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Grantaire I hate you so much right now
#I am trying to draw him but his hair REFUSES to cooperate#this little asshole and his messy curls#He lost that poll to Mike Wazowski from monster's inc so I wanted to draw Mike beating him up#but alas my skills are not there#and R's stupid hair keeps fighting me#so i gave up#so mad at you right now R#my posts
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I said it once and i'll say it again the sooner the queer community drops the idea of the straight Boogeyman the better off we will all be. The sooner y'all accept that straight people can also be queer the easier it becomes to accept identities you don't understand.
Straight and queer are not opposite. They aren't contradictory. They aren't mutually exclusive. If you can accept that cis people can still be queer then straight people can to.
Straight trans people exist. Straight aspecs exist. They are all still queer. Grow the fuck up and get over it instead of throwing a fit because things are not about you.
#text#queer#lgbt+#lgbtq+#lgbtqia#lgbtqia+#im being so fucking serious right now and some of you will get so mad at this but I'm 100% serious right now#the sooner you accept 'hetrosexual' and 'straight' as not opposite of queer the better off we all will be#because people's identities are complex and there is nuance to this shit#and ignoring that because it's 'too hard' for your small ass brain to comprehend is dumb af#someone being straight doesn't stop them from being queer#someone being cis doesn't stop them from being queer#someone being allo doesn't stop them from being queer#someone being a man doesn't stop them from being queer (r*d fems looove to say that it does)#one part of your identity does not some how overrule the rest of it buddy#At this rate kids in English class are more mature than you because unlike you they're actually learning something
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broooo not my ex making posts abt how hard it is to come to terms with being conventionally attractive while having low self-esteem issues and how wild it is to get compliments randomly on their appearance when they go out and how they're worried that their new transmasc boytoy is only into them bc they're hot -_- i'm tired... meanwhile i'm just seen as a gremlin now that i'm not hyperfem... they truly have the biggest issues in the world lol
also they were like "omg turns out i'm not ace i just needed a bf lol" and i'm like yeah. i know. you've been lusting after male characters for years. you were horny as fuck just not for me bc i didn't transition. you only made moves on me when you were bored, lonely or drunk. i always asked if that was the case and you were like no baby it's just your insecurities i don't need you to transition uwu. for 5 years. my trust issues are thru the roof now yayyyyy /dies
#lay text#i'm being mean and petty ugh#my heart kinda hurts but talking w my counsellor abt it helped#it rly helps to have a neutral third party to vent to#also i still think my ex is a good person i don't actually hate them i love them as a friend. but i do hate what they did to me#i hate that they went along w us dating bc they're too much of a doormat. i hate that they thought abt breaking up w me for years#but never told me bc they were worried i wouldn't survive without them financially or emotionally#feels so fucking infantilizing#now i'm so much better off without them despite being broke#that was my first and only real relationship my first time my first everything. i'm so embarrassed wtf i was RIGHT i was right all along#i was right it wasn't just insecurities they straight up never wanted me they wanted future transitioned male-passing me#it was all lies!!! from the get-go!!! meanwhile i did so much romantic bullshit and i was wearing rose colored glasses!!!!#and i was a big dyke. being with a woman who identified as a woman would've made me 2000x happier anyway. we could've just stayed roommates#i'm so bitter guys. i feel so jaded but i'm trying not to be :/#and now they have so much luck in their love life#and i'm just a lonely gremlin dyke who only attracts polyam/casual girls who only want me on the side#where tf is my love story :'( i've been trying SOOO FUCKING HARD to gain my ex's affection for 5 freaking years i was the most loveydovey g#i deserve a love story i think i've really earned it by now!!!!!#so much love to give#now they have it so easy wtf. feels unfair ngl. i'm happy for them obviously they deserve happiness too. but i am still bitter >:/#trying to process these feels instead of repressing them for once. i have a tendency to bottle up angst bc i think i'm bad for being mad#but nope those r healthy emotions!!! i can work thru this#it just sucks#if you read all of this bs i give you a cookie 🍪 <3
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AHHHHHH
#this post brought to you by: me#i. applied for a preapproval letter for a mortgage yesterday. and spoke to a realtor to start finding me houses#i want to move several states away which further complicated things. but the houses there are CHEAP#like under 100k for a 2 bedroom move in ready#anyways i got approved for 80k with a 20k down payment. and im FREAKING THE FUCK OUT#and because i got that pre app letter i have a loan officer calling me today to talk#and we literally work at the same bank so i can SEE that hes active and hasnt read my message#even though its been 45 minutes. KEVIN MESSAGE ME BACK. IM NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO FOCUS UNTIL I DO THIS CALL#AHHHHHHH S C R E A M. it might happening!!!! i might be finally.mov8ng out in a few months!!!#i mgiht be a HOMEOWNER by the end of the year#i have been saving money for this since i was. 16? 17?#ive had a good well paying job since i was 18.#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#once i have a house then i start job searching in that area. and start getting really serious about LEAVING my very good job#which is soooo scary. this job was supposed to be my lifelong career. but then everyone fucking moved to other states and left me behind#so theres no point staying here.#i might never have this kind of job security again.#but also my realtor said that theres a lot of bank jobs in that area so maybe itll be easy to find something#on the fence on if i tell my parents that im Making Moves right now#on one hand its hard to not talk about it becuae im STRESSED TF OUT#but on the other hand when i tentatively mentioned the state i want to move to#richard started yelling and swearing el oh el#might be better to wait and avoid the tension as long as possible?#but also i dont know how they can stay angry when its literally my best option#the other places where my friends live either have 0 opportunity and high housing prices. or are even moe liberal than where im going#idk. why do half of my problems come down to “my parents will be mad” like im a 12 year old or something. shit fucking sucks#this is why i want to get out of here#also it feels weird and bad to talk to my friends about how stressed i am about buying a house when all of them are stressed about#not being able to make rent or something. my problems feel like a brag in a really odd and shitty way. but hey!#if this works out maybe ill start being stressed about how im going to make my mortgage payments! :') yay!
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Nothing pisses me off more than when people talk about my friendships with mid-support needs autistics and other people with differently-wired brains as if I am descending to help them because I’ve taken them on as a charity case. That is NOT true. Oh they’re a burden because they’re neurodivergent? WELL GUESS FUCKING WHAT: SO AM I! THE REASON I HAVE SO MANY FRIENDS WITH SO MUCH SHIT WRONG WITH THEM IS BECAUSE I HAVE A LOT OF SHIT WRONG WITH ME. WE ATTRACT EACH OTHER! WE LIKE EACH OTHER! IT’S NOT THAT FUCKING HARD TO UNDERSTAND!
#How about I just start strangling ableists from now on?#Would THAT convince them I’m actually this person’s real friend?#Literally nothing I say to them is able to get through their dense fucking skulls—#as if it’s sooooo hard for them to believe I actually enjoy their company#Also (halfway unrelated): if I hear “It takes a special person to work with special children” one more time I am going to SCREAM#Tell me I’m calm; tell me I’m patient; tell me I’m creative— do NOT tell me I’m “special” for doing a job I LOVE#Can you imagine telling a quantum physics major “It takes a special person to solve special math problems?”#😂💀 WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. I’m gonna start saying that to people from other professions. To see how they like it.#The children are not a burden to me; the children are very enjoyable to be around#and I enjoy troubleshooting what is preventing them from learning and coming up with workarounds for them#I made a glued roll of paper for a kid who constantly peels their skin because I saw them peeling crayons#It works!#I made math problems into a Skibidi Toilet role playing game for another kid who hides under tables when it’s time to work. It works!#You know why I was able to come up with either of these inventions? Huh? You wanna fucking know?#1.) I peel my lips and mouth and palms of my hands and calluses and cuticles and scabs; and#2.) I have awful executive dysfunction and have to do weird stuff to engage myself#People talk to me like I’m one of the “normal” ones; little do they know I’m getting assessed for ADHD and score 142 on the RAADS-R#and I essentially self-destruct when I get mad so I don’t break valuable items or punch through drywall and oak doors#I give myself bruises that swell a half inch high and form hematomas under the skin#I think I’ve permanently weakened the blood vessels and a vein in my right thigh from beating it so much#because it only takes one well-placed blow on my right; but several blows to my left#And I can see the bruise pooling towards my heart along the path of that vein from day to day after the initial beating#and sometimes it just randomly aches when it’s not injured; so I have to shift my weight when the kids sit in my lap wrong#so with that and something else I did to it not super recently that I should have gone to urgent care for… I probably have nerve damage lol#so it’s gross when people say such things about other NDs to me as if I am above them#Just fuck off already
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I'm probably in the minority with this but I wish the first 3 arcs of Sailor Moon Crystal were a two-part movie series (like they did with Eternal and Cosmos.).
This will probably make the Crystal fans seethe at the mouth bc God forbid anyone has an opinion different from them. But we probably would've avoided a lot of the embarrassing poor animation choices had they turned the material into two-part movies for each arc. They'd have more time to focus on the good bits that moved the story along. They'd have more time to also focus on the animation quality of the movies.
Maybe, as a result, they could've spent more time honing their character designs versus getting better after three FULL seasons of SMC.
Sorry not sorry, the designs in Eternal and Cosmos are way better than the poor attempts to copy Naoko's style that plagued the first 3 seasons of SMC.
#yeah i said it. i think the infinity arcs character design sucked balls#before anyone goes ugh youre a 90s fan ... all i have to say is: and? so what? i like versions of sailor moon and will criticize all of them#nothing is above criticism you dinguses#the musicals? the bandai ones are a YMMV in quality. the later ones are good but sometimes the songs suck.#manga? inconsistent artwork but i actually like that about the manga tbh - gave it a lot of 'action' in its line work. but 1d baddies#90s anime? theres a lot of filler. some of the filler is good. others are BORING. series does not grow w/ audience after 3rd season.#90s anime pt.2? the aging up of mamoru and him having a relationship with rei. ew ew ew. they ruined mamoru for me lol#pgsm? nothing. its perfect. oh wait one criticism is that they only did the first arc. le sigh. woudve loved to had more#crystal? questionable designs. questionable additions that deviated from the manga. kept in some stuff that sucked about the manga#crystal pt.2? like keeping in haruka kissing usagi to uh intimidate her??? really fucking dumb and huge yikes. the first 3 seasons r boring.#crystal pt.3? which is funny bc its far more condensed vs the 90s anime but somehow manages to be just as boring as the 90s filler eps.#manga addition: i like the manga and i still prefer it over crystal any day of the week.#we good? good. now keep your reply in the drafts#incel + crystal = cryscel fans#btw this is true w/ dragon ball super. they decided to adapt the movies into the series and the series ended up having 🥚#🥚very questionable animation choices that were fixed but still didnt look that great. like id rather watch the movies they came from.#because if im going to get disappointed that they didnt give vegeta the final strike on freiza - it may as well look good.#still mad about that. vegeta deserved so much more and no one will never change my mind#vegeta being denied from killing freiza was the same as denying venus landing the final blow Beryl. YOU KNOW IM RIGHT.
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i won’t apologize for being a hater. seeing comments on chappell roans posts about being too hypersexual and needing to dial it down (mmm dial what down. say it very explicitly to me. what is making you uncomfortable in your own very clear words) and directly contrasting it with renee rapp just made me not like that girl even more i’m sorry! maybe she should try not being an annoying blonde bi girl who only seems to hang out with other blonde bi girls making mediocre pop. whoops
#is my opinion on her subject to change sure maybe and if you like her by all means don’t let me being mean take that away from you#but that was just. the quiet part out loud. renee is accessible and still not so visibly overtly queer but enough to be like#Tehe girls are sooo pretty#and um cater to that sort of crowd. chappell you have to love and celebrate and embrace queerness wholeheartedly#it’s making me sooooo mad like chappells music is so representative of the fun flirty ways EYE like to express myself#and has made me feel comfortable in that literal sexuality part of my sexuality. and ur gonna sit here and put her down in favor of…#i can’t like i can’t i’m sorry i want to watch that show and you know how much i want to support women and queer women specifically#so yeah again i’d keep my mouth shut in the general public but that fucking brand of sapphic queer Will Not Say The Word Lesbian vibe of#person. i can’t stand you.#you are a traitor to dykes everywhere and you need to do a lot of work. not saying that’s all her fans but WHATEVER i’m not qualifying my#stupid complaining right now it’s my blog#abby talks#this is giving smith college problem and i accept that#and general blanket apology for comparing two queer things when u know there r so many more serious issues in the world#however i’m here to complain about whatever the hell is annoying me. so.
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Makoto x Dabi lore time!!!
Their ship name is Makoya because i originally only shipped them in an au where Dabi never became a villain because Makoto found him after getting burned and saved him with his friendship and i've become so attached to it that i don't wanna change it
Makoto still saves Dabi in the now canon one!!!Long story short they ran into eachother straight after the Bakugou kidnapping arc and it just kept happening because of their circumstances so they slowly became best frenemies to lovers
This includes Makoto befriending the rest of the Lov-Either platonic chaos bros with Jin or Makojinya depending on my mood,Toga's big sister friend and Team Mom,Shigaraki's platonic Player 2 and Atsuhiro's pseudo niece/nephew!!
Dabi reveals to him what E slur did and his plan and wants him to join in because they're in love now(but haven't confessed)due to how Makoto's treated him better than anyone else in his life and how much understanding,fun,tears and strength they find in eachother and Makoto says he'll consider it,not wanting to set a bad example for Momo or abandon her being the only thing holding him back
Cut to Hawks trying to kill Jin and Makoto saving him as his final decision to become Burn.Him and Dabi are basically like Ghostflower in Atsv after that-Best friends but something else too,dating but don't dare to make it official because they're not strong enough to loose eachother,so devoted the lines blur.Makoto calls Dabi latino boyfriend terms and acts like a traditional japanese wife(the non-misogynistic points ofc)and Dabi amps up the princess treatment towards Makoto even more than before,calls him his 'Kokoro'(My Heart)and is violently protective partially because Hawks came close to killing Makoto like he did Jin
Momo helps out the Lov because of Makoto but there's definitely hurt and anger going on on her side from his betrayal and it's complicated with them for a bit but apologies are made,reassurances are given and reconnection is established.Momo's vigilante name is 'Destruct'!!
Eldest brother 2 Eldest daughter communication
Blue 4 Blue,doggirl 4 catboy and pastel femme tomboy 4 goth butch tomgirl.Their Lego Monkie Kid ship name would be Trueblueloveshipping💙💙💙
Dabi gets into kidcore,video games and baking thanks to Makoto and Makoto gets into horror,Shakespeare and bizzare food combos thanks to Dabi
Oh also black4brown!!!Rei is half bangaleshi <3333
Makoya-coded couples:Ghostflower(ofc),Ichihime,all Bubbline variants,Jack x Sally,Warren x Layla and Zuko/Ty Lee
THE DEVELOPMENT OF THIS IS SOOO FUCKING COOL AND THOUGHT-OUT I CAN SEE THEM IN MY HEAD I NEED TO READ THIS !!!! Also Makoto polycule is the realest shit ever <33 been thinking of giving Rose a villain au so .... Makoto and Shion and Rose + the league r found family realness 2 me .... Makojinya I literally love you SO much you should all get to shoot hawks in the face . Together . I tend to hc Dabi as being a system as well so did4bpd4did ..... my beloveds ever :33 !!!
#drawing dabimakes me so mad IM SO SORRY ILL GET HIM EVENTUALLY BUT . ive been thinking about this 4 sk long I LOVE THEM AOAUGGHH#thinking about momo losing midnight and that fear and grief fueling her hurt towards makoto :[#also MOMO VIGILANTE ARC LETS FUCKING GOOOO!!!!!!#summer this whole ask is so dear 2 me you have no idea . and the twicebeam one . my beloveds ever <333#makoya#makoto yaoyorozu#blueloveshipping#<- mewhen . me when the blue coded characters . starts crying tearing up#malik's asks#bnha#if yousee me adding onto the tags no you Didnt . the ask isrlly long because tumblr mobile sucks so I cant reread jt while typing . :[#the nicknames r EVERYTHING 2 ME AOUGH#also eldest siblings is so real ..... rip to the league you are ALL getting found familied . right now .
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special agents finley stevens and jane shepard, the truth is out there. ( for @huntedvideo )
#huntedvideo#⟡°⋄ ◜ aesthetic . ◞#⟡°⋄ ◜ v: x files / ' the truth is out there ' . ◞#⟡°⋄ ◜ r: huntedvideo / ' trust no one... except you ' . ◞#still mad tumblr wouldn't let me upload the right audio#you guys don't understand i'm just an x files blog now gfdsksl#i love this au so much as well as ash#i'm having the time of my life
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#sometimes i feel like my brain is disintegrating in my head. coming apart like a lump of paper in a pool of water#it comes with this weird feeling of vertigo. like i turn my head and my thoughts are spinning too fast. they keep going despite my standing#still. its also a but when you start drinking something and when u stop your thoughts r hazy and ur breathing is heavy#maybe thats not a universal experience. sometimes when i stop i realize ive slipped half out of my body#and now im stumbling from day to day trying desperately to remember all the things im supposed to be managing#but there are these big holes in my brain. like im missing chunks of grey matter. the bits that would let me stop and start things#i dunno. when im taking measurements i have this image of myself on my knees holding the fragrance pieces of my life together as they#crumble thru my fingers and my insides shrivle away from the walls that contain them. i go hollow like a gord#and ppl say oh ur so passionate abt what u do. and i go brittle bc it doesnt feel like passion it feels like the symptom of an illness#i dont care. im just trying to burn the hours away. make time vanish. and for what? what am i building toward? i have an answer that i give#interviewers but i dunno i never thought id make it this far. but here we r. unhappy and lacking in purpose. its just that this last year#was so weird bc about a year ago i burned out so hard that i never recovered and it just got worse and worse. i feel now that ive stopped#the bleeding at least but the bitterness is still there. still infecting my words and curving my spine around the injury#and in theory i understand the path to healing but its hard when im just so. i dont even kno. angry? im not mad but the word feels right#but i dunno what id be angry about. maybe im just sick of empty tasks and not caring. i used to have passion and enthusiasm now i just feel#fragile and hurt. bracing for pain. and that makes me so sad. i wish i could go out into the woods and wander. just breathe#but no. instead ill start another day identical to 100 others and hope to keep my head above the surface bc im sick of swallowing sea water#anyway. itll b fine. hopefully this week i can commit to a program. hopefully. another program halfway across the country. this time#vertically. landing me still 2 time zones from home. but hopefully there i can breathe a little. maybe. hopefully. well see#unrelated
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Lol I HATE my sisters boyfriend
#guess who almost said the R word at a stupid video game#and then he defended AND got butt hurt over me ‘preaching’ about it#now I’m sitting here having to finish the game with him#i fucking hate him he ruins everything by being his stupid way#i wish the purge was real I wanna kill him the rest of his stupid family and runaway to take care of his niece#i just#fuck#he seems to have a talent for making me miserable#i told him the R slur isn’t like bitch or c-nt#does he care?#no because an emotionless monster who should be fuckin put down#fine don’t wanna fix yourself I’m therapy? let me drown you.#i wish he could read my mind to know how disgusting and worthless I think he is#if I d-xx myself can one of y’all stab him for me?#i seriously fucking just hate him he has zero compassion#he’s such a fucking idiot he thinks he’s so smart cus he’s emotionless#i wish I could hit him with a pot I swear I’m so seething mad right now#IM TIRED OF HEARING PEOPLE SAY THE RSLUR#i hope anyone who says it today gets a sharp pain in their chest that lasts hours#I’m so disgusted rn that word literally makes me physically I’ll#ill *#he’s now pulling a brat routine where he’s just playing in silence#YOU hurt other people and you’re punishing US for it???????#I’m gonna be off and on tonight I dunno
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#SO. DREAMS OF THE RAVEN WAS PRETTYYYY GOOD!’#i actually really enjoyed it!#mccoy gets fucked up not even in a sci fi way#just in a plain trauma and getting bonked on the head way#and he cant remember the last 25 years of his life#i honestly thought it was really interesting!#amnesia always plays out as a bit of a fanfic type ordeal but honestly if u just go with it its a really fun read#its funny to imagine 25 yr old mccoy. seems like that man was born divorced with one child 45 yes old cmo. he wasnt tho! and in this hes#actually real mad about being in starfleet! its interesting#and him and spock getting along is fun to read to because its such a shift from their usual dynamic. & u can tell spock is not having fun#about it lol#and poor kirk hates it all he keeps going to mccoy but he really has nothing to say! what do you do when your long time friend suddenly#forgets your whole friendship!#it was just a reallly solid story and i enjoyed the other characters too esp chekov and scotty#and as always i love the dynamic between chekov and spock and that was in here a lil too so that was fun#OVER ALL. GO READ IT. RIGHT NOW#captain’s log#tos#trek books#ok i these last tags r spoilers so do not read them#IM WARNING U#the fact that a medical issue ONLY mccoy could fix was the reason he got his memories back was so nice. like yeah. stress over being cmo and#losing a lot of people and being in surgery for two days straight was the main reason why upon being bonked he forgot it all#but to have the same thing bring him back because its what he loves and believes in? obsessed
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ok the song Outta Sight on Luxury Disease is overall like. a catchy song, but not my favorite. BUT there’s a part at the start of the 2nd verse that just has a very strong 4 drum beats and i Have to listen to the song every time bc i HAVE to hit whatever is in front of my hands 4 times in tandem with the song. as is my right
#speculation nation#god there r so many songs on this album that deserve more attention than they have#renegades being 41k listens makes sense considering it's been out for over a year#broken heart of gold is a good song but 18k?? 2nd most on the album when theres catchy songs like neon getting only#oh fuck i uh i meant#MILLION. 41 million. and 18 million.#bc Neon only has 300k listens and that is so not fair. it's so catchy#let me let you go has 2.5m listens and i think it should have more. love that song#wonder is my other fav and has 5m. i think it should have more.#so far gone. prove. mad world. and outta sight. are all so underrated. they only have like 200k each :(#anywasys now im listening to Wonder and im going insane. it makes me wanna YELLLLLLLL#i will certainly sing along. As Is My Right#no i have not painted my nails yet
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I need him* SO BAD
*Link Click season 2
#bro you ah r no idea I’m losing my mind#someone posted the op on Twitter from the pre-screenings and I’m so fucking mad I can’t see the season nowwww#I need my boy cheng xiaoshi back right now T-T
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