation of you ~! " X said to me. "you will not perish, you don't has been killed by sigma... " I said loudly. "However, little did you know, I was remembering all the things that blonde kid did this morning. " There was a moment of offended silence. We were slightly bloodshot. X & zero stood there and tried to cancel the sky. "You have no excuse... " I said. Both x and zero looked down at my leg and zero looked back to the computer and saw that I misread this report. "You're wrong. We have become very suspicious of you and we think that this is a terrible golden brother meeting. " "Agreed. " Said Colonel who had been caught up with a little trees. I felt very saddened by the vastness of the problem. "I.. You don’t has anything else to say up at me." I confessed. "Meeting adjourned. " "Fantastic X" Colonel said,  clapping at his breastplate. "I was very comfortable with this day." X replied. "Yes. " Said Zero. Then they exited the room and I was left alone with the blood of my computer and the energy I needed. ... This indignity of a meeting was starting to sound like someone's mistake.

[twdmusicboxmystery]

Clock Analysis Part 3 - What Episode We’ll See Beth in and Why

Okay gang! New episode tomorrow and I’m super excited. So my guess for when we’ll see Beth is 8x10. It’s  based on a lot of evidence I and my fellow theorists have found.

The first is simply the sequence of events I’ve mentioned before in THIS POST and THIS POST. In 5x03, Bob dies from a walker bite. The clock in the room when he dies points to 8x08, which is when we found out Carl was dying from the same cause, so we can parallel the two. The VERY NEXT episode, Slabtown 5x04, is where Beth wakes up. So if Carl dies in 8x09, it would make sense for Beth to show up in the next episode, 8x10.

Not to mention, we always saw the music box as a symbol of Beth’s awakening (see my account name ;D). And then there’s the rule of threes. 8x10 is exactly three seasons after 5x10. Now, we did say this about 8x08. The MSF made sense to us as a time for her to show up because it would have been three seasons after Coda. But I read something the other day—a random article about 8x09) that talked about how death is especially common in TWD’s MSFs. I think that’s applicable here. The MSFs are about death, so perhaps we were always wrong about that. They wouldn’t bring her back in a MSF because those are reserved for major deaths, and this will be the opposite of that.

Historically (in the show) episodes 10 are often about life. 4x10, Inmates, Glenn survived at the prison. He had a mini death fake out on the bus, and in 4x10, they revealed him as being alive. (X, X, X). 

5x10 was the music box, and all about the survivors coping. 6x10 is where Rick and Daryl meet Jesus. Aside from the obvious JESUS symbolism, this is them finding a new community, new allies, and more survivors. Life! 7x10 is New Best Friends. There’s not one big example in this episode, but rather lots of little ones you could find. And it’s kinda built into the title, right?

So all of the above just shows that it makes sense for her to appear in 8x10. But it’s not all super-concrete evidence. So now, let’s look at—you guessed it—the clocks.

Let’s start with Slabtown, because that can be a discussion all by itself. Remember that as Beth wakes up, we see the second hand of Beth’s clock tick from 4 to 5, from 7 to 8, and then to 10. 

The prevalent theory was always that these numbers represented the episodes relevant to her story line in S5. (Which was yet more evidence that 5x10 was important and about her in some way: music box.) And I still think to some extent that’s true. It’s too much of a coincidence that she was in episodes 5x04, 5x07, 5x08, and then the music box woke up in 5x10 to simply dismiss it.

But now I also think it’s more than that. M-Nonny and others have argued that perhaps the 8 and 10 on Beth’s clock point to her awakening in 8x10. That actually makes a lot of sense. Why? Because the time the clock reads is 5:20, which points to 5x04, and this IS episode 5x04. That creates a tie between 5x04 and 8x10. So in 5x04, Beth awakens directly after Bob died from a walker bite. It would, again, just make a perfect parallel if she shows up in the episode right after Carl dies from a walker bite.

In terms of the numbers being tied to episodes, I’m going to take it a step further. I don’t have detailed evidence on this, but I honestly thing the numbers could also stand for seasons. She was in season 5, obviously. The second hand ticking from 7 to 8 is interesting because, even though Beth wasn’t in them, season 7 is when Negan arrived and 8 is a continuation of Negan. We believe Beth will be tied to the Negan story line, so it’s super-suspicious that these numbers specifically, rather than season 6, are what we see on her clock. If that’s the case, the 10 may also point to season 10, but we won’t know if or how that’s the case until S10 rolls around.

Other Clocks: Edwards’. I talked about this in Part 1 of my Clock Analysis. Remember the clock in Edwards’ office changes from 8:40 (resurrection) to 8:50 (8x10) and may show the episode in which the resurrection will happen.

Clock in 5x09: @wdway found this and I’ve honestly never heard any other TDer talk about it. True, I could have just missed it, but none of the theorists in my group had heard of it either, and generally at least one of us has.

So remember this scene where Rick, Michonne and Glenn talk in Wiltshire? This scene has always been suspicious to us because Glenn holds a bat (Negan foreshadow) and talks about Beth being alive in the present tense. 

This is one of the bats we saw associated with Beth (the other big one is in Inmates, which is an episode 10, btw) and felt like it was a clue.

So in the open garage behind Rick and Michonne, there’s a wall clock. Guess what time it reads? 8x10. 

So perhaps, just like the clock in Edwards’ office, it shows the episode where these clues will be fulfilled? Here’s hoping!

Other random 8x10 evidence:

In 4x16, we have the scene where the Claimers find Rick, Michonne and Carl. This is yet another scene that has way deeper significance now that we know Carl is dying. I’ve thought for a long time that this scene was a foreshadow of Beth at Grady. (See the post I did about it two years ago HERE. Also HERE.)

It’s mostly about subtle parallels. Carl wakes up in a blue suburban (Beth wore blue scrubs and the color is associated with imprisonment; there’s also the blue suburban they drove in 5x09). He wakes up to find danger around him. There’s also broken glass shown. He’s sexually threatened, but not actually assaulted. All parallels to what happens with Beth at Grady. And since it’s Carl who wakes up, in this analogy, Carl = Beth. So you can see that the entanglement is functioning on many levels. So why am I going over this? Because of something Joe says.

Remember he starts counting backwards from 10, planning to shoot Rick when he gets to 1, but Daryl shows up and says stop. And what does Joe reply? “You’re stopping me on 8, Daryl.” I picked up on this during my rewatch before S8 began, and saw it as yet another emphasis on the number 8 and season 8 being important. But they specifically emphasize the numbers 8 and 10. Obviously it wouldn’t make any sense to count up from 8 to 10 in this case. They kinda had to start at 10. So it’s either pointing to 10x08 or 8x10. Just saying.

I also think it’s important to note that in the next scene, where Rick and Daryl become brothers, Rick talks about keeping Carl safe, and how he’d do anything, even rip out Joe’s throat to make sure Carl stays alive. Major foreshadowing, y’all.

Finally—and this is one of my favorite evidences, again found by M-Nonny—in Coda, FG’s decides to be random and sneaks out of the church to go to the school, where he ends up being chased back by a horde of walkers, and the church is ultimately lost. I remember thinking this scene was so random when watching Coda for the first time. Since then, we’ve found lots of Beth symbolism in it, so it’s made more sense.

But check this out. One of the things we’ve analyzed to death is the bible FG opens and looks out. We’ve looked at numbers and stories and passages. All kinds of things. And here it is: *drumroll please* The passage he opens to is Chronicles 8:10.  

And whose name just so happens to appear on the page? Beth’s:

(Photo source: @teamdeluzzionaljb-blog)

And this happens in Coda, people. CODA!

It also occurred to me that it’s interesting that FG’s church is lost here. Here’s the minor spoiler: Carl will die in Alexandria’s church (which we’ve always felt had Beth vibes) and it will burn down around him. So in both cases, a church is destroyed. Just kind of interesting.

So this is most of my 8x10 evidence. I’m sure there is probably more we would find if we did re-watches looking specifically for this, but this what I’ve got.

Disclaimer: Despite all this, could I be wrong? Sure. I know I’ll have at least some haters hate on me if she doesn’t show in 8x10. All of this evidence points to SOMETHING big in 8x10. I think and hope it’s Beth. There’s a very good chance of that. But it might be something else too.

M-Nonny did remind me of one really compelling piece of evidence that may run contrary to this 8x10 theory. I’ll post in more detail about this next week, but it’s about the “how the harvest gets home” truck sin 5x16. When Aaron and Daryl find the wolf trap, the truck shave that logo on the side, and we’ve long thought “the harvest” is Beth. The license plate Aaron removes from the truck has an 816 on it, which may mean that Beth won’t show until the finale. 

And if she doesn’t show by 8x10, I honestly won’t expect to see her until then. But Alexandria is Aaron and Daryl’s home. The wolves go to Alexandria in 6x02 and even drive a “harvest” truck into the wall. So I’m hoping Beth will show up earlier (like in 8x10) and 8x16 will be when she finally arrives at Alexandria. *fingers crossed*

So, all THAT said, I’m totally going to get your hopes up about something else. Thanks to a Nonny for sending this to my inbox. (I’ll officially answer your Ask tomorrow, but I read it a few days ago and totally freaked out about it. ;D)

The following is the final paragraph of THIS ARTICLE, which was written by a blogger who received an advance screener of 8x09. Check out what she says:

So my group totally went to town on this, did tons of research and discussed with hundreds of comments. See, in the comments of this blog post, someone asked if the last scenes that caused tears of joy might be something with Negan or a Richonne baby. The blogger answered yes, but she wouldn’t say which one.

So my group morphed into super-hero researchers. ;D Here’s what we discussed:

My issue with this being a Richonne baby is saying that half the fandom will hate it. I guess those really angry about Carl might see it as switching one child for another, but I think those people would be in the minority. Saying half the fandom might want to punch Gimple seems really over the top if this is just about a Richonne baby.

This blogger isn’t a huge Richonne fan. She doesn’t hate them at all, but she doesn’t ship them in particular, and mostly just doesn’t really care, so she isn’t someone who’d have such a strong reaction to a Richonne baby.

The same is true of Carzekiel. We talked about it being a Carzekiel thing, but while she kinda likes the idea of Carzekiel, she doesn’t especially love or ship them, so again, it probably wouldn’t give her this extreme a reaction.

This blogger really loved both Still and Alone, and enjoyed the romantic moment between Beth and Daryl in Alone. Just saying.

If it’s not Richonne, then it must have something to do with Negan. Since we do think Beth is tied to Negan, we’re okay with that. Kind of hoping we’ll see who the prisoner was from the handcuffs Daryl saw in 8x02 (because we think it was Beth). Let’s just say lots of conjecture and head canons about these mystery scenes have been floating around my group the past week.

So we don’t know what these scenes are, and they might not be Beth, but we have high hopes. If they have to do with her, then this theory is wrong anyway because she’ll have shown up in 8x09, rather than 8x10. I’d be happy to be wrong in that way. ;D

And hey, even if it’s not anything obviously to do with Beth, I think these final, shocking scenes will be very important and tell us a lot. But here’s hoping they’re about our girl.

If you read the entire article, the blogger also says there are several unforeseen twists throughout the episode, and some are tied to Siddiq, who has Oceanside ties in the CBs. So once again, Oceanside comes into things, and that feels Bethish too.

Okay, I’ll shut up for today. Bottom line: I’m very excited for 8b and totally believe our girl is coming home. Thoughts?

[genjis-wife]

hi, you were/are on feralfront? I was a mod there, like a year or two ago. what's going on now? also what was/is your username on there?

hello! i was on ff for 5 years, so i might remember you! honestly, you've missed probably the worst thing to happen to ff. it's in my "#feralfront discourse" tag, but let me sum it up for you:everyone you knew and loved is probably gone. january, dynamo, the site's coder, decided that it was too expensive to keep the old site format, and moved over servers to another one. this was really confusing, you know, to the KIDS occupying the site, yes? so we were like "uh hey, dynamo this site is ugly now, can't we go back to the old one?" and for no reason these people got banned.so we were like, lol why did they get banned, and those people got banned too. so we knew by now that dynamo wasn't handling our confusion professionally (i.e., with a message like "hey guys im sorry but we don't have the money, ill try my best to do what you want tho"), and taking to banning the people who didn't know what the heck was going on was really weird.so people were just like "well, if dynamo doesn't want us to have our own opinion about the site, we will just leave" so once that started happening, people left, and others started making memes about it. the meme makers were banned. i think some snitch told on someone who was in a Skype groupchat saying "why are people getting banned?" and dynamo banned them with no explanationsome people spammed memes for about 5 - 10 threads before they were banned. some people decided to kiss up to the mods and then ask "how do you, i don't know, become a mod? im just wondering" and those were the people in my screencaps from this morning. one of my sisters asked dynamo in a long pm why he wouldn't just ease the minds of the people who were confused, and he said "this topic is over" so she asked for a ban because he didn't listen to her.someone ( a very good soul who ill leave out the name of, i love him ), mind you a 15 year old CHILD, said "hey guys i live in the same state as dynamo, hahahaha i should go beat him up LOL" and all of his friends laughed. like really, what is a 15 year old gonna do to like a 40 year old man, amirite? well, they proceeded to get death threats in their inbox until they deleted their blog and came out with a public help den apology, and all dynamo said was "don't mind this internet tough guy, he can't hurt me. i should ban you for saying that" and leaving.also, somewhere in here was a 22 year old military freak who said he hoped a 12 year old died or something. like really, what had the site come to? it's all leadership being handled wrong.i, however, am i different story. for a while i had been meaning to quit the site, so my mom and my sisters and i conjured a plan for the sake of all of my friends who were banned for no other reason than having an opinion. i waited about a week and realized that dynamo went to sleep at 3:30am my time zone, and i wrote a very weird dynamo x frostsoul furry fanfiction, and proceeded to spam it across 27 pages of the help den.i am the legend of hell den 3. my username was kid death. i played about 6 leaders in my five years there, and more high positions than even that. as i wrote, for all of the grief that he caused my family​ and friends, dynamo will never get my apology.feel free to check my feralfront discourse tag ( scroll past the alpha kratt discourse ) and get some fillers, or message me!!

[scifiphan]

92 Things About Me

tysm @sleepwalkerphan  for tagging me in this! it’s 2am and I’m procrastinating the heck out of writing so this is perfect lmao.

also I’ll put most of the things below the cut so keep reading if ya wanna know 92 fun facts about me

edit: this took me almost an hour to do and towards the end, I basically confess my entire life so have fun reading that lmao. like i seriously have a realisation about how idk what i’m doing with my life hahahaha

THE LAST..

1. Drink : Water #stayhydrated 2. Phone call : mum 3. Text Message : a gif of phil being scared in bed (even my irl friends are trash) 4. Song You Listened To : currently listening to Taro - alt-J 5. Time You Cried : On sunday I cried over a renovation reality tv show (??? yeah idk either, bro) the apartments just looked so nice and the team I liked got kicked off the show.

HAVE YOU EVER..

6. Dated Someone Twice : nope 7. Been Cheated On : nope 8. Kissed Someone And Regretted It : YES (smh @ me) 9. Lost Someone Special : thankfully no 10. Been Depressed : i honestly don’t know. i think I have but am so freaking stubborn at admitting I have had depressive episodes in the past 11. Got Drunk And Thrown Up : YES OH MY GOODNESS I HAVE HAD SO MANY BAD TIMES. DON’T DRINK WINE AND THEN A MILKSHAKE AND THEN DANCE ON A BEACH. YOU WILL ONLY END UP THROWING UP IN A GARBAGE BIN OUTSIDE A KEBAB STORE (it wasn’t even after midnight, that’s the most embarrassing thing) 

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS :

12. Green 13. Pink 14. Turquoise

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU..

15. Made New Friends : yes!! so many new and amazing friends 16. Fallen Out Of Love : nope. 17. Laughed Until You Cried : laughing until I cry is me every time 18. Found Out Someone Was Talking About You : yes (you would think that adults would stop teen behaviours lol) 19. Met Someone Who Changed You : yes, the last year included so much change. 20. Found Out Who Your True Friends Are : Yes. Just gonna put it out there: traveling for an extensive period of time overseas really shows who your true friends are and who are the snakes. 21. Kissed Someone On Your Facebook List : hahahaha yes (too mant rip) 22.How Many Of Your Facebook Friends Do You Know In Real Life :  probably almost all of them (so like 550) only a few on there are my internet friends 23. Do You Have Any Pets : nope and I probs wont get another pet for a long long time 24. Do You Want To Change Your Name : NO!!!!!!! Teddii is a blessing although I would change my last name (it’s two surnames joined together and it makes life difficult because it’s so long) 25. What Did You Do For Your Last Birthday : went out for dinner at a mexican place, won a few dollars on the pokies and then went out clubbing (also i got a fine rip me) 26. What Time Did You Wake Up This Morning: 11am OOPS (i slept in and missed uni) 27. What Were You Doing At Midnight Last Night : probably making a gif 28. Name Something You Cannot Wait For : FINISHING UNI AND MOVING TO THE UK (hopefully to do my masters in global terrorism at the uni of london but if not i really wanna get a 1 year working visa and just do some hospitality work before I start a career) 29. When Was The Last Time You Saw Your Mother : like 4 hours ago when we were watching tv 30. What Is One Thing You Could Change About Your Life : I wish I had a UK passport, it would make life a lot easier for me if I had dual citizenship instead of a boring Australian passport 31. What Are You Listening To Right Now : alt-J, a live performance of Taro  32. Have You Ever Talked To A Person Named Tom : I know so many Tom’s it’s ridiculous 33. Something That Is Getting On Your Nerves : PEOPLE!!! WHO!! THINK!! THAT!! IF YOUR DEGREE!! ISN’T STEM!! THEN IT ISN’T!! HARD!!!! (i’m looking @ every friend who does a stem degree and always laughs at how my degree must be so easy because it doesn’t include math)

34. Most Visited Websites : tumblr, youtube, my uni’s website, facebook 35. Elementary : v great time, got bullied heaps but still had fun 36. High School : problematic fave. honestly my time at high school can fill a 500 page essay. being right next to a beach and river was actually gr8, the endless issues weren’t so good. 37. College/University : it has been a wild ride. I swapped degrees so I still have around 2 years left but uni has been my fave so far 38. Hair Colour : PINK!!!! (naturally ginger) 39. Long or Short Hair : long 40. Do You Have A Crush On Someone : nope (which is a shocker) 41. What Do You Like About Yourself : I like my individuality and independance 42. Piercings : 2x lobes, 1x helix, 1x nose. (i’m thinkng about getting my conch in a few weeks) 43. Blood Type : O+ 44. Nickname : ted, teddii bear, sideshow bob, cotton candy 45. Relationship Status : hella single 46. Zodiac Sign : Cancer (aka my birthday is soon hell yeah) 47. Pronouns : she/her. 48. Favourite Tv Show : STAR TREK: VOYAGER WILL ALWAYS BE MY FAVOURITE 49. Tattoos : crescent moon on my right wrist (i sorta don’t like how it turned out but after a year I have grown to appreciate the meaning) 50. Right Or Left Hand : Left handed (aka another reason why Dan is my spirit animal)

FIRST..

51. Surgery : i got a bunch of teeth removed when I was like 4/5  52. Word : baba or ma  53. Sport : soccer  54. Vacation : i actually can’t remember my first vacation. probs Sydney tbh idk I went a lot of places when I was young 55. Pair Of Trainers : probably something Adidas tbh

WHAT ARE YOU..

56. Eating : nothing 57. Drinking : water 58. Reading : nothing at the moment besides uni textbooks 59. I’m About To : I should say sleep but I’ll probably just watch youtube 60. Listening To : Breezeblocks by alt-J (can you see a recurring theme with my music questions?) 61. Waiting For : GoT SEASON 7 AKA MY BIRTHDAY (honestly feel so blessed to grow older and watch new GoT on the same day) 62. Craving For : MONEYYYYYYY. ya girl is unemployed thanks to the bad habit of planning last minute overseas holidays 63. Do you wanna get married : eventually but at the same time it doesn’t worry me 64. Going To Do When You Get Older : ????? ?????? ????? you would think I would have an idea but tbh idk. I’m studying International Relations and I want to do a postgrad in global terrorism. But career wise I have no bloody idea. I would like to work in the UN or UNESCO or for the Australian Government in an embassy. but at the same time I also want to be a travel photographer and just ignore my degree (idk adult life is hard)

YOUR TYPE..

65. Hugs or Kisses : HUGS 66. Lips or Eyes : eyes! <3333 67. Short or Tall : tall guys!!! but short girls are my weakness!! 68. Young or Old : HA haHA HA old 69. Nice Arms Or Nice Stomach : slight preference for nice arms because tummys are cute no matter what 70. Sensitive or Loud : I am both of those things so, por que no las dos? 71. Hook Up or Relationship : relationship (although I can’t relate because i am eternally single) 72. Troublemaker or Hesitant : I prefer when people are upfront instead of hiding stuff from me so I guess that means troublemaker?

HAVE YOU EVER..

73. Kissed A Stranger : yes 74. Drank Hard Liquor : yes (love me some vodka) 75. Lost Eye glasses or contact lenses : not yet thankfully 76. Turned Someone Down : YES! (there is nothing wrong with turning people down.) 77. Sex On First Date : no 78. Broken Someone’s Heart : yes and I still feel bad 79. Had Your Heart Broken : yep 80. Been Arrested : yes (kind of, long story) 81. Cried When Someone Died : yes. although I tend to go more numb instead of crying. idk it’s weird because I cry about everything but death kinda makes me become numb 82. Fallen For A Friend : yes (oops)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN..

83. In Yourself : yes although I need to believe in myself a lot more 84. Miracles : yes 85. Love At First Sight : yes and no. I believe it exists but I feel like a lot of people believe that they are experiencing love at first sight when in reality it is infatuation/lust. 86. Santa Claus : this question conflicts me because the logical side of me says no but the optimistic child side of me refuses to accept the truth 87. Kiss On The First Date : yeah 88. Angels : nah, not for me

OTHER..

89. Current best friend’s name : do i have a best friend? not really. again, it’s a weird time for me when it comes to friends. 90. Eye Colour : um blue with green and grey mixed in (it’s so hard to describe but yeah, those three) 91. Favourite singer/Band : Ed Sheeran, Mumford & Sons, al-J (i love them all a lot.) 92. Favourite Movie : Avatar. yes the blue alien one. It’s lame but I fell in love with the na’vi culture and it kinda helped get me obsessed with scifi.

And that’s a wrap!

If anyone actually read all that I hope you enjoyed my (very) late night confessions. Idk who to tag so if you see this and want to do it feel free to do so! Also, come hit up my inbox/messages if you wanna be my friend after reading this, I wanna make some friends on this hellsite

[fuckstudy]

I submitted my paper 40% of final grade it 48% plagiarism and so I freaked out deleted like half of my paper supposed to b 6 pages resubmitted it Idc if it's only 4 pages I am not staying behind another year for one class I threw up just from the whole thing and then I feel like crying and throwing up again when I think about how my boyfriend broke up with me cause he didn't want to do long distance but he's taking another girl to prom instead of me + wants a friends with benefits thing with me

/hugs/ 

First off, congratulations on submitting your paper. Seriously. Submitting something - no matter how disappointed, frustrated or anxious you are about the result - is an achievement in itself. 

Why?

Because it means you did not give up. 

You persevered. 

You conquered. 

You’ve stuck by your resolution to not stay behind another year for one class. 

In the short term: 

I’ll be honest here - quality =/= quantity. But moving on: 

Distract yourself. Let go of all those emotions - whether it be by throwing yourself into a new hobby, netflix, youtube, hanging out with friends, tumblring till 3am.

Because your life is so much more than your academic grade. 

I know, it doesn’t feel like it at the moment. 

I know, its hard to tell yourself that there is so much more than school - especially when you’re in there day in, day out. 

Like, how the hell am I supposed to ‘forget’ something that i’ve been doing for the past X amount of years? 

But arguably, this is the most important time to remind yourself that you are so much more than your grades. 

Make the effort. 

Because heck, whether you like it or not, your paper is going to be graded sooner or later. You may as well take the time to do something else in the face of the inevitable. 

And when you get your grades back, know that there’s nothing you can’t bounce back from. That paper only reflects your performance for this period of your life. It doesn’t determine the rest of your life nor your potential. 

On the chance you get a bad grade, here’s a few resources that may help - this, that, and this. 

In the long term: 

Re: plagiarism. I’m not going to sugar coat this; academic dishonesty is a serious offence. All those ‘warnings’ you get? 

Heed them. 

If you can, rewrite the line/ paragraph highlighted. Make sure you’ve cited your sources correctly. Are your direct quotes formatted properly? An easy way to do this is to restructure your paragraph, add a line of analysis here and there, break the complex idea into its constituent parts. A simple ‘search: synonyms’ isn’t likely to bring down that %; restructuring will. 

However, next time you submit a draft and get a high % for plagiarism, critique that number. Remember its a number that’s spat out from a machine (aka a bunch of algorithms). Check what you’ve written against your source material. What is the software identifying as plagiarised material? Is it just keywords that are not replaceable, or is it a significant chunk of text? 

I can’t speak for your discipline/ field of study, but I can say for Law, software such as turnitin greatly inflated % of plagiarism and therefore wasn’t appropriate for our style of assessment, ‘cause hell, everyone had to use the exact words contained in a legal doctrine, or cite the same case= a lot of direct quotes = software mistakenly thought it was plagiarism despite “”. 

On relationships etc

I’m sorry to hear that the issues with your boyfriend coincided with this difficult period of your academic life. To be frank, timing is a bitch. 

[....clearly I’m not really a v good source of advice re: relationships so apologies in advance.]  

Whatever arrangement you choose, whether it be friends with benefits or otherwise, please, please, please let it be your choice. Your independent choice. Not something that someone has forced you into. Not an arrangement that you feel pressured to enter due to circumstance or otherwise. 

And if you’re not sure.... set some boundaries for yourself. What will you accept? Where do you draw the line? 

And be kind to yourself. Give yourself time - to heal, to cry, to learn to love yourself again. The longest relationship you’re ever going to have is the one you have with yourself. 

And prom? Its a big thing at this time. It seems like one. You can choose to get caught up in the whirlwind; but you don’t have to. I promise you, in a years’, two years’ time, its merely going to be a blip on your radar. And sure, its easy for me to say cause its been... years. But time is unforgiving and relentless in its push. So trust me when I say, soon you’ll be on the other side, it’ll all be behind you, and you’ll be moving on to bigger and brighter things. 

I’m sorry to hear you’re going through a rough time at the moment anon. I can’t say things will be better tomorrow, in a weeks’ time or even a months’ time. 

I can’t promise you that.

But I can promise you that there are people out there who will support you, that my inbox is open and that you will get through this.

And you don’t have to do it alone.

All the best anon. 

[atsumus]

writing updates & stuff

This was too much to fit into an author’s note on AO3, and probably not all of it is interesting for people who only read my arranged marriage AU fic, so I decided to just make a post. Here we go:

OiKage Arranged Marriage AU

My first priority is to finish “You’re still the best more or less, I guess”, and while I’m not able to update as frequently as I’d like to, I have everything planned and will do my best to finish it sometime soon.

There will probably still be at least around 40 more chapters!

Once I’m done with the main fic, I will continue to write side-stories and one shots for the universe, and I’ll take suggestions for those when the time has come! :)

Writing Commissions:

Someone asked me to open writing commissions a while ago, and now I did exactly that! Please check out this post and/or this info page if you’re interested! 

Once you’ve commissioned me, my absolute number one priority becomes to finish the fic for you before I go back to working on my other pieces.

[There’s way more under the cut!]

Other Unfinished Works:

I will continue writing updates for those whenever I don’t feel like writing whatever is first priority at the moment. 

Once I’m done with the arranged marriage AU, I will mainly concentrate on finishing “A Story about two Kings” (OiKage) in German, so that I can finally translate the whole work into English. Currently the German version is longer than 100k words, so yes, this is a project which will take me forever to finish too. 

I really want to finally finish “Sunday We’re In Love” (IwaOiKage) since I only have two more chapters to write for it, and I hope I can do that very soon.. maybe even before I finish other bigger projects.

“The Point of No Return” (OiKage) and “30 Day NSFW Challenge” (OiKage) are basically just for fun and whenever I feel like it. I guess I will finish these eventually, but I’m not exactly prioritising them.

Upcoming Works:

I have written another zine piece, and this time it’s OiKage! I don’t exactly know when it will be out, but I’ll definitely keep you updated. The fic is mostly a relationship study, and I tried out a new writing style.

After I’ve finished the big stuff above, I plan on writing another OiKage long fic. I have a complete plot for a) roommate/university AU, and b) super angsty kind of road trip AU. Let me know which you want me to write first if you want to! :D

I also have ideas for multiple one shot or shorter multichapter fics, and I guess I’ll be writing them whenever I feel like it. Includes mostly Kageyama rare pairs (who would’ve guessed lol)

Writing Requests:

I have decided to not take any writing requests anymore (for now). If you have a cool idea and you want to share it with me, please do it! There’s always the chance that it inspires me to write about it. 

There is always the opportunity to commission me if you really want me to write something in particular for you.

I don’t think I will manage to fulfil the requests I already have, I’m really sorry. But honestly, I doubt whoever sent them even remembers because it has already been... a year.. or more..? I’m super sorry.. I just have so many ideas for fics and not enough time to write them, and I hate doing things just because I feel obligated to do them.

AO3 Comments:

Uhhh well.. by now there are more than 600 in my inbox (holy fucking shit, I’m still freaking out every time I see this, you’re all amazing), and I have no idea what to do with them. There is no way I can reply to everything, I’m so sorry! 

I still read and appreciate all of them! I will occasionally respond if I feel like I have something important to say, but if you have thoughts, ideas, questions or whatever you definitely want me to answer, please just send an ask on tumblr. Replying will probably still take me a while, but I draft all asks immediately and I will get to them.

You can also direct message me here or on another social platform, but let me tell you, I super duper suck at replying. I just don’t have enough time on my hands, and I’m trying to just have as much fun as possible :)

I guess that’s it for now? Sorry for this super long-ass post, and if you’ve really read everything until now, you’re my hero. Lots of love ♡♡♡